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s1ckh1mb0 · 9 months

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Edgar Allen Poe x Reader

You couldn’t believe it here you were sitting all alone because your loser boyfriend Dazai ditched you for Chuuya AGAIN! At this point you weren’t hurt over it anymore just annoyed by it. Why were you even with him anyways? Like yeah the dick is good but everything else is fucking trash. You used to be embarrassed sitting in this cafe alone, tears running down your face when he would come up with excuses as to why he’s hours late or why he couldn’t come. But now this was so normal that you know all the workers by name cause of how often they comforted you.

You didn’t expect anyone so you were shocked when you heard a plop on seat in front of you. But looking up and seeing Poe you couldn’t help but smile at him. He was one of the first people you actually met when you moved over here. He was so kind and you found Karl adorable so you had to talk to him. He grabbed you hand rubbing his thumb over your knuckle like he always did when he greeted you. But unfortunately you could tell something was worrying him.

“Poe what’s wrong you look…troubled?” He was glad his hair covered his eyes cause his eyes was glossy “Well I was walking with Ranpo and well.” He pulled his phone out showing you multiple picture of Dazai with some girl being lovey dovey. You grabbed his phone closely inspecting the picture. All you could do was shrug you shoulders and click your tongue. You know you should be more upset by it but this just gave you the push you needed to lose all feelings for this stupid man. "Well can't say I'm shocked but I'm more disgusted than anything." Poe was extremely shocked by your reaction anyone else would have busted out into tears. But you didn't give damn, you were truly someone Poe couldn't understand.

He thinks about how hurt he would have been and decided even if you didn't want to show it you were still a bit hurt and he wanted to be the one to comfort you. He got up and sat next to you in the booth, wrapping his arm around you pulling you into his chest. This had shocked you a bit seeing as he had always been kind of shy around you. But you had known each other for years now and he did only want the best for you. With this it made you come to a realization it had been him, it was always him that you wanted. You were too scared to admit to him that you had feelings for him so you went to whoever could fill the hole temporarily that was in your heart.

And now with you like this you were determined to be true to him and tell him how you felt. You sat up and rested your hand on his chest. He looked at you in confusion but when his eyes met your own his heart skipped a beat. You told him about how you truly felt and the regret you feel for it not being him you were actually with. Once you finished his face was completely red and he was a stuttering mess. He didn't know what to say so instead he grabbed your face pulling you into a passionate kiss. You didn't know how long it went for but once you pulled back you both had smiles on your faces. And just like he did when he came in, he rubbed you knuckles with his thumb "Be mine?"

I’m sorry to tell you but I’m not a Dazai fan he just doesn’t peak my interest😔

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tf2strategist · 2 years

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how would the mercs react to someone they know really well (like family) coming out to them as genderfluid?? ur writing is 😔👌 btw

Thank you so much! I hope I wrote this well, if you’d like me to make a change or two let me know!

For simplicities sake, I’m going to go with close friend that they’d consider family, knowing each other that well.

Also, the pov changes halfway through and I don’t feel like rewording it; I’ve realized I like doing second person a lot so I hope that’s alright!!!

Scout:

“You drink gender???”

Jokes aside, Scout may have a bit of trouble wrapping his head around it at first. For him, it makes a lot of sense, but it’s a change that takes time for him to adjust to since he has a habit of speaking before he thinks.

Still, Scout always makes sure to ask their pronouns whenever they show up, and is unabashedly loud and proud whenever gender comes up in conversation.

He constantly makes positive comments that reaffirm whatever they choose to go by for the moment. It can get a bit overbearing at times, but he means well.

Soldier:

Immediately picks them up and swings them in a circle while hugging them. “AFFIRMATIVE! That you are, and I LOVE you for it!”

Probably the loudest about it, but if they aren’t out yet to certain people, he’s surprisingly loyal and will make a vow of silence if it means not outing them if they don’t want to be outed.

However, if someone tries to pick a fight? It’s on. Soldier will send them flying into orbit for the people closest to him.

Incredibly supportive, proud, and energetic about it.

Pyro:

Pyro completely understands from the get-go, even if they can’t say it through the mask.

To show they care, they immediately envelop their friend in a hug and shower them with love and acceptance.

They use crayons to draw their close friend, give them gifts and flowers, and overall do their best to show they care.

Will show up with a fire axe if anyone tries to purposefully misgender their friend or try to instigate a fight. They’re yelling muffled insults at whoever dared try and fight their best friend.

Demo:

Gives his friend a clap on the back, with a huge smile on his face.

“Took ye long enough!”

He always suspected, but didn’t want to ask out of fear of scaring them into deciding to come out too early, or making them uncomfortable.

Obviously, “took you long enough” is a lighthearted joke, and he’s fully willing to support his friend—practically a sibling—until the very end.

Always asks what they’re going by today before he ever uses pronouns, and sticks to them from the get-go. If he ever does make a mistake, he immediately corrects it and moves on without making a scene, as much as he breaks over it later out of embarrassment.

Overall, probably the best one to come out to first. He’ll provide a shoulder to lean on when they’re sad or unsure, maybe even insecure; but will always step forwards in defense of them whenever possible. He knows not to cause a scene unless they’re truly upset over someone misgendering or teasing them so as not to upset them even more. He will, however, exhibit a cold anger not commonly seen in someone with such a warm and friendly demeanor when it does happen.

If he can cause a scene over it, you bet there’s going to be fireworks.

More beneath the cut:

Engineer:

Wholly accepting of this! Does a similar thing to Pyro where he just wraps his arms around his friend and hugs them tightly; although in a much warmer and softer manner.

Wipes a tear from his eye.

“Proud o’ ya, real proud…”

He’s humbled by the fact that they came out to him first. Plans a barbecue as a celebration, maybe even buys a few gifts! It’s a huge deal to him that somebody so close to him came out like that, and he’s going to make sure everybody else feels the same way too.

He has a metal arm. If somebody fucks with them, he will not hesitate.

Heavy:

Heavy is perceptive. He picks up on it immediately, but like demo doesn’t ask out of respect.

He immediately socks someone in the jaw if they purposefully use the wrong pronouns, or make an offensive joke about his friend.

If it’s an uncomfortable comment or joke, he exhibits the same caliber of cold anger, but to an extreme. Seeing as he’s like a personal bodyguard in terms of intimidation factor alone, him hovering behind you with a stormy expression is enough to scare most people off.

Is always open to talk to them, and is a great listener. He’s great at offering an interesting subject or topic, maybe a book and tea if they need a distraction from dysphoria or somebody getting to them.

Rather serious about it, Heavy won’t tend to make light hearted jokes about the topic of gender, instead taking a very open but grounded approach to it.

“It does not exist. Is too narrow. Little person can use whatever works best.”

Medic:

“Ah! Let me add that to your file… I assume no surgery, then?”

He’s not disappointed by the prospect of not being able to trans your gender, but also gets to work on other ways of affirming your own!

Doesn’t really treat you any differently, but will work on an experiment to let you change your appearance based on what makes you feel best in the background.

Gives you the option of using it, but lets the topic go otherwise unless something is wrong or if you bring it up; regardless of if he’s giddy to know if it works or not.

Very chill about this stuff. He’s probably one to the better/best people to talk to about it, but know that he also won’t provide much comfort as much as he will facts or potential solutions.

In fact, he almost comes across as distant until he suddenly drops a shockingly down to earth suggestion or a really, really good idea to help you out. Nothing too crazy, it’s almost uncanny.

Thing is, he’s just been dealing with gender problems for… His entire life? He’s already far enough along in his own that he’s perfected his methods of staving it off.

Even if you’re not feeling dysphoria, (or you are), it doesn’t matter to him as long as you can get through it safely.

Sniper:

It takes Sniper a little bit to get used to it, to be sure. It’s not that he doesn’t care, he’s just not used to dealing with the unexpected.

He feels guilty for it being unexpected to him. He sees you as somebody very, very close to him; he feels dense for not noticing it sooner.

As soon as he settles into it, though, expect him to be as loyal as a dog. Any mistakes he silently corrects, and if somebody gets in their way, they’ll be meeting a jar of piss to the face.

Honestly, Sniper probably begins to have some of his own self realizations soon after, but it takes a long time for him to come to terms with that one.

Ends up shyly asking you for advice eventually.

Spy:

He already knew. I mean, what did you expect?

He is, however, surprised that you decided to come out to him first. If anything, he’s a bit prideful.

Emotions masked well, he pours the two of you a drink (whichever is your favorite) in a fancy wine glass, and raises his own, offering cheers for the occasion.

Clink!

Definitely calm about it, but tones down his snark temporarily. He knows how nerve-wracking it must be; although there is humor to be found that you voluntarily told your secret to the man who knows just about everything about everyone. Whether or not that trust is misguided, he can’t exactly say.

If you aren’t out to the others yet, or anybody else for that matter, the secret is safe with him. There’s no doubt that Spy is the best with pronouns, seamlessly switching between preferences depending on whether you’re in a safe space or not.

It’s also the easiest way to know if you’re really, truly safe as well; because his heightened awareness of his surroundings means that he can tell if he might out you even when it seems like the coast is clear.

Even if you don’t care about being out to anybody, Spy makes sure to subtly ask if he’s good to use your pronouns in any given situation outside of what you may be accustomed to. He doesn’t slip up once. Not once. Literally never—

The Spy may be stinky, but words are his forte. He can curse you out in 12 different languages including French but you know damn well he’ll use the right pronouns while doing so!

Phew, this one took a while. I hope I did alright on this one! I apologize if there’s any glaring issues or mistakes in this one, I worked on it over the course of what, a few months?—with lots of breaks in-between.

Thank you to everyone for being so patient! I hope to put out more content sometime in the future, but I know that I’ll likely be slowing down like this as I deal with life stuff and other hyperfixations.

I might make another post with other hyperfixations that I might be up to making headcanons for! Feel free to request those too! :D

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yumenoangst · 2 years

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A Waltz' Finale.

Shu x gn!Reader

✄ TW; implied suicide, unhealthy obsession at one point(?), seeming unrequited love

✄ A/N; Post-War! And no beta :’) There are different parts to the fic that are separated by numbers 😔 Instead of anger... Shu feels the sad™ I based it on my own experience (with some changes of course) but keep in mind that everyone's experience is different.

✄ I got bored halfway (honestly, way to go me 🙄) cause I wrote this at an ungodly hour, so sorry if this is that good-

✄ And with that, please stay safe and know people care about you!

———

His world of perfection shattered.

His castle of sand in ruin.

It took so much of his body just to go home after the devastating defeat Valkyrie had against fine.

And now Shu was here, locked in his room.

Rather unfortunate that his body had certain needs. If he could, he would stay on the ground, hiding, and only speak to Mademoiselle for hours on end.

But of course, that wasn’t the case.

Slowly, he tried to get up, looking lazily over to the bathroom door. He barely had the strength to get up. His legs shaking as he let out a breath he didn’t notice he was holding in. Thankfully, there was a bathroom inside his room. Which made it a lot easier to take care of himself in the safe confines of his room.

The only thing that he still had with him.

The only safety he felt anymore was here. In his room.

Slowly, he walked inside the bathroom, quickly going to the mirror to splash his face with cool water. The mirror showed his reflection, the tired look on his face said numbers, he would tell himself. But at this point, he didn’t have a care in the world.

Medicine surrounded his sink. The permanent headache that he had couldn’t be stopped with the painkillers he had noticed, which is why he uses a lot of sleeping medicine to aid sleeping his days away.

He looked sick.

He felt sick.

Which, he supposed it was another reason for the medicine to be here.

If only there was medicine to forget.

———

It had been a long time since this all started.

Shu didn’t let anyone in his room. Only sometimes were there people who would speak through his locked door.

At first, it was his family. Slight concern would show, talking about how this wasn’t him and he needed to let go of something so trivial, while others would simply complain about him doing nothing.

But how could they understand how it felt for him?

Ah… what a failure he was.

Anyone else who did appear sometimes was Mika, his teammate, who would be the one to bring in food and leave it at his door. While sometimes it would be Y/N, who was one of his classmates.

At first, he was surprised to hear Y/N, but it slowly turned into a recurring event, where they would appear to tell stories about school and the outside, which Shu learnt to slowly appreciate.

Finally, he decided to make an exception.

Letting in Mika and Y/N sometimes in his room.

Mika continued to be the one who would bring in food and such, while Y/N would be making Shu pick up on his self care.

“How are you feeling today Shu?” Their voice barely above a whisper as they gently brushed Shu’s hair. Something that Shu learnt to find that would calm his nerves.

Shu hummed slightly, not being able to come with a response. It had been a long time since he spoke so his words were limited.

“That’s good.” The conversation was one sided, but Y/N didn’t mind that, which calmed Shu even more. “I was thinking, maybe we could go to the kitchen and cook something? If you would like that is.”

Shu quickly shook his head to the side. His face showed his discontent with the suggestion. He didn’t want to leave his room yet, and he made sure that Y/N knew that.

“That’s okay! Don’t worry about it.” Y/N laughed slightly, their whole talk being light hearted as they continued to brush and play with Shu’s hair.

Oh… How much he would love to hear Y/N’s voice till the end of time.

———

III

It was almost suffocating.

Shu felt powerless. Because of something stupid that had happened months ago, here he was with being treated like a child by two of the people that he cared about.

He would have rather they let him rot instead.

A shaky breath escaped his lips.

They had done so much for him and he had done nothing back. He only treated him cruelly before.

So why were they doing this?

Sudden anger went through Shu’s body.

He had done nothing this whole time, he was being useless. Even with all the fabrics around his room, all the machines to see he did nothing.

All he did was sulk and speak to Mademoiselle.

How pathetic.

How pathetic he was.

———

Just like clockwork.

His heart would beat strongly in his chest as he tried to get off his bed, he propped himself on his elbows.

As annoying as it felt having his heart make so much noise, he supposed it made him feel human.

His movements were still sluggish but with the help of others he could move a bit more.

His joints could move a lot more than before.

But he didn’t feel better per say.

He still felt sick.

Powerless.

He hated the feeling.

If he wasn’t so keen on his permanent physical appearance he would have stabbed his heart out.

He doesn’t want scars to look back into and sulk even more. He had done enough of that already.

———

He could feel it.

He was starting to become incredibly dependent on Y/N.

He could feel how obsessed he was getting.

He shouldn’t, he cannot.

He screamed internally. What was he doing?

Yes, Mika was there and he needed him as much as he needed Y/N health wise. But Mika wasn’t… Y/N.

Ah. He wouldn’t mind only having a life that only had Y/N…

Did he love them?

Perhaps.

But even he knew that he was going too far. He was driving himself insane.

———

The only sound that he could hear was his heart and the ticking of a clock.

Shu quietly sat on the bathroom floor. He had done this many times before, contemplating if he should do something he shouldn’t.

Only this time he decided to do it.

A sort of dread clouded on his mind.

He couldn’t handle it anymore, that is why he was here after all.

Regret?

Maybe.

It was only a matter of time before his body would give up, he thought.

But there was something that was weighing on his mind.

It was almost as if his hand moved on its own.

It wasn’t for much time that he realised he longed for someone so caring such as Y/N. But he knew better than to try to go after them, they deserved so much better than someone who turned twisted such as himself.

He wanted to hear their voice one last time.

Dialing Y/N’s phone number he waited to see if the other would pick up. Nervously tapping at his leg slightly as he waited.

Not before long, Shu could hear their voice.

“Hello?”

“Y/N… can you hear me?” Shu hadn’t spoken in so long, his voice slightly raspy, it hurt his throat to speak.

“I… I don’t think we will be able to see e-each other tomorrow…” Shu’s voice was stuck in his throat, a hiccup escaping it. “I- I wanted to tell you a final goodbye”

Ah… suddenly he was crying again.

And before long, Shu hung up. Dropping the phone next to him, laughing dryly.

He didn’t want to hear what Y/N would tell him. It wouldn’t be long before sleep would consume him.

For the last time.

#I tried to imitate the setup of the other mods #cause... AT LEAST THEY KNOW HOW TO AESTHETIC #can you tell I don't use social media much #anyways I wanted to at least post SOMETHING in this blog since everyone else has already #I am so late apologies 😔#shu itsuki x reader #shu itsuki #tw sui implied #there is something funny about me accidentally posting this when I wasn't done and having a heart attack thinking I deleted everything #no. I just accidentally posted it. and honestly I'm just gonna... keep it and not look back ye-#mod brioche

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mafaldaknows · 3 years

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I didn’t know Esther and Vanda had commented on Liz’s insta. That really bummed me out. They have both showed support to Armie before so either Liz contacted them and convinced them to join her side or Liz and Armie have reached an understanding. Or maybe Esther and Wanda are staying neutral? The way Liz has handled the situation made everything a thousand times worse for Armie, so personally I would not like and comment on her posts unless I thought Armie was guilty. Liz has been on and on about how shocked she was and how she didn’t know anything, and even spoke to Paige directly and she NEVER for one second showed she had any doubts as to wether she believed her husband was guilty. The fact that his ex wife believed the claims from the beginning gave even the most absurd accusations merit. I’m not so confident about Armie’s situation as I was😔

Hello, Anon:

If social media activity is fundamental to your understanding of real life human relationships, you might want to step away from social media for a while. It’s all BS. That’s already been proven.

Esther and Vanda might simply have liked those posts for the children. That’s all. No need to read any more into it.

If that’s all it takes to destroy your confidence in Armie, then let it, and let it go, and move on to something better for your mental health and well-being. No one here is asking you to believe what they believe. You are free to choose your own opinions without anyone else’s approval.

You must have us confused with antis and Lilothee, who seem to need our approval of their opinions so very desperately that they bombard our inboxes with reasons why we need to think like they do, or else their thesis falls apart.

Why not seek out causes that give you confidence and the courage of your convictions instead? The Charmiesphere is obviously not the right place for you, if you find yourself wavering on such a flimsy premise.

Thanks for your comment. 😊

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