#and it probs will continue to do things to me

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

i said it before and i'll say it again chanting "alerta alerta antifascista" with a bunch of antifascists of every age and various cities is an experience that Does Things to a queer teen punk

#like no we dont agree on everything exactly but what we do agree on is that these right-wing assholes gotta get the fuck out #like some are more radical than id go with #but were all antifascist were all marching together were all fighting together so what does it matter? #ik my first and so far only antifa protest was like a month ago but STILL #I HAVE NEVER FELT A BELONGING LIKE THAT #it was not a good occasion! the tension was thick enough to cut it with a knife! seeing those right-wing assholes was kinda disgusting #and YET that night has only left positive impressions on me #goddamn i still. yeah #yknow halfway through someone randomly handed me a (kinda really bad) sign and i have it propped up in my room now #i just. yeah. this is still doing things to me #and it probs will continue to do things to me #a biscuit's rambles

[swordmaid]

why is this dialogue in astarion’s sex scene im crying

#she really said don’t fuck with me I have the power of god and anime by my side 😭 #she had like three options to sleep with one was gale but I’m not rlly feeling him for shri’iia so I did not #second was lae’zal BUT I want her to romance shadowheart not SHRI’IIA 😭 like pleek go to her j want y’all to continue #ur enemies to lovers arc (delusion) #so I went with astarion but that dialogue made me howl like relax??????? omg unclench a little 😭😭😭 #but now idk if I want continue his romance good thing I’m not locked ..!!! #but tbh I don’t interact w the companions unless there’s like an exclamation point lol I should prob do …. #shut up about bg3.

[yeonban]

*Permanent interactions call.

I've been thinking about it for a while now, but like or comment on this post if you're alright with me sending you asks either unprompted or from prompts you've reblogged ages ago whenever I feel like it & if you're alright with receiving random starters if I ever have the ideas for them! You're never going to be obligated to reply to them though, so they'll just be possibilities for interactions in case you ever have the inspo for them!

#* ooc. / psa. #I'm still going to send the things from my current sc & inbox calls but I might not do inbox calls anymore after this interactions call! #And scs will probs only be once every 10 full moons if I happen to have the muse for a certain chara & in that way it'd be chara specific #I know some of you guys' preferences bc I've bombarded you with asks from a million years ago before <3 but I don't know Everyone's #so if you're alright w me sending u asks & possibly starters out of nowhere lmk through this post! #No need to specify muses for this post but if you want to/have a preference for certain muses then feel free to tell me! #I'll rb this through the week... and continue working on new tags... and on the 10 drafts I've started replying to... #ALSO if you'd rather only get asks but not starters (or vice versa) you can comment that!

[loverboybreakdowns]

& now im crying. great.

#came home she got out pork chops says i have to cook & eat them bc i need protein #dont want hot food rn & even if i did i dont have the energy to cook dont even have the energy to get a glass of water #but like i was handling it was gonna lay down a while then make pork chops feed them to the cat if i couldnt make myself eat & thats fine. #but then she said i was being a little shit bc of like i guess my tone of voice ir something? #idk man im tired & im frustrated & im in pain & im trying so hard to be polite & say the right things #but like. no matter how hard i try i cant get it right my voice always comes off wrong #& it always has & it will continue to the rest of my life #i try SO HARD she knows i struggle with tone & i still cant get it right & shes mad at me for it #i cant fucking do this i cant be a person im not GOOD AT IT. #im like failing at humanness and i always have been #& idk its a stupid thing to get so upset over & i know logically im being dramatic #but im just so tired #& i havent eaten since 7 so i probs have low blood sugar or something idk #and i’ve had a headache for 3 days that wont fucking go away #& i just cant make myself be rational rn #rambling

[theautistichalflinghole]

Listen, am I happy that you now get to rule the world with your SO and be evil together? Of course, evil couple takeover for astarion and minthy romancers, especially when they egged you on to do so, makes much more sense. However do I miss the tragedy of a characters who thought they were finally free and powerful being ultimately betrayed by the one they loved? Having thier love become corrupted and warped into something cruel as thier lover perpetuates thier own cycle of violence and abuse? Yes absolutely

Also yes I know this change is old but I've been busy ok

#i had a whole storyline man 😔 #with an animatic song and everything 😔 #i mean ill still probably make the thing but I have to adjust the in game storyline for that character #idk i wish it was a choice to enthrall your partner or not but also i genuinely do think this is a better option #makes more sense and doesnt break up the cutscene #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #it was gonna be an evil dark urge who romanced ascended astarion and they both loved each other once but its become so corrupted #astarion after ascension and durge after siding with thier father in the temple #also they both had trust issues and were victims that continued the cycle <3<3<3<3<3<3<3 #but yeah now im rewriting her to still be evil but prob minthy mancer? #i could stay with ascended but he doesnt see his love interest as an equal #and thats not as fun when i get to do it the other way and betray him right back #also the song is kiss me son of god and i am obsessed with it so i still will most definitely be making the animatic with the enthralling

[dykeandballs]

gm chat

#im finishing up my tlt reread with unwanted guest tonight and im almost done call of the wild as well #i read the metamorphosis yesterday for the first time that was fun and interesting #id been meaning to get around to that for years #im back in my reading era i think? #im probably going to pick up lolita next but also continue monster baru... #i think me struggling to keep all the names and locations straight is the biggest obstacle tbh #like where is my dramatis personae...my warrior cats clan list.... #i dont even remember names of most characters from the first book #im probs gonna do this new thing where i read Highly Discussed Works alongside whatever else i personally want #but i Do need to force myself to read anything outside of scififantasy #But I Dont Want To.

[erythristicbones]

that post about about being extra and self-indulgent w/ your OCs and specifically talking about/posting about them really has stuck in my brain all day bc like. i really am so fucking tempted to make a discord server where like there's a channel for each of my stories, so i can just ramble about every tiny idea or essay that comes to mind for an audience of like 6 ppl at most probably

#it would probs just be for friends/mutuals/long time followers that i know wont cause drama #bc i have a severe anxiety disorder and i do not think running a completely open server would be good for my mental health #also if im talking about my stories i probs dont want to make major spoilers available for EVERYBODY to find #but anyways yeah #idk if I'll ever actually do that #but i like being able to ramble to my hearts content in the boomer club server #and i like the idea of having ppl that are invested in my stories get to see my thought process #i wouldnt even care if they literally just lurked silently or reacted with emotes to everything i post #the idea of getting to go crazy stupid over my children with an audience that i trust just makes me v happy #things to ponder if im in the right headspace for ig #if not then i will continue to happily do that w my boomer club friends <3 #this is me specifically shouting out kui and birdy and faerai #yall three always being there to listen to me lose my mind means the world to me <3

[laulo821]

what if ...

Clam Chowder & Baxter Bautista belong to @zapsoda

klaus got on board inadvertadely ....

anyways i know i asked you about that what if but the ask disappeared. lmao. so i did my own take ... i have thought of some more panels but blegh

part two ->

#art #if i don't do crossovers i explode #if you're not able to read tell me and i'll transcribe no probs #please feel free to add things. if you want. or to continue the story! idk whatever you like #not sure if ill add more right now (or at all) but we'll see #itll live rent free in my head tho #klaus nava #zapsoda #in love w clam btw hes my pookie <3

[bravewolfvesperia]

/ so I've been thinking about how to handle Transgressor Yuri in terms of his canon, and like... I really can't do much with it. I'm probably just going to toss what existed as far as my muse goes because like... after the tree was destroyed we:

A: had no confirmation it was Yuri who did it or if he was just there at the time (i.e. could have been trying to stop someone from doing it)

B: had no confirmation on why he did it if he did (and how long it'd be before we even saw him again or if he or Lloyd's group would have run into Kanata's group) and why he would be working with Kasque unless he knew something Milla somehow didn't in this context (i.e. Milla having the wrong idea about the trees and what they're there for/what they do). that or he was doing it because he was in a situation of being forced to do it for some reason (bc basically I can't see him just being on Kasque's side because he agrees with her, and without further context I'm stuck)

I guess it really depends what the manga does as far as the trees go at this point, because the manga has skipped so much content and is literally making chapters 5-7+9 happen simultaneously and it's honestly a mess. they've skipped crossover related stuff too (without putting in replacements), which the trees were relative both to Kasque and crossover content, hence why I don't know what they'll end up doing with them and if I should wait for them to get there and cover that stuff.

they've already added in the whole "explosion we're gonna blame on you guys" thing despite Sonia not even existing in the manga as of yet if she will be, so I really have no idea what's being kept and what's not (because at this point they've already tossed a slew of non crossover content out the window - if I sound bitter it's because I am LOL).

that said if they do get to the trees and keep them and have a replacement for Yuri (which I'm doubting they will at this point), I'll probably be able to figure out what to do with him better. if they ignore that aspect since it's partially tied to Milla (and Lloyd's side story and evidently Lloyd's group's main story), I'm probably just gonna yeet it for my muse because there's literally nothing I can do with the information we had before the game shut down. most unfortunately too, that was the legit last fucking thing that happened before the story was canceled.

#{ bravewolf mun } #/ like seriously is it too much to ask of them to actually give a shit abt this cast and story #the manga is a shell of what the game was and that's not even including the legacy chars #the manga is like... okay on its own but when compared to the game it's just #kinda a disappointment to me. I know they wanted to go the cheapest possible route #to continue the story but... if they'd made it an anime ppl would've bought it #if they made it a crossover too ppl would've LOVED it. I just wish they didn't half ass #this manga so badly bc I keep seeing ppl say it's doing poorly #and like yeah no fucking wonder. it's hardly what the game was and what people loved it for #but ofc if this manga also fails and gets canceled they prob won't pick the title back up #deeming it two failures when rly it wasn't a failure in the game bc that was... a WHOLE other issue for why it ''failed'' #anyway yeah I'm salty and I want the game back that had such a deep rich story #with loads of lore and things HAPPENING around the WORLD #not just with our main cast. so many Talesy things and they were like little secluded versions #all happening around the world while Kanata is having his journey #Yuri probably would've been a semi big part based on how they introduced him #unless they wanted to go the ''it's not actually Yuri'' route bc normal Yuri appeared in a single event lol #but him and Milla seemed like they'd be influential in the story and I'm really bummed they both got tossed like that /

[girlwithfish]

every time u bring up how u feel to some bum guy ur seeing and he isnt receptive and invalidates you or blames you an angel dies

#good thing i broke up w him after that but like part of me wishes i had time to air out all my grievances w him cuz he prob doesnt even #think he did anything wrong lolol but #its not my job to teach a man how to be understanding or a receptive partner or emotionally mature 👍 #if they cant do that for u in the garbage they go they can figure it out eventually or not and just continue to be #annoying and immature whatever 🙄 #Just like my ex fr lmfaoo

[maudlin-scribbler]

communicating with someone through messages only can be so hard. Though phonecalls are even worse. Honestly talking irl is actually so much easier than on the ohone and at times easier than in messages.

There are things i just cant talk about in messages which is difficult bcs its not like i cant meet up with some people to talk about those stuff.

#Corin's lore #I sent a friend of mine a message and asked them how they are doing (we hadnt talked in a week) #They replied that they are doing well #I saw the message but wasnt in the mood to continue the convo at that time #They probs checked the message; saw i didnt reply as fast as i usually do and deleted their message + #+ Probably thinking i hated them or whatever idk. And its like things are ackward between us already #And its kind of my fault because I used to be a shitty friend. #Now im trying to do better by ppl by not isolating myself from the ones who love me when they reach out #And actively talking to ppl i care about about. Its hard bcs im almsot always exhausted but i do it. Kinda. #And now idk what to say bcs i dont wanna make things ackward. Like should i ignore the deleted message and start later a new convo? #Or apologise and ask her gently why she deleted the message?? #I dont want to make things more ackward between us than they already are!!! #And i know she didnt do this to hurt me but i genuinly do not know what to do

[yeonban]

If I was the police or some other organ of justice and this was the guy I kept failing to catch even after he willingly walked into the highest security prison on Earth to talk to his bestie I would simply hand in my resignation and join him

#muse: nikolai gogol. #Kolya is continuously alternating between giving me depression the likes of which no one has ever experienced before #and making me wonder if depression is even real bc looking at him puts me in such a good mood that sadness might as well be a myth #That said there IS one thing that was put on Earth just to cause me misery and it's my exam paper due in 2 days that I need to write Today #I'll probs be reaaally scarce the next um. 2? 3? days or so. BUT AFTER THAT. /AFTER THAT/. say goodbye to your peace #Btw feel free to send me more stuff for Kolya (prompted or not) bc my bday gift is every single book from irl Gogol's works #so you can imagine how much muse I'll have for him bc reading those will be the first thing I'll do w my free time!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#srry for the continued pause in scribbles ive been feeling not very good at all #idk something just broke in my brain after our last sampling trip idk y bc it wasnt that bad but when i got back #it was just a couple days of my brain being real crazy in terms of thought patterns. it still kinda continues to b like that #but idk i haven't had a session of hysterical crying today so maybe im on the mend. its weird i haven't felt this bad in a really long time #i dont even have the energy to complain about it its just no joy. burned streight thru that. bruned streight thru my desire to draw #i mean i still draw every day but its like shitty i dont have time scribbes bc idk it all feels so fucking pointless. and im terrible at #hiding how i feel abt things so my boss is like: maybe u should take a break this weekend i dont want u to burnout. like. lady we crossed #that bridge way back in March. u r speaking to a ghost. i just. i dont kno if i can stay here until like next july at least if not longer #and it sucks bc i kno someday ill look back and this time in my life will make me real sad bc im laying here choosing to make myself #miserable and i somwhere halfway across the country my mum has tumors growing in her abdomen. and i cant go home for Thanksgiving and idk #how long ill get at Christmas. not bc anyone is telling me i have to stay. my brain just wont let me do things. i just lay here in my #increasingly chaotic apartment not taking the steps to get refunded for travel expenses worrying over deadlines and agonizing over social #interactions. worrying about all the things my brain wont let me do that need to be done and not taking the steps to get better #its stupid and annoying and i know its only going to get worse when i have to start taking measurements in the lab #ive at least been practicing a lot of german tho lmao. someday ill look back like: lol remember when u got super depressed and filled the #void with learning german? literally today my dyslexic read the word albeit as aber and it was v disorienting #idk its just fun and i feel like im at least being productive. so yea idk when ill b able to post scribbles again #but i thought id at least post something while i had the energy i accumulated by taking with a happy Canadian lab group #maybe ill join them in a year idk idk decisions decisions and so many applications the cost of which is trying to dissuade me from #getting a tatt0o :-P ay ay ay live a little! pls i beg u. but no prob not. against the rules #unrelated

[spring-lxcked]

back on my william brainrot but one day i've gotta write a headcanon about him leaving a message for michael regarding elizabeth. like. there's so much to be said

#—— ✧ ooc » #immediately fighting myself tooth and nail from dumping it all in the tags (still gonna do it) #regarding my portrayal at least lmao #which is to say i disagree with the (common? maybe) fandom sentiment that william intended it to be a trap #(not because he's not capable he's obviously evil etc etc etc) #but because it makes v little sense to me. i don't even think he'd be particularly thrilled abt enn.ard's existence tbh #ANYWAY big big fan of fuh.naff's implication that the message on the wall in the recreation of mike's room #/is/ the message #because it implies that william had like. A Goal outside of the interpretation where he's trying to get michael scooped or whatever #because the message seems to be /warning/ abt the funti.me animatronics #anyway my specific portrayal's interpretation is that he wrote the message after elizabeth's death but significantly before actually dying #like. as a precaution. #honestly i like to say that that's what is in /my/ william's box (along with prob a couple other things) #a kinda safeguard for 'if i get myself killed or arrested michael can continue part of what i was doing' #regarding 'putting elizabeth back together' #i personally don't take it being on the wall as a literal 'he wrote it in code on the wall' although it being in code wouldn't be shocking #anyway you know i had to have a 'what's in the box' headcanon on this blog #canon interpretation be damned lmao #spr.ingtrap vc: what HAPPENED what do you mean an amalgamation of my animatronics scooped you. i thought at worst they'd kill you (normally #˖ ✧ headcanon » ( the demon to his demons ) #<- sighs loudly

[evansbby]

continuing from my prev post bc I reached tag limit which I didn’t even know was a thing

#continuing my venting #anyways I can see my family being like at a loss with me #like they don’t know what to do or how to act with me #and I don’t want to be that person #but emotionally I haven’t felt this all over the place that even the smallest thing sets me off #also no I’m not pregnant #idk I feel like maybe it’s bc I feel like such a failure rn #and I think everyone hates me way more than usual #and I’m trying to compensate that by doing so much stuff trying to help #but it’s never enough and then I lash out #and scream and accuse people #and then I sit in my room and wonder why I said sll those things #and I know I should’ve left this sort of behaviour in secondary school #and I swear I’m not normally this bad #but March 2023 has been so…. weird #like I feel like a stranger to myself #and idk what to do about it #i don’t know how to make myself snap out of it #i don’t want to get worse #idek if this makes sense I’ll prob delete it but I had to write it down I just feel so emotional

[itsahotminuteinbetween]

it'd be nice if I could draw a straight line for once-

#sorry to bother #don't mind me #random #personal #working on one of 6 planned animatics that i probably will never post #guess what i've learned #background SUCK #also frame by frame hurts my soul but better than cutting things #anyhow #truman show au #this is gonna be a very VERY slow process #literally spent a whole hour working on just the background lineart #luckily the one I'm working on is prob one of the simplest of the ideas I have in mind #*stares at 'shadow moon' before continuing* #but still a nightmare #props to animators cuz yall work HARD TO DO THIS STUFF