#but I restrained myself. somehow

[precureshowdown]

#precure #mahoutsukai precure #kira kira precure a la mode #orba #bibury #polls #you have no idea how tempted I was just to use Orba's Legendary Body Pillow for this #but I restrained myself. somehow

[whyamihereat4am]

there's something so deeply enjoyable about shipping characters you know would loathe being shipped. Like, whether they have genuine hate for each other or are just offended anyone else would think they tolerate each other, they would definitely rip my head off for giggling maniacally while I draw them smooching in MS Paint like I'm pressing my Barbies' heads together- and not just because that's a generally uncomfortable thing to find, but because it's that person specifically. the knowledge that there is a wealth of erotica that involves them having biologically impossible children would inspire them to destroy the world. but they can't, because they're fictional. the fools. *cackles evilly and posts about who i think would be the bottom when they have hate sex*

#cw mpreg #the moment i wrote this tag i realised this post was a mistake and considered deleting it #but i just watched 13 episodes of death note in one sitting and i physically need to rant about it somehow #fyozai #soukoku #lawlight #new obsession unlocked! #kavetham (probably) #shin soukoku #fukumori #zenku soukoku #i can think of SO many other ships this fits off the top of my head (like 10-12) but i am restraining myself #because i don't want to tag too many fandoms

[crystallizsch]

Yuusha = Jamil's Charging Station

(help 😭)

#honestly how dare he #jamil's just draining energy from another sleep-deprived person #they're so cute #how gross #anon i woke up to this and the idea made me go feral #i cant believe this #you managed to just hit a certain part of my brain #the fluff part specifically #and somehow this is me still restraining myself #hdkshdkej #anyways thank you for this ask i had fun with it 😭🫶 #[— #✦'-asks #twst #twisted wonderland #twst art #twst oc x canon #jamil x yuu #jamil viper #twst yuu #(💜) yuusha #(💜) jamiyuu #★'-my-art #☆'-comic #—] #anyways my own battery is dead #good night tri state area #(i will not sleep until 3am+)

[slavhew]

#homestuck #hom3stuck #dirk strider #dirkjake #... implied #scars #admin draws #fanart #different style for coloring . wanted to do a soft overexposed one but somehow i dont think i restrained myself enough #oh well. still reasonably happy with it #if u saw this earlier no u didn

[dravencroft]

I finally played Detroit Become Human and I am *not* the same person I was twelve in-game hours ago. Here are some of my favourite screenshots---

#Detroit Become Human #DBH #DBH screenshot #DBH Connor #DBH Kara #DBH Markus #maaaaan somehow I managed to save all three ;o; #this game was extremely stressful but also amazing #now I need to restrain myself from immediately starting a new game to see what happens with different choices #also I want to draw fanart TToTT

[quotidian-oblivion]

I think my brain's broken.

Anyone have a band-aid?

#guys i dont think the adult life is for me #so from now on i'm somehow legally declaring myself as a Permanent Child #i think i'd rather stay 15 forever #bye bye adult life #i'm disowning my future adult self #no your stupid number 18 is not allowed to touch me #i'll get a restraining order just you watch #quotidian convos #quotidian is so frickin done #how do adults even put up with this? #this is horrible #its a disease #a disease that needs to be cured ASAP #hashtag getridofadulthood #mainly the responsibilities that come with it #i'll take the privilege of making my own decisions unquestioned thanks

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Your blood loving yassified howdy made me remember that there's a family of moths that are quite literally titled "vampire moths" that like to drink blood [and fruit juice!]

ok i had to look those guys up and! wow! what the fuck! nature took one of its Best things (moths) and combined them with one of its Worst (mosquitos). they're so cute and yet i'm reflexively Afraid!

#except somehow worse because that vampire moth proboscis is Thick #fucking Owie #as least with mosquitos you dont know until the damage is done.... #theyre very pretty though! #i would not be able to restrain myself from picking one up! i'd 100% regret it! #so neat though... blood moths hell yeah.... #see at least they're badass and take it from living things #butterflies are cowards who feed off of corpse blood & spilled blood #vampire moths... so metal.... #rambles from the bog #also can we take a moment to appreciate #how the phrase 'yassified howdy' is a regular and understandable thing to say on this blog #it was a Team Effort to make it so normal here <3

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

so we can all agree Foul Legacy Childe has a beloved narwhal plushie you gave him, right?

you made it for him after the first time you had to be away from home for a while- it was very difficult for both of you, with Childe being incredibly lonely and you constantly being nervous over his wellbeing. when he absolutely refused to let go of you for a few days after you returned, you knew you had to do something to help him deal with any absences, so in secret you started sewing him a cute plushie in the shape of his constellation!!! it takes a while, since you want to make it perfect, but you’re just thankful you found a fabric that’s both soft and can withstand Foul Legacy’s claws.

you keep the finished plush a secret for a few months, until your work unfortunately calls you away again. the night before you have to leave Childe’s laying his head on your lap, attempting to keep in his distressed whimpers since he knows you’ll be gone tomorrow, and you gently nudge his side with a smile. you have a surprise for him, you say, and he looks up, curiosity briefly overtaking his sadness. with a small flourish you present him the stuffed narwhal, setting it carefully in his palms. for a moment Childe just stares at the plush and you’re worried he doesn’t like it, until shaky whines begin to slip out and he looks at you with thankful tears in his eyes, pressing the narwhal against his cheek and crying.

he takes the plushie everywhere when you’re gone- it keeps him company in a silent, unmoving house. holding it and squishing it helps relieve the intense loneliness, since it feels like he has a part of you with him. it’s not uncommon for you to return to the sight of Childe hugging the narwhal as he naps, and with a soft smile you go and give him a gentle nudge. Foul Legacy startles awake, glancing around wildly before his gaze lands on you and he lets out an elated chirp, tugging so you fall into his arms and caging you in. the narwhal rests on your lap so he can squish you and it at the same time, and you feel his purring start with your back pressed to his chest, tired, but happy to be home.

#genshin impact #childe #tartaglia #gi ajax #foul legacy #foul legacy childe #genshin tartagalia #genshin childe #genshin tartaglia #genshin x reader #childe x reader #aaaaaa i am having so much moth brainrot but... i decided to be nice and give yall the soft one....... #because i have another one that is very much sad....... ehehehehhhehhe #but worry not!!! i shall restrain myself. for now....... #also if childe somehow rips the narwhal he immediately asks you to fix it #and he's so sad you can see him shaking but you just pat his head and sew it back up <33 #squimshy narwhal........ #wifi's brainrot #short scenario

[guideaus]

anyways vinland saga was good!! i'd recommend it 👍

#personal #now back to my regularly scheduled anime watching i guess #i fucking binged all of it in like half a week lol #also seeing thorfinn i cant help but imagine his characterization happened w somehow both vash and wolfwood #angry sinner away from home + tortured pacifist wanting to atone... wish ww didnt die in a 'cool' way and vash was allowed a little more... #but yeah anyways vinland saga is here if i wanna root for a guy and its not completely suffering but framed in a good ending lol #i'd love to go straight for the manga but i need order 😔 i'll restrain myself

[finvisual]

Jancy Week 2022: DAY THREE -- love languages

*plays chasing cars softly in the background*

#jancyweek2022 #jancy #my art #st #stranger things #stranger things 4 #AAAAAAAAAA im glad i was able to put out something for this week!! #(honestly wouldve made more in advanced but iiiii #got really sick the last week or so sooooooo #yeah ^^;) #plus i actually made this at the start of october #and SOMEHOW restrained myself from posting it until now lmao #anyways rambling aside: this was very much inspired from this like #behind the scenes photo of this old movie that one of my mutuals posted forever ago?? #and i always swore i would draw something like it for jancy #and now here we are! <333 #love they so muchhhh 💜💖💖💖💖 #i think i originally made this for sundays prompt?? since i had a lyric attached to it-- but i forgot sO! #DOMESTIC BLISS IN THE AFTERMATH HERE WE GOOOOOO #could also be 'stay with me until i fall asleep #because lbr #they deserve to rest after all that shit tbh #even if its stolen moments here and there

[itspileofgoodthings]

one of my favorite human things is just how people using a specific word or phrase or way of writing can suddenly make it NOT cringe anymore. like it can just suddenly give you permission to use it too. LOVE that.

#Taylor calling people guys is that for me #she made it somehow sound different. so now I use it and don’t feel weird about it #also Cate uses italics in a way that makes me feel allowed to #Emma/September both used lol so much that then I decided to #Idk I just love it. Of course I would love to know if there’s anything I say that does the same #but will restrain myself and not make it an ask game #Oh also chelsea/joons made it okay for me to not use capitalization

[voiceshearingyouloud]

Nothing like chilling on the couch, opening google on my phone so I can watch youtube only to find my last opened tab was ‘when to go to the ER for suicidality’ 😭

I’m somehow totally fine now but earlier today I was going for a walk and started thinking about all the crap that’s happened to me and how trapped I feel with my parents recently. I got the worst suicidality I’ve had in years, actually probably the most severe acute moment of suicidality I’ve ever experienced. I was gonna call an ambulance right then because I didn’t trust myself to walk back out of the ravine without doing something but thankfully it passed quickly and I feel normal now.

I should maybe tell my partner though, but I hate to worry them because their ex was very suicidal and put it on my partner in a really horrible way so the last thing I want to do is make them feel like they have to keep me alive. Idk, I should ask them what they want me to do I think. It’ll be a horrible conversation but I think it’s necessary if things continue this way, a worse conversation would be ‘hey, I’m at the ER right now’ or G-d forbid the call from someone other than me.

#suicidality tw #tw suicidality #suicide tw #tw suicide #I feel like this one necessitates all the tags lol #the experience actually really shook me by how much it was my brain doing the ‘we are in mortal danger right now’ #but the danger was from myself #well. I’m alive still; somehow #there goes another of my nine lives lol #I would’ve called an ambulance if not for how I was fine walking home #and I will if this happens again to that severity even if it goes away #so I’ll be fine! I’m actually feeling glad to be alive which has never happened this fast after having really bad SI #so that’s something :) strange but I’ll take it #anne speaks #sorry for the tag essay I guess I just have a lot of feelings about it #I’m restraining myself from just talking about the specifics because no one needs to hear that

[thelioncourts]

I really need to reconsider being on twitter, especially when season 2 goes to air. twitter has always been the most toxic social media for any fandom i've ever been part of and the lack of reading comprehension skills/knowledge of the books is abundant on there right now. if I have to see more louis hate given under the guise of 'he's an unreliable narrator,' i'm going to scream. like? you all don't actually know what an unreliable narrator is, do you?

#they're really on there rn questioning if louis was the one saying 'i'm trying to restrain myself' in the fight #implying louis has any weight in this fight at all??? #also the amount of them somehow thinking louis may have been the one beating lestat up #but refuse to accept that lestat's crazy ass beat the fuck out of louis is insane !!!! #anyway i hate it there

[deerlisteners]

help what is dmlx. I read the words vampire fic and now I need to know

omg ok so!!! dmlx is dimilix which is the pairing of dimitri & felix from the game fire emblem three houses! basically they’re former childhood best friends who are on bad terms after a Tragic Incident when they were like twelve & several years later a war brings them back together - in some games they’re on the same side and in some they aren’t :-)

they’re extremely cringe (affectionate) and still care abt each other so much even when they’re fighting that it’s like. painful to watch like it’s so ridiculous!!! their relationship has so many layers it makes me crazy and their pining abilities are nigh unmatched

the extremely good vampire au fic is the shade of the morning sun by @pirdmystery! i am completely enchanted by it

#SORRY i missed the notif for this somehow!!! #asks #this is paraphrased obv like there’s also a year-long school pining phase btwn the Incident and the war but WHATEVER i’m restraining myself #or this would get REALLY long #basically they’ve plagued my every waking moment for over a year now. it’s not ideal #feposting #dmlxposting #im similarly plagued by vampiremitri quite honestly like it works so so well #the Themes of it all…………. the Narrative Significance……….. and how it affects his relationship w felix………….. explodes one billion times #as i said. enchanted

[always-a-joyful-note]

All right. Time to ramble about a new thing that grabbed me by the neck and didn't let me go until I finished all available episodes.

That new thing, my friends, would be the Mistholme Museum of Mystery, Morbidity, and Mortality. And despite being terrible at writing proper reviews and hardly ever doing it, I'm gonna do my best to give a semi-coherent review of why you should listen to this funky little Australian podcast.

So! I see a lot of people comparing Mistholme to Magnus Archives. ..and while that definitely works, I also want to both compare it to Welcome to Night Vale and Wolf 359 for its at times very cavalier attitude towards the unexplained and its exploration on personhood and humanity.

Seriously, though. What I LOVE about this podcast, asides from the philosophical and discoursey tidbits that make the nerd in me go absolutely bonkers, is the way that while it is very much horror and mystery, it's just not that.

Like...it's a museum about supernatural occurrences and terrors, and while a lot of stories do end in creepy, bone-chilling ways, there's also stories that end ambiguously or happily. It's just people living in a world that happens to have alternatural items in it, and while many of the times things go horribly wrong, a lot of times things also can go right...or leave something good to think about. It's just...the best part about this podcast for me is how it's almost slice of life, but a slice of life that happens in a world of magic through the lens of a museum (literally ;)).

Moving on, though, I also seriously love how sometimes it gives off the feel of those educational shows where the characters talk to the audience. There's definitely some great meta moments (and y'all know how much I am wild over those), some stuff I DEARLY want to say about the second person voice but won't for coherence/spoilers. It blends genres - from sci-fi to horror to fantasy, etc. - and has an amazing meta mystery plot thread that just gets better and better as the show progresses.

More than that, though, I seriously just love the focus on worldbuilding. Ironically, this podcast is a MASTER at the show don't tell rule (with reasonable and very seamlessly woven ways of telling, too), and we gradually get to know of this world similar to our own but noooot quite right as the show progresses in a very organic way. And I'm also gonna seriously express the joy I feel in the ambiguity of the year in which the show is unraveling, as well as the ambiguity of how much the common public is aware of the alternatural and so many other things like that. Enough that you're not toooo curious about it but it still adds just another amazing element of story and FUN to this world.

The characters in this podcast - STARS THE CHARACTERS IN THIS PODCAST!! ATG (what I call the Audio Tour Guide)....well, other people have said it better than me but you WILL want to die for it and treasure it and protect it. The other characters that appear? Phenomenal, complex, just...people. And the VOICE ACTING IN THIS. I am....not a good judge of VAs, I'll admit, but just the voice acting in here. The subtle emotion and RANGE they give to their characters. How I'm able to almost SEE them all just from the way they speak. And the way they all develop, both silent AND speaking characters - I don't know how but Dom somehow made me love the mute or nonspeaking characters...or...just feel certain things for them ;)).

Just....plotwise, characterwise WORLDBUILDINGWISE (I am very much a fan of excellent, incredible worlds), performancewise, the themes and discourse on humanity and nature it invites, everything - solid 1000/10. It's really and seriously ranking up there with W359 as one of my favorite podcasts so far....

Now, of course, there will be some stuff that you may personally not find to taste like I did (what with the diverse stories and so on) but I don't think they belong in this review as they're more subjective opinions those up there were all objectively true despite my gushing I don't take arguments so we don't need that. I think the show really does its best in being respectful to all mythologies, religion, sociopitical issues, etc. that may crop up, and it keeps such an...objective? more hopeful? stance on almost every person narrated about (despite in-show opinions) that's kind of...well, refreshing I suppose? to hear? (Maybe the best way to explain it is that its neutral tone allows people, evil and good, to be people without betraying its show's own ethical code.)

Anyway, yeah....I love Mistholme. I love ATG and co. I love the VA and their voice and all other voices once again I ask why are podcaster voices so nice to hear? I love LOVE the individual stories and their unique way of just...revealing the world of Mistholme. And yes, again, I really love all its themes and the Thoughts(tm) they invite or that invade your brain space.

Anyway, with that, I'm still not forgiving the creator for s4 despite being on s5, how DARE -

And secondly, if I had a nickel for everytime an Aussie creator made an urban fantasy world with some of the best worldbuilding and character arcing and plot twisting I've seen, I'd have 2 nickels which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice...

Comparisons and jokes asides, though, you really WILL love this world on its own. And maybe scream a little in wounded agony. But that's just the fun of visiting a museum of mystery, morbidoty, and mortality right?

#meta elements meta elements META ELEMENTS im so normal about them.... #can i just say this show saw the podcast format and went 'yeah we can milk it for all its worth' #im sorry for the lack of coherence or smooth transitions #anyway i just came from listening to ep 50 and eagerly await ep 51 #and thought might as well post a review about it #the plot is at a semistressful point but i honestly dont mind? #and also there are still asides and mini stories they tell but somehow despite being SO CURIOUS as to whats going ON with the big meta plot #i still wanna know about wire snakes and little research trips into the horrors #anyway i want to say so MUCH about the podcast format...the way this uses so many cool themes about voice and names and personhood... #and the second person voice combined with the audio format #but I'll restrain myself since I already put forth an opinion #anyway i would kill and die for ATG and want it to be okay #all right now im done... #excuse me rambling in the tags #fandom spamdom #note's nonsense #the mistholme museum of mystery morbidity and mortality #t5m #(that's my acronym tag for mistholme museum heh) #edit: oh yeah the other aussie media thing would be city between #tm5

[leftpanty]

Had an extremely good interview for a very exciting part time child care position and I have an orientation to work at the grocery store part time in an hour.... I'm finally gonna be able to leave my job I hate im so fucking happy

#the grocecy store position starts at minimum wage and gets a small raise after the first month #so nothing too exciting #but the childcare job is $24/hr!!!!! my life is going to improve so drastically!!!!! #like based on how things have been going w not working that much lately i could probably support myself just on this childcare job #but i dont have to!!!! i dont have to worry if the elec company will fuck my whole month!!! i can start saving again!!!! #i feel so light rn im so happy #trying not to get too excited in case it all comes crashing down somehow but its hard to restrain myself rn #leftyoriginal