#cant take another sick day

[panicbroadcast]

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just finished killers of the flower moon

#its 2am and im about to cry #its so fucking good #but fuck me its so gruesome #just thinking about the real life story behind it #and how its just one community #in one country #and how theres probably the same story in a lot countries #and now my heart hurts #wanna sit down and read the book in one sitting #but i have work in the morning #cant take another sick day #sigh #sadge

[skitskatdacat63]

This is my personal crossover event of the century

#one of my favorite actors and one of my favorite drivers interacting??? what??? #alright whos gonna be the brave soldier and write the matt damon × mark webber rpf fic- #(i read a fic w james bond/seb so imo it really wouldnt be too far off to write Linus Caldwell/Mark LMAO) #ive known abt this event practically since i got into f1 but i feel like my thoughts abt it keep developing every time i look at them again #first time: huh okay wow brad pitt & matt damon taking w mark thats really wild. f1 drivers really do be meeting w high level celebs #after i watched fight club: wow wow!! i cant believe theres pics of brad pitt with mark thats crazy! #after i watched oceans 11: omg wait oh yeah! when mark was in jaguar he was sponsored by oceans 12!!! thats sick!!! #and then recently w my increasing love for Matt Damon: WAIT OH MY GOD MARK HAS INTERACTED WITH MATT!!!! (two worlds colliding feel ig) #but i was watching some interview w matt where they referenced this happening so its relevant in my brain again so i had to post abt it #but of course in the vid the specific pic on screen was him and mark interacting and i died. like seriously i can never escape f1 and mark #mostly im freaking out bcs its truly the crossover event of all time concerning my interests specifically #but the lore behind this is genuinely really really interesting #the fact that theyre promoting a heist movie specifically and then they put a $300k diamond in the nose of the Jaguar #and then the Jaguar crashed during the race and the diamond disappeared?????? cmon literally itself could be the plot to an Oceans movie #RBR/teams sponsored by RB were so much fun back in the day!! #they had several back to back movie promotions which all were pretty fun! just a shame neither team was good back then #it was Oceans 12->SW:ROTS->Superman right? i can't remember if there was another #such a shame that neither mark nor seb were in RBR in 2005 when RBR was promoting ROTS #i think i actually wouldve exploded if there were pics of them w hayden or ewan(my prev fandom haha) #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #mark webber #matt damon

[todayisafridaynight]

seonhee and sawashiro both being associated with purple's the most evil shit in the world now who the fuck am i supposed to put in my purple card holder

#snap chats #sorry guys im one of those girlies who are super into card holders now </3 esp the ones you can customize </3 #highkey i got this cause i wanted to put my school id in it so i didnt have to take my wallet out every time i needed to get in my buildin #BUT ON THE LOWEST OF KEYS I GOT IT TO BE MENTALLY ILL TOO i was obsessed watchin people journal and make cute card holders #i dont get recc'd those vids anymore but i remember watchin em an bein like MAN i wanna do that.... thats so cute.. #on the real i think card holder customizing's healthy for me. it helps me learn to use things i buy LMAO #CAUSE WITH STICKERS AND THE SORT I HOARD THEM AND NEVER USE EM #and i always get buyer's guilt even if it's something small so i just think. i have to learn letting go and things not being perfect is ok #YOU BOUGHT IT SO USE IT like those ishin colognes... like the scent'll fade anyway i should use them while i can... #as much fun and therapeutic I Think as this was tho i cant imagine having a need to get another card holder... tragedy.. #regardless. this card holder's really cute </3 spoilers it's a kuromi one cause i needed more purple in my room i fuckin guess #the stickers were real cute.. also there was a lil baku... hi baku <3 #which leads me back to my problem. '''''''problem''''''' yeah i dont even have a printer here but when i go back to my ma's i wanna be sick #walmart lets you get photos on that GLOSSY PAPER... tempted... anyway no listen to my non problems #cause in my heart i do associate kuromi with seonhee alright it just makes sense. PLUS baku and joon-gi #COUNTERPOINT. HOWEVER. there is no image funnier than slapping a depressed middle aged man who prob has a worryin body count #into a card holder decorated with hearts and sweets and bows with a big ass heart keychain danglin off it. like cmon #big brain move is to print out one pic each of em and just swap em out every other day LOOOL #i just want an excuse to show off the card holder.. i get why people have these now this was fun and cute.... #ok bye i think ive been ill enough tonight #i thought i was gonna finish another comm but ☠️ ill just do them tomorrow morning they wont take long..

[caffeinatedopossum]

All of my friends are either suicidal or have anorexia or both and I don't know what to do with all of this worry

#weirdly the friends with anorexia are two thirds irls and not people from tumblr #suicidal is a mixed bag tho #idk what to do #im not exactly in a great place myself #but i want to help #idk if what I can do in this state (constant suicidal ideation and desire to relapse) is enough #it feels like its never ending and its never enough #and im not mad at my friends of course and its not theyre burdening me #its just that... i think maybe im jealous in some sick way #like they can tell theyre suicidal and its surprising and im worried and its the worst day of their life #if im suicidal its another Tuesday #i dont tell my friends anymore not because i cant ask for help but because they already know #it would be like texting your friends that you have to go to the bathroom #they know that obviously is a thing that happens because duh but 1 its mundane and 2 they cant do anything about #and 3 some people would say its gross #thankfully my friends arent those people but you know #i feel so horrible for being jealous #i miss when it wasnt normal to feel like this #i miss when i thought i couldnt live like this because now that i know i can #its not 'can i live with this' its 'how much can i take- #its an endurance battle and im so tired #i dont know where my limit is i only know it can get worse #i dont know how much worse #idk what to say... im just really sad and i wish i was better and a better person and a better friend

[xannerz]

i should have taken a sick day yday i got no work done lmao

#i cant rly today bc a lot of the items that i should have done yesterday really need to get done by eod #i have this bad habit of avoiding sick days as much as possible #and it ends up biting me in the ass #we have unlimited pto and my teammates call out sick as regularly as one would (ig) #but its my stupid paranoia like oh nope nope i cant you'll be put on a PIP(???Lmao??) #like i already took more vacation time than ever last year it's a bad look to take SICK days off!! 🤡 #doesnt help that im having those anxiety/stress-induced heart palps so im like. idk. extra fatigued & spacey lmao #and my mom's having another health scare on top of moving towards a couple surgeries so its like ?? like???/ #xangoeswah

[mechawolfie]

someone took ONE of my cookies.

#smudgy.txt #its nothing but also taking into consideration #we got two packs of cookies both nearly gone in the day they were gotten #because my mother and the 2 children shes training to ruin their own lives like she does hers #will stuff as many sweets as they can get in their faces without immediately getting sick #so freaking jumbo bags. hell one whole and a half. of candy. will be gone in a DAY #before i even know they were bought #so i had saved. 4 of each on a plate. foil on top. w my burger #n i took a few of one of them. didnt touch the other bc its my favorite kind #wanted to save them #i did notice someone peaked in there bc the foil was disturbed before id even got up #this morning #and i just. sighhh. #i cant say anything bc ive already got a strike against me for bothering to #speak up abt mother insisting on gettnig pets she herself wont take care of #and another strike for fucking being alive i guess #so. biting my tongue. whateverrrr. im gonna game

[redtippedcanines]

you only do the things you do for me out of obligation

#that's the difference between you and me. #u do something to help me and only stay as long as you need to and do just enough for u to check it off as task completed #and then u leave. always. #you don't actually enjoy spending time with me or anything. you just want to makd sure i stay alive #and it's frustrating because it just makes me feel guilty and shitty and want him to stop it and leave me alone forever. #like when your friend is away and leaves you in charge of their pet so you come by to feed them whenever you remember #like yh u care on some level because it's a cute dog and you'd be sad if it died but at the end of the day #it's just another item on ur to do list. #but for me hes my whole life. i wanna look after him because i would do anything to increase my interaction with him in any way #and i love every second of it. im happy to force him to go and make his food and sit down and eat because i like spending that time w him #and i want to be there for him. i genuinely enjoy it #like making sure he eats and takes his medicine when hes sick and encouraging him to sleep at a normal time #i genuinely like doing that stuff bc i like him and i will jump at the chance to have anything to do with him #but when he does similar stuff it just feels. awkward. we don't talk like we normally do and it just feels like he's monitering me #and it doesn't feel like we're spending time together. it feels like he's carrying out an obligation. which he is. #it feels so fucking wrong and uncomfortable. i cant stand it #i like when im helping him. that feels so natural #it's never awkward and i can enjoy spending that time with him #until im forced to leave #. fuck #❣

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#sometimes u have a day thats just so. i cant even. its seems 2023 is my year of rage #directionless rage. i guess im mad at me but instead of being directed inward it just goes out into empty space #im just fucking. im at my saturation point #its a good thing i stopped taking measurements yesterday and went to the store tomorrow bc im so fucking #mostly bc i noticed a problem with the code for a paper that is fucking less than a day away from being locked in on acceptance #and now its like fucking i have to go through and change a lot and im also less than 48hrs away from another massive project starting #that will occupy my whole fucking waking nightmare of a life. so its a good thing im level headed. its a good thing i can accept my fuck #ups with honestly. bc im so fucking. ive had it. im up to fucking here with everything and i just want it to be done #im fucking full of bitterness and black bile and i want to break things. and whose fault is it? fucking mine #bc im too fucking exhausted constantly all the time to fucking pay attention to what im doing and notic that a fucking function isnt #working properly. fuck u fuck u fuck u. so what r we gonna do abt it? #idk well see what my boss says. i already texted her that news and its good bc at least i caught it but god its so fucking irritating #god. will i b told off for this? maybe. i probably deserve it. haha if so that will send me for an absolute tailspin. i cannot stand to #feel ive done something wrong. even when i kno i have. last time i had a total freakout meltdown and made v bad choices and that wasnt even #this bad. so its a good thing im currently fairly stable bc the desire to make bad choices is very strong #im just so sick and tired of everything and i want to let things implode bc im vindictive against myself. but we must not do that we must #be reasonable. so idk we may have to withdraw the paper. whatever i dont give a fuck. itll get accepted elsewhere. i dont fucking care #leave me alone to dissolve into the dirt and set my data ablaze to be helpful to no one. erase my Prospective impack. i don't fucking care #anyway today sucked. i might have to stay up all night trying to fix this. ensuring that i fuck up the start of the looming project yayyyyy #i hate it here. i stopped having fun over a year ago #itll b fine. im just fucking. im full im impotent rage #unrelated

[andragoras-in-vanity]

crisp rat aside im really looking forward to the mario movie, it looks so cute but you all need to know that im mostly just here for bowser

#okay and charlie day i think hell be a great luigi because....hes just kinda like that ngl #also i think hes adorable and luigi is baby #but i also really hope they dont try to make peach all rah rah girl power bullshit #sis gets kidnapped evrry other week she cant fight for SHIT put that lady back in a dress #shes supposed to be wise and royal don't blow this for us by making her just another generic girl #i used to really love her because she was kinda danger prone daphne and imagine the golden banter between a refined princess and bowser??? #anyway im really sick of the overcompensation with female characters now adays #just because she cant fight doesnt mean her character is pointless or weak #but anyway im still just here for bowser anyway jack black take it away #i also so hope this is a joke and they dont actually let the crisp rat version see the light of day #YouTube gave me an edit with charles martinet and GOD hes just the only mario!!!! like mario is kinda dumb thats the appeal of him!!!! #hes a plumber who has no clue whats going on but goes with it cause hes a sweetheart!!!! i like to imagine he blushes too hard to speak #when he meets peach the first time!!!! also luigi gets pegged thats why hes with daisy but that's a whole other thing #ANYWAY. #im going to enjoy it as long as i dont have to listen to the fascist the entire time #but yeah bowser got me ready

[toastsnaffler]

I dont wanna do anything today its too hotttt

#i just wanna hang out but everyone is busyyyyy 😭 #and nobody gives a fuck abt what ive been up to as soon as theyve finished talking abt themselves they leave the conversation 😔 #ik i get annoying talking abt my interests but its not a 1 way street here 🥹🥹 #well maybe it is i guess. oh well #hanging out w the parkour lot again tmr so :D !! i made brownies to take with me.. thefastest way to make friends is to bring food :3 #and ill hang out a bit w my flatmate later bc i offered to make dinner. muahaha my sick and twisted plans to spend time w ppl #ik im probably just having a bad rsd day but i know my flatmate misses our old flatmates and sometimes its hard not to feel like its a- #personal thing like ik im not as fun or cool as they were but i cant rly do anything abt that bc im just me #it is what it is!! i hope she finds a way of making some new friends locally bc then ill feel less guilty for her being stuck w me #not that i feel like im stuck w her at all i love her shes great + i like talking to her + being around her !! #i just feel like theres an invisible standard im always being compared to. IDK!!!!! probably just insecurity on my part its ok #i feel like im always harping on abt that here SORRY anyway im gonna make dough and do another hour of job apps ily bye #.diaries

[locallibrarylover]

are you ever so stressed that. you cant do the thing youre stressing about because it makes you too stressed

#musings #like i literally cant even do my hw because the thought of it makes me so stressed i get sick! #yay!! #i was supposed to go back to school tomorrow but i think im gnna have to take another day to finish catching up

[cirillafionaelenriannon]

MY MANAGER PISSES ME THE FUCK OFFF at work today and she pulls me aside and is like You and other coworker walked right past a customer and i was on the phone and we made eye contact and kind of just laughed about it So please dont do that LIKE GIRL ? WHY R U ACTING LIKE THERES NOT 4 OTHER PEOPLE AROUND MEEE who can serve & also its literally not my fault if i didnt see ONE fucking customer & PEOPLE HAVE VOICES LIKE speak the FUCK up if you want to be served i swear to god they want me to have eyes in the back of my fucking head i dont think any regular human being could work a deli job because its the most stressful fucking thing in the world i am so tired of customers being like you must really get your steps in mf i walk to the bus stop at 6 in the morning to work an 8hr shift which i will be entirely on my feet for and then i walk back to the bus stop and then get on the bus and then walk home like i literally am living a type of hell u Could never comprehend because you cannot comprehend a customer service job . 

#text #and AURR IM SICK OF REDACTED WHO IS JUST LIke hehe let me do dishes my whole shift like why not come around the front #bc our manager is watching me like a fucking hawk #im literally soo wish there was some malicious compliance i could play into #but i swear sometimes she goes to ask me to serve AND I AM ALREADY SERVING ! #its just constant serving one customer after the other i cannot fucking wait #to quit this motherfucking job and kill myself because i cant take another day of her telling me serve customers or Like #keep my eye out IM SO STRESSED OUT AT THIS JOB ALL THE TIMEEEE #and this man today was trying to play jokes with me but they werent funny so i just kept saying okay #and he was like im just messing with you haha #and ik he felt damn awkward after like yeah u should feel fucking awkward IT WASNT FUNNY & DONT TRY TO JOKE AROUND WITH ME #the way that customers say things to me they think r funny or quirky or cute and im just like okay so what were you after #and then they dont know what to do w me im not here to play arounnd Brother do u want ham or fucking not #valkyrie.txt #also i need to clarify bc apparently in america a deli is something different to in australia #which americans literlaly dont fucking say shit abt it im not in the mood 4 it #its a delicatessen

[miutonium]

Rewatched spiderman nwh and I forgot how i kinda think doc ock is cute ahahaaha //clutches blog in fear

#i am sick like literally sick I ate pizza and lasagne at a bougie italian restaurant last weekend #and i have been suffering with stomach pain for 2 days now ajshsjskajao #so i just spend my days playing candy crush and watching movies and akdjsla i really like nwh #no i am not developing any crush sit down everyone #i have a boyfriend and 3 kids to take care at home i cant afford another one 🙃 #asuka speaks

[seungminhos]

anyone wanna convince me to just call in sick and skip work for tomorrow

#um .. 🤣 #idk why i feel sooo so guilty and bad doing this .. just bc i took a day off today (eid) and i have to take another day off next week #wednesday (driving test) and its not like.. i’ve ever called in sick.. so it’s fine.. #everyone has been telling me to just do it but omg idk why that i CANT #im gonna email them tmr morning if i ever decide to do it but like .. u guys .

[royaletiquette]

#ooc; #i woke up constantly last night from my body being totally tensed up and boy did that not stop today #but lol i can't take another sick day because i need to find out if i'm being allowed to step down or if i have to quit #i cant do full time anymore im too young to be this tired. #like thanks for the money but now i gotta have the time to spend it and enjoy myself

[kirishwima]

having to go to work tomorrow when literally so many things are going on is. insane. inhumane. fuck capitalism

#i stayed home today kept my grandpa company #and i was planning on skipping the whole week #but i cant bc. im only allowed 5 more days of sick leave #and ill take another day off on friday for another health related issue #i cant focus on anything i cant eat i cant sleep #i just wanna lay down in a ball and cry #do YOU want your doctor coming into work in this mood? no u dont #and yet i will #if i see that i really cant focus ill just not go thursday and friday idc #when my familys health is in jeopardy the last thing i give a fuck about is work #burrito talks #delete later