#been drawing a lot lately it seems

[apiculturegal]

edalyn clawthorne my beloved <3

#eda the owl lady #edalyn clawthorne #eda clawthorne #eda clawthorne fanart #toh edalyn #the owl house #toh #the owl house fanart #toh fanart #grudgby #art #my art #been drawing a lot lately it seems #fanart

[elquacktism]

Quackity puts Wilbur into a headlock when they cuddle

#tntduo #c!tntduo specifically #guh.. been thinking about tntduo cuddling a lot lately #idk if that makes me seem sad but im gonna draw it when my back recovers

[averlym]

whshdfhfjf.,,,

#close up!! because i firstly Did Not render them with such insanity in order for tumblr's lack of general resolution to make it blur #look at all the lines!!! teehee i still really really like this style of digital painting it's super super fun to do!!! and also secondly #because i went back and added a tag ramble and as i seem to often be doing??? lately?? reached the 30 tag limit and went 'hm ok how else..' #anyway the tag essay on that one is now up and talks about the artwork generally and miscellaneous thoughts!! that said. i need a space to #ramble about beatrix at Length because look you don't draw and paint etc a character for like ten hours without having a lot of thoughts #anyways ! i digress terrifically. tag rambles are more like trains of thoughts masquerading as subways and you get on and it's unfortunately #a rollercoaster track. but this is My Blog and i can do Whatever I Want as long as i don't hurt anyone <- affirmations!! also Harm Principle #lately it's been like *kicks up feet* *opens tumblr tags* *treats it as own personal journal* and tbh Good for me!! anyways back to beatrix #fun fact ! the thing that pushed me over the edge to go watch the musical after looking through the tumblr tag was a very specific poll. #and the fact that the winning option was blue hair and pronouns made me double over laughing so hard i had to go see the source material #mm i feel like lately the academic Context has been tossing me essentially into a blender HAHA ;-; so everyone in adamandi is to some extent #a Mood. but bea-specific (haha be specific)(sorry!)(wow this is the same reaction mechanism of my friend who points out innuendos)(...) #i think it's the wanting to prove herself. like from the whole abuela etc thing there's proof here she's got a Stable Support System of sort #and instead what beatrix continues to do is push themselves. 'i guess u could say i'm married to my work? god that's depressing' // no one #here to enforce that // abuela tells me to rest says i'm constantly stressed and i'll just get depressed like before but i still have to try #like. that shred of desperation that pushes you to the brink to neglect yourself (well i guess physically but also your morals..) and like!! #the whole 'lose half your soul thing' proves she's self aware!! like they know what they're doing is super dubious yknow! but they're still #they're still doing it even if it goes into conflict with their morality system in a way and then they justify it to themselves (see pt 1 #of ghostwriter) and the whole wanting to achieve at all costs Despite the self awareness. (i think? this aspect also applied to quincy. but #thoughts on him will come later). more beatrix specific also is the fact that they genuinely adore their work.. 'i just love it here where #you know they'll be printing forever and you are just part of it' because that does kind of resonate with me. also the being behind in the #competition is real!!! i'm maybe talking about Art as a subject because that same drive for it exists on my good days i think. even #even when nothing seems to be going right and you've ended up at the back the intent passion inherent in what you do is still there!!! #the genuine. care she has for reporting. is so !!!!! to me... other beatrix thoughts include 'why reveal yourself at the end' aka vincent's #'u should have stayed silent u had a smart plan' like rip to them but i would not // it feels with bea's complex character i can't imagine h #her Not doing that. like the guilt is real i guess. and i am running out of tags but! smth also about her fervent hope or smth that she'll #eventually get to where she wants. and the resilient determination.. 'i won't let their deaths be pointless there's more good i'm gonna do' #they're so so real for that. i'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing; seeing myself reflected in aspects of characters like this.. but it's #it's there regardless. smth smth just make your peace with the person you are ig!! tldr beatrix campbell my beloved. hehe #adamandi

[vaguely-concerned]

the ultimate act of futility it is to argue about the rightness or wrongess of the jedi and their world view only through a watsonian lens with in-universe information, without taking into consideration the doylist perspective that this is fundamentally a cosmology constructed by a guy whose self-described religious views are those of a 'buddhist methodist' who was hopped up on campbell. friends we are never going to get something entirely coherent out of this b/c what went into it wasn't either and that's fine, that tension is probably part of what makes the franchise so enduringly interesting, please stop tearing each other apart I'm so tired

#like yeah the jedi philosophy gestures at buddhism but also... anakin is born through immaculate conception #there's some christianity all the way down nonsense going on here too. it's complicated and weird and so interesting! #not conducive to drawing definitive final conclusions on anything within tho #star wars #I've been thinking a lot lately about how 'falling to the dark side' seems to have a lot more to do #with falling from grace than any ideas I've seen connected to buddhism (not that I'm an expert in either religion haha) #anakin is an antichrist figure who gets saved by one startling moment of grace and love -- not through awakening #I'm generally a jedi-enjoyer btw my main grudge against them is how few rivalling force traditions we get to see (especially light side) #there's apparently quadrillions of living souls in the gffa at any given time. are u telling me there isn't more variety than that??? #r u telling me the jedi have a monopoly on truth? does no one not named something like 'darth deathandplague' have other interpretations?

[diverbots]

do u think u can draw a doodle of lanet please? :o

#overwatch #lanet #art #ask #anonymous #Been drawing her a lot lately and I still can't seem to make her look right lol.

[eddis-not-eeddis]

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#i don't really want to make a whole post about it because it was a very personal and very miserable time for me #but genuinely #the thing that got me wanting to move on again and LIVE after my life plans all fell apart last year #was sitting down and very seriously thinking about the kind of woman i want to be when i'm 70 #i hit that thing that a lot of people in their mid-twenties are hitting right now #where it feels like we've already wasted everything and not only are we failures now but we will always BE failures until we die #but right now i'm still in my twenties #and when i thought about what a good lifespan looked like to me #70-ish seems about right #and what do i want to have when i'm 70 #what skills will be useful and beyond that #what skills will be fun #i had gotten into a mindset of “too late too late” #learning to draw #or sing #or dance #or fix a car #or ride a motorcycle #they all felt like learning NOW would be pointless because *melodramatically* aLL my YoUtH HaS bEEn WaStEddd #but unless God has another plan i'm not going to die in my twenties #i'll likely live many more decades #my life probably isn't even half-way over yet #what do i want to be when i'm 70? #it doesn't matter that i don't know everything yet #i have more than four decades to work on it #that's more than the entirety of the life i've already lived #and yeah #i spent five years at a dead end job that finally drove me almost to a breakdown #but even that wasn't a waste #i saved enough to go to school and i learned a lot while i worked there

[trinket-squeaks]

I need to make more friends in creative spaces, I gotta start being able to ramble for hours about cool fursona designs I saw or and fantasy world concepts I'm pondering and be able to ask for advice on how to improve on this or how to start learning that. I just desperately miss the sense of actual connection I use to feel when I was online in my teens. I need to find more weirdos who won't judge me for being new at creating art and content and who will appreciate the niche I'm trying to fill.

#this is kind of a vent post so sorry for that #but ive been feeling genuinely dejected lately when ive been frequenting creator centric spaces online because i feel like im so far behind #i don't have a fancy set up or a lot of time and energy to dedicate to learning and improving skills and i don't know how to use things #that seem to be almost second nature to others #like discord i seriously do not get how so many of its features work but im so scared to ask and look like a fool #like the fucking mini game ai they have on servers i have no clue how yall make that shit work or where you learned it #anyway ill stop rambling now and go back to trying to motivate myself to draw something #trinket squeaks #furry community #art community #indie vtuber #small streamer #vtubers of tumblr

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ive had much fun booping with yall today :-] #i wish i had the time to boop everyone back #idk y it stands out to me the ppl with strang3r things icons. actually i do kno. its bc one person with an eddie icon booped me a lot of #times lol. but im a lowkey st3ddie shipper and im just sitter here silently like. hm i see yall with steve and eddie icons #and anyone with a terror icon has me twirling my hair bc i just want ppl in that fandom to like me for my obnoxious jammy posts lol #and to my beloved ppl who regularly like my stuff but we aren't mutials for whatever reason 🖤 #idk its just been a nice day lol. its nice outside and i was jsut grading all day. the days just seem longer now that its light so late #wish i had time to draw more than scribbles but alas ive got way too much to do this week :-P #ive gotta meet my boss Tomorrow and i havent even looked at the thing i was supposed to work on. and i have to choose a paper by Wednesday #for lab meeting. ugh. whatever. itll be fun. itll be fine. genuinely i feel good in a way that i thought was impossible a year ago #unrelated

[kagooleo]

wip I forgot to post earlier on in the week but lyraaaaa 👑

#kagoodles #I’m a good chunk of the way in but I forgot to post this from a couple days ago #I feel like refining her design some more tho But the month is coming to a close 😔 #more things to do for next month ig #also sorry for the lack of posting I have been doing a Lot of project prep work as of late #I’ve been drawing my fluffyrice but for some doodles I am. shy abt posting em #more or less debating the contrast of vibes in my art #I may seem like a jokester or lighthearted slime but I also want to shed my clown makeup to write sincere shit. sue me ig #dramatic ​cinema lighting is Fascinating though

[cabbi3]

i really miss drawing and being silly thinking about my blorbos

#i couldn't feel comfortable being myself anywhere else but inside my room #sadly home has really stressed me out a lot lately #everything seems like it takes too much energy to be done #it also upsets me since in my free time i didn't draw or even do my assignments #but just lying on my bed and scrolling the phone #i was scrolling through my art tag and realized that wow i really miss drawing i felt really great back then #honestly i dont want to go to school and socialize with everyone #making art has been a really great escapism for me #it kinda feels scary being out there

[fgooooooo]

Closeup

#SOULCATCHER MY FAVEEEEEEE #ive been watching a lot of chinese opera and myths #ive even done some study drawings! its so cool to me i love the costume designs and patterns #i havent been playing idv much lately but once my exams are done i hope to play a lot!! #i also hope to get composer he seems rlly fun and i rlly like rhythm games #my fave Chinese myths are nezha and sun wukong. i just think they are both so cool #nezha legit was like: oh youre gonna eat kids (beats you to death) and nezha js like 7. its brutal in the original animations #and theres gonna be more movies in the coming years and i rlly hope to watch them!! but cn movies dont get as much coverage 😔 #there was a punk ver called nezha reborn and i cant watch to watch that SUN WUKONG IS SO DRIPPED HES SO COOL #but yeah!! i hope everyone is doing well 🤧💖 i hope to draw norton a lot!! OH i did doodle him today on paper!!! he was dancing :D #if you would like to see a dancing nort i will glady post it!! #to anyone that got this far have a free cookie :3 🍪 #my art #sketch #digital art #identity v #idv #idv art #norton campbell #idv norton #doodle

[leafeonb]

have been playing a lot of ff6 today (trying to finish another section of the guide rn)

#this is making me want to draw (not ff) 😭 this game is so fun once you know how to use the mechanics #lately i have been thinking about game mechanics a lot and remembered how fun the materia stuff on the 7 was #i loved the materia system it was so fun to see which combination was better + i kept focusing on leveling them up as well #so at the end of my game every single main party member i had (my main 3 party) had a cure 3 materia at least #which saved me. help #but also i completely forgot about heal materia. the final fights were scary as hell because of that 💀 BUT regen was saving everyone #thumbs up 👍 #i want to replayyyyyyyy it was so good also hearing my friends saying they want to play it. big smile on my face (og 7 game of course.) #lulu.txt #i dont have any plans for tonight so maybe MAYBE i will try to get to the final dungeon if i can... it seems like im on the #last dungeon before the final one rn 👍 but i still have to find locke my friend #i think im gonna take a break rn... im doing the phoenix cave and it looks like im really close to the boss 🫡

[elysiicns]

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#giulia.txt #i've been drawing a lot lately but i hate everything that i make :/ #i don't know if i'm bored or my expectations surpass my skill but i found something i did in 2018 and i feel like i just got worse #don't want to come off like i'm fishing for compliments i just don't know if the art is the problem or if i'm the problem #bc i don't see the good in it but others seem to like it? but i don't like it. idk #like i look at it and i can think. okay #it's objectively . . . not good i guess #but cute. it's charming. but it just doesn't fit what i wanted it to be. #comparison is a damn good thief of joy bc i just don't measure up to all the beautiful stuff i see on my tl and dash #the return of the dot post

[sysig]

Huh, what does this auto-thumbnail remind me of-

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#Lol #Shitpost #Seems appropriate considering the subject of that speed draw lol #Getting so close to the end of editing! #There's only about another month of Requestobers left as well so keep an eye out #I've been pulling a lot more video game tracks lately - this one included - it's been enjoyable listening and relistening to some OSTs #It's been really making me want to try editing to the beat but WMM isn't really made for that kind of close-cut editing #Plus Lightworks only goes up to 720p which like - cheap >:| - but I'd also need to get used to it and I'd rather finish these out #Some consistency~~~ I can always make more later #My poor tablet's been Super on the fritz lately tho :( #I haven't played with my Gaomon since the move just trying to keep to the Comfort Items but eh #I can't tell if it's the wiggly port in the tablet or the laptop lol but I'm sure those don't help #I also Actually had a thing happen that I'd only heard horror stories about! :0 Stylus nib gouging the tablet face! #Feels almost exactly like when the graphite catches but y'know - way worse #Luckily I've got plenty of nibs but I do have a few new scratches #My intuos is celebrating a decade of use this year so honestly it's been such a champ <3 #Hopefully I'll be able to ask a local repair shop the parameters on how small and specialized they can help with #Anyway lol #Vargas

[readymades2002]

something difficult about writing/storytelling but only in short disconnected bursts is that writing anything longform is very difficult. there isn't as much time to practice long-term character development or subtlety (implying character instead of immediately clarifying) when its not really meant to go anywhere but a notes app. its a little frustrating...i'd love to do something more longform though. i've considered maybe just doing some short writing scenes in my various original universes a lot recently mostly because i just havent had time to draw anything fancy recently </3 maybe that would be something...

#briefly talked about it with a coworker today bc i mentioned my brother makes music #and she got excited because she paints and she showed me some of her work (beautiful btw!!!) #and said she hopes he pursues music and doesnt get his heart crushed by retail like we do #we still make things but ive been thinking about it...it really is like #i feel like ive had less TIME to make things but ive also developed more interest in my own ideas #and in constructing them on their own terms. its hard to describe and even harder to share because its #not churning out fanart for a response i guess? #i dont know. i do feel more satisfied with what im planning but theres less to share #anyway i promised her i'd show her my art sometime so essentially i have to flee the country now #she does lovely work she paints pictures of pets and it seems so nice. she seems so happy with it! #its like...i love it. im a little jealous of it. i feel so much pressure to Do Something New with my art #try to craft scenes and settings (i think setting is such ann important part of storytelling but i have so much trouble drawing it!) #and try new compositions and poses and just not have everything look the same all the time #its led to a lot of work im proud of but its also hard to create under those expectations... #i wish i could find a niche and settle into it comfortably. i think fun character drawings could be that for me #but its...it frustrates me to post those because it feels like if its easy and i like doing it and how it turns out then im not trying #okay i think im done now. sorry for these rambling introspective posts lately lol im #trying to warm back up to posting so i can use this website again (despite how very very bad it is)... #i want to see my frieeeeeends <//////3 i want to be here without running away <///3

[frecklystars]

I made an anonymous request to an x reader blog for a RiD!Starscream x Reader and I cannot for the life of me remember who I sent the request to. It’s been four months. Their URL was very long and I don’t remember a single word. There is possibly a Starscream x Reader out there that I am missing out on.................................. I don’t even remember what my request WAS

#maybe one day ill find it by accident lmao #ive just been yearning and aching for him lately!!! UGHGHHG #your girl is getting the stupid Chest Pains™ only tfp/rid starscream seems to provoke #i wanna commission an artist to draw him but they are SWAMPED and i dont wanna overwhelm them #but idk any other tf artists who would wanna draw rid2015 #bc a lot of rid2015 artists are inactive since the show was from like foreverrrr agooo #there is ONE artist who still draws rid2015 starscream but its all like... gore art... #i dont have the heart to look at the love of my life in so much pain :') #i saw too much of that in TFP and doing it to him in rid2015 just feels heartbreaking #bc it erases all of the healing progress he made #ppl just love to torture this character and yeah i guess i understand #but also jesus christ. can anyone draw him happy pls. let him sit in a flower meadow #love notes #woof #💕 Everything I did to get to you 🌟🌸