#and the schools aren't telling them

[thedarklyblue]

ughhhh

#.txt #wish i could be confident in my opinions!! #currently stressed because i'm using one name at school and another at home and havent had that conversation with my parents #(which makes it tough bc like. if they come see a show i worked on. there's that one in the program and i didn't tell them.) #((out to them as nonbinary but they went :/ are you sure so i have not been pushing the issue)) #and i get a nyt subscription as a student and my evening update just sent me an article about parents whose kids are socially transitioning #and the schools aren't telling them #and i GET it you feel betrayed. you feel not trusted as a parent. #and i fully understand being unsure and hesitant. but something about this is rubbing #me the wrong way. it's still so important to give kids room to experiment and explore! #if you're going to look at your kid figuring out their identity and go 'oh well you're clearly not sure so i don't believe you' then they'll #work on it by themselves. #and then when they come to you and say this is who i am you'll go 'oh it's so sudden!! how could you not tell me i think this is a fad' #and this is such a weird balancing game and i really hate how the article covered it and now i'm fucking ANXIOUS #i just want to live!! also when you're like oh how can you be sure. how the FUCK are we supposed to figure it out without trying things????? #not everything is a fucking life-changing decision sometimes you just have to do shit #wish i hadn't read that article but uh nothing i can do about it now #i hate realizing that everything i have figured out here (how to explain myself to people #how to talk to profs about who i am) #doesn't do shit for me in the other contexts i live in #also living the 'do i come out to grandparents or do i for sure inherit money for top surgery' which feels gross but idkkkkk #anyway. Bad Brain Evening. thanks

[hajihiko]

I've seen a few people talk about how much smoother things would have gone for the cast if they had A Mature Conversation about things, but like. they're teenagers. Not only that, they're all gifted kid teenagers who also have Issues (except Hajime who only has the Issues). How capable do you think they are of going 'alright now boys we need to talk about your misogyny' or somesuch

#I think a part of what COULD be the tragedy of it all is on fact that they're teenagers with even less #-of a standard for what's normal than regular teenagers. #16 year old kids seeing another 16 year old kid who clearly has a history of abuse but they're like #Damn that sucks... Uh... Should I tell a teacher or #Oh right wait killing game island. Welp. #Them as adults post game looking back like god DAMN if I could go back in time and respond better #But yknow no time like the present #The fact that people like heard a single word out of Mikans mouth and did not think to intervene says sth- #-about the school they went to methinks. #Anyway. This has been a Me Talking #Ps not saying teenagers aren't capable of being good people #But being in that situation on top of all their backstory baggage I can't blame them for putting certain things on the backburner #WAIT ALSO ALSO. Have YOU ever tried to talk to a mean teenager. Jesus christ #They do not take reason trying to argue just makes them stronger.

[truthsinwhispers]

People are soooooooooo quick to shit on people who deal with emotional disregulation it makes me fucking sick. When you express your stress through tears you're a crybaby. When you're quick to frustration, you're either overly dramatic or you're violent and scary. When you have the gall to get too happy, you're childish or straight up crazy.

Living with emotional disregulation comes with having to grow thick skin because people will call you every fucking name under the sun because you have the audacity to express emotions that are constantly ramped up to an eleven no matter which one you're feeling. You're loud, you're sensitive, you're overemotional, you're weak, you're soft, you're childish, you're naive, you're too much you're too much you're too much you're too much you're too much you're a burden because people now have to handle you.

Where do people think they have a right to judge others for feeling? I may be quick to express my emotions, but you're quick to judge and condemn and on a societal level that should be worse.

#my bullies in elementary school knew i had problems regulating my emotions so they'd say things where i could hear them. #they were never overtly mean things but they would say it in a mean tone and then giggle at me. and when i went to tell a teacher #the teachers would just roll their eyes at me. it's not bullying because they're not saying mean things #(even though they're clearly weaponizing something out of your control you don't have the language to describe) #my middle school bully heard my teachers call me overemotional and that stuck to me for all three years. #my coworkers and managers will shit-talk me behind my back for “being so dramatic” it happens no matter where i am. #i'm so used to people looking down their noses at me because clearly i can't be taken seriously. clearly i'm just naive and immature. #i just. my broken bleeding heart keeps weeping into my hands and i can't staunch it. #but i don't even want to staunch it. hearts are supposed to bleed aren't they?

[enigmaticpink]

When I have kids I'm gonna let them cuss so when their peers all start cussing they don't sound stupid

#remember being in like middle school and saying fuck every other sentence bcus u had no real experience actually using swears #also all jokes aside telling children to not cuss literally makes no sense to me #makes more sense to teach them how and when these kind of words are appropriate to use #bcus like it or not it will be part of their vocabulary and in the language they hear daily #and I'd rather teach them which situations are okay to say swear and which aren't bcus that's something they'll need to know as an adult #later on

[bitchthefuck1]

One of the weirdest things about finding out you're traumatized/mentally ill/neurodivergent as an adult is looking back at all the very obvious signs in your childhood and realizing none of the adults responsible for you were paying attention

#it really is a mindfuck #like all of yall were really asleep at the wheel here #me: exhibiting very obvious symptoms of neurodivergence and mental and physical illnesses #ever parent teacher coach and other authority figure i interacted with: shes just Like That. #fun fact i when i was in elementary school starting in 2nd grade id have to walk to the front of the classroom and read a section of the #board at a time and then go back to my desk and copy it from memory because I couldn't see well enough from my seat and not a single #teacher said or did anything about it until i was in fifth grade. guess who needed glasses. #like they didn't even ask they just let that happen until my fifth grade teacher was like. what are you doing. and i told her i couldn't #read the writing from two rows back and she told me to tell my mom i needed glasses #anyways ms. [redacted] you're the only valid mfer in this place #not even gonna get into the number of coaches who called me lazy or out of shape in middle/high school (even though i was playing multiple #sports a year) when i told them i couldn't breathe after running for only a minute or two. guess who has sports asthma. #maybe this is just being the middle child but like of you're not going to pay attention to me can u at least not immediately call me a liar #when i say something's wrong maybe #those aren't even mental/neurological those are very obvious and easily demonstrated physical issues and you STILL didn't say anything #not even gonna get into all the very obvious signs of mental illness and neurodivergence

[saltypiss]

Just sayin, if teachers stopped taking the side of the aggressor, schools wouldn't be so hostile. If they stopped enabling aggressors, it wouldn't be so hostile, when kids aren't pushed up against a wall and ya'll didn't help push them further up, schools wouldn't be as aggressive.

It's real easy too, you see, when a kid says another kid is bullying them, you do something? Not put them in the same room to talk, like a fucking absolute baffoon, not tell the victim to get over it, not take the side of the aggressor.

Because that's when all options were exhausted. And you. You enabled this. When students do all they can with their limited resources and you throw them back to the sharks, they Will Defend Themselves while you aided in their assault.

Don't deny it gives you a boner to see kids suffer, I know how you enablers think. Why else take such a shit paying job if not to torture kids? Don't answer that, the alternative is far, far worse.

Schools should be held accountable for shit like this. Forced to make a paper trail, and when they punish the victim, the victim can go to court and show the receipts. No fucking reason to aid in assaulting bullied kids. Absolutely none.

Schools Need To Stop Enabling Violence.

That's all they do. That's how they're set up. That's their purpose. Until they fix themselves, schools are, literally, combat zones. And, literally, schools enabled it worse than any politician, loooong before any modern political discourse.

Better education, higher pay, and no lunch debt is one thing, but the enviroment of school is Active Combat. Teachers put kids up to assault and harrass other kids all the time out of seemingly boredom.

That is a decision they have made loooong before shootings were so frequent. Can't blame them for that, but you can blame them for the enviroment being so open and casual to such.

To ever make it a last resort, to ever Make It To A Last Resort.

Like instead of teaching kids empathy, being there for them in times of crisis, teachers really pushed kids to be even more aggressive. It's sickening we don't put any blame on all aggressors involved because of a fuckin' title. Blame teachers and school for being bully enablers.

Honestly, wouldn't surprise me if Kidz4Kash was still around to "collect troubled youth" the school system forced them into. Mine tried before the scandal was exposed. School is just not remotely safe. Hard to say School as a concept will ever work given the people that work it.

Seriously don't put your kids in public school. It was worth it for communication skills, but life long problems come either way, I'd rather a sheltered moron than a combative experienced child turned adult too soon, or dead, more than likely dead, probably suicide or shooting. Either way, schools enable it.

Just saying, school has more issues than money. It's the people. Blame Schools. If they wanted to be better, they'd have tried. If they wanted teacher pay better, they'd have tried, if they wanted school shootings to stop...

They'd be better people. Not working that job. Because no Chef works Mcdonalds, just teenagers and crackheads. Raising pay will help, but you Have To Fire the Aggressors for it to even matter. Otherwise you reward the systems in place that have caused such aggressions to rise.

Schools need to fix themselves, fire aggressors, stand up for victims, be held accountable when they actively choose to fail, and then, only then, raise pay.

As of now? Pffft. Ya'll fuckers putting kids in jail, therapy, or the grave. Only one of those is socially acceptable. Fuck off.

#schools #I remember the days when criticising schools and explaining that aggression was only going to rise with a system that enables it #oh those days were fantastic #having teachers online come and explain Exactly Why Shit Was Going To Get So Bad but being totally incapable of realizing their actions #will lead to modern problems #you learn alot from morons defending their pro-aggressor attitude #anyways #yeah please don't listen to teachers after whatever big event at a school #listen to the kids that aren't camera perfect for news stations #let them speak #they'll tell you about the time a kid was causing them problems for months and despite asking teachers to help was only punished for it #or how one teacher actively bullied them so much they started calling to be pulled out of their class everyday #or how one teacher honest to god put him and the bully in the same room to discuss feelings #at age 13 #and that doubled the problem #and when you went to them they just pushed you off and stopped seeing you as your guidance counsellor everyday #cool times #yeah no seriously though Schools are set up like shit and Pay is hardly the half of it #teachers are aggressors #they will set kids up to fight each other #they will defend their favorite #they will lie to get you in trouble #they will follow you from junior to high school #and you will be taken out for YOUR PROTECTION and put in online school #that #is #public school

[bitegore]

every so often i have to really wonder about the people who watch me talk about how badly i want someone to let me hurt them and fantasize about murdering imaginary characters i like and somehow assumes i'm a sub primarily and wants to be killed and chased and not, like, do the killing and chasing

#red rambles #theres a specific exchange i keep thinking of but it happens a surprising amount #i guess it's good that no one's looking at me and assuming i'm going to be a serial killer in the future any more #like im never going to forget that one girl who thought we were friends in high school telling me as i signed her yearbook #that if she heard about a serial killer on tv she was gonna immediately assume it was me. as though it was a cute jokey #thing to say and i was supposed to think it was flattering ?????? #but this one's annoying too. no i dont want your blorbo to come hunt me down and put a hole in me unless i get to do them at the same time #if i'm writing texaid it's because i want to be tex not aid. if i'm writing mm/ds it's because i want to be motormaster and not drag strip #in real life i will play along with other people's fantasies sure. that's not the same thing as having it be My Thing #if you've never played along with a partner while banging them because you don't mind and they clearly like it idk what your deal is #but mine is just that i'm not as picky as i look and i can roll with most things #that doesn't mean that idk hypno is my kink or whatever just bc i dont mind if my fuckbuddy wants to put on hypno shit in the background #like get off my dick. and stop making assumptions #ill tell you who i am if you listen and if you aren't putting it together you're not going to get it. that's all #lemon

[cartoonghosts]

tw unintentional vent post I'm just pissed at the culture surrounding bullying with younger children and bring up my experiences as reference

doing a unit on bullying in health and not only is it incredibly triggering jts also just. Wrong. Like no, bullies don't need an emotional response to keep going, if you don't react they get more intense and start making fun of you for not reacting. Also, you can't expect children to not react to people punching them, pinning them against a wall, telling them they're worthless and cutting them off from their friends. If kids use the responses adults have decided are the correct way to avoid bullying (show no emotion, call them out or ignore them), it only ever gets worse. A lot of the time, adults don't even try to help if a child reports this stuff because the child is pretty socially rejec4ed and 'weird' (in my case, undiagnosed autism and social isolation for the entirety of elementary school). Also, bullying is NOT always one-sided. A lot of the time, when a child is attacked for years and years on end and has their childhood ripped away, they're gonna get angry and they're going to lash out. I was labeled a 'bad kid' and a troublemaker because I cried easily, yelled at people who were mean to me, and retaliated physically because there was literally no other option. With that record, adults who I went to for help would tend to blame me, and other kids would use that to their advantage because they has the capacity and power to be more subtle about it than i ever could. I know that bullying in high school is different than in elementary school, but this is the exact same stuff I've been told all my life. If you're an adult working with kids and someone comes to you and says that they're being bullied, fucking listen to them. Change their classes. Keep them safe. If you don't, you could be actively participating in a kid's trauma.

(As a side note what I'm talking about is elementary and younger bullying, the only stuff I've experiences at older ages than that is transphobia)

#This isn't meant to be a vent post I'm just pissed #Kids being bullied aren't always quiet and timid and gentle #Sometimes they fight back and scream and hit people and they're STILL THE VICTIMS #and sometimes a lack of reaction doesn't fucking help #If a kid says that they ignored their bullies and it didn't stop #Don't just tell them to try harder and do better #If you're a parent get their school to change their classes #If you're a teacher move them away from the sources of the problem and make sure that their interactions are as limited as possible #Don't let shit like this happen #I could have avoided getting severe depression anxiety and possibly developing a fucking personality disorder #I could have avoided SIX FUCKING SUICIDE ATTEMPTS #If you work with children and have seen possible bullying and haven't responded strongly and immediately #You have failed and possibly contributed to the death of a child #tw bullying #tw abuse #tw child abuse #tw trauma #tw suicide attempt #tw vent #vent post #I work with kids myself and I fucking swear if any kid ever comes to me needing help I am going to help them #I barely managed to survive that shit and I will not let that happen to any kid I'm caring for

[trvbblemaker]

is it reasonable to stop doing something just cuz i don't want to anymore

#well. when i say it like that yeah it sounds kinda reasonable but like #i've kinda started just not wanting to go to voice lessons? #which might be a bad thing cuz they aren't cheap? #and idk how quitting would work #but i just kinda like... “ugh” everytime i go #and its fine ig once im there but there are things id rather be doing #especially bc (when im not on break like i am now) i have them on weekdays after school so i lose homework time #toby talks #helpppp #ik she'd be fine with it but im kinda scared at the thought of having to tell my mom i wanna stop

[raininyourbedroom]

every so often my depression causes me to impulsively look up my ex best friend and ex boyfriend from high school a million years ago on Facebook and ya know? I always feel better about myself afterwards

#karma is my boyfriend karma is a god! karma's a relaxing thought aren't you envious that for you it's not!!!!!! #they said id be nothing without them ☺️ and my sources tell me they don't have anything really going for them #and like i dont want their lives to suck they're not TERRIBLE people #but i cant help but 🤭 #ex best friend is on her second husband and we're 24/25 years old which isn't necessarily a bad thing #except one mutual friend of ours who only keeps tabs on the ex bff in order to get the tea says that this dude is as shitty as the last #and that he only married her bc shes pregnant #and ex boyfriend WAS engaged a year or so ago but she broke it off 👀👀👀 #which is sad and all but he literally broke up with me out of the blue FIVE TIMES in high school then a few months later gave me puppy eyes #and asked to get back together again and me being a stupid teenager always said yes! #cause karma is the thunder rattling your ground 🤭🤭🤭 #i have less info on his life but from what i do know he's not having a good time #meanwhile im married to a wonderful man and have a stable job i love

[qilinkisser]

uuuUUGHGHGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

#vents 🌧️ #I'm so fucking MAD #I've been seeing SO many fucking valentines day drawings today and I wanted to join in so badly #but I have my stupid fucking homework #and my mom said that if I get my homework done I can have 'a few minutes' of time #A FEW FUCKING MINUTES #yeah. great. so I can make a shitty doodle that nobody bothers to interact with #on the ONE fucking day I was hoping to get some attention #is that selfish? yeah it absolutely is. but I don't care. everybody's so fucking sick of me in real life #is it so bad that I want everyone to see me here? everyone to tell me how good I'm doing #I just want people to tell me I'm doing a good job #I'm failing all my classes in school. I have a terrible social life. I fall asleep constantly and I'm never fun to be around irl #all my parents do is nag me to do the homework I have no willpower to do and yell at each other outside my door #I'm doing a really shitty fucking job in real life. maybe if I got some imaginary fucking internet points I'd feel a little better #I don't care if it's selfish. I want to feel wanted. I want to feel admired. I want everyone to see me and think I'm doing so good #I've got nothing else. art's the last thing I'm good at. it's so fucking over for me. this is it. #it's rock bottom isn't it? my meds still aren't working. my dad is relentless in his anger. my mom is at her wits end #my friends at school give me maybe half of the love I give them if I get really lucky #my teachers are so fucking tired of me #who the fuck gives a shit anymore. this all feels so fucking pointless #who cares about regents or sats or college or jobs or anything. that's it. I give up. this is it for me. #I don't know how it's supposed to get better. #I'm so fucking sorry. I'm liveblogging an absolute spiral on here. I'm so sorry #if you read all the way down to here.. I'm not in trouble. I'm not going to do anything bad. you don't have to worry about me. #I'm just. so. tired. #I should probably delete this later.

[genderfluid-druid]

finally learning emotional intelligence as an adult in my 30s feels like playing with goddamn tinker toys while i watch other people my age building these beautiful emotional ecosystems out of hand carved mahogany. but the alternative is to continue being glib and dismissive of every emotion i experience for the rest of my life so 👍 pass me that green rod i guess. and do you see any more hubs

#at some point last fall i visited my parents and was telling them about my plants #i had just bought a nerve plant aka fittonia #i got her because nerve plants are famous for wilting dramatically when their water conditions aren't just right #i thought it was interesting and funny and maybe a good way to keep an eye on my plant area. catch any moisture problems early #bit of a canary in a coal mine idea you know #anyway i told my parents about this plant #and they kind of laughed and rolled their eyes about this plant being so dramatic #and I said no. you see. i like a plant that communicates its needs #and i swear to God #i could See the thought passing through their eyes for the first time #that that might be a good thing #oh i think I'm gonna scream actually #DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY YEARS I SUFFERED CRIPPLING PERIOD CRAMPS EVERY GODDAMN MONTH AND NEVER TOLD ANYONE #by the way. nerve plants are fine after you water them. once you fix the problem they perk right back up again #my parents did their best. and frankly i think there's someone to be said that they raised an autistic child without traumatizing me #my depression and shit didn't appear until high school when i had to start interacting with the wider more complex world in earnest #and didn't have the tools for it #but my childhood of being given art supplies and left to my own devices was pretty chill #but i do wish unhappiness and discomfort hadn't been. like. something to be avoided or fixed immediately so no one had to talk about it #anyway. the birdcage is a good movie

[plushiehamuko]

being aroace is crazy bc sometimes it's like. whoo yay i have such a wider perception of relationships that's so cool yay!!! and sometimes it's like. i hate this it sucks

#squishy talks too much #i love my identity as aroace. but like #i am tired of being misunderstood #i wish i didn't have to go on social media and see people saying aroace identities and relationships aren't real #i wish i didn't have to go on aroace posts and see allo people say shit that is just straight up insensitive in the comments lol #i wish i didn't have to simplify my identity when people i don't know well enough ask bc they're not gonna understand if i tell them i'm #aro and a lesbian. sometimes people don't even understand asexual and lesbian #some people don't even know aro and ace are both separate things. some people don't know there is aroace at all #and like i don't mind when they're nice and they're respectful upon me explaining but it's like. can we please acknowledge aroace people #just as a whole. to the point where i don't have to consistently explain even the *very basic basics* to people both queer and not queer #and i wish i never personally had to argue with people about whether my aroaceness is valid or not #like. people have told me my identity and other aroace identities are fake DIRECTLY and DEBATED me on my OWN FEELINGS #like it's fuckin high school english or sum. it's insane #and i wish i could look at the list of Options when it comes to relationships and like #not want to choose 'none of the above but also not nothing in general' #and. i'm just tired #WAIT I FORGOT ONE MORE #i wish people would have aroace hcs for characters that aren't just #The Token Obvious Character To Call Aroace #i wish allo people would see us as more than a few repetitive and tired stereotypes #and i wish close relationships in fiction would be seen in aroace contexts #okay that's seriously it sorry for hater-ing on main

[toastingpencils37]

Bro, the heaters at my school are fucked up.

Yesterday, apparently at the beginning of the day in one of the buildings, the AC on one side was 60 degrees, whereas the other side was at 80 degrees. (I don't have classes in that building during that part of the day)

So they turned off the AC on the hot side. But then around the time 5th period started (my class period in that building), the AC on the other side went up to 80 degrees, so my teacher had to turn it off. And the principle even came to talk to my teacher about it briefly during class.

The AC in that class was apparently still at 80 degrees some point today as well.

And then in my brother's math class yesterday, the AC was really cold. But then today it was really warm.

So yeah. AC's fucked up.

#also on another note the fire alarms were going fucking wild today and yesterday #i mean we all pretty much ignore the fire alarm unless it loops 3 times or someone over the intercom says to evacuate #because especially during my freshman and sophomore year it would keep on going on #it has chilled out a bit at the beginning of this year due to new bathroom policies. but it's starting to get bad again #anyways this was the second MOTHERFUCKING DAY IN A ROW where I'm in the bathroom at break and the fucking alarm goes off #y'know while i'm trying to do my business. so i'm just sitting there hoping it's not actually serious #because in class no one gives a shit. we just ignore it (which isn't great) #but in the bathroom you're kind of secluded. plus i don't even know if there's an intercom in there. #back to the fire alarm going off constantly we luckily don't have the ear splitting shrieking alarms #instead ours just beep three times and then tell use to evacuate the building but not use the elevators and then loop #(even though the only elevators at our school are the locker room ones. and I'm pretty sure those are short elevators) #but if we had the shrieking ones like in elementary school it'd just be constant hell. #i fucking hated those alarms. they were loud as fuck. and even though these ones aren't quiet #they're not an obnoxious loud. so you can just ignore them

[ssaalexblake]

how incompetent as a teacher do you have to be to look at a child who has two limbs cut, scratched and bruised from where another kid deliberately and intentionally attacked them where they said they were hurting, and think the battered kid is the one who should be in trouble? Especially since said little violent child Also spent their day deliberately smearing a different kid with something they knew the other kid is allergic to causing them to swell up and have to have their parents called bc it counted as serious enough to immediately notify them and not just wait to talk to them at pickup time (the kid was fine in the end, but very well could have Not been). 

Anyway it’s been a goddamn afternoon/evening and i only got home recently and i’m still super pissed off at that fucking school. 

#my niece fought her way out of it and that the other kid wasn't flattened was #a sign that she was holding back #bc A) she can hit #and B) she's twice the size of this other child and really Could do serious damage if she wanted to #honestly if you're gonna let the kids in your class constantly come home injured from something #another child did to them #don't get pissed that they start to defend Themselves #none of my family are gonna tell her off for it. #i try to have sympathy for this other kid bc hoo boy i'm not surprised at this behavior #lets put it that way #but when multiple kids in a class go home injured multiple times every week there's a fucking problem #the teachers aren't responding to enough #that school is lucky my sister isn't the one to do most of the school stuff bc she'd have eviscerated them by now #the issue is like. they don't pick her up from school. and i'm not her guardian. so i can't really just Do something at the school #when i'm there #i'm just so angry at this. i don't like picking up the kid #with dings she didn't already have when she went to school #or didn't get from kiddie mucking around playing tag a little too enthusiasically

[medicinemane]

Square footage is one of those things where I just have no idea what any of it means, can't even begin to visualize it

You know how big my house is? I don't

That's not some kind of joke, I literally have no clue. I knew I liked the house and it was the only affordable place in the state, and I know it's big and it's crazy it was cheaper than a lot of the 3 bedroom stuff in town (though this needs more work than those do), but... I literally, and I mean literally can't tell you how big it is

I don't even know what counts as big in square feet. Is 1000 square feet big? Small? No clue

Just literally... zero idea

#also don't know my blood type; no one's ever bothered telling me #but I do generally understand blood types; unlike square feet #...I mean... I guess I technically understand square feet; it's a foot by a foot space; just... #well actually just bad at measuring distance in units; couldn't tell you how long a mile is #can take a guess at sometimes like a foot or a meter; but not a bunch of them #like visually I can tell distance decently well; but like... I couldn't even guess how far from here to the school #I can picture it... it's like 3-4 blocks; but don't know what that is in distance #anyway; back to blood types; aren't there places that treat them kind of like astrology? #would be funny getting asked and genuinely being like #'oh I haven't got the faintest clue' #and it's not like I can take a guess at it; like what am I gonna go off of? #it's not like I know any one else in the family's blood type