#damaged woman

[revys-closet66]

The damaged nihilist

#Two-hands #Black Lagoon #Season 1 #Nhilist #Damaged Woman #Revy Lee #Rebecca Lee #Chinese-American #Maryke Hendrikse #Megumi Toyoguchi #Cigarette #Heavy smoker and drinker

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck #good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen #im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3 #writeblr #the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this'' #and like also #''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist #i was <3 punctured <3 during mine #and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion'' #so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3 #she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh #ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance #i'd crash on the table #like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it #and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop! #and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just #woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes #she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room #from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing #and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying #and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap #with this terrible memory #i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like #that was too many liters #and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home #i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after #that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty #you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it #while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED #and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.

[yesokayiknow]

i think it'd be fun if while the master was on gallifrey and messing around in the matrix he found about abt the confession dial. not the sanitised story that twelve might've told missy during the vault but the actual real 4.5 billion years of the time lords using twelve's own will and testament as a torture chamber story. and he loses it. and he burns gallifrey. except he can't ADMIT that's why he did that he'd look SENTIMENTAL he'd look like an IDIOT so instead he makes up a story about how he found something in the matrix something so horrifying and awful and unbelievable that he HAD to destroy the time lords. and then thirteen ends up on gallifrey and digs a little deeper than he had and manages to reconstruct some of the missing files and when she runs back into him she's like i finally found out why you burned gallifrey and i can't believe they did this to me i can't believe they wiped my whole life and experimented on me and built the time lords from my stolen dna and the master's like yeah while mentally he's like hm i'm sorry they fucking what

#doctor who #the master #dhawan!master #the doctor #thirteen #and then he can never fucking admit that he didn't know that!!!! #he has to spend the rest of the eternity of their relationship like yeah it was fucked what they did to you queen #also i think it'd help you if you talked thru the exact memories you saw while using as many descriptive words as possible #also a part of him destroys gallifrey for clara. less bc he actually cares that she's dead and more bc like #the time lords REALLY think they can enact a scheme that ends up having clara as collateral damage??? #after all that work missy did finding her????????? if that woman was gonna die it'd be by THEIR hand tyvm #if he'd spent a bit longer in the matrix after finding abt the confession dial he'd have discovered that 12 made her temporarily immortal #but alas he did not. gets a big shock in a a couple decades when he runs into her dsajlkdaklj #to be the master is to be god's favourite jester (derogatory)

[savorycannoli]

Can I talk about sugar for a second? Like all of the berzatto children are tragic and doomed by the narrative in their own right, but nat’s story means so such to me idk if I can even fully talk about it all. We see her relationship with her mom is strained at best, it seems like she’s the least favorite child, maybe BECAUSE of her existence as a woman.

And then we find out that her lifelong nickname is based off of a childhood mistake, her being overeager to help her family literally turned into a lifelong reminder of her fuck up. Is there anything more tragic?? A child wanting love but getting scorn?? And then it makes the flashback scene where she tries to add raisins in season 1 all the more upsetting because why did she add them?

“That’s how mom makes it.” she’s the only one that still follows their mom’s recipe. The reason? Could be anything. But I have no doubt in my mind if she DIDN’T add the raisins if Donna had been around she would’ve been ridiculed even more.

I have such a soft spot in my heart for girls and their complex relationships with their moms and motherhood, and it makes her scene with cicero in the car that much more impactful. When cicero says he would let his kids make more mistakes and not been as careful, i almost started crying. Nat has a nickname from her mistakes and it seems like in her mom’s eyes she’s nothing but mistakes. And then her uncle tells her that she’ll be a good mother and that it’s okay for kids to make mistakes, great, even.

I’m so happy nat is in a place where she’s happy and supported. She has a husband who deeply understands her family and doesn’t judge her for it, even making an effort to try and include Donna. I was kind of meh about pete before season 2, but it solidified for me that he’s so so good for nat and a great character. He is so excited to be a dad, he’s patient and kind with her and her family, and he doesn’t call her sugar.

She’s nat. And she’s allowed to make mistakes.

#I have so many fucking feelings about them #maybe it’s me coming off of the high of succession’s equally emotionally damaged sibling trio #but I have nothing but love for natalie berzatto #she means so much to me #she’s joining the ranks of women on tv that are hated by their mothers just for being born a woman #my baby girl #I love her so much #the bear season 2 #the bear #natalie berzatto #pete the bear #carmy berzatto

[yashley]

laura & ashley & imogen & fearne in c3e80 or:

#critical role #ygifs #cr3 #laura #ashley #imogen x fearne #imogearne #lauras like i'm here so imogen is flirting with fearne and i'm tearing out my hair like i want 2 study u but i keep tearing up the papers #the third gif being literally a pretty woman parallel maybe you can't take that from me #imogen flying over to touch her then going what the FUCK thats HOT like it's about how they’re just so dumb stupid with eachother #heres how fearne choosing to contact burn imogen for the highest damage means long con girlies /🤡

[bluerosefox]

A Sibling Sacrifice

The JL were having a normal, for them at least, meeting when suddenly a portal rips opens and spits out a young teen with snow white hair and glowing green eyes and he's carrying a bundle as he's stumbles out and lands on his knees in the meeting room.

The two main odd things about this kid was floating above the kid's head was a crown made of stars, ice, and the colors shifting like a aurora borealis and the bundle in his arms was strangely made of stars somehow, almost like a blanket of galaxies plucked out of the cosmos.

Before anyone of them could say or do anything, the kid turns around and screams towards the portal as he scrambles for it.

"JAZZ NO DON'T DO THIS! I CAN STILL FIGHT THEM! NONONONO!" but before he could reach the portal it snaps close.

The kid lands again onto the floor when he doesn't reach it in time, pleading for the damn thing to open again, and the bundle in his arms begins to cry from the jolting and noise.

The baby crying was the only thing that stopped the kid from pleading and instead focused his attention on the bundle in his arms.

"I'm sorry, I'm so damn sorry Ellie. I should had gotten us out of there sooner, I should had saved you bef- I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything..."

Those were the rushed, raw words the kid said down to the bundle. The kid curled inwards a bit, to both shield the baby, who was calming down somewhat into tiny cry hiccups, and for himself.

Those with advanced hearing could tell the kid was still whispering apologizes under his breath as he held the baby close.

"I'm sorry everyone, I'm so sorry. I tried, I tried so hard to save everyone but in the end... I'm sorry- everyone's gone... I'm sorry."

-x-x-

[Pssst, read the tags, they clear everything up]

#danny phantom #danny fenton #dp x dc #crossover #blue rambles #writing ideas #random idea #danny phantom dc #dpxdc #The GIW did something baddddd #basically it ended the DP world #and badly damaged the Infinite Realms in the process #Danny's family and friends and those in Amity Park all tried to stop the GIW #But in the end none were spared #Sam was accidentally killed when she spotted some GIW trying to unlawfully arrest and take a old woman and her ghost husband late one night #Tucker took out the GIW main base during a raid. He made sure to destroy their servers even as some agents were busting down his safe house #He also made sure none of them or himself left that house that night too. #The Fenton parents died during a raid to free their kids and Vlad. Jack died shielding them and Maddie stayed back to give them time #Vlad only held on enough to make sure Danielle and Danny could escape the GIW base alive. Before going out in a bang. #They escaped into the Infinite Realms but the damage done to Dani was too much and she started to destabilize #it was only thanks to both Frostbite and CW that they managed to figure a way to stabilize her. They had to deage her. #and feed her pure ectoplasim as a baby. #The upcoming months get worse with Danny still healing from the torture they put in him and Dani now a baby #Jazz decides they need to attack their main base and destroy their blueprints of ghost portals on their servers. #They needed to cut the GIW access to the Realms. Sadly only Jazz and a small handful of Amity Parkers and ghosts come back. #They thought it was finally over but they get word one of Vlad's portal is still open and the GIW are planning a all scale attack #By destroying the Realms in a single swoop #CW can't let that happen and calls in Jazz and Frostbite for a meeting and kept Danny in the dark. He can only see one good future #Because Danny is Ghost Prince he is connected to the Realms. if he lives and survives so does the Realms no matter how badly it gets hurt #Jazz makes the hard call of getting both Danny and baby Ellie out of the Realms into a new world. No matter what happens to her in the end.

[c-rowlesblogs]

the last time I made a post about a character type I really like it went well, so here's another one: I love a character who is a piece of shit loser.

Let me explain: a very specific kind of piece of shit loser. This is a character who is almost never (at least not at first) a major protagonist or a major villain. They might be a mercenary or thief or black-hat hacker or in some other sort of antisocial "bad guy" line of work. They are some sort of henchman, or at least have strong henchman energy: dangerous and/or talented in specific skills perhaps, but also, importantly, undeniably a loser. Their personality sucks. They're uncharismatic and unpleasant. The heroes interact with them only when they must-- and this character deliberately cranks up the cynicism around especially sunny or optimistic heroes. They know the world is a cold, hard place, and the only thing they trust is cold, hard cash (if they're even getting paid for this shit). Things like "hope" and "friendship" are for suckers.

Until... somehow, some incident or confrontation or compounding sequence of events puts a crack in their armor. It's a crack where the light can get in-- and also, alarmingly (to others and to them), shine out. It turns out this piece of shit loser had a little spark of goodness buried deep inside all along, and no matter how much they dig in their heels and insist they don't care, their conscience is steadily pulling them over to the "good" side, and it's winning. And the heroes know it, too: this character might still be a piece of shit loser, but now they're their piece of shit loser, and there's no going back.

#writing #characters #blorbo #catie talks #this character is also almost never a woman but when she is u bet she is my favorite even more #the last time i made a post like this the blorbos people tagged it with were really diverse and good #i hope that happens again this time i want to see who people's favorite shitty little guys are #psychic damage tags - this post is generalized but I did have some specific characters in mind while writing too #and one of them is absolutely Iago from Disney's Aladdin and its sequels

[wormboyfriendcentralstation]

heathcliff: i killed cathy...... im a horrible person in every timeline. my revenge killed her. my remorse literally broke through timelines.

catherine who got back at heathcliff by stealing a house to remodel into the Magic Cocaine Labyrinth after draining the financial assets of england's least tragically ill victorian man, making carmen contact her copyright lawyers by sealing her ambiguously dead body into a glass tank while her brain powers a building, and potentially hiring the Mueseumafia of Modern Art because if she pays them with cash she doesnt have to report her Green-Energy-Human-Tank Powered Hydrogen Bomb Basement Factory's earnings to the IRS or whatever the city uses: 'tis what you get for trying to boyfail without your girlboss, methinks 😇😇😇😇😇

#limbus company #limbus company spoilers #posted to the wrong blog lololol #anyways she's a science fiction villain who everyone treats like jesus. #''catherine is MISERABLE ALWAYS'' she was certainly going through it! #she was also literally coping through making terrors and horrors in her basement lab like dexter #and is this a result of heathcliff's self worth being like. bulldozed from every direction as he grew up? #yes. #they're both very fascinating characters but someone get that man away from that woman's blast radius #him: i'll get a good job. i'll internalize all of my abuse. i'll be Good Enough For Her #her: gonna grow some psychic damage nukes in my lab like rutabagas to harvest for the growing season. then i'll turn into a house!

[samijey]

#🐍💜

#dakota kai #wwe #wweedit #smackdown #wwe smackdown #damage ctrl #stuff i made #what a woman

[revys-closet66]

An imbalanced and broken human being

#Two-hands #Vs. Roberta #Gifs #Gifsets #Revy Lee #Chinese-American #chinese-american #Black Lagoon #Seinen #Violent #Deadly #Damaged woman #Mentally ill character

[caruccio]

#monica bellucci #italian actress #woman crush #quotes #love #heart break #pain #movie scenes #film screencaps #film scene #damage #caruccio

[newvision]

half the credit goes to my bestest of all friends, @maysthoughts <3 she made me ponder ordinary love

U2, Ordinary Love // Raphael Bob-Waksberg, Someone Who Will Love You In All Your Damaged Glory // La Dispute, Woman (In Mirror) // Everything Everywhere All At Once // @bicarusgf

#mine #on ordinary love #ordinary love #web weaving #webweaving #intertextuality #someone who will love you in all your damaged glory #raphael bob waksberg #u2 #everything everywhere all at once #la dispute #woman (in mirror)

[blackpump]

More lovely ladies filling their lungs with warm thick cigarette smoke & feeling their beautiful little pumps thump away deep inside their chests.

#dark cardiophilia #female heartbeat #black lungs #cigarette smoking #deep inhale #heart damage #sexy smoking #woman smoking #fast female heartbeat

[little-pondhead]

On the supervillain Danny au, can about Jazz and Dan? I would love to see the JL think they finally have the trio pinned down before a strange amazon and a god-damned demon storm in and start throwing people through walls.

Well, I just made this post about Jazz to answer another question, but I didn't think about Dan! However, I was going through my sketches, and I think this old one would be perfect for him. Dan's still a demon; he's just a little man now :) The JL Dark is terrified of him.

#pondhead replies #doodles from a pond #supervillain danny au #the trio were caught but Fenton managed to call for backup #the heroes brace as a portal opens up #out comes a giant of a woman with a baseball bat and dressed like a punk #and on her shoulder is this #a little baby man Dan #despite his small size he is the worst of them all #superman has to ask them not to bring dan around too often #insurance companies can't keep up with the property damage fees #danny phantom #dark dan #dp x dc #dc x dp #justice league #dpxdc

[chaosnightmare]

i feel bad for the people i see who don't know much about sonic and assume shadow is like some hypermasculine manly hardass dude character. not the case

#chaoscontrol #sonic #sth #people are reblogging a version of this where 'proof' of his femininity is given through taylor swift so the post is over and youre done #behave or die #please do not add on to my posts about a character i love and care about attempting to joke about his presentation #by bringing up attempted corporate-interested celebrity attention campaigns via twitter #with a woman who creates more harmful environmentally damaging emissions from her private jet than entire countries #just because you think it somehow proves he's like your gayby softboy or whatever. you are making this actively unfun #and i do not want to be involved in it.

[azure-arsonist]

White Girl Fantasy : Fantasy/fantasy romance/ YA typically written by white women that often contains a veneer of feminism or progressiveness that falls apart upon closer inspection. This specific type of fantasy is often eaten up for its "spiciness" and use of popular tropes or buzzwords such as "enemies to lovers" "morally grey love interest" "touch her and you die" and "only one bed". Often these works contain the following:

Pro militarism

Weird/poor racism allegories

Bio essentialism

The author just being really vague and weird about racially ambiguous characters.

White Feminism TM

Strong Female Characters TM

Lack of nuanced or culturally aware diversity (we should be past just including a brown person here and there)

Maas comes to mind but like, feel free to add to this

#anti booktok #anti sjm #the damage that woman has done to fantasy romance...lord