#being out in the crowds no mask

[yourbabies-thenmine]

Pride wasn’t fun

I got an invite to go to No Requests but when I got there I couldn’t find the girl who invited me and i wasn’t vibing or getting hit on

So I started walking to a new place and ended up walking the wrong direction and ubering to Silverado

Silverado said gay night club on maps so I thought cool, maybe somewhere to dance with friendlier people

There were friendly people in line but getting inside it was a literal bar upstairs and dancing place downstairs

Except they spent like 15 min with drag queens handing out hats (snore) and then some guys in underwear started dancing by the stripper poles. Again, fine, yay pride, but it took all of two seconds for them to be flashing their whole limp penises and taking dollar bills in their g strings.

I get pride is gay and gay things happen but it didn’t feel very lesbian friendly. It did reaffirm my repulsion to white men no matter how conventionally attractive

I did wait in another bar from my Uber and there was a drunk bartender being nice to me but she hit me with the “my husband” phrase and I was out

My Uber was trying to be nice but he was doing the toxic positivity thing and not letting me just have a bad night have to make tons of assumptions about me and what I’m doing ugh

#long ass expensive waste of time night #there was some dancing which was fun but it wasn’t worth it #girls are pretty #being bi at pride is weird bc you see a guy you think is hot and then go after another guys dick kinda ruins it for me #and the girls are there with their friends or boyfriends they’re not looking for pussy #portland opens up after covid #yikes #i was like mom does this all the time #being out in the crowds no mask #but I was dying

[ophernelia]

i went to a fashion show today for one of my old mentees and baby… i don’t miss that scene at all. his showcase was great! he did an amazing job with his recent collection. that wasn’t the issue. that whole backstage life i really don’t miss. too fast paced. too much noise. i just was ready to go. i feel like i just got off a rollercoaster. i don’t wanna do that again.

#i was so close to having a panic attack #the venue was crowded #my mask was making me hot #i did not enjoy that experience at all #I can’t believe I was like 19 in the midst of all that just enjoying it #I can’t even fathom how I did it #the most excitement I want in life now is picking paint swatches with my bf #or going to the store and finding a bunch of figs cause they’re always out of stock #I’m rambling but it’s because I’m uncomfortable #I don’t miss being a socialite I like staying home #nonsims #text post

[landlordevil]

and it really is so frustrating bc i'll tangentially see people hitting clubs weekly and going to huge events unmasked and they're like "live your life!! go outside!!" and it's like idc how many boosters i get getting a bad case of covid just once could still fuck me over big time. and remember that you can give it to others? you don't just have yourself to think about?

#i even push it by going to crowded events masked #it's not like us chronically ill and disabled people somehow aren't still at risk.... it really didn't go away #i'm still trying to figure out the best balance between being covid cautious and still seeing the world- #but even that is a privilege! there are still some people who do not leave their houses because of the continued risk of covid! #i try to stick next to other masked ppl at events i'd like to think there's unspoken appreciation. i certainly appreciate it #and these people also regularly catch covid and post about it like... #i do not wish covid upon them at all. i just wish they understood that some of us cannot physically afford that risk

[laurelwinchester]

so. my month from hell got worse. my grandfather died last night. he died of complications from covid.

put on a goddamn mask, people.

#'oh but it's uncomfortable it makes me too hot i can't see people's faces covid is over' #shut the fuck up my grandfather died alone thinking everyone had forgotten about him #ask me how little i care about you being inconvenienced by wearing a mask in the grocery store and healthcare settings #I realize the world has decided it's acceptable to be a selfish fuckwaffle and go around killing grandparents and other high risk people #but that's actually a fucking insane way to go about life so put the goddamn mask on in crowded places #i'm probably not going to be around for a bit just fyi #i'll try to be here on halloween as usual #just wanted to give a quick update and tell you all to put on a mask because covid is really bad again and everything is hellish out there #do your part to make it slightly less hellish #personal

[galactikburzt]

Truth be told i would really love to be a standup comedian

I think we actually do need more comedians in the world

#finley's evil monologues #i actually do feel comfortable at talking in public in a crowd or being in a scenario in front of a public in general #and i guess humor also has been a big part of my life as well 👍 it's a very great coping mechanism #and a good way to make others happy #so yeah its a win win #“but magpie being a stundup comedian is actually a very hard and exhaust-”SHHHHHHHHHHH SHH- SHH- SHH- SHH- #It's LITERALLY just autistic masking but you get paid for it #taking in a crowd #analize the crowd to figure out how to make the people like you #make a conscious decision about *everything* you do to make people laugh from the way you talk to the way you move #figure out what works best to get people's validation #that's literally the story of my entire life #and you're fucking telling me i could actually get paid for all of that??? sign me the FUCK into that shit because hell yeah #i cant believe i have been doing all of that for free through my entire life #where's my money smh /j #ehehe #ive actually been looking into hunting for advice from other standup comedians out there in the internet #and well #all jokes aside (no pun intended) i think im gonna actually consider it #because again #i think the world does need more comedians in it

[senseiwu]

Lmao remembering when I told my dad that when i got covid, it was, interestingly enough, after I went into the shops without my mask.

Now, I can't say for certain that thats what caused it. Maybe he is right and it was a coincidence.

But... I haven't gotten sick since, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ what do I know

#idc what he says im still wearing my mask #public transport gets crowded as hell and. nope. #i always thought masks were a smart idea even before the pandemic. i remember talking about it with my stepmum when i started catching the #train more. #also im pretty sure ive noticed far less people coming up to and touching me #cant remember the last time a stranger grabbed me in a train station #and idk if its a coincidence or not but. im keeping it. in case it isnt. #even if they are just trying to help and not like that lady who i swear tried to take me out of the station. i dont like being GRABBED by #strangers. #dont freaking grab people??? especially when they cant see????? #thats a surefire way to get whacked with a cane im pretty damn sure #ignore me

[fishthegenderwitch]

Was talking to She roommate the other day, saying that I'm pretty sure years of [multiple bad things I did wrong] caused me to have a fucked up left hip, so I've basically forgotten how I'm supposed to walk, and nothing I do seems to be making it adjust to "non-painful walking".

She then asked if I'm "doing silly walks, or more like" and sent me this gif:

YUP. there it is. How I walk now.

It's shiggy wiggy time

#i laughed out loud at this #on a crowded bus #i have no idea where this is from #but i masked femininity for a long time #so I changed how I let my body move #then slept on an unholy pile of mattresses that were crooked #in a closet #for 5+ years #while being 260+lbs wearing kids crocs as main footwear #hips don't lie #but they do cry

[bitchking-of-angmar]

I know it has been said, but man, as a first time covid experiencer, can't recommend. and they gave me the mild stuff I hear

#I'm a bit mad that I dodged this for almost four years only to do something risky this Friday without thinking about it properly #and then promptly getting it #I've been pretty diligent about masking indoors/ in crowds this entire time but if you meet friends at a packed restaurant #and the people at the table directly behind you are hacking their lungs out for two hours you just know you're done for #my body is holding up quite well so far but being alone while being this sick just feels scary #ordered food for tomorrow and one of my friends is being an absolute angel and getting my meds refill for me #my brain feels like unbaked dough that everything has to pass through in slow motion for a thought to occur #and that muscle pain kept me up all night I hope I can sleep now #good to see that my normally pretty weak immune system is doing it's thing though I was so scared I would be an ER patient #life of hiero

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

Well I have my bag packed for tomorrow. I found an outfit I don’t think I’ll get too upset in.

Have my portable charger. Just had a shower. Fingers crossed tomorrow goes well and I don’t freak out too much

#I know a lot of people don’t wear masks here anymore but I do and it makes me a little anxious because I think I stick out like #a sore thumb and being in a crowded place with lots of people who are probably there in friend groups while sticking out is worrying me a #little bit #I keep thinking something really is going to happen and I’ll have a ptsd attack #or that I’ll overhear someone or see someone that reminds me and sets me off

[kittyhazelnut]

I fear I've made a grave mistake

#covid was going around at work so i made sure to keep my N-95 on at all times and use proper ppe with any covid resident #because i was Not gonna get sick befote comic-con #and i didn't! #but comic-con's over and i think i might have caught covid during the convention 😬 #fortunately my sunday cosplay was quite literally a giant box with a hole over the eyes so i doubt i really passed it on then #but i wasn't wearing a mask (despite being very aware that i could end up getting covid because it's a huge crowd of people) #and i am realizing that was a Mistake #I'm only feeling a little gross so far but it's making me remember how much covid sucked #(not as bad as the flu tho so at least there's that?) #and wearing a mask would have been so much less uncomfortable than that constant headache and sore throat #I'm gonna hopefully get tested tomorrow and obviously I'll wear a mask if i leave the house even if it's negative just to be safe #but next year i think I'll probably make some cute lil masks to match my cosplays #because this was A Mistake™ #(and it was a fairly shitty weekend too because apparently i only catch covid on shitty days) #(the first time i got it was - i think - from watching Morbius in theaters because it was the only place i didn't mask up bc snacks) #(so i guess i just gotta stop making bad decisions and having bad days) #okay I'm going to bed so i can wake up and get tested and hopefully find out I'm wrong 🤞

[youssefguedira]

so so sleepy

#i have to be out 10am tomorrow but i'm really having a moment of 'what if this sore throat means i am about to die' so that's been fun #if i have covid i'm gonna be so so pissed i've been careful but it does feel like i am the only person still being careful #not sure i'll ever be able to transition fully out of masking! at least for the next few years! it's not like covid is no longer a thing #and like. even if it wasn't. i don't know how i'll ever be comfortable in large crowds again #its like. wow that was a fucked up period of time. hope it doesn't have any long lasting effects on my psyche #anyway. i am going to sleep. we got the movie next month #neon has thoughts

[shrinewreck-moving]

u know what. as much as i love my irl friends it DOES kinda suck that they make fun of my interests and my constant fatigue and my need for longer time to socially recharge compared to everyone else. idk how to get them to take me seriously without making them feel like i’m starting an argument v_v

#i just feel like the only time im taken srsly #is when i genuinely cannot mask my exhaustion #and it takes even longer for me to recover physically/socially #anyways everyone is crowding me irl and idk how to tell them to back off #without it being taken as a sleight. augh #i get that im moving cities soon but oh my gd this is not fun for me #haven't had time to Rest in like. 2 weeks #it feels like everyone's constantly in my space #wanting me to chat and smile and make jokes and be high energy always #fuckign. GET ME OUT!!!!!!!!! #✨

[storm-of-feathers]

playing with god by pouring out nyquil and whatever comes out is what i take

#im combining it with a couple other things #which you generally shouldn't do but god if i die i die #and its mucinex which. holy shit idk what they put in that stuff #but for a good and calm 20 minutes earlier i was fine #anyways #ill be sleeping soon probably or at least trying to #but in the meantime im trying to figure out my blanket arrangement here #my fever capped out around 102 but its come back down #but im like swinging wildly between reliving the time i was on a fire and reliving the time i fell through ice #and i HATE IT #god i hate being sick sm the last three years have spoiled me tbh #bc of masks and vaccines and not going outside and the like #i almost never get sick anymore #but i was recently in a crowded boy scouts hall (with a mask dwdw) for my dad #and man. something got me #and ofc combine that with only having slept ab 5% of this weekend lmao #anyways pray for me im so tired and sick :( #they call me mr blue the way im sore and sick and sad for some reason

[oimatchstickman]

Do I like that I’m burnt out on covid news and that I literally cannot take in any more information about this freaking virus or I will have at least a minor breakdown? Nope.

Am I gonna do anything to change that? Also no. Mostly because people have not figured out how to talk to people who were really good about masking, ect. but just cannot deal with that any more vs. the people who never did those things.

I am Tired. I know it’s not good that I Am Done With It. But I am.

#i wear a mask when i feel like it's necessary like on a plane or in a crowded theater #i cannot do it all day at work any more. i just can't. #like i did for swc i'll probably wear one for ~2 weeks before nycc so i don't risk catching it right before a big event #but like. i cannot any longer. i am tired. #also like.......... masks that are protective (versus the cloth ones that were just source control) are much more widely available now #if you wanna then sure go for it those are what i wear when i feel like i need to #but i cannot do this daily any more #and haven't been able to for some time idk #i don't like being burnt out on it #and i get there are people who cannot afford to be burnt out on it #but yelling at people who are burnt out like you yell at people who never took it seriously is Exhausting

[cellobotomy]

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#vent - do not reblog pls #I've been feeling really lonely since I moved to my new state #I've been here for almost a year and can count on one finger the amount of times I've hung out with someone I don't live with #And I've tried so hard to not get covid down here - no indoor dining; mask everywhere public; no big crowds #Talked to my partner abt it too - hey there's a covid surge happening in January please wear a mask when you go to this event #And he comes back with covid #So now I'm stuck in my room for the faintest chance I won't get sick - wearing an n95 in all common spaces #And I'm mad!! But he already knows that he fucked up so there's no reason to show anger to him but I'm still mad! #And the being mad is coming out as being sad #Like I know that him getting covid is not ACTUALLY about him not respecting me #But at the moment my angry brain is saying if you cared you would have worn a mask like I asked you to #And then your mom wouldn't have covid now #And I wouldn't have to hide in my room #And fear for my health #And because I don't have any friends down here I don't have anyone to talk to about it or to hang out with to get away from it

[oceantornadoo]

protective ex-husband!simon, implied violence/break-in

“i know! and that’s when i told her-“ you paused, your hand halfway to the keys at the bottom of your purse. your apartment door was open, a menacing sliver of darkness awaiting you. “hey, i’m going to have to call you back.” you ended the call with your friend, slowly backing away from your door. shit. you knew you locked the door when you left for work, and no one else had a copy of your key. a creeping sensation came over you, like someone was watching from within. slowly, you retreated, taking the elevator down to your apartment’s lobby as the anxiety crawled through your body. you wracked your brain, wondering if you should call the police. wondering if they would even believe you. there was only one call to make.

“come on, pick up.” you tapped your foot impatiently as your ex husband took forever to answer the phone. it was all you could do to not think about your home being violated, about a potential stalker or date gone wrong.

“‘ello?”

“si- simon, it’s me.”

“i know, lovie. that’s why i picked up.” you let out a quiet sob of relief at his voice, the bottle on your emotions starting to leak.

“what’s wrong?” his voice changed, immediately hearing your silent tears. he could always read you too well. “i don’t want to bother you but” you hiccupped. shit. “but my apartment door was open and i’m pretty sure i closed it, i usually do. i don’t know if im being silly but now im in the lobby and im just scared, simon.” there was a fumbling sound, the echoes of simon zipping up his jacket and pulling on his shoes.

“go to that cafe across the street, dove. go get yourself one of those overpriced hot chocolates. i’ll be there in 15.”

9 minutes later, your shaking hands were tapping random patterns on the cafe table, unable to raise your drink to your mouth without spilling it. your eyes were locked onto the wood grain, counting lines to distract yourself.

suddenly, a gloved hand covered yours. you looked up and there he was, your ghost in all his glory. you forgot everything for a second, forgot the past arguments and the strained silences, and flung yourself into his arms. you breathed in his comforting scent of pinewood that masked his cigarettes, a cologne you got him four years ago for christmas. your face was wet, and as he pulled you back to check you for injuries, his thumb brushed a stray tear away from your face. you didn’t even realize you were crying.

“‘s okay, baby. i’m here now. give me your keys.” you fumbled for your keys, purse strap sliding off your shoulder as your hands shook too much to keep it balanced. simon caught it gracefully, finding your keys in the same pocket you always kept them. “stay here. i’ll be back.” you nodded instinctively. only when you saw his figure retreat to your apartment building, clothed in all black like a figure of death, you realized you hadn’t told him your new apartment number.

twenty minutes passed. simon’s presence had worked like medicine as your heart rate has now dropped back down to normal, your hands stable enough to finish your drink. any other person would be worried for simon’s safety, but you knew the only person you should be concerned for was your intruder.

“you’re stayin’ with me tonight.” he was back, looking exactly the same. he wasn’t even winded. “thank you simon, but don’t be ridiculous. i can get a hotel. you live so far from my work anyways.” he approached you, crowding into your space as he leaned over you, even with a cafe table in between. “consider it payment then.” he tilted your chin up with his left hand as he hid his other one, covered with blood, in his pocket. “one way or another, you’re in my bed tonight, dove.” you gulped at that. “and i’ve got riley in the car. you wouldn’t abandon him, would you?” of course he had gotten your cat when he checked out your apartment. riley hated men, but never simon. cheeky bastard.

“you win.”

fast forward a couple of hours and you were getting ready for bed at simon’s, belly full from the meal he had made you. riley made himself at home on the living room couch, of course. “he’s in my spot.” you gestured to your cat on the couch. “wha’ d’ya mean?” your husband simon was now in sweats and sweats only, clean from the shower he had after you both got home back to his place. you pretended not to see him methodically wash blood out of his fingernails, reasoning quite easily with yourself that it was for a good cause.

“my couch for tonight.” simon moved toward you and you avoided his eyes, trying not to stare at how beautiful he still was. muscular but thick, torso adorned with scars you used to trace on sunday mornings when you both stayed in bed until the afternoon. he gripped your chin, forcing you to make eye contact. “told’ya you were in my bed tonight, dovie.” you swallowed and he watched your throat move, memories of you swallowing something else countless times rising to the surface.

“don’t be silly, simon. that would cross a line.”

“what line?” his arms were crossed now, drawing your attention to an unfamiliar tattoo right above his heart. a small dove.

“we’re not together anymore, simon.”

“you’re still my wife.”

silence. he was always like this, pushing you until you broke. he was unwilling to compromise, even on the smallest of issues. usually you’d fight him, spit fire until you lost your voice. tonight though, you were reminded of how he was the only person you were able to call, the only one committing dark sins without asking, all for your safety. instead, you threw your hands up and walked into his bedroom, mechanically stripping as you put on one of his shirts and a pair of boxers. you felt his eyes on you, burning a hole through the fabric. you were tired, so tired of this push and pull.

“what.” you whipped around, all venom. his eyes were impossibly soft, holding yours with a peaceful caress. “you’re as beautiful as the day i lost you.” your fire went out at that. “you’re just trying to get me naked.” you mumbled, looking down as you fidgeted with the hem of his shirt. you watched as his body came into view, pressing your forehead against his bare skin.

“could see you in a thousand layers and you’d still be the most beautiful person i’ve ever seen, dove.” ever so slowly, your hands crept up his body to grab his shoulders and neck. he picked you up with ease, turning the lights off and tucking you both in bed. “when did you get the tattoo?” you asked in the dark.

“3 months and 12 days ago.” what would have been your 3rd year of marriage, your anniversary. you lowered your head and gave him a kiss right where the tattoo was. “can we talk about it in the morning?” you snuggled into him, that familiar scent calming you once again. “always, dove.” he kissed your forehead, smiling in the dark.

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idk why im obsessed with the break-in and simon to the rescue trope but its fueling me lately

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