#bluewind talks

[jamiebluewind]

Looking for book suggestions and resources for autistic adults, ESPECIALLY about what to do if diagnosed as an adult (I'm also nonbinary and afab if that helps). I'm overwhelmed by everything out there and it's hard to sort through what's good solid information, what's outdated, and what to stay away from (I've already been told to avoid Autism Speaks).

I've only had my official diagnosis two days. It's kind of wild to learn that things I attributed to my ADHD, PTSD, generalized anxiety, and depression were just... autism. Like, learning about autistic burnout and meltdown is making a lot of things make more sense. I want to learn more about autism so much (and maybe learn some new coping techniques?), but I keep hitting wall after wall of bad information and ableism. I know I'm probably just screaming into the void and hoping the void answers back, but I gotta try.

#bluewind talks #asd #autism #autism spectrum disorder #asd help #autism help #book recommendations #adhd #neurodivergence #autism resources #actually autistic

[letters-to-rosie]

chapter 35: soft launch, hard landing

When Powder was a child, any time late-night reruns of Bluewind would come on, Vander would call it hogwash and change the channel. They didn’t have cable, so there were only like five channels, but he would always change it. It took her a while to figure out why, but then Mrs. Garcia, her first foster mother, said something that cleared the murky waters.

Reeves was the voice of the Undercity. If anyone from south of the bridge was consulted on the show, they must’ve held similar opinions. Whenever Reeves was allowed to be more than the butt of the joke, he would dispense “knowledge” about the way trenchers thought and behaved, and nothing in the show’s universe ever contradicted him.

Once, when Powder was in treatment and taking a break from her degree, she was sitting with Vi, and she got another story. According to Vander, their birth father had made The Last Drop roar with laughter whenever he’d impersonate Reeves. That is the other side of the coin; the character is in the same breath a denigration and a tongue-in-cheek Undercity joke. Imitation is the sincerest form of mockery. As long as everyone’s in on it, it's funny. But if someone calls you Reeves and means it? Different story.

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Powder stirs up trouble as the city plunges into (even more than usual) chaos and (day)dreams about Ekko.

#rosie's writing desk #revolution-verse #timebomb #ekko #jinx #fanfiction #arcane #ekkojinx #i'm back after like 5ever bc finals #this section i put is not most representative of the chapter but it is my fave so there lol

[flylikeanarend]

November 29

Bluewind, started racing in circles around the center stone, to prepare just the right vibrations for everyone. Rosewind arrived and she immediately began to assist him, she made the other shapes. They moved so well together and they could like read each others thoughts. They were moving in perfect sync and with this speed, they would soon be finished, in time, before the first one arrived.

Ninja

Ninja started feeling something below his feet, it was as if tiny vibrations made the plants move a certain way, the vegetation had become less dense, and now he could see the soil, it was red and sandy. He stopped for a moment and he bend down, with his nose almost touching the ground, he could see the tiny grains of sand taking on some kind of pattern. He had not seen this before like grains of sand magically moving, but he remembered his grandfather making patterns in the sand, and saying to him, this is how you talk to the beings in the garden. He was still young, and did not quite understand what was meant by that. His grandfather had done some really weird things, like he would make really intricate detailed patterns for days and then just erase them. Now he saw those kinds of patterns taking shape right in front of his eyes. He got back up and started walking faster, he had to see who was doing that. He was very close now, there was almost no grass or flowers anymore, just very high trees, and they formed like a curtain. This place was magical, he knew the center was just behind those trees. They were enormous, and he walked carefully past them. He entered the first circle, and he was amazed, a vast space, with in the middle a huge tall standing stone and next to it, the most magnificent tree he had even seen, it seemed like it reached all the way into the clouds. The saw something blue and something pink running towards him. They stopped and stood up, Ninja forgot to breathe for a moment, they were two rabbits, they were huge. Hi there Ninja, just a second, we see that our appearance is disturbing to you, so we will change it. There was this golddust explosion and in front of him stood the most magnificent man and a woman of such extraordinary beauty he had never seen before. Better, they asked at the same time. Ninja fell to his knees and bent over, I honor you.. before he could continue what he wanted to say, Bluewind pulled him up and said, it’s okay, me might have exaggerated a little with out appearance. The last time we did that, you know roman empire, big on beauty and perfect body, you know. Ninja did not know what to say, Bluewind and Rosewind looked at him and said, come, we will brief you on the situation, soon the others will be here. You need to eat and drink something, you must be exhausted. They both put their arms around him, and guided him towards the middle of the circle, holding him well. They communicated with each other. Bluewind asked Rosewind, what is wrong with him, he does not seem to remember us, his mind has like these darkisch spots in it, what do we do. Stone did not mention this, we cannot continue with him like this, he will faint soon, when we came closer to the stone, his mind cannot carry this vibration. Rosewind changed direction and Bluewind sensed what she wanted to do, let’s go to the other side first, and get him some herbs. I brought some, but we need to sync him in. Any ideas, Rosewind asked Bluewind. They were silent for a moment, and they noticed, that Ninja had fallen asleep, they were carrying him now. You see him somewhere, Rosewind asked. This is the dream space, if you fall asleep here, you are still here, just somehere else. I will help you carry him to that spot over there, and then I will go find him, I can sense where he is, he went back to the place where he was born, you know, the equivalent garden space, he’s by the sea. Humans tend to do that, when they come here. Can you get him to stop dreaming, Bluewind asked, yes I can Rosewind said, I am fully prepared and I have all the herbs that I need with me. They had arrived at the spot where they put Ninja down, and Rosewind vanished immediately, and Bluewind continued racing the right vibrations into the earth, so all these different people would feel well, and possibly not fall asleep too. Bluewind wondered about what went wrong with Ninja, he was part of the earth and part of the sky and he heard little about what went wrong on the more dense levels of the garden. He finished making the circle vibrations and now, he started making the smaller patterns, according to the visitors who were going to be here soon. Stone had left many things to his discretion, so he trusted the opinion of Bluewind. Because of what happened with Ninja, Bluewind decided to make some extra patterns, to connect the different density levels of the garden, so it would look more familiar to the visitors. He decided to change the appearance of the big stone, and make it look like some sort of building, they would all know. He picked one of the samurai temples, it was a building that was present on many levels of density, so the vibrations would more or less fit, he would not like make an exact replica, but something very close. He made up his mind, and also like stamped the information into the earth so Rosewind would know when she came back with Ninja. He could wake up again in the Samurai temple he knew and it would be better for the person who was sick as well.

[applesharonfiction]

I have no notion of loving people by halves, it is not my nature

Rating: M

Relationship: Jayce/Viktor

Ao3 link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/36961009/chapters/92215699

Years after his partnership with Viktor and their subsequent falling out, Jayce Giopara receives some bad news. (Divorce-era mystery. Fake character death.)

_________

Caitlyn appears on his doorstep at 9:00.

He erroneously assumes that the bell ringing is yet another young protégé from the Workshop and feels a headache gathering behind his temples already.

Bluewind Court is massive, guarded with its own private security separate from the city enforcers, and supposedly guarantees absolute privacy. As Jayce has learned over the years, this illusion of privacy only applies to those whom the mercantile clans and families deem beneath them.

Those who Jayce once, and still to some extent does, deem beneath him.

If the Horological Institute trainees spent more time on whatever their patrons had them hard at work creating and less time darkening his doorstep, surely they would have discovered something useful by now.

Surely they would have been able to create something that would challenge him.

He hasn’t been challenged in years he tells himself despite knowing already the depth of the lie.

“May I come in?” A sharp familiar voice calls out to him loudly from the foyer.

It lacks Caitlyn’s usual, sarcastic quality, which immediately puts Jayce on edge as he sets aside the spanner he had been mindlessly tinkering with. He’ll be the first to admit that he lacks social graces, or the ability to pick up on emotional cues of others, but something about her voice strikes him as off-putting.

He hopes it’s all in his imagination, and purposefully plasters a smile onto his face.

“Cait! I didn’t know you were in the neighbourhood.”

It’s a small joke between them — how Caitlyn’s partner is from the undercity and precipitated a separation from her parents that had been years upon years in the making. Caitlyn lives far away from Bluewind Court and the riches of North Piltover by choice.

Part of him loathes her for it; for having the bravery that he never had himself.

Jayce will never tell her this.

Caitlyn knows this anyway, having seen the anger on his face during a rare night of drinking, all four of them. While glaring at her hand in Vi’s, Jayce had waxed sarcastically on the all-consuming power of love as Viktor had watched the argument at Jayce’s side, laughing into his drink.

As she walks into the room, footsteps surprisingly softer than her usual confident stomping, Jayce tries to remember the last time they talked.

He can’t remember.

#jayvik #jayvik divorce era #jayce giopara #machine herald viktor #arcane #mixture of lol and arcane canon #jayvik fanfic

[jamiebluewind]

Honestly, I feel Janet from The Good Place. I too have people in my life that I have to say "Not a girl" to on a regular basis.

#the good place #janet #nonbinary #lgbtq #bluewind talks

[jamiebluewind]

I fired my aide

I fired my aide

Holy crap, I fired my aide

Anxiety is like

but I'm coping. I was honest with him and told him I tried so hard with him, but I couldn't risk my life. My bestie/roommate is here helping me calm down. My aide will keep working til a replacement is found (ho boy do I have feelings on THAT), but then he'll be gone. It's over.

#bluewind talks #disability #aide #bad aide

[jamiebluewind]

Me: *just chillin*

My brain: You know what this needs? A massive unnecessary anxiety spike!

Me: No??????

My brain:

Me:

#bluewind talks

[jamiebluewind]

Was looking at some art and just had a thought after seeing a freshman year piece (linked below): The Rat Grinders were originally The High 5 Heros right? That changed to Rat Grinders after Lucy died. The 5 stood out to me, so I went to the wiki to double check and... yeah. Their original name had 5, not five spelled out. It sounds like a cute little name for a new adventuring party, but the thing is... there were 6 party members: Kipperlily, Ruben, Mary Ann, Oisin, Ivy, and Lucy. That made my mind go to theorizing.

What if someone wasn't always a part of their group (either literally or figuratively)?

If it was figurative, we got a situation where it's 5 party members and the extra one that was required by school rules (and that name never changed until after one of them died which is even more sad).

If it's literal, there were originally 5 party members, they chose their name based on being a 5 party member party, and somehow they eventually got a 6th member. It's not unreasonable to assume with the kidnappings and life stuff and five billion other factors that the freshman class wouldn't always be perfectly divisible by 6. That would leave one party short the first day (or with an extra person or two). There's a lot of ways to get a group of 5 to 6 if you really think about it (some of which might have been easier with Kalvaxus being in charge and/or Arthur Aguefort dead).

1. The party did part or all of freshman year as an odd group and a 6th is brought in later. In the meantime, they might have partnered with another group or got a hireling for party activities that required 6 students.

2. The school brought in a transfer or offered a spot to the best candidate/s that was still interested

3. Someone slipped in after the party formed using magic, devil's honey, or some other means/mechanic (it wouldn't even need to be at the start of the year)

4. There is an inconsistency due to the time quangle (and someone is exploiting that)

What could it mean? Who knows!? But my goodness isn't it interesting to think about?

PS: Thank you to @idonthaveanyurlideas for being the catalyst to my mad mad ravings tonight ^_^

#watching the newest episode tomorrow but just had to get this thought out there #dimension 20 #fantasy high #d20 #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #spoilers #bluewind talks #d20 theory #fantasy high theory #theory #i am one with the tinfoil

[jamiebluewind]

Just a heads up guys!

I have been a fan of the band Lovejoy for a while (probably better known better for the content their lead singer Wilbur Soot/Wilbur Gold made for the Minecraft community). Recommended them to plenty of you. BUT some stuff has happened with their lead singer and I don't feel comfortable supporting him or his endeavors anymore. So! I'm going to reblog multiple things concerning it and tomorrow try to make one big masterpost with links to the posts I reblogged.

Also, remember not to judge neurodivergant fans who are attempting to untangle fixations. They are trying their best (you guys find your replacement coping techniques first and don't feel guilty or ashamed if it takes a bit).

#wilbur soot #shubble #support shubble #bluewind talks #lovejoy #abuse mention #shubble support #music

[jamiebluewind]

Danny currently has little shit energy, so him do a wrestle (I'm using an oven mitt). Gotta love my boy XD

#danny #cats #animals #bluewind talks

[jamiebluewind]

Me getting sensory overload and needing to listen to music in the dark for an hour to make my brain stop screaming: And HOW did I not know I was autistic again!???

#seriously though #all my friends knew #ALL my friends #and I literally just found out like this month #I'd always thought it was anxiety attacks or some shit #nope! #sensory overload #the sensors do be overloading #brain go brrr but in the bad way #autistic #actually autistic #bluewind talks

[jamiebluewind]

Teenagers by MCR has Fantasy High bad kids vibes

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #d20 #bluewind talks

[jamiebluewind]

I always have Thanksgiving at my best friend's parents' house. They make this frankly impressive sushi spread with all the bells and whistles. We're talking eel, homemade sushi rice, eggs, avocado, various fresh and cured meats, imitation crab, a variety of sauces,... just all that stuff (forgive me for not naming it all for reasons that will become clear in a minute). All restaurant quality. Each person just fills their plate with their favorite sushi ingredients and hand rolls their own.

Here's where the story takes a turn. You see, I can't stand sushi.

I know, I know!

It's not for lack of trying mind you. I've tried it every way you can think of (even without meat of any kind) and my stomach screams NOPE! every time. Can't even sit at the table because of the smell (autistic super sniffer ftw!). It's THAT bad. But this is my family (the one I chose). I love them. So the second year I went in expecting not to eat. The company was worth it for me and I could always grab something on the way home. I was even planning on sitting by everyone and hiding my discomfort because that's what you do... right?

What I wasn't expecting was to be stopped by my best friend's mom. In the livingroom and away from the sushi, there was a small table set up with a few slices of ham (I've always favored it over turkey), homemade biscuits (made with rice milk because I have a dairy allergy) with honey to dip it in (another of my favorites), and sweet potatos with brown sugar and nondairy butter. For context, my birth family would have made me feel guilty for being "extra" and not bothered to cook around my food allergy (even pressured me to eat it anyway at times). I went in there EXPECTING to go hungry and hoping nobody got mad at me for it. What I wasn't expecting was for anybody to take the time out of their day to fix something just for me, just because they wanted to. No tricks. No manipulation. No strings. Just... food. For me.

That was five years ago. Mom (yes I call her that now) just messaged my best friend (now roommate) and I to make sure we'd be there for Thanksgiving. Wanted to know if there was room in our fridge for leftover sushi for Sarah and ham and biscuits for me. I don't think I'll ever get used to how they treat me, but I don't think I'll ever stop being grateful for it either.

#thankgiving #storytime #actually autistic #food #abuse mention #food allergies #found family #bluewind talks #this is making me tear up all over again yall

[jamiebluewind]

Everytime the fingercreepers pop up on the screen, I cheer and have the urge to either pet them or replace my horse with one. Meanwhile, my friends are screaming "WHY!???"

#the are cute that's why #i mean have you seen their animations! #just a little guy #being able to die an unlimited number of times means everything is a pet if i try hard enough #elden ring #bluewind talks #tw hand spiders

[jamiebluewind]

A few years ago, I ordered a signed poster from Thomas Sanders. It was a big splurge for me at the time, but the series meant a lot to me. It was because of Sanders Sides that I learned that anxiety isn't inherently bad and learned to work with mine instead of against it.

Then, my worrying kicked in.

It was probably fragile. What if I ripped it? What if I smudged it? What if it faded?It needed to be protected. So, I left it sitting in the tube it arrived in for nearly 5 years.

Since then, I've come out (gender fluid bisexual), cut off contact with my toxic family, moved across the United States into a great appartment with my best friend and basically got adopted by her parents, went to therapy, got a wardrobe I ACTUALLY like, got a rock collection that I've wanted since I was a kid (little me wanted to be a geologist), helped a friend get out of her own toxic situation, started doing arts and crafts (like knitting and jewelry making) and making my own fidgets (that I openly use),... and on and on and on. In that time, I've ran across the poster several times, but never took it out. Today I changed that.

I had forgotten what it looked like. It wasn't the thin paper I imagined but sturdy. The colors were still bright and the signature reflected the light in metallic silver. It took me and my bestie to unroll it and put it in the poster frame, but now...

And I'm happy and grateful and so many things, but most of all, I'm proud of how far I've come.

#sanders sides #thomas sanders #bluewind talks #storytime

[jamiebluewind]

My friend got Lhutel the Headless spirit ashes (Elden Ring), but she can never remember her name, so she just calls her Nutella and it's just so absurd and I love it.

Me: *minding my own business*

Her (at the top of her lungs): NUTELLA WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU SHOOTING!??

Me: *busts out laughing*

#i can't help it #you try to keep a straight face when your friend is yelling at a hazelnut cocoa spread #IN ITALIAN! #i live for the absurdity of it #elden ring #fromsoftware #bluewind talks #storytime