#but you cant survive in this world

[my-haunted-palace]

i don't know if i should fight to preserve my childish nature or fight to get rid of it

#im 17 now #but mentally im still 12 #childlike wonder is beautiful #but you cant survive in this world #if you dont grow up

[comradekatara]

i’ve always kind of assumed that lo and li are azulon’s younger twin sisters and that’s why they were foisted off on azula, because she’s also a younger sister to the crown prince. but the fact that we never actually see them firebend is strange, because it implies either that nonbenders are instructing one of the greatest firebenders in the world, or that they are firebenders who simply do not firebend. and i think that the latter is more interesting, because it reflects how their position as elderly women devalues any firepower they might provide to the empire, passive and subdued even as they train ozai’s favorite weapon.

they are the ones to most overtly illustrate azula’s precarious relationship to femininity, after all. for example, noting the position of her hair after she successfully lightningbends in “the avatar state,” or emphasizing azula’s beauty when they introduce her in “the awakening.” and it’s clear that azula doesn’t really like them, dismisses and avoids them whenever she gets the chance. she can’t even tell them apart. their very existence is almost a humiliation. a reminder to azula that this is who she is destined to become once she lives past her usefulness. not the imperious azulon, her namesake, raised above on a fiery dais, but his sisters, insignificant and functionally powerless.

so of course “almost isn’t good enough,” of course “one hair out of place” is a failure. the only way azula can prove her worth to the empire she has devoted her entire self to in a way that matters is, perhaps, by being perfect, by being better and stronger than the discarded women who came before her. but that, too, is a delusion, that any amount of excellence will reward her in a way that compensates for the erosion of her very humanity. and yet, it’s all she has to cling to. so she gives it her all to excel within a system that will never really care about her because she has deliberately been made incapable of imagining an alternative. of simply recognizing the system for the failure that it is, conceptualizing a world beyond the bars of her gilded cage, and leaving.

#SHES SO ANTHYCODED 😭😭😭😭 #azula #lo and li #azula&ozai #azulon #analysis #and someday together we’ll shine… if you even care . #this was supposed to be a 2 sentence post about lo and li btw 🥴 #ALSO to be clear im not shaming her for not leaving #azula has no concept of ‘leaving’ that is not a) in disgrace or b) in a bodybag #im saying that she CANT because ozai’s psychological and physical abuse is so potent and effective #and that’s not her fault at all #just to be clear #in my mind i am so anthypilled that im like yeah everyone understands the mechanisms and psychology of abuse #what it means to be end of the world #and also just how azula has completely internalized the logic that the only way to survive is within this framework #she’s not weak or foolish for not being able to imagine a different path #which is very obvious to me. but i realized that might not be obvious to everyone. so.

[stainedglass-sketchbook]

CHILDREN OF BHAAL

I adore the vibe of redeemed durge your sister killed your mind and took your place - it was the greatest gift she ever gave you

#orin the red #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 orin #the dark urge #cant stop thinking about orin #myart #durge vaye #still deciding what kind of c section scar to give vaye #went with a vertical scar for this one #the lore for vaye is that he got pretty far into his life as baahls chosen as far as milestones are concerned #became unholy assassin almost finished those plans to take over the world had a kid for sacrifice/back up bhaalspawn purposes ect #& was daddy's perfect little murder baby <3 until the lobotomy ofc #then only with memory loss was there was enough distance for him to actually face how fucked the whole situation #btw Orin did Vaye's top surgery c-section and lobotomy <3 #thats his whole medical team right there #when you wake up with no memory all you have is your body for evidence so i really leaned into that for vaye's scars #I gave him vash the stampede level scars lol #he wakes up knows 4 things: that hes been through metaphorical hell and survived that someone did a choppy job on his top surgery #that at one point he decided face + eye tattoos would be his thing and that hes had a child #Im debating whether or not Orin would outright kill the kid or if shed keep the kid around until theyre old enough to face her in a duel #Leaning towards the second #that means while vaye is wondering around faerun that kid is having arts and crafts time with auntie orin! (oh no oh no oh no)

[snekdood]

"if we make america worse and more of a dictatorship that will be even harder to unravel and make it the way we want the country to be, maybe then everyone will join our Glorious Revolution!" bb girl you cant even be in the same room with someone who thinks you should vote, how in tf do you think you're gonna unite people to fight in The Revolution with you? it's gonna be you and your 5 friends, i hate to break it to you.

#i dont think you realize how repelling you and your politics are to everyone else #you get all of your validation for how Smart You Are from your friends and ignore any kind of feedback that suggests you should #change or do something differently. thats the only reason you're so convinced average people will go along with you bc you keep getting #affirmation from the people who ALREADY agree with you- but you have NO IDEA how to bridge the gap between people who agree #with you and disagree with you. you're horrible at convincing people of your side of things outside of straight up guilt tripping them #or bullying them like a highschooler. im sorry but the tools you learned to survive with as a kid aren't gonna help you in this situation. #the ONLY THING you can come up with to bridge that gap is a bloody revolution. thats how bad you are at this. #and you're also so bad at this and unimaginative that you dont even realize how THAT might not even be enough. #you cant imagine ANY kind of avenue to getting people to change AT ALL outside of blood and fire. and thats why people call you #an authoritarian. #i'll be honest- i really do think the world would be a better place if we did incremental change under a democratic president who wont #set the world on fire vs the godkingemperor republican WHO WONT EVEN LISTEN TO YOU AT ALL EVER AND MIGHT KILL YOU #FOR PUTTING UP A STINK. idk if you noticed but if that evil fuck gets into office we are severely outnumbered if he gets police #n shit to go after his own citizens. letting trump win is making this battle so much harder than it needs to be. #you are choosing trying to fix the world while its exploding vs trying to fix it before it explodes at all. #what is this like a procrastination thing? you wanna wait till the last minute to try? idfgi. wtf is wrong with you #throwing minority lives away to prove a point. and then you try to tell me you care. gtfoh. #accelerationists should never be taken seriously.

[druidonity2]

My last two brain cells being investigated for identity theft and corruption.

#world of warcraft #varian wrynn #warcraft #i drew it when everyone was doing the meme and i realized i should post this before i forget #but like come on its perfect #I love these two and lowkey sad that more people don't give carefree dontgiveafuck dumbass charmed varian the fanwork he deserves #He was the one who sacrificed himself thinking that he would die so that Logosh could survive #BRO SAID “SHE SHALL NOT HAVE YOU” WHEN HE SAVED LOGOSH HE WAS GONNA SACRIFICE HIMSELF HES THE BEST #AND NOBODY REMEMBERS HIMM #I mean they do i guess but like LoGosh is more talked about and like i recongize its harder to talk about Charmed Varian when he doesnt hav #a unique name #and i joke hes not a dumbass hes really smart and caring and is very very lucky that his sacrifice actually saved them both because logosh #would not be able to rule by himself #I have an au where onyxia split anduin in a last act of defience before death and they cant combine the boys without risking his life and #as he grows older the twin boys flaws grow and grow until it dystroies their relationships and minds and theyre forced to find a fix #basically my headcanon is that logosh would've succumbed to his flaws as king alone and would not have succeeded as king as long as #the Varian we know did

[greensupremetangerine]

PSA that harassing, bullying, and kicking a person out of a fandom is toxic behavior. A difference in opinions does not warrant anonymous hate, and claiming it wasnt that bad and there's no proof because they didn't post the hate doesn't retract the fact that something happened to make them deactivate their account.

Fandoms are supposed to be places of community, enjoyment, and celebration of a mutually liked piece of media. There isn't room for hate, because the concept of a fandom does not naturally account for it.

If someone says something you dont like, it does not give you the right or responsibility to "put them in their place" or "teach them what's right" or whatever. A person is allowed to have their own thoughts and opinions. You can retort, discuss, disagree, hell you can even block them, but for the love of god don't single them out and make them a villain. It doesn't automatically make you the right side if they stop talking.

Also, the anonymous button isn't for keeping the blame off yourself. It's not for sending a dozen death threats while still looking pretty and proper on your blog. The person recieving anons has no way to disengage from the conversation. They cannot block, the best they can do is disable anons and stop the kind, shy people from asking silly questions or hope you give up and stop. The last resort is completely deleting your account, and again, its not a sign of your victory, it's a sign of the fandom' loss, and it is a sign that you are the vicious aggressor.

If youre struggling to stop doing these things, by no means am I a saint or a therapist, but removing yourself from the situation and letting yourself breathe, even for a moment, will probably help a lot with your relationships and mental health. I'm a believer that people can change and it is in human nature to do so, even if it's hard. It's a conscious decision to be a good person (I'm not calling you evil) and being a kind person is fulfilling in amazing ways.

tl;dr don't harass people :( it doesn't give you the high ground and it makes the fandom a worse place.

#this is about shinybluebirdwizard #and spyxfamily #the show is about creating peace and making a world where children dont have to cry #so why is the fandom making a world that grown adults cant handle being in? #if you drive out the biggest contributors because they jokingly said yor is the “less liked parent” #again #jokingly #then youre going to run out of people to talk to #youre going to be standing in a wasteland and asking why no one likes your show anymore #humanity survives and thrives through community #spy x family #personal rant #spyxfamily #fandom #toxicity #please dont make the fandom unlivable #edit i have no proof that shinybluebirdwizard got death threats #i dont know everything about the situation so i did not want to extrapolate and cause confusion #id like to believe that it didnt happen but we cant prove that

[paronymph]

they should create a new word for yearning specifically about aros and/or aces yearning because there is nothing that exists that comes close to expressing what we feel.

#aromantic #asexual #aromantic asexual #aroace #it's just. #i love my identity and all #but it's hard to survive in this allo world #without wanting and yearning something that apparently everyone else gets to feel #sometimes you just want to vent about the unfairness but all you can do is blog on tumblr dot com #romantic love sounds so special and magical and im aware it's probably not like that #but even the swooping crushes and honeymoon phases just sound unreal to me and i wish it wasnt like that #yes obv being aro/ace is a spectrum and many of us can feel romantic love #but this is for those like me who just. cant.

[its-not-a-pen]

art for "Beans of various types" I feel like something bad is going to happen to me.

I feel like something bad has happened.

It hasn’t reached me yet, but it’s on its way.

And it’s getting closer.

And I don’t feel ready.

I feel like I can’t do anything.

--Lake Mungo (2008)

What a lovely day to be young, handsome and doomed by the narrative!

#FAQ: #“op what fandom?” chinese history RPF/romance of the three kingdoms (also tagged as “san guo”) #my writing #romance of the three kingoms #“my Heir Apparent is fine” your Heir Apparent is haunting his own life before it's even over. #you raised him to be a son and you raised his bothers to be warlords #he cant survive in this new world you've created and he can't go back to the way things use to be. you've forced him into a role he doesnt #want to play and he's too dutiful to bow out. he sees the lights dimming but he has to stay on stage until the curtain falls.

[orpheuslament]

on the way back from the gym i saw two teenage girls on scooters in the middle of the road & they kept crossing each other & interlocking their feet & they looked like they were having so much fun i hope they have the best summer of their life

#it did make me fucking miserable bc i lost all my teenage years to crippling mental illness + being closeted so i never got to experience #that feeling of freedom. or at least i cant remember & i cant help but feel like something was stolen from me #i wish i could grab 13 year old dante by the shoulders & tell them to please please please make the most out of it #i know it feels like the world is going to end every single day but theres so many beautiful things to experience #& one day you will be 25 & you will miss yr friends & ask yourself why you wasted so much time #i know its not your fault you were just trying to survive & you did do beautiful things!!! but God #dante.txt

[77ngiez]

BRO TRUST THE FUCKING STALKER?!?!?!?!

#the zone is a place thats claimed so many lives #its a place that is dangerous wild unpredictable #its like another world. one you cant ever fully understand or itll break you #it takes what it wants from you. not the other way around. it lets you steal things because it wants to. when its done with you youll know #it chews you up and spits you out like life itself #listen to the fucking stalker when he tells you whats safest. this is a man who bas survived everything the zone has thrown at him #you listen or you die. thats the way it is #sorry i think my sanya kin mems came out a little with that one anyway this guy is stupid as fuck #77ngiez.txt #77ngiez stalker liveblog

[hourlyeternaldiva]

#hourly eternal diva #HED 18 #so this what my post on my main was about #idk why they grabbed a section about the last surviving world war 1 veteran but here we are #the guy's name is Lazare Ponticelli #funnily enough while world war 1 is on full display in this screenshot they conveniently crop the parts about world war 2 #im 99.9% sure it was just placeholder text but #its still odd. because spoilers but theres gonna be a book next hour that reads “ARCHAEOLOGY” so they knew the english term for it #but they didnt pull from a wikipedia article about archaeology and instead some world war 1 veteran??? #idk. you guys can probably connect the dots but i sure cant #and if you squint you can still see the footnote marks from wikipedia ([b] for example) lol

[problemcore]

hiiii halfway? thru the story. hard as hell to avoid spoilers online i need to stay away 😭 rant in tags, spoilers for 2.2 . i already reached 30 tags wow 💀

#chris noises #hsr #spoilers ahead -> #/////////////////////////////////////////////// #ROBIIIIIIINNNNN WAAAAHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭 #her unwavering love and belief in humans to survive against all odds....... #her inherent kindness and desire to help everyone #SHE IS HARMONY !!! THATS WHAT HARMONY IS ALL ABOUTTT !!!!! #i love sunday but he's Slightly pissing me off rn #is this really what you believe in..... that the weak must die so the strong can live... that its the only way for life to continue.... #can't wait to beat him up later lol #AGHHH I LOVE YOU SUNDAY BUT YOU MAKE ME SO CONFLICTED !!!!!! #oh the gallagher stuff was so interesting....... the memory zone memes being his Pets. thats funny #i love you gallagher im sorry i called you ugly a few updates ago.... #cant even begin to talk about firefly.... genuinely lights up my world everytime she's on screen #BLADIEEE THE BLADIE CAMEO???? #STELLARON HUNTERS ARE SUCH A FAMILYYYYYYYYYY WAAAAAAA #acheron and black swan 🥹 i love how black swan is Terrified of her and yet constantly looks out for her #girl Me Too... #acheron agh the heartache you bring me. girl i will get you ibuprofen i promise. #dan heng 💜💜💜💜💜💜 no complaints as usual. perfect boy. im so glad he's out of his depressive episode so we can see him on penacony 😭😭 #boothill. #i have nothing to say about him. #did i miss anyone.... #mm OH MISHA. MY SON. i cannot wait to see how it will all connect back to him #he IS connected to mikhail. no doubt in my heart #i wonder if after this update he'll finally board the express .... my son my boy.... #im so excited to see jing yuan later #and.... aaaahhhhhh my wife the love of my life. aventurine come back home i miss you #its been a month im experiencing wife withdrawal (<- copyrighted michael egotokill material do not use without express permission)

[saturnisfallingdown]

[ID: An edited tweet from "chapo from chapos trap house", edited to read "Y'all are calling MCR songs with normal vocals 'whiny emo' smh. If you heard the whiny emo I listen to you'd hurl". End ID]

#trying to introduce someone to like. jimmy eat world. #and being told its too whiny is such a good litmus test like oooh you would never like circa survive ok good to know #though it is always tragic like you cant enjoy DUNES?? OR THURSDAY?? because you dont like the vocals THAT MUCH >???? #OPEN YOUR HEART.... i know you would love this music.... i know its a personal preference thing but please but one chance... #mcr

[thatumbrellaoni]

the funniest thing tbh

YUGI: Bakura-kun! Whatever you do, don't wear the Millennium Ring! It's too dangerous! (ie. "Only I get to be possessed by an ancient Egyptian spirit ok?)

RYOU: Yup! Don't worry! (ie. I am lying to you ^^)

you two really shouldve been better friends... your bond shouldve been central because of what your roles literally are in the story!!! so much potential!!!

#bakura ryou #mutou yugi #ryou bakura #yugi mutou #ygo #yugioh #this reread is making my heart hurt cuz now I see every single thing we couldve had #I wont survive memory world #you cant take yugioh out of the girl #what is up with the bakuras

[anydaynowany]

i listened to malevolent part 40 and all i got was this lousy emotional damage

#malevolent #spoilers in the tags #just the music in this hurts at this point #arthur giving up oscar….. #andddd there is larson #i feel as if i’m in two places at once FUCK #god what if he does get sent back into the dark world #i need you????? jesus christ #SEPARATE #love how awkward it is whenever someone mentions it and now they actually have a way jfc #and theres the butcher great #john losing his humanity i cant breathe #HOLY SHIT NOEL #YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY KING IN THIS PLACE YES JOHN #THE UNDEFEATED I AM DEAD #FUCK NO NOT NOEL FUCKKKKK #trust me this one last time oh i am not surviving this #FUCKING KAYNE NO GO AWAY #DEAL REVEAL TIME IM NOT READY #HE WAS IN THE DARK WORLD ALREADY???? NOOOO #defeated?!? what do you mean what does that mean kayne fuck i dont even want to know #wait can they really just leave??? i dont buy it #what the fuck happened on the dark world holy fuck #FUCK HE KNOWS HE LIED FUCK #FUCKING KAYNE ALWAYS AT THE SCENE OF THE CRIME #thats enough of you whoever you are ahwjsjsj thats how i feel about kayne #another head exploded another day in malevolent ! #okay i like kayne only when hes pulling peoples eyes out #DO NOT GO WITH HIM ARTHUR WHAT THE FUCK #THATS IT???? WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED WHAT WHAT WHYA QHWLSKSK

[centi-pedve]

"all these scary minecraft mods just take away the fear of the unknown so now its not scary and this mod is useless" counterpoint: have seen many hardy fellows shit their pants about them

#also if you dont find Beasts scary you dont have to download the Scary Beasts mod #we notice a lot of discussions around what is and is not scary fails to consider real world incidents #some people find cave noises scary because you never get your questions about them answered #however we can just turn them off and we do. its too easy to avoid once we get spooked #introducing a mod in which those cave noises are connected to survival such as locating scary creachure based on noise #forces us to hear those noises with the added information that they are connected to real threats so we cant reason ourselves out of fear #like dunno guys. what if we just find different things scary