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bloomfish · 1 month

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It's so weird that in angel s5e2 they do a little flashback to Spike's blaze of glory moment in the last episode of Buffy... but they leave out Buffy saying "I love you". It's such a blatant omission, the ONLY omission from that scene, that it feels totally deliberate and kind of dishonest. Considering a lot of the Spike and Angel moments in S5 revolve around their jealousy and rivalry towards each other, and a LOT of that is to do with Buffy like... Why would you leave it out? It's a pretty big moment for Spike's character in general.

As far as I recall they don't even mention it, they just mention the fact that Spike and Buffy have had a lot of sex compared to bangel's ONE disastrous time (that they remember) but it does kind of cheapen it for Spike. A big motivation for him not leaving LA could have been him not wanting to hold Buffy to her words, since he clearly doesn't believe that she loves him (even though she does, as per Whedon). He presumably thinks she only said that to make him feel better in his final moments, because she wouldn't have to actually follow through on her words. Which is sad. But it makes much more sense as a motivation than the weird 'it cheapens my moment of glory' excuse like since when does spike give a shit about that

#spuffy #idk missed opportunity for sure. maybe it's brought up later in the season? I can't remember rn #but they do kind of shunt spike's complexity and make his character all about angel's feelings #though don't get me wrong i LOVE their fight over the cup #i love the symbolism of spike being able to hold the cross while angel can't.#spike pointing out that he fought for his soul while angel had to be forced to change is sooooo cathartic #because that's the thing about angel is he's not inherently a good person. he has to continually fight to be better #he's the faith to spike's buffy #btvs thoughts #btvs #anyway their continued insistence that buffy and angel are soulmates that transcend any other relationships #is rly detrimental to both buffy and angel as characters imo. as well as any other relationships they might have #cordelia and spike who actually put in the work to get to know them as people are automatically relegated to second fiddle #dont get me wrong i love bangel for the angst but i dont buy that buffy will always be in love w the same guy she barely knew at age 16

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liam-summers · 7 months

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You called me angel for the first time, my heart leapt from me You smile now, I can see its pieces still stuck in your teeth And what's left of it, I listen to it tick Every tedious beat Going unknown as any angel to me

🎼 Unknown / Nth, Hozier

#btvsedit #btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #bangel #buffy x angel #bangelgifs #buffy summers #angel btvs #zanisummers #dailybtvs #*gif #otp: how's forever?#Bangel x Hozier collab of all time #I just love how every song fits them #whether it's their angst era #or their love era #or their soft era #or their happiness era #they do it all tbh

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spuffyarchive · 24 days

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Forward to Time Past by unbridled_brunette [NC-17]

The victim of a spell gone awry, Buffy finds herself trapped in Victorian London, where she meets a man that is surprisingly familiar to her.

#*#forward to time past #unbridled brunette #season: 5 #g: angst #c: time travel #c: william #charlie #gia #buffy the vampire slayer #btvs #spuffy #buffy summers #spike #buffy #spike x buffy #spuffygifs #spuffy fanfic

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jennycalendar · 1 month

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"what are we thinking? any sparkage?"

surprise is up next in my btvs watch and as an enjoyer of the soft silly first scooby romances, i am in my feelings. made this to process said feelings.

#btvs #bangel #xandelia #willoz #calendiles #fanvideo #it is ROUGH out here for a s2 enjoyer. must say it #did i sign up for this? yes. do i enjoy the angst? yes. but also. ouchy.#Youtube

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faith-thee-slayer · 2 years

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daniwib · 2 months

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Buddie prompt for adoption

Throwing a prompt out into the wild. If you write it, please let me know!

Inspired by this amazing post about the parallels between Tara and Willow and Buddie, by @yramesoruniverse

Post season 6, Buck starts watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer and gets really into it. He pulls Eddie in with him and even the rest of the team when he starts watching it on the station tv during quiet times on shift. They all get invested in it. Then they get to the episode when Tara dies. None of them had any idea it was coming when they watch it together.

And Buck loses it. It’s too similar to how Eddie was shot. Worse, because Tara and Willow had admitted their feelings and were in a loving, committed relationship. He didn’t even have that when he’d nearly lost Eddie.

Eventually Buck and Eddie, with the others, talk about what Buck went through that day. Which leads to them all talking about what they went through when he was struck by lightning, and ultimately to Eddie talking about what he remembers from when he was shot.

Which was a whole lot more than he’d told Buck during that conversation in their kitchen after his coma…

They name their daughter Tara, years later.

#buddie prompt #featuring Tara & Willow parallels #and angst #evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 #9-1-1 #9-1-1 fanfiction #btvs #tara and willow #buddie #911 fox #angst #prompt for adoption #please tag me if you write it #or even better gift it to me?#ao3

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enigmatist17 · 8 days

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I'm in angst mode :')

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You let that soulless, evil thing touch you

The words rang in his head as Spike watched both Xander and Buffy walk away, and his dead heart ached. The look in her eyes as she bored into him before leaving killed whatever bit of worth he had left to offer, and soon, he and Anya just stood in the empty street.

"I'd better go." The vampire sighed, pushing himself off the wall he'd be pressed against so as not to antagonize Xander, but he paused at the small hand that grabbed his.

"Please don't." Anya's eyes are shining with hurt, and he knows the same pain is in his own.

"Let's go clean up then luv, made a right mess." He slips off his duster to settle it around her shoulders, following the shop owner back inside. They're silent as they clean up the table and right the displays. Spike sniffs out the camera, which had been their downfall, with a snarl, and Anya watches with his coat wrapped around her tight.

"I never saw it..." Anya whispered as he smashed the skull with its camera with ease, the vampiric face she'd always been a little nervous about now so...calming.

"Won't anymore." They stare at a mixture of bone and electronics for a moment, before Spike looks over at her. "You should go 'ome luv, get some sleep." Anya scoffed, still looking at the floor.

"I don't want to...it's too quiet."

"If you're offerin' a couch, I'll take you up on it. Better than my place these days."

"Really?" The vengeance demon looked over, Spike giving a small smile. "My bed is sufficient for both of us, there is no need for you to use my couch."

"Lead away then."

So a vengeance demon and a vampire walk out of a magic store and go to a home where they share an adequately sized bed. Spike holds Anya close as she tries to hide her tears. Neither of them knows if he'll stay or she'll go in the morning, but right now, they need someone who understands their pain.

So they fall asleep holding each other, taking their solace in this tiny corner of the world for as long as they would have it.

#spike #spike btvs #anya jenkins #buffy the vampire slayer #angst #short story

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singwith-love-at-our-throats · 5 months

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looking for spuffy fic recs that are mostly just cute fluff pls

#preferably 50k+ words #I’m reading a really long angsty plot heavy one right now and want something nice to relax with afterwards #something along the lines of the amount of fluff as nothing safe is worth the drive by summerfrost #no apocalypses or angst please #btvs #spuffy #buffy summers #spike btvs #buffy x spike #spike x buffy #buffy the vampire slayer #spuffy fanfic #fic rec

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chronic-escapixt · 7 months

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About Me---

Hello. My name is Jen and I've been on the platform for a while, reading and reblogging fics of my favorite fandoms and sharing my own writing.

I identify as she/her and I'm Black, white & Dominican. I'm 22, bi, my zodiac is gemini & I might be clairvoyant or just think too much.

When I'm not lost in my own head, I'm taking psychology and diversity studies & when I'm not studying, I'm often on this platform or writing.

My content is 18+ (so no minors plz). It's mostly smut with a little plot (bc ain't nobody got time for that) and they tend to have dark topics (specific warnings listed below).

[2024 update: I took a long break from posting because of issues with mental and physical health but I'm feeling better now and the time I took to myself was spent on my organizing my ideas, so I plan on being more consistent with my posting]

~Fandoms: TVD, BTVS, OB, Hazbin Hotel (my current fixation is Kai Parker from TVD).

I use dark themes in my writings, including but not limited to: CNC, dubcon, non-con, yandere, murder, abuse, trauma, stalking, dacryphilia, rough sex, degradation, spanking, size kink, unhealthy dom/sub relationship, bondage, knife kink, choking, kidnapping, breeding, unprotected sex, overstimulation (specific warnings will be listed on each post).

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bloomfish · 1 month

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so I like the concept of the cookie dough speech. I think, independently, it's a good conclusion for buffy to come to by the end of the series. However, the context... look, it's been pretty thoroughly established throughout the series that buffy and angel will never work. can never work. is it a great romance, does it make me feel for the characters, do i love the angst of it? yes absolutely. but why am I being told, despite being shown the opposite, that there's a chance in hell that buffy will end up with angel? why am I being told continually by the writing across both shows that a codependent teen romance between two people who like... barely know each other is what buffy should aspire to? for the rest of her life?

this insistence is such a detriment to the characters of both buffy and angel. each grew so much on their respective shows. i love both buffy and angel as characters. I love what their relationship means for their past and how it informs their characters moving forward. but god, just leave it there. framing buffy/angel as the truest love that will ever be, automatically eclipsing any other relationship either of them try to have, is honestly not great messaging. personally i will always be affected in some way by my first love, I think that's a normal, relatable experience. But there's no way that love is a viable part of my future, and it wouldn't be healthy for me to think so...

it also takes away from the meaning that people like spike and cordelia might have in their lives because whatever they do, however they grow to love each other, they'll always be 'consolation prize' to... what? buffy's high school relationship with an older guy? no thx

#like honestly why would she give angel the hope. what can they possibly expect to have in the future #thats what makes it such a good and angsty relationship!#it was established in iwry that it would not work if angel was human. cool. so their only option is sexless codependent angst #at constant risk of angel losing his soul at any time. bc it wasnt sex it was HAPPINESS. angel lost his soul post sex because he was happy #content in her arms. so by definition they can never be happy together. sux for angel but i dont want that for buffy #anyway #spuffy #anti bangel #again just in case. wild to love a ship so much but also b against it happening. im complex like that #btvs #btvs thoughts #like the only way for it to happen would be for angel to lose his soul and then fight for his soul the way spike did.#which soulless angel would never do. its impossible by design

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finalgirl1984 · 11 hours

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Wouldn’t it be messed up if some known potentials where just kidnapped? Kendra was given up to be raised by her watcher. I imagine most parents aren’t going to surrender their children to a random british guy showing up on their doorstep. And even if they are given proof of the supernatural and fully believe this guys talk of monsters and slayers, thats still not much better is it? “Yeah give us your kid so we can raise them into child soldiers.”

#btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #Also as far as we know that’s just what kendra was told #imagine the angst of kendra finding out her parents did want her #That the person who raised her lied to her #Her whole life #That maybe she could have been like buffy with a real family #As well as being a slayer #But the chance was taken away

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spuffyarchive · 3 months

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maybe i'm ready to love you by chasingfictions [NC-17]

“Buffy?” He almost never used to call her Buffy. Did he? Always Slayer, or pet, or love. Or like, he’d use her name, but it always sounded odd, in his mouth. All tender, touchy. Like, like he was making eye contact with her, just by saying it. "Spike." She wonders if it feels the same, for him. His name, her tongue. - (Or: Spike’s gone, and Buffy doesn’t care. No, really, she doesn’t. Cross her heart.)

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jennycalendar · 6 months

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like, okay, here i was having an angst fest over giles being all by himself, forgetting entirely that buffy TRIED to invite him to christmas after hearing joyce guilt trip her about faith -- and that itself is so loaded! because it's been well established at this point that faith is someone who got fucked over by buffy keeping secrets, who felt betrayed and hurt by not being in buffy's confidence, who buffy cares about, AND, CRUCIALLY, buffy might definitely feel responsible for the current state of isolation faith is in. the fact that she immediately asks whether they can invite giles over for christmas after joyce talks a whole bunch about faith being alone in a dingy motel room says a lot about what she might not be saying this season. i loved this moment. i love it even more because of why a buffy and giles christmas doesn't happen. i will not stop giggling about this for weeks. because:

screenshots do not do justice to how fast joyce fucking booked it out of there.

the fact that giles inadvertently fucked his way out of having a normal christmas in s3 has sent me into hysterics.

#celia watches btvs #send help. im on. the floor #sometimes tragic things happen to the man for angst reasons but sometimes it's fucking. THIS

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faith-thee-slayer · 1 year

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guilty on the run, and i’m never forgiven

#it's angst today #faith lehane #richard wilkins III #buffy the vampire slayer #btvs #buffy #btvs s4 #btvsedit #buffyedit #mine

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matchesarelit · 3 months

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Imagine If You Will...

Attempting to make the most of your stay with your family friends despite the tension that is still lingering after 70 odd years.

This is the *Fluffy* Part 2 an obscenely long time after the other two parts, Fair warning although it gets quite cute, the beginning is a little angsty cause like Ambrose was a dick and needs to apologise so ya know...

P1 -- Angsty p2

WC: 1.9k

You gathered yourself, walking down the hall before striking your knuckles twice on his door. You were met with silence, yet just as you raised your clenched fist to knock again you heard from behind you;

“Hi”

"Ambrose..."

His name was simply all you could manage, the determination from mere seconds before had dripped away and settled in the grooves of the floor. Turning to meet his eyes, you allowed your arms to drop as dead weight to hang by your sides, every ounce of you tired from the hours of anticipation and dread.

The extended silence that hung in the air between the two of you felt unending, your eyes had all but glazed over in your trance. The sound of his footfalls was what alerted you mere milliseconds before you were crushed in his embrace, his head rested atop your own, tucking you into himself. There was no space, no air between the two of you, it was admittedly a not unwelcome change but it was cast in the shadows of the discussions that had to follow it.

The exhale that tumbled from his lungs turned into hurried kisses along the crown of your head, the small acts of affection wrought a funny familiarity, It had been almost a century since you conceded to yourself that you would never feel it again, and decades since you last allowed yourself to remember it. His embrace still felt the same, hauntingly, jarringly so, as if it was someone else's distant memory not your own that you were experiencing.

Despite the strange looming feelings the interaction was nothing near short, you clung to each other, fisting the clothes beneath splayed hands for near half an hour.

Pulling back you met his eyes, "It's been a while ey?" eyes falling over his form; "How has it been, being trapped inside?" he simply rolled his eyes as his hands sat on your hips, the warmth of his skin calming in the crisp autumn air, not to mention the scent that remained the same despite the decades that have passed. The smell is every memory, every adventure and experience you had shared, every whispered secret and playful scheme.

"Heaven how I missed you!" He gripped your sides tighter as he pulled you closer once again and spun the pair of you on the spot in the snug hallway. A sound, a mix of a quaint giggle and absurd snort erupted from your stomach at the shock of the movement. "Me too 'Ro. Can't say I expected such a warm welcome though..." you allowed your sentence to hang between the pair of you unfinished, knowing he was the only one who could answer the question you didn't ask. Gingerly, he placed you down on your own two feet, keeping one hand on your waist, he assured you were standing steady before he retreated his hand to rub the back of his neck.

His tone was sheepish as he started up again but his eyes never left yours, "I am so sorry, for... everything; for not listening to you or my aunties, for saying such harsh and untrue things to you. It was all lies and bullshit to make myself feel better about my idiotic decisions. I think I knew, back then, how stupid it was I-I just didn't want to admit I was wrong, that I could fall for such a imbecilic scheme." he ran a shaky hand down the length of his face. "I know how horrible the things I said to you were, and I can't imagine how hurt you must have been. I hate that I was so detestable while you were simply trying to help me and the things you were saying- I feel like I didn't even really hear them until you had left. please just know I am trying better these days, to listen to those around me, the people I care about..."

By the conclusion of his apology his posture had shrunken, his shoulders curling over. No matter ow appreciative of his apology you may have been seeing Ambrose shrinking in on himself was not something you could bare to watch so you moved silently to mirror his prior embrace, tucking his head into your chest. "Its okay Ro, I mean I was quite judgy. I could have bee-" he tugged himself away from you carefully before cupping your face in his hands. "No, please. There is nothing that you did, there was no part of this that was your fault and I cannot bare to think of you blaming yourself." His voice was hurried as he rushed through the words, but as he neared the end his voice changed, diminished into a tired whisper "So please, please just... don't." the final word was punctuated with a long kiss to your forehead, a tradition that was missed in the many years that had passed.

"Okay Ro, I won't, and thank you, truly, for your apology." You pull his head downwards so that his forehead rests on your own. "But now, please don't stress okay? We've lost enough time as it is" a sniffled hum did not satisfy as you pulled back, lifting his chin to force his eyes to meet your own as you raised a brow... "Seriously, Ambrose, let us not waste any more time. I forgive you, you daft idiot." Tugging his head down further you placed a kiss of your own to his forehead before stepping back. Clutching his hand in your own you tugged him towards his room eager to catch up on the years in-between.

Crashing onto the all too familiar cushions that lay always strewn across the floor, you struggled to pull your gaze from his form. In spite of spending over seventy years apart every spot and feature of his room remained the same, the only notable change lay in his presence, even while reclining in his own space he seemed to recede within himself. And yet reiterating your prior reassurance would surely be futile in the way of making him feel any more comfortable so you simply settled on acting as normal as you could manage.

"So... how is the coven fairing? I've heard your cousin is just as much trouble as we were in our day."

"Pssh, she is much worse than we could manage, but her intentions are better than ours were, much less trouble for troubles sake."

"Damn. speaking of trouble who took over after your uncle?" A dramatic and yet genuinely sour look came over his features as he spat out "Faustus Blackwood" as if the name itself was poisonous.

Your brows knitted together as did your lips as you pouted out an "Ew" Considering for a moment your next words were spoken in disbelief "Such a decision is inconceivable, what the what?"

"I agree my dear and yet..." his words trailed off for a moment before his enigmatic grin covered his face as it often did and he continued; "That was, of course, until Auntie Zelda took his position." His chest had puffed out at this point, clearly joyous to share the news. Your face was overtaken itself in a swarm of joy and outrage as you shot up from your seat as if determined to interrogate why Zelda had left that piece of major news out of your earlier conversation, this reaction of course only cause Ambrose's smile to grow impossibly wider.

A playful glare soon latched onto your features as you all but launched yourself into his arms, muttering out all sorts of childish insults in frustration as you pinched his cheeks, ending with a simple jibe of "Way to bury the lead Ro!"

Settling yourself on bringing the topic up later with the other Spellmans present you relented and tangled yourself alongside his limbs as you had done countless times, before you enquired instead as to his excursions after his house arrest had been lifted, at which point you were happily regaled with tales of dates, studies and adventures alongside his trouble-surrounded cousin.

Within what felt like a few moments, night had fallen and with it came the squealing of brakes and the scattering of gravel. Releasing a chuckle, you rose to your feet, lazily tugging Ambrose from the cushions and to your side as you started towards the foyer.

Only releasing his hand as you reached to tug open the door, glancing past the towering figure to the haphazardly parked car out front, you simply scoffed and cocked your head to the side. now looking up at the man if front of you as if confused by his lack of movement. Rocking back and forth on your heels you raised a mocking brow in his direction before jerking your head backwards into the house, all but inviting him in. Emphasis on the 'all but' as he remained stuck on the other side of the threshold. Sparing a glance to your side, you spotted Ambrose, his brows furrowed and his genuine confusion obvious as he looked between yourself and the blonde at the door.

Yet despite your gaze remaining on Ambrose you caught the briefest mutter of "bloody fuck" from the vamp, and turned your attention to him once again. "Well Spike, how was the casino? Lose all of our money already?"

An offended scoff fell from his lips as he fired back; "Course not love, Don't you trust me? Now come on, let's go inside ey?" drawing your face into a pinched expression you gazed to the sky in another bout of mocking consideration, you leave him hanging for an extended moment, until the sounds of the sisters entering the space drew all of your intention, apart from Ambrose who remained studying Spike who in turn met his gaze with a cocky wink.

It was almost laughable how fast the vampire's cocky and frustrated expression morphed into one of innocence as he greeted the women with flattery and kindness. It was just as you thought, the big softie was capable of not being a dick when it suited him best. Yet as soon as Hilda had invited him inside his smile briefly twisted into yet another one of his cockiest smirks as he shouldered past you.

"So you travel with our little one?"

"Yes, I am glad to say I do. And may I say thank you for lettin' me in. Someone was enjoying keeping me out in the cold."

"Troublesome as ever, I'm truthfully not surprised with all the chaos these two used to get into." Zelda mused as Hilda hummed in agreement;

"Always so cheeky these two"

Sharing a look with the man at your side as you rolled your eyes, you knocked your shoulder with his as you followed the other three from the door. Unsurprisingly Spike was arm in arm, flanked by both of the witches and that was pretty much how it remained from then on for the rest of the night as he regaled the women with adventures and stories of your travels, only pausing on occasion for your input as you lay, head resting on the shoulder of your old friend.

At that moment it felt as if no time had passed at all, and for tonight at least you wanted it to stay that way; complex feelings, bruised egos and ancient scars were an issue for tomorrow.

#ambrose spellman #angst #caos #caos imagine #ambrose spellman imagine #spike #platonic spike x reader #ambrose Spellman x reader #platonic fluff #romantic angst #btvs spike #Imagine if you will...

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