#anyway I finished the show last night

[jaynovz]

Tomarcus is on some DIFFERENT SHIT huh??? HOBOY shoot that fucking dynamic into my veins

#thoughts #the exorcist tv #the exorcist #THEY SURE DO BE TOUCHING AND THEY SURE DO HAVE DEVOTION AND THEY SURE DO HAVE REPRESSION AND FORBIDDEN LOVE HUH #all amidst the startlingly visceral and intimate and uhhh violent act of exorcising demons bro #om nom nom nom #anyway I finished the show last night #tomarcus

[corpsentry]

eulogy

#i was fully going to just wrangle my way through life for another 39 years when my friend said to me: #you are gay and we want you to submit art for the pride art show. but i hasn’t drawn at all since last year so i made a new comic from scr #i was also having one of the worst times of my life all of the past week but every night after sobbing into a friends shoulder or wtv #i’d sit down and draw. and then today i locked myself in the basement for 5 #hours and now he is finished. trans allegory or whatever #happy pride #world is horrible so hold the people you love close #i am trying . succeeding? not really but definitely trying #i have gone now through the 5 stages of grief. 1) eat food 2) eat food 3) hit rock 4) hit rock 5) give up #i Give Up. i give up by living my life without giving a fuck #which is like. actually giving down. or taking away down #idk anyway #i hope you’re well i’m HANGING ON BY A THREAD. BUT A GOOD THREAD #and to my lgbsbfk homies: i love you #my art

[mattodore]

hello good morning happy thumb in his mouth tuesday (a day i just made up for matthias's slutty little whims)

#river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #echthroi #a burning house to live in #ts4 #blender #now i just have to make a pose where theo's thumb is in matthias's mouth so everything goes full circle #you already know matthias is gonna be on his knees for it 😌 #but anyway i finished making that first pose last night while recording a little video showing nene how i make poses #and then when i woke up i jumped back into blender to make another version of the pose but like. hornier. #i love making poses rn like i'm in blender so often these days... honestly i'm in blender more than i'm in the sims lmao #there's one i started working on like two days ago that is so... i wish i could share it on here but cock and balls are out in it </3 #placing so many curses on tumblr hq #...........i did make a pillowfort account tho so :) #i'll post the wip of it onto there when i get further along bc the pose is kind of messy atm. still trying to figure out the anatomy 😁🔫 #i actually made a pillowfort yesterday just to post an old screenshot from the casual oc save that i found again and had a good laugh at #i've been messing around on there and i really like how you can set posts to being just for logged in users / followers / mutuals #and there's an 18+ label you can slap onto your posts too #like it's great!!! tumblr sucks so bad why don't we have those options on here... seriously #ALSO you can turn off reblogs on pillowfort any time you want and you can set it so that it DELETES ANYONE ELSE'S REBLOGS OF THE POST!!! #WHY is that not an option on this website like i hate it hereeeeeeeeee #but anyway pillowfort also seems to not have that many people on it so like. that's literally perfect for me and my avpd #i'll probably end up posting on there a lot #...... oh and #nsft #?? just in case i mean matthias does in fact have a handful in that second pose there so. for the blacklists ☝️

[feelslikegold]

supposed to fly home today like I didn’t see the most babygirl jake possible last night and just ruin my entire life

#feeling v emotional about who gvf are to me today #I met so many genuinely amazing people last night????? #everyone around us were the sweetest humans ever 🧍🏻‍♀️ #particular one older woman who I will literally never forget like I could feel my soul come out of my body to attach itself to hers she was #SO amazing with an amazing story ???? like she was 63 and she’d never in her life been to a concert before #of any kind #and she just finished chemo so her gift to her was going to her very first concert ??? which was greta #she was just…….. so sweet ?????? and so beautiful!!!! I kept checking up on her even though we are ignoring that she was across the floor #truly do not know how drunk val navigated last night without hurting myself somehow 🧍🏻‍♀️ #anyways……. this band is so Different #would love to go to their shows and disconnect and just have a fun old time but i’m always hit with how I wouldn’t be here without their #music !!! #sounds dramatic af but 🧍🏻‍♀️ #and josh and sam taking the time to go around bstage barricade and grab literally all of our hands #they both made eye contact with everyone they touched like they were truly taking it all in #I didn’t feel like just a paycheck to them 🧍🏻‍♀️ #i’m 🫂🫂🫂🫂 #and GOD the video of jake and the little girl #like. they care so much ??? #ouch #hate them #hate what their shows do to me !!!! #going to be on a fucking plane and crying to frozen light 💀💀💀 #truly embarrassing !!!!!! #I am not checking this for typos so have fun :) #jake kiszka #josh kiszka #greta van fleet

[billpottsismygf]

Still thinking about how someone at the party I was at last night mentioned Always Sunny in a conversation with someone else on the other side of the room and I was suddenly Activated.

Had a lovely time trying not to be too weird, but also definitely being weird and getting to explain the insane context for some of the stuff on the show to @pog-mo-bhlog, then realised that I had apparently got so excited that I was no longer overstimulated, as I had taken my headphones off and didn't need them for the rest of the night.

It's like a special autism bonus. Activate my special interest and I will successfully cope with an overstimulating environment.

Of course, I did then go home and watch some Sunny.

#it's always sunny in philadelphia #iasip #I'm back to downloading the whole show in HD #not having it on my laptop has made me really sad bc when i have the urge to find a specific part of an episode #I don't usually get over the tiny hurdle of having to plug in my external drive #but this laptop doesn't have the space for it #going to see if I can have it in shitty quality on my laptop and maybe better quality on a usb stick that I'm more likely to use #mine #iasip mine #am I back on my sunny bullshit? maybe #we shall have to see #I'm technically still partway through a rewatch - it's hero or hate crime next - but I keep wanting to watch random earlier episodes instead #it was the nightman cometh last night plus my song compilation that I still need to finish then worst bar in philly today #maybe I'm in more of a random episodes phase of enjoying the show rather than full rewatches #that's how I've watched doctor who my entire life #only once have I ever done a full new who rewatch #anyway I've rambled way too long #suffice to say: mention always sunny in my vicinity at your own peril

[thebirdandhersong]

Everyone asking Carmy isn't he dead isn't he meant to be dead and Carmy thinking he should be dead but he still goes and tries to fix the restaurant and it's not exactly living but it still isn't dying he's always having to pull himself up out of death and he doesn't really want to but he does it you put the fire out and sometimes you can't put it out but someone else puts it out for you until you can and that's just as good hnnnngggfggggfgg anyway glad you enjoyed a show I'm totally normal about

😭😭😭😭😭 THIS IS NOT YOUR GRAVE GET OUT OF THIS HOLE

#i sat in bed for a very long time after finishing e8 last night and all i can really say is yeah i will carry this story inside my heart #for a long long time #GRACE it was an incredible journey!!!! and i can't believe i finished it like two or so weeks before s2 is coming out lol #idk if they're releasing it on disney the same time as hulu but i sure hope it isn't that long of a wait! #anyway what a show! what a story!!! #the bear

[daincrediblegg]

fellas... I think I'm gonna attempt to knit a welsh wig.

#I've been possessed by a knitting bug and it is sure gonna take me some places #also WAIT I DIDN'T SHOW Y'ALL THE HAT I MADE THAT I FINISHED LAST NIGHT WAIT #EDIT: ok I posted it #but anyways #the terror #if anyone has a pattern lying around that'd be sick bc like it seems like a fairly standard knit hat but just.. HOW THE FUCK #DO YOU DO THE LOOPY BITS???? that's all

[hdmiports]

carlie’s nighttime routine

#🔅 #i feel like i’ve definitely seen better edits like this but i can’t remember from who so sorry besties #i drafted this last night and just never finished making the post lmao #that melatonin be HITTIN !!! #anyways i love carlie a lot she’s like. just a gworl yk #ts4 edit #ts4 gameplay #show us your sims #ts4 screenshots

[jackietaylorgf]

remembering how i did an analysis of different forms of monstrosity in jennifer's body for a final project but i was also watching yellowjackets at the same time i was working on it and i was so blown away by absorbing the full impact of s1 shaunajackieism in one night that i almost forgot to include The Kiss which was almost the entire reason i chose that project.

#i was up all night until 10 am watching yj and finishing this project and the energy in my body at the time? digging into my favorite movie #while watching a show that rewrote my entire brain for the first time the same way the movie did the first time i watched it. #anyway i just read the project again and it was good actually. i would do things differently now and expand on certain things more #it was a bad move though bc shaunajackie made me want to reorg the entire project to fit them in bc they're so The Same but Different #but overall it's like a decent final project and i'm proud of it being my last final project ever. #big former gifted kid who hasn't achieved anything meaningful outside of academics energy here. hi. #ri.txt

[youremyonlyhope]

why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up

#i'm overthinking something that i did and was told off for doing by my director #and on my way home i was thinking when was the last time i was even talked to like that during a production #and then i remembered the costume experience from hell of only a couple months ago that i've already began blocking out #but the thing is that that person was someone i knew i'd never have to work with again #i mean at first i thought i would have to work with them more. then they announced they were moving away immediately #so i only had to deal with them face to face for another weekish after that point and anytime they yelled at me #i was like 'cool. i'll do exactly what you say to do. and nothing more.' but then of course me being me #i did some extra stuff and they initially were like 'oh that's pretty' and then days later told me to cut everything i added #and like sure i get that the show was frozen but girl. that costume was unfinished. i was trying to finish it. it was frozen but looked bad #anyway. whenever they yelled at me and had actual malice in their heart i was like whatever. i was hurt. but i didn't care as much. #but this time it's someone i've worked with many many times before and it was about a habit i have that i know isn't great #but at the same time the thing that prompted it wasn't even me doing this habit it was something else #but she interpreted it as that habit and said that i can't do that on a production she's directing #and that if i couldn't stop then i could pull out from the production and there'd be no hard feelings between us #and honestly i think her reassuring that she knows i'm valuable and that she wants me there while also telling me not to do this thing #and the fact that she's someone i like working with and will continue to work with just made it all hurt so much more #especially since she referenced another past production we've done where i didn't even realize she had noticed that i do this. #and i found myself in near tears. and still am kind of in near tears. i can't decide if i need to cry or not. #and i had NO sleep last night so i was looking forward to sleeping tonight but now i'm just overthinking EVERYTHING #and like. i know everything will be fine. if i just stop inserting myself and stick to just my specific tasks. it'll be fine. #but this is one of the ways my ocd manifests. i feel like i have to personally fix something i notice going wrong. or it'll be bad. #because every single time i choose to sit back and not be nosy when i notice something it ends up bad in a way i could have prevented #if i just inserted myself in a situation i technically wasn't part of but knew i could help or fix. so i just need to not do that. #but then i feel guilt if it does go wrong in the ways i immediately assumed it would and in a way i could prevent. #and i've been trying to work on this for like 6 months and aaaahhhh it's hard and being called out on it from her just really really hurt #i still may or may not cry. i don't know. the irony of me telling my therapist THIS MORNING that it's been a while since i last cried. #and the universe being like 'i took that as a challenge' and handing me this situation for me to spiral over. #i need to leave things alone. i need to stare straight ahead. and ignore whatever isn't specifically for me to do. but ahhh i want to help #and then of course my mom has this same habit and it annoys me when she does it yet i do it to other people and ahhhhhhhh #brain please just shut up. i need to sleep. i have to work tomorrow.

[allgather]

i am so always late to thing but i am adding sydney from the bear bc she's so heartbreakingly real to me. tries so hard and cares so much it makes her fucking crazy. holds her tension and discontent and anxiety and self-expectations so tightly, yet holds her dreams so tenderly and also with her teeth and nails and clenched fists. she punishes herself for her indelicacy, for mistakes that always feel as though they cascade into all-encompassing failure. she is oriented towards being better, all the time, always, but she misses how she's good in extraordinary ways in her pursuit of excellence.

#im fr insane we just finished s2 last night #insaneinsaneinsaneiminsane #ooc #anyway i could talk abt sydney for hours she is really something special to me and ayo edebiri has some of the best comedic timing on EARTH #but also delivers so much in her dramatic performances too. the way she embodies sydney's intensity #and how raw everything feels. how it really feels like her dreams hinge on her every action. FUCKING a great performance in a great show

[satiricaily]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Sandman (TV 2022), The Sandman (Comics) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Dream of the Endless/Hob Gadling, Dream of the Endless | Morpheus/Hob Gadling Characters: Dream of the Endless | Morpheus, Hob Gadling Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Unhealthy Relationships, slightly?, Museum Guide Hob, (But not really focused on), Funerals, Past Hob/Original characters, Background Character Death, Grief/Mourning, Character Study, First Kiss, (Although it was not very consensual at first), Look they're just not very good people (or anthropomorphic personifications in dream's case), But they do want something from each other and maybe it works out, Maybe it'll be disastrous, Anyways, Non-Explicit Sex, Their reunion don't go very swimmingly here, No beta I wrote this in the dead of night and slept at 5am, oh and, Abused use of italics Summary:

"You attended a funeral, I presume?" The stranger asks, his sharp blue eyes glancing down at Hob's black suit.

"One of many, yes," Hob nods. He feels strangely fragile all of a sudden. Like his friend can see the way he had cried at Amélie's gravestone if he said more, or how he had lasted long in the anger phase of grief when he realised his Stranger might never come back.

Or, Dream finds Hob at a cemetery for their reunion instead of the New Inn.

#my first finished dreamling fic after over a year of obsessing over this show damn #i dont even know what possessed me last night at 12am to write this in the dark #but anyways #i think i love the concept of their dynamic being more biting and clashing than fluffy #which is why i had to write this #cuz they r canonically not soft so! #the sandman #dreamling

[mattodore]

this is what i do when i'm having bad days 🤺

#river dipping #mattodore as a coping mechanism 🧘 #i'm actually having a better day than yesterday i'm just grumpy atm from lack of sleep 🚆🚶 #i stayed up last night watching old jerma streams yk how it is #made a character page yesterday but i’m not sure if i want to keep it… the character pics are TEMPORARY!!! btw. #i gotta take new plain bg cas pics for it but i was thinking abt making my own cas poses first 🤔 #finally went back to finish writing the [redacted] scene with mattodore #have been super slowly adding more aesthetically pleasing images to theo’s text heavy board 🚬 #also this picrew having a blue and red background option 😋 #anyway… that’s my little update 🫡 #i’m going to make theo’s custom beauty marks today and then i’ll get in blender to make this mattodore pose that is. #just. dog motif. you know. you understand the dynamics i don’t need to say anything else. #i’d show it off but for some reason matthias’s ripped sims all are missing his teeth cc…? so. can’t. the teeth are important to the pose ☝️ #i’ll share pics when i actually go in-game later #‘later’ <- when i feel like turning on my desktop #i should do it soon tho that way i can slap new pics onto that oc page and see if i like it or not #i decided to try it out since it’s mobile friendly like my actual blog theme #like if you open up a browser on your phone and type in my blog or this character page’s url they both look nice ! #i hunted for my blog theme for agesss but i found this character page pretty fast #it’s nice… it’s relatively simple looking (the code isn’t tho lmao) which i like. sometimes character pages are just. a lot. #and i think i prefer simple over complicated atp

[sunburnacoustic]

No post-gig IG post from Muse after Rock Werchter. Silence from photographers too. They’re not pleased about what happened last night huh.

#Even JAR didn’t post any pics after the show #Although he just posted a vague pic a very short while ago of him editing some footage so idk maybe there’s more admin to getting #Festival footage cleared or something? I don’t know. Anyway no posts from Muse in a first in a long time. #Hope they don’t let it get them too down like. Maybe some people at a festival crowd didn’t recognise Showbiz but Muse fans #I’m sure really appreciated the thought they put into it!!! #Plus they’re professional and reasonable folks; they would know there’s not much they can do about stuff that’s beyond their control #Suspect it was a curfew thing— you run over and there are timed things that take half your rig’s power out? #Can’t recall most festivals bc we haven’t seen them but iirc last year at Rock Am Ring too they ran over slightly #Again into KoC but they were allowed to finish smoothly. I wonder if that’s something Muse are annoyed about? #To my knowledge never in 25 years of Muse has a song been restarted twice in the same night so there’s that. #They’re usually excellent at running a tight set. #Anyway I hope we’re able to get the point across to them that we loved them and last night’s show was great! #And Showbiz was very welcome too <3 #muse band #muse #rock werchter 2023 #alsp the thing is Muse do Rock Werchter almos every single year so I imagine not having had trouble with them in 23 years past #Is probably annoying them a little. A matter of trust etc. Anyway it’s okay it’s okay it’s okay. It was genuinely a great set #Matt’s voice sounded exceptional last night #muse live

[duskerot]

finally getting around to watching a 23 year old show is crazy because im sitting here wailing like HOW IS NO ONE ELSE DISTRAUGHT ABOUT THIS and the thing in question got revealed almost my entire lifetime ago

#txt #SPIKE SPIEGEL..... THROWS UP #i dont want to spoil anyone who hasnt seen it like i hadn't. so im gonna stall a tag or two #i just finished the show last night um and we r gonns watch the movie next week #anyway #I MISS HIM . IM EMOTIONALLY RUINED . #I KEEP THINKING MAYBE HE COULDVE BEEN HAPPY BUT HE COULDNT HAVE COULD HE. IT WAS JUST A DREAM . FUCK EVERYTHING #tbd #BUT plus side is i watched it with my boyfriend who had also never seen it so i CAN commiserate #but i still feel fucking crazy about it im so sad

[gilliandersons]

come to think about it c.c. and niles actually makes a lot of sense when you weigh in its era. one thing you can count on with the 90s is a fruity man and a raging lesbian in a relationship

#the nanny #take chessy and martin from the parent trap as another great example.... #i've seen babcock rise from the same land that i did. trust me. #like sure yeah niles could be gay bla bla bla but THAT IS A LESBIAN. don't play with me right now. #anyway they could've been powerful besties but i know i'm overstepping here by asking for character development with this show #i finished watching it last night can you tell