#before I was sober

[erynalasse]

I wonder when the Noldor looked around at their dwindling numbers and realized that they were dying faster than they could ever keep up with.

#tolkien #silmarillion #I actually have a lot of feelings about this #because the noldor that come over from Valinor are pretty much all you get for the first age’s long war #birth rates are also in the basement if they exist at all #elves don’t have children during war #even if the siege of Angband is peaceful enough to relax that custom #I still don’t think you would have many children #elves have known war before - we know they did before the great journey #but it’s also got to be sobering to realize that your casualty rates are literally unsustainable #(like so #the house of finwë probably isn’t a representative sample of casualty rates #but damn the big picture still can’t be good #we have one grandchild of finwë who survives to the second age out of fifteen and that’s a very very bad rate) #what does that DO to a people group #to go from immortal and undying #to accepting that your whole clan is getting whittled down chunk by chunk #when did they start realizing that even if they beat Morgoth #they wouldn’t recognize the survivors

[spooksier]

watched hazbin hotel with friends last weekend and oh my god guys i could feel it turning me into a reactionary conservative ive never gotten so pissed off at a piece of media before. free all those voice actors from their chains.

#text! #it was mind boggling ive never felt more aversion to a tv show before #the writing. the character design. the animation. the implementation of the musical element. it was ass guys #full disclosure we were playing a drinking game where we took a shot every time they said fuck or every time we cringed #(AND WE GOT TIRED OF TAKING NONSTOP SHOTS BY EPISODE TWO. TWO!!!!!!!!) #but i dont think being sober wouldve made it a better experience #and i try to be positive on here! if i dont like something i just talk about it with my friends irl! but christ almighty. that show is ass

[introspectivememories]

god i know i said i was tired of making eveerything sad but just imagine timber those first few months of reconnecting and they're both drunk on tim's boat, laying on the deck staring up at the stars and bear turns over to look at tim, his eyes are sad and wet, and he reaches out to touch tim's face as if to make sure tim is really there and not an illusion and tim whispers, "bear?" and bernard smiles a little brokenly and goes, "so how long do i have you for this time?"

#tim fully sober now: what do you mean? i'm right here bear #bear still drunk: i got you for almost a whole year last time. how long before you leave this time? #bear: 2 years? 6 months? #tim sadly: you can have me forever bear #bear laughing: i don't even get you that long in my dreams #bear smiles reaching out to poke tim's face: don't worry tim! anytime you want to come back‚ i'll be right here. #god tim who's constantly leaving and bear who knows but cant help letting him comeback into his life again and again #you cannot tell me that bear went to that first date in urban legends expecting tim to stay #he went to that date expecting to get his heart broken again but he loves this boy so he goes anyway #tim who always leaves and bear who waits patiently everytime #sorry im like sobbing in the library #bear is so 'right where you left me' coded #bear who loves tim so much he'll let tim break his heart again and again #head in hands head in hands #dc #tim drake #bernard dowd #timbern #timber

[ashersanity]

ASHER AND LYRA HOLDING WHITNEY’S BURDENS, HER HEAVY TITS, OH HOW HARD IT MUST BE TO CARRY THEM, PLEASE LET ‘EM CARRY YOUR BOOBS FOR YOU.

I fucking can’t with you no more @shokujin-art

#it must be hard to carry them ma’am #let us hel- #why did you draw her so.. #mommy.. #WHO FUCKING SAID THAT #NOT ME #THATS CRAZY #I DID NOT SAY SHIT #asher looks zooted af #smoked a too many before this #he’d do it sober anyway #lyra just looks proud #whitney smug #two loyal servants holding her uh #big heart haha #dol #degrees of lewdity #whitney the bully #asher the disturbed #lyra the succubus #YOU NEED TO STOP DOING THIS TO ME SHOKUJIN

[fisheito]

DID HE LICK? (🐍 edition)

STORY CHP 2: ✅ (ear/abdomen) BELOVED SR: ✅ (mouth) THE OG SSR: ✅✅ (ear; mouth) WHITE DAY: ✅❌️ (mouth) IDOLKUMO: ❌️✅ (mouth/neck/ear) VAMPIREY: ✅✅ (mouth/thighs; neck) BOOKWORM: ❌️✅ (mouth) HISSHISSSS: ✅✅ (neck; calf) IT'S RAINING: ✅✅ (DICK; neck)

H-SCENE TONGUE ACTIVATION RATE: 81%

#before i checked the scenes i aSSUMED #the only time yaku didnt get tongue action was when eiden dommed him into not being able to touch him LMAO #but nope! turns out it was more than just that time. TWO MORE TIMES in fact! #so let me correct myself: #the only time yaku didn't get tongue action was when he was #A) getting dommed by eiden #B) eiden's mouth was otherwise occupied (still sorta getting dommed by eiden) #C) drunk out of his mind #so we can infer from the facts that. should yaku not be in Following Orders mode . of sound and sober mind... #he WILL lick #and that's all i have for you today. he bleps all around. sorta curious about everyone else now #an 81% activation rate doesn't mean much if it's not compared to others hmmmm????????? #narrows eyes with a devious glint of intrigue #if yall do similar inspections of ur faves.... reblog this!! with the stats! so i can COMPARE DATA SETS #yakumo

[tigerr-cherry]

Throwing in the towel on this one lol

¡ Ramble below !

I'm still trying to figure out this digital art stuff as well as work on coloring bc it's one of my weak skills. We tried a new thing ! Instead of color picking my shades, I just did my base & shaded with overlay(?) Saved me time, but I just don't think it translates well ,,,, hmmm idk. I'm keeping the sketch just in case I visit back

Originally, this was supposed to be a narilamb/ experimental piece, buut I wasn't liking how Narinder's was coming out, so I scraped him to focus more on the lamb lol

#i need to stop looking at this before i end up hating it #so im posting it here #i am not sober enough 4 this lol #cult of the lamb #cotl lamb #cotl fanart #i hate coloring #my art #technically a wip

[alien-girl-21]

Guys I love joker out and käärijä so much, I feel so lucky to have found them and be in this fandom with you guys <333

#don't mind me i am the drunk girl in the club bathroom going 'NUNCA HAY QUE SEPARARNOS' #ily guys so much i need to let it out before being sober overtakes me and i pussy out #anyways to the main tags this goes woooo #joker out #käärijä

[calronhunt]

Watched the Utena Movie with my boyfriend. had a wild time.

based on this iconic post

#revolutionary girl utena #utena #adolescence of utena #Fanart #general art tag #this has probably been done before but i'm sobering up from getting drunk #and i haven't drawn in 3 days #also doing show designs just cause i prefer them even tho this is based on the movie.

[fallahifag]

so addiction is cool and mysterious when it’s rich white people but it’s always the addicts fault when they aren’t rich or white . ok

#idk seeing an alcoholic on tiktok get praised for their lifestyle because they’re privileged is such a slap in the face when i think about #how ppl used to treat me during my addiction before i got sober

[bamber344]

stumbling home half drunk from party is a very whumpee feel

head spinning, legs moving but unable to feel them, skin is numb

it's late at night, so you just keep moving forward, hoping that nothing will stop you from getting home safely, but it's hard to discern anything in the shadows of the dim streetlamps

something or someone could jump out at any time

get WHUMPD

#no i did not sober up before writing this #still feelin a little tipsy i won't lie to you my loyal whumpists #whumpblr #whump #whumpee #drunk whumpee #i luv u all ur great <3 #mwah

[devondespresso]

writing my silly little fic and again im struck with how much opportunities they missed by pretending the s2 stancy breakup wasn't messy, specifically for Nancy's guilt about barb and forcing herself to grow up too fast

like s1 Nancy spends one night being a stupid teenager goofing off at her boyfriend's party and staying over to get spicy while Barb goes home. then she later realizes Barb disappeared and died that one night she was letting go and having fun. this is widely recognized trauma for her and informs a lot if not most of her actions through the rest of the show

in season 2 she's feeling the weight of it more around the first year anniversary. steve trys to help by taking her to a party to forget for a little while and 'be stupid teenagers' for a night. a perfectly set up parallel already

the way the show wants it to go, we get the bullshit argument, they fight, allegedly break up at some point, and nancy sleeps with Jonathan. later steve tells her to go with him and we're supposed to read it as Steve stepping back so jancy can happen. we're supposed to be seeing this as a happy ending.

but with the material we're given this would have been the perfect place for an emotional repeat of season 1 for nancy. she and steve go to the party and pretend to be stupid teenagers for the night. but oh no! nancy lets lose too much, lets herself relax and drink and dance, and the next day her boyfriend's pissed. hes saying she said things she never remembered saying and its hurt him and she doesn't know what to do. and kids around school are talking about them breaking up at the party, and that fits with Steve's anger she saw, so they must've broken up right? it sucks, even if she wasn't in love with him, that'd be the worst way to break up with someone (especially if she's confusing platonic and romantic feelings or convincing herself it has to be romantic when she really just values him as a friend)

and then she doesn't have time to work it out, she needs to go with Jonathan to avenge barbs 'disappearance' to give her family closure. She's got a lot of conspiracy shit to do and its stressful. so when murray starts going off about how she's not really in love with steve, how she actually likes Jonathan and he seems to like her back. they finished a lot of the hard work with the conspiracy stuff, she can let her guard down and have a quick good night.

then the next day is chaos. demodogs and labs and will being possessed. It a rough fucking day. Steve tells her to go with Jonathan while they get the mindflayer out of Will, civil like they're on good terms so she does (and thank god she did because that was rough and they needed all the help they could get)

and then everything's fine again, with the upside down. and it looks like she handled things better this time, was about to relax occasionally and still made it through.

except apparently she and steve didn't break up. he thought it was just a few fights, that they put their shit aside for the apocalypse and now they can work things out.

and it could ruin nancy. a year later and she's still hasn't learned her lesson, that letting her guard down hurts the people she cares about, that relaxing and having fun makes her lose people. its her fault for the messy breakup with Steve and its her fault that barb is gone. she's the reason she's lost friends close to her, 2 for 2, and now she only has Jonathan left (and what do you know, season 3 has her conflict with Jonathan and in season 4 she's not let anyone else get truly close to her and fred still dies)

you see what i mean?? by having conflict magical resolve itself in the background we loose so much powerful, painful character drama for her. our girl who thinks she has to keep the world around her up solely on her shoulders because she can't handle the loss of her best friend in season 1. Nancy who desperately wants to be normal and have people she loves but keeps losing them, through factors both in and out of her control, but feels like everything has to be her fault just because some things were.

and to be fair, that story is still present in the show. its there and definitely compelling, but it could've been even more so. i feel like if maybe there was less 'nancy has to be a strong independent girlboss' in there (abd it's definitely there, they want to make a point of making her a Strong Woman Character so bad) and she was allowed to have mistakes acknowledged by the narrative, this is the direction it would've gone. She could've been an excellent example of well written women who are strong and awesome through their own right instead of the narrative trying to make us like her

#nancy wheeler #stranger things meta #stranger things thoughts #platonic stancy #stranger things #platonic stancy because while this could definitely be used in a jancy breakup then stancy fic #my personal theory is that she thinks she should like him romantically because he sees her like that but she actually likes him as a friend #and the bullshit scene was just the worst way for her to say it because she waited so long and refused to when she was sober #also didn't tag anti-nancy because i don't think it is really? like its anti-canon-depiction-because-i-think-they-did-her-dirty #also this is kinda nancy pov so its not like she's actually at fault for everything but in her mind she blames herself anyway #so yea #the fic is my Steve Henderson AU btw for ppl who've never seen me before #stancys not the focus (its steve pov with the Hendersons being main characters) but i want to do a serious platonic stancy workthrough in i #so this is just my headcanons (technically canon compliant based on what we see on screen but not following the narrative direction y'know) #devon's steve henderson au #steve henderson au rambles #hoping praying to god this doesn't make people angry but if it does feel free to block me i don't mind and i really dont want to argue #no disc horse for me just silly little thoughts and headcanons thanks for understanding #devon thinks sometimes

[regulatedstrawberry]

Why does Espio have a horn? I looked up a picture of a chameleon and they don’t have one (at least from what I saw…) He would’ve given me triceratops vibes if I didn’t see his tail.

#sonic the hedgehog #sth #espio sonic #espio the chameleon #I have a lot of random q’s when I’m not sober #if someone has asked this before and there’s an answer I would be curious to know

[lovelylittlegrim]

HC that when Kevin offhandedly mentions thinking about going to AA once Andrew gives him a list of ones in the area and says, “pick.”

Kevin takes the list but they don’t talk about it for days, maybe even weeks. Until after one brutal practice where nothing was going right and all Kevin wanted was alcohol, he drops the list next to Andrew with his chosen one circled.

They don’t make it through the first meeting. Or the second one. Or even the third. But Kevin still meets Andrew at his car every Wednesday to go again. so they go. And each time they stay just a little bit longer, their seats moving a little closer to the front. Kevin’s white knuckle grip easing just a little more around the curve of his chair.

No one says anything about the meetings or acknowledges where Andrew and Kevin go. But somewhere around the fourth meeting Kevin notices Nicky has stopped asking to go to Eden’s. That Neil drags him to the court when Kevin’s hands start to fidget. That Allison doesn’t bring up whatever parties she’s gone to. That Wymack liquor cabinet has suddenly become an open shelf of cookbooks.

Kevin can’t believe he ever thought less of the foxes when they’ve given him more than he’s ever had or asked for.

#aftg #tfc #Kevin day #andrew minyard #Andrew orders a salad the day Kevin gets his first chip #he doesn’t eat it but he does take a few bites before stealing Neil’s burger #Kevin and Andrew are bros and I will not take criticism #Kevin deserves good things and people in his life #also matt and Aaron absolutely drag Kevin into bonding time because they both GET that getting sober is hard

[monstermoviedean]

i'm too sober for this (opens the fridge and pulls out a capri sun)

#I've made this post before but i can't find it. anyway. time for 07x10 :( #oh and before anyone yells at me for this. hello i am a sober individual. yes really.

[thewingedwolf]

luther: the golden child

diego: the mastermind

allison: the peace keeper

klaus: the clown / mascot

five: the rebel / truth teller

ben: the lost child

viktor: the scapegoat

is this something i think this is something

#the umbrella academy #rani makes text posts no one will read #hargreeves siblings #ben being the lost child is kind of forced bc he’s dead but i find it interesting even then #bc ben was unique in the family for already hating being a superhero and his powers due to the horror of them. and however it is he died #it had to be horrific bc viktor doesn’t write about it in his book bc five doesn’t know what happened. and before he died ben’s unique self #awareness seems to have meant they all loved him in a normal way only for his death to poison those bonds completely #so through no decision of his own this very sullen and cranky child has to become a self sacrificing wallflower bc the only way he gets to #even exist is if he takes care of klaus and tries to sober him up. his big moment is sacrificing himself for his siblings! they can’t ever #escape the abuse that reginald heaped onto them!! even in death they’re playing roles reginald forced them into #and sparrow ben is clearly so used to being the manipulator so he’s thrown when his family dies and sloane refuses to be manipulated anymore #and he winds up kind of lost child esque accidentally *anyway* - ignored and repressing his feelings and unable to connect emotionally #also before anyone says diego is too stupid to be the mastermind google ‘the mastermind dysfunctional family role’ it doesn’t require you to #not be a himbo only to be willing to be cruel & as they all say in s1 diego never knows when to stop #pogo is an adult enabler. grace has a weird function bc the umbrella kids love her and diego is convinced she killed reginald bc of abuse #five seems similarly attached to her (makes sense given delores) but the others see her more as an enabler which is INTERESTING #i’m gonna stop rambling now

[wormsdyke]

i think if i could smoke just one joint with will toledo most of my problems would be fixed

#forever afflicted but the intersections of (a)gender and (a)sexuality and (a)romanticism and autism and avoidant behavior. or whatever #i thought about sober to death yesterday and now it’s just playing on loop in my head at 3am as i try to sleep #i’ve almost certainly made nearly this exact post before but it’s still true #car seat headrest #will toledo #tunes posting #orating! #csh