Maddox: “If this song is about anything, it’s the way I feel about you…”
You and Kyungmoon had met almost a year ago at a small coffee shop where you used to work at over the summer. He was a regular for some time, always ordering a hot tea of some sort, and eventually you started looking forward to one another’s short visitations. Once you told him you’d be ending your work in the summer in order to finish your education in the upcoming fall, he asked for your number, and you became great friends even after you left the shop. Recently, though, you’ve become much closer, and would even probably call him one of your current best friends.
“Kyun,” you call from across the room of your apartment’s living room settee. Kyungmoon’s sitting across from you on a sectional sofa.
“Yes?” He looks up at you, tugging one of his headphones behind an ear.
“Is it cold in here for you, too? Can I turn up the heat a bit?”
He smiles. “You’re cold?”
You nod, wrapping your blanket over your legs tighter.
“Come here, then. I’m actually kind of hot,” he says sweetly.
Your face brightens up and you reach for your blanket and computer before proceeding to make yourself comfortable next to him. He takes the blanket he was wrapped under and drapes it over you.
“What are you listening to?” You look up at his headphones, then peek over his computer.
“I recorded a few things last night. I’m listening over them again to see if they’re any good.”
“I bet they are good,” you smile. “All your music is so good! My favorite of yours is Color Blind.”
He laughs lightly. “Thanks, but this one… I can’t figure out what I’m going for. I don’t know if it’s a love song or a heartbreak song. What about you, what are you working on?” He looks carefully over your shoulder at your own screen, to which you reply, “Oh, I’m still procrastinating on finishing an assignment. At least I’m almost done.”
A few seconds of silence pass by before you speak again. “Why is your song about love?”
He sighs and removes his headphones, leaning back on the sofa to contemplate at the ceiling. “You know, maybe it’s about having a one-sided feeling.”
“How so?” You tug your blankets higher to your shoulders.
“Well… I don’t know. For this song, I want to feel in love, I think. But the words keep coming down to a feeling of heartbreak, and that's probably because I don’t know the answer to the other end of this crush.” He turns bright red, looking away from you now. He can’t help a small smile slip out, and you catch him anyway.
“Kyun, you’re in love!” you giggle.
“No, this is for a song!” He’s laughing too now, hiding himself completely over the blanket.
“No, I think you’re in love! You’re way too shy about these things!” you lightly tug at his side of the blanket. He’s resisting, and you’re both sharing laughter and playful shoving amongst one another. He’s completely flustered under the blankets, unwilling to show his face to you.
“Fine,” you huff. “I won’t actually force you to say anything. Maybe your song should be about the frustration of love, instead.”
He comes up from under the blanket and stares into his computer for a second. “Maybe you’re right.”
You turn and smile at him, and close your computer. “I’m usually right, and you know that.” Your eyes feel heavy, now that you’re warmer in the otherwise cool apartment. “I’m gonna take a short nap. Wake me up when you’ve made a breakthrough with your song.”
He opens his arm around you, and you snuggle next to him for a moment, his computer on his lap.
This was what you loved most about him. Not only was he a close friend, but the love itself was very platonic. And very mutual. Or at least, you always thought of it like that. He was the kind of person you could feel safe around, comfortable to share your doubts and wishes without him coming off as too judge-mental, too possessive, too jealous. However, not all of your exes understood this, and they tended to break things off when their jealousy overwhelmed them. And thus, he would once again become the pillow you clashed into at times of despair after every single end of your relationships.
But what you didn’t know? The platonic love on his end slowly started to become a little too… real.
For a few moments between you dozing on and off, he watches you quietly, unable to comprehend the overwhelming feeling he’s overcome with at this very moment. You were always so sweet to him, so fair and so good. When you worked at the coffee shop, it didn’t take many visits for you to ask about why he’d only get hot teas. That was when you learned he was a singer. And since then, you made sure to make the best for him, always giving him words of affirmation when he’d come in before and after long work hours. Even now, he never went to the recording studio without a tea thermal from you.
He was slowly falling for the way you made him comfortable, for the way you accepted him whole, and especially now once you became closer and learned of all his humane flaws.
Heartbreaks arose for him when you’d date other people. Hearts would skip beats when he’d find out your relationships didn’t work out. Anxiety would rise seeing you get heartbroken by exes undeserving of you. And the closer you seemed to grow as friends, the shyer he seemed to become.
Maybe I am… flustered, he thought to himself. I’m always flustered around you nowadays. If this song is about anything, it’s about the way I feel about you.
Seeing you sleep on him comfortably, he shut his computer off and gently ran his fingers through your hair, slowly caressing your cheek once he felt you were asleep. He leaned in close to you, embracing you in a full hug.
“I think I am in love with you,” he whispered into you, placing a gentle kiss on your head.
Several seconds passed after that moment, the quiet rain and distant thunder murmuring in the background.
You smile secretly to yourself, unbeknownst to Kyungmoon. If only he knew that you weren’t asleep yet, and if only he knew that once you did ‘wake up,’ he’d be in for a pleasant confession from you as well.
You sleepily extended your arm out, calculating for your hands to fall into each other. You acted like you were still in a deep sleep, and just so happened to hold hands amidst your slumber.
Another smile discreetly escapes your hidden lips as you feel him gently caressing his shy, firm fingers against the back of your palm, a reassuring gesture you knew so well.
My platonic love.
No, not anymore.
I think I’m in love with you, too.
In a matter of minutes, you both did end up falling asleep on each other. Hands and arms wrapped around each other, heads resting into one another, the blanket cocooning both your bodies into one.
You didn’t know when exactly it happened, either, but at one point along your friendship, your platonic love mended into a truer feeling of love for the boy you once made hot teas for in a familiar coffee shop, somewhere far, far away.
hi hi! i’m maddox, simply here to entertain myself. and also, i have a crippling obsession with kpop men (lee minho)…anyway!!
«important information»
»name; maddox
»gender: trans masculine
»pronouns: he/him
»sexuality: gay (really gay for lee minho), ace, poly
»boundaries: sexual content, i refuse to write about anything sexualizing my idols or readers in anyway. please don’t bother requesting that. i won’t write feminine or feminine alligned readers, i personally don’t feel comfortable doing that, nor do i paticularly like them reading my content, please do not interact.
»notes: i’m young, in school + i have a job, i get busy and overwhelmed easily. this is for my enjoyment, this is not a job, and i won’t treat it as such. if i get busy, i won’t post. if i get unmotivated, i won’t post. and i apologize in advance, i will try my hardest, but i have struggles with attention spans so bear with me, thank you!
»requests: open! i appreciate any and all requests.
Can you possibly write something with maddox sometime if thats okay
Hi anon!! Thank you for requesting! I actually really like Maddox and would love to write this for you 💗 my favorite song has to be “But Maybe”, what’s yours?
it’s posted now for you to enjoy. Let me know what you think, or if you’d like another with anything more specific :’) btw you’re my first request ever so I’m over the moon about that 😭😭🫶🏼
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