#but i got my little job and stuff

[motheyes]

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#all cozy in bed it feels so nice #i love being in bed man #best fucking feeling #ok. what’s my game plan for tomorrow #i have therapy at two i am so fucking pumped for real #gotta leave at like 1:40 sick sick #uhhh before then i wanna work on my card for my mom #i need to get that done before next week and i’m gunna be insane busy next week #so i should finish it soon #anyways. i’ll prolly play a good amount of minecraft #cuz a server im in finally re set and i’ve been having a fucking blast on it #i wish i could play more. like aaaallllll day #but i got my little job and stuff #rlly loving it tho it’s tons of fun #everyone is very nice and cool #i have this feeling that i am forgetting something which i hate #i think i’m just stil feeling mentally uuhhhh focused from my addy #and it makes me wanna like be productive and do stuff #but physically i’m worn out #my body man. love it 😭 #ok i’m gunna go on pinterest. maybe watch some slime vids if i’m feeling crazy

[kimbapisnotsushi]

haikyuu is NOT realistic!!!! and it's not because of the underdog plotline or the insane athletic skill or funky character designs but because in the timeskip everyone gets a job that they are perfectly content with and more or less suits them to a tee and don't seem concerned for their futures whatsoever all before the age of thirty

#okay except maybe makki. but he's chilling so whatever #it is literally the thing i am most jealous about in hq #do i wanna be hinata with muscles that could smash watermelons in half and traveling the world to play volleyball?? #no i wanna be a side character with a stable job and financial stability who has time to hang out with their friends!!!! #GOD i wish that were me #also hey guys sorry for awol!! #it was a little bit shit both inside and outside my life #and posting might be the only bit of nonhopelessness that i've got so!! going to slowly make my way back into it #haikyuu!! #haikyuu #sou says stuff

[weebsinstash]

Alright bestie I’m on that shit again

So yandere Superman, right? Like obviously your fucked. The only other yandere in existence that might just be able to keep you from him is Batman, but even then he’d probably sooner work together just to ensure your safety- but that’s a prompt for another day.

Back to yan Superman, imagine you’re his darling and he is “keeping you safe”. But one day, you get snatched up by some organization that wants to use you as leverage or some shit, but you are just sobbing in relief at maybe being free- only to have Superman show up and do some not so super things to everyone who “stole” you

There are just so many casually horrifying things about Superman that people don't realize until you start like digging into his lore. "Oh he's super strong and a super fast flyer" actually he can do basically anything at those super speeds to the point he can literally even PROCESS THOUGHTS at near light-speed which means he has Absolutely Terrifying reaction times and can make plans and schemes on a dime, which, you know, can be even better utilized by him being intelligent. He has natural invulnerability so if you throw a punch at him too hard you could literally shatter the bones in your hand and he can't even control that, like you could literally hurt yourself with him on accident! He can see across INSANE DISTANCES and his x-ray vision doesn't have like a set range so he could do anything from, peep inside buildings to spy on you, to looking under your clothing for any bruises or injuries or even self harm marks, to peeking behind your hero disguise to learn your true identity, to seeing if there's anything inside your stomach and seeing if you're eating properly. Like jesus christ he literally found out Lois was pregnant from waking up one morning and suddenly hearing the heartbeat of the FETUS, there's literally nothing from him pulling that stereotypical "I know you're nervous or lying or afraid because I can literally hear your heartbeat increase" scary bullshit

And let's talk about Lois for a sec because my god her death was literally what kicked off the Injustice timeline? And there are other forms of Superman media where she just straight up dies naturally of cancer! Sure we could take the easy way and say "in this au Lois never existed or was just Clark's friend and he loved YOU" (which is my preferred default tbh bc, no competition for Reader lol) but I mean if you're going for that angst, that real whump, a yandere Clark Kent that just lost his wife/unborn child to either the Injustice incident or cancer, now overcome with grief? And in those cancer timelines they usually already have a son, Jonathan, and sometimes Jordan, and here's Clark thinking, well, his boy needs a mother, and he's got these weird feelings for you, and lil Jonny clearly has affection for you, maybe bring a bit of a platonic yan himself who sees you as either a big sister or even a secondary mom, so... be his wife maybe?

Like my god if Reader somehow helped him through the grief of losing Lois and managed to avoid "fully activating" Superman's anime villain arc, like he's going full fascist in the Injustice 2 Bad Ending, then some shit DEFINITELY goes down when Reader gets taken away. It just reactivates all his trauma. No! He can't lose anyone else! Jonathan can't lose anyone else! You're not just someone he loves, you're his FRIEND!

You're just huddled in whatever cell you've been kept in with your black eyes and bruises and knuckles bloodied from trying to fight back when you hear Clark's voice and you look up with excitement that just falls immediately off your face because holy shit did he just unlock that thumbprint scanner with a severed arm, and suddenly you're realizing there are other shades of red on his costume and dripping from his fingers

I can only imagine like, ngl I considered a sequel to my fic Doubt where Reader escapes the manor and runs into Supernan as the only other person who can protect you, so here we would have the inverse: you're the only one who knows about Clark's increasing instability and, while you still have your own freedom and autonomy, try to speak to Bruce about it, and now you have Batman Vs Superman: Competing For Your Heart Edition. I can only imagine what sort of unhinged reactions there would be if you think you've got Batman alone and you're beginning to cry all "Bruce I'm really worried about Clark, he isn't acting like himself, there's something wrong with him" and. Clark is like literally using his x-ray vision to read lips through the walls if he can't use his super hearing to outright eavesdrop.

Of course as you suggested, I'm always a slut for ideas with"oh shit I ran to this guy to help me and he's ALSO crazy, now they're teaming up and I'm in some weird shared/poly situation with TWO nutjobs". Lmao you go to Bruce concerned about Kal and Bruce goes to confront him and Clark just drops "did you know Y/N has been hiding self harm cuts under their hero suit also wow they smoke HELLA weed and im worried about their lungs and all the stuff they do when they're alone that no one else knows about 🥺" and suddenly here's Bruce " thanks i hate this actually :)" and there's a scheme concted to spy on you or move you elsewhere.

I've even thought of "Reader oh nooOoooOo, that, giant monster or villain attack or whatever also coincidentally destroyed your shitty little apartment complex? You mean Clark 'accidently' got sent flying into your building or smacked some giant creature into it and now you don't have a place to live? And you're broke too? Oh no 🥺 Well, BATMAN has this nice big house with lots of room in for you to stay toooootally 'temporarily', we PROMISE uwu"

Batman is the one who can put a tracking chip injected into your skin or even disguised as a filling in one of your teeth, and Superman is the one who can zoom off to rescue you/retrieve you "faster than a speeding bullet". I think one of the only people who could bring them down together at that point would be like. Fucking DARKSEID and, Jesus no, you definitely don't want HIM treating you as a pet 😭 the evil Batman that was brainwashed by him in the Apokolips War movie was scary enough (and scary HOT, lmao, let him keep me as some sort of prize and the only luxury Darkseid will allow him as a reward for his obedience. Lord Batman goes from having a meeting talking about like enslaving people to returning to his quarters and railing tf outta you because he's still holding onto some slim vestiges of humanity where he cares about you but also using you as his personal anti stress fuck toy)

#yandere superman #yandere batman #yandere dc #i got a draft whee damian and jon like you and introduce you to their fathers #and suddenly stalking you becomes a family affair #the boys walk you home and jon lies about having to pee so damian can plant bugs while youre distracted #the boys going back to their fathers and telling them all of your personal business #'yeah dad when she was at work i used my xray vision and saw her creepy manager grope her in the walk in' #suddenly your small little privately owned cafe was just bought out by wayne enterprises and your boss is fired or goes missing #maybe Bruce gets you a job st Wayne tech bc hes been following you as batman and he doesnt like you working third ahift #lmao heres hoping i actually finish it wven though im not quite sure where to go w it yet #but like its literally over 8 pages at least so. obviously some sort of creative juices are flowing #yandere stuff #sinprompts #at this point i cant promise shit bc my emotions and motivation are waaaaaacky

[smallpapers]

growing up is so dreadful

life here is a race but i stay loitering at the starting line

oh id rather be asleep anyway

#illustration #doodle #artists on tumblr #procreate #myart #papers original #becoming an Adult with A Job and Responsibilities sucks. absolutely mind boggling I have a whole ass life ahead #I need to get my professional license and take this adulthood stuff seriously but I don’t want to I’m not ready!! #I never got to enjoy my youth and what little I have left is slipping away so rapidly

[n3ongold3n]

Ever since i saw the thongTM i could not stop thinking about this 🐳

#käärijä #häärijä #khäärijä calendar #diary bit coming up in the tags bear with me since this is #also my diary kind of; this blog #this thing has fought me every step of the way - and it shows i know #but i needed at least /some/ tiny little crumb of standing up for myself against my own defeatist thoughts #not just drawing. just. in general there are so many tiny and medium obstacles to accomplishing tasks that i just feel #like such an idiot for not just getting rid of the obstacles and moving on #at the same time i know how very unfair this kind of thinking is towards me since i #literally have the neurodivergence of cannot set priorities for my life or coordinate several things unless under strong duress #and then i feel sad for not even living my life unapologetically #((and disappointing jere :') - you have not read this that would be way WAY too embarrassing for me) #and yes i know you shouldn't trust yourself after - what was it? - 19:00? Well. If I didn't have to struggle until 3 pm to get through #the wall of anxious paralysis we wouldn't have that problem but here we are #anyway. off to bed. for what it's worth #got to figure out how to electronically validate my ID :''') and/or call the job center - fun! #my own stuff

[pocketed-fool]

Man, ive always wondered how Lemm would react to seeing THK after hearing about them for so long.

#he didnt cry he says #he just caught a relic in his eyes i think #my man's knees got very weak #not ship art. #I believe Lemm is very passionate about his job and discovering such thing might give him a heart attack #poor guy has been studying about THK for so long and even gave up about finding more stuff when the data about them amounted to zero #Imagine when Hornet mentions the king by mistake and he just explodes #love me some passionate relic seeker and History lover Lemm #hollow knight #hk #hollow knight fanart #fanart #hk fanart #Lemm #hk Lemm #relic seeker lemm #Ghost #ghost of hallownest #hk ghost #little ghost #THK #hk Hollow Knight #The Hollow Knight #Pure Vessel #Hornet #hk Hornet #Quirrel #quirrel #hk quirrel

[needylittlegirl]

theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to

#i know i sound like am immature little kid just pouting and stomping my foot #but i’ve had to move every two years since i was like 14 for so many different reasons #each place ive moved to just got increasingly worse so i think i have the right to pout like a 14 yr old girl #but its just dumb #if i start taking stuff down now itll make it easier to leave cause it wont feel like my space by then #its what ive always done #if i pack weeks ahead of time it just feels like im leaving a hotel or something #but right nows the hard part #im not even over my childhood home/s #i cant talk about those without crying and its been 20 years #i’d just like to stay in one place for awhile #we wont be going far cause me and my sister both have jobs right here but #its still different #im tired of seeing my stuff in boxes im tired of not feeling safe in my own space #it all just makes me so unstable cause i cant plant my roots anywhere #idk maybe its stupid #if everything goes according to plan #we’ll probably be moving a little after memorial day #and all i want to do is lock my door and refuse to let anyone do anything #im still just that little girl that was leaving her childhood bedroom and moving hours away #tbd #i didnt even get to skate today cause its raining #whatever im gonna get in bed and watch movies til i can go to sleep #if ive been bad at responding to msgs or not posting as much . this is why 👍 #any sort of change like this makes me isolate myself like crazyy

[silenthillbunni]

🦭

#ok lol my social worker called me nd talked a little but so now i know they've approved it lmao. #ok i can relax abt that for now.. i still need a job tho 🥶 #im not even against having a job like PLEASE i want one #i want to be financially independent #im good at saving nd stuff like plz plz #but yeah im 25 w no experience plus i have avpd so idek how to practically find a job #i just dont know. i realize that sounds stupid but my disorder is ssly limiting me 😭 #fuck. still dont know if i can sleep bc im so stressed abt everything #also got me thinking abt how i dont wanna get old. like genuinely i dont want it #i want to be 50 max nd thrn im done. wnna blow my brains out lol #after my mom passes away (when shes old it's gonna be at least 40 more years!!!!!) im finished #so i want to live for the moment i rlly do. i want to fit as much good as i can now #plus global warming.. i rlly dont think life as we know it now will last that long #so anyway.. too much anxiety wtfffff idk what to do lol

[killemwithkawaii]

Emotional hangovers are so fucking stupid.

"Oh, you went out and had an especially good time in a highly stimulating environment for a few hours? Nice going, you just cashed in 3 days worth of dopamine. Get Meh, jackass."

#k.e.w.k. overshares #neurodivergent problems #tw mental illness #“spare dopamine? spare dopamine ma'am?” #cried like a little bitch (/pos) at the Glass Beach show and got handed a setlist for the first time ever #[not pictured: Me up on cloud nine while down on my hands and knees in the pit] #that was thursday and im STILL ankle deep in the dopamine red 📉🤡 #its a pattern that makes me warry about having more than a mildly pleasant time #because i know im gonna pay for it later and have to very carefully plan accordingly #ideally: day of rest/prep ➡️ afternoon of rest/double check prep before Fun Event ➡️✨FUN EVENT✨➡️ 1-3 days of emotional & physical recovery #[So Manageable ✅️ Very sustainable ✅️ Such fulfilling Adulthood ✅️] #thankfully i feel the emergence from my blanket nest cocoon coming but for now im slapping the snooze button a couple more times 🔋📈 #thanks for being patient about ask and dm replies and art updates #(i feel like a jerk but that emotion is self-inflicted #bc you guys are great & know im a barely-functioning Adult that has a Job and also does irl stuff sometimes so thank you ily 🫰🥺)

[pcktknife]

do u have any splatoon ocs??? use this as an opportunity to talk abt them :P

mmm outside of my idols i made characters based on what I thought my player character for each game would be like (separate from the agents). pier's my original squidsona for splat1 and then blue i made for 2 and i havent really given much thought on splat3's designated character outside of personality to be quite honest lol

#i know blues outfit looks vaguely like shiver but i promise i made her way before splat3 lol #bc ive got my idols on the mind i guess i can spare some lore for them in the tags #sinker was originally in a band w his 2 brothers b4 forming dead sea w reel. his band was called hook.line.and sinker #thats why dead seas members names arent that lmao cause ive had a few ppl ask why i didnt go for matching names. #reel developed a love for music from her unnamed older brother. he was her primary caretaker when she was little but he was also like #always gone/outta the house workin jobs one of which was located in salmon territory (not grizzco tho i dont think at least not egg.. #collecting anyway) and while he worked there was a lil salmonid thatd follow him around n stuff and that was bait dead seas bassist #he probably also taught her how to play bass if im thinkin abt it.sinker n reel went to school together and bait auditioning for their band #was just like coincidence #mycharacters #myart

[cosmogenous]

you guys im so fucking excited I could cry... i gotta call a bunch of ppl idek who to call next

[unexpectedbrickattack]

peep peep 🐁..

#chattin #waitin to be picked up from my aunts house #dogsitting while she was on a trip w my mom and sister #so im going to sit here and chat about some stuff #SFW this time im going to behave ! #thinking of ph #i like writing him as a fucked up lil guy…. #got obsessed; mistook possessive behavior for love oopsie ! #i think he would be REALLY hurt postgame #he was doing a GOOD job! he was trying to help peppino get rid of his shoddy shop!!! #bc owning a business is sooooo taxing and why do that when u can just work for someone and get paid good money ! #and no one has ever like. so blatantly and ANGRILY said NO to him before :( he is experiencing failure AND rejection for the first time #sucks ass #but i want him to be happy so like. eventually he has to deal w that failure #and he sees peppino like. still running a shop. but hes not angry like when they first met hes like #vibin! #hes in the back making food and occassionally he takes front and deals w customers and theyre weird but bearable #people TRAVEL to this little shop at the edge of the forest! #and he doesnt get it its like the food comes out slow and the tvs arent loud enough to hear anything and the prices are higher- #-than ANY fast food joint and yet people still come by…he has REGULARS…how… #hes so inefficient…and yet…. #peppino is really angry and dismissive of ph at first; he does NOT want to see his ugly mug and hes tempted to chase him out #but gus is levelheaded (like always peppino notes) and hes like its not worth it ; hes harmless #and over time that anger simmers out into being JUST dismissive and grumpy #but he tolerates him and eventually tolerates his questions #and peppino is like. u know thats why i was so damn pissed at u. thinking there was nothing this owning shit #this shit takes time so i price it that way. u gotta talk to customers like People not Money Giving Machines #like yeah peppino doesnt have the BEST temperment but he most people are just there for Pizza #and some of them are friendly! its tiring but he likes making food and dealing w people #he will not say it but he puts love into this business; this shop is his baby! and ph didnt really get that

[july-19th-club]

me age seven being sat down in front of the school’s district child psych lady and being given strange, simple spatial puzzles to solve and then long, complicated worksheets and hammering my way through them at the speed of light while having zero comprehension what their purpose was or why i was here: this is urgent! i have to get a good grade in Weird Puzzles, Or Else, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,

#kjalkjsdalkjasdl mrs button was a nice lady but not one adult in my childhood ever seemed to notice what to me now seems like #a pretty obvious case of the autisms #then again maybe they just didn't look as hard unless it was *really* obvious back then . it was like. what. 2000? a couple years later #everybody was talking about autism but not when i was six or seven then it was usually just when it was Very Visible #a couple years later my cousin who's more visibly on the spectrum than me got her diagnosis so young that she's pretty much always had it #which is...well i think it's just made her life difficult in a different way. people underestimate her or don't treat her like she's her age #but then she's always had the opportunity to get accommodations and people are sometimes more forgiving when she can't do something #whereas i got labeled 'kid that should be ahead of the game' from a pretty young age and then when i struggled adults either ignored it #or it was just a huge hassle to them and even i could see it exasperated them to have to work around me #but because mrs button (nice lady but what were you thinking) hadn't told them to treat me like a kid with a developmental disorder #they didn't do that in good OR bad ways . so i never got any accommodations with school stuff i struggled with which was a fair bit #i wasn't supposed to need extra testing time in a quiet room or tutoring with math or help organizing my abysmally scattered things #the only time i DID get that was in sixth grade when i was sort-of friends with this kid jonathan who was Very On The Spectrum #he wasn't really a talker unless it was about whatever he was reading which suited me fine so we just kind of existed in each other's space #and his TSS was this very smart and nice lady who had clearly clocked that Something Was Going On With Me and even though it wasn't like #her JOB she made a little bit of time for me. mostly with emotional stuff (i think i was under the impression she was a therapist?) #but if i had some problem with being unable to keep friends or being frozen out by the kids i wanted to be liked by (happened often) #she'd be able to just like. be there she'd make the time . wish i could remember her name

[ladychandraofthemoone]

Traintober Day 25: Distress Signal

Lieutenant/Colonel Bertram Topham Hatt, the sole survivor of the shipwrecked Lady Rose using a lamp in an attempt to flag down any ships in Morse Code…

#ttte #traintober #traintober 2023 #my art #my art <3 #my art stuff #little sketch cause imma be starting my new job first day at work in two hours ahha #my sketches #my sketchy art #sir topham hatt #the fat controller #ttte sir topham hatt #wearatching lamp from sos and I just realized that yeah he didn’t know if any of his colleagues his friends were still alive during the war #Stanley didn’t get to say goodbye Bertram is Mia Kyle is “dead” aka his soul/spirit in the lamp and he knows how important sth is to Stan #at he got to reunited with Stan a nd Bertram when he inspected.visited the msr but he never responded to stan’s letters cause we all knowwh

[anaalnathrakhs]

btw my mom said it. she said it to me looking me in the eyes. i told her about how difficult it was for me to get through those family reunions, and she admitted it was very important to her, important enough that she was just going to do it anyway.

#i know there are compromises out there #and i'm not going to live w them my whole life so i'll be out fairly soon all things considered #and i'm trying to be understanding when people's priorities aren't the same as mine #but i uh. would be lying if i said it doesn't hurt a little wittle bit. #i'm gonna keep handling it because i've been an asshole to my parents for long enough #i largely owe them that. cooperating and spending time with them and engaging in what matters to them. #but then she's says things like ''but whenever you move out you'll still be part of the family and invited if you want uwu'' #it's just ?????? okay thanks ???? perhaps you could also try seeing things from my point of view perhaps???? #it's all circling back to that. they have a very weird way to ''help'' me #throwback to them trying to cure my depression with amusement parks #when i would have liked a little less of that and a little more help and understanding #it feels like they're trying to put bandaids on a cancer #''you don't ask for help'' okay no help is coming. i am not being helped. #the system can't help me cause there's no damn beds no damn professionals no damn time to help everyone #the people around me can't help me because it's not their job or within their wheelhouse to help me #and they've got their own shit to deal with #on that note #i was discussing stuff with my mom #and i mentionned it was indeed pretty difficult to manage your time when you had to deal with school and friends and your parents #and she was like ''deal with your parents???? what do you have to deal with????'' #oh i don't KNOW maybe that i'm officially an associate of my dad and i have to help out w events and some accounting #or maybe i have to pay back the fucking years i spent being an ungrateful child now i do everything you expect me to and it's exhausting #maybe that you constantly remind me i am living in YOUR house by touching my shit instead of letting me deal with shit at my own pace #maybe the fact that despite everything i care about you and i want us to have a good relationship and that takes WORK and i'm exhausted #maybe the fact that you keep giving me advice that is unproductive misguided misunderstanding etc etc #and cold comfort after you did something you knew to be difficult for me #how you keep encouraging shit that i don't want and am unhappy with because it's the ''normal'' way #how you raised me from childhood to be an empty shell in a family of empty shells #broadcasting my misery #vent