#but i shall refrain

[clavissionary-position]

my halloween post is

gil and chev, when they're kids, go trick-or-treating (read: gil emotionally blackmails chev into going trick-or-treating). they start with akatsuki first. akatsuki gives them kompeito. gilbert is hooked. twenty years later there is a jar of kompeito on gilbert's nightstand, behind the pitcher of water. there is also kompeito in the pitcher of water. that pitcher of water has never held anything else. when he needs water, walter has to parkour-naruto-run all the way.

i digress. kid gil is kind of bummed that akatsuki didn't let them play a trick on him, so he asks for a re-do and kid chev's like [eyeroll sounds]. akatsuki at this point in time still thinks gil is just an adorable, shrimpy little guy, so he agrees. gil, with his cheeks all puffy from all the kompeito in his mouth, says "trick-or-treat! give us a treat or you know what happens... right?" akatsuki laughs and says he's all out of treats because he gave them to an adorable shrimpy little guy. gil shuts his eye and nods sagely: "he must have been truly adorable then, but unfortunately for you..." gil gives chev the signal. chev is reading a book. this is his first time hearing anything about a so-called signal. but he understands immediately, sighs like a man who's lived a thousand years, and gives gil a boost up on his hands so gil can play a trick on akatsuki. once in position, gil tugs on one of akatsuki's kimono sleeves and suddenly a bunny rabbit jumps out. the rabbit hops onto chev's open book while he's mid-sentence. akatsuki laughs and jokes that he'll bill gil if he finds any rabbit droppings in his sleeves later. chev is low-key too charmed by the bunny to immediately make it leave, but ofc you couldn't tell by the annoyed scowl on his face.

now, akatsuki is just their first stop of the night, but akatsuki is concerned about letting them go around town by themselves at night. chev mentally scoffs at the notion that he needs a chaperone, but he agrees more so for gil's sake. gil ofc is super stoked to have another friend join in the fun! so the three of them set off and it basically looks like that one poster for the wizard of oz or winnie the pooh, except the only hand chev is holding is the bunny, who walks upright for the purposes of this documentary.

anyway, lots of fun halloween shenanigans happen. highlights include gil generously giving all of his hard-earned candy to a crying child because that's what cybird pays him to do; akatsuki katana-punching ghosts in a dark abandoned building that will one day become his bookstore; chev noticing rabbit droppings falling from one of akatsuki's sleeve and discretely cleaning it up without anyone noticing, somehow; and clavis seeing chev come back to the palace reeking of candy and feeling utterly betrayed because he had to stay home while he recovered from the flu (sorry clavis!)

happy halloween!

#ikepri gilbert spoilers #ikepri spoilers #ikemen prince #gilbert von obsidian #chevalier michel #ikepri akatsuki #so tempted to type akatsuki amagase #but i shall refrain

[toadstool32]

I want to draw i want to draw i want to draw

#sad dog noises #but i shall refrain #we just keep on being silly #ac

[belphieslilcow]

cass: sometimes i drink milk straight out of the container

mammon: THE COW??

#cassian #the urge for a funnie joke i just within reach #but i shall refrain

[sa4phire]

um

my body is like. humming. like an electric fence.

#i deserve a drink after today #but i shall refrain #no pukey pukin today #i never puke when i drink #except for in this apartment. #whenever i’m here #i puke every. damn. time. #eat or no eat

[breakbleheavens]

✨ her ✨

TAYLOR SWIFT Taylor Swift: The Eras Tour (2023) dir. Sam Wrench

#tswiftedit #taylorswiftedit #tswiftgif #taylor swift #the eras tour #eras tour #eras tour film #lover #*mine #*2023 #*gifs #mine: lover #mine: eras tour #2k #yes I filmed the screen aldisakfa just a few fave songs and this moment #too in the mood I needed to gif this I may also need a new phone asldkfjh #I shall refrain from giffing my recordings of cruel summer august illicit affairs mtr or yoyok until we get the hd hahahaha #gonna to have a field day when we get the hd version

[mugentakeda]

not even harvards top scientists could understand the complexities of the azula-iroh beef lore that i made up in my head

(silly bonus under the cut)

#YES THIS IS A REPOST. Again. my bad #they both suck so bad i love them... best uncle niece dynamic in fiction ever..... theyre the same in all the worst ways.... #yes im an iroh fan yes i think azula can hit him with a comically large mallet we exist #“how do u think iroh and azula are the same but think azula should be allowed to beat irohs ass”. ill give you 3 reasons #1. shes a female. 2 shes not a boy. 3. and most importantly SHES A GIRL #waiter waiter more irrepairable family relationships please!!!!!!!!!! #id go on a 10 yr long spiel about my thoughts and hcs abt their dynamic and what they think ab each other but i shall Refrain. #lu ten couldve been the dad that stepped up but he had to eat shit and die for the plot and good of the world. Amen. #azula #iroh #lu ten #zuko #atla #avatar the last airbender #alicias art

[tinea-siderum]

art block autism creatures made in ms paint because it is the superior art program

#atlas' doodles #tbh creature #autism creature #i've made like 10 of these but for the sake of everyone's sanity i shall refrain from posting them #for now...

[zhongrin]

ok i'm feeling a little better today... received a gift from a friend (yk who you are <3), dolled up a little (desperately needed that confidence boost), am on my favorite cafe waiting for guzheng lesson (hoping the teacher will approve of my progress), found out that they have osmanthus latte as a monthly special (yk i just had to get that lol), and how they have a shrek picture as a bathroom sign (i snorted)...

#rin rambles #i also have a few unhinged comments but i'd like to keep this post sfw so i shall refrain /silly

[dear-ao3]

no offense to the anon who didn't know y/n, im just realizing how old i'm getting for ship fandom to feel more relevant than oc x canon, y/n, etc. it's kinda cool to see ppl discovering it

same but also at the same time every now and then i look up y/n fics to make sure they’re still being written by teenagers (they are) so that i know there is still some semblance of order in the fandom world

#not a tag #from saph #i have much more i want to say about wattpad users on ao3 but i shall refrain

[surelysilly]

oh i am so unwell i just want to update once a week so very badly

hey m b wats up Such a casual and unbothered response to Dick’s mounting panic — he nearly threw the phone down a storm drain right outside his own apartment.

#silly phonetic #litu au #dpxdc #dp x dc #ohhh i wanna update this friday sooooo baaaad #i shall refrain and just update at two weeks again... next friday my beloved #s i g h what even is self discipline #silly snips

[gipzisays209]

Just a casual reminder that the brain is an extremely complex organ with extremely unique blueprints to each individual, so don't let anyone tell you that the most common way is the only way.

Casual reminder that you, no matter how fucked up or not normal others tell you you are, you are perfectly valid just the way you are. And don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

So, casual reminder that Endogenic, and all forms of non-traumagenic systems are just as valid as those formed from DID and OSDD. Casual reminder that, while trauma is the most common form of system formation, DID and OSDD aren't fully understood, and therefore can't be used as a catch-all.

The Mirrored System

-With (Platonic) love,

∆

#pro endo #endo safe #system stuff #you are valid #and don't let anyone tell you otherwise #sysmeds fuck off #I could go off on a whole 'nother tangent here but for everyone's sanity I shall refrain

[doveg0d]

I don't care if I'm losing myself in the garden of earthly delights

I could drop dead right where I stand, and I wouldn't mind

#i made this like a month n a half ago?? #i could go on like a 3 hour rant #but i shall refrain this time #oh god i have to tag so much- #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #shigeo kageyama #mp100 mob #mp100 ??? #reigen arataka #mp100 reigen #teruki hanazawa #mp100 teru #ritsu kageyama #mp100 ritsu #tsubomi takane #mp100 tsubomi #my art

[staticymaticyyourlifeisatravesty]

The Hellsing fandom is so hungry we go beyond just Stroker's book, we steal from Historical sources as well

#enjoy my rambles #hellsing #Alucard's background is not very filled out #I too am guilty of this #there's a reason I know an unholy amount about the Historical Vlad the Impaler #like The Historical Figure is a fucking blorbo because jesus christ he's pretty cool #of course there's not much because the dude is from the 1400's and was villainized by the west which was fair #think my fav part is that Vlad the Impaler frightened the fucking Spanish Inquisition #which is hilarious to me #Anyway I shall refrain from info dumping anymore in the tags #even though I really really want to just info about this guy because holy hell is he interesting #Hellsing is solely responsible for my hyperfocusing on Vlad the Impaler #hellsing ultimate #shitpost

[forest-hashira]

ok i'm bursting at the seams to talk about this with literally anyone soooooo. here are some little things from the dragon rider au (mostly world building, some are plot points but nothing too big!). putting them under the cut so you don't have to scroll past a long post!

also, for anyone interested, this is the playlist i made for this au! pls ignore my deadname on the account

lot of this is inspired by how to train your dragon, so there are slike. some viking-esque elements included, they're not actually vikings & this is set ambiguously in fantasy-japan

Nanami's family runs a bakery. he also has a sister for no other reason than i wanted to give him one haha

won't go into what happens to bring any of this about, but: Nanami adopts & raises Yuji, Geto adopts & raises Nanako & Mimiko, and Gojo adopts & raises Megumi and Tsumiki. found family my beloved.

in my head most of the dragons look like (or at least similar to) the dragons in httyd. except satosugu's dragons, who look much more like traditional japanese folklore/mythology dragons. reader's is somewhat similar, but theirs has wings

i spent an UNGODLY amount of time researching & deciding on names for some of these dragons but i am so proud of them. i will discuss those more in detail if y'all want but i'm not gonna do it here bc it could technically be considered spoilers for anyone not caught up on the show

i played around with ages in this fic a little, so Nanami/Geto/Gojo are all in their early/mid 20s when they adopt their respective kids

there will be some background/implied ships in here besides the main one (satosugu/reader) but i doubt it'll be very much

ok gonna stop there for now before i just word vomit everything into this post lol. if you guys wanna know more just lmk!!! this has completely taken over my brain and i am so excited about it. please be excited with me i think it's gonna be really good 🥺

@peachdues thought you might be interested in seeing this but if not you can ignore it 🙈

#dragon rider au #i have so much more i could say but. alas. i shall refrain for now.

[age-of-moonknight]

Variant cover for Amazing Spider-Man (Vol. 6/2022), #38 by Valerio Giangiordano.

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Amazing Spider-Man #Amazing Spider-Man vol. 6 #Amazing Spider-Man 2022 #Moon Knight comics #let’s get this other bread #Moon Knight #Marc Spector #Spider-Man #Peter Parker #I shall refrain from commenting on what I think of the current Spider-Man run to instead say #I am /for sure/ vibing with the art here and I love how this is an homage to Marvel Team-Up (Vol. 1/1972) no. 144’s cover

[mugentakeda]

its like I desperately DO want to explore Iroh maybe emotionally manipulating Zuko his very manipulatable nephew. NOT because I hate Iroh and think his actions in the show are all 100% manipulation but because I love him and how shitty he is. He's like shitty on accident and it's great.

"Whoops accidentally isolated my nephew whoopsies accidentally formed codependency with him. Oh well time to play scrabble" its so slay

THERES THIS UNFINISHED FIC I READ ON AO3 THAT GOES SUPER INTO THIS ACTUALLY i loved it so much it had such a heavy hand in changing how i view iroh (because when i was a wee middle schooler and first watched atla i too viewed uncle iroh as a do-no-wronger). at least the emotionally manipulating part. heres the link if you wanna read it :) now under the cut im about to spazz a bit on the topic of iroh and zuko and im not gonna make anyone read this word vomit unless they really want to LMFAOOO

the way i see it book 1 iroh was still in the dregs of grief over lu ten and was also still dealing w The Order which i imagine had him on thin ice for a WHILE before he managed to score the grand lotus promotion.

i personally dont think iroh was THAT distantly caring of zuko like he was portrayed to be in the fic i linked above and on the contrary i think he was having a Horrible Time during zukos recovery from his burn. but he was still distant in the way that he didnt know zuko that well yet and it was mostly the guilt on top of projecting himself and his feelings about lu ten onto zuko (the first of what will become Many) and thinking along the lines of “how could any father do this to their son, it angers me because id give anything to have lu ten back”, but then once iroh comes to love ZUKO then its “how could ozai do this to zuko”

but despite all that theres still a seven layer salad of problems, miscommunication, misunderstandings, guilt, baggage, and projecting. iroh comes to love zuko fiercely by the end of book 1 after he snaps out of his apathy and is forcibly booted from the ship, therefore a fugitive and therefore harder for The Order to access. SO, he can finally focus on getting ozais venom out of zuko. sadly, as ive said before, iroh only managed to get some of the venom out of himself not even a full decade ago. And its worse, because irohs an older adult.

thats not just a childhood and teenage years of propaganda and crimes. its a whole lifetime. And hes on time limits. sozins comet is coming. his nephew is really good at catching up with the avatar. the order tells him that sentiment and guilt cant get in the way of their goals. its a nice idea to realign zukos ideals with The Orders so iroh has an heir if he decides to take over once they hopefully topple ozai, or if he doesnt want to rule at all so zuko can take over instead- but if ozais venom reaches too deep and zuko cant be helped, The Order will take the measures necessary to remove him from the equation.

between the stress of trying to get zuko aligned with being ok with the avatar toppling his dad and sister and entire nation in less than a year with whatever methods the avatar sees fit, only like a few gallons of his own fire nation bullshit problems being flushed out a few years ago with plenty to spare so hes Really not the best at trying to get his nephew see things iroh himself doesnt even fully see, not realizing that zuko isnt the kind of kid that does well with vague proverbs and prefers it straight forward (and with enough tact to phrase things in ways that wont make him flip out when he hears things hes not ready to hear yet but at the same time without sugar coating), iroh is obviously not gonna do a perfect job.

matter of fact, id go as far to say hes not gonna even do a good job. ill give him one chewed up star and say he did a halfway decent job. a lot of people credit him for getting zuko on the right path as if he was the one that did the heavy lifting, when really he got lucky that zuko managed to pull himself out from under a fucking MOUNTAIN of deeply embedded propaganda and violent physical and emotional abuse trauma in under a few months versus iroh whos still working on it after YEARS. and his doesnt even include the abuse trauma. zuko is strong as fuck and that is his strength and nobody else deserves to be credited for that. iroh gave him pointers and a nudge in the right direction, but didnt give zuko a map and also made him take the route that involved zuko crossing the bridge with an evil goblin that would only let him pass if he solved his riddles three.

but DESPITE ALL OF THAT! despite all of that never getting properly resolved and discussed and brushed over- partly because brykes stinky asses giving irohs character the 180 and making him all ~hoity toity righteous ive never done anything wrong despite my obvious hypocrisy thats so bad it smells~ in book 3, partly because parents like iroh who have 100 million things wrong with them along with being bad at communicating barely Ever get their head right enough to sit and talk these things out with their kids, iroh and zuko still love each other so, so fucking much.

its the little things and the implications that get me the most?? iroh basically collapsing onto zuko during the siege of the north when he leaves zhaos ship and burying his face in zukos chest. zuko telling iroh that for the last time hes NOT playing the tsungi horn. iroh pestering zuko into going back to the port to find a fucking tile for a game that iroh can just buy new of and zuko just growling and stomping off. iroh pumping his fist and grinning at zuko beating up zhao during their agni kai. their banter. his nonchalance at zukos bluntness and rudeness. iroh bothering zuko into going to bed to no avail. his snarky remark at zuko sitting in his room in the dark instead of going on a walk with him. iroh sucking up their argument from the night before over ozai and going with zuko to join azula despite his suspicions while glowering at all the soldiers like a huge snarly bear protecting their cub. like UGHHHH THE VOICES THE VOICES!!!!

its just not a realistic parent child relationship if there arent an equal amount of softness to ease through the complicated tangles.

its the apology plate of cut fruit after the shouting match. you hate it because its like why wont you just say sorry to my face with your words, but then you realize you wouldnt know how to respond in words yourself, so you just eat the shitty cut fruit and say youre sorry back by doing some equally lame act of service later that day just to make the ground fully even again and all is forgiven without even having to say it outloud and both of you are thinking we’ll definitely talk it out later. later wont ever come but the love wont leave anyway so who cares (you both care).

i literally love them SO much dude i dont have enough words they have so many issues we should feed them ibuprofen by the spoonful and put them in a blender

#IM SORRY THAT THIS IS SO LONG ANON #this isnt even the 10 page thesis i told you guys about i could go on longer but i shall Refrain #HEURGHHHHH #asks