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finaldarlings · 2 years

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grace van dien, lesbian, female + she/her ― hey look, it’s johanna prinsen! she’s twenty-three years old, she’s lived in shrike heights for her entire life, and she’s currently working at donna’s roller disco and shrike aquatic center and spa services. i heard she’s pretty hapless, but i think she’s so aspiring at the same time. can she make it out alive? || s, twenty-four, she/they, gmt+11, triggers on main.

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full name: johanna christine prinsen

nickname/s: jo, joey, ann, anna.

age: twenty-three

date of birth: december 1

zodiac: sagittarius

gender: female

pronouns: she/her

sexuality: lesbian

about.

johanna was born in shrike heights, into tough conditions, living in the trailer park with her single mother who struggled with addiction and struggled financially.

her mother wasn’t always unable to care for her, but johanna had a lot of responsibilities from very young, and she was subjected to a lot of things she shouldn’t have been because of her mother. her mother was bitter, and very vocal about her expectations of johanna.

when johanna was seven, her aunt and two cousins moved into their already small trailer. her aunt went through a messy separation from johanna’s uncle, and johanna learnt that her aunt was just like her mother in regards to her bad habits. her cousins were close to her age, but a lot of the responsibilities fell onto johanna as her mother focused on helping her sister through the hard time in terribly unhealthy ways.

eventually, when johanna was eleven, her aunt met a man who saved the day. they ended up married, and her aunt and cousins promptly moved out of their trailer. it was nice to have more space again, but johanna promptly realised that her family was leaving her behind with a mother who was even more bitter, even more toxic. why couldn’t they have been saved instead?

more pressure was put on johanna to become someone worth saving, specifically pressured by her mother to find a man to save her, which made the preteen struggle in ways she wouldn’t be able to understand until she was much older. johanna struggled with allowing herself to come into her own and to figure out her sexuality because of this pressure.

johanna tried her hardest. though she wonders now whether or not she would be better off if she had’ve stood up for herself, she allowed her mother to get in her head and she tried to shape herself into the perfect person. the gorgeous cheerleader with the contagious smile, more friends than she could count, the hottest boyfriends in school and report cards to envy - someone worth saving.

she kept so much of her identity a secret. she didn’t tell anyone about the trailer park home, the tough mother, the poor conditions and hefty responsibilities she had; she let them believe that she was just like the other popular girls on the cheerleading squad - desirable in every way - and she made it through high school with that information protected.

it was in the years after that trouble started for her. she began making bad mistakes, slipping up and acting in ways her mother wouldn’t approve of, in ways that wouldn’t make her appear as someone worthy of anything. there was only so much of an overbearing and toxic mother she could handle, and every morsel of energy was already used. johanna ruined a lot of her life during this period, and reached her lowest low.

in her twenties, she tried to turn things around. hitting her rock bottom made her realise that she was the only person who could save herself. she started acting more for herself, and she became a happier, healthier person because of this. her bad relationship with her mother is still ongoing, as is her secrecy in terms of certain parts of her life, but she lives more authentically in some ways, and for once in her life she feels less pressure, and more hope. at least, she did before the killers came to town…

wcs.

childhood friends

high school friends

friends from the popular crowd in high school

best friend / ride or die

fellow ex cheerleaders

donna’s roller disco co-workers

shrike aquatic center and spa services co-workers

hook ups past and present

neighbours from the trailer park

ex friends

people they didn’t get along with in high school

people they’re surprised they weren’t close with in high school

#addiction cw #neglect cw #abuse cw #muse / johanna.#johanna / intro.#shrikeintro

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emersonfreepress · 3 years

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okay so is there content that you had planned for the ROs and story in general but then scrapped cause there wasn’t a good place in the story to stick it in? and if so, can you share what it was? 👀 👀 👀

yes, definitely. *rubs hands together* oh man, you done asked THE question today xD I can't wait to get into this 😁

Academics. I almost decided to have classes and grades be a minor part of gameplay, but the more time I spent designing it the more I realized I wanted nothing to do with it 😂 I haven’t really enjoyed academic gameplay in other interactive fiction because I 1) hate having to choose between studying and interacting with awesome characters, 2) have terrible short term memory, and 3) hate school in general!! So instead I just opted to have the MC be really good at school, point blank period so I could focus on social drama and relationships instead! 😆

Physical skills. I spent literal months crafting the catering scene around setting up stats for stamina/endurance, dexterity, and strength instead of just magnetism, confidence, and persuasion. They had their own backstories with the MC’s parents being overly invested sports parents instead and I think the background choices were like... martial arts, gymnastics, and track? But yeah, I ended up scrapping it all because I was spending hours on research about those individual sports so I could integrate them into the MC’s narrative organically but like... when I tried to think of what use they would be in the actual story, I came up blank. Best decision yet, esp since it means a lot less coding!

Skin tone customization. For one, I noticed that a lot of my favorite IFs don’t offer that customization and it hasn’t impacted my experience at all. For two, I originally realized I might as well not implement it since I am striving real hard not to introduce any customization that won’t actually be mentioned in interesting or meaningful ways in-story. I don’t think it’s really all that common for real life friends (esp in high school?) to comment or compliment each other’s skin and like... when it comes from someone who doesn’t share a similar complexion or ethnic background, that type of commentary gets... d i c e y. So then I wanted to be sensitive to that but what’s the pay-off? An RO mentioning how they love your skin tone once? Awkward sentences with the MC referring to their own skin color? Idk, just wasn’t vibing with it. I’m open to revisiting it in beta or something but for now it’s scrapped.

Singing, Rapping, and Gaming as Hobbies/Talents. I feel bad about scrapping these, honestly 😂 They’re great and I really wanted to incorporate them but it just came down to already having a lot of stuff to code. Plus, I know I can write the Hobbies/Talents I stuck with far better. And for Book 2 purposes, as well!

Leo. as @sourandflightypeaches asked me about a long while ago, I had to scrap an entire RO 😢 His name is Leo, he was the nephew of wealthy west African diplomats residing in Emerson, and I love him dearly! His backstory was largely based on my mother’s childhood and the circumstances she lived through after immigrating to America. and... ok, i’m about to go on one hell of a tangent so buckle up and bear with me if you can 😅

my intention with this story, aside from writing things that I personally enjoy (graphic violence, spooky woods, social drama, romance, conspiracies 😚), is to explore greed, wealth, and how the ways people and families interact with those two things influence young people and who they grow up to be. here i go sounding pretentious af 😝 and here’s where I apply a cut for those who want to preserve a little mystery to the main characters!

With Gabe, we’ve got someone who grew up with very little stability or financial security but who has found unscrupulous methods to gain status and money, with both noble and selfish motivations.

Kile has some of that childhood experience in common with Gabe, having been in the foster care system since infancy, but they lucked out when they were adopted into massive wealth by a caring, loving couple—a couple that uses their wealth and privilege to be far more lenient and protective of Kile than is actually reasonable or responsible.

Jack comes from a prestigious wealthy family on his dad’s side who he loves dearly but there’s no getting around the fact that they love him back as much as they despise his working class mom.

Jessie is a spoiled sweet heiress (being the baby of her family and the only girl) and while she lives blissfully ignorant of the harmful source and impact of her father's income and career, she bears the weight of the expectation to fulfill very traditional gender roles, including her behavior and appearance, but also extending to her career and life plans.

Rain's wealth led to them growing up sheltered and isolated but also extremely accommodated, giving them maximum freedom and opportunity to discover and develop their personal talents and interests. However, they have almost no positive relationship with their parents who have essentially decided to give up on a kid that couldn't be exactly the accessory they tried to mold them to be—both in terms of their identity and personality.

Rupan/Rohan, at their very core, rejects everything about conformity, self-importance, and excessive luxury—which means they have never, ever truly fit in with their peers. Going full non-conformist, however, has resulted in them becoming alienated from much of their family, as well, despite them all loving each other very much. Their history with false friends and betrayals has led them to over-indulge in their vices and reckless behavior to compensate for that isolation. Sometimes, they just get in over their head and many times, they know better. Every time, it's just that the feeling of finally belonging is utterly intoxicating.

Vivian/Vincent has two extremely successful parents who didn't inherit but instead built up their wealth and they aspire to be just like them, to a degree that is well and truly unhealthy. Their mother specifically is an over-achiever and applies mountainous pressure for them to follow in her footsteps, especially academically. Vi is completely capable of achieving what their mom expects of them, but they were already an extremely sensitive perfectionist so this has made them intensely critical of themself. This is a large part of why they are such a rigid, no-nonsense person and that in turn has made them one of the most disliked people among their peers—which is a huge personal failure to them since their father is a very well-liked and socially successful person in town.

And the Emersons are peak privilege: inherent high social status, brains, looks, charisma, athleticism, and massive wealth. They could never have been anything less than extremely popular, just by virtue of their last name and the nature of the town's social dynamics and politics. And they do enjoy that privilege (esp Curt lol). However, it should go without saying that being so high profile, even (or maybe especially) just in the isolated scope of your hometown, isn't always a boon. Their family's and their own perceived failings are widely discussed and privately mocked and/or celebrated. Real friends are scarce while fake ones and snakes are plentiful. Plus their dad is a gigantic dickhead who sees his kids as extensions of his own status and reputation and not much else. Public shortcomings make for an unbearable time at home and the world outside the estate is at once overly accommodating, full of assumptions, and even subtly hostile at times—all unrelated to their own actions or character.

And with the MC, I think the narrative will make it clear there are several ways that story can go. You start off with irresponsible parents that have lost their wealth due to their own mismanagement and material ambitions—how that affects any individual MC should differ based on choices and consequences!

So why bring any of that up when I was supposed to be talking about my cut OC? 😂😂

Leo was going to be the unwelcome recent addition to his uncle’s household, the son of a brother his aunt hates for (petty af) Reasons, and she took that resentment out on him directly by restricting his access to nearly every aspect of the family's wealth. Especially material goods and living conditions. He was basically treated like the help, tasked with playing nanny for his many younger cousins and burdened with doing the homework and providing academic cover for his dumb as rocks cousin in the same grade as you all. To sum it up, he was basically a victim of trafficking at the hands of his own family with his uncle out of town enough to feign ignorance to how bad his wife was treating his nephew and his aunt going out of her way to keep him busy, at home, and isolated. This is sadly a super common form of trafficking in Francophone African cultures (although I don't think most people view it as trafficking. and I’m sure the same is true of other cultures but I don’t want to speak outside of my purview). And like I mentioned above, it’s how my own mom's (and idek how many cousins') child/teenhood went.

It’s a perspective on modern wealth, privilege and greed that I really, really wanted to tell. I am confident in saying it hasn't been explored in interactive fiction yet (though correct me—and direct me 👀—if I'm wrong) and out of all the wealth/greed explorations I came up with, it's the one I have the closest personal ties to and the strongest feelings about. The characters and plans I had for it were detailed and I'm proud of them but at the end of the day... I just couldn't find a place for Leo in the story at large.

Leo was, in fact, the last main character I came up with, when I had already designed and fleshed out the larger story and started crafting the timeline of major events. I think the worst thing I could have done for a story and perspective that I care about this much is shove it into a plot that didn't have room for it at the very base level, regardless of how well the character or his story is written. Shoe-horned characters always stick out. I didn’t want to disservice Leo by having him be the character that did nothing or could be removed from the main plot without affecting it at all, y’know? That’s so much worse than just forgoing the indulgence, imo :((

ugh.... Leooooo 😭 I'm so sorry bb, I failed youuu 😥

#lovely anon #answered #hotmess #ok I am truly so sorry for going on and on like this #writing #ch design #ty for this question it was really nice to revisit this stuff 😃#and a nice reminder to not look back lol #scrapped

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ofprevioustimes · 3 years

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Helen of Sparta, the first femme fatale

From Greek Mythology

I. BASIC STATS

i. OTHER NAMES: Helen of Troy (known as; doesn’t answer to it); Helena ii. MAIN PERIOD: Circa 13 000 BC iii. PLACE OF RESIDENCE: Sparta, Greece. In threads, Helen’s motherland may be referred to by other names such as Lacedaemon (the city-state), Laconia (the region) or, less frequently, Peloponnese (the peninsula). Helen has also resided in Troy (also called Illium) and briefly in Aphidnae for a time in her youth. iv. OCCUPATION(s): Queen of Sparta (heir); priestess, seer v. RELIGION: Hellenic polytheist vi. TERMS OF ADDRESS: “my queen” vii. MUSE LEVEL: Main muse viii. CONNECTIONS: Leda (mother); Hermione (daughter); Zeus (father); Tyndareus (adoptive father); Menelaus (husband); Paris (husband); Deiphobus (husband); Castor and Pollux (twin brothers), Clytemnestra (sister) & more.

II. PERSONALITY

LIKE ANY OTHER SPARTAN, Helen is succinct, self-disciplined and loyal to the motherland its laws. She is austere, determined and arrogant, but seductive despite that. Her posture is always mighty and regal. She speaks with authority and confidence, demands rather than asks, expresses dominance through her body language – haughty and open-chested – and has a tendency to invade other people’s personal spaces by touching them or their personal items.

Helen values strength, loyalty, cleverness and endurance, to the same extent that she despises its opposites.

III. MUSE-SPECIFIC POTENTIAL TRIGGERS

There may be mentions of rape, but no graphic scenes depicting it. Graphic violence can often occur and, considering the character’s cultural background, Helen might have a desensitized point of view when experiencing, witnessing or causing it. Infidelity, unhealthy mother-daughter relationships, animal sacrifices, consumption of alcohol and natural hallucinogens will come up occasionally.

IV. SKILLS AND ABILITIES

Spiritual powers associated with Aphrodite’s domains, such as: beauty (the power to give it or take it away), fertility (the power enable conception for people who have trouble procreating, or to take away that ability from those who had it; the power to turn barren land into fertile soil or the other way around), sexuality (the power to provoke sexual desire; the power to cure sexual impotence or inflict someone with it) and love (the power to imitate traits of people that the target loves; voices, appearance, mannerisms).

The abilities of a seer, such as to read bird-signs, combined with a deepened perception about the ministrations of the Gods upon their lives, as well as an accurate assessment of human fate through clairvoyance.

An extreme capacity for recognition that enables her to see through disguises and tricks, even when they come from the gods.

Mortal abilities include wrestling, hunting, music, javelin-throwing, negotiation, strategic thinking, social intelligence, leadership, extreme physical endurance, dancing and horse riding.

V. INTERPRETATIONS/CANON DIVERGENT POINTS

There is no real canon to Greek Mythology, so instead I’ll just say that this Helen is the opposite of how you may have seen her on modern media. My Helen is not an oppressed and unwilling wife to Menelaus – quite the contrary. She did not choose to leave Sparta on a whim – it was her fate. Although there were people on the Trojan side that she did come to care about, Helen was always #TeamGreeks because that’s where the Spartans were fighting and she will never side against Sparta.

VI. MUSE-SPECIFIC GUIDELINES

ONE. Writing about your muse’s perception about Helen with lines like, “she did not look godborn” or “her famed beauty was not all that much” kind of defeats the purpose of Helen. It’s the same as if I would take the most conspicuous and defining trait of your character and deny that through my muses point of view. Please don’t. TWO. Helen is a character that naturally flirts and uses sexuality as a weapon. Think of her as Aphrodite’s half-mortal surrogate. When it occurs, don’t interpret that as an attempt from me to guide the thread towards smut or romance if we haven’t discussed this possibility ooc. It’s a character trait.

VII. INTERACTIONS & BUILDING RELATIONSHIPS

Helen is a queen before she is a friend. She evaluates other people through the eyes of a ruler, dividing them between allies and rivals. Her priority is always her duty and she is willing to sacrifice personal relationships in order to achieve her goals. This is not going to change for your character, I should say in advance. On the other hand, if she has your loyalty, you will have hers. Like Zeus, Helen is ruthless, but just.

Possible dynamics include, but are not limited to: muses with political/financial/military powers establishing an alliance or partnership with Helen; muses with good fighting skills in her employment; muses seeking assistance through Helen’s spiritual powers, blood feuds, Helen being captive to your muse or the other way around, our muses at opposing sides of a war or conducting it as allies, etcetera.

VIII. SHIPPING

Because she is a pragmatist and a stoic, it’s rather unlikely to place Helen in a kind of “love conquers all” kind of ship. On the other hand, she easily has chemistry with most characters. Relationships tend to be passionate and carnal, but casual and with little to no emotional attachment. She is attracted to physical prowess.

Meaningful relationships are possible but harder to build. The ideal profile for Helen is someone who is strong, gritty and thrilling, but though she is attracted to dominance, she will end up being the most dominant one or else the relationship will hardly work. In any case, Helen is not monogamous and she will not change for any muse.

Possible dynamics include, but are not limited to: arranged marriages, extramarital affairs, enemies to lovers, etcetera.

IX. TAGS

General tag. Answered asks. Threads. Visage. Musings. Tunes.

#helen: bio.#this is a torch song; touch me and you'll burn: [helen]#long post cw

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ixalit · 3 years

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Hey I’m the anon that asked if I could ask you about exercise and stuff... thank you, by the way. Um so I’m just getting into it and trying to be healthier and hopefully lose weight and everywhere I look people say contradicting things and I was just wondering if you had any tips that you’ve found helpful? Or suggestions to kind of navigate the information and everything?

Hey Nonnie, that’s exciting! Go you!!!

I completely know what you mean with so much contradicting information. I’m going to share a few things that have helped me and a few that I do personally, but ultimately it’s completely up to you. I can’t make personalized recommendations because one, I’m not qualified, and two, I don’t know who you are!

Discussion of exercise, food, body image, and similar topics under the cut that might be triggering to some

Note: I use “fitness” and “getting fit” in this answer to mean happy and healthy in your body, not any standard of weight or other measure of athletic ability.

My personal experience is based on four years of research, experimentation, and finding what works for me.

You probably know the basics, but in case you don’t...

Sleep! Getting adequate sleep is going to help you so much. It’s the time for your body to rest, recharge, heal, and prepare for the next day. It regulates your hormones, repairs your muscles, and helps keep your body in a cycle where it feels safe to improve. Personally, I’ve found that a consistent bedtime and wake-up time with quality sleep helps me more than getting 8 hours no matter what.

Water! To make it easy, I pick a bottle I can easily carry around, and work out how many times I aim to fill it up per day. For me, it’s a 24oz bottle, which I fill up 4-5 times a day. That way I’m getting in around 100-120 oz of water every day, in addition to any tea or coffee.

Healthy food! What’s “healthy” varies widely from person to person, and you’ll need to find what that means for you. Basically, it’s food that you feel good about eating and that makes your body feel good.

I have three main pieces of advice that have helped me.

The first is to check (and maybe change) your mindset and relationship to food and exercise before trying to go anywhere with it.

Our culture, media, and society as a whole are very “less is best” when it comes to food and weight. As a result, most people have distorted views of themselves and an unhealthy relationship with food, whether it be rules, restriction, shame, or something else.

It is about a million times more challenging to meet your fitness goals when you’re also fighting against your mind. Instead, my advice is to heal that part of yourself before attempting anything big. This way, you’ll be more likely to fall into a “binge/restrict/shame” cycle that can seriously fuck with your mood.

Personally, I’ve struggled with disordered eating in the past, both restrictive (brought on by a period of circumstances that triggered my PTSD and put me in a near-constant state of fight/flight) and binging. I’m still learning how to have a healthy relationship with food, but I’m a lot better now than I was three years ago, mostly due to a period of time I devoted to healing that specifically before trying to lose weight or gain muscle.

Also, if you can, try to view getting fit as self-care. Make peace with your body as it is in this moment, and try to avoid thoughts of “I’ll be happy/be able to do ____/be able to have ____ when I meet x goal.”

Goals are good to have and work towards, but not when they put conditions on your current self-worth or confidence.

My second piece of advice is to pay attention to your body—moods, pain, sensitivities, etc—and take the time to find what works for you. Most likely, it’s going to be different than what anyone else does, and it will likely change over time.

For example, I’ve found that I can’t do certain exercises because of the stress they put on my joints, so I find what muscle that exercise works and research variations and/or other exercises to target muscle.

There are also certain foods I have to stay away from because they act up my IBS or make my body retain more water in a way that’s uncomfortable.

Through trial and error, I’ve discovered that cheat days/meals don’t work for me and that I like measuring stats but have to be careful that I don’t start obsessing over them. I’ve learned that my body doesn’t feel good with heavy exercise every day, and that my body hates (and I mean hates) sugar.

Basically, check in with yourself frequently.

Do you feel happier, more clear-headed, and more energized after a workout? Make that your main reason to work out.

Does a certain exercise (coughrunningcough) make you wish you were doing literally anything else? Stop doing it and find a different exercise.

Does your stomach hurt after eating a lot of sweets? Space them out or try eating half of what you would normally and see if it satisfies your craving.

Do you find you’re beating yourself up every time you exercise under the guise of “motivation”? Find someone to exercise/go on a hike with you and talk about literally anything else.

Something that’s helped me is getting a body composition scale. I have this one from Amazon. It works well for tracking trends, and helps to understand how my body composition is changing. Through this, I know how many calories I need to eat in a day for my basic functions (my BMR) and go from there when deciding what to eat.

My third piece of advice is to make sure whatever you do, it’s sustainable.

Cutting out all your favorite foods and exercising three hours a day might feel good at first, but it will take a toll on your body in the long run, which will probably work against you.

And don’t stress the small stuff. Being consistently “good” 80-90% of the time is much better than being perfect 20-30% of the time.

Find a way to live that’s adaptable but that you can enjoy doing for years and years to come.

And lastly, here are some random things.

Personally, I eat foods that make my body feel good when I feel hungry. I also track my calories, but more out of curiosity to know how much I’m eating in a day. I need to watch this to make sure I don’t attach unnecessary self criticism to eating “too much” or “not enough.”

My goal is to do something active every day. Some days that’s a 50 minute HIIT workout, some days that’s biking 30 miles, some days that’s a 20 minute walk with my dogs around the neighborhood.

Finding a few active things you like doing really make all the difference. For me, that’s hiking, skiing, boxing, and swimming. Because of covid, I’ve taken more to HIIT and biking, because some of my “go to’s” aren’t safe.

It’s true that at the end of the day, to lose weight, you need to burn more calories than you consume. An easy way to do this is calculating your base metabolic rate (how many calories your body burns in a day when it does nothing), keeping track of the calories you eat in a day, even if it’s approximate, and exercising to put yourself in a deficit.

Weight fluctuates. Bodies fluctuate. Water weight and rentention, bloating... what you eat, how much you eat, time of day, how you exercise, hormones, and a million other factors can have an affect on weight. It’s not uncommon for weight to change 5 to as much as 20 pounds in the curse of a day. I try to pay more attention to my muscle mass, body fat percentage, and how I feel in my skin rather than my weight. (I have 13% body fat, which means 20lbs of my weight is fat. I’m also focused on gaining muscle, which means my BMI is technically in the “overweight” range, even though I’m considered “fit” and “muscular”)

Most importantly, try to remember that a healthy lifestyle doesn’t have an “end date” and it’s not something you have to endure

These are just the basics, the foundation. The details (time of day, heavy or light weights, type of cardio, macros, etc) are up to you. I know there’s a lot of contradicting information, and my recommendation is to experiment and find what makes YOU feel the best.

#no clue if anyone will even read this but I hope it’s helpful Nonnie!#fitness #asks #if you want to message me I can share what I move learned about specifics like macros and training types but #ixalitwrites #ixalitnonfiction

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artemiala · 6 years

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really ridiculously detailed character stats.

FULL NAME: Shirona Tatiyana Matsumoto. NICKNAME(S): Cynthia, Cynth, Tati, Champ. AGE: ranges from 22-23 (ingame platinum) to 31 (present day) MYERS-BRIGGS TYPE: intj. BIRTH DATE: october 23, 1986 ETHNICITY: sinnohese (northern japanese) & russian PLACE OF BIRTH: celestic town, sinnoh GENDER IDENTITY: cis female PREFERRED PRONOUN(S): she/her SEXUAL ORIENTATION: bisexual RELIGION: agnostic, with heavy arciest influences OCCUPATION: ancient mythology researcher and anthropologist, sinnoh league champion, pokemon trainer FACE CLAIM: canon

Relationships

PARENTS: mother, dr. dariya statnik-matsumoto, a pokebiologist and environmental scientist based out of sakhalin. father, dr. giichi matsumoto, a paleographologist and researcher of ancient languages, based out of ruins of alph, johto. SIBLINGS: mariya matsumoto, 5 years younger. aspiring contest star. SIGNIFICANT OTHER(S): shrugs? CHILDREN: looks over @ dppt protags (cynthia voice) I’m a proud mother of 2 LEVEL OF SEXUAL EXPERIENCE: fairly experienced, but still somewhat awkward. STORY OF FIRST KISS: long and unpleasant. had to do with a playground dare. A SOCIAL PERSON? not in the least, but good at pretending to be friendly. HOW DO THEY THINK OTHERS PERCEIVE THEM? an institution. a symbol of the region. a person of great responsibility, someone to hold accountable for the reputation of sinnoh as a whole. someone who knows a great deal about the region’s history and mythology. HOW DO OTHERS ACTUALLY PERCEIVE THEM? a peculiar, complex, and sometimes confusing individual. temperamental. more withdrawn and distant than she lets on. an enigma, a mystery, a riddle with no answer. a strong heart, at odds with a strong mind.

Physical Traits

EYE COLOR(S): dark steel grey, with some flecks of warm brown. HAIR COLOR(S): a strong golden blonde. HEIGHT: 5′9″ (175 cm) WEIGHT: 160 lbs (73 kg) BODY BUILD: curvy, soft; not unhealthy, but not wholly slender. GLASSES? CONTACTS? occasional reading glasses when she’s strained her eyes over small text for too many hours. STYLE OF DRESS/TYPICAL OUTFITS: high fashion gothic. all black, all the time. JEWELRY? TATTOOS? PIERCINGS? has a tattoo of the arcean religion’s symbol on her inner right arm and an ancient gnostic prayer along her spine. ATHLETIC? enough to have respectable endurance and strength when walking for long periods of time, but not particularly talented in sports or any other athletic challenges. HOW DO THEY WALK: with grace, poise, and determination. HOW DO THEY SMELL LIKE: bergamot and musk, with hints of eucalyptus. almost masculine in scent. WHAT’S THEIR POSTURE LIKE? perfect, always.

Phobias and Diseases

PHOBIA(S): ordontophobia, specifically in the context of lost teeth/losing a tooth. it’s always freaked her out. MENTAL DISEASE(S): generalized anxiety disorder, but mild enough to not warrant formal diagnosis and treatment. PHYSICAL DISEASE(S): mild nearsightedness, undiagnosed and treated with reading glasses when eyes are too strained. persistent adult acne on shoulders and back. WHEN WAS THIS DIAGNOSED? none are formally diagnosed.

Intellect

LEVEL OF EDUCATION: master’s degree in eastern religious studies and bachelor’s in anthropology by ingame platinum. doctorate in religious anthropology by sumo/usum. received her k12 education in public school. LEVEL OF SELF-ESTEEM: steady, with some major points of weakness, such as an extreme sensitivity about her skin. GIFTS/TALENTS: wide breadth of knowledge pertaining to sinnohese mythology and history. a fast learner, and competent intellectual. highly esteemed pokemon trainer and battle strategist. SHORTCOMINGS: arrogance, hubris, rejection of dissenting points of view without careful consideration for their implications. can be arbitrary in her decisions. STYLE OF SPEECH: hokkaido dialect japanese with very formal intonation around children and when in polite adult company. replaces all temptations to “um” or “er” with a pause of silence. Inquisitive, both because of her own nature and due to the hokkaido dialect. clear, almost native pronunciation of her second and third languages, russian and english. “LEFT BRAIN” OR “RIGHT BRAIN” THINKER: Both, but can lean more heavily on her left. ARTISTIC? Excellent observer and sketcher. Not much artistic talent beyond that. MATHEMATICAL? Exceptional statistician, terrible at algebra and calculus. MAKES DECISIONS BASED MOSTLY ON EMOTIONS, OR ON LOGIC? usually logic, but weighs her emotions as well. MOST SENSITIVE ABOUT/VULNERABLE TO: judgement of her and her image that scratches below the surface. it’s hard to hit the nail on the head with her, but when you do, it really hurts. OPTIMIST OR PESSIMIST? generally leans optimist. EXTROVERT OR INTROVERT? introvert, but good at faking extrovert.

Details/Quirks

NIGHT OWL OR EARLY BIRD? night owl. LIGHT OR HEAVY SLEEPER? heavy sleeper. FAVORITE FOOD: coffee? ice cream? sweets? ramen? LEAST FAVORITE FOOD: pickled cabbage. COFFEE OR TEA? coffee CRUNCHY OR SMOOTH PEANUT BUTTER? smooth! LEFTY OR RIGHTY? left handed. FAVORITE COLOR? black. CUSSER? only if she’s snapped. SMOKER? DRINKER? DRUG USER? social drinker. PETS? her pokemon!!

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New Look Sabres: Preseason GM 3 - TOR

I was foolish to believe that the Ristolainen drama would ever end wasn’t I? Here I was being all cute coming up with Sabres Avengers after a boring preseason game thinking this countdown to disappointment wasn’t going to march on relentlessly in the city that never sleeps on sports disappointment. Three games into the preseason and we’re yet to see Rasmus Ristolainen play a second of competitive hockey. The rumors are the same, they haven’t really changed meaningfully in a couple months. But with every passing game the closer to Opening Night you got to think a Trade becomes more likely just because of the relationship falling apart. I don’t know. Ristolainen or not I was already angsty something fierce. It’s preseason hockey, yes; but in the words of my favorite Leafs blogger: IT’S PRESEASON HOCKEY! You look to see if players are bad because they suck or just rust. Everyone not named Ristolainen or otherwise injured has now gotten a whack at preseason ice time, so nobody is particularly rusty. The Leafs brought the majority of their A-Team while the Sabres didn’t quite bring the Amerks as much as they brought the Amerks plus the shit that doesn’t work on the Sabres. Vladimir Sobotka and Remi Elie were on the top line against… John Tavares. Ok, sure whatever. Preseason promise! Oh… it’s real hard for me to not care about the result of these games when the Bills were undefeated in the Preseason and are yet to be beaten in the games that matter. I was going to rage into this game one way or another and I got to say: I actually wasn’t that pissed off at what I saw from the team from Buffalo.

So first things first: the goals against Linus Ullmark were not on him. Linus played his 40 minutes in this game like a dynamo: seeing pucks through traffic, sprawling out to make second and third rebounds (Rebounds he shouldn’t have to stop btw). He made a wicked toe save at one point! While this defensive group had Jake McCabe, Henri Jokiharju and dark horse John Gilmour, there wasn’t a lot of great defensive play from the Sabres. When there was there was too much diving around for my taste in a preseason game. Seeing Andrew Hammond in a Sabres jersey is still something to behold for me. This game was fun in spite of the lopsided result. The credit for that goes to our three stars of the game: Dylan Cozens, Casey Mittelstadt and Henri Jokiharju. All of them played very well in the O-Zone, particularly in the middle frame where I really think they tested Fredrik Anderson at times. Those three plus Conor Sheary, Arttu Ruotsalainen and… dare I say it: Vladimir Sobotka, were all good on the attack. I mean Sobotka occasionally transforms into a giant cement median but when he was in human form he looked somewhat serviceable. Cozens was fast and transitioned zones with possession like he’s been in the NHL a while. That kid is likely going back to Junior, but he looked NHL-ready in this game. I’m not saying he’s actually NHL-ready, but he looked the part in this game. Casey Mittelstadt on the other hand did a lot of the things we need him to do to eventually shore up that 2C role. He was winning puck battles and forcing guys off him. Noted numbernerd Chad DeDominicis had some fancy corsi for and against stats in the second intermission that showed Mittelstadt not only holding his own but doing pretty good creating chances 5 on 5 against the Matthews line! He kept the puck in the zone on several occasions and I thought I was seeing Jack Eichel out there. Of course, Jean-Sebastian Dea has Eichel’s old 15, so I was confused about that in general. Jokiharju NEEDS to make this roster. He looks like such an upgrade in terms of possession and passing; those categories have been painfully lacking for the Sabres in recent years, particularly from defenseman. And while we’re talking about guys that probably get sent down but are making a strong case they shouldn’t: Arttu Ruotsalainen was getting more scoring chances than not and was a +4 in scoring chances. This is not to mention he was dragging Kyle Okposo and the bad version of CJ Smith down the ice. This is all to say once again that this game was more enjoyable than I excepted.

I’ll repeat my unpopular opinion: I didn’t mind the Sportsnet broadcast. I like seeing things from someone else’s perspective. It may require us to listen to Leafs stuff that isn’t particularly relevant to us, but I prefer it to the College Hockey quality streams we got from Sabres.com earlier in the week. As the third period touched off with the home team up 2-0 you wouldn’t be wrong to think maybe a goal or some more fun was in order from the visitors. Unfortunately a lot of the good stuff I just described more or less evaporated in the third period. This one ended 3-0 Leafs. I mentioned I felt compelled to rage going into this game preseason or not, but it turns out the rage I was expecting to have was…opposite. I’ve been struggling to stay optimistic. I like to think of this blog as Buffalo’s premier optimist outlet. I wrote a page of angry dribble before this game started and ended up putting it all on the chopping block. This game had enough good stuff going on that I found myself upset at the folks seeing nothing good in it. Look: if you’re seeing an A on Sobotka’s chest and thinking nothing has changed with this club it’s hard to argue when the biggest offseason acquisition was Colin Miller. But if preseason means anything than in this case it means encouragement: the Sabres B Team just played to the Leafs A Team level for at least forty minutes out there. Who knows what happens tomorrow! Add a Jeff Skinner here and a Rasmus Dahlin here and I think this matchup will be fun again this year and maybe, just maybe, we can see some progress toward a sweet, sweet spring clinch next year. Just let yourself be happy with them for a minute. I did and it completely turned around my evening.

While cuts were fully expected after the Columbus game and only came in the form of Matej Pekar getting sent to the Barrie Colts, the Rochester Americans Training Camp starts on Monday so if there aren’t cuts tomorrow morning there will definitely be cuts on Sunday. You may have also noticed through three preseason games New Look Sabres postgame has seen some cuts. I’m writing a little bit slimmer and not just because it’s preseason. Perhaps meandering around for two beefy paragraphs isn’t as good as quicker topical ones. That’s what I’m trying; and it would be helpful to get your input while you’re liking, sharing and yes, commenting on this blog. I know you’re reading; I can tell by the other engagement metrics. I just don’t know why it would kill you so much to let me know what you think. I know there are some reply guys lurking out there. Let me hear that opinion burning a hole in your head. Look for New Look Sabres on tomorrow’s game on Sunday. I got a busy weekend ahead and decided it would be a good time to let one of these games breathe a little bit before I write. In the meantime, a hardy and heartfelt Let’s Go Buffalo!

Thanks for Reading.

P.S. I sincerely do like Auston Matthew’s mustache. If you know my look you know I have an unhealthy appreciation for facial hair so this opinion may not be surprising.

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