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stranger-rants · 9 months
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This is out of curiosity, given that a lot of fans of the character have talked about trauma and how trauma has made Billy more relatable to them.
You do not have to reveal your experience in the comments, replies, or tags, unless you want to.
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lestatslestits · 1 year
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A few people responded to this post wanting to know more. I tried to make a follow-up post twice on mobile and Tumblr deleted my in-progress post both times, so I’m trying again on desktop.
I’m currently writing a paper on the history of de-institutionalization in the United States, so I’ve been learning a lot about mental hospitals in the US lately. That got me thinking about the references in Interview with the Vampire to Paul de Pointe du Lac’s institutionalization. Here’s what we know, via Louis:
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I was curious to learn if there really was a mental hospital in Jackson, Louisiana in the early 1900s, so I did some digging and discovered that there was. Not only that, but it’s still operating today and is one of only two mental hospitals in the state of Louisiana. It has been renamed East Louisiana State Mental Hospital, but at the time that Paul would have been there, it was called East Louisiana State Hospital for the Insane.
Before I share any photos or talk further, I want to reiterate: this is a real hospital that has served and continues to serve people with severe mental illnesses. It also has a disturbing history of neglect and abuse that continues today. You’ll see in some of the photos that I share that even in modern times, much of the hospital looks outdated and run down. A news article from 2019 referred to the facility as “deteriorating.” I don’t want to talk about this facility in a fictional context without recognizing that real people have been impacted by it. If learning this information piques your interest in any way, I recommend taking time to look into the history of how people with mental illnesses have been treated and continue to be treated in the United States (or in your own country, if you aren’t from the US). Also, obligatory caveat that I am by no means a historian, but I’ve done my best to compile accurate information.
The Louisiana State Mental Hospital was established in the 1840s, when many similar institutions were being built in the US. It was requested that the building “not look like a prison,” so it was built in a Greek Revival style. Here’s an early picture of the hospital:
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Here is a more current photo:
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And here is a photo from around the time Paul would have been there (this photo is dated between 1900 and 1909, and we can assume from the timeline established by Louis that Paul was probably removed from the hospital around 1905 or 1906, following their father’s death five years prior to the beginning of the narrative in 1910):
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Here are a couple more exterior shots from around the same time period, and an interior (?) shot from a women’s ward. I couldn’t find a photo of a men’s ward, unfortunately:
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Here are some photos taken more recently. The first two appear to be older areas that don’t seem to be used much anymore, and the last appears to be from a more commonly used area (although you can see it’s still fairly dated):
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I couldn’t find any photos of the hallways leading to individual rooms that didn’t feature people in them. Since I’m not clear on who those people were (whether or not they were consumers), I’m not comfortable posting them here. However you can find them if you go looking.
Finally, here is a fire insurance map of the facility, made in 1908, near the time Paul would have been there. As you can see, if you are able to zoom in, the hospital was segregated at the time, so you will find the ward where Paul would likely have stayed in the lower left-hand corner of the map.
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I’m not sure who, if anyone, this information will be useful for, but I hope it provides some insight and historical context to the show (and to mental health treatment in the United States).
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perculiar · 4 months
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Really cool and normal to be scared to share a bed with your mother and feel unsafe to take your shirt off even when you’re in different rooms because this is her house and the last time you did that she tried to force you to show her your top surgery scars whilst calling them boobs.
Really cool and normal to have a parent try force you to watch Law and Order:SVU after you told them the night before you can’t take any rape or SA procedural dramas because of the rape they know you suffered thru a year ago and were apparently heartbroken about.
Really cool and normal that your mum will insist on talking about a man who used his position of getting me alone as a child to molest me. The same man who abused her, who your niece and nephew refer to as grandad.
Really cool and normal that you can’t properly safeguard your niblings because you know your sister, their mother, will dismiss the experience entirely and try gaslight you because he’s a helpful handy man to have around.
Really cool and normal that your mother will verbalise a blow by blow of the time you had to stand between him and her at 14 because you thought he was going to hit her; then ended up pissing yourself cowering on the bathroom floor after he kicked two doors down chasing you through the house to show you ‘your place’ and let you know what ‘real fear tastes like’. Just spewing up memories of it from her POV while your 15 yo nephew is pretending not to hear anything from 2 feet away.
Really cool and normal that you have to be the one to address that with him with a, “sorry you had to hear that about Micky” and knowing his “oh I wasn’t listening” was partially a lie bc you know he’s been conditioned into survival too.
It’s all fine. It’s just.
Really cool and normal.
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sweetpeauserboxes · 2 years
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[id: a white userbox with a pastel pink border, and pastel pink text that reads “this system doesn't understand that you care about them if you don't frequently check in on them due to past neglect” on the left is an image of a small pink heart. /end id]
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i-eat-worlds · 4 months
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Whumpcember Day 28-Abandoned
@whumpcember
cw: denial of medical care, neglect, spy whump, victim blaming, institutional ickiness
Alex signed, listening to the phone ring in her ear. She was stuffed into a booth in a tiny little restaurant, vinyl upholstery slippery underneath her pants. It was her third call, and her handler had yet to pick up.
It was raid night, and Zorland was finally going to be arrested. Conveniently, it had been scheduled on the same day she was out working for him, meaning she wouldn’t be around when the hammer dropped. Seventy-three wanted to go after the remnants of the organization that he’d left behind, and that meant her cover would need to remain intact.
The mission itself had gone well, but an acid blast had clipped her arm. She could feel it throbbing under her jacket. This was on top of the bruised ribs and the general sore spots from Zorland’s punishment. She was exhausted and definitely dehydrated, but she was still happy.
She’d never have to put up with Zorland ever again. He was gone.
Finally, her handler picked up. This phone didn’t have any of the INSUPA security on it, in case it was discovered. “What do you want?” He sounded annoyed, the hustle and bustle of a scene behind him.
“Good evening to you, sir,” she grumbled. “I got hit by an acid-slinger, and I’ve got some residual shit from Zorland. I need medical.”
There was an unhappy huff from the other side of the phone. “I know, just give me a second.” His voice returned to full volume. “I’m sorry, I just don’t think that’d be possible.”
She tried not to groan at the prospect of having to treat her own wounds again. “It doesn’t need to be at a center. Just have a guy bring a bag and meet me at a hotel or something.”
“It’s too risky.” It felt like he was scolding her for asking. “We need you to be able to integrate with the rest of the shadow. I’m afraid there can be no risk of compromise.”
She swallowed, resigning herself to her fate. “Yes, sir.” The frustration was hard to keep out of her voice.
“Don’t take that tone with me.” He must’ve been more pissy than usual. “When you joined us, you signed all that over. Rember, this was your choice.” There was a pause as he let his words settle. “Next check in is in two days, between two and three hours. Don’t miss it.”
The line went dead.
For some reason, Alex found herself fighting back tears. Wiping her eyes, she grabbed her battered due bag and shuffled to the bathroom.
At least in there, she could tend to wounds and cry in peace.
Taglist: @pigeonwhumps @rainydaywhump
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starrbar · 1 year
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Alright, I was encouraged by the smol family of HeroKel shippers on here, so now that I have my ass in order, here's the Headspace Abuse AU I spawned out of some horny energy last month. xD
CONTENT WARNINGS: Physical abuse, neglect, gaslighting(?), spiders, brocon/incest if you choose to see it ;3 Also spoilers for Omori!
If you stumble across this post as someone who despises this kind of content, I sincerely apologize for that. I don't intend to main-tag this, but I'm not 100% positive how tagging works on Tumblr anymore. The Read More should cover that though. Have a nice day!
In one of the playthroughs of Omori I really like, they have this ongoing joke where Kel is just bullied all the time, especially by Hero and Aubrey.  Every time Kel says anything, Hero says stuff like, "Kel, I'm going to BEAT YOU when we get home" or "Ohh Keeeel, I'm getting the BELT!!" and it's just met with Kel screaming, "NOOOO NOT AGAIN PLEASE!" and everyone's laughing about it and stuff.  And man, I'm REALLY not usually into any kind of incest kinks (just personally not my thing), but I'd lowkey be fine with an rp/fic where Hero just abuses Kel all the time and has him basically trained to obey and cower out of fear. x'D
Adding onto that, I also had so much fun with the Basil deaths in Black Space, so now I just imagine like Basil is the Kenny of the group, and he just dies horrible deaths all the time and comes back later, and no one even bats an eye beyond giggling or saying, "Oh wow, he's gonna feel that in the morning, tee hee!"
And then when Basil goes missing, Hero and Aubrey start putting Kel through a lot more shit because even they they don't really notice it, Basil's constant deaths and pained screaming do keep them pretty entertained.
Omori isn't phased by any of it ofc, since he's kiiiind of the one pulling the strings here.
I'm not sure how Mari would respond to everything.  Maybe it would be funny if she just acted like she always does and almost as if the stuff happening is just silly goofy bickering or stubbed toes, and she'll say stuff like, "Awww, don't worry, Basil!  All you have to do for a spider bite is (I don't even know, but like generic advice for a single, non-venonous spider bite)!"  And Basil is just like, "-gross sobbing- O-okay...!" while being devoured alive by a billion spiders or chomped in half by a giant one ahahaha.
Then she'll tell Kel, "Aww, Hero got mad at you?  Well... you did step on his foot after all.  But just apologize and talk it over and I'm sure he'll come around in no time! ^u^" and this is like, what you tell someone if all the angry person did was snap at them or get upset and leave for a bit.  But Hero literally broke a branch off the nearest tree and beat Kel with it until it broke lmao.
It's like... ultra horrific tbh?  But I kind of love soaking in more of that type of freaky shit.  It's almost appealing BECAUSE it's the absolute last thing that should ever be happening??
Kel is an absolute sweetie and deserves the world, Hero is a kind and patient big brother who immediately apologized and improved himself the one time he was ever really mean to Kel, and Aubrey is honestly a very good person despite putting on an edgy face when she got older and trying to push people away.  She's never out to truly hurt anyone.
So it's kinda fun to twist them up in this awful way, especially since the game itself kind of already did most of the work for me and all I did was enjoy that and also take a meme from a video series and run with it.
I mean holy shit, there's legit a whole scene in Black Space where Basil's DW friends all beat him to death and then act like everything is normal and fun. It's CANON, and everything I wrote here is of a similar caliber, just with the invitation to view it as abusive shipping if the reader desires.
Basically I'm roleplaying with myself and enjoying the sadistic story I end up with x'D
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onlyjaeyun · 6 months
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may i ask what u had in mind for jayke's backstories :0 if we rlly wanna get into it then i can see jayke being fun and carefree BECAUSE they weren't able to act that way at home,,,
maybe jay has strict rich parents who always wanted him to be mature and poised when he was just a kid who wanted to play w his friends :( he learned how to chef it up thru the private chefs at home and learned how to look after others from the butlers and maids that raised him. he's also an only child so the friendgroup are the siblings hes always wanted and he def found a brother in jake so early on i his life bc he was rlly lonely as a child /:
as for jake... he has an older brother (ima age him up hella to fit the narrative) and his older brother cared a lot for him but he was the picture-perfect child and their parents pressured jake to follow in his older brother's footsteps at such a young age. like cmon he was 7 being forced to study physics bc his brother was aceing his high school physics exams on the way to go to the most prestigious colleges w a physics degree. and with their big age gap his brother didnt have time to play w him much bc he was alsays studying and their parents were so focused on the older sibling. jake finds a brother within jay bc hes also lonely and jay was the only person he could be himself around.
now that ive thought ab this man jayke as a duo is so precious to me 🥺 theyre brothers thru and thru bc they found a home within one another. jake always so excited to try new recipes jay is trying out, jay loving to model and style jake, jake sending jay goofy selfie updates of his day to jay, jay being the first person jake calls in the middle of the night for a late night convenience store run which leads to some crazy shenanigans. jayke also building their first lego set tgth when they were 9 and it's displayed in a glass case in the living room of their shared apt.
im sobbing thanks for reading all of this i didnt expect to get super into 😭
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NONIE WHY DID THIS MAKE ME CRY 💀💀💀💀 i'm too emotionally attached to these characters its not healthy.
honestly i love love love your thoughts and theories and i think mine are pretty similar in some ways but not quite and that just makes it so much more exciting 🥺
yk me, i'm just...brutal when it comes to backstories so pls be aware......
poison!jake was raised by a single mother who was never home because she worked so much. she worked late evening and night shifts and would sleep throughout the day so jake basically had to raise himself. she never physically abused him but because he was her main source of exhaustion (since she had to work to provide for him) she's slowly started growing hateful towards him and jake basically tried all of his life to please her just to fail miserably. his mother was never a mother to him, father not in the picture at all and after years of verbal and mental abuse he found a safe haven in jay. they met in middle school and for jake it was quite clear from the very beginning that that guy was his soulmate. he'd never openly say it bc they're too goofy and unserious for that (bc of their childhoods) but there's no person on this planet he's as grateful for as he is for jay.
jay's backstory is kinda similar to heeseung's just the other way around. up until he was seven he had the most picture perfect family with two loving parents who loved their son and each other with everything they have, until his father passed away in a car accident and his mother started resenting her son because he survived and the love of her life didn't. similar to the parks and heeseung he unfortunately was also mentally, physically, emotionally and verbally abused up until he moved out for college and the only person in his life, besides his friend, to show him love was his grandmother. she was the one taking care of him when his mother was at work and she'd even cry with him whenever she spotted new bruises. the only reason he goes back to his hometown every now and then is to visit her grave and keep her updated on his life.
both jake and jay dont have contact to their mothers so they're each other's only family. jay always introduces jake as his brother and whenever people ask him who his favorite person is jake responds with jay. they really are each other's rocks and im literally tearing up writing this URGH
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solarisgod · 5 months
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This is Micah's baking style. Their baked goods is usually in specific shapes since they always love to have them a lot more fun and enjoyable to eat and gift them to others. Micah as a child was known to not eat much while they hold little to no interest in eating due to neglect that made them lack care in food and eating. They were also a heavy food picker due to having sensitive tastebuds and being reactive with certain textures, this playing a factor to their food disinterest.
Although while peanut butter and jam sandwiches that Phoebus would make for them and the Starwake System was one of the few things that brought Micah some happiness and encouraged them to eat more, when they were introduced to dinosaur shaped nuggets from their adoptive parents recently after the Everlove fostered them, over time, Micah developed interest in eating as they would usually get food made by their parents into specific shapes to provide them that joy and entertainment while helping them eat and seek out food.
When Micah had learnt that Phoebus was the one to make the meals for the system since at the late age of three, they were inspired and wanted to engage in bakery more. Now, Micah bakes for fun and often provides their baked treats to the food banks and those around them who needs some meals to get through another day. Micah can make about anything, so whatever one wishes them to make for them, they'll be more than delighted to do it for them!
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angorwhosebabyisthis · 11 months
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i can't believe this didn't occur to me until just now but rey you absolute fucknut no wonder five doesn't want to do hours of strenuous physical exercise every day, he's starving
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rec-flies-away · 2 months
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I'm going to be all alone and probably homeless in 3 months and I'm terrified
My partner has been forced to care for me all alone with no external help for years. His care of me is the equivalent of 3 full time jobs. He and his body cannot take it anymore. He told me he will move out and back to his parents in May. That's in 3 months.
We are both heartbroken. We just want a life together. We love each other so much. We don't feel complete without each other. We both just want a life together, that is okay. We could have had such a good life with each other if we weren't forced in this situation by the system. We are so upset and terrified about what will happen in 3 months that we can't find any words for it. We cry and cry and hug each other and cry more and I feel his hugs and I cry even harder because in 3 months I might never get to hug him again.
I have no idea what to do. I can't live alone. I can't eat, drink, toilet, or sleep on my own. Left alone it will only be a few days before I die. I would lie stuck alone in bed in my own pee and poo without any drinks or foods and slowly die of thirst. I'm so scared. I'm so terrified.
I don't want to die. And if I somehow find a way to survive, but never get to have my partner in my life again, that would be worse than dying. A life without him in it is not for me. I can't.
I am in so much pain and so much fear I have no idea what to do or how to describe it. Every good thing makes me sad because I will lose all of it in 3 months. I don't have anyone else to take me in. There is nowhere for me to go. I'm so scared.
My partner is my only communication partner who even gets close to fully understanding me. Without him, I don't even have a voice. No one else has loved me like he does, either. No one else has been so kind and gentle with me. Without him I have no communication partner and no person I'm actually attached to.
I'm terrified. My life has an expiration date. It's 3 months away.
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hiccupbutpurple · 11 months
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This kinda made me sad but I noticed that there’s been at least 2 times (that I thought of today) in riders/defenders where Hiccup didn’t know what is, presumably, common Berk knowldge of idioms and stuff.
Like he didn’t know about the ‘Honey and the Hatchet’ thing where Stoick and Astrid did and he didn’t know about the ‘options 1,2,3’ thing where Stoick, Astrid and Snotlout did.
Obviously it makes sense cause Hiccup is our protagonist and we need the exposition, hence getting it from him, and there’s probs plenty of other explanations, and other characters do this too but when focusing on this and considering he was an outcast for the majority of his life, it makes sense that he wouldn’t know those expressions and thinking about it makes me sad.
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archivist-the-knight · 2 months
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does anyone know if we have the "parrels between tal and xiv" today. we do?? damn. gonna cry in a corner
anyway. thinking so hard about how xiv and tal.. tal has a loving mom, lived at a farm probably very close to a warzone, and likely was around a ton of different people, even if most of those people died. xiv had a neglectful father, lived in a tower closed off from civilization, and probably didn't know anyone except their father. (i personally hc that xiv was occasionally allowed to get out under supervision from their father to go to the nearby town, but. story for another time). tal grew up with people, and xiv grew up without.
and. man that has some evil interaction ideas? imagine xiv hearing tal talk about how much he loved his mama and all the different foods she'd make him and it just hammering in the fact that xiv's papa wasn't a good man. xiv envying tal because yeah. he mightve been surronded by bloodshed. but at least he had his momma. xiv had a Father.
but what about tal's side of things. Tal realizing xiv not-so-subtly grimacing at his stories about his mom and family. tal hearing xiv passing off stories of their "papa" abusing them and pretending like its fine.
Tal's blood boiling when he finds out what xiv's father did to them. He gets so goddamn mad and nearly goes into a rage because who the hell does that man think he is. he's gonna rip him to shreads when he sees him. how could he do that to someone so genuine as xiv??? how oculd he do that to his friend, nay, his sibling?? oooh it just pisses him off. when he gets back to his momma he's gonna ask her to cook her famous curry and he's gonna have xiv eat it because they deserve it. tal makes sure to hug xiv extra tight, give them extra food at mealtime, because he never wants them to feel like they did back when their father was around.
anyway anyone else having a normal o💥
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fenneky-fox · 1 month
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△What’s your relationship with your parents like?
they kicked me out of their house right before my sixteenth birthday. so, nonexistent for the last almost three years.
not much better before that. mother only ever liked me because she had a ‘lovely little lady’ to dress up. and she would drag me along to the worst social gatherings in the world, just to be shown off. i was left with a nanny whenever she wasn’t treating me like some doll.
father was just as bad, just in a different way. i was always terrified of him. it seemed i only ever saw him when i had done something wrong and needed to be ‘dealt with.’ muddying a dress, getting a bad grade.. and he always sent away the nannies that i liked.
9/10. i.. never wanted to talk about this in so much detail. i would have shared some of it if asked, but..
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everdeenxmellark · 11 months
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“you had scars from your mother.
burrowed under your skin.
neglect passed down to you.
i have scars from my mother.
burrowed under my skin.
neglect passed down to me.
my daughter will not have scars from her mother.
they will not be burrowed under her skin.
neglect will not be passed down to her.
i will break the cycle.”
- sts
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goldshadows · 3 months
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it's both so funny and sad to me that jami's point of reference for what parents are supposed to be are mari and yondu. and yondu is by no means perfect but there's already galaxies between him and mari. mari is dismissive, egotistical and neglectful, maybe and probably narcissistic even. she did not care whatsoever what happened to jami. as soon as she was able to somewhat take care of herself, mari didn't do shit anymore. (which wasn't an awful lot to begin with but you get me) jami had to fend for herself for as long as she can think. she made her own food, she tucked herself into bed, she cut and did her own hair, she's been stealing and pickpocketing to get money, she entertained herself and she taught herself everything. mari offered no help, no support, no nothing. if jami even hinted that she needed help or asked for it, mari acted like it was the most insane and outrageous thing. she should have never brought a child into this world. yondu might be a fucking criminal but he cared. he might not have had the best tools to be a parent but he cared so much. he was rough and tough and messed up a bunch but at the core of it all, he really did care and tried to 'parent' her when his own parents quite literally sold him into slavery. he was terrible at saying things like 'i love you' or showing physical affection but he paid attention, he made sure her home was safe (as safe as possible with the ravager lifestyle), he fed her, he played games with her, he taught her things, he took her under his wing. again, not perfect and definitely chaotic and messy as hell but, man, at least he gave a shit. the fact that a whole pirate and hardened criminal is a better parent than someone who grew up with a considerably loving family in a fairly normal environment is just ... actually it's not funny, it's just heartbreaking.
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xxxplutosblogxxx · 11 months
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I needed u and u weren't there, how do u explain that to a child.
I still need you
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