#christine gets lost in ny

[fluffydragonmakes]

A Recording of a Lady

After catching the bug of collecting unusual oddities, you will gain the Eye, and inevitably come across a legitimate treasure. Not an earth shattering one necessarily but something that tells a more satisfyingly complete story than usual, and makes you relieved it wasn’t lost to time….and wonder why it isn’t at least in a local museum. 

During my probably unhealthy phase of buying ameteur recordings on eBay and then filing them away, I found this lot. It consisted of an aluminum record, and your typical amateur record faire of the time, a recording of some kid’s christmas pageant from 1951. Alone this would be interesting but I already have one of these and the aluminum record caught my eye.

Aluminum records, particularly the Speak-O-Phone brand typically date from the 20’s and 30’s and were one of the few options available for the general public to hear themselves on their phonograph. With bamboo needles only of course as the steel needles would destroy your record. 

But this was not a Speak-O-Phone, this was a Walter C. Garwick, Rye NY record. Looking up this name revealed quite a bit. Walter C. Garwick was a recording engineer who built his own record recorders and recorded primarily for experts in the ethnomusicology field throughout the 30’s. He provided recording service for the America Dialect Society and ethnomusicologist Laura Boulton and designed a record lathe for the Library of Congress. His recordings are mostly held by the Library of Congress and Columbia University and at least a few more in private hands according to one worthpoint post. Here’s a good dive into Mr. Garwick’s life.

Walter C Garwick in 1945 holding a baby.

source: Christine Whittaker

I knew this had to be one of those so naturally I got it. I didn’t originally notice it but when it arrived I saw that the record sleeve has a note scrawled on it, providing more clues.

“The Little Half-Chick told by (a name starting with Cl) P. Cope.”

Below there’s a trail of multiple arrows leading the way to the reminder “Play this record with fiber needles only.” Whoever recorded this probably had a frustrating history of people ruining his records with their steel needles and needed MULTIPLE arrows for emphasis. This has got to be the real thing.

The recording features a woman, Ms. Cope, narrating the Little Half-Chick, the Spanish folktale of a flat chicken and how it became the weathervane. 

The recording is noisy but her voice comes in very clearly in places. Towards the end a man, possibly a researcher or Mr. Garwick himself, asks “Who is telling this story?” which she responses with an unintelligible first name with her last name, Cope. The man then asks “Ms. Cope, what are you doing…” and then becomes unintelligible.

My next steps from here are to figure out whether the man‘s voice appears in other Garwick recordings and what Ms. Cope’s first name is. I can’t hear what she says and I can’t read the handwriting.

(I was part of the last 3rd grade that learned cursive before my school district splurged and gave us all iPads that everyone broke one week in.) 

I could also look into whether physical documentation exists that this recording was made. This is easily my greatest find. Not only is it likely from the 30’s but it can be tied down to a name, and if I’m lucky, a date. I want to ensure its story gets told. 

My time with it is probably temporary and as I poke further, I will likely end up donating it somewhere, perhaps joining its brethren at the Library of Congress, a family, or Columbia University. 

Here is my recording of both sides on the top of the post. I heeded the warning by using a fiber needle and recorded it with my 1914 Victrola and an iPhone in the horn. 

#acetate #records #vinyl #vintage audio #recording #lathecut #history lesson #history

[mischief-and-tea-by-the-sea]

For the fanfic passage game!

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Scott walked past the bathroom wall and stepped into view. He carried a small pink bakery box, which he set onto the nightstand on what appeared would be his side of the huge bed then toed off his shoes and socks.

“Cool. I might snag the vodka, or I might just drink water,” he responded, his gaze falling on the TV while he unbuttoned the shirt he’d worn to the restaurant. “You’re watching this depressing piece of shit?” Scott’s nose wrinkled in acknowledgement of the movie before turning his attention to Bucky’s prone form.

“What? I like the guy in the uniform. He’s hot,” Bucky protested and turned his head just as Scott’s shirt slid off his shoulders, leaving his mission partner bare chested and him staring until he made himself look away.

Shrugging a little and moving over to the closet to return his shirt to the garment bag that held the suit jacket already, Scott contemplated Bucky’s taste in movies.

“Yeah, but that poor bastard doesn’t even get the girl. That actor rarely does in movies. Always getting passed over for some other asshole,” he fussed at Bucky.

Bucky watched while Scott tugged out pj pants from his endless suitcase, and when it was apparent that his teammate wasn’t going to change in the bathroom, he tried really hard not to ogle all that naked flesh that came into view. Scott clearly didn’t worry about modesty, and Bucky wondered when a portion of his brain became prudish enough to feel he had to look away.

Of course, he did sneak peeks until, regrettably, that perfect ass was hidden away by the plain pair of sleep pants.

“Yeah, there is that, and you’re right. The dame in this has no taste. What was she thinking? Marrying the guy she fights with constantly when she coulda had the upstanding guy? I don’t get it either,” Bucky agreed with Scott, and his eyes followed the other man back over to the bed once his clothes had been packed up out of the way. Whereas Bucky had draped his over the back of a chair. The shirt was a lost cause anyway.

“I guess he was just too boring for the storyline or something,” Scott said with another shrug. He fell onto his side of the bed and propped up his pillows. He hadn’t taken out the contacts yet, though he’d set his sleep shades onto the nightstand with his visor in case they were needed.

Bucky’s head tilted slightly, drinking in Scott’s relaxed form, the way the X-Men leader was deceptively muscled unlike the way he and Steve had been bulked up by the serum. He tipped his gaze a little farther and caught the bakery box on the nightstand, reminding him of the reason Scott had gone out in the first place.

“This movie gets a lot of debate back at the tower from time to time,” Bucky went on and shifted until he moved closer to the center of the bed, therefore closer to Scott.

This scene is the post-mission scene, the wrap up of the story that leads into the love/sex scene, the start of what moves these two characters from mission partners to potential boyfriends. Scott comes in with gourmet cupcakes because it is Bucky's birthday, and they're not back home to celebrate the day in style. (No doubt once they're back home in NY, the Avengers will plan a full-fledged birthday party for Bucky, but until then, he's got Scott and cupcakes and all the sexual energy raised from their cover story and flirting.)

What goes through my mind while writing most of my fics is "Where can I stick in some silly little Easter Eggs? Where can I make fun little references to the actors known for playing these characters, where can I exploit other references that fans might/should recognize?" And in this scene, what better movie for Bucky to have on than The Notebook, which stars James Marsden (Scott Summers) and Rachel McAdams (Dr. Christine Palmer in Doctor Strange; Irene Adler in Sherlock Holmes with RDJ; Sacha Pfeiffer in Spotlight with Mark Ruffalo, John Slattery, Michael Keaton, and Liev Schreiber - all Marvel actors). The comments made regarding Marsden's character in The Notebook can apply to Scott Summers - losing out the girl to that other asshole (Logan), and that he guessed the guy was considered too boring, which is how so many people view Scott (too boring, too uptight, too vanilla, too whatever).

The discussion of The Notebook in the full fanfic goes further past the last bit quoted up there:

“You guys debate The Notebook?  Like...is that supposed to be team bonding?  It’s not like the movie’s deep or anything.” 

He couldn’t take his eyes off Scott, and Bucky decided he wanted to kiss that wrinkle of skin below Scott’s brow because it was too cute when he scrunched his nose. 

“There are just a lot of views on it.  Tony doesn’t like the actress...or he likes her a little too much?  I don’t know, but he says she can’t be trusted.  Strange says –“

Scott’s eyebrow arched as he was halfway to reaching for the box. 

“Stephen Strange watches movies with you guys?” he asked, discovering more interesting and weird things about the Avengers. 

“Sometimes.  Anyway, he likes the actress a lot.  Bruce is just meh about her.  Figures she’d be the type to be a good coworker when she’s not choosing the wrong dude in movies.”

And this brings in the other references for Rachel McAdams - Tony (RDJ as Sherlock Holmes) would care about her but view her as untrustworthy (Irene Adler couldn't be trusted to Sherlock and kept fucking him over), Strange liked her a lot (she played Christine), and Bruce thought she'd make a good coworker (they were good coworkers in Spotlight).

Most of what went into crafting this part of the dialogue was to hit all those references without actually spelling out - oh she looks like Irene Adler, she looks like Sacha Pfeiffer, she looks like Stephen's ex-girlfriend. It's a fun dance when I put these references into fics, make the descriptions detailed enough for people to pick up on the references without spelling most of them out. I'm not sure why tossing these references into my fics are so important to me, but they're a lot of fun, especially when people catch them and actually comment on them.

Fanfic Passage Game.

#Fanfic Passage Game #stormxpadme #Thank you for the ask!

[sugaredge]

frances' favourite songs from different bands

oasis - live forever

mazzy star - wasted

brian jonestown massacre - my man syd

smashing pumpkins - cherry

portishead - threads

cramps - human fly

nick cave and the bad seeds - henry lee (ft. pj harvey)

pogues - if i should fall from grace

flaming lips - she don't use jelly

nirvana - dumb (acoustic)

blur - country house

pulp - underwear

placebo - nancy boy

vines - get free

white stripes - blue orchid

jesus and mary chain - never understood

pavement - cut your hair

vaselines - son of a gun

knife - ny hotel

pixies - is she weird

travis - she's so strange

bright eyes - lover i don't have to love

gossip - coal to diamonds

queen - bijou

rolling stones - bitch

velvet underground - pale blue eyes

pj harvey - c'mon billie

neighbourhood - how

cranberries - how

veruca salt - volcano girls

muffs - oh nina

stone roses - waterfall

sounds - no no song

christian death - romeo's distress

elastica - connection

lost pigs - she said

peace - from under liquid glass

b*witched - c'est la vie

supergrass - diamond hoo ha man

trio - wildflowers

zero 7 - in the waiting line

vaccines - weirdo

knack - my sharona

abba - dancing queen

teskey brothers - carry you

foster the people - sit next to me

mgmt - time to pretend

kills - black balloon

butthole surfers - pepper

siouxsie and the banshees - christine

mercury rev - delta sun bottleneck stomp

television - friction

r.e.m. - orange crush

warlocks - shake the dope out

swervedriver - english subtitles

wire - i feel mysterious today

sleater-kinney - little mouth

young marble giants - credit in the straight world

raincoats - fairytale in the supermarket

flipper - ever

gang of four - ether

teenage fanclub - the concept

lemonheads - my drug buddy

violent femmes - color me once

cracker - low

la roux - i'm not your toy

bauhaus - bela lugosi's dead

charlatans - the only one i know

primal scream - zombie man

radiohead - high and dry

gogol bordello - start wearing purple

fleetwood mac - landslide

kooks - sofa song

boo radleys - wake up boo!

james - laid

manic street preachers - your love is not enough

telescopes - i fall she screams

spiritualized - cop shoot cop

spacemen 3 - lord can you hear me?

galaxie 500 - strange

slowdive - machine gun

dr dog - heart it races

fruit bats - humbug mountain song

edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros - home

shakespeare's sister - wish you were here

ash - burn baby burn

transvision vamp - i want your love

von bondies - c'mon c'mon

jet - cold hard bitch

beta band - dry the rain

drugstore - alive

sonic youth - 100%

glasvegas - go square go

smiths - william, it was really nothing

fountains of wayne - hackensack

lush - for love

kitchens of distinction - drive that fast

my chemical romance - cubicles

xray spex - oh bondage up yours

damned - machine gun etiquette

joy division - disorder

echo and the bunnymen - nocturnal me

chinese stars - shake the nurse

pink and brown - messy bessy get undressy

ravonettes - kill!

yeah yeah yeahs - zero

shins - caring is creepy

remy zero - fair

garbage - only happy when it rains

sleeper - inbetweener

verve - drugs don't work

lightning seeds - lucky you

sparklehorse - it's a wonderful life

bay city rollers - saturday night

beastie boys - paul revere

wannadies - you and me song

florence + the machine - dog days are over

gun club - she's like heroin to me

t.tex - 20th century boy

porno for pyros - pets

led zeppelin - whole lotta love

saboteurs - steady as she goes

patridge family - i think i love you

beach boys - help me, rhonda

chromatics - shadow

ok go - here it goes again

buffalo springfield - for what it's worth

simon & garfunkel - mrs robinson

doors - changeling

noisettes - don't give up

adverts - bored teenagers

eels - love of loveless

moldy peaches - nothing came out

magnetic fields - i don't believe you

stooges - gimme danger

teenage jesus and the jerks - orphans

wipers - romeo

public enemy - don't believe the hype

edie brickwell & new bohemians - what i am

jimmy eat world - pain

x - because i do

pretenders - brass in pocket

luscious jackson - naked eye

first aid kit - hard believer

runaways - i wanna be where the boys are

helium - baby's going underground

smoking popes - pure imagination

scarce - all sideways

scars on broadway - chemicals.

xx - angels

le butcherettes - henry don't got love.

descendants - silly girl

dead milkmen - punk rock girl

big star - daisy glaze

raconteurs - consoler of the lonely

witchcraft - please don't forget me

boomtown rats - she's so modern

distillers - dismantle me

now now - oh hi.

black sabbath - heaven and hell

spits - die die die

marked men - don't lose it

misfits - teenagers from mars

a tribe called quest - the jam

filter - hey man nice shot

harvey darger - flagpole sitter

catherine - four leaf clover

medicine - slut

bats - sir queen

cure - m

suede - she

weezer - pink triangle

moonpools & caterpillars - moonpool

archers of loaf - mutes in the steeple

melvins - shevil

mew - special

weepies - all that i want

dead kennedys - kill the poor

black flag - tv party

morphine - you look like rain

magnapop - lay it down

stranglers - peaches

queers - fuck the world

daisy chainsaw - i feel insane

beast make bomb - 1234

blouse - into black

rilo kiley - accidntel deth

gin blossoms - hey jealousy

velocity girl - i can't stop smiling

haim - forever

out crowd - drugsick

asteroid #4 - wicked wire

sex pistols - anarchy in the uk

cat's eyes - cat's eyes

esben and the witch - marching song

pastels - nothing to be done

broadcast - come on let's go

l7 - diet pill

sunny day real estate - friday

meat puppets - plateau

superdrag - do the vampire

tripping daisy - i got a girl

primitive radio gods - women

spacehog - cruel to be kind

godspeed you! black emperor - mladic

super furry animals - crazy naked girls

slits - i heard it through the grapevine

my bloody valentine - only shallow

dandy warhols - bohemian like you

black rebel motorcycle club - took out a loan

marcy playground - sex and candy

toadies - possum kingdom

presidents of the united states - peaches

sponge - slowed

verve pipe - freshman

dishwalla - counting blue cars

oblivians - i'll be gone

half japanese - charmed life

civil wars - poison and wine

felice brothers - whiskey in my whiskey

dresden dolls - girl anachronism

jawbreaker - boxcar

youth brigade - did you wanna die

agent orange - it's all a blur

cosmonauts - shaker

sugarcubes - regina

blonde redhead - 23

cocteau twins - lazy calm

magazine - shot by both sides

swirlies - pancake

lilys - dimes make dollars

chapterhouse - pearl

sleeping years - dressed for rain

feelies - let's go

drop nineteens - kick the tragedy

maccabees - toothpaste kisses

nada surf - popular

faces - ooh la la

hives - abra cadaver

tlc - waterfalls

sixpence none the richer - kiss me

aqua - barbie girl

nothing but thieves - wake up call

happy mondays - step on

darkthrone - transilvanian hunger

blossoms - cut me and i'll bleed

public access tv - metropolis

circles - gonna get to you

jacques - scum in a bottle

dead weather - treat me like your mother

johnny thunders and the heartbreakers - born to lose

#playlist #mixtape #this took so long

[seafoamchild]

i'm feeling very introverted this fall. i just want to hide from everyone. yet i keep socializing, and it's draining me. last night me and lora went to cribbage league to sub for someone. it was at this dive bar my friend works at, where the interior looks like a basement from the 70s and they have decorations for every single holiday at once so they never have to change them out. you look up, and hanging from the ceiling are christmas ornaments, easter eggs, valentine hearts, st. patrick's day shamrocks, a mardi gras mask, and everything in between. it's very amusing.

this particular place is the epitome of neighborhood bar culture in wisconsin. everyone knows everyone. the owners are playing cribbage with us and they're on a first-name basis with all the regulars. everyone gets treated like family, because it kind of is a family. it's very wholesome in a way, but it's not for me. i'm too much of an introvert for that kind of scene. and i don't really like to drink. but it was fun to observe everything during cribbage night (I was very stoned) even though we lost by a mile and i felt like i was being really boring because i was so quiet, but i didn't really have anything to say. that's okay.

today was a beautiful and warm cloudless fall day. i biked to the pond in the morning to look for the wood ducks again - the third day in a row - and there they were! they looked so gorgeous in the sunlight. i love sitting next to the pond and observing. i wish there were more warm days left because i've only just discovered what a wonderful way it is to start the morning. oh well. i will savor the wood duck sightings while i can.

then i went on a run. i think i run too much and don't really take care of my body properly. i feel new aches and pains. it's not good. but i get so stressed if i don't run. i think about everything i ate and how i'm not "getting rid of it" and it sends me into a spiral. i don't know if this will ever go away. i like seeing the way my body looks as a result of running like 25 miles a week. i like feeling like i'm cuter than i ever was. i feel like most people i know used to be a lot cuter when they were in their early 20s. and i know it's not very nice to judge other people's appearances, but let's be real - we all do it. i've felt ugly for most of my life, even though i wasn't, but i carried myself like i was. so now i feel much more confident, and unfortunately for me that has a lot to do with being thin and overdoing the exercise. i'm trying not to care so much, but it's always going to be hard.

i went on a third date with this 34 year old dude who is a total bro but also a sweetie. he is way too extroverted for me, but i think hooking up with him will be fun, so i guess these dates are mostly about building up sexual tension. which is great since that's what we're both looking for. i hope i'll finally get to have satisfying sex with someone who isn't luke. because so far nobody can make me feel the way he makes me feel and that's why i can't get him out of my life!!

anyway, i'm tired of people. i went on a walk with sarah today and had that date in the evening. tomorrow night i'm watching a show with charlotte. thursday is christine's birthday so i'll probably hang out for that too. friday i'm playing video games with liz. and this past sunday i went to the farmer's market with elliott and then went hiking with amanda. so it's just been a lot! of socializing! omg! but i'm afraid of being lonely.

elliott and i have been on like 5 dates now? maybe 6? but they don't really feel like dates because neither one of us has brought up our thoughts or feelings or expectations about dating. i know he's never had a girlfriend so this all must be new for him. but i'm sure he's confused about my intentions so i really need to clear that up. i like him, he's very nice and interesting and i love listening to him talk because of his staten island accent (i have such a thing for NY accents). but i'm not looking for a relationship. i don't even know if i would hook up with him. part of me is curious, but the smarter part of me knows it would probably just make things weird. i want someone who knows what they're doing, and i don't think he's going to know - i feel like he's pretty inexperienced in that regard. and i generally don't like taking control in sexual situations. but i'm not being a very nice person in a lot of ways, lately - stringing people along is not good. and i keep doing it.

i haven't honestly thought all that much about austin. i miss him - i miss the way we understand each other and get along so effortlessly. i miss laughing with him. but it's strange that he only sporadically pops up in my thoughts. i feel guilty for what i did to him. he was basically a rebound from luke, and i was never attracted to him so i don't know why i even tried to go there with him. i really don't. i felt pressured - but from who?? i just didn't know how to tell him i wasn't attracted to him. and then i let it drag on for way too long - he thought we were growing as a couple and that the sex was great, while i was filled with dread at the thought of hooking up or even cuddling and i would just wait for it to be over. it was so shitty of me!! he told me he's going to therapy now to work through anxiety and insecurity about the feelings he has for me. and that he doesn't really want to talk to me until he figures that out. i didn't think i would be so shitty to someone who was nothing but kind to me. but here i am, in my fuckboi phase.

#journal

[youremysputnik]

what I loved about DEH / Stagedooring DEH

awkward laugh - i don’t remember exactly when this was but i think it was right before only us? (I looked it up it’s during if i could tell her!!) zoe and evan are talking about something and taylor just turned away from mal toward the back of stage and went “hahaha” really awkwardly and i don’t know it was really funny

panic attack - during you will be found, evan drops his notecards and i know the different evans do this differently. taylor started repeating “sorry um... uh umm sorry uh” and then started breathing really hard and i was like “oh no i know what this is nonono” and he basically laid on the stage for a bit having a panic attack until he saw the tie. this moment really resonated with me because it was so real and i know much panic attacks suck

awkward hand touch - during the scene “you’re breaking up with me” when zoe tells evan she’s not breaking up with him, taylor was standing like two feet from mal and awkwardly stepped forward, touched her hands at her sides and went “thank you”, she then returned the gesture and went “don’t mention it” and they both laughed pretty hard it was so funny (i have seen the obc boot in a long time so i’m not sure if this happens all the time)

circle in ywbf - ok this was the moment when i really realized i was seeing this show. this is the moment in you will be found when they all turn around to face evan (toward the end of the song) and he’s in the middle and i don’t know it was so wholesome and loud and i loved it

good for you - during their solos and when heidi, jared, and alana are all singing together taylor would just stand there with his hands over his face looking at the person then they would start walking toward him and he would run

so big/so small looking at each other - i bawled during so big so small but it was specifically the part where heidi just held evan and they looked st each other and cried aHH

connor in sincerely me - it’s interesting to see how evan’s portrayal of connor changes how he is played. during sincerely me alex would run around the stage with huge energy and it’s interesting that that’s not really connor at all

sniffles - damn i thought everyone was exaggerating when they said you can hear everyone sobbing and sniffling. i think the small intimate space of the music box definitely helps that!

did you let go - ok i’m trying to avoid huge spoilers so hopefully you know this already but when this scene happened my friend basically was that new pikachu meme and went 🤭

taylors little evan ticks - I LOVE TAYLOR TRENSCH i noticed he wiped his hands on his pants a lot and rubbed his face and eyebrows! my friend (who’s not at all into theatre) even told me “it’s so cool how he does all the little ticks!”

taylor looking around - so we were sitting middle upper balcony but the music box is so small it still felt like we were right there, plus by sitting there we could see all the social media screens anyway whenever taylor would stand at the front of the stage for like a monologue or a song he would look around and even though we were so high up it felt like he could still see us and stare into our souls

waving through a window vs you will be found - i just,,,, love this show and how similar these two songs are in their structure and how different their situations are!!!

end of only us - i think i only put this because it’s funny knowing taylor and ben’s relationship and then watching the end of only us when evan and zoe kiss anyway next

words fail voice cracks - words fail has always been my favorite song and at the beginning of the song when evan is telling the murphy’s he was lying they look so heartbroken and taylor could barely get the first few lines out because he was crying and his voice was cracking and i sobbed he’s such a good actor

sobbing into mic during so big so small? - i put a ? because i couldn’t remember if it was so big so small but it definitely was at the end of that song i think either taylor’s mic was on and shouldn’t have been or he just usually doesn’t sob there but he let out a few audible sobs and again it really shows how great of an actor he is

michael crying during to break in a glove - i don’t remember ever hearing about this happening before but during to break in a glove michael could barely get some lyrics out because he was crying so hard ansjsnen i love this cast

awkward but touching hug after so big so small - the only reason i wrote awkward is because taylor’s arm was like weirdly squished between them and it around lisa but i couldn’t really come up with another word anyway they held that for a while and if was so cute

evan gets pushed—beginning of waving - ok this was really the moment i realized i was seeing dear evan hansen when alex pushed taylor and he slid and the lights changed and immediately started waving through a window i almost lost it there AND NOTHING SAD HAPPENED YET

sky’s jared NEEDS MORE APPRECIATION - ngl i was very sleep deprived when i wrote most of these notes but i agree sleep deprived christine! he was so funny!!!! please love him!! his laugh was awesome too!! rivaled will’s

MALLORY BECHTEL - her voice was so pretty and nice i love her so much!!!!! “she so cute!!” -my friend

monster that i knew - mallory paused for so long here and it was a really interesting i love her

zoom away bed zoom in table - this is like the first thing that happens, evan’s bed moves off and the murphy’s table comes on idk maybe i was a little sleep deprived but it was kinda funny to me. also ngl i forgot that jlt was still in the cast and that was a very pleasant surprise!!

evan? EVAN - taylor trensch is amazing. he yelled a lot and that’s something i didn’t really see from the clips of the other evan and i really liked it!

not all jazz - i think this was about the yelling again but also it’s such an iconic scene i’m so happy i got to see it

you want to say it again don’t you? very much so yes - sorry, i’m sorry. you say sorry a lot don’t you? yeah sorry.. i mean... you know what i mean. PRICELESS. taylor plays awkward so well sksjejdkenen

larry realizing and crying during ywbf - michael looking around at all the screens and starting to cry when he realizes he can’t deny connor’s death forever was such a good moment!!

jlt and michael hugging - this piggybacks on the last one since it’s basically the same moment but when jennifer hugged michael she was so far up on her tiptoes

social media voices - i don’t know why it caught me so off guard that the social media voices during ywbf were the same as the ones on the recording but it did? like idk i guess i’m just used to the cast recordings being better (?autotune) than actual shows but those voices literally being the exact same threw me off?

also last thing phoenix made a speech for bcefa, they were selling a bunch of things with the proceeds going to bcefa! they were selling the cast taylor wore that night for $500! so i took this picture during that speech because i’ve seen people film then so i’m assuming it’s allowed??? 😉

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i’m going to put stagedooring on this post too since only two people stagedoored

* we stood for a long time but there wasn’t a lot of people at the stagedoor because i know my school had 250 people there and there were other groups that had to go.

* we were originally supposed to be back at 10:30 but they extended it to 11 so we were able to stay out later!

* i’m surprised some of my friends were willing to stand around but i think they knew this is what i really wanted to do!

* michael park came out first and i was at the very beginning so i was the first person he talked to! all i really did was thank him for such a great show! when he was signing someone else’s playbill i quickly yelled i loved tuck everlasting! not sure if he heard it or not, it kind of sounded like he said “i loved it too” but don’t quote me.

* then lisa brescia came out and we told her how much we loved the show and how thankful i am for them coming out and stagedooring even after such an emotional show and she was like “we do it for you guys!! you’re the reason we do this!!” i love her!!

* i heard later that she actually graduated from a school in my state and someone’s mom actually knew her!!

* i didn’t take selfies with anyone because i heard stage management was really strict but other people were

* honestly i was working myself up to talk to taylor and thank him for everything but then he didn’t come out. i’m going to be writing him another letter soon!

* we waited for a bit longer then the stage manager said there would be nobody else so we walked back :)

* then last night i got both of these notifications: :)))))) taylor liked my tweet and david korins (scenic director) commented on my instagram!!

#dear evan hansen #deh #christine gets lost in ny #taylor trensch #mallory bechtel #alex boniello #lisa brescia #jennifer laura thompson #michael park #phoenix best #sky lakota lynch

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tell the snail story

I got a fucking dead snail caught in my braces, there are you happy @storybloomed

#YOU'VE CROSSED a fucking line christine #friendship cancelled ur not visiting me in ny anymore #if u call i wont answer #❛ ♚ ––––– otp : I lost the kik! ( FT. CHRISTINE ). #❛ ♚ ––––– we get it! you love daphne blake! we get it! ( DANI ANSWERS ). #storybloomed

[myfanfictiongarden]

Alternative Multiverse of Madness storyline

This will be a take on an alternative story arc of the movie, step by step, like notes for a script

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consequences of Strange’s actions in NWH, he opened the multiverse for a while, a small rift was left

Strange constantly dreams about walking through a destroyed NY Sanctum, it’s dark and eerie light around, dead bodies everywhere, voices from the past echoing (Ancient One: You’re a man looking through a key hole, Palmer; It’s always about you, AO: Open your eye, Mordo: You lack spine; Strange: It is the only way, etc), he stops in front of a destroyed wall looking out into nothingness, suddenly he turns, behind him young America: There is another way,

He wakes up in shock, confused, gets ready for Christine wedding 

In church he meets Nic: I lost my two cats while I was gone. And my brother. His wife was gone and I was gone and he couldn’t take it. Was it worth it? 

At reception later Strange does small talk with Christine, says he is happy for her, is he happy? He wishes he could have been with her, Christine: You always need to be the one holding the knife. I respect you for it, but I couldn’t love you for it

Outside chaos breaks loose, Wong and Strange defeat monster and save America 

America explains her story, Strange says he noticed runes on monster 

Cut to Wanda, she goes quietly through her morning routine in a small cute house, all alone, sadness on her face as she works in the orchard, working keeps her busy and focused

Strange appears, asks about Multiverse, for her help, she is sceptic, Vision always said its dangerous, doesn’t want to get involved with the outside world, finally she reluctantly agrees, something is thought obviously bothering her

At Kamar Taj they discuss the concept of a Multiverse, America is scared because apparently someone wants to kill her for her powers, Wanda suggests she could try to pry through the Multiverse with her new magic, Wong gets very suspicious and asks her about it, she admits having the Darkhold and how it’s not dangerous to her and how she only read to learn a bit more about her powers, Strange still wants her to use these powers to see what is happening 

Wanda takes up Scarlet Witch look, lights candles and looks through Multiverse, suddenly her eyes open all red, she looks at America a sly smile on her lips, Wanda: Exactly what I need.

Wanda attacks them all, she is turned all mad, impossible to stop, fight through Kamar Taj, much destruction, they try to hold her in mirror dimension but she escapes, Wanda: You will take me to my children.

Finally, scared America opens portal and takes Strange with her, meanwhile blast knocks Wanda out and she comes to her senses, Wong and her are left alone

Meanwhile Strange and America travel the Multiverse (short stop imeeting zombie Strange before moving again)band land in another NY (Earth-838) searching for another Strange to help them, they talk and connect a bit. Mordo is Sorcerer Supreme here, other Strange dead, Mordo wants to help, he is very friendly, explains dangers of Darkhold, but their tea is drugged, America and Strange pass out

Wanda explains to Wong that she couldn’t control herself, like someone else controlled her (Mordo just mentioned dream-walking), she remembers another her, an angry angry her, Wong wants to destroy Darkhold, only place to do that is on Mountain Wundergore

Strange and America wake up in laboratory, meet other Christine, he is taken to council of Illuminati, learns truth about this worlds corrupted Strange, Mordo: The greatest threat to the Multiverse is you.

This worlds Wanda (living peacefully with her sons) gets possessed and flies off to attack Illuminat, she also wants America, fight begins, Charles manages for a moment to tap into this Wanda mind, connecting to another sinister Wanda (visuals of explosions, red magic, destruction, screams of anguish) through the connection sinister Wanda kills Charles too

Christine helps them escape underground, explains Strange they never end up in any universe and he should let go, this Wanda follows them

When cornered America manages to open another portal, she and Strange fall through it

Our Wanda and Wong reach mountain, Wanda takes them up, monster guards welcome her, it’s the temple of the mythical Scarlet Witch, she feels a sense of belonging here, Wong urges her to begin destroying the Darkhold, she begins the ritual

Strange and America find themselves in an apocalyptic NY, someone must have ripped reality apart here, they come to the isolated Sanctum, they want to ask this Strange for answers, our Strange asks America to wait outside, we don’t know if other Strange is dangerous 

Inside everything looks awful, like in the vision/dream from beginning, Strange meets Strange, they talk about past (lost sister, wanting to be the best, always working alone, never accepting help or advise, holding the knife alone and never happy)

Meanwhile Wanda in ritual to destroy Darkhold, suddenly she connects though with evil Wanda, gets trapped in own mind (visual representation, white emptiness, debris of buildings, an old tv, echoes of voices from the past), evil Wanda appears 

Evil Wanda is from other universe, she lived with her kids like other versions of her but she also possessed the Darkhold like our Wanda, with time she couldn’t resist it’s powers and got corrupted, wasn’t happy with what she had (Vision was missing, there is always something missing), she wanted to create her own reality world wide but destroyed all instead (kids got killed), now she wants to access other universe to take kids from there

Evil Strange used Darkhold too much, wants to eliminate any threat to him, attacks our Strange 

Outside America still waits like told but senses trouble inside, wants to help

Strange vs Strange continues, our Strange is loosing despite good fight, last moment America appears, deflects with her powers evil Strange magic, she fights him with full confidence (she couldn’t let our Strange, her friend, get harmed), she tosses him outside, he dies

Strange thanks her, realises he couldn’t have done it on his own (getting help is good), he praises her for her courage, with new self confidence America opens portal to take them home (to Wanda and Wong to be exact- they still need to figure out who wanted America’s powers and why uses Wanda)

Evil Wanda explains she contacted monsters to attack America, while the Scarlet Witch can access other universes she cannot travel there, America can, evil Wanda wants to go to universe where her kids exists 

Strange and America meet Wong, he explains what happened, how Wanda got possessed before and now tries to destroy Darkhold but something is amiss

Evil Wanda speaks through mouth of our Wanda, wants America, wants what she deserves, wants to be happy 

Strange: We don’t always get what we wish for, nor do we always appreciate what we have while we have it. But what we still can do is try to be happy. That is our choice and no one else can get in the way of it. Wanda, I know you are in there. Fight it Wanda. We are with you. You are not alone.

Inside her head Wanda hears echoes from outside (You are not alone), evil Wanda wants to make an offer, give our Wanda everything she wants, a family of her own from another universe

Our Wanda: Once I took a whole town hostage, trying to have everything like I want. It was all fake. And this would be too. I am never letting that wave try to drown me again. Never.

Evil Wanda attacks our Wanda, they fight inside her head, the fight is felt outside, red magic attacking the others too

Strange uses his magic to grip Wanda’s, their magic connects, his magic is seen inside too, Wanda feels even stronger, Wanda: Never again.; defeats evil her, outside with all her might she stabs the Darkhold, temple starts to collapse

America shields them with her powers from falling debris, Wong and Strange manage to evacuate unconscious Wanda, everything collapses 

Some time later, Kamar Taj gets fixed, America among new trainees, she is not very patience with training but happy, Wong and Strange talk

Strange: Are you happy?; Wong: Interesting question. One would think saving the world one should be. To be honest, I am trying.; understanding the reply Strange bows to Wong for the first time, showing he finally accepts and respects Wong as the Sorcerer Supreme

Wong walks off, America comes happy she found an supporting friend in this Strange and a place she feels safe and accepted

Strange walks a bit further away to Wanda who watches over training in a distance, apparently in thoughts

S: You could join in too, you know.; W: After I, or a part of me tried to kill them all?; S: Well, another me managed to destroy his whole universe, so I think that makes us even.; W: I am trying so long to find myself but I never seem to manage.; S: Through recent travel I came across a zombie self, a corrupted self and even an painted self.; W: And which one was the craziest?; S: Definitely the painted one. (They both laugh) Each of them showed me what I don’t want to be. We alone decide who we are. You are not alone, you know?; W: They are still out there somewhere. I heard them, for real.; S: Then we’ll find them. Together.

Later, Strange finally replaces the broken glass on his watch, puts watch in box away, puts his past with Christine finally behind

Strange takes a walk outside NY, he is finally smiling, suddenly he breaks down in pain, inside his head he has a vision of a dark being, Nightmare

1st post credits: Clea appears

2nd post credits: Bruce Campbell scene

Character arcs:

Strange: Main arc of movie. Has to come to peace with his past actions, his decisions during the fight with Thanos, all the losses and chaos it brought even after they won; “Was it all worth it?” Nic asked after loosing his brother, what is worth sacrificing, what is the greater good, can we be happy even without the things we want? Christine asks “Are you happy?”, Strange asks the same thing Wong in the end and Wong replies “I don’t know, but I’m trying to be”. Strange is in the end ready to leave his past with Christine behind (we se through actions of Evil Strange and Wanda what happens otherwise, if you never let go); Strange still cannot give up control (the Illuminati Strange was corrupted and asked to be killed, zombie Strange wanted to live on after death, Evil Strange destroyed his own universe), has to be the one “holding the knife”, asking for help though is okay, trusting others is okay, he learns to trust Wong and America and together they are stronger, he accepts and respects Wong as a worthy Sorcerer Supreme

Wanda: In self exile on apple tree farm, consoled by Vision’s last words (Westview) she is ready to grief and heal, it still hurts though. Using the Darkhold she only wanted to learn her powers so she could fully control them and not be at their mercy, but when she heard her children’s voice she looked further into the Multiverse (one of her powers with Darhold) and because of the rift Strange caused during NWH another Wanda became aware of her actions. She is as yet not aware of the corrupting powers of the book. When Strange asks for help she is reluctant of joining outside world again, but finally agrees as it would be something to occupy her troubled thoughts. At Kamar Taj she suggests using Darkhold to pry through Multiverse, assures everyone book is not dangerous to her, gets possessed by other Wanda (flashes of red, anger, rage and destruction) who turns out to be the one looking for America. After she gets finally knocked out by America’s powers, our Wanda snaps out confused, headache, shocked at the destruction she caused again. Explains to Wong what she felt while possessed, he wants to destroy Darkhold once and for all. At the dark temple, Wanda is created and welcomed by the monster guardians, she feels at home, the place of the mystical Scarlet Witch. Wong reminds her of the dangers and she begins the ritual of destroying the book. Suddenly, she finds herself in contact with other Wanda again, it's a trap. Emptiness all around, debris on ground (broken buildings, broken family, broken dreams), an old tv is showing happy Westview Vision and her, voices echoing from everywhere (her parents, her brother, Avengers, her friends, Vision, Ultron, Thanos) its all too much. Other Wanda appears (Ultimate Scarlet Witch) and reveals she is the one looking for America, wanting her powers, surprised there is another Wanda using Darkhold (all others live peacefully with their children). It's a pang to Wanda that other hers have peaceful life but not her, suspiciously though asks USW what happened to her children, detects this version killed them, that’s why she wants access to some that are alive. (This Wanda had her children and a peaceful life but couldn’t get over Visions death, focus on the good things she had, nothing was enough, Darkhold corrupted her so much she wanted re-write reality in her universe destroying it in the end). Offers our Wanda Faust-like deal, she can simply take some children of her own with America’s powers, be happy. Our Wanda feels tempted, but realises children wouldn’t be hers and some other would be left without any, she is done with fakes and illusions. Fight starts between them, outside Strange and America finally join Wong. Wanda can hear Strange´s words of support, she is not alone. Evil Wanda attacks group outside, they fight, Strange manages to tap with his magic into Wanda´s mind, she feels his support, realising she is not alone she defeats evil self, uses all her might to destroy all Darkholds across Multiverse. Later at Kamar Taj she breaths freely again without influence of Darkhold, realises she has people who want to help her and support her (something she didn’t accept yet after Westview), Strange praises her strengt of mind, says her actual children might be in another dimension, he will help her find them.

Wong: Has to prove himself to be worthy the title of Sorcerer Supreme, knows Strange is the more powerful sorcerer. Suspicious of Darkhold influence over Wanda, guides her during most of the journey. Is accepted as competent and worthy of title, Strange even bows to him.

America: Traumatised after causing the disappearance of her parents, she hops from universe to universe without control, always alone (why care about someone if you can’t be with them?). Suspicious at first to trust our Strange as another version of her tried to kill her. With time opens up, he does too. They bond. Eager to help him, her first real friend, she finally finds the confidence to control her powers. Starts training at Kamar Taj, happy she found a place to feel safe in and call home.

#my take on the story #enjoy #doctor strange in the multiverse of madness #alternative story arc #fix-it fic #marvel #mcu #wanda maximoff #doctor strange #america chavez #movies #wandavision

[typingtess]

Tiptoeing through the “Live Free or Die Standing” guest cast

Mercedes Mason as DEA Agent Talia Del Campo Welcome back Agent Campo after your time on AMC and ABC.   Talia was last seen in "The Guardian", part one of the three-part season 10 finale/season 11 premiere.  And since we're talking about the three-parter, who killed Ellie Simms?

Rick Pasqualone as Martin Henderson Does a lot of voices for animated series/films and video games.

Had guest roles in Weird Science, Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, Kirk, Caroline in the City, Moloney, USA High, Vengeance Unlimited, Days of Our Lives, Love Boat: The Next Wave, Friends, Falcone, NYPD Blue, CSI, Charmed, Without a Trace, Blind Justice, CSI: NY, Shark, Crash, Desperate Housewives, All My Children, Glee, Children's Hospital, The Young and the Restless, Melissa & Joey, Guidance and General Hospital.  

Was Cpl. Paul Dafelmair in "Hung Out to Dry" the second ever episode of NCIS.  Appeared in three episode of JAG as two different characters, Lt. Kyle in both Smoked and Ares in season one and Capt. David White in season 10's "Fit for Duty".

Trailer/set/post-work photos. The LL CooJ photo is definitely back!

Goya Robles as Miguel Flores Plays Yago in Get Shorty and had guest roles in The Mentalist and Power Book III: Raising Kanan.

Did I mention the LL Cool J photo is back?

Dan Gauthier as Carlyle Huntington Played Lt. John McKay in Tour of Duty, Kyle Parks in Sisters, Kent Atkinson in Muscle, Jonathan Mitchell in Courthouse, Matt Liston in Ellen, Dick Harrison in Beverly Hills 90210, Jeff Baylor in Melrose Place, Kevin Buchanan in One Life to Live and Bruce Cooper in Faking It.

Guest roles include Married with Children, 21 Jump Street, Punky Brewster, Room for Romance, Who's the Boss, Life Goes On, Silk Stalkings, Star Trek: The Next Generation, Winnetka Road, The Cape, Sliders, Friends, Martial Law, Love Boat: The Next Wave, Rude Awakening, Cupid, Jesse, Nash Bridges, Nikki, Will & Grace, Charmed, Still Standing, Oliver Beene, Supernatural, The New Adventures of Old Christine, Lost, No Ordinary Family, Make It or Break It, Hot in Cleveland, The Mentalist and Criminal Minds.

Larry Herron as DEA Agent David Ramirez Had guest roles in episodes of ER, Lie To Me, Numb3rs, Medium, Cold Case, Criminal Minds, Law & Order: LA, Shameless, Modern Family, Adam Ruins Everything, The Brink, Insecure, Life in Pieces, Snowfall and Animal Kingdom.

Played Master Gunnery Sergeant Jason Kelly in the season 8 "Short Fuse" episode of NCIS

Carolina Gutierrez as Emma Ruiz Guest starred in episodes of Scorpion, Good Samaritans and The L Word: Generation Q.

Alicia Urizar as Isabella Cruz Played Amber in Welcome to My World.  Guest starred in episodes of Betty White's Off Their Rockers, Longmire, Code Black and For the People.

Was Gabriella in the season 14 finale "Rendezvous" NCIS episode.

The director's chair photo.

Pam Trotter as Loretta Dawson Guest appearances in episodes of Son of the Beach, All of Us, Boston Legal, My Name is earl, Everybody Hates Chris, Dollhouse, Chuck, HawthoRNe, The Secret Life of the American Teenager, It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia, Austin & Ally, Happy Endings, Wendell and Vinnie, Kirstie, Melissa & Joey, Murder in the First, The Middle, Stitchers, Life in Pieces, The Goldbergs, One Day at a Time (2018), The Goldbergs, The Mick, Superstore, Good Girls, American Princess, Stumptown, Atypical, Good Trouble, General Hospital, Tacoma FD and As We See It.

Sheila Wills as Thelma Was Angie in B.J. and the Bear, Joan Hopkins in Days of Our Lives and Rita Barton in Generations.

Guest roles include Marcus Welby MD, The Six Million Dollar Man, Kojak, What Really Happened to the Class of '65, Baretta, Switch, Battlestar Galactica (1978), Buck Rogers in the 25th Century, Quincy, Galactica 1980, CHiPS, McClain's Law, The New Odd Couple (1982), The Jeffersons, The Powers of Matthew Star, Webster, Stir Crazy, The A-Team, The Bold and the Beautiful, Cagney & Lacey, Hunter, Family Medical Center, Knots Landing, Shannon's Deal, Swamp Thing, Beverly Hills 90210, 7th Heaven, Scrubs and All American.

Brian Leigh Smith as Bomb Tech Aaron Roberts Smith returns as Bomb Tech Aaron Roberts from "Mother" but also appeared as a police officer in "Overwatch" and was a wingman in "The Bear" season 12 premiere.

Duncan Campbell as NCIS Special Agent Castor Was in the first part of the Sunday, May 1 doubleheader.

Written by Eric Christian Olsen who also wrote "Mother" in season 11.

Directed by Daniela Ruah who also directed "Russia, Russia, Russia", "Lost Soldier Down" and "Pandora's Box".

Director's/Writer's chairs. Team In-Laws.

#tiptoeing #NCIS: Los Angeles #NCIS: LA #NCIS Los Angeles #ncis la

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Horatio and Mac: Lost Loves

I’ve come to realize I am very good when it comes to noticing striking similarities between characters wether they are from two separate TV shows or from the same franchise altogether. In this latest similarity I noticed that Mac and Horatio share the saddest similarity of all... the loss of their beloved wives, Claire Conrad and Marisol Delko.

Both Mac and Horatio loved their wives with all their hearts and Marisol and Claire’s presence are strongly felt within CSI: NY and CSI: Miami. However, there are a few notable differences in each of their love stories. The notable and important difference specifically is that Claire was already dead by the time CSI: NY premiered. Claire had been dead for a few years as she was sadly a victim of the 911 attacks as she was killed during the destruction of the World Trade Center and her body was never recovered. Although she was already gone for a few years, Mac still loved her with all his heart as he still wore his wedding ring during the first season and kept several personal mementos and photos of Claire. Eventually slowly yet surely, Mac began to move on from her passing and started dating again, but showed that apart of him will always love Claire. Finally, Mac did manage to find love again with an old friend, Christine Whitney and by the end of the series, they got engaged. Although Mac and Claire didn’t have many scenes together since Claire was already dead, the love he feels for her is strongly felt throughout the entire series.

Horatio and Marisol‘s love story is different as they got some screen time together before Marisol met her tragic demise. Horatio and Marisol first met during season 4 of CSI: Miami when the team noticed that Eric wasn’t concentrating on his work and later discovered it was because he was looking after Marisol after she was diagnosed with breast cancer. Horatio later helped Marisol after she was charged with a drug possession in her attempts to buy marijuana for herself and friends at cancer support group. Horatio managed to get the charges dropped and Marisol in gratitude made dinner for him. Since then, Horatio and Marisol began a romantic relationship and though their time together was short, they each gave each other great joy and hope for one another. Marisol gave Horatio joy and light and Horatio have Marisol hope for her future and to see the positives. They stood by each other and towards the end of the season, their love was so strong, they got married at city hall with Eric by their side. Sadly just hours after they became husband and wife, Marisol was killed by the Mala Noche gang, leaving Horatio heartbroken by her loss. Ever since, Horatio continues to greatly miss and love Marisol throughout the series while fondly remembering the time they had together.

Through their losses of Claire and Marisol, Mac and Horatio share several similarities and differences in their love stories. Although both women were gone, their love, presence and memories were strongly felt throughout the series. Since Claire’s body was never recovered, Mac unfortunately did not have a place to go to honour her while Marisol was given a proper burial, allowing Horatio to visit her gravesite. Mac eventually did find true love again with Christine, but sadly for Horatio no woman could fill the void left by her passing, but he did a find new sort of happiness when he discovered a son he never knew he had and they formed a strong family bond. However, the greatest similarity of all was when years later, Mac and Horatio found themselves in limbo and were briefly reunited with Claire and Marisol, encouraging both their husbands to keeping fighting and living.

Overall, it’s amazing how though these two met only met each other twice, they unknowingly share a bond over the loss of their wives.

#CSI NY #CSI Miami #My Thoughts #Mac Taylor #Horatio Caine #Claire Conrad #Marisol Delko #Horatio x Marisol #Mac x Claire #CSI #Comparison

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I Can Make This Promise by Christine Day

“Where am I from? After all this time, I’m finally going to learn the truth. I just hope my heart won’t shatter when I do,” -Edie, I Can Make This Promise

Twelve-year-old Edie is used to getting comments from strangers about her exotic looks. “Where are you from”, strangers often ask her, and Edie really can’t give them a simple answer. Edie’s father is white and her mother is Native American, who was adopted by a white family as a newborn. Edie’s mother, Lisa, says she doesn’t know anything about her biological family, but Edie has always suspected there was more to the story. The truth slowly starts to reveal itself over the course of one summer when Edie finds a box in her attic that contains photos and a journal from a beautiful woman named Evelyn, with whom Edie shares a name. Piece by piece Edie begins unraveling the mystery behind her mother’s origin. But when Edie learns the harsh reality of what really happened to her namesake, the truth might be more than Edie can bare.

A 2020 American Indian Youth Literature Honor novel, I Can Make This Promise is a coming-of-age story about heritage, adoption, and identity. Christine Day brings to light the harsh mistreatment conducted against modern-day Native Americans and gives a voice to a lost generation. Teachers and students can use this novel to further discuss racial injustices and can compare Edie and Lisa’s story to other accounts of racial injustice against minorities discussed in class.

Day, C. (2019). I Can Make This Promise. New York, NY: HarperCollins.

I Can Make This Promise- $11.39 (Amazon)

#YA Books #YA literature #middle school #books #book review #Book Recommendations #native american #ya fiction #goodreads

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Chapter 15 Preview

definitions of indefinable things | IronStrange Fic | 14/?

Stephen & Tony met during Iron Man 1 AU ...ish

A little preview of the next chapter (rough draft- sorry there may be edits) almost done with the chapter too... but not sure when it’ll be live yet tho

After the accident, breaking up with Tony, becoming a sorcerer, Stephen arrives back in NY. Largely due to Christine’s persistence, Stephen agrees to accompany her to the Metro General’s Charity Gala where Avengers are special guests... to see Tony. How to explain all that happened... if at all.

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Nervous. That’s what Stephen realize. He was nervous. 

It was an unfamiliar, atrocious feeling really. 

He never had much fear of social situations before. Not even when he was in grade school. He knew he had a particular knack for it. Thrived in it. Showing off, impressing, knowing exactly what to do at precisely the right time. It was a puzzle he knew so well. He once mused that he even felt more comfortable around strangers than those who knew him well. 

But tonight, it was different. …Actually… everything was different now. 

He was no longer the high profile surgeon. No longer had the reputation, the presence, the funds, the power that immediately grabbed attention. He knew he had gotten older, no longer in his high prime… ugly scars that littered his hands to boot. 

Crippled. A sorcerer or not, he was still… crippled. 

Would Tony care? He claimed he didn’t when he sat next to his bed after the accident. But people say a lot of things. Seeing it, in reality, was always another. Would he even want him now? 

He couldn’t help but remember the little things Tony used to say. How he loves Stephen’s clever fingers, loves how he could keep up with him, how he was pretty… 

What was he thinking? Had he lost his mind? Tony… beautiful, smart, his Tony… the still ever the billionaire, a renowned hero, member of the Avengers, pretty much a royalty if the United States ever had such a thing… taking him back… now… when Stephen didn’t have anything anymore to offer. And that wasn’t even counting all that he had said during their breakup.

He sharply turned, making a run for it. Though a hand quickly grabs hold of his arm with surprising force.

“I know you’re nervous-“ Christine said gently, still not letting go. She was in a dress of beautiful silvery lavender. Though currently, she had a section of it roughly bunched in her other hand. As if preparing for a chase if Stephen really chose to run for it.

No, she didn’t know the HALF of it. 

“I know you’re scared but… Stephen, please, don’t run. Not now.”

No, for some fucking reason I can apparently do no wrong in your eyes. He wanted to say. She wasn’t seeing him. Not really. Not seeing him for who he inevitably is now. She always saw him through rose-colored glasses. 

But he gave in, still. Swallowed, nervously looking around before going back to fidget with the cufflinks. God, the tux felt so wrong now. So hard to deal with all these details with his trembling fingers. He never noticed how tiny these buttons were before when he used to wear them on a regular basis. 

Christine lightly pushed away his hands, helping him adjust the cuffs. “So… What’s with everyone? Why didn’t Nick recognize you?”

Oh. 

“Distortion spell…” He replied in a mutter. “They can see me. They’ll remember me, remember talking to me even. Well... they’ll remember that there was someone …But they won’t be able to recognize who I am. It won’t stick in their memory. Won’t be able to remember any identifiable details worth remembering. They’ll try to think what I looked like, what I sounded like, and they will draw a blank. It won’t even occur to them that it’s odd… would seem like any other details they forget, cannot recall, because it’s not worth remembering.”

“Stephen…” 

“I’m here to talk to Tony… doesn’t mean I would have to parade my presence to everyone else. I’ll drop the spell when I get him in private,” he said sternly. Then added after some hesitance, “…please. I don’t… I still have my pride, Christine.”  

She smiles at him, though hints of sadness were traced in those almond eyes. “Stephen you’re… There is nothing wrong with how you are now.”

He looks away. “Let’s just go in.”

And Stephen would love to pretend he took the time to look around the elaborate grand ballroom, taking it all in. How he had eventually searched and searched amongst the large, boisterous crowd for any sign of that windswept brown hair and doe eyes. 

But no.

It almost takes an embarrassingly short amount of time for his eyes to gravitate on Tony. 

He also looks away just as quickly.

#ironstrange #ironstrange fic #definitions of indefinable things fic #chapter preview

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Jim Kirk x fem!reader (13)

It had been a simple mission. But then, most missions began that way and changed quickly. If it began difficult, you were really in trouble. You still weren’t sure exactly how and why you’d ended up creeping around some kind of underground lair. “(L/N) to Enterprise.” Wind echoed around you as you crouched in a small niche in the dirt walls, ignoring the protests of the gash in your leg. “Enterprise, Palamis here. We were unable to contact the Captain.” Well, you’d gathered that. “Yeah, they’re a little bit indisposed being dragged off somewhere,” you replied, pinching the bridge of your nose. “I’m alone. Prepare transporter bay to beam all landing party members up immediately on order.” “Understood.” The line clicked away, before Spock’s voice came over. “Situation report, Ambassador.” His tone was brusque as always. “How were you separated from the rest of the landing party?” “We were attacked by a large mammal,” you answered, still wondering how your life came to this. “Think giant mole rat. Uhura and the Captain were taken. Lieutenant Cameron was killed. I have been unable to locate Petty Officer Stable, however the loud screaming noises I’ve been following don’t make me hopeful.” “Understood. We will expect a check in within the hour. If you have been unable to locate the rest of the party at that time, we will be forced to reassess our options. You will likely be beamed up.” Spock wasn’t someone you argued with, no matter how much you wanted to point out that this is a literal maze, sir, can I at least have some leeway? “Aye sir.” 

“If you don’t keep talking to me, James Tiberius Kirk, I swear I will shave that perfect hair of yours and see how much fun Scotty has with that.” A weak gasp sounded in response, and you heard an awkward scuffing as Jim obviously tried to scoot away. “You wouldn’t dare!” His voice was alarmingly quiet. “You planning on testing that theory?” Uhura tested, but you could hear the worry in her voice. “Besides, lover boy, we still need to find (Y/N).” “D’you think she’s okay?” Jim asked, miserably. “I can’t believe we lost her. What if she’s hurt?” You rounded the corner, revealing no sign of either of the two voices. “I lost you, actually,” you gambled, staying back from the rest of the dark corridor. You heard both of them call your name. “Seriously, where are you? I can hear you both.” “In a hole,” Nyota replied, dryly. “Don’t take too many steps forward.” You edged forward, testing the ground in front of you for inconsistencies, finally reaching the edge of the pit. “Wow, that’s just great.” You looked down at the two of them, crouched on the floor. “Can you try jumping to my hands, Ny?” Nyota stood up and jumped, barely missing your fingertips. “That won’t work anyway.” She pointed at the suspiciously silent Jim. “He can’t jump.” “He’s unconscious,” you assessed, as he failed to protest. She nodded grimly. “That rat got him pretty bad around the ribs.” You stepped back from the pit, looking for anything that could help you get down. You spotted two large rocks in the wall. “Alright, I’ve got an idea but neither of us are going to like it.”

You finished tying the two dresses to each end of Jim’s shirt, and crouched down, the mud squelching unpleasantly against the bare skin between your bra and undershorts as you tied one end of the makeshift rope to the rocks and one around your thighs. “I was not planning on finishing the day half-naked in a pit of mud,” Nyota grumbled your thoughts aloud, and you laughed, pressing forward until you dangling over the edge of the pit. “And I didn’t think I’d be testing my core strength so much when I skipped my sit ups yesterday,” you grinned back, earning wry laughter as she hoisted Jim’s limp form above her head, so you could grab him. You caught him bridal style, pushing your whole body weight backwards until your knees pressed back into the mud, then folding yourself back, inch by inch, as quickly as you could. You flopped victoriously backwards into the mud at the top, groaning a loud curse. “I can’t believe that worked,” Ny laughed, breathily. “We’re going to have to find a god to thank that your mother was Romulan.” “I never thought I’d thank her for tying me biologically to one of the most broadly hated species in the galaxy, but hey.” You bent back over the pit, leaning down again. “I guess that extra strength comes in handy. I’m just glad I took after my father’s looks.” Nyota jumped, catching your hands, and you pulled her up as she kicked off the wall.��

You both collapsed on the edge of the pit, sighing, and you worked at untangling yourself from the rope until a familiar screech interrupted you. The mole rat appeared on the other side of the pit as you both scrambled to your feet, it’s mouth red with shreds of the security uniform and blood. “Run,” you suggested, scooping Jim up from the floor. Nyota nodded, and you both took off, mole rat breathing down your necks. “Left, right, left, left, right!” You chanted, trying to arrange Jim over your shoulders without hurting him to free your hands for brief moments to get at your comm. “Ny!” you shouted, and she turned to face you, just in time for you to throw the comm to her. “Uhura to Enterprise!” she demanded, not slowing her pace. “Standby to beam up the landing party as soon as you lock on our signals. We’ll be moving. Med team to the transporter bay, the captain’s injured.” You broke out into the open, sprinting down the hill, away from the tunnel entrance, towards the lush forest below. Your leg buckled slightly beneath you, but managed to keep your footing despite barely recognising the pained scream the movement ripped from your throat. “Enterprise, beam us up!” 

“We can’t get a lock!” the transporter chief answered, desperately. “You’re too obscured, we can’t tell who we’re going to get.” “Oh for fuck’s– Ny!” You caught up to her, limping a little, but still running, as the mole rat stopped to adjust to the bright light of the surface. “Get up a tree!” “What?” She queried, even as she jumped to grab the lowest branch of a nearby tree. “Why?” She scrambled up onto it, and you hoisted Jim up to her. “It’s blind as a bat,” you answered, as she settled Jim carefully against the trunk, holding him upright. “I’m gonna bolt, you get them to beam you up, then scan for me.” She opened her mouth to protest, but the mole rat interrupted her, screeching loudly, and you bolted away. “See you back on the ship!” 

“Spock, I need you, Scotty or Chekov in here!” Nyota snapped, watching the petty officer fiddle uselessly with the controls. “Here, Lieutenant,” Chekov answered, popping through the door, flustered. “Sorry!” He brushed the other officer away, and tapped purposefully at the console, closing in on the smaller of the two red dots. “Materialising in 3, 2, 1!” You sprinted off the transporter pad, slamming yourself to a stop, clutching onto the transport console. Then you slumped against it, panting. “I hate running.” The doors swished open and Bones bustled in, followed closely by Christine and a crew of nurses. As Bones and one of the nurses worked to hoist Jim onto a gurney, Christine and her companion hurried over to you and Nyota. “I’m never running again, Chris,” you insisted, following her and Nyota towards the medbay, half-leaning on the nurse beside you. “Ever.”

#jim kirk x reader #spock #s'chn t'gai spock #james t kirk #jim kirk #nyota uhura #uhura #star trek #star trek aos #aos #scotty #pavel chekov #romulans #romulan #bones #mccoy #nurse chapel

[thatscarletflycatcher]

“Doctor Strange and Iron Man I are the same story”

I have seen this comparison over and over again and it still surprises me. Both stories share the basic trope of hubris-fall-redemption structure, but so does Thor, and I hardly ever see anyone comparing them with this last one.

From the get go, the backgrounds of T*ny and Stephen are different. T*ny is a billionaire son of a billionaire. He inherited his father’s company and wealth, which are consistently managed by people not himself (Obediah, Pepper, Happy). We don’t know if Strange comes from a very rich family or not, but the fact that he has no resources to fall back on when he spends his money on surgeries suggests that he made his own money through his work. Yes, yes, a privileged work, if you want, but he had to work hard for it, studying, practicing and constantly honing his skill.

T*ny was a war profiteer. Strange was a surgeon. One helped kill people, the other helped save lives and get people better lives, even if he did so more for the sake of fame and money than for saving lives (Though he is conscious of the oath he took as a doctor and strives to honor it: he complains to the Ancient One that he killed a man in the Sanctum and that he hadn’t signed up for that, that he had taken the hippocratic oath). Also, the narrative frames this selfishness of his in a negative light, in contrast with Christine’s hidden and selfless dedication to others.)

T*ny is attacked and kidnapped, Stephen suffers an accident. T*ny escapes and gets an arc reactor on his chest to keep the shrapnel from reaching his heart, which leads to poisoning and his almost death in IM II; Stephen doesn’t lose his hands, but has nerve damaged from the injuries, so his hands shake and hurt and get cramped, permanently, putting an end to his career as a surgeon. T*ny can get an operation to remove the shrapnel so that he doesn’t need the arc reactor anymore, as proven by IM III; no operation can give Stephen the painless functionality of his hands back, as proven by the fact that he keeps trying again and again and again.

After the accident, T*ny’s loses are the war profit (but he still has a company that is worth millions) but he still is, as he likes to define himself, billionaire, playboy, etc. He lost almost nothing. In the accident, Stephen lost his profession, the work of his life, in a way his own identity and his physical integrity and health. He then lost all his money, coming to the point, when he arrives at Kamar Taj, that he carries with himself his only possessions and no money to get back. His rage and arrogance drive Christine away (As much as I like Pepper, she sticks too much to T*ny. Whenever Stephen acts like an idiot, Christine leaves him in no uncertain terms), so he is alone, with no family or friends. The last thing he has is his knowledge and too high self esteem, and that gets crushed too. He humiliated himself pleading for a broken watch with some thieves and then spent hours begging loudly at the door of Kamar Taj for the Ancient One to let him in and teach him. He had to learn from and study with people younger than him and that had less worldly prestige than he had, and see them be better at the mystic arts than him.

While T*ny is still the boss in his life and does whatever the hell he wants whenever the hell he wants and is served by others, Stephen is put in the position of being the last one, of being taught by others and of adjusting to a  very different way of life from the one he was used to (The Ancient One, Mordo, Wong, they are all his masters; Christine isn’t his subordinate, she is his colleague.)

While T*ny is always his own team, refuses to obey others (e.g. when Rhodey intervenes his party, when he reveals his identity as Iron Man to the press) and lashes out when people call him out, Stephen learns to be a team player (he asks Nick, a doctor he disliked, to operate on the Ancient One, accepting that it was better that way), to listen and heed the advice of others, and his replies most of the time consist in rational justifications (’They should put the warnings before the spells’, ‘you told me to open my eye and now you ask me to obey rules that make no sense’).

Stephen becomes more perceptive and understanding of other people’s feelings, problems and points of view. He genuinely tries to learn from The Ancient One and Mordo and applies himself to study with constancy and effort; he tries to reason with Kaecillius and understand why is he doing what he is doing; he apologizes to Christine without excuses and, even if he wants her to stay with him, he doesn’t force a kiss on her, he lets her decide.

Being Iron Man is for T*ny a source of prestige, fame, and glory. He is both. Stephen is faced with the choice of healing his hands and turning back to his old life of living for himself, or moving on into becoming a hidden protector of the world, to live for others rather than himself. He chooses the latter and the narrative even frames it as a recognition of Christine being right all along: there were other things that could give meaning to his life, and other ways to save lives, even if those ways were harder and weirder. Compare the last scene of IM and Doctor Strange: T*ny reveals to the world in a press conference that he is Iron Man. Stephen looks at his still shaking hands, puts on Christine’s memento –we also see the yellow ties in his sleeves to honor the Ancient One– and then gaze at the world from the darkness and silence of the Sanctum.

Both T*ny and Stephen sacrifice their lives at the end of their origin story movies, but T*ny’s sacrifice comes to solve a problem his own irresponsibility created, while Stephen is cleaning the mess someone else made and in which he had no part. T*ny risked dying once, Stephen went to his repeated death; even if he hoped that Dormammu would accept the bargain, plan B was dying again and again and again forever, because as long as he kept dying, the world would be safe and yet nobody would know it was him.

Stephen’s heroism comes by embracing pain, brokenness, loss, and transforming them into compassion, humbleness and sacrifice. T*ny’s heroism comes by doing something with his intelligence and his money to save the world.

As someone pointed out in another post, T*ny’s arc is a coming of age story: realizing there are stakes in life and taking responsibility for our actions and gifts; Stephen’s arc is a story of maturity, of finding meaning in life, of facing pain, and loss, and the fragility of the human condition.

This is the main reason why Ir*nstrange irks me. As of Infinity War, T*ny still is a man-child, who puts his own grudges and pride over the welfare and safety of others, and that mocks others to feel superior to them. Strange is like a dead man brought back to life: he lives to protect the world, but all the petty concerns that are so important to T*ny, are irrelevant and... well, petty to him. I don’t see flirting in Strange’s annoyance and blunt replies: I see an adult trying to be patient with a spoiled child, remembering that he was like that once upon a time. If you ask me, that doesn’t look like a good foundation for a relationship.

#Doctor Strange #Stephen Strange #Anti Ironstrange #Anti Tony Stark #I finally wrote the post #In this house we love and protect Stephen Strange #I know there's a bunch of people that hates BC #And others that are upset because of Tilda Swinton's casting #But it isn't fair to judge characters and stories because we dislike actors or casting decisions #That's what criticism is for #To analize everything #keep the good and reject the bad

[isobel-thorm]

About Me Game

tagged by: @deputymaxwell

1. how tall are you? 5′ 7″’

2. what color and style is your hair? Blondish brown, shoulder length, forever-fried looking waves on the bottom. I need to get a haircut and highlights soon 

3. what color are your eyes? Blue-Grey

4. do you wear glasses? Used to as a kid, but not anymore.

5. do you wear braces? Suffered through them for three years. Now I just have the permanent retainer from Hell. 

6. what’s your fashion sense? Jeans and a tank top with either an open button-up shirt or a hoodie over it. 

7. full name? Sarah Christine.

8. when were you born? February 25th

9. where are you from and where do you live now? Long Island, NY.  Still live in the same house and town I grew up in. I hate it. 

10. what school do you go to? Last place I physically attended was SUNY Oswego.  “Physically’ sounds weird in hindsight so I also took an online class at Pace before I realized I couldn’t afford any more. 

11. what kind of student are you? The student that people who wait until the last minute to do papers hate. I was always the one who turned in assignments on time compared to all my friends. One year my apartmentmates hated me because they were scrambling to finish up stuff for finals week and I had been done for 5+ days and was just hanging out all day.  That said, I did slack off plenty. Barely ever studied. A- student in my field, C+ for most of the other gen ed stuff. 

12. do you like school? Mixed feelings. Mostly liked, but that was really only because I had the college experience where my friends/classmates were like a family to me, and as I kind of mentioned, my college friends are really the only ones who pay attention to my life anymore and I no longer have easy access to them in person, which is awful. So I loved it for that. 

13. favorite subject? English and Psychology

14. favorite tv shows? Lucifer, Sleepy Hollow seasons 1-3 before it got Bad, White Collar, Lost, Longmire, The Sniffer

15. favorite movie? (deep breath) The Mummy, The Mummy Returns, Dear Frankie, Man from UNCLE, The Avengers, Thor, 3:10 to Yuma, Miss Congeniality, Austenland and many, many more. 

16. favorite book? Good Omens

18. favorite past time? Writing, binging videogames.

19. do you have regrets? Many. 

20. dream job? Forever changing. Art teacher, interior designer, doggie day care owner, editor 

21. would you ever like to be married? Yes, but considering I’m three years away from being 30 and haven’t had a relationship I’ve basically accepted it ain’t gonna happen and I’m gonna die alone. 

22. would you like kids? Maybe. 

23. how many? 1 or 2 maximum. 

24. do you like shopping? Yes, unless it’s for clothing. Fuck clothes shopping. 

25. what countries have you visited? Haven’t left the U.S. Closest thing is the time I went to the U.S Virgin Islands. 

26. scariest nightmare you have ever had? Too many to list. My imagination was very unkind to my younger self in that regard. 

27. any enemies? My childhood best friend. 

28. any significant other? Nooope. 

29. do you believe in miracles? Kinda sorta??

30. how are you? Awful and barely holding it together, thanks for asking. 

I tag: ALL Y’ALL

[youremysputnik]

schmackary’s is about to start recognizing my friends and i

#schmackarys #christine gets lost in ny

[santa-feeeeeeeeee]

BMC NY - spoilers ahead!!

OKAY BEFORE I FORGET here’s some stuff from tonight’s (7/27) show

During More Than Survive the sign-up sheet for the play kept falling down and when Christine came out she slammed it onto the wall and pointed at it like “okay, stay” (it didn’t stay)

Michael! Has! The! Patch!

“My mothers would be so proud” I DIED

Christine is,, so funny and cute I Would Die 4 Her

Honestly the whole show is fucking hilarious I was dying the whole time

The scene in the bathroom right before the Squip Song is so tense, like Rich is explaining social politics and then Jeremy asks him why he does something and he responds “I have my instructions” which is ominous and unsettling enough on its own and then he gets eleCTROCUTED INTO OBLIVION

Just fyi when people are saying that Michael “tries to kiss Jeremy” during Two Player Game they mean that (at “is it really true”) Michael jokingly leans over and like tackles Jeremy into a hug, suggesting that he’s trying to kiss him, and it’s hilarious

When they were in the Payless the Scary Stockboy was describing the Squip and it’s hard to catch but Jeremy looks over at Michael for a second and Michael mouths “what the fuck?”

Instead of Crystal Pepsi Michael goes to get Ecto Cooler and when Jeremy asks him what it tastes like he responds “GHOSTS”

OKAY THE FUCKING SQUIP WAS SO GOOD

Jason Tam’s Squip is very different from Eric William Morris but he’s still sooooo good

“Though my sensors indicate you may prefer to take instruction from: Princess Leia, Zack from Saved by the Bell, anime cat girl with a tail—“

OMG there was a lot of really neat choreography associated with/done by the Squip

Christine was trying to save a seat for Jake so she put her backpack on his seat but then Chloe picked up the backpack and kicked it across the stage and my heart s h a t t e r e d (along with everyone else’s in the theater)

There was a new song at the end of act 1 (Loser Geek Whatever) and it wasn’t super necessary but wow it was really good + Will Roland needed a solo lbr

When the Squip malfunctions at the party he just fuckin faceplants into the bed

The scene after Do You Wanna Hang is fuckin wild,, like so much happens in so little time and we were sitting house left so I couldn’t see the right side of the stage super well but it was still really funny — seeing the show just made me understand the plot better tbh

When Jeremy called Michael a loser everyone lost their shit

Jeremy storms out of the house after a fight with his dad but he yells “I’m going to the play” which is like,, lol

During the “beep-boop”s in Pitiful Children the Squip at one point just goes “squip squip squip squip squip squip”

When Mr. Heere finds Michael before the Pants Song Michael is sitting on a lawn chair and smoking a bong

“Do you love him?” “😰😰��what”

When Michael makes his entrance he throws his backpack to the side and it landed perfectly on the costume rack (part of the set for The Play) it was honestly so impressive

When Jeremy gives Christine the Mountain Dew Red he says “I’m so sorry” and it broke my heart

Everyone (including me) cheered when Rich said he was bi

When Rich says “anti-social headphones kid” Michael shows up behind him with his hood up and Rich is like “oh hey it’s you!!!” and is Very clearly interested in Michael (who is not having it)

“I’m sure some special someone will be lucky to have you Rich” “you think??? 😃😃” *Michael awkwardly sidles away and runs to Jeremy*

Omg at the beginning of Voices in my Head when Michael goes off stage he slaps Rich’s arm which is in a cast (Rich is in a full body cast) and Rich just fucking SCREAMED

George very briefly Dirty-Dancing-lifted Gerard during the curtain call

General stuff about the show!!

They used projections a lot throughout the show and it was!!! So cool!!!!

The entire cast is phenomenal but I gotta hand it to Gerard, he’s a phenomenal actor and I was blown away by his performance from start to finish

I love that they did the red in Rich’s hair

The c o s t u m e s (ESP THE SQUP HONESTLY)

AND FOR THOSE OF Y’ALL WHO WANT TO KNOW HOW THE AUDIENCE BEHAVED: I was pleasantly surprised!! There were definitely a few odd people out who just couldn’t hold in their reactions sometimes, but generally the audience was very respectful and it seems we as a fandom have learned a lot from Exit 82.

I had a beautiful experience at BMC tonight and I will never forget it!!!!!!!!

#be more chill #be more chill off broadway #be more chill nyc #be more chill new york #bmc new york #wynn says words #wynn’s originals