#ash thinks about stuff

[mebis-art-dump]

Frigid Steel, Boiling Wraith

Thinking about how pale ore is eerily chill to the touch

about how PV's spells, likely learnt from its father, take on the same shape as nails made out of an ore allegedly related to its parents

about how those spells are pretty much a solid state of soul for a few moments about how solid state of matter is often the most "cold" state, generally speaking

about how cold it's often associated with lack of emotion and corpses

Also thinking about how the knight's spells, learned from the snails, is more raw, more volatile

stated and shown to literally burn opponents, more of a hot blast than a proper solid mass

shaped and named after haunting ghosts, spectres that do not lay to rest, despite soul itself being present in the whole environment and not necesarily directly linked to sentient beings

about how it is strong emotions what fuels their transformation into their more powerful state through the usage of void, a volatile yet maleable substance, and the opposite of light

if you want to, you can get this drawing in full quality and ready to be a phone wallpaper at my kofi page completely free of charge (although i wont be mad if you leave a lil tip)

#makes me think if the pale king himself or the wyrm were also cold to the touch #or if his presence brought a chill to the place as opposed to radiance's burning presence #the 'snow' in kingdom's edge is actually ashes from a rotting corpse (so marine snow without the marine) #except maybe it is still quite cold actually? #theres also stuff that can be said about the forging of a pure nail and the readiness/fitness of a vessel #but that shall be left for another time #hollow knight #mebi's art #hollow knight art #hollow knight fanart #hk the hollow knight #the hollow knight #pure vessel #hk pure vessel #hk the knight #the knight hollow knight #the knight #digital art #krita #fanart #artist on kofi #artist on tumblr

[caricature-of-a-witch]

Germany: makes it easier for trans*, inter*, and nonbinary people to change their name/gender

People online, immediately:

"we are doomed" bc I guess this guy's existence depends on my given name

"that's it for Germany" / "it's over for Germany" bc in fact the whole country is dangling on a thread formed by its people's agab

my personal favourite "and thus women have been officially abolished" ah yes the law does indeed *squints at writing* prohibit the existence of women

#Ash's ramblings #German stuff #I'm deciding to see the funny side. also bc the law change seems pretty great unless there's sth I'm missing #which means. I now have to seriously consider whether to officially change my name? possibly also my gender? much to think about #German politics #Queer tag #selbstbestimmungsgesetz #transphobia cw

[bisexuallsokka]

jo. bestie. hi. i’m holding your hands and asking u to please if u want deal us all permanent psychic damage with “you’re just as beautiful as the day i lost you” (the httyd divorced zukka agenda has to continue and nobody can do it as well as u <3)

Sokka had spent the entire journey to the Fire Nation imagining himself being so overwhelmed with emotion at the sight of Zuko that, decorum be damned, he would run into his arms as soon as they made eye contact.

The sting of disappointment he felt when he realized that Zuko wasn't even there to greet him and Katara was enough to extinguish most of the excitement he had felt and make him second-guess everything about this trip. It was odd enough that after over a decade of being broken up they had rekindled their relationship over letters, what would it be like when they saw each other in person for the first time in years? Did they only know how to be in love again in theory? Was Zuko truly ready to leave the throne and his home in a few months and start a life with Sokka?

He's hiding out on some balcony that the two of them frequented in his Ambassador days, and he jumps when he hears the door open behind him. It's probably Katara telling him to stop moping, and he's about to tell her that he just needs a minute when he sees Zuko there, giving him a tentative smile.

"Hey," he says.

"Hi," Sokka says, the corner of his mouth twitching in amusement.

"Sorry about," Zuko gestures, and Sokka knows what he means.

"I get it. You're a busy guy," Sokka says.

That makes Zuko frown, and he walks over and takes a seat on the bench next to him. "Not too busy for you," he says. Which, historically, is kind of a lie, but Sokka appreciates the sentiment all the same. Especially since soon, they won't have to worry about the Fire Lord nonsense ever again.

Zuko seems to be thinking the same thing. "For what it's worth, it wasn't 'official business' keeping me away again," he clarifies. "Izumi was getting a little overwhelmed with everything going on to get ready for the party, and I spent longer in the garden with her than I realized. She's with Uncle, now."

Sokka softens at that, his doubts slowly starting to fade away. "That's understandable."

"Thanks for coming all the way here," Zuko says quickly. "It means a lot and it...it's really good to see you."

The sincerity in his tone is a little overwhelming. "Wouldn't miss it for the world," Sokka says, despite having missed the last ten or so of Zuko's birthday celebrations.

It makes Zuko smile, though, which Sokka relaxes at the sight of.

"You look good," Sokka says, smiling back.

"You look..." Zuko trails off, a strange expression on his face as he just keeps staring at Sokka.

"What?" Sokka asks suspiciously. "Is there something on my face?"

"You're just as beautiful as the day I lost you," Zuko says, so softly Sokka might have missed it had he not been hanging onto every word from those lips.

"I..." Sokka says, feeling speechless for once as heat rises in his cheeks. "That's...great, thank you."

As soon as the words leave his mouth he groans, putting his head in his hands as Zuko laughs loudly at him.

"You can't just say things like that," Sokka complains, even if he can't stop smiling.

"I can and I will, especially if that is the kind of reaction I can expect," Zuko teases. Sokka looks over at him and feels his cheeks flushing again at the soft look on Zuko's face.

Sokka takes a shaky breath, calling upon every ounce of bravery he's ever possessed to help him reach for Zuko's hand. "Twelve years?" he asks, giving it a squeeze.

"Twelve years," Zuko confirms, squeezing back. “It’s not that I haven’t seen you that whole time. I just…never let myself really look.”

Sokka nods. “You’re sure this is what you want?”

Zuko raises his eyebrow. "I've started packing."

Sokka rolls his eyes and shoves Zuko's shoulder with his own. "Oh, so romantic, run away with me just because you're already packing."

Zuko laughs again, and Sokka feels lightheaded. He's not going to get used to constantly hearing that sound anytime soon.

“I've had all this time to think about it, and my answer is still the same," Zuko tells him seriously. "This is best for the Fire Nation, best for us. Are you sure, though? Six year olds are pretty crazy.”

“Raising a kid with you?" Sokka asks. "That's all I've ever wanted. Craziness and all."

The way Zuko looks at Sokka erases any of the doubts, the questions, the worries Sokka had about this. About them. After the years of heartbreak and separation, Sokka knows that's behind them, and the future looks much brighter.

#hello ash beloved sorry this took me so long you sent this ask and i blacked out for like five weeks thinking about them #anyway #zukka #divorced zukka #my writing #prompts #ash and starlight #ask me stuff

[sleepysheepytea]

im so sorry u all have to deal with my hyperfixating shenanigans but when my brain says draw something i gotta do it

ash n i were yelling about this a couple days ago and it will NOT LEAVE MY HONKING BRAIN HELP ME

here’s to hoping tumblr doesnt butcher the quality

also the nart art spam is not stopping anytime soon so pls block the tags if ur annoyed as i expect many to be

#im tired #im also pretty honking busy so this is what i do in my free time #im so honking sorry my brain is just stupid #i literally have a list of nart tiggle stuff i wanna draw #ask ash im not kidding #this is just how my brain works its gotta have something to think about #anyway #tickle art #naruto tickling #lee!naruto #lee!sasuke #lee!rock lee #lee!tenten #im too lazy to tag the rest #ash help me im scared

[lizarddiary]

I've seen many posts, and video essays, and what have you about how harmful it is for stories with disabled characters to "cure" them at some point of the story, or as their conclusion.

And I understand, I totally understand the reason why it is. We are a complete person with and without our disabilities, we do not need to be cured to be loved and understood. And society needs to learn that once and for all.

But as a disabled person myself... That is a kind of fantasy I relish in, sometimes. Not when it's a gift, or something easy, because I know that a path to recovery is anything but a walk in the park. I cannot really connect with those, and they anger me in a way. No, I'm talking about something like what Viktor does in Arcane.

He is fucking willing to awaken the void to be able to run and walk again, to save himself. And fuck if that doesn't resonate with me.

I am very aware that in the text, this is framed as a bad thing. It costs the life of a person, and there is no justification for that. I know that it is meant to represent an obsession with a future that cannot be, and how that is killing him, transforming him into something he is not.

But that boat scene is just... He runs, against the boats in the background, winning the race, for the first time in who knows how long, perhaps for the first time ever. A masterful parallelism with that scene with him as a child, when he couldn't keep up with his toy boat. The scream, the catharsis of being able to finally do it... The obsession with more that comes afterwards.

Fucking hell, I wish more stories would do that.

I know that ultimately this is framed as a bad thing, that he shouldn't be doing that. Probably the story would want him to accept reality and wait, patiently, for his inevitable demise. Probably, that's what the story thinks is the moral thing to do. Afterall, I am aware that in the original League of Legends lore Viktor is a villain. I know we probably aren't meant to sympathize with him.

But I cannot look at him and not see a part of myself in that struggle.

#not ffxiv #arcane #viktor arcane #disability #disabled #ash rambles #just a little something about how frustrating it is to be disabled #my chronic pain is flaring up today so my mind defaults to thinking ablut this stuff #viktor was my favourite character of arcane #i connected with him in such a strong level

[randomnameless]

Re about Cat :

In Nopes she complains because her dad asks her to lend CoS troops, instead of asking Dimitri or Rhea herself...

But unless Count Charon is as dumb as Leopold, he knows pretty well Cat isn't the one who can lend him Church soldiers.

Of course Fodlan dgaf about non students characters, especially if they are affiliated to the Church, but I wondered, maybe Count Charon didn't want to ask Rhea herself to lend him some troops because he has a strange relationship with her -

Rhea is, after all, the one who welcomed his daughter when she was hunted by the Kingdom and the reason she's alive, Dad!Charon, whatever was his position during the "Cassandra hunt" wasn't the one who protected his daughter, Rhea was.

Maybe he feels already to indebted to her to even ask her, in person, for more soldiers?

As for Dimitri...

I always found it disappointing how both game never explored more Cat's backstory, ffs if Faerghus was "feudal uwu", the Crown (even if it was during Rufus' regency) ordered Cat's death, she was branded a traitor and someone who commited regicide ffs.

What was happening with House Charon at that time, were they happily going to give their daughter to the crown, when Catherine was the presumptive major crested heir, to have her executed? When the entire Kingdom branded her a traitor and had her name besmirched, was House Charon totes okay with, you know, the accusations that their precious heir participated in the plot to kill Lambert?

Lonato throws a fit because Christophe was executed by the Church, but Lonato is only Rowe's bannerman - Charon is one of the major Houses in the Kingdom, wouldn't they have thrown a "larger" fit if the crown wanted to execute their heir??

Or maybe that could fell in the larger "the Kingdom was in chaos" thing - House Charon might have been "this" close to rebel against the Crown ?

In a way, it might explain why Garreg Mach wasn't visited by the Kingdom's forces asking Rhea to hand Cassandra over if the crown's forces had to cross Charon territory to reach Garreg Mach...

So in with this BG, it would make perfect sense why Count Charon wouldn't ask Dimitri for more soldiers (granted we're talking about Church soldiers?) - Charon is still a loyal bannerman who fights for Faerghus, but his trust in the crown would have been severed, and it's up to Dimitri to rebuild that bond.

#3 nopes #Catherine stuff #Fodlan AU #I mean it's one basically even if I'm musing loudly bcs the game can't give fucks about characters who aren't students #and I mean interesting fucks #what if the “we had to cook some lie to prevent the kingdom for further descending in chaos” during the Ashe paralogue #was this? The Church framed Chris' at the one who participated in regicide and not Catherine to avoid a civil war #aka Charon raising their weapons and calling their bannermen to arms to rebel against the Kingdom and the Blaiddyd's? #i don't remember where but I thought I read somewhere that #Chris was the one who framed Catherine? but I think that's headcanon? #but even if he didn't #I mean Chris wanted to kill Rhea who was the one who 'welcomed' Cassandra #the CoS is basically Cassandra's benefactor would the Charons have ruined Gaspar in retaliation? #'my daughter is innocent and you fuckers are trying to kill the woman who helped her and help us all during those rough times?' #Targetting Gaspard means targetting Rowe and it means Adrestia is free to look more closely at Arianrhod #Oh well #tasty honey for y'all

[gatheredfates]

5 CHARACTER ASSOCIATIONS ✧˖°. | Ashley

Emotions / Feelings

Excitable

Boisterous

Confusion

Contentment

Optimism

Colours

Brown

Yellow

Gold

Red

Green

Scents

Salt

Earth

Driftwood

Citrus

Vanilla

Objects

A roll of gauze, sometimes bloodstained.

A piece of fruit cut in half to share.

A well-worn surfboard drenched in sand and salt water.

A few stones of jasper in her back pocket, a relic of a distant home.

A rolled up map itching to be unravelled.

Body Language

Laughing until you cry.

The blink of confusion — the head tilt of contemplation.

Wild hands and huge gestures.

Big grins and even bigger hugs.

An assuring hand on your back.

Aesthetics

A bloody nose and split knuckles.

Tropical beaches, swimming and coral reefs.

Rock formations and the plants that grow there, despite adversity.

The first rays of light as they wash over the earth.

The thrill of adventure and promise of discovery.

Tagged by: @shroudkeeper (thank you lovely!) I feel like a lot of people have probably already done this but just in case: @ubejamjar, @thefreelanceangel ( I know you'd have someone you haven't done yet ), @thefrostflower, @riftdancing, @tsunael, @starforger & you!

If you want to be mentioned in any tag games by me, I encourage you to like my permanent interaction call!

#｡･ﾟﾟ･ — 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫 : ashley #｡･ﾟﾟ･ — character answers / memes #｡･ﾟﾟ･ — sea answers things #ashe's stuff is always so fun / nice #so this was a PLEASURE to do #and think about honestly

[shouldhavebeenpersephone]

Me? Writing about Harrow going through it?? Writing about love and grief and guilt??? Me committing to a 12 chapter fic?????? It's more likely than you think.

Sales pitch: local catholic girl loses cousin who was more of a father figure to her and reunites with the hot blonde from her childhood nightmares. also agonizingly loses her faith and stabs a hot girl while trying to be her friend. meanwhile hot girl's cousin is making friendship bracelets for all of them.

#do. make sure to read the tags there is uh stuff in there #anyway i am super excited about this and i think you should go check it out :) thanks #Ash does Fanfic #Ash does TLT #the locked tomb #tlt #harrowhark nonagesimus #palamedes sextus #camilla hect

[ghostie-jakxy-gray]

aight, aside from the fact that 3 houses by Dave Malloy is now gonna Haunt My Waking Thoughts For The Week...

nah, that's it. The only pandemic play I can get behind. Proper amount of drunken revelry, fantastic amount of fairytale allegory, Yes She Does Smoke Weed, vindictive dragon spirits and knockoff tom nooks, cairns of amazon boxes, The Ending, The Set, The Parallels...

and the wolf. Gods help me, but I wanna kiss the wolf on his broken-toothed maw. dance with him. ask him for a metal straw. I'd be a furry for that wolf in his stupid knit sweater.

(And then, the harmonieeeeees my love, they're so perfect and ugly and pretty and the genre shifts and and and)

#I can go on #pleaasee ask me to go on #everybody with the ability to get tickets see this show #Signature does student tix for like 16 bucks seriously #regular tix I think are pretty cheap for theater too #During work breaks my roommates just gonna hear a faint “me and my weed and my currant wine...” humming out of my bed #cast album isn't even on spotify yet I cry #it's so good you guys #it's so so so good like you have to understand #I'm shaking you by the shoulders and staring deep into your eyes with the deranged glint of a starving madman #you want to see this show #you need to see this show #the world around me is breaking and crumbling and burning #and I'm gonna be stumbling through its ashes in a daze thinking about the Fucking Spider Above The Cairn #The pigs will be breaking my and mine's bodies over their knee on the fucking “free speech lawn” #and I'll be in the corner thinking about Mr. Malloy's Use Of Polyphony #100 out of 10 would recommend #it runs through June please support good art #when the world is depressing this is the stuff that makes us remember the light #go see it #Dave Malloy #3 Houses #Three Houses #pandemic fiction #theater #musicals #If I have to start this fandom by myself I Will #“three strangers with their pinkies entwined...” #<3

[aeb-art]

so i made myself sad with this one actually oopsies

mall toons belong to @8um8le 🙇

#2024 #stellar city #sc geo #sc mall toons #self insert #self ship #sc ash #sc pyro #sc tele #sc hydro #grief can haunt you but... there's still love in those memories even if you can't go back #i kinda... i still tear up when i think about my grandma too much and it's been almost twenty years #she was lovely- but i was too young for us to know each other well enough- i like to think she'd like who i am now #and geo... i'm still thinking of ballad's one drawing where geo's sorry he couldn't be who she wanted... but geo honey she loved /YOU/ #and idk... getting him to talk about her- about the happy memories- maybe for a moment he could be reminded that her love was unconditional #okay well we don't actually know much about her i'm making a lot of assumptions... granted i'm always making guess with this stuff lmao #anyways maybe i'm talking too much... i wanna hold him- that's the bottom line here #okay welp i hope you all have a good day/night my lovelies xoxoxo mwah mwah <3333

[blondiest]

girl help i lost sight of creating things first and foremost for myself and got overly invested in external validation therefore setting myself up to feel terrible about my works because i started looking at them too closely and became paranoid that they weren't good enough and that people would think they're stupid and—

i am going to be on here less and for a little while may be engaging with other people's writing a bit less as i try to get back into my own creative flow again 🥲 will still pop in now and again but i think being too tuned-in to everything has been making me a little insecure (<- a me problem; all of you are lovely and sweet) and with some added work stress i'm just!!! not engaging with things in a way that makes me happy or that feels particularly healthy.

honestly i feel strange even bothering to make a post about this bc Who Cares but i didn't want anyone to feel ignored if i am just straight not replying to messages etc for chunks of time. 🤝

#sorry for being weird i feel super stupid that i can't just like. force my brain to not do dumb shit. but. #i want to get back to just writing for myself and not worrying about whether or not other people think it's Good #bc when i first started posting i literally did not fucking care at all if anyone read it #and i think i would like to get back to that #hopefully work will chill out and my general anxiety will die down and i will rise from the ashes to girlblog again but in the meantime #uhhhh stay frosty i guess #also for the record i am fine!! i really am. not even having a crisis currently. i have just been thinking about #how i can engage with fandom in a way that makes it easier to stay normal about my own stuff #and i think in the short term the answer is reducing my engagement :-) i been too online baby #i will still be doing the near birthday posts also. just need to schedule the rest at some point today. #okay love you bye #blondiepost

[willowbirds]

Not me thinking about what could happen if Mister gets the shard!

Think about it.

He’s an elemental so the shard likely wouldn’t burn him.

He could gain more fire powers, the flames that make up his body possibly turning white or blue with how hot his temperature has become.

Ashton has an arm made of lava rock which could be a perfect perch for the wielder of the fire shard.

If Ashton and Mister are near each other perhaps it gives them a benefit for their elemental connection.

It would be much easier for them to sneak around since they’re one person and a monkey.

Perhaps Fearne could still gain an ability since she is tethered to Mister.

I dunno, I just think Mister makes the most sense to me.

#Technically random shower thoughts but I think it makes a lot of sense #I’m not sure which other character could take it #Orym could but it’s hard to say #Laudna can’t take it because of Delilah and the anxiety it puts her under #Imogen can’t because of her Ruidus stuff #FCG…. well I’m sure either #Ashton nearly died #and Chetney could die any day now #Fearne is very adamant about not taking it (even though the only person she has told in game has been Ash) #So why not the literal elemental the party has? #I also just think the idea of Mister having more fire power would be hilarious #critical role #fearne calloway #little mister #critical role theory

[noirandchocolate]

At the Spontaneous Office Lunch Party Today

Judge: I was appointed to the bench in 2001! The millennium class of appointees.

Me: *quietly to group of coworkers I’m standing with* Geez, I was just graduating high school then.

Coworker: *turns head to me, expression somewhat incredulous* I was in the fifth grade…

Me: *soul leaves my body* Don’t…say that…

#kidk says stuff #work #sometimes I think about how I’ve been a licensed attorney for almost 16 years #and then I dry up and blow away ashes to ashes dust to dust to the earth I shall return #((meanwhile that means she’s about 8 years younger than me and is in her early 30s BUT STILL)) #((this is what I get for going how do you do fellow kids at the newer hires))

[intertexts]

shooting BOLT UPRIGHT oh my god. okay i understand that the gangs been having an awful fucking day & william is the only one who knows much of mal's deal & he also got thrown into a car first so its understandable. but holy fucking SHIT keep ashe away from mallard fucking conway!!!!!!!!!

#cue me in the middle of fucking mass because i went w my ma 2 holy week stuff agsin 2 make her happy just kneeling #there like incense and everything as i freeze and go ohhh shit shit shit if mal gets his hands on the NEW kind #of fucked up kid who has powers about the spirit world and a fucking demon book it will NOT be pleasant.... #pd lb #also i think mark will like murk them forreal if something happens 2 ashe.

[sage-is-in-fact-very-tired]

ask game asks for u :D

13, 17, 80 /nf

ask game asks for me :DD!!!

[13 - Do you believe in reincarnation?]

mmmmmm. honestly. no idea. its definitely a cool concept, but the thought of it definitely makes me get to far into my own head and i dont particularly enjoy that. thinking to much about existance and stuff like that (actually words ive definitely said at least once "why do we see through our eyes") always gives me anxiety honestly :// - cool concept and thought sage just thinks to much

[17 - Did you have imaginary friends? Do you still have them?]

yeah. i did for a period of time. elementary school sage was. very fuckin lonely, so i made some guys up. we had conversations. could not tell you their names. they were fun honestly; i never talked to them outloud unless it was funny, so all the conversations had were in my little brain and-

nope! no longer got those cause i got real real friends now :DDD

[80 - Is your music organised by mood or sensation or do you just listen to everything at any time?]

bold of you to assume my music is organized *at all* /lh /silly ; its honestly just whatever i wanna listen too, with the cavat of "i usually listen to a song on loop if im doing anything and only turn it off once that thing is over so i dont really bother organizing playlists-"

#see the imaginary friends stuff stopped pretty much when i hit middle school cause no more recess and more people to talk to all the time #and like. not saying i didnt have friends in elementary; im just saying recess was a terrible time cause all my friends had *other* friends #and couldnt play with me #and granted there were like. 3 or 4 who wanted to play but said game was actually just harassment and- #oh boy thats a separate story in and of itself- #and for the record; reincarnation is cool and itd be funky if it existed #i just cant think about it too long cause then i get to existential- #and music wise. man none of my playlists are organized at all- #ic and q and ash exist but theyre not organized-

[urproblematicfav-arsonk]

amod everyone lives au in which Willy grows up with interracial gay parents and Chris ends up being his sister who he only attempted to drown like one time when she was a baby

#i think willy and chris would have a similar relationship to anthony and ashly #and by that i mean chris is just minding her business and helping out with little to no complaining and willy still calls her a cvnt #thats literally the funniest thing anthony has said #like ash was so cool and cooperative during that ep and he still almost calls her that #anyway #in this au neither glenn or ron were born due to willy hating kids that aren't his sister #and willy forcing chris to get an abortion after bill tried to baby trap her #when i was 2 i was excited af to have a baby sibling and my mom was worried about sibling envy cuz of how my older brother treated me #but i wasn't like that at all until my younger brother wasn't a baby anymore and started touching my stuff and then i suddenly hated him #dungeons and daddies #dnddads #dnddads amod #at the mountains of dadness