#but i'm turning 24 in about an hour

[inejghavertz]

having a moment

#like strictly just ended and it felt like watching layton and nikita filled up my life with such unexpected warmth and joy for a bit and now #it's over and i can't tell how i'm feeling bc no way did i think that i'd be so invested in strictly this year #but i'm turning 24 in about an hour #and i'm just thinking about all the things that have come and gone over the last couple of years #like how i started off on here as a chelsea blog and how i barely post about them anymore #and how i haven't posted about lewis or ef uno in a while after having been so invested for the last couple of years #like wow things really just come and go and ebb and flow like this #i'm getting older and i don't know where i'm going or what kind of things will be coming into my life #but i hope they are warm #bc even with all the stress that sports and fandom have brought me there was warmth and joy and lots of love and i remember it #i don't want to grow up #but i will #and i will make it something good

[memorizingthedigitsofpi]

I don't know what it is about people who only write longfic, but they can't seem to grasp what I mean when I write a post about oneshots.

I'll say, "you don't have to write the boring parts in order to write the scene that interests you" and they'll hear, "write your story out of order and start with the fun stuff so that you have motivation to write the rest."

I'll say, "here are a bunch of ideas that you can write in 1K or less!" and I'll get a bunch of, "bold of you to assume I won't write 30K on each of these"

I'll say, "a 500 word fic written in the middle of the night with a lightning bolt of inspiration and a dose of insomnia is one of the true joys in life" and they'll respond with, "Yeah. After I write the other 20K around it, maybe I'll post it."

Why do so many people refuse to acknowledge that oneshots exist and are awesome and are a valid storytelling medium?

I'm sorry you need 50K of buildup in order to get an emotional payoff but that sounds like a skill issue. Git gud.

#I'm waiting 24 hours #and posting this on my personal account #but holy GOD am I annoyed #for the millionth time #this always happens #it's like when I write about loving kudos and everyone turns it into a post about comments #THAT'S NOT THE CONVERSATION JAN!

[pastafossa]

I had a hilarious TRT-related hiccup earlier today when I was seeing a museum with a friend who was in the area.

So we met up, and she and her partner hop into my car. Naturally, I have some music playing softly in the background, specifically the official TRT playlist cause I wasn't thinking and had Matt and Jane on the brain. And after a few songs, as we're driving to the museum and chatting, she, in clearly somewhat puzzled tone, is like, 'what is this you're listening to?' because there's a really random assortment of styles on there thanks to recs from me, all ya'll, my sis, and spotify itself.

And my brain... stalls.

Because these people in the car are Friends but not Fanfic Friends and neither of them even know what fanfiction is. And any explanation will potentially launch a cascading wave of further fanfic explanations until I'm eventually discussing Star Trek slash back in Ye Olden Fandom Times (TM) or knowing me going further back to Dante's Divine Comedy in the 1300s, which was not a powerpoint presentation we had time for. Yet, 'yes this is a 9 hour playlist put together by me and a bunch of readers of my stuff, and by stuff I mean a really long free story I've written based on a tv show simply because I am obsessed, no I do not know all of them personally but we all talk regularly and they bring me songs for the fic sometimes like cats laying birds at the feet of their humans only instead of feeling shock and horror I am delighted and have collected them for the past 3 years and that is why my playlist is gloriously broad in style and scope' is also likely to launch us into explanations we do not have time for. Lying never occurs to me.

"Um. Uh. This is... It's... some... friends who read some of my online work and made a playlist about it."

Her, in the tone that says she knows I'm full of shit and keeping an entire novel series of information to myself: "Oh. That sounds nice."

Nailed it.

You're all my friends now, it's official.

#the red thread #you can't get me talking about fanfiction because then i'm going to turn it into a presentation #and that car ride was 8 minutes long we did not have time for my dissertation #which would have led to explanations of fanfic as well as why i have for now written 900k words and am headed to 1 mill #and also likely her asking 'are you ok' as i froth wildly about matt murdock and what he means to me #but also about LOVING ALL YA'LL and the ART and the MUSIC and then general segue into my love for the creative community #that is twined into fandom itself #WE. DO. NOT. HAVE. TIME. #so instead you were all just a couple friends who read a lil thing of mine and made me a nice lil playlist that is somehow 9 hours long #FUN FACT THE AVERAGE READ TIME FOR TRT IS 37 HOURS AND SO THE PLAYLIST WILL BE WITH YOU FOR 24% OF IT BEFORE LOOPING

[theflyingfeeling]

I rewatched some old Aleksi streams today and sigh I can’t believe they really are late night boyfriends and I can’t believe Aleksi really said Olli is the best chef and he also said they always share a room and the others tease them and I can’t believe he called loafers ollimatela shoes and they really just do casually call each other whenever they want and answer immediately and and and- sigh 😭😭💗💞💓💖

it's not just the delulu, it really is like that and it's killing meeeeeee 🥺😭😩

just the other day (or was it this morning? 🤔) I was actually thinking how they spend sooooooo much time together already because of the whole band thing, and STILL they facetime and call and text each other regularly outside the band stuff and Olli sends Aleksi his guitar riffs so Aleksi can use them in his remixes and Olli apparently drops everything to amuse Aleksi for his silly twitch streams and Aleksi retook the 'which BC member are you' quiz and GOT OLLI and Olli's socks ended up in his suitcase "somehow" and and and--

just, HOW are we supposed to witness this with our own eyes and not have Thoughts(tm)?? 😭😭😭💞💞

#if i had more than 24 hours in a day and also the skills i'd make clips of all the times olli has been ''present'' in allu's streams 🤧 #because it's happened so many times it's making me a little crazy 😂 #also. personally i'm still very much thinking about 1) aleksi deciding to re-take the BC member quiz in the first place #of all the quizzes 🤨 #and 2) his confused reaction skfjsjfkdjfkdj ''how did i not get myself'' #well honey it's because you have a crush #like. was that either a moment of realization OR was he trying to prove a point to himself? #''i'm NOT actually crushing on olli and this quiz will be the proof of that'' well look how that turned out lol #(you know. much like that...other thing he did to ''prove he's not crushing on olli'' we've talked about in the dms 😶) #aleksi in denial is still such a delicious trope <3 #answered asks #sparfloxacin #ollixallu

[missholoska]

tomorrow ✨

#holoskart rambles #I'll be posting The Thing at the same time this is being posted tomorrow #so I will now spend the next 24 hours in a state of Terror jgkjhdksjf #the only thing I'm not scared about is how chara turned out here. they're cute

[binch-i-might-be]

it's been forever since I read a massive hardcover book but damn does it feel good to be back

#i was like 'how am u gonna read this 600+ pages book when i have zero attention span' but i started it less than 24 hours ago #and i'm almost 200 pages in lmao #that hoe who was banned from buying more books because she tore through them at alarming speeds is still in there somewhere #turns out i can pay attention very well when it's about my most specialest wettest little meow meow #rayrambles

[somewhat-adorkable]

Listen....

I'm not saying that my home isn't good for my mental health, but what I am saying is that in two weeks away from home I:

-kept a regular sleep schedule (had three total nights where it took me a little longer to settle down but I was still asleep before 11pm)

-ate a normal amount

-had no trouble getting up in the morning

-didn't cry a single time (even during a panic attack, during which I was comfortable enough to go to my partner for comfort)

But in just under two days of being home I:

-haven't been able to settle to sleep for more than an hour or two at a time

-only ate because food was brought to me (I didn't finish either meal, got too nauseous)

-spent most of my day in bed because I was so exhausted and tense

-also spent most crying because of a stupid argument between my mom and I (long story)

-got called moody and snappy despite the fact I was silent and completely by myself 95% of the day

So..... that's fine, I guess.

#the emotional whiplash i have experienced in the last 24 hours #i spent like the first five days away TERRIFIED i was going to come across #as a hateful or snappy person or that i would ask the wrong questions and start a fight #turns out people are capable of just talking about shit #and not snapping over everything #every time i try to talk to my mom about something #i get snapped about about how talking is useless because i never change and it's me thats the issue #turns out what i thought was me being 'hateful' is actually just.... Normal joking tone #i cant even interpret my own tone anymore #because im so used to thinking I'm being calm or happy #but being yelled at for being hateful or snappy

[wundrousarts]

What is your favourite thing about nevermoor (series)?

Omg this is suuuuuch a hard question for me to answer!!! I love basically every aspect of the series, from the characters and their dynamics, to the settings, to the story...... idk if I can truly give One Singular Answer to this because I love it all! There's something truly special with the series that really makes it resonate with me and has kept me glued to it for almost 5 years and will keep me into it for many more.

IF I had to choose One Thing to answer this....... I would probably say the lore of the series and the magic and the way that the worldbuilding relates to those and fleshes out the world, giving it a history that makes Nevermoor (the city and the series) feel full of so much depth. You really get a sense that things, both big and small, happened in the past that affect the present day, and that things in the present day will have an effect on the future. It makes it fascinating to think about how the world was Pre-Massacre, and how things have changed in the last 100 years since then, and why things were the way they were and are the way they are now! I love thinking about Wundersmiths and their role in society and their rise and eventual downfall!!! Ahhhh!!!!! There's just so much I could say.

I just love everything about the worldbuilding and the lore and in-world history Jess has created. You can tell as you read that literally every aspect of the world has so much thought behind it that probably only exists inside Jess's head, but it oozes through the pages anyways and makes the world seem so full of life. I swear once she mentioned possibly releasing some sort of “rule book” / notebook companion book sort thing that explains a lot of behind the scenes lore and how the world and everything works, why stuff is the way it is, etc. after the series and I hope that happens because I can't stop thinking about it.

A silly comparison: I don't really know how to explain it to those unfamiliar with the 2000s guide books, but the worldbuilding of Nevermoor kinda reminds me of the worldbuilding of Uglydolls (no relation to the terrible 2019 movie) and I think maybe that’s partially why I love it so much lmao. Everything was so wacky and weird yet somehow it made sense. I remember reading the books and looking at the spreads of the city or the pictures of the weird vehicles and thinking about where I'd like to go and what I'd do if I lived in that universe LOL. It just felt full of life and for some reason reading Nevermoor reminds me of reading those as a kid.

Also: I've said this before (but maybe not on here?) that I credit a big part of why I'm SO into Nevermoor to the fact that I discovered it like a month or so before Adventure Time ended. I was a HUGE fan of the show (always will be!) and was really into analyzing it and theorizing about it and knew so much about it. I read Nevermoor independent of that, but I think the fact that Wundersmith releasing like a month or two after Adventure Time ended and it being the first new interest I had had in awhile just made my brain "transfer over" as I like to say. The energy I bring to overanalyzing and theorizing about Nevermoor stuff comes directly from how I was when Adventure Time was still airing.

Fun fact: My media overanalyzing led to me correctly guessing how Adventure Time would end, and I am eager to try and do the same with Nevermoor as the series continues.

#nevermoor #asks #idk if any of this makes sense bc the moment I try to talk abt my love for nevermoor I black out and can't articulate correctly #so sorry to anyone thats ever dealt w me gushing abt it both irl and online. it makes me go insane. my brain has been rewired. etc. #does anyone else love using readmores all the time or is it just me #my nevermoor thoughts always turn into nonsense rambles and I feel bad abt big blocks of that so I like giving folks an option to read lol #I just loooove nevermoor so much and theres something so special about it that makes me wish more people paid attention to it #it deserves to reach the same heights as stuff like HP (boo) + PJO (woohoo) and etc. bc I think it appeals to both young + old the same way #I love talking abt nevermoor so much even if half of what I say is nonsense bc of how much I love it. so thanks for asking me abt it. #always open to talking abt nevermoor all hours of the day. its on my mind 24/7 and i'm not rly complaining too much abt that lol

[arcaneyouth]

"well at least I'll get good sleep tonight" they said, not getting good sleep tonight

#vent post #negative #doing really fucking bad mentally actually #cant turn my brain off about how mad i am about money #about wasting my fucking time meeting people and their dogs they want me to care for #not getting paid for the fucking meetings that have been half the reason i struggle making progress on my personal projects #undercharging myself to hell and back just for the chance to get A Job #only for them to fucking cancel because they dont respect my time #cancel a meet up 3 hours before. cancel the booking less than 24 hours after making it. make me drive an hour for fucking nothing #begging me to lower my prices which are already lower than everyone in the area #i dont want to work anymore i want it to stop #going to do a week of dog sitting for less than 200 fucking dollars because its the only god damn fucking job i can fuckkng get #and it wont even happen for another month! who knows! they could cancel too! #if they cancel I'm deleting my fucking rover account! #i cant earn money. im trying so hard for nothing. #i cant apply to normal jobs because my job anxiety is So Bad i NEED someone to be with me as i apply showing me how it works #i dont know what job i want because i dont want a job i want to go to bed #im so so tired of going 'this could work! i could make this work!' and it just never gets far enough to matter #after 3 years of no progress you know what! maybe i cant fucking make it work! #i dont want to keep trying with this stupid shit anymore #im not even gonna be able to afford christmas presents this year. #anyways. whats a girl gotta do to get some fuckinf sleep around here

[sharkneto]

Do u still write tua fics?:)

A guy gets busy for two months and suddenly he doesn't write fics anymore smh...

Jokes aside - yes. I am still writing tua fics. Life's just been busy, and around that I haven't had the energy to use the free time I do have for writing. C'est la vie.

I do get this feels like an uncharacteristic gap - and it is from what I've done before! For my other projects, long fics were finished before I even started posting, so I could keep up a regular, fast update schedule because everything was ready to go. In regards to JT, I had a huge buffer of written and half-written chapters to keep close to that same, fast pace. We've run out of buffer tho - the last few chapters are either ones I need to write or need so much editing and rewrites that it's basically writing them from scratch. I need time to do it, I have plans to do it, I want to do it, it just hadn't happened yet. Such is the much more normal pace of fanfic publishing.

A peek behind the curtains, too - lockdown for the pandemic was huge for how much I wrote. From 2020-halfway through 2022, I worked basically part-time due to restrictions at work, so I had a lot of time to fill and not much else to do besides write. In that time, I wrote like 700,000 words (~425k is up on AO3). I did like three accidental NaNoWriMos (none in November).

Now? Here in 2023? Work is back to full time. Things are open, friends want to hang out, there's movies and shows I want to watch and games I want to play, I want to write, I have Life Things to deal with, and I have much less time to split between all those.

A little of what I'm getting at here is that - I'm tired. I was going to make this announcement after I finished JT, but I'll do it here: I will be taking a break after I finish writing JT. I wrote a lot of words, I had a lot of fun writing those words, but I'm starting to feel a pressure to get words done, which doesn't help words happen and I want writing to stay a fun hobby, so a break must happen. If a little oneshot or something happens during my break, then it happens, but I'm not pressuring myself to have a Next Thing out quickly or in x amount of time. I'll still be around here on Tumblr and all my everything will still be up on AO3, so I hope you guys stay around to hang out and chat, but you'll have to get your sharkneto fic fill from the 24 fics already up.

So, yes. I'm still writing and still in TUA. JT will get finished - I do feel bad that it's sat for so long without an update. And then I'll be chilling for a bit.

Thanks for all your patience and the love for my writing - you guys are what makes sharing fic so fun!

#i was hit halfway through that it is funny I'm effectively writing a press release thing for why i haven't updated my fic in 2 month lmao #but i am feeling a pressure about this - when i really shouldnt - and i think getting expectations on the table will help #and will also help relax me about it so words can happen better #turns out working 40 hours a week instead of 24 really cuts out *a lot* of free time #anyway - a thorough update for everyone on where things are at #sharkneto speaks #ficblogging

[yatskari]

they are bros

#one day i will turn mods off before starting a new one #but yesterday I didn't #it's a mod for dante&vergil but my dante was lady so #now i'm constantly thinking about them being enemies to besties #devil may cry #dmc5 #vergil dmc #lady dmc #24 hour Cinderella

[neodarkdark]

I put these base colours down in like 20 minutes and I do NOT have time to play around more with them or make any nice lines or add or change missing details so this is going to have be good enough now

#he's in yellow because i said Fuck It. he can be in yellow #i have mixed feelings about the black. or whether i should have used more white instead. but (throws hands in the air) #PRAYING that i don't post this and immediately want to change everything bc i won't be able to use my drawing tablet for another 24 hours #i'm not tagging it with the event tag until i can verify that it looks good / alter if needed tomorrow evening but at least it's Semi done #i gotta turn off my laptop or my parents will Fucking Get Me #explosion.gif #who opened the box (ooc)

[torgawl]

I JUST REALISED QI RONG DONGHUA DEBUT IS VERY SOON AAAAAAA

#DO YOU THINK WE WILL HAVE A CLIFFHANGER AT THE END OF THIS WEEK'S EPISODE? SHSJSHS I'M SO EXCITED #THE DAY HE SHOWS UP I WILL DIE AND RESSURECT FROM HELL TO SCREAM ABOUT IT AHSNSHWJ #IT'S EITHER WITHIN THE NEXT 24 HOURS OR IN A WEEK #my fav gremlin!!!!! can't wait #PLEASE PLEASE i'm so excited for hualian to roast qi rong's style when they see his subordinates 😂 #moment of all time like this bitch has bad taste #it's also soup time soon #and lqq will be turned into a doll which is also fun #good times ahead #qi rong character of all time he's such a loser

[dyedviolet]

The only thing worse than a group project is a group project with vague directions.

#the class has only met twice. i barely know these peoples names. #and the professor has thrown us in the deep end with the most esoteric prompts ever. about personal shit!! #i woulda been fine with this assignment in like. october. but i have no rapport with these people! #the professor's getting a bunch of self-concious fluff turned in #doesnt help that in my writing class everyone has decided not to share their pieces until the last minute #i would APPRECIATE more that 24 hours to read your 40 pages #I'm grumpy.

[da-proti-toku-grem]

sorry i needed to vent somewhere and ended up explaining my life 😮‍💨

#why am i like this bro? #my bday is in a few days but i don't feel excited about it #i didn't even feel like doing anyhing especial this year and i was so close to not celebrate it #but my mom and my bestie convinced me because “you're turning 18. isn't that exciting” #and also because “most of your friends will move to other places because of uni so you don't know when/if you'll see all of them again” #the thing is they convinced me to celebrate with my friends and close family #nothing too special but at least is something #and now i had to tell them what i was going to do so i had to create a whatsapp group and all that #and i just spent a whole hour just to think of what words to use so it doesn't sound weird #idek why i thought it would sound weird to invite MY friends to MY bday party but i always overthink everything #besides all of this idk why it gives me so much anxiety to just do this whole “party” thing yk #i guess i just hate being the center of attention and the fact that this is “my” day and everything revolves around me makes me anxious #i've always been a very reserved person but this year i've surpassed myself #like with the whole last year of high school thing and the exams to get into uni got me so stressed #and i've spent all school year (sept-june) without barely going out of my house (i literally only went out to go to class) #and i've spent all year saying: i'll go out when all of this ends in summer #but i was SO exhausted by the end of it that i just wanted to stay at home 24/7 #how did this end? well. i've only hang out with my group of friends once in the whole summer and it was on the july 4th #i've practically been ignoring the whatsapp group so i didn't have to make excuses not to meet up #i'm not proud of admitting that but it's not like i talked too much before so i guess it's not such a big deal #thinking about all of this made me realise that i might have social anxiety after all #i'm not at all surprised tbh but i didn't really know what i felt had a name yk #very random but i'm very happy that i was able to get to know JO and Jere thanks to eurovision cause i feel like they're holding me togethe #idk they just make me inexplicably happy and seeing all their content makes me smile even when i feel like shit #(big thanks to everyone on the fandom here btw ily all <3) #anyway i'll stop now cause this is turning out very long #this didn't get me anywhere but at least i feel a bit better ig #maca speaks

[kaleuh]

it really is incredible how my mind can just go to the WORST places mentally all day and then it turns out all i needed to do was talk to the mailman and now i'm like "oh i'm okay actually"

#Kayla's personal life #i just had a REALLY bad bought of 'oh god i'm not good enough' for the past 24 hours but . turns out i was just being a silly goose #and friends (and the mailman) helped me realize that #talking about your problems WORKS??????