#anything bad happened to will ever again

[ectonurites]

Byler Week Day 5 — Secret Identities

very loosely interpreting the prompt for today but i've had this idea for a while and... secret identities, Superheroes, that works. anyone who knows me well probably could have seen something like this coming LMAO

also trying to draw Robin & Superboy costumes that look thrown together and home-made when i have spent so much time drawing their actual designs was a challenge

#'sam this is 10 years after where canon is rn why do they look the same' because shhhhh #it had to be 1996 because that's when Worlds Finest Three: Superboy/Robin came out !!!!!!! #also yes specifically issue 59 of Wizard (cover date july 96 publication date may 96) is when WF3 got a mention/announcement #bylerweek2023 #Day 5 Secret Identities #byler #byler art #mike wheeler #will byers #stranger things #anyways listen timkon & byler are different ships in many ways however #i DO believe mike would carry tim's 'im gonna desperately try to clone him back to life 100 times' energy if #anything bad happened to will ever again #PLUS like. some theories ive seen about birthdaygate with like the idea of will getting slowly erased from people's memories........ #i don't want that to happen but IF IT DID. getting a detective comics 967 'he talked about a friend i should have.. someone named conner... #and i feel that name tugging on my heart but i don't know why' moment with mike about will........ oughghghghg #sam draws shit #<- almost forgot my damn art tag

[tswwwit]

just reread whump au for the nth time now, and it suddenly occurred to me what in god's name would've happened if dipper just straight up kicked the bucket right after saying, "i love you."

i can't imagine bill's reaction would've been a good one. i'm getting chills just trying to picture it, honestly.

in fact, just the image of dipper dying in general, and seeing the aftermath of that from bill's pov, has my whole body breaking out into goosebumps.

awesome.

also, let's just assume that bill hasn't yet figured out the whole reincarnation thing in this scenario aha

(i just really like angst okay? lmao)

Oh man, Bill? Oh Bill. Bill.

He would be very, very upset.

Also this is a good opportunity for the ol' classic:

#answers #There's probably a short time where he's too stunned to have a response #Which is *very* rare for Bill; he's old as hell - literally! - and seen and done pretty much everything #This of course can't last long. Bill is a being of *action*. And rage. #Bill is not taking this lying down #He's not taking this AT ALL what BULLSHIT is THIS #He didn't even get a DECADE with this mortal and what he's just GONE??? BULLSHIT #NO CHANCE NOT HAPPENING NOPE NOPE NO FUCK THAT #If the multiverse thought Bill during their 'break' was bad this is going to be orders of magnitude worse #He's experienced something he never thought he'd ever feel and never *ever* thought would be felt for him in turn #It was strange and disgustingly domestic. Grossly wibbly soft and chokingly *Sweet* with this lovely rivalry ganache #Something he won't - can't - continue on throughout the ages without. Not after he knows what it's *like* #Nothing's gonna match *that* again. Barely a decade damn it and it just. Just went. *poof*. #And FUCK THAT #The soul has to be somewhere. Lots of people can build a body. There's solutions #And if anyone or anyTHING stands in his way he's going to get rid of it without even stopping to monologue or gloat #Bill's got a mission and no psychopomp or demon or god is going to stand in his way of reclaiming what's his #Even if he has to go on a full-on quest for it. Tearing a path through the multiverse #He is GOING to get him BACK #Dipper's Last Words are going to have a greater effect than he could have imagined #Because with those ringing in Bill's brain he's not going to ever *stop* #Narratively speaking it'd be the most Character Development for Bill to exhaust his violent means #And have to bargain with someone #(Probably the Axolotl) #The biggest challenge Bill has ever or will ever face: Going up to someone. Hat in hand. And saying *please*

[tobyislame]

this but with toby and cody

#i just feel like toby would take it upon himself to be like a sorta big brother to cody #like he just looks at this kid and he sees SO MUCH of himself in him #and he doesnt even notice how protective he is over him he just IS he just knows he doesnt want anything bad to happen to him ever again #ticci toby #toby rogers #ticci toby headcanons #xvirus #xvirus headcanons #i feel like this site is starved of xvirus content #creepypasta #tobyhcs

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[hamartia-grander]

Starting to slowly realise I'm really not doing well mentally and it's. concerning. I feel like I should take a break from tumblr bc it takes some of what little energy I have but it's also my source of joy with friends so idk what to do, like I'd miss y'all more than I'd feel good about being away. But if you notice me talking less/not responding in days it's bc I just cannot. I leave your message notifs up so I don't forget tho <3

#Personal #Feeling dreadful bc so many friends have shared with me things they wrote that I SO GENUINELY AM EXCITED TO READ #I've just had literally no time nor energy for ANYTHING I enjoy in like a month #And I'm also literally not sleeping. I'm either not sleeping or I have recurring nightmares that wake me up. It's god-awful #Therapy isn't helping either cause atp I already know everything they're advising me about it's just not working #Nothing's changed either which ofc makes me feel worse. No meds changed no habits changed nothing crazy happened #I'm just suddenly worse than I've been in years which is Not Good #I feel awful for not being able to read my friends' things if I could let y'all see my mind you'd know I want to read what you write so bad #I just can't right now. I'm sorry #Not to mention work and school have been especially more demanding recently and I literally get home after 8 every single night #Don't even eat dinner til past 10pm #Doing hw until 3am etc etc #It's like high-school all over again but I'm an adult with more responsibilities than ever

[victorianlovesmen]

hes my princess my babygirl

#volo #pokemon #pokemon volo #pla volo #pokemon legends #I decided on an eye scar for him yay #He's half blind #headcanons #I couldn't decide whether to keep him shirtless or not the anatomy was so delicious but i just couldnt keep him shirtless this time #I will personally make sure he doesn't have to go through whatever trauma is making him want to be god ever again #I don't think he's bad at accepting compliments more so he isn't used to anything so genuine #like he isn't used to good things happening without needing to give up anything in return #sona x canon #more shipping my self insert with volo art because I start frothing at the mouth when I think too hard about him

[simcardiac-arrested]

there's a pipebomb in your mailbox

#ghhhweuhghh #whhuehgghhhh #looks around pathetically like a little fish . With the biggest eyes ever #blinks at my screen one eye at a time #jaga you cant keep getting away with this im serious. doing some sort of shit to me always #somerhhjng bad happening to me. maybe shitting myself over these designs for hours was worth it #starts throwing rocks around for no reason . soemthing happening #it’s been like one hour istill can’t think of anything to say i feel like i got hit on the head real hard #sorry i had the worst day on planet earth but this made me relaly happyy but also ]%{*}*}%&:);&$[>]*]€|€):&;;₽@272928484 #i’ll reblog it later with more thoughts maybe i dont knowww. weuhggh i like Like them #i love tha you gave watch more face markings ….. and emerge looks so cutes …. awww belyflop think it’s smiling ! #i think i need to go. in the dark #cramswering #is for me tag #oc: watchful eye #oc: in case of emergency #blinks really hard. againe #i need to jump into liquid cyanide

[fruitybashir]

So.

Bojan... Bojan. I feel so many things about him in this chapter your descriptions of his panic fucking broke me, they hit a tiny bit to close to home (this is supposed to be a compliment).

And Kris my dear dear Kris, constantly searching the issue in himself (mood lol) only to realise that he did nothing wrong and Bojan still left. Oufff

i will gladly take the compliment but you will also attend this weeks "had an anxiety spike reading the holidate" self help group. mandatory. heres your stamp card 📋 there will be snacks and hot beverages

#and oooffff kris dont even. dont even startt. i lowkey turned myself into a kris girlie* writing him which is 💀 #lets not even talk about that. #holidate kris is so special to me if anything bad ever happened to him i will kill everyone in this room and then myself #inbox #apfel07 #and yeah that part had to hit extra hard didnt it? thinking if he can find the issue he can fix it and its all going to be okay again only #to realise there is nothing that he can do to fix it. all he can do is let it happen ... #the desperation but also feeling so helpless .. yikes

[chiropteracupola]

the amount of time I spend on tumblr dot com has given me quite the set of standards when it comes to artworks on the theme of 'Trans Angel', and actual museums are failing to meet those standards quite spectacularly.

#news from the cupola #if you don't want to hear a lot of inane whining stop reading this post Here. #today once again I saw this particular sculpture entitled exactly that. it is the most unpleasant thing I have ever beheld. #it is relevant that it is a sculpture about the transamerica pyramid and not about Transgender things. but I do keep forgetting that. #so many errors were made in the construction of this fucking thing. I have seen it maybe thrice at this point and it has not grown on me #in the slightest. and I know that the conversation about Good Art and what makes Good Art is certainly fraught. #but by my lights whatever this is this isn't good art #maybe it's partially that this thing is displayed among some really wild examples of Just What Can Be Done With Clay #it's surrounded by hundreds of years' worth of technical mastery and it fails to be anything of note except bad to see! #clunky sculpting! ugly glazing! forms that are difficult to parse but also not very interesting once you do see them! #and why in the goddamn does it have the twitter logo sculpted all over it. what is Happening. #everything else by this artist in this exhibit is also not great in similar ways? #it's not even bad in a way that's interesting! it's just. not good! #it all feels like they're trying far too hard to make Art That Means Something and missing by a mile #also. no one calls the transamerica pyramid that. You Say The Whole Name. or you just point at it and say 'that one'

[frecklystars]

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#abusers should die btw I will forever hate the people who took my joy from me #I’m a nice person I’m a kindhearted bitch I did NOT deserve what happened to me and I’m so bitter #i wish she had taken anything else from me k wish she had ruined anything else in the workd #it just had to be the one thjng I got the most comfort and love from #I wil never get cameos from anyone in the way I got them from Steve #I will never love a character like that. never. that shit was so special and rare #I will never feel like that ever again with anyone else and it’s ruined it’s fuckjgn gone #to no fault of mine. i was a nice person and loook where that got me #I’m so sick and tired #I miss my old self but she’s dead #I miss self shipping and not questioning if my f/os would ever hurt me. i miss feeling loved #I miss lying awake at night and listening to music thinking of Starscream and then weeping with such joy #I mis s listening to my cameos.and genuinely believing every word #I miss him so bad he’s fujcjg gone I’ll never get hinm back #I’ll never be that happy ever agajn

[hella1975]

im so easy when it comes to immoral characters like okay do you bear your pain terribly? get behind me

#fandom is looking at a traumatised guy and going 'they deserved better' #but let me fucking TELL you if that guy goes on to let their trauma absolutely mutilate them then im gonna be there #bad victims etc etc #bear it terribly. bear it ugly and mean. bear it with your teeth stained by innocents that had nothing to do with the slaughter #let it make you worse. lash out. kick down. become the terrible thing #im defending that guy until the end of time #touya todoroki #andrew minyard #touya is the closest anyone has come to andrew in a very long time for me when it comes to this #like andrew is THEE baseline of this ive never seen anything like the way he does it #he was treated terribly and it made him terrible. shamelessly. he took the bad thing and decided to be worse for it #and while it's unsustainable in a person it's so fucking cathartic for a reader to just see that happening despite the tragedy of it #it's touya stood over his abuser and ripping his world apart with his bare hands while laughing #because he spent 10 years in hell for this moment. this single moment. and the audience and the characters call him a monster #it's andrew threatening his own cousin at knifepoint to defend a stranger's integrity simply because that is one of andrew's lines #and you do not cross them. no one ever will again. and the audience and the characters call him a monster #it's watching people who were treated awfully refuse to swallow that pain. refuse to forgive. refuse to move on #it's watching them embrace the wreckage of it and self-destruct either in one glorious explosion or gradually over years #because they are willingly choosing to live this way instead of getting over it. they are rejecting healing with their eyes open #because they were hurt so badly that healing now seems like a denial of that pain #and then u get to read fanfiction where they heal and are acknowledged for what they suffered and u cry and cry and cry <3

[songtwo]

idk i think my bf might be developing a drinking problem and i just don’t know what to do…..

#it’s been going on for a couple of months now but he promised he would stop and he had been doing well until today…. #and it’s like. on one hand i never wanted to be w an alcoholic and i told him straight so he promised it would stop #but on the other hand i can’t just abandon him #and it’s like we used to go out a lot and party but like. that was it but ever since he met this guy he just gets lost when he drinks w him #and the thing was he got like aggressive like he didn’t do anything to me and i can’t really explain it but he just wasn’t himself #and like. we talked about it a million times and it’s not like it happens every week #it’s been like 5 times since december #but 3 have been on the past month alone #and two weeks ago it got bad like he almost got into an accident #and like i’m not even physically w him anymore like we really only see each other once a week since i moved #and from the very first time it happened i told him i couldn’t be w him if it kept happening #and after that incident two weeks ago he swore it was the last time but it just happened again #by the way he and that guy get wasted it really is a miracle they get home alive #and like. idk what to do #i really don’t want to be w someone like this #and i hate feeling like this like if i were to think only about myself i don’t want this i hate feeling like this #but i also can’t abandon him #like not even bc i would miss him or whatever i just wouldn’t feel good leaving him alone #but like i don’t want to live like this #maybe i’ll ask for some time to just figure things out #but it’s gonna suck so bad bc we were supposed to see kendrick lamar next week and then we already had plans for his bday and omfg #i don’t wanna leave but i don’t want things to be like this either #and i asked him to stop and gave him multiple chances but idk #i just don’t know what to do #i love him endlessly but i need to put myself first but i can’t abandon him:( #and our 1.5 anniversary was also next week….. #but i think time is the sanest and safest thing right now

[fleshdyke]

hchkvgjvfj

#csa warning for tags #goddd being raped at 6ish and brutally bullied is a hell of a combination #i was the one kid in not only my grade but multiple above and below me as well that the boys would dare each other to 'ask out' #absolutely CONSTANTLY. like jesus #by the time i was raped i'd already been bullied pretty badly for a while. including being constantly told i was ugly by all the boys #which is like. a huge reason i was raped in the first place. i still dont know who it was but i can only assume he took advantage of me #being constantly bullied to abuse me. as child rapists so often do #but like i was always the one that would be 'asked out' as a dare bc why would any of them want to talk to me #it was so inconceivable that any of them could want to be near me let alone 'go out' with me. they didn't even bother trying to hide the way #they laughed. like they didn't try to hide it bc they knew no one would do anything #and this happening to me fucking constantly for years on end throughout my ENTIRE childhood. that fucks with you man #like i dont think its even possible for anyone to like being around me at all. let alone find me attractive #there's still never been a single person who's had a crush on me or whatever #like all my friends have stories about annoying boys having crushes on them when they were younger. and what does it say about me that im #the complete opposite. and like it's so stupid because who fucking cares what 10 year old boys thought in 2016 but it really really fucks #you up bad man. like if anyone ever does come to be attracted to me for whatever reason i dont think im ever going to be able to believe it #i'm always going to be waiting for the joke to end and them to start laughing. i'll always be waiting for the other shoe to drop #and the worst part of it all is that i fucking want to be raped again #being raped as a little kid is the only time anyone has ever wanted me. it's the only time i've ever been desired. and i dont even like sex #but it's just the only time anyone has ever loved me in a non parental way #like i have one crush story to all my friends'. and it was a grown man that raped me when i was little #and i want to be raped again so fucking badly not because i would enjoy it but because it would prove that someone actually fucking wants me #i want to be sexually harassed and not in the way i usually am. i want to be catcalled and have to be scared walking around alone #i want men to grope me and say disgusting things and rape me because then i would finally be fucking wanted #it would prove that i'm actually likeable in some capacity. that i still am #im so scared that now that im grown im just a lost cause. because i was only desirable when i was little. now im just nothing #and i know i shouldnt even care but its so fucking hard to shake. i just want someone to love me #and i love my mom so much but i want them to love me because they want to and not because they have to #rambles #vent

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya doesn’t intend to ever get married. Due to him being Khaenri’ahn, if it’s not having to keep that fact from them ( especially with how devout the Mondstadters are to Barbatos ), it’s the fact that he fears what would happen to them and any children they may have, should Celestia become aware of them. He can’t trust it won’t end terribly for them, and will always be left fearing they’ll be used against him or hurt bc of him.

#hc; kaeya #//One for him too nfbdb #//Ive mentioned before if he gets convinced to marry; he would prefer any wedding a VERY private event #//He will be Adamant abt it. he will concede anything and everything to his partner. but THAT is nonnegotiable #//In all honesty; he’d want the location to be at Dawn Winery over anywhere else #//That’s HOME. there’s his FAMILY. even if it’s been ages since he’s actually been able to call either such #//But his heart remains with them #//To share that with his beloved; he would consider it a great gift #//But then there’s a matter of convincing Luc abt it; which he is sure he would never agree to #//Kae would want to follow all Mond’s traditions; even if he really does want to incorporate Khaenri’ahn ones #//but he doesn’t know enough abt them and researching might draw more attention on it than he’d like #//If anything; might only ever include their first dance to him singing a Khaenri’ahn wedding song for his partner #//Acapella; unless he can get Venti to play along #//Marriage definitely isn’t in his plans; tho he’s willing if his partner is; but raising a family DEFFO is more what he wants #//Hes deffo the kind of person to want to adopt/raise children even without a partner #//But again; he’s still worried what Celestia would do in response to him having a family #//And wonders if he’d even be a good enough parent; if he could live up to what Crepus love had given him #//To grant it to THEM in turn. he’d give his very life for them. would LIVE for them. would even overthrow Celestia for them #//& that scares him. he doesn’t know WHAT he’d do if anything happens to them. even at cost of himself & potentially everyone else #//Mans would fucken get Mond heckin Nailed again in his grief; it’d be That bad #//Clothar would have NOTHIN on him

[dennistakesamentalhealthday]

btw i had a bad day so i need all the girlies in bowling to be on their craziest hottest unhinged gay shit tonight and also the only plot dennis is allowed to have is crying when his hand breaks. are these really such high demands

#it is not like anything monumentally bad happened i just had a shitty sleep and have been tested over and over again ever since #i got a free doughnut from the grocery store for my birthday tho....

[memorys-skyscraper]

maybe im a weak bitch, but like. i'd 100% get the bad end if presented with the dilemma in the third semester

#rambles #p5r liveblogging #p5r spoilers #persona 5 royal spoilers #slapping spoiler tags on so i can pontificate in the tags #but like. an all-powerful friend who can prevent/undo anything bad that ever happens to you? #up to and including *reversing death*? #sorry im taking that deal #'hardship makes you strong yadda yadda yadda' man i do not care lmfao #theres no inherent glory or value in suffering #'whos to say his decisions for reality are the right ones' well he seems to get the big things right #'he has no right to decide peoples lives for them' i mean. yeah. but once again i literally do not care #id be rolling up to bestie with a nice n tidy list of shit he could undo for me and i am absolutely sure i'd be happier for it #maybe that makes me pathetic. guess im pathetic then!