#but im black what did i expect

[nerves-nebula]

*voice of exhaustion* you guys are like, so moronically white

#nnstuff #rambling #this is about the murderbot fandom. dont talk to me about it but y'all annoying as hell sometimes #but im black what did i expect #had one critical thought about murderbot casting #and then decided that its actually groundbreaking that its being played by a white man because... why exactly? #thats literally seen as the default. there's nothing challenging about a white man playing a characater who has no gender #white men have played all kinds of characters including women and minorities #specifically because being a white man is seen as the default experience. so of course a white man can play a genderless robot #its not groundbreaking. no one is gonna be shook by a white man playing a robot saying that it has no gender #you guys are sooooo easily swayed its embarrassing #you know what would've been really cool and played into the themes of un-personhood within capitalism? #a trans black person. or even just A Black Person #a black man would've been doubly good imo because black men are seen as hyper masculine and aggressive #so it having no gender would push against that #and a black women could make the audience think about what traits they see as gendered #and both would make u think about how race plays into being owned under capitalism #and why it would unexpected to see that kind of face on a badass security construct #that would've been something at least

[hella1975]

it's been pointed out on here before that a lot of terf arguments are actually rooted in sexist idealology that feminists fought and died to unnormalise decades ago and that's its own kettle of fish but one thing i also find very frustrating about this so called 'radical' feminism is that it's so... defeatist? like the moment you categorically label an entire section of society as Bad and Inherently Evil then there's also the implication that nothing can be done about it, and it completely takes all accountability away. saying all men are evil is just another way of saying boys will be boys. he raped her because he's a man. he hit her because he's a man. he didn't listen because he's a man - it's almost offensively oversimplified. there's no point trying to fix this issue in society because men are just Like That, okay! so now what? it's not like they're going anywhere, so you just accept that 50% of the population are evil and will forever treat you terribly and there's nothing to be done about it bc they're biologically predisposed to it? like is that fr the argument here? you're soooo radical for that

#this is coming from someone who used to very genuinely be a misandrist #ironically it was only when i started actually analysing my own feminism that i got MORE confrontational with men #and started respecting my boundaries a lot better BECAUSE i started holding them accountable again #like when men treat me like shit nowadays i dont just write it off as 'what did you expect? he's a man' i get MAD about it #because i EXPECT BETTER FROM THEM even if it's just tiny shit women have to deal with daily #i hold them to just as high a standard as im held to and i make them take accountability when they dont meet that #and whether you realise it or not even on a subconscious level the MOMENT you black-and-white blanket statement all men as bad #you stop holding them accountable. #like it is literally just boys will be boys. do terfs seriously not realise they're sending feminism BACKWARDS #like if a girl came to me with her trauma and people - other girls no less - tried to comfort her with 'yeah all men are evil' #id be fucking furious. like no he did that because he was a piece of shit that had it normalised to him that women arent to be respected #dont you dare let him off the hook with something as simple and uncritical as 'he's a man' #i promise you men like that will MUCH prefer a blanket statement such as 'all men are as bad as each other' #than actually being point blank told they're an abuser or a rapist. because being lumped together is comfortable and even empowering #wheras isolating their behaviour with words that are Bad and Ugly (LIKE 'rapist') is not comfortable at all and has heavy connotations #idk i dont think radical feminism is always bad on its own it can be v liberating. just terfs and misandrists that i have a problem with #dropping this post in a piranha tank and closing tumblr knowing im gonna have some thirty year old karen yelling at me within 5 mins #i probably wont respond to any terf comments bc they literally mentally exhaust me with their stupidity #but that also depends on my mood and ability to keep my mouth shut LMFAO we shall see

[thecornerofegg]

Love confessions 💛💕

#wolfstar #wolfstar fanart #the marauders #marauders era #marauders #marauders fanart #marauders fandom #traditional art #traditional drawing #sketchbook #sketchbooking #my artwork #my art #AAAHHHHHHHH THEYRE SO CUTE #IM PRETTY HAPPY WITH THIS THING #scrapbooking #yes i use my sketchbook as a scrapbook/journal what did you expect of me? #remus x sirius #sirius black #remus lupin #remus and sirius

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[anxious-chaos-art]

What if I made a short story....haha jk... unless?👀👀👀

Edit: here it is!

Vers without text

#MY FIRST FINISHED PEICE OF DIGITAL!!! #PLEASE CLAP!!!! #dont zoom in too much it was INCREDIBLY compressed #what if I didn't post art for almost a year and suddenly busted in with a WHOLE SHORT STORY #i bet most of you guys forgot i did art huh #pls hype me up im not all that confident in my coloring skills #the actual comic is in black and white for that reason #its also over 12 pages even though it was only supposed to be 3 to 5 #this was for a art class and you guys are seeing thia before my art teacher be thankful #im kind of rambling here but i have been drawing SO MANY TREES recently #its kind of weird i didnt expect to do it so much #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #artwork #oc art #original art #art #ocs #my ocs #oc #short story #comic #fae #faerie #fae folk #fairys #👀👀👀 #coming to a tumblr near you soon! #preview

[firstofficerkittycat]

when the doctor asked emma grayling who clara is and she was like "she's a perfectly ordinary girl shes very clever and she's more scared than she lets on is that not enough" literally me to moffat

#clara oswald #doctor who #the fucking loss i experienced in bells of st john #couldnt even allow her to be good at hacking on her own da spoon men had to boost her iq<3 #that was the beginning of the end #she was such an interesting and derranged character she deserved more and by more i mean less #so so much less #she was interesting in her own right she did not need that other shit #like she literally had her own time lord victorious moment she saw the universe from birth to death in hide and it changed her #she kept doing increasingly more reckless shit because she went to space to fill a hole she was not trying or expecting to live that long #and she hates it when the doctor tries to be responsible for her #shes always like i never asked you to protect me!!! which is a wild take she refuses to recognise him as the one who can keep her alive in #environments she has never experienced before #she went with him to have some wacky fun and then she saw horrors beyond comprehension and went oh. ok. i can be god too #she looked at the doctor and went oh it's not that you're special it's that your circumstances give you power. and now i have power too #and i have power over you i can make you do things for me #that shit was so good #and like to be clear im not saying she cant have her whole orphan black thing going on #but like what did it actually do for her as a character? it couldve done a lot but she wasnt the focus of any of it #also p much everyone on this show has sacrificed themselves for the doctor it is not a defining trait #what defines her as a character is not that she was Born To Save The Doctor its that she thinks like this #nobodys ever safe!!!!! ive never asked you for that ever!!!

[succulent-mud]

Imagine bringing a cup of coffee to Reaperneki but the mug is that kind of mugs with a little animal in the bottom.

Yes, the chicken is special there.

#silly thoughts #it's 4 am don't expect me to act normal (I never do) #what would be his reaction tho #i think its funny imagining him looking at the mug #not a single left of feelings behind his eyes but he isn't stoping from looking at the mug #maybe a bit of annoyance? #since furuta did something similar but like. #he can't take the chicken out of the mug now #im sure at some point (extremly soon) he would inmediately recognize what mug and what kind of mugnimal the mug has #tokyo ghoul #black reaper kaneki #kaneki ken

[endlesslytired]

So WOW. So much. So so much. Mei ritual accidentally went overdrive.

Bonus: That scene.

#needless to say a lot happened in that stream that made my brain fry #I've been waiting for Acheron since the reveal and my god she's even more than i expected back then #was tempted by black swan and yes i will get her next time #(i say that about many characters. i have a lot of passes saved up rn but im planning on getting robin if things work out but maybe!) #i haven't included it but i did talk about how much i like aventurine. my second fav hoyo guy #unfortunately i wasn't able to process a lot of what was talked about him because of what preceded it #but i got myself together when they spoke about his boss fight and im HYPE #gallagher is also neat. he's kinda a less emo batman diluc #another male healer! #overall im hype as hell and cannot wait #honkai star rail #hsr acheron #hsr black swan

[luvring]

just complained about my group to my irls and i'm pretty sure this has genuinely motivated me to speak in class because i Cannot let my prof think my critical thinking abilities are the same as theirs

#💬nia.rambles #rant fr// #guys im srsly sick thinking about it #LIKE THERE WERE SO MANY MOMENTS WHERE I WAS JUST ?? #'im not saying to beat your kid black and blue but discipline is different across cultures and #i just dont think this should be an area of exploration like its worked for hundreds of years' #? YOU AS A WOMAN OF COLOUR HAVE NEVER HEARD OF INTERGENERATIONAL TRAUMA? #like why are you implying you dont like gentle parenting why are you making a strawman DONT PISS ME OFF #then white guy speaking way too loud to my right is throwing in words he DOESNT understand and saying the same things over and over #'from a Sociological Contemporary perspective' be serious. 'it comes back to nature vs nurture again' Can you Stop Tlalkingplapewmj #and i bring up gender and he goes smth smth gender is just such a sensitive topic then the 2 other girls Agree #and they wouldnt let me talk and even if i did they obviously wouldnt know what i was talking about #because why are you asking what post structuralism is THAT WAS A MAIN TOPIC AND DEFINITION OF LAST CLASS??? 😭😭 #they wouldnt answer the question properly and repeat the same basic vaguely connected ideas the Entire time #like do i look like i gaf abt different body standards/expectations for football players MOVE ON ITS BEEN 10 MINUTES #like i want to talk about enforced binaries in queer spaces and Oh my god i just remembered #they were like. lgbt studies/discussion is just so recent and i was like. Its literally discussed In the reading. but None of u finished it #OHH IM PISSED OFF. IM SO PISSED OFF #and im so mad bc the discussion q's were Good and if i was w my irls wed have such a good convo but NO!!!! #whatever. Whatever im going to start raising my hand in class im so fr i got lightheaded complaining about this IMSOMADBSJF

[roostertuftart]

Also, and in complete fairness I haven’t seen this said yet, but if anyone does think it’s OOC for Kyle and Tolkien in this episode (as I do see on a surface level an argument for it being so since both of them are not particularly known for indulging in kinda “silly” stuff) I think, idk. Consider reevaluating the characters a bit. Assume you’re wrong in your interpretation of them before assuming it’s the creator’s who don’t know what they’re doing! I’m not saying Matt and Trey are flawless about character consistency by any means, but I do think they’d be proven to put a lot of care and effort into characterization especially recently and especially with the kids. There’s a number of reasons this makes sense for both Kyle and Tolkien and may not seem obvious at first, not to mention they are still just cringey kids above being the serious “mature” ones in their groups and it makes sense they’d be silly sometimes or indulge in fun things like TikTok, cringey or not. It’s honestly really nice to see them do so, especially with their personalities not changing otherwise, because it creates so much more of a well grounded basis for them as characters. Real people are never the serious ones all of the time, and honestly that’s never even exactly what Tolkien and Kyle were written to be!

They’ve always had less serious sides, had moments where they placed the less elegant and mature part for fun, and we see that here in such a real way. We see them goofing off and making fun stupid videos and enjoying the attention and making of them, and taking it seriously and Whatnot- But we also still see them being themselves in the same vein outside of when they’re making their videos which is natural and really nice! Nothing has changed ultimately! It’s just a new side to them both and I love seeing them just be… Happy! Relaxed! Chill! And indulging in an interest they found they shared and loving each other’s company. It’s really sweet!

#if it’s not obvious #this is coming from some projection admittedly! #again not at all bc I find this ooc #but there’s a part of me like wow! these characters? did not expect it from THEM specifically #and if I’m feeling it #im sure others are #so I want to talk about it before it comes up #kyle broflovski #tolkien black #cupid ye spoilers #South Park meta #kinda #cupid Ye #I’ve always felt that unless given no other option accusing a creator of being ooc is lazy #rather we should work to adjust our own views and see where we might have misunderstood a character #this is especially relevant in characters who change as much as sp ones do #and who aren’t generally apart of a greater storyline that generally necessitates a single line of character growth #with the long running slice of life nature of South Park it’s going to have a lot of oh! wow okay that character likes that? #and usually this makes sense if you think about it long enough. it’s like learning new traits to add to your idea of a character #I really enjoy that aspect of sp actually. just the expansion of what these characters are and yet a consistency #plus Kyle especially needs to be given more interests so this is rly good

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#i still havent been able to get the pic of my entire family celebrating the holidays together out of my head. #my parents ruined every christmas they could. every holiday. every birthday. everything. there could be nothing special #w/o my dad calling my mother a fat pig or my mom interrupting his dinner prayer to call him a lying hypocrite. #w/o police getting involved&having to explain why my dad had my mom in a headlock or my mom had punched him in the face. #we could have nothing bc their need for misery outweighed their desire to give their children any fucking joy #every fucking time. #but i have to sit here&wonder if im in the wrong bc im being gaslit into missing a family+memories we all know damn well #never fucking happened. i blacked out half my fucking childhood&still know thats true. #i have to wonder if maybe-- just maybe-- they would actually apologize for everything they did if i ever called or wrote. #if maybe they would welcome me back w/o expecting an apology From Me. #but then i remember how the first thing my mother said when getting in touch w me after two years was how disappointed she was in me #for not thinking to tell anyone in the family that i was homeless. how selfish i was for it. #how she only contacted me after getting my email address-- the same one ive had since high school-- from family #bc shed been crying to our entire extended family about how worried she was about me so they managed to find my gofundme #&not a single person in my family donated to it-- but they all had a lot to say about it. didnt they. #&somehow i know that theres nothing for me w any of them. nothing at all but more disappointment. #&photos of all of them smiling that i have to remind myself are definitely not real. #bc how many of those exact photos had i been in? no matter what the answer is i dont remember a single one being real.

[xxxregulusblackxxx]

Did I get any work done today? No. But you brought home a cat after I had a mental breakdown what the hell did you expect?

#cat #mentel health #im okay #i promise #i saw a cat on the TV and say that it was really cuddly and I wanted one and then a stray followed me home #but he's actually not a stray #He got abandoned #poor thing #i think he's only been a stray for a week or so tho #hes so friendly #And such a good boy #His name is Percy #After Percy Jackson #He has a blue collar #i love him #already #i was just cuddling with him for hours #He climbed all over me #how am i not supposed to fall in love #You gave a cat to a Regulus Black kinnie #What did you expect

[padfootswhiskers]

made the mistake of listening to an hp podcast. mfs really be thinking lupin was a better father figure to harry than sirius. im out

#this guy really said I don’t get why people love sirius #or why Harry does tbh #because lupin did so much more for him #like my bro what are you smoking #im so upset it’s irrational SIRIUS DESERVES SO MUCH BETTER #i mean I’m not even surprised this guy also thought that ‘angsty’ Harry in book 5 is ‘annoying as fuck’ when #you know his um. only remaining family fucking died. #but alright you absolute asshole. let’s expect a fifteen year old kid to be absolutely ok with that #FUCK. im pissed #sirius black

[chanstopher]

#eye- #on the one hand its not whitewashed... #but that hair I am PERPLEXED #bang chan #Christopher bang #i dont hate the hair im just lost as to why its not just all blue assftgcx #did they take this BEFORE maniac like??? #whatever skz timeline never makes sense #he looks gorgeous and thats what matters azfgx #i was expecting him to be more ring leadery? #but i will take him in a black jacket any day <3

[end-of--the-line]

bought myself house of leaves as a late christmas gift and finished it last night at like 4am in a haze. oh my god .bro . holy shit

#voice of god #genuinely new favourite book #i was like damn this christmas sucks im going to do something nice for myself and get a book ive wanted since fucking my house.wad #which will fuck me up in an expected way and be cool right #it fucked me up in an unexpected way . #its very fucking good tho #i read parts of it on call which was funny because the commentary from the peanut gallery was mostly just ''uh oh'' or ''thats normal'' #but for the most part it was alone in my pitch black room which did not contribute to any sense of security #tldr book rules maybe dont read it if you have delusions about reality and getting hunted #which is a warning i did not follow myself whatsoever #anyway. what was i saying #good book would get lost in that house again . justice for tom navidson god dammit #i have more to say i just need to like stew in my thoughts. this post is inadequate

[kick-out-at-one]

People out here really thinking this show wasnt an absolute banger from start to finish? Lol ok then sucks to be you I guess. I had a grand ole time.

#aew #jungle boy squash advanced the story line #the acclaimed were an afrer thought in booking that got over with thr crowd more then anyone expected #punk was always going to win #toni was always going to win #the preshow was fire #jericho cheating advances the plot #house of black should have won to look stronger but the match was entertaining and fun #jade isnt going to loose yet they are going to kilk it for all its worth #did you all forget about wardlow and ftr? with Finley Harword coming out and being adorable? #i dont know what im forgetting right now #this show was great