#but god do i want to write sometimes

[sclki-op]

Ripples ran through his form and he was gone in a heartbeat– rivers of smoke spilling to the floor, seeping through seams, dripping to the deck bellow and past the rails, cascading to the pitch black waters that surrounded the ship.

Shouts sounded from above.

Translucent smoke drifted inches above the sea waves in a layer so thin it ripped– before sealing itself again. It stretched far, looking too much like a morning mist.

He struggled to maintain physical form, swirls of smoke blooming everywhere across his body. His face a distorted mass of thick white.

Questions woven out of worry gone ignored.

#i don't think that im capable of drawing this scene good enough so i decided to write it down instead #and I'm still trying to go easy on my eyes and wrist so I guess it's a solution while i can't draw much! #I'm no writer at all and my english isn't very good (it makes me feel much more confident than i am with my native language though..) #but god do i want to write sometimes #I admire people who can do this well and wish i could too #another zoro x smoker thing (though it can easily be anything else!) #it's post-sabaody but I'm changing the following canon events for the sake of angst in this story #smozo

[1pcii]

my fave alabasta shipping dynamics is pre-established zolu playing matchmaker (how successful they are? eehhhh) for pining namivivi

#this is 100% a flip on that one fanfic script of 'pre-established background lesbian pairing playing matchmaker to the main #'disaster gays' mlm pairing'. that so commonly clogs up the wlw pairings ship tags (<- has experienced the horrors of homestuck ao3) #but also I do think it fits the respective ship dynamics better because zolu is SUCH a comfortable QPR/bfs pairing while namivivi are a #dramatic. angst filled star crossed lovers/'in love and war'. bittersweet pairing #also the potential zoro and nami dynamic aaaa #I love those two so much. he would be SOO annoying about her predicament and she would rack up his dept SOOO much XP #psii.txt #text #god I wish I could write fanfic sometimes #not that I'm expecting anyone to. but if you want 👁️👁️. if you WANT 👀 #this is open for anyone to pick up and do what you wish just PLEASEEEE tag me. please 🙏 #namivivi #zolu #<- also in character for me to crosstag the side pairing to clog up the tag btw. its for the bit ok m sorry XP

[littledreamling]

Stop Asking Neil Gaiman About Fanfiction Challenge 2022

#some of yall just can’t fathom an author who has no wish (nor the ability) to interact with fanfiction of his own works #he’s said multiple times that he’s not allowed to read it nor does he want to #it’s literally none of his business #he supports you writing fics but he literally cannot do anything beyond that #he can’t read it; he can’t interact with it; he can’t reblog it; he can’t do ANYTHING #stop asking #stop askingg #stop askinggg #dear god y’all #i love the fandoms that Neil’s works have created but sometimes y’all drive me CRAZY #Neil Gaiman #please know this isn’t out of hatred or disrespect to anyone in fandom #but it’s disrespectful to Neil to constantly ask him about stuff he’s stated multiple times that he’s not allowed to see #just stick to your own little bubble in the fandom and go hog wild with your fics #and be glad he doesn’t read your stuff #him staying separated from that side of the fandom is as good for you as it is for him #it’s in everyone’s best interest if he keeps that layer of separation #enjoy fics! enjoy writing fics! enjoy reading and sharing fics! but leave Neil out of it #please for the love of god

[gncrezan]

IFs (especially IFs on tumblr!) are very fun because there's a lot of creator-fan interaction possible because of tumblr's ask function. you get to ask questions about your favorites, suggest ideas and sometimes those ideas are even taken on board. fans get much more content because the writers and creators are so accessible. and i feel like asking questions and leaving comments in this way has become so common and standard with IFs that people are forgetting that's a real person writing these stories. just because you can send the ask doesn't mean you should. DON'T BE RUDE ON ANONYMOUS!!!!! DON'T BE WEIRD ON ANONYMOUS!!!!! my jaw drops reading some of these asks so i can't imagine how it's like for the authors

#sorry this post exists out there somewhere but i want to write my own. because. you are all fucking INSANE #not my beautiful wonderful mutuals #BUT SOME OF YOU. ASK YOURSELF IF THIS IS A NORMAL THING TO SAY #two personal posts from me tonight. who would have htought. #txt #personal #same applies to romance in IFs btw #sometimes the game is NOT . NECESSARILY. ABOUT ROMANCE. #i know this is a common element in the games and its what makes these games so popular #BUT THE GAME IS NOT A ROMANCE. ITS A SLICE OF LIFE ABOUT FRIENDSHIP. OR ITS A STORY ABOUT LOSING UR HUMANITY #its MANY THINGS . and there are games that are SPECIFICALLY ABOUT ROMANCE BUT NOT ALL OF THEM ARE!!! #its ok to prioritise the romance content bc thatswhat is important to you. THE AUTHOR DOES NOT NEED TO DO THIS. BECAUSE #THEY ARE NOT WRITING FOR YOU. THE ASKS HAVE TRICKED YOU INTO THINKING THIS. BUT THEYRE NOT. #usually and above all theyre writing a story that means something to them . if you want to wrest creative control or demand more content- #then open a word doc. oh my fucking GOD. #like remember if f/innpoe cant be canon then flinnjoe will be. BE LIKE THAT. #i have adjustments and hcs in my mind for various IFs i would NEVER dream of trying to make canon #and im so content. here. in this beautiful palace of my creation...!!!!!!!

[yellowocaballero]

Been a fan of your fics for YEARS. I was just telling my friend how despite how much I read fics I never actually love them, with some of your fics (especially TMA) as the exception. Felt the need to reread some of them and saw you reblogged some ISAT fanart. So. Any thoughts on ISAT you'd like to share?

Hope you have a wonderful day!! So happy I found your fics again!!

I avoided answering this for a while because I was trying to think of a way to cohesively and coherently vocalize my thoughts on In Stars and Time. I have given up because I don't want to hold everybody here all day and I have accepted that my thoughts are just pterodactyl screeching.

I love it so much. I have so much to say on it. It drove me bonkers for like a week straight. I have AUs. It's absolute Megbait. They're just a little Snufkin and they're having the worst experience of anybody's life. Ludonarratives my fucking beloved.

I am going to talk about the prologue.

The prologue is such a fascinating experience. You crack open the game and immediately begin checking off all of the little genre boxes: mage, warrior, researcher, you're the rogue...some little kid who's there for some reason...alright, you know the score. You're in yet another indie Earthbound RPG, these are your generic characters, let's get the ball rolling.

Except then you realize that these characters are people. You feel instantly how you've entered the game at its last dungeon, at the end of the adventure. They have their own in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They get along well and they're obviously close, but not in a twee or unrealistic way. They have so much chemistry and spirit and life. I fell in love with them so quickly.

But Sif doesn't. Sif kind of hates them, because they will not stop saying the same damn thing. They walk the same paths, do the same things, make the same jokes, expect Sif to say the same lines. They keep referencing a Sif we do not see, with jokes we never see him make and heroic personality he never shows - they reference a Sif who is dead - and Sif can't handle that, so he kills them too.

They become only an exercise in tedious frustration. Sif button mashes through their dialogue, Sif mindlessly clicks the same dialogue options, Sif skips through the tutorial, Sif blows through the puzzles. Sif turns their world into a video game. Sif is playing a generic RPG. Sif forgets their names. They are no longer people with in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They're the mage, the warrior, the researcher, and...some random kid.

I did not understand the Kid's presence at first. I had no idea what they contributed to the game. They didn't do anything. As a party member in a video game, they're a bit useless. Why is the Kid there?

Because Sif's life isn't a video game. Because the kid isn't 'the kid'. They're Bonnie. Bonnie, who the party loves. Why is Bonnie there? Because they love them. There is no room for Bonnie in the boring RPG that Sif is playing. And then you realize that Sif is wrong, and that they've lost something extremely important, and that they'll never escape without it.

Watching the prologue before watching ISAT gave ISAT the most unique air of dread and horror, because you crack open ISAT and you see the person Sif used to be. You realize that Sif used to be a person. Sif used to be the person who made jokes, who gave real smiles, who interacted with the world as if they are a part of it. And you know you are sitting down to watch Sif lose everything that made them a person, to lose everything that made them a member of this world, and turn them into a character in a video game who doesn't understand the point of Bonnie at all.

At the climax of the game, when the others realize that something is deeply wrong and that Sif physically cannot tell them, they realize that there is nothing they can do. So Bonnie declares snacktime. And for the first time they have snacktime.

What is snacktime? Classic JRPGs don't have snacktime. There's literally no point to a snacktime - not in a video game, and not in Sif's terrible life. It's not fixing this, because nothing can fix this. But Bonnie gives Sif a cookie and Sif eats it.

It's meaningless. It's a cutscene. It didn't save Sif and it didn't change a thing. It will make no difference in the end.

But it did make the difference. It made all of the difference in the world. Bonnie is a character who you really don't understand the point of before you realize that Bonnie was the entire point.

ISAT is about comfort media. Why do we play the same video games over and over again? Why do we avoid watching the finale of our favorite shows? What is truly comforting: a story with no conflict, or a story where you always know what is about to happen? Do you want to live in a scary, uncontrollable world, or do you want to play Stardew Valley? Do you want a person or a character?

When I beat Earthbound for the first time (and if you don't know, the prologue/ISAT battle system is just Mother) and watched the ending cutscene where the characters part ways and say goodbye...I felt a little bit sad. I wanted them to be together forever. But that's something only characters could ever be.

#these aren't deep or unique thoughts they're just the specific aspect of ISAT that made it one of the most interesting gaming experiences #i actually like the prologue much more than ISAT for just this reason #its honestly a video game art piece that's created to give the player a very specific experience #that makes them an aspect of the narrative that is told #it's. incredible. #in stars and time #start again start again start again #start again: a prologue #isat #god and there is so so so so much more to say here #what a rich and complex and fascinating game that made me cry like a baby #i dont even kin sif. we arent similar at all. #i cant imagine how devastating this game would have been if i did #but I do have a deep relationship with escapsim #and i write about it a lot #and video games about being video games are wonderful #as are stories about being stories #and why we consume stories. how we use them. how they save us and hurt us. #never played a video game that used its medium so well #i bet undertales also pretty good at that but this is more so i think #stories about stories have to be about why we love stories #and im not an artsy person and i roll my eyes a bit when people talk about the spiritual neccesity of art #i think people need stories because the world is sad and hard and boring and we want to think about something else for a while. #some people need to be anywhere but here #and sometimes if you're Lil Depressed-Ass Snufkin that looks like being here forever #baby cringe-ass snufkin big hat idiot

[benkyoutobentou]

Ranking the books I read in Japanese this year

It’s the end of the year and I don’t think I’ll be finishing any more Japanese books this month, so I thought it would be fun to rank what I read! I read twelve novels in Japanese this year, hitting my goal (but not quite reading one a month). There won’t be twelve rankings here, though, because I read multiple books from the same series and will be combining those.

9. コーヒーが冷めないうちに - 川口俊和: This book just didn’t do it for me. I listened to it on audiobook in February for a target language listening challenge and got stuck in a vicious cycle of not paying attention because the story was boring me and being bored of it because I wasn’t paying enough attention. Most other people I’ve seen who have read it in Japanese also thought it was boring, though, so I’m not mourning any loss.

8. 宝石商リチャードの謎鑑定 - 辻村七子: I really wanted to like this series but the negatives outweighed the positives so much that I only read the first volume. The most damning part of this for me was that I couldn’t stand the writing style. It was extremely confusing, and having a language barrier on top of that just made it miserable. I’m really glad I read this with others because I was not the only one who found the writing style to be ridiculously confusing for a book that doesn’t even handle confusing or difficult topics. Seriously, the writing was so bad that I considered continuing the series in English. But the characters were good.

7. あん - ドリアン助川: Now we get into the books that I enjoyed, just not as much. I liked this book well enough, but it was just a bit middling. I wasn’t overly invested in the characters or story and I found myself wondering how on earth this story could go on for another hundred pages. It was sweet, but ultimately I don’t think the story will stick with me at all.

6. ちょっと今から仕事やめてくる - 北川恵海: This was another audiobook read and although I know I enjoyed it, I really don’t remember much about it. I’m also not sure if the twist, which I did think was really good, actually happened or was something I misunderstood (I’m pretty sure I understood it though). Overall, this one goes on the to-reread pile, just as soon as I can find a physical copy of it.

5. 旅猫リポート - 有川浩: This was an adorable story perfect for cat lovers, but the end had me a little bored. Honestly though, it was quite the experience to go from being a bit bored to crying my eyes out in the span of ten pages. The writing style and the main cat’s perspective was super charming as well.

4. 人間失格 - 太宰治: This was my first classic in Japanese and wasn’t as difficult as I expected. Dazai’s writing style is a pain in the ass, but I will admit that it started to grow on me as the book went on and now I find it endearing. It also wasn’t as depressing as I had heard it was, and I really enjoyed getting a perspective of that time period.

3. 美しい彼 - 凪良ゆう: I only read one volume of this, probably exclusively because I suddenly couldn’t stand romance when I had fifty pages left of this. What can I say, I love a good toxic gay romance. The writing style is chronically readable and the story is super engaging.

2. No. 6 - あさのあつこ: I’m a fan of the anime for this and the novels have not let me down. I’ve only read two so far, but the story and characters are super gripping. I really love the emphasis on dialogue in this series, I really feel like it makes the characters pop more. The only problem I have is this odd quirk in Asano’s writing style, where the majority of the series is told from third person point of view, but will suddenly switch to first person point of view for a single sentence. It’s not enough to deter me, but it is a little odd to see.

1. キノの旅 - 時雨沢恵一: My number one favorite read in Japanese this year and no one should be surprised. I’m a massive Kino fan and read three volumes this year. I love books that I can analyze the hell out of and this is exactly that. Additionally, I think the writing style and the way both Kino and Hermes are characterized adds so much to both the stories and the underlying meanings that Shigusawa is trying to get across.

#some of these reviews are so vague because I read them so long ago #but some are vague because I’m like. it was good. I enjoyed it. next #but also there are some where I’m holding myself back so hard #god I wanted to rip 宝石商リチャード APART that book made me so mad in so many ways #sometimes I feel like the more I like a book the less I have to say about it #langblr #studyblr #studyinspo #polyglot #japanese langblr #日本語 #language learning #booklr #bookblr #benkyou posting #studying #this post is a lie because i havent quite finished my twelfth book #(as of writing this because im not sure when itll be posted. queue vibes) #but i completely intend to finish it before the end of the month and i dont think it will be difficult to do so

[absolutely-not-my-main-blog]

Thinking too long about Always Sunny always has me feeling like a Lovecraftian protagonist who has seen the incommunicable horrors (or wonders) beyond human comprehension and has succumbed to the eyes of madness, so I must occasionally wall off that part of my mind to hold back the floodgates of thoughts for the show, lest the last slivers of my sanity slip away, but it's like trying to nail a single board or place a single piece of tape over the door to an entire universe that keeps trying to pull you back in with some kind of black hole gravitational force when the whole time all anyone else sees is a simple locked door marked "pirate."

#iasip #text #it's always sunny in philadelphia #anmmbposts #i was so entrenched in overwhelming feelings and observations for it last year i felt genuinely ill #and i was legit incapable of thinking about anything else so i had to nix my sunny essay plans again cause i felt too much i felt too much #but god i want to open the doors again #like the interest never left i've just been forcefully tamping it down slightly to be able to do literally anything else for a hot minute #but oughghhgh them them them #brain let me write my essays brain let me write my essays I can communicate the incommunicable come on brain yip yip #the thoughts want out the thoughts want out #i fear i sometimes relate too much to glenn “i think i may be mildly bip*lar” to “i've recently found out that i have a*dhd” h*werton

[rosepompadour]

UPON A FROSTED STAR ...strung together with glitter and wishes.

#god i wanted to love this book so badly #do not throw a book at me and pitch it as swan lake meets gatsby and then write it like...this #sometimes purple prose is acceptable (yes i am speaking of lucy maud and ONLY lucy maud) #but this was like a coquette fever dream written by a bot #the main character is ACTUALLY NAMED odette lakely #but with that said i enjoyed the general vibe and the winter theme and marvin and rose so...voila! #upon a frosted star #bookedit #*

[honeycollectswhump]

Whump Prompt

Caretaker is obsessive about a recovering Whumpee, to the point that it makes them physically uncomfortable and seize up whenever Whumpee gets close with other people. But Caretaker really cares about Whumpee so they try their hardest to not let this actually influence Whumpee’s recovery and connections.

Do they succeed? Does Whumpee ever notice Caretaker’s inner struggle? Does it create a rift in their friendship, making Caretaker distance themselves from the unknowing Whumpee, before they hurt them?

Does Caretaker snap and become a restricting Whumper to their friend?

#yes this is about my disorders #but i’m being so brave about it #i don’t want to impact my friends ever but god sometimes it makes me want to cry #and there’s nothing i can do about it because anything else would be Extremely Toxic #i guess i’m heading towards a low again and that’s not even something meds can fully prevent #obsessive caretaker #caretaker turned whumper #recovering whumpee #mental illness whump #whump prompt #whumpee and caretaker #honey's writing

[essektheylyss]

I am obsessed with how narratively convenient Lark's divinatory abilities are. She's the only one of the protagonists who is both pragmatic and has a working sense of self-preservation, so having some internal impulse that is actually the guiding hand of the cosmos pushing her into doing the REALLY stupid shit is both necessary and really useful.

Like, I am the type of writer who kind of scoffs at the idea that characters are beyond the writer's control and will completely screw over your outline, because on one hand, a sensible outline will follow the characters' personalities and tendencies anyway. Obviously in an ensemble cast you will need to do some wrangling, but in theory your characters are responding to varying degrees of stimuli in order to maneuver them into the places you need them to be for things to all come together in the end.

But more importantly, "curse from god" is the funniest and easiest way to push any character to do things beyond the realm of reason when necessary, and frankly, what the fuck is the point of playing god if you don't embrace that?

#midst podcast #midst spoilers #cr meta #anyway at all times I am advocating for taking full responsibility for your characters and overall story #this is also why I laugh at those posts like 'um if you're not going to treat your characters right then you shouldn't get custody of them' #sorry babe there is no CPS in my head. I am the cruel custodian and these are my poor darwinian orphans. #that's a joke but really like. look. yeah sometimes you gotta fabricate scenarios to make characters do what you want #but like... you do that by going 'who is this character and what would it take to push them to x'??? #and especially in an ensemble cast sometimes that thing is 'curse from god' or 'divine insight' #fun fact: I LOATHE that post about 'my writing teacher made a joke that the characters are driving and the writer is locked in the trunk' #absolutely fucking hate it. #because THE WHOLE POINT OF FORMALLY LEARNING WRITING IS LEARNING HOW TO BE INTENTIONAL. #it is perfectly possible to write successfully without ever having a formal teacher but IF YOU HAVE A FORMAL TEACHER. UH. #like yeah yeah 'workshopping' but like. okay go build your own workshop group don't pay somebody jfc #(cuz it's not like most creative writing teachers know how to teach you to workshop. let's be fucking real.) #if you wanna learn how to workshop take a script class for the love of god. #ANYWAY rant over but I'm correct. the highest purpose of a writer is to be a control freak and to play god.

[crimeronan]

it's genuinely very sad that so many of you guys have never seen breaking bad it's unironically one of my fave shows ever ever Ever and probably always will be. absolutely indefensible in terms of diverse casting or unproblematic representation, but also like...... So Fucking Good.

#if u cant stand to watch white men though i do not recommend it at all. #otherwise. Everything I Could Ever Want In A Show #god what if i streamed breaking bad sometime. would any of the childrens cartoon enjoyers here want to experience something that is uh #not. a children's cartoon in the slightest. #it really is so good. sorry for having the same taste in television/movies as my terrible father #if i didnt though i wouldn't be able to write characters getting at each other's throats with NEARLY the same level of mess. #breaking bad

[cookinguptales]

was chatting with my dad on the phone the other day and I mentioned I was back on my greek mythology bullshit. I finally admitted that I was writing a minotaur story where he'd get a happy ending and my dad was like "yeah, I feel bad for him... he should find another minotaur and have a family and be happy."

and I was like

like when I tell you that no part of me even considered giving this man a love interest of his own species lmao.

#I didn't actually tell dad that it was a gay monsterfucker romance #I will sometimes tell my parents the vaguest of information about my writing but never details lmao #we were talking about greece so It Came Up #that said I do feel like the tragedy of the minotaur is that he is the only one #and he'll never be fully animal nor man #god or mortal #he is the only one of his kind and will never fully have a place to fit in #and that was the part of it that I wanted to write about hahaha #having him meet another minotaur would defeat the purpose of the entire fic lmao #writing liveblogging

[paging-possum]

was going to start writing an essay about the possible overlap between christianity and OCD and then I remembered im on Tumblr dot com and also a fucking idiot when it comes to putting things into words

#idk man I just think about it sometimes #because I feel like one of the biggest steps in the direction of ocd treatment/management/recovery is to acknowledge that it exists #and recognize your obsessions and compulsions are becoming detrimental #and it becomes so much more difficult to do that when the obsessions are around gods perception of you/your own moral standing #because it just feels like a normal religious thing to be thinking about and worried about #and compulsions like repeated prayer just feel like something you're supposed to do #so even the thought that they could be bad feels blasphemous and it becomes a vicious cycle of ocd and IDK!!! IDK!!!!! #I still feel very weird talking about it with other people but its something I think about a lot because the worst part of it is that #no matter how bad it is breaking the cycle is maybe the most terrifying part of it and on top of that if religion is a big part of your lif #then it can be harder to find support for it as well because everyone around you doesn't see it as a problem either #idk im just rambling a little bit. anyways. hi guys religious ocd is a major bitch I kinda want to write something about it

[novelconcepts]

more and more it's feeling like we just...don't have room for people trying anymore. it's all or nothing; get it right the first time, or be crucified by a jury you can never fully see or convince. and this isn't new, isn't born of current events. it's become more and more prevalent over the last ten years thanks to social media putting every little thought on blast, but i'd put money on the idea that it's actually been brewing much longer than that. and, for me, it goes beyond being tiring or upsetting. it feels bleak. it feels downright fucking broken that we're all so busy trying not to condone anything remotely problematic that we don't leave room for good faith learning. watching people trying to suss out their own identity--something literally ONLY they can fully understand or explain--be vilified for trying to fit words around their own experience sucks. watching people misunderstand something and try to apologize for it later, only to be told they should have known all along, sucks. seeing people who once held truly toxic beliefs actually grow and learn and apologize and still be told to fuck themselves as if they're a lost cause--it sucks. just. does that not fill you with despair for the state of things? does that not break something in you, to think that if you one day don't understand something, or misuse a word, or grapple with complicated feelings, it will forever stain you in the eyes of perfect strangers?

dude the world is fucked, and we all see it, but like. it doesn't feel like it helps to be so goddamn reactive. it doesn't feel like it helps anyone to demand perfection out the gate. it's exhausting. there are enough people out there who don't want to learn, who aren't trying, who actively revel in cruelty. looking for malice in every little fuck-up from people who seem to be genuinely striving to live their lives with kindness strikes me as lending strength to an army that already glories in suffering. and makes the world look more fucked than ever. and i really don't know that that energy is what we need when there's already so much to set right.

maybe it's just me. maybe this last decade just shattered something in me. but i really, really hate the idea--reject the idea, frankly--that people can't learn and change and grow. that people can't be better than a bad day or a failure of understanding. i reject the idea that people are something to be thrown out because they fucked up. it just seems...yeah. bleak. really fuckin' bleak.

#personal #i dunno dude #this is that fighting energy from earlier. found some actual words for it i guess #but i'm just so tired #shit's fucked. some shit's complicated. and some isn't--some feels incredibly straightforward to me. #and to the next person maybe there's more nuance. it's all so fucking...there's so much to process all the time #and i catch myself in knee-jerk mode #i catch myself writing people off. making lists in my head. sometimes it's just purely a matter of safety #but god the things i'd give for some of those people to come back into my world #to learn. to grow. to apologize. to decide they value kindness and life over brainwashed beliefs #i would give so much for those friends back. those family members. those people i knee-jerk wrote off back in 2015 #i shrunk my world down when i cut them out. i shrunk it down when i told them to fuck off instead of having a conversation #i actively made my safety net smaller in the effort to keep myself protected #and i just keep watching other people do similar things #and thinking like. if i could go back. if i wasn't so hot-headed and Certain that evil thoughts make a person evil #or that miseducation or ignorance or straight-up brainwashing broke a person for good #maybe it would all be different now than it was for my 25-year-old self #i just. i don't fucking know. #people are trying. people need to KEEP trying. #and telling them they're shit for NEEDING to try is only ever going to carve out the part of them that wants to be better #the world is fucked. why help fuck it even more. what is the point of that. #and i'm not saying don't call people on their shit. but maybe calling them shouldn't look like telling them to kill themselves #maybe it should involve a little grace #slamming doors just feels like it makes the house smaller. and shuts off exit routes you might need later #and i kinda wish i'd known that in my 20s

[ramayantika]

Sometimes I am this very bossy, busy, ambitiously driven woman juggling a hundred different things that I want to do and be good at and then at night when I speak to him I feel like a soft flower who can rest and then start the next day with the golden sunshine

#samridhi speaks #ashuuuuuu #eager to write a few smol poems to him but rn I have exams to focus on #🧿🧿🧿🧿 #also he is such a green forest #so understanding loving and tender #sometimes I think kya punya kiye jo yeh mila #low key want to tell my mother about him but first gotta break the news to my twin brother #and then to my mother #like once mumma is confident about him she will adore him too just like I do #also I learn so much from him #this post is so sweet like chasni but God I will be cringe because prem rog

[mkulias]

i "like" chemma but obviousy not in a "i ship them" way but instead in a "i find it fascinating how these two are so absolutely terrible together and only make each other worse and yet continue to get back together. i want to study them under a microscope and figure out why the fuck they are like this" kind of way

#tbh i really didn't like them at first but now emma is one of my favs!!! i love Her <33 and i do somewhat enjoy chase... somewhat. #i really like their relationship dynamic though. god seeing them together makes me fume and i want to see more of them #though if their arc ends with chase “getting better” and emma staying with him i will fucking riot. #emma realizing she deserves better and leaving chase is the only ending to their relationship i will accept <3 #i do want chase character development btw but i really think their relationship will only ever work if they go their seperate ways #i need to write out my full thoughts on them sometime... ough. #total drama 2023 #total drama #td chase #td emma #chemma #<- AGAIN I DO NOT SHIP THEM IM JUST USING THE TAG </3 #my post