#definitely pain

[tagerrkix]

rage.

#welcome to today's episode of “me trying to draw 76 different emotions at once” #rage+grief???sorrow??? anguish????? #hmmmmmmm #definitely pain #and a hint of fear #no but like he's angry but there's sadness underneath you get what i'm saying #the kind of rage caused by something that left you traumatized and you just can't stop thinking about how unfair it was #like “i didn't deserve this nobody deserves this” kind of rage #well anyway #i don't even care about anatomy at this point #just let me see how much i can distort the face and still have it somewhat resemble the character #didn't mean to draw him crying again but my hand slipped oops #astarion #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 astarion #baldurs gate 3 #astarion fanart

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[bulldagger-bait]

I've always been curious to know this about the people around me. Most people have been in severe pain, but in my experience few have had what they would say is their 10/10 experience. I guess it's just something I find fascinating, as I had my 10/10 experience quite young and I sometimes forget that not everyone has. In my opinion it changes your relationship with pain and how you engage with it afterwards. If you answered yes, feel free to elaborate on your circumstances in the tags!

(reblog for a bigger sample size etc)

#I was 13 and mine was after spinal fusion surgery for scoliosis. T6-L4 fusion and when i woke up in spinal shock it was agonising pain #they had to give me ketamine before the pain died down and even then it was only 9/10 #i was on a fentanyl drip for a few days afterwards and ever 5mins and 50sec id be dosing myself #my dad would take over my button while i was sleeping and set a timer on his watch to push it at those intervals #it was the only way i could rest as without it id wake up in blinding pain #definitely the hardest experience of my life. sometimes i forget that i went through that and came out the other side. #polls #chronic pain #disability #spoonie #cripple punk #cripplepunk #the tags ive chosen kinda skew the balance in favour of the yes but idk what else to tag it with. #it would be interesting to see if other disabled people have also had a 10/10 and how common that is

[aspiringwarriorlibrarian]

I love how Izzy's arc last season was "What is this romcom bullshit I want to get back to gritty pirate stories" and his arc this season seems to be "I changed my mind, the gritty pirate story sucks."

#izzy hands #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #like he hasn't completely decided he wants to be a minor romcom villain again yet #but he's definitely realized the banality of evil and the terrible boredom of pain part

[idolomantises]

I am once again telling you guys to watch Moon Girl

#txt #this show is so GOOD AND ITS PAINFULLY UNDERRATED!! PAIN #definitely my top 3 disney shows rn if not my favorite its so damn good

[abzania]

Aziraphale looks at Crowley like he hung the stars.

Because he did.

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #crowley #good omens season 2 #aziraphale #good omens season 2 spoilers #anthony j crowley #ineffable husbands #this is totally not a line stolen from one of my favorite novels #yup definitely not #also love love love them #as always #glad to know my post is bringing people pain #i feel like i made it #<- this is a joke btw #hey! it hit 1k #thanks guys

[crowleave]

ok so the thing is, the kiss really was the best way crowley knew to convey his feelings to aziraphale because nina and maggie were right, they do talk but they never say what they mean.

but that doesn’t mean they don’t understand each other, at least to a certain extent.

and crowley knows aziraphale

he knows that he loves books and plays and the stories made by humanity. he watches his angel learn magic the human way and finds out he learned french the human way and knows better than anyone how much he loves human food. he throws a ball to get nina and maggie together because that’s what the humans in jane austen novels would do.

crowley knows that aziraphale romanticizes humanity, loves the drama and the stories and every little thing that makes humans human.

and what could be more human than a desperate kiss asking someone to stay

#good omens #and don’t get me started on crowley #crowley loves humanity too but it’s more than that #crowley loves the universe #crowley loves humans but he also loves the earth and the animals and the nebulas #he’s the first one to point out the goats were blameless too in the job situation #he loves every part of the creation that he helped build #and that’s why he questions it every time god wants to destroy all of their beautiful creations #because why make this beautiful world just to destroy it #in conclusion: aziraphale loves the world and crowley loves the universe and they both love each and i’m always in pain #i definitely went off on a tangent there but i just love them so much

[solomiracle]

mc dies and everyone's sad and stuff meanwhile solomon is looking absolutely giddy. everyone's like "solomon wtf is wrong with you" but he's just like "nah it'll be fineee just give me like 3 hours" and giggles as he wipes away the dust on his necromancy books

#solomon is so......... yummy to me #on one hand he doesn't want to doom mc to immortality bc he knows the pain that comes with it #and on the other hand #he's connecting with someone on such a deep level for the first time in definitely centuries #and he's obsessed so i doubt he'll just let them die #maybe at least just extend their lifespan #for sillies #from me #obey me #imagines #obey me imagines #obey me solomon #sol #solomon x mc #x mc #obey me solomon x mc

[crabussy]

I had chronic pain for years without knowing it was chronic pain, and you might be in the same situation!

chronic pain doesn’t have to be constant/every day. I experience my chronic pain around once a week. some people experience theirs once a month. if it’s stuck around for ages, chances are it’s chronic pain. I literally only found out because my physiotherapist casually said that I had chronic pain in a session

#was thinking about this and I know there’s definitely some of you who have it but don’t think it ‘ #*don’t think it ‘counts’ #chronic pain #disability

[lazylittledragon]

fucking. gatekeeper fans who shame people for liking the most popular/well known songs. what the fuck are they even bragging about. never being able to hear your favourite song at a concert??? insanity

#ramble #why are you trying to inflict the pain of never hearing your favourite song played live onto others #the crushing feeling of getting to the end of the set and they haven't played it and definitely won't finish with it #i like that fob is playing stuff they don't usually play on their tour right now though!!!!!

[beatcroc]

the real joke here is that i'm pretty sure fake pep is like totally average person height, it's just that the rest of this cast are fuckin pipsqueaks

hey! it's a series! fake peppino world tour: [noise] [noisette]<-u are here [peppino] [gustavo] [gerome] [noisette again]

#regardless of what i said abt the noise these two are DEFINITELY besties #pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #fake peppino #noisette #gustavo is 1 foot tall to me. peppino is not more than 4'. they are funny little cartoons and fake pep is just. a guy. #brick is at LEAST six feet tall though idk whats up with him. huge rat #only cute fake peps in this one...u will get The Beast next one though. next one is with peppinooooo... #framing of it is proving to be a bit of a pain though so im prolly gonna do a silly aside thing first #arting #there is not really a joke with the tip jar btw i just needed fp to be....doing something. boring if he just sits there. #Popular post #i dont have anything else to say here except to bitch about how utterly fucked the framing and perspetive of this one is oops #pizzaposting

[hoothootmotherf-ckers]

also, fuck the concept of pain scales and incapacitating pain and any of that shit that’s fucking relative, because I keep feeling like I’m faking whenever people are like “oh wow my cousin gets like knocked out from migraines, I’m amazed you’re at work!” 

and it’s like. 

man I wish I could be home, I wish I could treat this pain as unbearable, I wish I could curl up in a ball forever and not deal with the world

but the idea of what is or is not incapacitating becomes really fucking blurry when I have a job and rent and need to eat and do the basic necessities to live my life

and I’ve had a migraine nonstop for six days.

I cannot fucking afford for any level of pain to be incapacitating.

#Migraines #migraine #chronic pain #chronic illness #I am real fucking mad tonight folks #it is not a good time #ok to rb cuz I am definitely not the only one feeling this

[snek-eyes]

See you in hell.

[ID: A series of gifs from the Good Omens 2.2 minisode "A Companion to Owls."

Sitis looks disbelieving as she says, "…No. God wouldn't!" Crowley gives an exaggerated frown and replies, "Are you sure?"

Sitis looks horrified and says, "But they've done nothing! They're innocent!" Crowley nods impassively: "So were the goats." Sitis stares at him in horror.

In the cellar, Aziraphale looks back over his shoulder, seeming offended. "God's [side], of course!" Crowley reclines, raising his eyebrows and nodding. "Oh, really. Same God that wants me to whack the kids?"

Aziraphale looks very uncertain, and slowly says, "…Yes. But…" Crowley grins slowly, gesturing to Aziraphale and saying, "That's just how it started for me."

Back in the house, Sitis looks devastated and desperate. "If my children are dead, then… I will curse God, and—"

Crowley swings abruptly around the doorframe and rushes over to interrupt Sitis. "WHOA! That never ends well."

At the cliff's edge overlooking the sea, Aziraphale looks on the verge of tears but determined. "Well. I'm ready to go." Crowley asks: "Go where?" Aziraphale swallows. "To hell."

Crowley sits down on the rock and says, "I'm not taking you to hell, Angel." Aziraphale looks over at him, his tearful expression turning confused. "Why not?" Crowley replies mildly, "Well, I don't think you'd like it."

End ID.]

#good omens 2 #good omens #good omens spoilers #a companion to owls #goodomensedit #crowley #aziraphale #sitis #v watches good omens #v posts things #job flashback #me sitting down next to myself on a rock overlooking the sea: still haven't moved past the job story huh #me: nope #i can't stop thinking about the line Edinburgh when Crowley says to Aziraphale #'It's a bit different when it's someone you know isn't it' #it's different when you have to see the effects of your actions on actual people and acknowledge their pain #as opposed to say. the entity on high responsible for the flood and the bet about Job. who then stopped talking to anyone. #Crowley's not really on hell's side but he is most definitely absolutely not on God's side. #reposting this in hopes it actually shows up in the tags this time :'| #id below the cut #And I wrote a lot more in a reblog so if you're already reading down here maybe check that out #flashing gif

[cannibalhellhound]

I'M DONE >:D

It speaks volumes how obsessed I am with this goddamn movie that I'm actively doing planes and backgrounds

It was fun but never again please

If y'all excuse me I'll stick to drawing the Air Gays™ from now on ✌🏼

#look #I have Tourettes #I'm the definition of shaking #if you don't like my picture taking skills that's on you ✌🏼 #also I'm done painting backgrounds #it's a pain in the ass #planes #traditional art #watercolourpainting #watercolor #sunset art #tg #tgm #top gun #top gun maverick #top gun fanart #top gun 1986 #f 14 tomcat #HelloI'mHayden #mav would totally be the inverted planes btw #pete maverick mitchell #maverick mitchell

[aggressivedaikons]

PART ONE OF MY WILLIAM MILLER AU!!! THIS TOOK SO LONG BUT IM SO PROUD!!! Most of this is the setup of how this happened, so if I find the motivation to actually continue this (more likely than not) then you’ll get some (half written) plot!!!

Part #2

If you liked this, PLEASE consider reblogging. I worked really hard on this and it would mean a lot to me if you helped this reach more people >.<

#Yes he keeps a kitchen knife in his back pocket at all times #Yes it may definitely the laws of space time #dsaf #fanart #dave dsaf #dayshift at freddys #dsaf dave #dsaf fanart #davesport #Dsaf 2 #the real fredbear #freadbear dsaf #jack dsaf #jack kennedy dsaf #jack kennedy #When I update this I’m probably gonna do lineart because lineless is such a pain. #Also Dave wears weaves #Hc he’s bald because of what Henry did to him and he started loosing hair after he died and repossessed his corpse #So he figured out how to put on wigs and how to use ritdye #Jack has like 3 pots that are purple/indigo and he had no idea why for the longest time. #And I gave him racoon tails I just didn’t draw them because I’m lazy #This whole thing is very WIP and I am winging it as I go #I know this is the 80s but screw time period accuracy I’m making him EMO. #William Miller AU #I forgot to tag it with the one thing it’s about???

[followthebluebell]

Do you have any undeniable proof about how in pain Scottish Fold cats are? Someone I know believes that "only bad breeders" produce cats that have pain and I just don't think that sounds right, but I don't know where to look for info.

'Undeniable proof' is a hard claim because anything can be denied if a person is shameless, stubborn, and ridiculous enough. I've had clients deny that their cats are in severe pain even when the animal is visibly limping in front of us.

With that out of the way, start by talking about osteochondrodysplasia. That's a fancy way of saying 'fucked up cartilage disease', which is the thing that gives Scottish folds the cute little folded ears. Unfortunately, it doesn't just affect the cartilage in their ears. There's no gene that says 'please just a LITTLE fucked up cartilage, thanks <3'.

It affects ALL of their cartilage, joints, and bone development. It usually presents in very early onset arthritis: hump-backed, stiff legs (especially hind legs), and kinda 'crankly' feeling bones. They often have very stiff and shortened tails as well. Since they're in pain, they don't jump, move, or play as often. They also may just be kinda cranky because, again. Pain.

This is an autosomal dominant condition, meaning a cat has to inherit just one defective gene to display the traits. It's more severe in cats that are homozygous (inherited BOTH defective genes), but even a heterozygous cat is pretty severely affected.

A 'good' Scottish fold breeder ought to be breeding just straight-eared cats (inheriting 0 genes for this condition), but in practice 'good' SF breeders just breed straight-eared cat to a folded cat in the hopes of producing heterozygous kittens.

I still remember Fédération Internationale Féline (FIFe) and the World Cat Federation (WCF) offering free xrays to around 300 scottish fold breeders, trying to find just ONE fold with healthy hind legs.

Not a single breeder took up the offer. As a result, both organizations refuse to recognize the breed entirely.

The fact that even 'ethical' breeders who supposedly only breed unaffected cats won't stand behind their work and PROVE it speaks volumes.

#it really is a pity because they're very cute cats #but uh yeah #they are definitely in pain #and we can absolutely prove it because well look at them #look at their bones #look at their xrays