#anyways rant over I am conserving my peace

[izzyjazzhands]

lol I remember when I first made this account I posted something like "hey does anyone know if anyone's going to be weird about me having izzy in my url? he's not my fav but I couldn't pass up this name" and now he's literally my favorite and I do not give a shit /pos

#captain's log #izzy #izzy hands #also just in case this case escapes containment I do think that izzy is abusive and manipulative of ed in s1 and it doesn't ruin my #enjoyment of the character if that makes sense #I don't know how to feel about ed in s2 yet tho I love him sm though #I'm so done fighting in fandoms it ruined so many shows for me so now I'm just here for talking about what I like #instead of things I'm mad about if that makes sense #like I have enough shit to argue and fight for irl I don't need to do it when it comes to hobbies #anyways rant over I am conserving my peace

[somethingusefulfromflorida]

TLDR: the present sucks, I can’t wait until we get to the future.

[I make a lot of posts by starting with one idea and just following my train of thought wherever it takes me. If you’ve been following me for any length of time, you may have noticed I tend to rant and meander and make posts with no real point other than for me to say what I want to say (just look through my “rant” tag), and this one is no different. I have just been seeing a lot of political posts today, and I needed to vent. I don’t know, it’s a fruitless endeavor, I’m just some rando shouting his opinions into a canyon and hoping I hear an echo, but it makes me feel like I’m accomplishing something, so by God I’m gonna a keep doing it]

Is anyone else actively waiting for The Revolution™?

Like, I’m operating under the assumption that “shit’s gon go down” in the near future. 2020 was but a taste, a glimpse of the horrors to come. I guarantee you something much, much, MUCH worse will happen in 2024.

I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop. I’m waiting for the final straw to break the camel’s back. The country is a glass of grape juice balanced precariously on the edge of a counter right above new white carpet; it’s going to fall, it’s just a matter of when.

I don’t WANT war. I don’t WANT unrest. A lot of people will die in the conflict, I cannot condone it, but I often feel as though we’re otherwise helpless. Staying the course won’t change anything, but last years’ protests demonstrably worked; a lot of the calls for change were just talk, as politicians haven’t committed anywhere near as much as they promised to, but the protestors managed to ensure #45 remained a one-termer. Protests give people agency, they let them have an active role, it gave them some power or at least a feeling of power.

Nothing short of revolution will effect substantive change in this country; politicians aren’t just going to suddenly agree to stop making things worse and start making them better. They will only concede when the personal pressure is too great for them to continue. Change only happens when they let it happen; we can’t change anything unless they’re on board, and the only way to get them on board is to make it impossible for them to be off board. Southern conservatives opposed the 1964 Civil Rights Act, but LBJ strong-armed them into passing it anyway. He put pressure on them, and they relented, not because they had a change of heart and wanted to do right, but because they knew doing wrong would be personally detrimental.

We need to make things expensive for the cops and capitalists and conservatives. We need to make them want to stop investing time and money into opposition. We need to break their spirit, crush their morale. It’s a war of attrition, and we need to push them and push them and push them until they’ve had enough and finally sue for peace.

I’m a 24 year old white kid preaching about La Resistance™, I am the embodiment of entitlement. Who am I to talk? Who am I to ask other people to fight when I’m not willing to do so myself? I don’t think of myself as unwilling, I think that given the opportunity I’d be able to fight, but that’s just it, I’m making excuses not to fight in the moment! I keep insisting that I can’t do anything right now, that maybe I’ll be able to do something later, which proves I’m a hypocrite! If I actually cared, I wouldn’t be posting about it to an echo chamber of a couple dozen users I’ve never met on tumbler dot com. If I actually cared, I’d be radicalized by now. I’d be part of a movement, I’d have used my privilege to put my money where my mouth is (I don’t have A LOT of privilege, but I have enough, more than most people, that I could be using it for good)

I feel like posting about this in a public forum is counterproductive. All it does is paint a target on my back for the NSA or FBI or CIA to monitor my movements. If I really cared, I’d go underground and join an actual group, but the problem is that left-wingers don’t really HAVE any groups! Antifa isn’t an organization, it’s an ideology! There are no left-wing militia groups, no splinter cells, no Resistance! Only right wingers do that sort of shit, and they do it with impunity because the feds will never look into them until it’s too late, whereas the feds will nip any left-wing movement in the bud before it sprouts.

I want to be part of something greater than myself, but I’m a coward. I am disillusioned, but there’s no constructive outlet for me. The last thing I want to do is get recruited by some death cult, as happens to a lot of white men my age. I don’t want the message of this post to be that there should be left-wing versions of all the right-wing terrorist groups we ser, I’m not saying I would want to join a liberal version of the proud boys or whoever else (they don’t exist, and I wouldn’t join even if they did), what I’m saying is I want agency in my life. I want to believe I can be in charge of my own destiny, without living in fear of federal and state and local government hurting people. I’m relatively safe, I’m a cis-het white male, I’m not gonna be targeted by extremist groups, I’m not gonna be assassinated by cops for driving with my hands at 9 and 12 instead of 10 and 2. I’m not afraid for my future, I afraid for the future of others with less privilege than me.

I really don’t want to come across as sounding like a libertarian. Like, I don’t fear the concept of government, I fear THIS government specifically. I don’t fear taxes, the exact opposite, I would increase the marginal tax rates to their pre-Reagan levels, I would raise corporate taxes and then put heavy sanctions on any of them that tried to leave the country to avoid paying them, I’d gladly pay more from my own minimum wage paycheck if it meant other people could have the resources they need. I find myself in the green quadrant, but I am by no means a libertarian by the American definition (fuck the Libertarian party, they’re just secular Republicans)

Most American politicians are in the upper right blue quadrant. Yes, even the Democrats. Even so-called Democratic Socialists like Sanders and Warren are closer to the center than actual left-wingers in any other country. There are still communist parties in Europe, but they will NEVER be anti-capitalist parties in the United States. The best we can hope for from our leaders is to keep them from going up or right. If third-party candidates were viable, I’d be a Green, but they’re not, so I’m begrudgingly a Democrat (derogatory).

I just want people to prosper. I don’t want anyone to suffer, I don’t want people to get hurt, I want people to be safe. That shouldn’t be too much to ask, but over the last 250 years we’ve had to fight tooth and nail just to get to where we are today, and this is nowhere NEAR a good place to be.

For the right, the best society was 50 years ago. For the left, the best society is 50 years from now.

There is no end to history, we’ll never reach some cosmic finish line and be like “we did it, we’re done, we won and everything will be good forever,” no, we will always need to keep fighting to drag ourselves further and further towards progress. I find the carrot-on-a-stick to be a very comforting analogy; sure, we’ll never reach it, but we’ll always be moving forward. The carrot isn’t the goal, the destination is the goal. We need to understand that whatever we’re striving for now will look primitive and backwards in ten or twenty years time, so we need to constantly look towards the future instead. Everything changes with time, and we need to get ahead of it, we need to be ready for it, we need to accept and embrace it. If we pick a goal and reach it, we need new goals, we can’t just celebrate victory in the moment and pretend like we’re done. We kept fighting after 1776, and 1865, and 1964, and 2020; there will always be greater milestones to achieve.

#long rant #long post #long #tldr #tl:dr #too long didn’t read #rant #politics #political

[brokenmusicboxwolfe]

Happy as I am at the news (and when have “happy” and “news” been said together this year), I want to warn folks that the rifts in reationships won’t be healed quickly, and possibly ever.

Two examples from the Bush/Gore election:

My family never had much luck with friends around here, but they did have this one couple. They were friends enough to exchange Christmas presents every year and came over for Pop’s birthday, so proper friends and not just friendly acquaintances.  Sure, our politics and theirs were very different, but they had common causes they worked on. The differences didn’t keep them from being friends.

And then came the Bush vs Gore election.

Back then it was a tight race, with the counting taking time, and the court getting involved. It wasn’t as bad as now, not even close.  Bush Jr wasn’t trying to undermine the concept of democracy like a certain fella. But November was still a tense month, full of raging emotions.

So, a few days into all this mess my family went shopping and bumped into the husband of the family we were friends with. Pop went over to chat with his friend, and when Pop came back he looked shocked. He said the guy was ranting about Gore “stealing” the election and was quite literally shaking with rage. Pop had never seen him like this, and the absolute fury startled him.

And that was sort of that. The couple avoided us. They ended the Christmas presents. They never came over anymore. We had to accept this. They wouldn’t be friends with liberals, a word used locally as an insult,

After a few months things calmed down, and after a periods of awkward polite “friendliness”, they became friendly acquaintances. They were never actual friends again. 

The second case involves my Uncle David.

 Now David was always a very conservative sort, and very much believed in conspiracy theories. For in instance, he honestly believed the Oklahoma City federal building explosion as the result of a black, female, national guard member suicide bombing so Clinton could put in martial law. He swallowed up everything extreme right wingers fed him.  I am absolutely sure he would have been an enthusastic Trump supporter. Every family has one.

But he was also complicated. He was oblivious to his biases, and you can sort if see why. He would spout if racist things he thought were facts, that the people in his loopy church believed, but he’d also stop to help anyone in need regardless of race. He’d seem to forget, probably because he had an instinct to sweet and helpful. ** His beliefs were appalling and resistant to change, but he wasn’t a bad person when dealing with individuals.

He was also exhausting. David would invite himself over for every single holiday. He’s just call and say “We’re coming” and he and his wife would, whether you wanted him to or not, be there. We would then have to deal with them being there.

 We had nothing in common. Politics, religion, taste in food, taste in movies.... For Mom’s sake Pop and I would try not to rise to bait when David would get in the mood to argue. His eyes would twinkle in delight at stirring us up, seeming to find it playful.

Exasperating as he was, the one thing we never doubted was his love. He’d say so, and we all believed he would do anything he could to help us if we were in need.

And then came the Thanksgiving of the Gore vs Bush race. were they stood us up.

He’d called to say they were coming, and we knew they had gotten here safely because we’d seen their camper at the usual place. Everything was ready. We’d decorated the house and Mom had made David’s favorite pie. And they didn’t show. My cousin, the other guest and a diabetic who had to eat on schedule, had to start snacking. We had no idea what was keeping them. 

Worried Mom, sent Pop and I to check. People could be heard moving around in the camper, the voices of his wife’s young grandchildren barely audible, but no one answered the door. When reported this to Mom she sent us back...

We saw David this time, and it wasn’t a friendly encounter. When the door opened the wife was cooking Thanksgiving dinner, the kids (who usually adored me) were subdued, and David sat in the driver’s seat scowling out the windshield. He refused to turn his head, saying with real rage, that he couldn’t even look at someone that would vote for Gore...

And that’s how it went. We had never seen him like this before, and it was confusing. Our differing politics had been an irritant, but nothing we couldn’t put up with. We had bitten our tongues to keep the peace a thousand times, and now HE was angry at us for voting for the candidate he had always known we’d vote for? Mom was stunned, and then deeply hurt. The hurt turned to intense anger. He’d wounded her and she wasn’t ready to forgive. In fact, she had all of us, cousin and all, pack us and head to the beach after we ate to escape her feelings. She didn’t want to see him by that point.

That was it there too. No more birthday cards or Christmas presents. They stopped visiting, and infact it wasn’t until a funeral years later that we saw David again. And in those rare later encounters there was a space between us, a distance that wouldn’t be bridged again. Polite, friendly, but lacking closeness. David died a couple days after Mom’s stroke, and the rift had still never really been healed.

Remember, that was the year Bush actually won. We had not initiated the hostilities, having accepted our political differences long before, and would have been happy to go back to how we’d been. 

Their candidate had won, and yet we held no personal grudge against them.

Their candidate had won, and they stayed angry at us anyway.

So, I’m saying, if Bush voters could break permenantly with friends and family that voted for Gore, this year will be worse. So much worse. Trump lost and he isn’t likely to bow out graciously. He’ll spout all sorts of lies to stir up his followers, keeping tensions up. Legally over isn’t the same as emotionally over. The relationship pains won’t be over for a long, long, LONG time. 

  ** His mother, Grandma Moses, was even funnier about race. Her brain was wired in such a peculiar way I still can’t puzzle out, but one of her quirks seeming confused about race.  She would say  she was racist, while actually being astonishingly oblivious about race. She’s say she was racist, like a child happily parroting what folks around her said about themselves, which in a way was exactly what was happening. She wasn’t saying it because she thought about what it meant, but because the little old ladies in the senior citizens group and in her church said they were, and if they were she must be too.

#politics #election 2020 #elections

[ndragoon]

I am aware that I am borderline obsessive with my hatred of conservatives. For that I do apologize for those who actually have to read my rants as often as they do. But I do not apologize for hating them.

TW for: sexual assault, abuse, homophobia, transphobia

I grew up in a part of southwestern PA, where everyone was expected to hate gays, jews, and blacks. If you didn't, there was something wrong with you. My neighbor told me that he kept a gun handy should any of them ever show their faces in the area.

The next "town" over (it was actually a series of 'places' because they weren't populous enough to even be villages) regularly found burning crosses in people's yards anytime "unwanted rabble" tried to move in.

We were to take everything Fox News said and believe it as gospel. They would never lie to us, and they were protecting us from those horrible liberals who were trying to ruin everything. They even got into our schools and tried to greenwash our children! When I saw that they mentioned using wind power on the PSSAs, I hated doing those questions. Why did they have to put this greenwashing BS in the SCIENCE section? Everyone knows that green energy doesn't work!

Every time something happened on the news, like a shooting, a lynching, a mass shooting, we weren't supposed to care. We didn't know anyone, so why should we care? They were taking away people's rights, but it wasn't ours, so we should just stay out of it.

Everywhere in the area, being gay was a capital offense. You were beaten or shot on sight, no questions asked. When I was in school, there was always some new theme of what made you gay. If you were unlucky enough to be caught with it, you were beaten in the restroom or locker room. If you were caught looking at the person walking by, it was cause enough to destroy your belongings and beat you. The mere mention of it outside of school property made people ready their firearms.

It was okay to beat your kids for everything. They didn't do the dishes right? Here can the paddle. Didn't do your homework? Here came the paddle. Didn't get good grades? Here came the paddle. Didn't look them right in the eyes as they yelled at you? It was sheer disrespect and you got backhanded. Get caught looking at porn? You lost all computer privileges, and had all your games and files deleted...it was okay for them to keep porn mags under their bed though. That was fine.

When I came out, my mother was disappointed, my father was about to murder me (and likely would have if I didn't choose to come out outside the house). Nobody could know, though. I had to go back in the closet and pretend to be straight every time we had a visitor, or when we went somewhere. Every time Obama mentioned something about gay rights or gay marriage, my father would sulk out of the room and wouldn't come back in until the program changed.

It took me until I was around 21 to finally come to terms and come out. Because I knew I was interested in other guys, it just took me that long to get over the "but I'm not gay, being gay is wrong" mentality.

The military is EVERYTHING. You need to join them, and worship them. If you see one in a restaurant, you should always pay for their bill, no matter what. Anyone who dodged a draft or lied to get out of service for any reason was a dirty draft dodger liberal who deserves to be executed for disrespecting the country.

Fast forward to 29, the modern era. My family tells me I shouldn't care that they are trying to get rid of gay marriage, because "you don't want to get married anyway, so why do you care?" They tell me that conservatives are keeping this country from being ruined by all those liberals who are making everything politically correct. Some distant relatives talk about how cops should be more violent because "too many n*ggers and young punks have guns nowadays" and all deserve to be shot on sight because only older white men who aren't liberals should be allowed to have firearms.

The Civil War had absolutely nothing to do with slavery, it was about states rights and how the federal government was overreaching with its authority so the other states did the right thing and fought back to maintain their rights from the tyrannical government.

Black Lives Matter is nothing more than a bunch of thugs and criminals who want to make themselves superior to white people and get everything for free. The protests are never peaceful, they are always violent riots where they break in to kill white people for being white and they destroy and steal from local businesses because they don't care about anyone or anything.

No women actually get raped. It's just a bunch of women who want their five minutes of fame. After all, if any of it ACTUALLY happened, they would have reported it immediately. Of course, when a woman does report someone, it's because she was "dressed like a whore" or because she led him on or because she wasn't enjoying the sex so she decided to report him for rape instead.

Trans people are this multitude of things, depending on what's going on. If they were trying to use the women's restroom, it's because they are perverts who want to molest or rape women, or abduct children. If they were just seen existing in public, it's a mental illness and they need to be locked up to protect people from the harm they will cause. Of course, it's all just men dressing like women, there is no such thing as a woman wearing men's clothes.

And our guns! Everyone but the conservatives want to take our guns! They want to disarm us, they want to take our firearms away! They'll have police going from door to door, tearing every house apart to take every single gun we own! They want to work with Russia and bring communism over to the US to take us over and destroy our freedom, and they'll do this by taking away our guns! We need to protect our guns!

Everyone on disability is faking being hurt just to get benefits. They have a doctor friend who goes out of their way and risks their medical license just to give them all this free money in the world so they don't have pto work!

Everyone on welfare is just some lifer who learned to work the system. It's why they keep popping out child after child, because you get extra hundreds a month in welfare money for every child you have. They are also all on hard drugs like meth and heroin or that dangerous and dreadful pot. Everyone needs to be drug tested weekly, and if they have a trace of anything, they need to be stripped of all benefits and kicked to the curb.

Of course, both benefit systems need to be stopped. Except for us. Because everyone else but us is working the systems, of course.

And everything is political correctness nowadays. You're not allowed to hit on women or rub their shoulders or kiss them as a friend, because we need to be PC. You're not allowed to say "colored" anymore because we need to be PC. You're not allowed to call people slurs anymore because you need to be PC. You're not allowed to stereotype and insult everyone within sight, because we need to be PC.

So I guess you can say they are good people who only have El everyone's best interests at heart, and that's why we should keep everything the way it was in the 40s.

#Personal #Not health #Not sorry

[paint-pilot]

shit it’s been a second, guess it’s time to update again

edit: holy christ this is long, i’m gonna readmore it. tl:dr tyler has many badweird feelings but is getting through it. fun body changes, including hair growth and an unexpectedly nice voice. surgery and legal matters are Annoying. tw for menstruation

it is truly bizarre to think that i’ll have been five months on t in a little under two weeks. another month after that and it’s half a year. it’s uhh...weird. quarantine has just made this all feel weird. it’s like i fast-forwarded through this whole journey i was supposed to go on i guess? like i got randomly torn out of my life one day in march with no warning and then just as suddenly got spat out in august with a new life - new name, new face, new major, new identity - and no transitional period whatsoever. my classmates, my professors, my students, they all have only known me as tyler. and only ever will know me as tyler. and that’s great! it’s great, and i’m truly just blown away by how markedly easy it’s been and how weirdly good my timing was in transitioning. but it almost feels like i’m still a ways behind everyone else, i guess. i’ve spent so much of my life hiding, and lying through my teeth, and covering my ass every second of every day to protect myself, and i don’t have to do that anymore but the instinct is 100% still there and that honestly doesn’t feel good. of course i’m not making any of it up - i’m happier now than i’ve ever been, and i know i’m making the right choice - but it still persistently keeps feeling that way.

it’s just difficult, i think, to balance wanting to be read as male (and, to a large extent, wanting to keep my transness hidden both for safety reasons and so people don’t start treating me differently) and finding it difficult to hide this truly massive life change that, like, four people are really seeing anything of. and y’all, i guess, lol. it’s one thing to talk about all this in therapy, but it’s another entirely to just be able to share it with strangers and not worry about it being weird.

i was writing this with the intent of it being a mostly happy update but i guess there is some negativity boiling up so. gotta be honest, i guess? there’s a lot of fun trauma stuff i’ve been going through lately that i won’t get into but it’s culminated with this bullshit in this really fun way where my mom gets upset because i get kind of uncomfortable when she shows me childhood photos or tells stories about me as a little kid and then i just break down for reasons i really can’t discern. i’m going to try and articulate this, and who knows how messy it’s going to get, so i apologize if it gets kind of incoherent from here on out. as far as i can tell the root thing that she really gets upset about is that i’ve “thrown away” my whole previous identity. like, not a direct quote, but “you can’t just pretend [deadname] never existed. because she did, for a long time.” and...sure, i guess. i know this has been hard on my mom. i know she was raised in a conservative family, and while she has worked hard to adopt an accepting and open mindset she still doesn’t 100% grasp all of it and will make mistakes. i’ve made my peace with that. and yet. it’s not so much, really, that i was this other person and then became tyler, y’know? tyler did not appear suddenly two years ago where she once stood. tyler put on a mask, even before he knew he was tyler, because tyler was scared and ashamed but people seemed to like her and, for a time, she was an easy person to be. and i hated her. that is so fucking scary for me to say, and i’m not sure i’ve admitted that until literally right this second, but i did. not because she was a bad person. because she had a voice and a face and a body that i hated. because people saw her and assumed they knew me. because even she had many faces, because there was no real base or identity to her, just traits designed to paint a pretty picture and make people like her. because i knew, when i finally threw her away, people would miss her. compare me to her. expect me to be like her.

so i don’t know. i don’t have a satisfying way to wrap this up, because i honestly don’t know how to face this because i know it is absolutely not just the trans thing that created this situation. i’m kinda warring with myself, because i do kinda want to go back through this blog and delete photos of myself with long hair and whatever (because jesus, i’ve had this thing since i was like 14) but i genuinely don’t know if that’s healthy. i know i’m going back on my bullshit, fretting this way and that over whether something is “healthy” as though that’s an objective term without considering what’s going to make me happy, but honestly? i don’t know anymore. i keep sensing the mental block - the swathes of my childhood that i cannot recall, just vague, constant unease - and i don’t really know if i want to dig into all of that and learn what lies underneath because i’m sort of afraid of it. like i said, i’m happy now, happier than i’ve ever been, and i’d sort of like to just leave it like that. but i guess the length and tone of this post might argue otherwise.

anyways. anyways. enough mental health therapy, more actual hormone therapy updates since that’s what this goddamn thing is supposed to be i think? i’m finally starting to grow some noticeable hairs - my chin hair is coming back after my mom made me shave it before i left for school lol, as are a handful of mustache/lower lip/sideburn hairs. i keep feeling phantom bugs on my legs/feet and i’ve only just now recognized that that’s just leg hairs brushing against places i’m not used to. my appetite has picked up like absolute hell again, too, so i don’t know if i’m just having a metabolic spurt or what. also, i’ve started bruising more? idk what the hell that’s about - i fucking never bruise unless i’ve been hit Hard, and i kind of assumed testosterone would make you less likely to bruise, but then that’s probably just not related to the hormones at all. i was gonna put this in the tags but seeing as this post is already so long i might as well put a readmore and just put this here lol: my period is late, like, four days late, which is exceedingly unusual for me and might mean i’m finally done. or almost done. fingers crossed.

my voice has started to settle, it seems like. i popped out an e2 yesterday, which is Sick, but i’m not as focused on that anymore as i am on the actual quality of my tone. which is...good? i’m not just a baritone, i’m kind of a good one, at least it seems like. i’m really working right now on just getting familiar with my instrument - i’m second-guessing my pitch sensitivity a lot, but i think i really just need to drill and practice until everything starts feeling like second nature again. but since the musical didn’t happen for me, my coach wants to enter me in a classical solo competition next spring. so...no more retirement from competitive singing. i’m back! and thank god, because i’m starting to go crazy without being in musical work lol.

jesus fuck, i have a lot to say. i should probably split this into two posts but i don’t care. i am frustrated; i tried to get an appointment with a pro bono legal program for a name change, but it happened today and i wasn’t invited so apparently i’m on my own. and i’m frustrated. i’m trying to look at internships and shit for next summer, but i kind of can’t apply right now because my legal name and sex don’t line up with my presentation, and i don’t really know how easy it is to get away with that in this day and age and especially in my field. genuinely, if anyone has any advice, i’d appreciate it. i don’t know how long this will take, i don’t know what the requirements are, i don’t know if i’m better off just applying now and hoping they don’t eliminate me before ever getting me an interview. and, of course, i’m working on getting consultations for top surgery, but i keep catching myself procrastinating that. which seems weird, but listen. i’ve said it before but i have to emphasize, i am capital-t Terrified of getting this surgery. i know i need to, i know it will make things better for me, i know now is the time, i know i hate binding and can’t really get away with not doing so, but jesus fuck i am so frightened of anesthesia it’s not even funny. but i guess i’m mostly just calling myself out here and telling myself to quit being a big baby, schedule the thing, and give myself a few months to prepare.

anyway. that’s all i have to say. i’d apologize for ranting, but honestly...i dunno. i know at the start of all this a handful of you requested these updates, and i have to imagine it’s because at least some of you are transitioning, are thinking of doing so, or know someone who is or will be soon. and i just hope someone out there can at least relate, because there honestly just aren’t a lot of comparable life changes out there. or maybe this is just therapeutic for me, that’s fine too.

i have two midterms next week i should be studying for. i should do that.

#t.txt #not horses #the puberty diaries #menstruation mention

[silenthillmutual]

pride month - day 10 - coming out

I've never written kuzupeko before zjjzjsjs so idk how. This sounds. Anyway. I also wrote this up on Vent and am posting it via mobile so no readmore, sorry!!

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1 NEW MSSG FROM:

TAKA

Please tell me Fuyu-

hiko will be coming

with you.

Peko sighs and shakes her head - not at her panicked cousin, but at this whole stupid situation. She knows he tried to talk his stepdad into letting him skip this family get together, but he'd had no sympathy. If he had, he would have taken pity on them all no matter how dangerous he said his work was. And his half-sister was with her mom.

What a mess. But then, their family always has been.

TO: TAKA

Yes. Expect a fight

to break out. 🙄

She doesn't know why he doesn't bring his own boyfriend with him. If the rumors about his temper are true, then she can say this with honesty: it can't possibly get any worse. Hell, maybe Fuyuhiko would appreciate the backup when it comes down to the inevitable argument about this year's latest discourse.

1 NEW MSSG FROM:

TAKAAKI

Please don't bring your

sword, might be temp-

ted to use it.

Like night and day, he and his son are sometimes. Taka's so concerned with keeping the family peace, and her uncle's just waiting for the minute it all falls apart. "You ready to go?" she calls out into the hallway, tapping out a quick reply.

TO: TAKAAKI

Cousin Nikki?

"Yeah, just one - shit - motherfucker!"

Peko sighs and shoves the phone in her pocket. She gets the impression that he's stalling, even if he doesn't realize he's doing it. She can't blame him; her mom and uncle are pretty open, but the rest of their shared family...

Well.

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They finally get on the road about fifteen minutes later than planned. Fuyuhiko's anxious about it, ranting under his breath to try and cover his fear with anger. After about an hour of blowing off steam he finally takes up her offer of pulling out the Switch, but there's still a lot of guilt on his face when he checks on his Eevee.

Her phone buzzes with a text that's probably from her cousin, having taken up the you're not here yet oh god did you crash are you dead on the side of the road mantle after their grandmother passed two summers ago. Fuyuhiko grabs it, checks it, sighs with a smile.

"Your uncle's out of his mind," he says, fingers moving over the keys.

She laughs quietly. "My sword or your gun?"

"Your cousin's boyfriend." He looks way too happy as he hits send with flourish. "Nikki's off the shits again. Something about running over protestors with a car. And calling Taka 'Kyo' again."

She tries to put the pieces together in her head. "So he wants Mondo to come and set her straight?"

"Something like that. He's pretty feral for a cop." He pauses. "In a good way, I mean. More chaotic than lawful."

"Your father screwing over your choices in life will do that." It comes out way too bitter. She has to remind herself not to hold the wheel so tightly and not to tailgate. This is why he hates it when they drive anywhere.

They should change the subject to pretty much anything else, at least while they're both still in the car, but her mind can't get off if it. She doesn't get why any of them still do this when they could just go as a smaller unit on some vacation. Family ties and everything shouldn't matter - they don't matter, except for her cousin and -

"I'm really glad Taka's coming." Peko takes a second to look from the road to her boyfriend. His eyes are still on the console but it's not a concentrated look. "He's already done this shit before, the whole 'coming out to your nutjob family' thing." He looks on the verge of frustrated tears. "It's stupid. I should have known earlier. I should have said something -"

"Stop." She hears the sharp intake of breath holding back the insecurities. "It is no one else's business when you realized or how you realized. You are not obligated to answer any questions or inane comments about your gender or presentation to anyone."

He doesn't speak. There's no noise from the Switch and no rustling, no nervous fidgets. She looks at him again, and he's just staring at her, like he does sometimes when they're alone.

It doesnt matter how long they've been together, it still makes her blush. "I love you," he says.

"I love you too." There's a couple more minutes of quiet before she hears the sounds of Pokemon switching out, running around, being caught. It's interrupted by her phone again, buzzing loud. "And what weapon does he require now?"

"My sister."

Wow. "He wants you, Mondo, and Natsumi all in a room? Together? With our ultra-conservative family?"

"Yep."

She thinks about it. "Well. Mondo's bike can fit two people."

#nori talks #nori writes #fuyupeko #danganronpa #ok to rb #writing exercise #ishimondo referenced #icarus.docx #mine

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Why Are Republicans So Afraid Of Trump

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Why Are Republicans So Afraid Of Trump

Officer Goes From ‘sadness’ To ‘rage’

Why Are Republicans Still So Afraid Of Trump? | The 11th Hour | MSNBC

Sicknicks partner on the Capitol police, Sandra Garza, wrote an essay about the attack and the aftermath in which she said in part, I saw officers being brutalized and beaten, and protesters defying orders to stay back from entering the Capitol. All the while, I kept thinking, Where is the President? Why is it taking so long for the National Guard to arrive? Where is the cavalry!?

She added, As the months passed, my deep sadness turned to outright rage as I watched Republican members of Congress lie on TV and in remarks to reporters and constituents about what happened that day. Over and over they denied the monstrous acts committed by violent protesters.;

For example, when Gosar called the Jan. 6 attackers peaceful patriots.

During the Benghazi hearings, Republicans were laser-focused on trying to place blame on then-Secretary of State Hillary Clinton. But after four years of investigations, most of them purely partisan affairs, they found no evidence of criminal wrongdoing on her part.

Republicans dont want anything close to that type of scrutiny on the Capitol attacks of Jan. 6. In fact, they dont seem to want any scrutiny at all.

Almost as if they know what will be found.

Almost as if I didnt have to use the word almost.

Reach Montini at .

Trump Is Here To Stay And Republicans Should Be Worried

There are Republican office holders who genuinely embrace Trump. For other leading GOP politicians and strategists, it’s a calculation: placate Trump and his crazy stuff now, win the Congress next year and start to move on.

That’s a fantasy.

The narcissistic former president is incapable of just going away. The Trump brand hardly suffers though it seems every week a new book comes out on his tragic governance and those from people without subpoena power.

Start with the 2020 election, which should be history; Biden won the popular vote handily and the electoral college with several states to spare. That has been validated by Republican state officials, dozens of court cases, Congress and Trump’s own attorney general and vice president. It was more clear-cut than Trump’s victory four years earlier and two other presidential elections in this century.

Time to move on, right? Trump won’t allow it.

Trump is an effective demagogue. Six years ago, he had many Republicans questioning whether Barack ObamaBarack Hussein ObamaWhere is Joe Biden’s ‘red line’?Newsom recall spurs unprecedented turnout campaignBiden is steering America to lose asymmetric warsMORE really was born in the United States, even though Obamas 1961 birth in Hawaii was in the newspaper.;

Actually, the former president could take credit for the rapid development of the extraordinarily effective vaccines but this might help Biden, avoiding which apparently motivates Trump more than the lives he might save.

Todays Republicans Really Hate Democrats And Democracy

1) Trumps supporters have embraced anti-democratic ideas

This chart shows results from a two-part survey, conducted in late 2020 and early 2021, of hardcore Trump supporters. The political scientists behind the survey, Rachel Blum and Christian Parker, identified so-called MAGA voters by their activity on pro-Trump Facebook pages. Their subjects are engaged and committed Republican partisans, disproportionately likely to influence conflicts within the party like primary elections.

These voters, according to Blum and Parker, are hostile to bedrock democratic principles.

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John Kasich Says Republicans Are ‘afraid’ Of Trump

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Former Ohio Gov. John Kasich speaks with NPR’s Leila Fadel about the GOP’s unwillingness to stand up to President Trump, who still refuses to accept the results of the presidential election.

LEILA FADEL, HOST:

Last night, President Trump received another loss in court. A federal judge in Pennsylvania dismissed the campaign’s attempts to stop the certification of Pennsylvania’s votes. This is just the latest of more than two dozen failed challenges brought by the Trump campaign to overturn the election results. President Trump refuses to concede, and for the most part, his party has supported his efforts to pursue legal challenges based on false allegations of widespread voter fraud.

Very few high-profile Republicans have publicly acknowledged Joe Biden as the winner, but one of them is John Kasich. He’s the former governor of Ohio and a 2016 Republican presidential candidate, and he joins us now.

Governor Kasich, welcome.

JOHN KASICH: Thanks, Leila. Glad to be with you.

FADEL: So you endorsed President-elect Joe Biden. He won this election. What do you make of President Trump’s attempts to overturn the results?

KASICH: It’s just absurd. The whole thing is – it’s just – it’s ridiculous. I mean, he has clearly won this election. And it is just sort of amazing to me that Republicans just keep sitting on their hands. It makes no sense.

FADEL: That was the former Republican governor of Ohio, John Kasich.

Governor Kasich, thanks for speaking with us.

Republicans Still Scared To Death Of Trump

Trump went on yet another unhinged rant this weekend during a speech to donors in Florida, attacking Mitch McConnell as a “stone cold loser” for refusing to go along with his attempt to steal the election, but you won’t find any profiles in courage in the GOP willing to stand up to him.

Case in point, on this weekend’s Fox News Sunday, South Dakota Republican Sen. John Thune was asked about Trump calling him “weak and inneffective RINO” earlier in the year and saying he might back a primary challenger to Thune. Thune responded telling host Chris Wallace that “I’ve been through wars in South Dakota, political wars, with my own party when I ran the first time, with the Democrats in a couple of hotly contested Senate races, so being afraid of a fight or somebody coming after me is not something that’s going to influence that decision,” but Thune refused to admonish Trump for his rhetoric, and refused to stand up for McConnell when asked about him as well.

Which is pretty much the equivalent of “I support Trump, but I really don’t like the tweeting” that we heard from so many of them over the last five or six years.

As the Fox article discussed, Trump called Thune “Mitch’s boy” when urging Gov. Kristi Noem to challenge Thune in 2022, but no amount of insults are apparently ever breaking point for these jellyfish.

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Why Republicans Are Scared Of Texas New Abortion Ban

For years, conservative legislators have passed increasingly restrictive abortion laws, knowing theyd be struck down by the courts. Now, Republicans are going to have to defend their views at the ballot box. And that might not go well for them.

At a pro-choice rally in Texas in 2013, one sign reads “Republicans, your seats aren’t safe.” | AP Photo/Eric Gay

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Sarah Isgur is a graduate of Harvard Law School who clerked on the Fifth Circuit. She was Justice Department spokeswoman during the Trump administration and is the host of the legal podcast Advisory Opinions for the Dispatch.

When the Supreme Court allowed Texas 6-week abortion law to stand earlier this month, it was presented asa major victory for anti-abortion conservatives. After all, Republican state legislators in deep red states have long been passing increasingly restrictive abortion laws, only to see many later get struck down in the courts. Finally, one law got through .

Whats going on? When considering the political ramifications of the Texas abortion law, Ian Malcoms famous line from Jurassic Park comes to mind, with a little social-wars twist: Your were so preoccupied with whether or not they could that they didnt stop to think if they should.

So the more relevant question is whether the abortion issue motivates voters in both political camps and which side it motivates more.

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As Gop Makes It Harder To Vote Few Republicans Dissent

ATLANTA In Arizona, a Republican state senator worried aloud that his partys proposed voter identification requirements might be too cumbersome. But he voted for the bill anyway.

In Iowa, the states Republican elections chief put out a carefully worded statement that didnt say whether he backs his own partys legislation making it more difficult to vote early.

And in Georgia, Republican Lt. Gov. Geoff Duncan left the room as Senate Republicans approved a bill to block early voting for all but the GOPs most reliable voting bloc. Duncan instead watched Mondays proceedings from a television in his office to protest.

This is what amounts to dissent as Republican lawmakers push a wave of legislation through statehouses across the nation to make voting more difficult. The bills are fueled by former President Donald Trumps false claims of widespread voter fraud and many are sponsored by his most loyal allies. But support for the effort is much broader than just Trumps hard-right base, and objections from GOP policymakers are so quiet they can be easy to miss.

Its a startling shift for a party whose voters in some states, such as Florida and Arizona, had embraced absentee and mail voting. Several Republican strategists note the party may be passing laws that only box out their own voters.

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An Effort To Investigate Was Blocked In The Senate

Its different with the Jan. 6 insurrection. After Republicans in the Senate blocked a bill to investigate, the House decided to investigate on its own.

This time around, however, all but two Republicans in the House Reps. Adam Kinzinger of Illinois and Liz Cheney of Wyoming voted against setting up a committee to find out what happened on;Jan. 6.

All of Arizonas Republican representatives voted no.;This would include Reps. Andy Biggs and Paul Gosar. You may recall that right-wing political activist Ali Alexander claimed that these two Arizona representatives worked with him to plan pro-Trump rallies, including the one that ended with an attack on the Capitol.

That kind of connection to the Capitol riot seems to be what Republicans are worried about. They;fear the exposure of possible;links between the rioters and Republicans, and the implications that may have for former President Donald Trump.

Gladys Sicknick, the mother of Brian Sicknick, said of the Republicans who voted not to investigate the event, I just dont believe anybody could vote no, it doesnt make sense.

Republicans Can Govern Without Winning A Majority That Threatens Our Democracy

âRepublicans Are Afraid Of Donald Trumpâ Despite Election Loss, Kasie Hunt Says | TODAY

So, lets talk about why Cheney is once again on the chopping block and what that means for the Republican Party moving forward that is, can we finally stop debating whether the GOP is Trumps party now?;

But first: the role of the Big Lie. For a while now, refusing to accept the results of the 2020 election has proven a fealty test of sorts to Trump, and its one Cheney has refused to take. How much of that is responsible for Cheneys current situation versus her politics being increasingly out of step with the rest of the party?

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nrakich :Its the entire reason for her current situation, Sarah.

Ideologically, Cheney is a faithful conservative at least as conservatism used to be defined. According to DW-Nominate, which uses voting records to quantify the ideology of every member of Congress on a scale from 1 to -1 , she has a score of 0.515.

And according to FiveThirtyEights Trump Score, she voted in line with Trumps position 93 percent of the time. Instead, her main transgression appears to be not going along with the Big Lie .

micah : Yeah, agreed. The idea that Cheneys troubles are about policy the argument that her hawkish foreign policy views or her free-trade-y views are behind her split with the bulk of the GOP is a bit silly?

Americans are living in two different realities right now.

micah: Yeah, agreed.

Thats scary!

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Is The Census Wrong

nrakich: I agree that its circular, Micah. The reason more Republican elites dont criticize Trump is that theyre afraid of his voters punishing them. But what they dont seem to realize is that they themselves also have power to shape those voters opinions! Theres a lot of evidence in political science that elites can shape public opinion.

sarah: Do GOP elites, though? So much of Trumps story in 2016 and 2020 was about the high voter turnout that he was responsible for driving. And although I think we should question how much turnout helped the GOP in 2020, there does seem to be an unspoken fear among GOP elites that these voters arent really Republicans now that is, they wont turn out for anyone other than Trump which is why so many GOP elites are scared to break with Trumps messaging.

micah: What do you all think would happen public opinion-wise if Republicans in Washington came out hard against the Big Lie but Trump and state-level Republicans kept it going?

nrakich: To be clear, it would be a political risk for Republican politicians to come out forcefully against the Big Lie. A solid chunk of the party would likely stand by Trump and continue to think the election was stolen. But it could lead to serious infighting within the GOP. At least, though, our democracy would be on a healthier path.;

But, hey, Im not staring down midterms.

micah: I think they are not long for this world.

I mean, how many are even left?

sarah: Or John Kasich.

Republican Party Faces Rage From Both Pro

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WASHINGTON – After riots at the U.S. Capitol by President Donald Trumps supporters, the Republican Party is facing defections from two camps of voters it cant afford to lose: those saying Trump and his allies went too far in contesting the election of Democrat Joe Biden – and those saying they didnt go far enough, according to new polling and interviews with two dozen voters.

Paul Foster – a 65-year-old house painter in Ellsworth, Maine – is furious at party leaders for refusing to back the presidents claims that the election was stolen with millions of fraudulent votes. The party is going to be totally broken if it abandons Trump, Foster says, predicting Trump loyalists will spin off into a new third party.

I just wish he would run away with his tail between his legs, Cupelo says.

Though Republicans have now lost control of the White House and both houses of Congress in just four years, Trumps base remains a potent electoral force in the party. That base helped him capture more voters some 74 million than any Republican in history. The vast majority of his supporters, including 70% of Republicans, remain loyal, according to new Reuters/Ipsos polling conducted days after last weeks riot at the Capitol, and many activists say theyre willing to abandon the GOP for any perceived slight against their leader.

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Republicans Are Suddenly Afraid Of Democracy

Were not a democracy, Republican Senator Mike Lee tweeted in the middle of Wednesday nights vice-presidential debate. He was reacting to something hed heard onstage there, in his home state of Utah. Another tweet: The word democracy appears nowhere in the Constitution, perhaps because our form of government is not a democracy. Its a constitutional republic. To me it matters. It should matter to anyone who worries about the excessive accumulation of power in the hands of the few. Hours after the debate Lee was still worrying the thought: Democracy isnt the objective; liberty, peace, and prospefity are. We want the human condition to flourish. Rank democracy can thwart that.

Why did Lee choose this momentless than four weeks before an election in which his party seems likely to suffer defeatto make the familiar, even pedantic, point that we live in a republic rather than a pure democracy? Why did he insist on the point so vehemently that he neglected to mention that power in the American system ultimately lies with the people, which means that our system could also be called a representative democracy? Did he mean rank as in foul, rancid, or outright? If the last, does that mean the tyranny of the majority leading to perverse rule by the few? What did this short, misleading course in Civics 101 have to do with anything?

Time To Reckon With Gop Radicalization

The lies about 2020 and the increasing dedication to destroying democratic institutions in the quest for power are inextricable from one another. As Jay Rosen says, the press is comfortable calling out the former it can be packaged as a fact check.” But being forthright about the latter requires depicting one party as far and away the only primary threat to our democratic stability. Thats accurate, but its uncomfortably adversarial.

Relatedly, describing Republicans as cowards who fear Trump casts their machinations as mere reluctant efforts to cope with externally imposed circumstances theyd prefer not to be dealing with. This lets Republicans off the hook in a very fundamental way. It risks misleading the country about the true depths of GOP radicalization and the real dangers it poses.

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Update again, kinda

This week has been amazing. I'm still so hyped up over KH3 and the Noko Summit (and the IG report, but..anyway....) 

I've decided to make another blog, one for real life and politics. So if you're watching me for my conservative values and not my fan art/fandoms, you can message me about it and I'll send you a link to my new blog (later, once I get it made xP) Whether you like Trump or not, this potential peace with North Korea is kind of a big deal. If you have a problem with the president negotiating for peace with a nuclear threat, then there is something wrong with you. You don’t have to like the man, but come on! Give credit where credit is due! (sigh) Don't even get me started, I'm not going to start ranting here.

In lighter news, this blog will be just for fandoms. So expect a lot of Kingdom Hearts....Oh man.......I want to reblog everything. Dammit, Nomura, you're reeaallyy tempting me to draw some fan art. Like, I was fine until I saw that Mickey and Riku have *matching ouftits*. How do I not draw them now?? Dammit!! Dx I was doing so good! Working on my own stories, but KINGDOM HEARTS 3 FINALLY HAS A RELEASE DATE!! (Ahh! I wanna draw so much KH right now, but I have other things to do! Dx Dammit, I hate being a responsible adult.. I am so behind on RWBY and DBS and all my other fandoms. I've been busy. Is blacksun canon yet? Oh whatev, it’s late, I’m tired. Goodnight, peoples~

#must..resist.... drawing fan art....... #oh dammit why did I come back to Tumblr?

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Age/origin in relation to international perception

tl;dr I've been thinking about lately regarding age, origin, and perception of the world, in particular, Middle America/the middle east not in a particularly political way but I suppose it's inherently political because of global policies, conflicts, etc and I really should be studying, I was going to post this on Facebook to have a bit of discussion going but I’m friends with a bunch of people from NYC and people get REALLY defensive about it because a lot of us saw it happen. So I figured this was probably a better place to post it

Something I've been thinking about lately is the different perception of different areas with regards to age and living location. For example for people who were born and raised in NYC  you've been told countless times that it's the greatest city in the world and all that, if you can make it here you can make it anywhere. There's also a lot of NYer pride from being from your perspective area and all that, the pride in working yourself to a husk and spending your free time commuting back to your overpriced closet. If you didn't get to travel much your perception of the rest of the country basically comes from whatever media you consume, stories you've heard. Going to college upstate was such a huge eye-opener to what the rest of the country is like after befriending people from different areas and visiting them.  Especially the difference between NYC and the other parts of the state. New York is huge, there so much going on in the state it's a culture shock even moving to a smaller city. I suppose I didn't think much about where I was going to live my whole life at that point but I assumed NYC because why would anyone want to leave? After leaving I learned how much I actually liked everywhere else I've lived in a lot more.

I've had friends from NYC come up to visit and they called Troy, NY suburban. which was my initial perception as well until I actually visited a suburban area (everyone jokes about Staten Island being a suburb but MAN actually suburbs are weird). When chit-chatting about politics with friends from different areas of the state it was really eye-opening to hear the different issues different parts of the state have and what they think about when voting and how much attention downstate gets when upstate gets scraps. (Example talking about gun control with a friend of mine who's family hunts for a lot of their food and sells furs, when thinking about gun legislation she's nervous of her family's livelihood (despite being supportive of banning assault rifles and all that jazz, is nervous about downstate overall influence ignoring upstate), which is something I never even considered living in a city because I thought that was just a southern thing.

Anyway, that's just a small example, the same can be said vice versa for people who've only visited a city, or have their perceptions of it based on media. It's very much glamorized and the harsh realities that come from living in a city aren't ever really shown, and when it is the characters almost always turn out okay in the end. This isn't a bad thing necessarily, you can't know about everything, this got me thinking about the rest of the world so I like to read forums about other countries.

Making friends from people who've lived in different countries has also been such an eye-opener. Being able to look up "what's life like in Croatia" at any given point on the supercomputer that almost everyone has in their pocket makes this such an extraordinary time to be alive. If I wanted to I could find someone from Algeria's twitter and see what their life is like. When the war in Afghanistan started I was very young, but in most of my education, reading the newspaper was a consistent assignment, so of course, as an older child/younger teenager I didn't have a nuanced understanding of the history of what was happening in Iraq and Afghanistan, it was boiled down to America good guys, we're helping overseas that whole thing. However now as an adult, I can through a social media platform find someone who is from the region and talk about what it was like before and after (shout out for google translate).

Talking with older people in my life ( I love and value having intergenerational friends who like to have discussions like this with me) it's really interesting asking them what they think about countries they've never been to and how they think life is like for people there. For example  I showed a relative of mine picture of a few young people tanning by a pool, he assumed it was in Florida but it was in Bangladesh, and it never actually occurred to him that ya know people elsewhere have fun too, he just assumed it was all misery there all the time because that’s all he knew about the region. Even my late grandmother, who was an immigrant who acknowledged how wrong most people were about her own country..She had the opinion of just nuking the middle east and starting over, something she said when I was around 13, and that really stuck with me, I've seen that opinion before in the newspaper opinion section, but hearing someone say that in seriousness really hit me hard. Now thinking about that conversation as an adult, not that I'm making excuses for that universally cruel and quite frankly inhumane opinion, but it sorta makes sense why she thought that. She religiously listened to the radio and the only thing she ever heard about the region (and honestly she would not be able to point to one of those countries on a map) was only misery torment and justifications about what America was doing was right and payback for 9/11 , if you're an NYer you know how sensitive this topic is when it's brought up, it gets people very upset talking about it especially bringing up that over 244,000 innocent people (which is one of the most conservative estimates by the way) paid the price overseas for it.

I wonder if my grandmother had the means to read this article: https://nyti.ms/2pqpk5L if her opinion about it would change. Or if she was able to look up what cities in that humongous region even looked like, or even about the day to days of the people living there. Would she still think a large amount of the human population should get a death sentence, I wonder if her opinion of the situation would have changed if the same problems were in countries that were primarily white. Unfortunately, these aren't conversations I'll be able to have with her, but I can take solace in knowing how lucky I am to have the ability and luxury to easily access a world of different opinions and perspectives on a certain issue.

My driving ed instructor in this area, starting talking about politics, which I don't mind. We had different views on things, but it's how it goes. I mentioned a friend of mine immigrated to Norway and loves it there, and he went into a rant about how Nordic countries have no freedom and it’s all propaganda that they're happy because the socialist policies control the masses. This was uh surely an interesting stance to take, I asked if he's ever been there or knew anyone there and he said no. So this was just based of the news/radio/whatever political media or opinions he's been exposed too.  He lived through the cold war maybe it was a carryover of the initial nervousness of the word socialism.

I suppose this is a long way to say, I wonder how in the future this will affect international policies and potential conflicts. If another war was to start, will people be as eager to support it? Will they want to look up about the area? Will they look at social media of people living there? Will seeing the humanization of people in a different part of the world even matter to the powers that be who make these global decisions? It's hard to say, we're living in such an interesting time period, I like to stay optimistic and hope it'll help bridge prejudice gaps and contribute to world peace eventually (whether ten years or a hundred years from now). Social media really changed how politicians can act. For example, the Vice president has tweeted more than once on his account that he doesn't like dippin’ dots, which outside of him being president is a very normal thing for someone to use social media for, but now on a global platform, America's vice president announced dippin' dots. You can be blocked from your senator online, despite being a constituent, which is such a new situation that hasn't been seen before. Simultaneously it  allows you to be much closer to your representative, if they post online a lot, they aren't nebulously working (not that a lot of them do their job anyway) far away and can only access them by letter, you can hit them up and see what they're saying and what they're up to, who they associate with. I'd like to hope these connections allow them to be closer to the people they're supposed to serve/ if they do need to decide about what to do for a crisis that they'd look at people who live there's take on the issues. So far we've seen them ignore situations like flint's water crisis and Puerto Rico after the storm. I'd like to stay hopeful for the future that social media will bring people more together and help people make more informed opinions instead of just act as a tool for division.

#politics #kinda just rambling i want to put it somewhere so i dont lose the thought if that makes sense #idk feel free to hit me up if this is a topic that interest you because i find it really fascinating and i'd love to talk about it #nyc #war in afghanistan #war in iraq #9/11 #imperialism #social media #millennials #discourse #i think thats good for any trigger warnings #propaganda #long read

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If I Ruled The World

The world would be quite a bit different if I were its supreme dictator. Oh yes, I am in favor of a dictatorship, as long as that dictator is me! And here's how it would go. 

A few disclaimers before we begin: 1) Keep your expectations low when you read this. You won’t like everything I list but you won’t hate it all either. This is due to me being neither a liberal or a conservative solely but rather bits and pieces of each. 2) I am making this rant for my own entertainment and the entertainment of the few people who enjoy it when I rant. I am not making this in hopes of starting a debate on what is right or wrong, stupid or smart. If I sound like an idiot to you, cool. Let me sound like an idiot in peace! With that said, keep your lame ass argumentative comments out of my inbox. Thanks. Ok on with the rant!

First of all, I'd have to setup a single worldwide government. The current rulers of all current nations would become representatives of their respective countries on my World Senate. Of course, being a dictator I don't really need a Senate, but it's nice to have. As long as they know that anything they decide can get shit-canned by me, then it's all good. Not Bush though. And definitely not T.rump. I would pass a law that no-one in the Bush/T.rump family is ever allowed to enter politics ever again. I'd make 0bama the President again so he could be the American Senator, cuz I liked him.  It goes without saying that I'd first pass all sorts of Youth Rights laws. Every age-based law would be abolished and replaced by laws that actually make sense. For example, the driving age would get axed and be replaced by a more rigorous driving test. In fact, we have way too many stupid drivers out there as it is, so the WHOLE driving test would have to be retaken by everyone. I would bring back beheading as the favorite execution style. Lethal Injections are for pussies. What the fuck is scary about getting a shot that puts you to sleep? Fuck no, if you did something bad enough that you deserve to die, you're gonna lose your head, bitch! Murderers get the death penalty, period. No life imprisonments for assholes who kill people. You kill someone, you die, that's all. (Note: DP would however only occur with a substantial amount of concrete evidence) Rapists get the death penalty. If she said no, then it's NO, motherfucker.  If you beat your kids, you get put in chains in the middle of Times Square and people can pay $1 for one punch or kick. The beatings stop when someone draws blood (cuz we don't wanna kill your ass). On the 3rd offense, an angry mob gets to beat your ass into a coma. If you come out of it, your kids can decide whether you should live or die. If you molest a kid, whatever part of your body touched them gets painted with acid. Then you go to the chopping block! If you steal from someone, you lose your rights and freedom for 1 year and become your victim's endentured servant. On the 3rd offense, you will work until you have paid for 10 times the value of the item stolen or for 5 years, whichever comes first. Marijuana is legal in Salt’s World. It will be tightly regulated and heavily taxed, because if you're gonna be a pothead, you're gonna fucking pay for it. Growing your own shit or selling it without a license will be considered stealing from the government and you get the punishment for theft (see above). Drunk drivers get no chances. First offense of drunk driving means you lose your license for life, in theory. I say "in theory" because it will work sort of like a life sentence in prison works. You can be brought up for "parole" and a committee will assess whether you deserve to get your license back. Such assessments will occur once every 10 years. If you beat your wife, I annul your marriage and place a restraining order against you. I don't care if she gives me that brainwashed crying bullshit "but he loves me, he didn't mean it, really he doesn't abuse me." You hit her, you lose her, and that's final. I will have my government scientists figure out an alternative to abortion that everyone can live with. Preferably, I'd like to see us be able to remove an embryo and continue to grow it in a lab. People who're trying to adopt always want babies and they always have to wait years for one. Not anymore. Furthermore, it seems that adoption is frowned upon due to it being so difficult to get approved and those who do get approved have a predisposition for choosing pretty, white INFANTS. Under my control, a new process will be drawn up to make it not only easier to adopt regardless of sexuality, marital status, etc but make it so that people don’t get to “select” which child they want. First come, first given, end of story. If you really want a child, you wouldn’t be that gdamn picky anyway. If you don’t want your child, that’s fine and well. We will literally take it out of your stomach (same concept as aborting) and grow it for you. Real abortions will only be allowed if a health risk to either mother or child comes up. This is how I would attempt to find middle ground, a compromise if you will. My government will fund cloning research. I want to be able to clone stem cells and body parts. If this can be done, maybe sick and dying patients won't have to wait year after year for suitable donors. In a world where everyone is part of the same government, there's not much need for massive armies. A global police force will be instituted as the next step above Federal officers. So, it would go, local cops, state cops, federal cops, global cops. Without an army to feed, clothe, etc. a shitload of money would be freed up to make people's lives better. There won't be anymore fucking hunger in my world. Every single farm worldwide will be required by law to give 5% of their yearly output to the government for distribution to the poor. They will, of course, receive a humongous tax break for doing this and any farm that voluntarily gives in excess of 15% will pay no taxes at all. Yes, I know this will make the cost of food rise globally. Too bad. You pay a dollar more for your T-bone and you can just cry about it, but at least some little Ethiopian can have some fucking potatoes that night. And in retrospect, under my administration, the percentage of poor people in the world should lower dramatically if not disappear altogether if you play your cards right. But until this global shitshow is corrected, that’s what would have to happen. Medicine will no longer be big business. All wealthy citizens under my rule will see a tax increase, which will pay for everyone's healthcare. No more private insurance companies, it's going government-issue, baby! And, by the way, under my rule the words "government issue" won't be a synonym for "piss poor." No one should be groaning about this because the minimum wage will also see an increase to an actual living wage proportional to the cost of living that will make workers and their families happy and also boost consumer sales, thus increasing the profits of businesses everywhere. The lack of insurance plans employers now have to provide for their employees will free up some of that extra cash. We're dismantling nuclear weapons and using their radioactive components as fuel. What the fuck do we need nukes for when all the world is united under one government? I will pass a law stating once and for all that all sentient life on this planet is entitled to equal treatment and protection under the law and that no law may be passed which contradicts this. Gay marriage: Legal. If you file a stupid lawsuit, we throw you in jail for 3 months. This includes suing the tobacco industry when you're the one who lit up 50 times a day for 30 years, moron. You also can't sue because you're fat. Watch what you eat and exercise if it bothers you so much! I will force Microsoft, Apple, and all those Google people to work together and create "The Uber OS." It'll run Windows programs and Mac programs (all versions) and Google programs (all flavors). All the drivers will work interchangeably. They will all be told that if the OS ever crashes, they each lose a family member! Mwahahahahaha. (kidding obvs). Every citizen will be allowed to carry a sidearm, as long as the sidearm is worn in plain view (like the old west). Every citizen carrying a gun had better remember the price they'll pay for murder. Unless it's self defense or defense of another's life, don't pull that gun! Significant resources will be diverted to build subway systems. City-wide, State-wide, Nation-wide, and World-wide systems will be built. Any system that is Interstate or beyond must be supersonic. The World-wide system must reach speeds of Mach 2 or greater (don't try standing up on the train, bitch!). The purpose of this subway network will not only be to facilitate free travel across the globe, but also to provide countless millions of new jobs that should adequately handle our planet's homelessness and unemployment problems. I should've mentioned taxes earlier, but here it is. The worldwide tax brackets will be as follows: everyone making 10k or less will owe 12% (you can omit the extra 2% with a financial hardship exemption form but it should be noted that no full-time adult worker should be making that much under my leadership so this should be doable without a person’s quality of life taking a hit), everyone making between 10,001-99,999 will owe 15%, everyone making $100k-$200k will owe 30%. Everyone over 200k will owe 50%. Surely you don't think the money for all these great improvements is just gonna fall from the sky? Recycling will become mandatory. We throw away far too much shit. Why chop down a rainforest when there's enough paper in a city dump to fill a library 10 times over?! We will also have to become far less dependent on fossil fuels. I'll work out a timetable for eventually outlawing fossil fuels in favor of electric, solar, and nuclear power. Go back to that city dump and imagine how many atoms are sitting their going to waste when we could be smashing them and reaping the benefits. Prison overcrowding? No problem! Legalizing weed and making drugs a medical issue instead of a criminal one should take care of this problem for the most part and as for the rest, well, Antarctica is just sitting there not doing a damn thing, it's time we put it to use. Remember the penal colony "Rura Penthe" from Star Trek VI? Yup, it'll be something like that. No guard towers, no fence, nothing. If you wanna escape, go ahead. You'll just freeze to death, idiot. Otherwise, you'll stay right there in prison and serve out your sentence. Imagine how many new jobs a prison that size will create? And the cost of feeding them will be negligible. They'll have giant heated greenhouses for growing everything they eat. They don't work to grow it, they don't eat. In other words, a prison sentence means you serve your time as a farmer in the middle of frozen fucking nowhere. Jon Stewart will be appointed as my press secretary. At least all my press releases will have the whole world laughing their asses off. Minimum Wage will be increased to $12.50/hr. I think Ronald McDonald can afford to buy used overhauls for a while so that his employees don't have to shop at the Salvation Army. Corruption in government would be gone. No one is allowed to spend more than $500 on their election campaigns. They can put up a fucking website and do grassroots shit. That way there's no big corporate donations and shit to deal with. Plus, politicians are gonna become like preachers: We give them a place to live and a minimal salary, that's it. No big bucks, no fancy cars, nothing. It's not gonna be about the money. All the money we cut from politicians can go to teachers, cops, firemen, etc. Y'know, the government employees who actually fucking DO something worthwhile and give back to society. Pro Athletes get capped at $90,000/yr. None of this being a rich bastard because you play a fucking game. Maybe then, only people who LOVE the sport and DON'T corrupt it will find their way in. Just like with the politicians, when it's not about the money only people who actually give a fuck will want the job. Ninety grand a year is still a damn good salary. It's not like they'll be poor. The RIAA and MPAA will be told once and for all to shut the fuck up about Peer-to-Peer. They should've jumped on the bandwagon when it got rolling, now they can just suck it up. By the way, musicians and actors are capped at $60,000/yr. They can still have the royalties on their music, movies, concerts, commercial deals, etc. Wouldn't be fair to take that away from them. However, the industry will still be encouraged to develop better copyright protection methods so that all the true geeks can still enjoy the immense thrill of breaking a copyright protection scheme only days after it's implemented. They've gotta have something to do on a dateless Saturday night. Wouldn't want to rob them of that. We'll be having a government-sponsored betting pool on how long it takes the industry to figure out that copyright protection is fucking useless (they spend years developing some new state-of-the-art system and once it's released, a 13yo breaks it in 2 days... get a clue). SPAM will be made illegal! The punishment for spamming is 5 years in the Antarctic Prison Colony! I think that just about covers the basics. Of course, I could probably go on all fucking night with this shit, but if I kept going I'd never get this rant posted. Just know that there's like a billion more cool things I'd do. I might just have to make a sequel to this rant. Until then....... Salt for president 2020.  

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answered 100 random questions because i just felt like ranting i guess.

1.  if you could pierce somewhere other than your ears, where would it be? I always thought eyebrow piercings were cool.

2. if you could be in a movie franchise (already made or a book that should be made into a movie), which would it be? Does Pokemon count? Because Pokemon.

3. what are your feelings on bangs? Bro I absolutely adore bangs, they are so cute.

4. what is your favorite blanket material? Anything super plush and soft.

5. who is the last person you were mad at? My parents.

6. if you had to be sent up into space or into the depths of the ocean, where would you choose? Spaaaaaace.

7. if you acquired an island, what would you name it? I already have an island and its name is Sugarpeach.

8. are you afraid of death? why or why not? Of course I am, I don’t want to die because I don’t know what’s waiting on the other side and because there are way too many things I want to do before then.

9. what astrological sign do you think you should be? Uhh I’m pretty sure I’m an accurate Sagittarius. Even the symbol speaks to me.

10. who is the worst person you have ever dated? I’ve never dated anyone because I have a hard time feeling romantic attraction to anyone.

11. if you could remake one movie the way you think it should’ve been made, which movie would you choose? Omg easiest question ever, Avengers Endgame.

12. if you had to be a teletubby, which one would you be? Bro Po all the way.

13. what are your feelings on caillou? Caillou is a good boi.

14. what is a custom/activity/experience/etc from another culture that you wish would be in your culture? Living with your family till you get married and it being seen as normal.

15. if you could choose where you were born, where would you want it to be? I guess anywhere that’s not the US cuz it seriously sucks here.

16. if someone told you they could tell you the truth about god/religion/higher powers/the universe/the meaning of life/what happens after death, would you want to know? YES.

17. what is your favorite part of your nighttime routine? sleep doesn’t count. Snuggling up and getting all cozy and warm.

18. what is your favorite form of exercise? I like swimming. Dancing is fun too.

19. what is one current trend that you hate? Conservatives refusing to wear masks and pretending like the virus is over just because they want it to be.

20. what is a trend that died that you would bring back? Can we please just bring back Vine?

21. what era of fashion do you wish to bring back? Absolutely the medieval era. I want people to wear full armor, capes, long hooded robes, flowing gowns, and the like again.

22. what is one movie or tv show that everyone loves that you hate? Uhhh basically any of those adult swim cartoons that use puppet animation. The humor is often racist/homophobic/sexist/etc. and the animation/art style looks ugly and uninspiring.

23. what is a question you have always wanted to ask but haven’t? why haven’t you asked it? I guess I want to ask my parents why they focus so much on the homosexuals being a “sin” and not all of the other way worse sins. I haven’t asked it because I’m afraid of getting disowned by them if they realized I was gay.

24. did you have a teacher growing up that helped you through a difficult time? who were they? Uhhh not really? But I really loved my 7th grade science teacher, he was fun. I can’t really think of any hard times I’ve had to go through but I think my first math help teacher in high school was really kind and caring.

25. think of a paper you have written sometime in your education. what was the topic? I once wrote about the over-sexualization of women in media in my junior year.

26. do you believe in universal healthcare? discuss. Of course I do, it just seems like a no brainer to want to help other people via taxes/socialism. Idk why some people act like it’s the worst possible thing that could happen. Like, capitalism already exists bro.

27. what is one song that makes you feel like love is real? It’s not a romantic type of love but Song of Hope by Crush 40 was written for Japan after their horrific tsunami. It feels like a very loving song and makes me believe that some people truly do care. Buuut romantic wise, Guide You Home from Spyro DotD sounds pretty romantic to me. And for familial love, I Want to Know from Kill la Kill sounds quite loving and precious.

28. what is one song that makes you feel like you’re dancing in a meadow with the sun shining on your skin? THE HILLS ARE ALIIIIIIIVE WITH THE SOUND OF MUUUUSIIIIIIC~ (literally what other song could you possibly think of when asked this question)

29. what is one song that makes you believe that things will get better? Uhhh first song that came to mind was News 39 by MitchieM (or Hatsune Miku), it basically just talks about happy things in the news as opposed to all the depressing stuff we’ve been seeing lately.

30. have you met any celebrities? if so, who? All the celebs I’ve met have been from cons, there’s quite a lot but the ones most important to me would be: Masakazu Morita (JP voice of Ichigo from Bleach and Barnaby from Tiger&Bunny), basically the most influential VA of my life Johnny Yong Bosh (ENG voice of Ichigo from Bleach), Dante Basco (Zuko from Avatar), Janet Varney (Korra from Avatar), Anthony Mackie (Falcon from Avengers), and my main female celeb crush Lana Parrilla (Regina from OUAT). Also do music artists at their concerts count? Because deadass Mystery Skulls.

31. you’re being forced to move out of your country. you must choose another one to move to, and you may never leave it, even for vacation. what country do you choose? bonus points if you answer the city. Anywhere where there’s a competent leader that’s not a rapist, decent laws (like the freedom to marry regardless of gender, a ban on guns, etc.), free healthcare/college, and maybe doesn’t have a history of genocide? Does a place like this exist? Because I will move there.

32. do you believe in the death penalty? discuss. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmaybe if there’s significant evidence that they purposefully and gladly murdered many innocent people and show no remorse whatsoever??

33. what do you think happens after you die? Bro I got no clue. But I had an interesting thought once that maybe when you die, you actually wake up and continue your life like normal, just not on the same plane of existence as Earth is, but it seems so real that you don’t even notice it.

34. name someone you love. My best friend.

35. name someone you like, but don’t necessarily love. Uhhh my former project coordinator at work?

36. how many soulmates do you think a person has? Probably an infinite amount lol.

37. what would you say was your sexual awakening? Finding hentai on the internet when I was in like 4th grade lol. But if you’re talking about my sexual orientation, I sorta first realized that gay/lesbian couples were a thing in 7th grade. Then in high school I realized I was pan and demi-romantic. That was when it made so much sense that I loved courting all the beautiful ladies in Harvest Moon A Wonderful Life when I was young dhjsskjssjsjsjs.

38. is love always worth it? discuss. This is pretty vague but yeah I’d like to think so. Sometimes people will betray you anyway though so it’s best to be picky about who you open up your heart to.

39. pick up your phone. look at the text you sent closest to an hour ago. what was it? It was “Ehhhhh” to my mom lol. I was feeling sick to my stomach.

40. do you believe in magical beings? discuss. Bro I am agnostic. So yes I believe in the possibility and I believe in there not being a possibility.

41. what time of the day do you feel most at peace with yourself? Well I like it when it’s between afternoon and evening and I take a nap. But I also feel at peace outside in nature on a sunny day. Or just seeing the sunrise.

42. choose one song. now choose someone else to sing it. what’s the song, and who is the new singer of said song? why? I’d be down for Emi Evans singing literally any song because I’m pretty positive she’s actually an angel with that gorgeous voice of hers.

43. have you ever cheated? on a person, on a test, in a game? why or why not? On a test and in a game, yeah. Why on a test? Because I hate the American school system. It’s cruel and evil and as a whole it disgusts me. Why on a game? Uhhh because I can? Lol, why not. Let me get all them rings to buy chao eggs in SA2B. (I’m talking about like single player video games btw, I wouldn’t cheat in anything multiplayer unless I was like 10 stealing money in Monopoly lmao.)

44. what is an impulsive decision you have made that you don’t regret? Mmmm my job at Nintendo? I don’t ever regret confessing my feelings either.

45. if you were given the opportunity to completely start your life over from the beginning with everything prior and up until your birth remaining the same, would you? Nah.

46. how do you feel about greek life in colleges? You mean like frats and stuff? Uhh to be honest I usually only ever hear bad things about them lol.

47. what is an aspect or event in history that you were obsessed with as a child? Never was too obsessed with history growing up I feel like. It all kinda sucked to learn about because America’s history sucks. I don’t mind learning about other countries’/cultures’ history though.

48. what would your wardrobe look like if you weren’t so afraid of being who you want to be? It’d probably be full of capes and full armor and long beautiful gowns and hooded robes and a bunch of hella gay stuff. I also just wanna wear rainbows and holographic stuff and lolita fashion, etc...

49. describe your ideal town to live in. Somewhere surrounded by nature I suppose.

50. what age are you scared to be? alternatively, what age were you most scared to be in the past? Uhhh like 80? Lol.

51. do you have a secret you want to share? be as vague or specific as you want. get it out. if you want. That I WANT to share? Seems unlikely. And the secrets that I want to share have most likely already been shared. A funny one I like to share is that I used to play ACWW under the covers at night when I was supposed to be sleeping. I told my mom that the other day and it was really funny lol.

52. do billionaires work harder than other people? discuss. Hell no.

53. if you had the means to start a charity, what would it be a charity for? Literally anyone anywhere who doesn’t have clean water. EVERYONE should have clean water.

54. what is your favorite hairstyle for yourself? Bangs down, hair long and poofy and wavy, with small pieces of hair on either side of my face pulled back into a tiny ponytail. Bonus points if I have little baby curls popping out from underneath, which I naturally do most of the time. I wish I had the energy to curl my hair more often.

55. what is your favorite memory from being 13 years old? This is when I was in 7th grade. Ironically that was my fave year of school. I was first introduced to anime, vocaloid, cosplay, cons, and really it’s just when I first got into music forreal. Some hilarious memories I have is my friend and I ditching class to go hang out with IT who couldn’t care less that we were there. We drew on their whiteboard and talked to them about nerd things since they were also nerds.

56. what is a movie that shaped who you were as a person at a young age? Omg, Thor lol. Pretty self explanatory if you know me well.

57. which us state would you erase if you could? LOL um... Let’s just go back to the source of the problem and erase D.C.

58. what is a skill you theoretically want to learn but probably never will? Aaaaaa I really want to be fluent in more than one language. I like to think I’ll at least learn how to play the guitar someday >_>

59. what is an obscure language you want to speak? Obscure? Hmm... Latin? Gaelic? And it’s not a real language but I wish I could speak the Chaos language from Nier ehehe.

60. you are put in a dangerous situation where you have to fend for yourself. what is your weapon of choice? why? Uhhh taser? I don’t want to kill anyone but I want to be able to immobilize them for long enough for me to be able to make an escape.

61. what is a place you choose not to go to anymore? why? School in general. I always hated going to school. Pretty much all of the nightmares I have are based in school.

62. do you think you’re living a fake life/putting on a facade/lying to people about who you really are? why or why not? When I’m at home, absolutely. My conservative parents don’t know I’m pan, a democrat, and agnostic. It’s painful to pretend I’m not any of those things.

63. what is the color that defines your life? why? I just wanna say pink because it’s my fave color lol.

64. you have the opportunity to go to an exclusive celebrity event. which one is it? (award shows, premieres, parties, etc) A premiere of one of my fave movie series would be fun (I only ever leave my house to go to movies anyway lmao). Avengers maybe? But Chris Pine wya?

65. you can bring back one person from the dead, but you must choose someone to die in their place. who are the two people you are choosing? I don’t really have any people close to me who have died so (aside from my cat Coonie but idk if that counts), I guess I’d pick Anton Yelchin to come back to life because his life was cut way too short. Donald Trump can BITE THE DUST. Pence can too lol.

66. what is your favorite fun fact that people don’t really know? Zero Escape has the best story ever. Hm? Wym that’s not a fact?

67. pick up the nearest reading material to you (book/magazine/paper/etc). what is the first line of that reading material? “Boys, help your sister to her room and call the medic.” from TLOK RotE Part 3 because I’m predictable.

68. if you had to choose a sport to play professionally, which one would you choose? Dancing is fun.

69. what is the worst way someone has betrayed you? Hah, easy one. Three of my closest friends all decided they didn’t wanna be my friend anymore in the same year and all blocked me without even trying to discuss the reason why with me. It’s fine though because the following year Spyro Reiginited was announced/released :) Spyro>>>>Humans

70. what do you do to unwind/cool down when you’re upset? Listen. To. Music.

71. what is the color scheme of your favorite sunrise or sunset? Various tones of pink~

72. what is a beauty product you swear by? Uhhh I’m not really good with this type of thing, but I always use Almay’s black liquid liner.

73. how do you feel about plastic surgery? discuss. Do it if you want, idc man. But I’m telling you right now your imperfections are what make you beautiful.

74. if you could get plastic surgery, would you? what would you change? Nah. I don’t want to feel unrecognizable by me.

75. cotton balls or cotton rounds? What the hell is a cotton round?

76. what is your favorite animal product? Uhhh milk? Dairy gives us pretty awesome things. I still like fruit better, though. And I’m not really a meat person.

77. what is one job that isn’t really around anymore that you would want to do? Human alarm clock sounds hilarious, I want to walk around waking people up by throwing shit at their houses.

78. if you lived in 1550, what would your life be like? make a character for yourself, but be honest about what it would actually be like. Is this like victorian era? Cuz I’d probably be too lazy to dress up in dresses and wear corsets all the time. I guess I’d draw a lot. Write a lot. Sleep a lot.

79. if you had to attend school in another country, which country would you choose? Mmm maybe Italy. Or Japan.

80. what will be/was the color scheme of your wedding? PINK and white.

81. is there something you have a really strong opinion about for basically no reason? what is it? Honestly just Sonic in general. I have MANY strong opinions. Positive and negative.

82. who is a person you would fight to the death for under any circumstances? My best friend.

83. what would you do if you were in the hunger games? be honest. Uhhh hide up in trees and wait for everyone else to kill each other lol.

84. what time do you think everyone should wake up? I’m personally not productive at all in the mornings, so any time past like 12pm lol.

85. what is your favorite type of nut? if you’re allergic to nuts, sorry. Cashews. Pistachios good too.

86. what is your favorite part of your hometown? The forest in general. I wanna live in a forest, but like without all the wild animals and bugs, thanks.

87. you must get rid of one of your electronic items. you have no choice. which one do you sacrifice? Lol I have plenty I need to get rid of, how about all the old earbuds I have laying around.

88. what is a conspiracy theory that you genuinely believe in? make it interesting please. Omg I love conspiracy theories so much. Zero Escape taught me so many and explained them through science and made them seem totally believable (please play Zero Escape). Morphogenetic field theory is pretty cool. Basically it’s an invisible field where you can transfer thoughts to another person. There have been experiments that prove it (people ask group A what is the picture of that they show them, none of them guess right. The people tell group A it is of a dog. Then they ask group B the same question and they all answer dog. So group A sent their thoughts to group B through the morphogenetic field.) so idk I wouldn’t be surprised if it was real. Also the many-worlds interpretation. Basically it’s about how there are many timelines and parallel worlds that exist. But I guess something basic that I totally believe in is alien life. There is literally no way there isn’t another lifeform out there in the ever expanding universe. Also 9/11 was totally all done by the US to start a war to make money.

89. what is the first memory you have of oppression/discrimination? it doesn’t have to be about yourself. There was a mentally disabled kid in our class in elementary school and people bullied him all the time. I remember one time I got paired up with him in a project and everyone started laughing and I got so pissed I yelled at the whole class for being dicks to him. Also just in general the R word used to be used really often. Luckily my generation grew up being taught to never ever use that word.

90. what is one song from the 80s that still goes so hard? Technically it’s late 70s but September by Earth, Wind, & Fire ROCKS.

91. what is a lyric that you hate? why do you hate it? There’s a song I really like that has a pretty homophobic/sexist line in it that bothers me really bad. But THE SONG SOUNDS SO GOOD AUGHHHH. The line is, “if you can’t be a man suck a fuckin’ dick”. Song is Mature Opinion (ironic I know) by Kenichiro Nishihara (but he just made the background music, the rapper is a different person). It’s so annoying because it’s exactly the type of sound I ADORE...I usually skip the line on purpose anyway.

92. name 3 books you were forced to read in school. The Bean Trees, Catcher in the Rye, and The Great Gatsby.

93. how do you keep track of events/deadlines? calendar? agenda? your brain? My phone’s calendar.

94. what is the first book that made you cry that comes to mind? Probably some LGBT romance manga lol.

95. if you had to give a seminar about something, what would it be about? I am NO expert (I don’t think any artist considers themselves an expert honestly) but I wouldn’t mind helping new artists out. I also always liked critiquing people’s essays/stories in school.

96. how do you feel about your mother? I love my mom and I appreciate that she at least tries to be considerate of my feelings on certain political topics. She is slightly more open than my dad is about that stuff. She used to be a lost worse growing up with her anger issues, but she’s getting better. It worries the HELL out of me that she thinks being bisexual is worse than being gay or lesbian. It makes me not want to ever come out to her about my pansexuality (I’ve resolved years ago that I’d tell my parents if I ever got into a serious relationship with someone who is not a straight cis boy lol). I appreciate that my mom listens and shows interest in some of my hobbies I talk to her about. I wish she’d open up to more genres of music. I love how much she loves and cares for me, I’m pretty sure I’m her best friend. I’ll always be there for my mom when she’s grieving. The way she chews with her mouth open and talks with food in her mouth drives me up the fucking wall. I know my mom worries about me and my mental health and I am grateful for that. I love it when my mom plays the piano music I request her to play. I love it when she actually likes certain songs I listen to. I wish she’d play video games with me lol. I wish she’d care less about swearing and cleavage. I appreciate that despite growing up in an incredibly strict Christian household (literally her dad was the principal of the Christian private school they went to) she gave me a more freeing childhood and went way easier on me than her parents did on her. I wish she’d love animation and action movies more. I love how she’s always willing to help me with making my cosplay. I love doting over our cat together. Idk, I have a lot of feelings about my mom lol.

97. is makeup an art form? discuss. Without question. You’re literally painting on your face, what more is there to say.

98. what kind of videos do you primarily watch on youtube? I love watching Vinesauce play games lol, especially corruptions.

99. what is the scent of your deodorant? “Powder fresh”.

100. at what age do you hope you die? At whatever age has me feeling like dying has more benefits than being alive.

#personal #long post #about me

[untioko]

I Am Proud

For a long time now, about seven years ago I decided to place myself into the Republican party because I realized that were the party of the American people, and as an American, my already innate ideals, morals and thoughts are heavily reflected in the Republican party.

As soon as I began to mention that I stand with America, and for America, the so-called friends I had, and ex-boyfriend became loud, and hostile. They, as have many other, (I realized they were all democrats) people on social media had differing opinions that they wanted to shove down my throat by any means necessary.

The very news media Americans are supposed to be able to trust to not be biased were chanting the same things that average and radical democrats would. If I had a different opinion, if I still do, I am ostracized for it.

None of them would listen to my side of the story. They were all confident that they were right, that they knew everything, and that I was definitely wrong. This made me more reserved, I suppose, continually getting shut down by people who, as Americans, are supposed to listen to me, and then if they still do not agree, debate with me on even grounds.

It did not take me long at all to realize that all the democrats I encountered were intolerant, and hostile. The news media, democrats, and every television and movie tell me the opposite-that republicans are intolerant and hostile. But I have almost never seen that claim to be true. Even on social media, I still see republicans gutted and skinned alive for daring to have a different opinion then the "rest of civilized society."

The democrats would complain that they were just "so oppressed" at the top of their lungs, and yet, they were the only ones allowed to speak at all! For if a republican tried to speak, they were crucified on the spot. Verbally, and sometimes physically maimed.

At rally's, the republicans were a rather peaceful sort. Democrats would storm in, start throwing punches, and then the media would blame the republicans for the violence. I could not understand why I was hearing what I was hearing, how distorted the truth was becoming.

The only oppressed people in America seem to be republicans, and conservatives of all races, and nationalities. We come in all colors and are of most known races, contrary to popular belief. Gay republicans exist too, yet even they are harshly persecuted for not being "truly gay" or for being "stupid". The black republicans are targeted heavily as well for being "a traitor". And I just have to wonder why are only white people "allowed" or "supposed" to be republican?

When being republican is the same as being an American, and supporting America and what She stands for, I see no reason why republicans are labeled "the party of old white men" because I see republicans as Americans and we are all diverse, as mentioned.

And as Americans we damn well deserved to be heard just as much as a democrat deserves to be heard. What the hell is wrong with colleges, talk show hosts and other public-speaking platforms who do not allow republicans to have a voice!?

That is exactly why the republican party is the party of Americans. In America, we have freedom of speech. Tomi Lahren, for example, a beautiful, calm, reserved conservative invited democrats on to here stage to tell their side of the story. I have yet to personally see democrats extend that offer to republicans and mean it. Tomi did the right thing. The American thing.

If republicans were so intolerant, why did Tomi allow Jazz to speak on her stage?

In either case, I have long felt a certain amount of shame in being a republican, because of how we are treated. I have even been scared to admit this for varying reasons, most of which democrats are violent! I also know a lot of public schools blatantly discriminate against republicans. Schools will go out of their way to hire a democrat over a republican and if a teacher reveals herself or himself to be a republican, the school often fires him or her! That's absolutely insane and horrifying.

In America, we are supposed to thrive on opposing ideas, different, unique voices, not shut down nor discriminated against. In a school setting, it is absolutely vital that children be exposed to different view points. Why is the view point of the republican so banned? We do not and never have condoned violence. Some republicans may own guns, but all of the mass shootings have been performed by either Muslims or democrats.

Most violence is committed by democrats anyways as a rule. So why should they solely be allowed to teach America's future children? I know not all democrats are violent. My ex-boyfriend, as stupid and ignorant as he is, and how democratic he is, I still do not think he would hurt anyone. But he's the exception, not the rule.

And look, I do not hate anyone, no matter what their party affiliation is...I just think it's high time that republicans be allowed to speak, and teach children if they have the proper credentials and pass necessary background checks.

At my college, a wonderful, nice woman who was a secretary in the front was fired because she is religious-she wore a cross around her neck, I think. She never spoke about religion at school, by the way, but, yet, she was "let go." And that happened at a small town college. Imagine a big city!

Well, to get to the point, I was snooping about Tumblr yesterday and I found three people who are republicans...and who are PROUD to be republicans...and they are inspiring people, even if one of them is ignorantly pro-choice. I was, well, thrilled to find other people outside of the family who are proud to be a republican.

And while I may still keep my republican opinions to myself at college (I don't want to be shanked) I have decided to shake the shame off. I am who I am, and I know I believe in America and what it stands for. I know I am not wrong. I will at least from now on have pride that I made the right choice all of those years ago, despite how every outside force screamed at me that I was wrong.

After all, I rose above the sheep who all think the same. I am one of the enlightened few, and am glad about that.

So at least on Facebook I am, for better or worse, officially coming out of the closet and saying I am a proud republican.

I'd like to thank my family for pointing me in the right direction. I needed that push. Otherwise I would have blindly listened to the sheeple. I'd also like to thank Mariska a true friend who listens to all of my inane ranting. I'd like to point out that she is not even an American and yet she listens to what I have to say so what is a democrats excuse for not hearing a republican out, I wonder. If someone not of American origin can hear me out, democrats should definitely be able to listen too. Now, maybe she does not agree with me on all of my American ideals. That's okay. I've never faulted her for disagreeing with me. We talk about controversial topics like the adults we are. I state my opinion. She states hers. We talk about it. We don't shut the other out. Republicans and democrats need to be more like us. Listen. Talk. Hear. Sympathize. We don't always have to agree. We can always agree to disagree. That said, I'll say it again, thank you Mariska. I hope our friendship lasts. I really appreciate you as a friend. You're intelligent. Thoughtful. Creative. I do, I like talking to you.