#and now she’s stressed the fuck out

[chenfordspiral]

Okay, can Monica PLEASE STOP BEING THE MAIN CHARACTER OF THE SHOW?! Thanks.

#ugh i am so done with this woman #the rookie #the rookie spoilers #also #episodes don’t feel right with only like three tim scenes #and as been pointed out: where did aaron go?! #pauli tries to liveblog #and now she’s stressed the fuck out

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[curioscurio]

the sensory slug is getting a workout today if one more thing happens today is2g

#a medical emergency with my niece and shes fine now but GODDDDDDD leave me ALONEEE #theyre just watching her for a concussion but i need like one of those stress balls that doesnt break because i keep BREAKING THEM #but god my anxiety disorder is out of control and my confidence really has just plummeted #this was supposed to be the year of cass #i mean it still is but fuck if this month hasnt been the fucking rusty nail sticking out of the playground slide

[baby-xemnas]

dead strawhat! booo dead strawhat!! 😂

he is so damn MEAN. she already wasnt hiding that she cares about luffy A LOT you didnt have to test her 😭😭

#video #luhan #went to find it again for personal use cuz hes funny.... #what an asshole...shes a stressed out woman in love #zero sympathy only ego #its a good scene cuz it does answer the question why wouldnt they just be like thanks for first aid now fuck off #idk how people feel about hancock you can stay dumb and be a hater but writing is good actuallyyyyy #better than current even tho thats a low ass bar lol #one piece #i was rereading my fav 👒🐍 doujin and i forgot that law shows up to be like i heard you fucking he is bleeding everywhere right #hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiilaaaariiiioooouuuusss #i love law scoring 2 for one with hancock #yes please i would very much like for another person with huge influence to be indebted to me yoink #good job strawhat you get respect points for fucking the empress of all people #well done gj

[ef-1]

girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year. #when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍 #not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :) #like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢 #and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up- #when people mention it 😍 #last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her) #and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook” #and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?” #im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

[dol-dee]

I WENT THROUGH ALL OF THAT WRAITH BS ONLY TO MISS THIS??? < had to reload

ALSO SYDNEY?? BABY WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU??????? DONT SAY THAT

#SYDNEY THATS HOW YOU END UP IN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIPS SYDNEYYY (Walt Screaming in a Car meme) #hrrgghh I really dont want Dee to hit her but it does feel in character. Their whole relationship began bc she resented sydney after all #I've also tried out the other options and I don't think theyre quite as compelling to me #i reloaded an earlier safe to check this out bc Dees trauma/stress stats are too far down now #I know it perfectly makes sense for the kind of person Sydney is but if someone told me that pseudo religious bs while I was having- #-a breakdown I would be so done (ik she means well) #Dee absolutely flabbergasted by what Sydney said at the end and will spend the next few days incredulous while- #-she slowly descends into a cocktail of self loathing; guilt and shame #NO I CANT MOVE ON FROM THIS SYDNEY DONT OFFER YOURSELF UP AS A PUNCHING BAG!!!!?????? #i knew there was smth wrong with ehr too but holllllyyyyy fuck #dol rambles #sydney the fallen #dee the defiant

[kelin-is-writing]

Everyone, remind me to not trust my dad’s relatives with food and parties because they can’t do even that much the right way. The peoples are so questionable 💀

#— ❥ kelrambles; #.text #also don’t get me started on my jobless cousin telling me she found 5 jobs FOR ME but they all seem just like… scam… #because girl why are you trusting instagram ads now to find yourself a job???? 😭💀 #but her finding five jobs for me while she is jobless and with a kid to raise it’s what actually takes me out #albanian relatives feels WAAAAAAY too entitled to thing they shouldn’t be feeling entitled about #literally mind your fucking business??? #you the same girl who called me immature when i had a breakdown from stress in the hardest moment of my life #and now you come to me acting like you didn’t project your entire being and existence on me???? bitch go away??? #she narcissistic arrogant presumptuous bossy and stuck up as hell because picking only one bad trait felt too insulting to her #literally stop chasing after me and chase after your 4yo son????? 😭 #anyways… some peoples needs a reality check and to be humbled so bad #she the same who tells me that i can’t talk back because i dropped out of school… like i wasn’t forced by our relatives to do that lmfao #she has regarded me with the heinous shits EVER since i was a kid but the bad one is always me when i talk back to her 🫥 #get so much why diego doesn’t pull up to any family gathering and stays away from these peoples 🤭

[runawaymun]

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#sorry let me rant real quick in the tags #cw personal #once again hitting an insurance pothole bc the psych says she accepts my OHP plan HOWEVER the therapy group she is contacted with says #THEY don't #they only accept the insurance if it's through my employer but NOT through the government?????????????? #so there's still some kind of payment??? #anyway I want to scream why is this so complicated #like will she take my insurance or not who's right here #anyway called her back directly and went to voicemail so now I've done all I can for now #why the hell is this so hard man #the person on the phone didn't know really how to explain #once again no one knows what they're talking about #like can y'all not communicate and figure this out? #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i need to get an ADHD eval before my next PCP appointment in june so that they will continue giving me my meds #and the psychiatry through the hospital has a limited number of visits that insurance will cover #*contracted #not retyping all of that #and once again the only reason this is so stressful is because the psychiatry group at the hospital fumbled the communication ball last tim #and the psychiatrist I was with never put the ADHD on the chart #and now somehow it's MY responsibility to fix that> #UGH #like I am grateful to have some kind of coverage but holy shit is the US healthcare system in shambles #the bureaucracy is INSANE #i had to just sit down and put my head in my hands for a second #and then go 'right okay nothing i can do about that rn moving on' #uGH #literally said 'what the FUCK' out loud a couple times #like not on the phone after I hung up obvs

[halogalopaghost]

#IM SO STRESSED IM SO STRESSED #I feel like I'm not handling ANYTHING well rn #so many people have symptoms that are WAAAAAAY fucking worse and they're like. working full time jobs and being a parent and shit and #I'm like waaah oh no I have body aches and chronic fatigue looks like I'll have to be unemployed and never do anything ever 💀 #how am I gonna live?? like. my parents are taking care of me and I'm so fucking glad but #SOMEDAY THEY WONT BE AROUND and that stresses me out so bad #I'm 25 years old and I NEED my mom every day if not physically then emotionally because I'm a little bitch baby that can't do anything for #herself. im having a hard time feeding myself I'm having a hard time keeping my living space clean #I'm not taking care of anything except the dogs sometimes and my lizard and she's not getting as much attention as she used to #I need a job and I need to be able to suck it up and DO THINGS but I feel like I'm not the person u was anymore #I was strong and I could push thru things and make myself do things and now I can't???? I just lay on the fucking couch!! and feel bad abtit #is it the tism. is it the ADHD. what about the chronic depression. how bout the fibromyalgia? #and the thing is that ALL OF THOSE THINGS ARE MILD #I don't have severe pain (yet). #I just can't handle it I don't WANT to handle it #so. shoutout to my mom I guess because if it wasn't for her I simply wouldn't be alive #I feel like I've never been happy!! why can't I just be content and be happy!!!! #I have no fucking reason to be unhappy!!!!!!

[dullahandyke]

the insanity that is gyaxa is really working against me here. aura your stupid workplace is making it hard for me to contrive a way to shove a bitchy woman in the room with you so you can lez out

#'larxy pretends to be an inspector!' you look at that building and tell me yuri cosmos isnt bribing osha to hell and back #is the building in general public access? yes! in an incredibly goofy and un-larxy way! #is auras lab in specific public access? absolutely the fuck not! it's a deeply personal and private space that larxy has no excuse to be in #like i think i probably can just nail down the fight as 'larxy sees a stressed-out mean woman and riles her up until shes hot and bothered' #but now im attached to it happening in her lab. hows she get there. the black leather zipper coat is NOT helping btw #aura Could always bring her there as some 'fuck you for insulting my research' thing #but that introduces a forethought that betrays the essence of hatefucking a woman you don't know #sigh. the life of a fic writer is sooo hard you guys #larxquill

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the desire to do comms vs my inability to remember that i got a message FIGHT-

#its like 'oh a message! i will respond later' #and then later never comes cause i have no damn object permanence Or working memory #then its like... what do i even say #'hi sorry i ghosted your simple question for two days i forgot you messaged me' AGH #or especially lately #i mean to do things and then i get a New piece of distressing information about the way my life is going #which then consumes my thoughts and leaves no room for anything else #ahaha thanks! ill claw my eyes out now!! wow!!! FUCK! #trying to keep up the things i enjoy is. so tough rn #but ill flounder w/o em so! hard work that i am mostly failing at but i Keep Trying #yes i wanna do comms. yes i wanna draw. yes i wanna talk to people. can i? mmmmm...... #can't wait for this chapter in my life to be over. goddamn. #ive been in a perpetual state of intense stress since early childhood #but my fucking duck things lately have been taking the cake #absolutely unprompted #oh no this is turning into a vent post Look Away #well my mother called again last night and was all 'im getting you a car' #and uh. i started physically shaking while profusely thanking her (lying through me teeth) #GIRL!!! I DONT NEED A CAR THATS TOO MUCH RN!!! #she's always mentioning how the collective We are tight on money #and that rn i need to focus on making decisions and getting a job ill hold for like. a month #and then she slams this down outta left field??? thats so much extra stress i dont need right now??? #now i gotta worry about parking and maintaining it and gas money i dont have And And And- #i cant exactly tell her Dont Fucking Do That bc then she'll blow up in my face and call me inconsiderate & ungrateful again #me and my stepdad dont have the fucking TIME to get one! and then she was like 'oh i can always come down to help' #please dont. do not do that. i cant deal with you in person right now that sounds hellish #anyway. case in point #cant even think about messages and stuff i Want to think about bc all this bullshit is taking up my entire mind #metaphorically slamming my face into a brick wall till theres nothing left. aaaghhahsbkjadadj #its too much its Too Much everything is so much and its too much and can i be let be for two fuckin seconds please

[luck-of-the-drawings]

when i was in highschool one o my biggest coping mechanisms was drawing all the kids i hated getting killed and eaten and killed. and well. time is a slowly ascending spiral. you will find patterns.(i work as a blackjack dealer. gamblers are FASCINATING

#cw blood #luckys original content #ITS SMALL BUT ITS ART SO IT GOES ON THE ART BLOG #also wwaooooww its meee its my lil persona!!! i dont draw myself enough.... #anyway i have bigger things in the works. im slowly but surely chipping away at a pd thumbnail for that pd thumbnail project #FINALLY COLORING. BUT COLORING IS SO HARD AND I HAVNT BEEN IN THE COLORING MOOD #SO IVE JUST BEEN MAKING RLY DUMB COMICS INSTEAD... OOPS.. #idk if anything finished n polished will be posted here anytime soon. BUT i post wips of everything on my twitter #and i post jrwi exclusive wips on my slucky blog. you may look at those if u have Truck Art Wishdrawls. as many do. as many do #THIS BLACKJACK JOB IS RLY AWESOME BTW DONT GET ME WRONG #i work three 12-hour days ina row. i gotta take an hourlong bus up to the depths o the mountains and then #i get to stay in this delightful lil hotel that was built in an ooold hospital. its a whole casino town. and an OLD one at that #ITS GORGEOUS HERE. last week my bus home was delayed for 2 hours #so i finally got the chance to head to other casinos and try drinkin n gambling. lost ten bucks to a pretty girl. NOT the first time #i rlly wanna try it again!!! i love interracting w ppl and i love being inebriated in public bc im just so sweet and pleasant and friendly #and pretty girls LLOOOOVEE MEEEEE i think i just need to go to gay bars more #but theres fucking NONE HERE. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im collectin comrade queers up here tho #we wanna make a Group but we just gotta come up witha name first. i need something weird and strange #yknow i remember being in highschool. and being miserable n unmedicated. my mommas ultimatum was that; #if i dont drop out of highschool; i dont need to move out. she probably wouldntve kicked me out anyway bc my mommas sweet like that but #she REALLY wanted me to graduate. and i remember dreading that i might never do that #i remember feeling like the Resident Idiot. sweet but so so fucking dumb. it took me 7 years of strife n stress before i finally graduated #i remember worrying back then that i might not ever be able to handle myself out there. that i'd be too dependant on others #AND HERE I AM. DID U KNOW I WAS LOOKIN AT HOUSES A WHILE AGO? IM AN ADULT AND IM WWINNINNNGGGGGGG #IM RUNNING OUTA ROOM BUT HERES MY ADVICE TO YOU. BC I KNOW UR FUCKING SCARED TOO. THE ONE THING THAT SAVED ME. #THAT KEPT ME FROM SINKING INTO DESPAIR IS REMEMBERING ONE THING: ITS LITERALLY JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES #MOST PPL YOU CAN JUST WALK UP TO N ASK A QUESTION N THEYLL ANSWER. THEYRE ALL NPCS THEYRE NOT REAL #LIKE IF U WALK INTO A BANK AND ASK HOW A DEBIT CARD WORKS THEY WILL HELP YOU #AND IF YOU THINK THEY HAVE ULTERIOR MOTIVES RELATING TO MONEY. YOU CAN ASK THE CUSTOMERS TOO. ITS JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES #ANYWAY STAY SAFE KIDS HAVE FUNNNNN. IM GOING TO GO DO DRUGS NOW. HOPE U CAN DO DRUGS SOON TOO. I LOVE YOU

[bunnihearted]

🦭

#ok lol my social worker called me nd talked a little but so now i know they've approved it lmao. #ok i can relax abt that for now.. i still need a job tho 🥶 #im not even against having a job like PLEASE i want one #i want to be financially independent #im good at saving nd stuff like plz plz #but yeah im 25 w no experience plus i have avpd so idek how to practically find a job #i just dont know. i realize that sounds stupid but my disorder is ssly limiting me 😭 #fuck. still dont know if i can sleep bc im so stressed abt everything #also got me thinking abt how i dont wanna get old. like genuinely i dont want it #i want to be 50 max nd thrn im done. wnna blow my brains out lol #after my mom passes away (when shes old it's gonna be at least 40 more years!!!!!) im finished #so i want to live for the moment i rlly do. i want to fit as much good as i can now #plus global warming.. i rlly dont think life as we know it now will last that long #so anyway.. too much anxiety wtfffff idk what to do lol

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

crippling anxiety hours let's go

#a biscuit's rambles #theres a presentation due tomorrow we did Not prepare #and my partner is super anxious and the type to Need Perfect Grades #and she had a question and tried to call me several times and i saw too late and texted i was here now but then stupid whatsapp didnt tell #me when she called again so now i feel horrible #and honestly this presentation can go fuck itself i literally could not care less #im trying to do at least the tiniest minimum of Something for my friend but gosh. i do Not want to #just can't bloody get myself to do anything #doesn't help that i Know shell handle it because. she cant not without getting Way Too Stressed Out #i dont wanna leave her hanging with all the work like that but gosh im so tired #i just. cant. idk #on the bright side i did listen to a couple more tma episodes so thats something i suppose that was fun #........... i really need to do less stuff #i dont have a single free weekend for all of april and the beginning of may #goodbye emotional stability it was so nice to have known you even if for just a short while

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

went to go clothes shopping today and i got the cuntiest misa-esque dress for like $8 at the thrift store <3

#it’s covered in hearts and it’s strapless w a low lace-up back and the skirt is short and poofy but it’s sewn at the edges so that the #skirt is like a sphere-ish shape that holds fairly well and i should prob just draw it so what i’m saying makes sense but it is super cute #and i also got some jeans which is new for me i’ve not worn jeans since. um. i think the last time i wore jeans i was. idk. before #i started dressing myself? so under 5 maybe? idk pants feel really restricting to me and jeans esp that’s why i’m always wearing skirts #but i feel up to it rn bc i’ve always thought they were cute and also i think i’m comfortable enough in my skin to do so which i think it’s #usually the opposite for ppl they like pants and are afraid of dresses bc they’re uncomfortable/self conscious/whatever but for me #skirts have always been a safety blanket and they are so comfortable but sometimes skirts are just not practical so i need to like #get comfortable wearing pants and i tried doing it a couple years back but i was like in the midst of an eating disorder so that didn’t go #down well but i’m cool now i’m chill abt things and wearing skirts all the time makes ppl peg me as fem and i’m like ahhhhh stop she/her-in #me when i’m obvi in femboy mode or like when i’m being androgynous but i happen to be wearing a skirt w my outfit it’s annoying #anyway it took me two fucking hours to figure out what size i was bc skirts u don’t really have a size bc u just need it to fit ur waist #and ur golden but pants are so complicated and i have wide hips and thick thighs and it took me foreverrrr to find the right size #but i did and now i will never have to do all of that ever again <3 bc it was stressful every second that i wasn’t looking in the mirror #and making bedroom eyes at myself <3

[miabrown007]

girl who sucks at making OCs needs to make a DnD character send help

#I did make one who was rad but then got vetod by the DM and now I handed in a half-elf wizard but she's just so basic #she literally has no personality send help #and also idk what direction should we take because I have no idea what the other people will be like in the party #and I'm the only girl player there so I don't want for that to be like be a thing and bring a stereotipically girly character #and I could make her like a standard bookish wizard which obviously stands very close to me and would be super easy to play #but that's so cliche and I don't want to be like everyone's mom in game if everyone else is just running around and fucking shit up #but I know that I'll have a harder time playing a more reckless and careless character and if there isn't going to be someone #thinking for the team and we just go headfirst into stuff that also sucks. #and like I like to be someone who thinks about the solutions it just can't just be me being the party pooper if you get me #but poor wizard girl is just so mid with her 'my parents wanted me to be an X wizard but I'm gonna be an Y wizard instead' backstory #like wow such rebellion you're gonna show them girl #but at this point I'm a week behind schedule so I need to have a character like for yesterday #and I don't want to just copy others' dnd characters from D20 but they have like a group cohesion and individual arcs and that's so cool #and I suck at making up little men #miaing #mia's dnd adventures #I'm stressing so much over just making a character and meeting strangers bringing a character with anxiety disorder wouldn't even be rp #I guess great that my sorcerer got vetoed how would I play out being the face of the party