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boywifesammy · 10 months

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me up at 3 am thinking about how spn writers coded sam winchester as a genderqueer SA survivor using ingenious metaphorical plotlines that evaded early 2000’s media guidelines and the only people who understand this are the crazies on tumblr that want to cannibalize the main characters

#oc #supernatural #spn #spn meta #sam winchester #queer sam winchester #this show makes me go nuts #did they KNOW? did the writers know what they were doing #when they wrote lucifer and the cage and sam getting violated in every possible way #AND THE DEMON BLOOD PLOTLINE?#and the thousands of ways that it can be analyzed #sam’s low self image. his toxic relationship with ruby. needing to have control over his own body.#feeling inherently wrong. being villanized for addiction. how addiction has highs and lows #anyways. ANYWAYS.

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genderificationbeam · 1 year

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gerard and joan // vampires will never hurt you, our lady of sorrows, bill and ted et al

#gerard way #my chemical romance #joan of arc #i brought you my bullets you brought me your love #proof joan of arc was trans #anyways. anyways.#our lady of sorrows #vampires will never hurt you #bill and ted #winona ryder #et al.

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kamariya · 4 months

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i want to read girl interrupted meta i want to read girl from nowhere meta i want to read black swan meta i want to read gone girl meta i want to read Jennifer's body meta i want 'sad girl', 'female rage' and 'good for her' medias to be treated with respect instead of being reduced to an aesthetic, fuck it

#swan stuff #anyways. anyways.#girl interrupted #girl from nowhere #black swan #gone girl #Jennifer's body #YOU SEE HANNIBAL META. SO WHY NOT THESE

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loveofastarvingdog · 2 months

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oral fixation guy posting about a fictional character's flaccid cock. this doesn't mean anything btw i just think the penetration game in this podcast is insane. tubes in cocks and thermometer up the dick and pulling out catheters etc etc.

#timothy's txts.#crazy how the penetration is never. well it's never in a sodomy way it's very often in a sounding way. i will not explain and yes i am sorr #for saying these things.#the ONE time. when he stabbed his hand. that was interesting. also not going to be crazy guy but uhhhh that was for gordon...#anyways. anyways.#journey through the red valley 💥🥩#minors dni #nsft

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bugging-robot · 1 year

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Gonna be honest, lads. I don’t really mind the little spindly spiders that reside in the corners. They’re not scary and they usually hide away and mind their business.

HOWEVER.

The ceiling space above my bed is not a maternity ward. Get outta here.

#spider #real bugs #lmk any other trigger tags I need to add #also sorry for the visual nightmare of a spider on a popcorn ceiling #awful to look at and decipher #anyways. ANYWAYS.#UM. EXCUSE ME??? DISGUSTANG #ugh they’re usually so skinny and liddol and now you’re LARGE and VISIBLE enough for me to take a picture and post it

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tallytals · 9 months

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barbie,,,,,,, wukong,,,,,,,,,,, swk barbie,,,,,,

#monkie kid #tally talks #i saw the movie like a week ago and oUUGGGHHHHHHHHHHH #i have ideas #or vibes i guess its really just vibes #anyways. ANYWAYS.#loz has me by the throat but i managed to escape long enough to think abt smth that wasnt related to them #them being zelda and link and the champions and mipha and sidon and ZELDA and LINK AND ZELDA AND ZELDA AND ZELDA

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buckttommy · 1 year

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being a girl is actually The bravest thing a girl can do

#jack.txt #anyways. anyways.#time to read

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kindledrose · 1 year

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grian 🤝 jonathan sims

- british guy who Watches

- wears those sweaters + glasses that are fun to draw

- funky colored eye imagery

- can and will mess with stuff they Absolutely Should Not Mess With

- cat energy

- needs to sleep

#- blorbo material #do people draw jonathan sims with wings?#they should. just because of this #you gotta give him the wings w the eyes all over them yknow!! grian hermitcraft style #anyways. anyways.#tma #hc #<-- purely organizational tags nobody is going to see this haha

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traumxrei-archive · 1 year

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DEER IZUMI GET !!!

IM SO HAPPY ??? i did a 10 pull bc i didn't wanna wait for the free ten pull (i was dead set on getting him anyway—)

BUT HE CAME ??? he's actually here. the lights turned rainbow and i was just chanting in my mind "pls new di, pleaseeee new di–" and it was and i was like "PLAY IZUMI'S VOICE PLEASEEE" AND IT WAS ACTUALLY HIM DHDHFHHFB

ig i'll use the free 10 to get the nazuna card or wish on other scouts :'))) <- happy tears bc i saved a lot of dia for the upcoming eventsss yyayyyy <333

#/trau rambles #WHAT THE FUCK #GACHA PAYNE #except it's Gacha Ws #A WIN IS A WIN !!!#anyways. anyways.#i need to post my actual update on what i've been up to lmao #enstars #izumi sena

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kirnet · 2 years

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Rereading w*yhaven book 1 bc I miss tea so much and girl… UB is truly awful arent they lmao

#i mean like the complete no action that allows a bunch of people to get killed + they don’t really care all that much + the lying and #thwarting the investigation #+ the fact the narrative never allows you to really push back on any of it #like tea immediately discovers the ‘undead’ blood. like she knows there’s some weird shit going on #if these chucklefucks just told her what was up from the get go she would have fixed this situation in 2 days tops #anyways. anyways.#ramblings

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boywifesammy · 10 months

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s5e11 sam, interrupted is THE EPISODE. it’s a fucking cinematic pipe bomb. watching it is like chewing on glass and swallowing propane. it is wonderful, it is amazing, it is EXCRUCIATING and i love it. allow me to explain.

(under the cut because i ended up rambling lol)

like, yes… it is extremely ableist. it is extremely offensive. it is an overdone harmful caricature of psych wards and horrific to watch but that is EXACTLY what makes it so good. i’ve never seen spn as a horror show but man this episode?? the psychological distress of it, the unease, the dereality??? it has me frothing at the mouth.

as someone who has tics and PTSD i have first hand experience being labelled as Crazy so that’s the lens i’m coming at this from. this episode is most definitely not a reliable source for mental health info but the way they portrayed martin’s character kinda got me. him stuttering over certain words, his general paranoia, how they clearly address that he went through a deeply traumatic event but that he’s still useful as a hunter even though he can’t do the things he used to before. i don’t think the writers intended for this episode to be viewed the way i did but man i am shaking it around in my cranium like a snow globe.

just the first few minutes of it is insane. dean acknowledging that sam was high on demon blood and that the apocalypse wasn’t his fault. seeing the absolute absurdity of the show in perspective with real life. dean admitting to his psych doctor that he's an insomniac, alcoholic, and incapable of holding long-terms relationships with his usual blase nonchalance, then immediately clamming up when she hits him with the "let's talk about your father." ??!!! i know dean is The daddy issues character but i love when they call him out like that.

and how can i Not point out the blatant assault and objectification… wendy forcefully making out with both sam AND dean. them both getting probed by the fucking monster of the week not even 10 minutes into the episode. SAM BEING TIED DOWN. i cannot explain to you how much i love seeing him restrained. the moment i saw sam tied down and angry i literally vibrated out of my skin that boy must be helpless and restrained more often it is beautiful.

on a sort of related note: high sam. yes. just yes. the little nose boop. him telling dean I Love You. getting all emotional about how much he cares about his brother. the themes of his autonomy being stripped. him being drugged up against his will when he’s a recovering drug addict????? INSANE.

also one thing that really stood out to me was dean being diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic with narcissistic personality disorder and religious delusions. which, yes, is inaccurate, but seems more like a misinterpretation of his PTSD symptoms. dean isn’t schizophrenic but he IS paranoid and he’s trained himself so thoroughly to weaponize his feelings that even to HIMSELF he seems narcissistic, when he’s really just scared and desperate. he externalizes his self-hatred as this overfed bravado but it’s because if he was honest about how he felt about himself the guy would simply fall apart.

expanding on that note… sam&dean meta on how they react to trauma & grief. dean immediately clams up and becomes anxious and terrified. he shrouds himself in so much false confidence but he genuinely hates himself so fucking much. so much that he just sits with his pain because he thinks he deserves it, while sam wants to externalize. he’s angry and that scares him because of what’s in his blood but the truth is that he has every right to be angry. he wants to be gentle but he has so much repressed rage that it bursts out of him and leaves him terrified in the aftermath. dean on the other hand wants to be angry but he’s so scared and critical of himself that he shuts down.

and the ending. my god the ending. dean telling sam to wrap it up and stuff it down. it’s excruciating to watch because dean’s advice is fucking shit but it’s also heart-breaking because it puts into perspective just how much these boys have on their conscience.

they PHYSICALLY cannot deal with their trauma. it is so awful and overwhelming that they could not function if they remembered it, so they forget about it. they push it down. they hide it away, and it’s so fucking refreshing to have an episode that acknowledges that they do that because THAT IS A TRAUMA RESPONSE. it is quite literally a SURVIVAL tactic. people who are severely traumatized will wipe their memory of traumatic events because they cannot function with it in the peripheral. this is a clear manifestation of sam and dean’s PTSD and how when they’re faced with these problems, their emotions take over and they completely lose themselves, whether that’s due to fear or rage.

the horror of this episode isn’t the wraith. it isn’t the silly little monster sucking out people’s brains. it’s the thing inside you. it is the imagery of these people hanging or with slit wrists being passed off as suicidal because they’re mentally ill. it is the ugly truth of trauma and the ways it twists your memory and self-worth. it is the inherent belief that someone is worthless if they are psychotic or paranoid. it’s the way the episode puts that perspective on sam and dean, shows them what it’s like to hallucinate and drags up their own repressed memories and puts them on full display. it is TRULY horrifying and it is GRIM and NASTY because it is about the human psyche and the horrible ways it can be twisted. it’s a fucking phenomenal episode if you can read the subtext and get past the whole “scary psych ward bad” wrapping.