#and im excited for my own future

[june-again]

crying sobbing orwell i love you

#elk's trash #if nothing else i want to read orwell's poetry and essays in my lifetime #please #i want to break down into tears on my floor #i love books #and im excited for my own future #i haven't felt this way since before i got my job at walmart lmao #walmart <<<< #never goin back if i can help it #working there gave me motivation to GET A GOOD EDUCATION AND WORK SOMEWHERE I LIKE #aND READ BOOKS #LOTS OF BOOKS #im gonna read books #that will be my may resolution #a book a week can i do it #also finish my english course #IM FINALLY WRITING THIS STUPID PODCAST SCRIPT I'VE PUT OFF FOR FOUR MONTHS LMAO #THIS IS SO MUCH FUN #I WANT TO DO NOTHING IN LIFE BUT LISTEN TO MUSIC AND DRINK COFFEE AND WRITE CORRELATIVE PODCAST SCRIPTS #ALL THE UNDERDOGS OF THE WORLD A DAY MAY COME WHERE WE LOSE BUT IT IS NOT TODAYYYY #NO NO NO NOT TODAYYYY #elek vs homework

[colorful-horses]

spring mint and pennyroyal!

#thinking about my pony ocs again #spring mint #pennyroyal #mlp #ocs #my art #my little pony #original characters #spring mint and pennyroyal have gotten huge character design overhauls since the last time i posted them #im not in love with these drawings but they work as good quick references for them #dont think ive forgotten about iris sparkler. shes next #pennyroyal is spring mints older sister. theyre candy makers and work in a luxury gourmet candy store #which is owned by their parents. who are very wealthy professional candy makers/business ponies #theyre the most well-renowned candymakers in their city and theyre soon planning on passing the shop down to pennyroyal #where she'll take the reigns of the future of the family. and shes very excited about it #unfortunately‚ because shes the youngest child‚ spring mint has essentially been playing 2nd player her whole life #her sister is obviously the favored child‚which leaves spring mint subconciously trying to copy her sister #in an attempt to earn her parents attention. shes kinda been trying to be someone else her whole life lol #until she meets ~iris sparkler~‚ a traveling unicorn florist and Total Fucking Weirdo and commoner #and thats all ill say about that. thanks for reading lol #im blazed #q

[ra-vio]

poke

#loz #legend of zelda #a link between worlds #albw #ravio #link #i dunno a couple of days ago i miraculously found the energy to sketch. so i drew my clown. and then i drew these clowns #because i got a fb notification about it #i am still playing video games and i never draw what i've played unfortunately #not enough space in my brain to manage drawing hw and gaming #also the game i played has beautiful women and i cant draw that cause it stresses me out #i really wanna play a zelda again but the brain says no even though i own it on every system #im always praying we get an oracles remake but its botw2 season so thats not in the near future #ALSO IM SO EXCITED FOR RE VILLAGE

[puppyeared]

if you're walking at 5mph, but your feet are on sideways, and the sky turns green at 2:53, and Keanu Reeves has been sent to Neptune, what's your favorite video game

i cant walk 5mph in the first place, im only 5'4 and i have to walk like marvin the fucking martian everywhere i go

if my feet were on sideways i would still manage to get my shoes on wrong because i cant tell my left from my right

if the sky turns green that means every single car on the road is allowed to go at the same time

keanu reeves cant be sent to neptune with an expired passport

my favorite videogame MIGHT be professor layton and the diabolical box just because ive never been able to get over the ending, but mario galaxy and deltarune also come to mind

#this was very fun to answer thank u :o) ive always loved multiple choice questions #maybe if i had more multiple choice in my life id be able to get things done faster just closing my eyes and hoping for the best #its amazing that i dont own a magic eight ball. it would do wonders for my natural indecision and superstition #also to be fair ive only played the first two layton games even though i have the 3rd and 4th games on my cracked cartridge #BUT thats because my copy of unwound future is ass and it freezes on the opening cutscene so i cant even play it. sigh #maybe i should consider getting the mobile remastered versions but im lazy and i dont even know if i have enough storage space #there should be enough space on my ipad though so maybe. or ill back up some files to make room idk #i would have also answered undertale bc i had a huge undertale phase when it came out but im gonna be honest. ive never actually played it #im actually wondering if i should buy a copy for myself for xmas using grays steam account #the only thing im worried about is my motor skills are bad with keyboard and im dreading the asgore fight bc i heard its hard #but ive also never watched a full playthru so i feel like id be going into the game blind which sounds exciting. and ill prbably cry a lot #besides that ive been replaying mario galaxy with gray and i forgot how good the game is.. i love the ambience and game mechanics #although the races are so nerve wracking and i hate the controls sometimes. did u know i died on loopdeloop galaxy TWELVE FUCKING TIMES #also deltarune because i love EVERYTHING abt it i love the lore i love SUSIE i love the whole thing kris has going on #yapping #ask

[nicky-jr]

shoutout gothcleats shippers o7

#rambling #idk i feel like as a dndads blog im legally obligated to make A post abt it #but idk! it was fun #sad about normal but glad everyone else got a happy ending #(warning i get like. pointlessly negative/personal beyond this point) #but idk. ive been so checked out of s2 that i feel like. detached? #like makes me feel shitty to admit this but i just dont really care #idk if that has to do with my disinterest with the season. or just not being fixated anymore #or just my own mental state as of recent #it just makes me really sad that i feel this way about a series i adore #i dunno. i'd like to do a relisten of s2 so i can really pinpoint what about it frustrates/bores me #but rn i just cant be bothered #dont get me wrong i love this season!!! i feel the need to clarify any time i get negative about it #i love the characters and most of the plot and there were things i found really really compelling #and god its SOOO FUCKING FUNNY #my venting comes from a place of love yknow #but yeah tldr i have like literally no strong thoughts on the finale atm. it was fine #but im excited for the future #dndads s2 spoilers

[burgeaux]

ok now that I'm in elpis I'll probably just post/react and shut off my phone immediately after more than ever to avoid spoilers and allusions and such

#i hope people dont see it as rude but #is this a safe space #maybe its just me not handling sttention well but people's obsession with sprouts livetweeting is a bit weird sometimes ngl #either people not letting sprouts actually go in without any allusion whatsoever #or talking about future events IN MY OWN REPLIES LIKE YALL STOP TALLING ABOUT VENAT IN A TWEET THATS OBVIOUSLY COMING FROM SPROUT IGNORANCE #i mute any tweet that gets traction and isnt my own art anymore just b #people cant help themselves and i see it in other sprout's replies #and dont get me wrong i love people being excited to watch me go through it its very fun but damn some randos are weird #it just feels bad when i can tell people follow for that and not burgeaux/my art #and i know the solution is to stop livetweeting but why should i sacrifice the way i talk/post on my side account of all things #i hope this doesnt make me sound awful i really am appreciative and love talking with people about the story #it just puts a bad taste in my mouth sometimes and im not used to attention like this i guess

[dykedragons]

all i want is to have a bed in a nook. like 3 sides around the bed are all walls except for the foot of the bed. put a curtain by the foot of the bed. nook. a cave, even. with fairy lights and posters. a little shelf. wistful sigh

#ramblies #in my future house wishlist… #in addition to the gamer/dnd dungeon (optional) #slanted roofs… cute decorative tiles in the kitchen/bathroom #aaand a garden and perhaps a hot tub #ill probably not be able to afford the hot tub but like whatever all im saying is it would be cool #man… one day…! very excited to have my own little place and partake in various DIY projects #i rlly wanna get into diy furniture restoration one day #and gardening. and expanding my baking recipes #get really good at making pies and jams… #giggling kicking my feet at the thought of the Projects ill get up to one day #stressed abt having money and time but life is long and i wont have to worry about any damn kids <3 so ill be alright #and if anyone is insane enough to marry my ass then hooo we are in business dual income babeeyy hot tub here i come #on a tangentially related note if any cute furry girls r interested hmu /hj

[strangerhands]

ohmygodddddd i am a fucking genius...👁️ the fic idea i just came up with. the Specific Line i thought up. its such a random idea but its so so cute and sweet and ugh its gonna plague me forever. kinda proud of myself to be honest so lets just hope i can Actually write it soon🧎

#mmm brain isnt always bad sometimes i guess. #its some unapologetic jake fluff btw #bc he deserves it #also i forgot i cant really spend time on tumblr today bc ill be busy again lol so tomorrow it is (hopefully) #but its gonna be a good day bc me and my bestie are going to see love lies bleeding And immaculate together😋😋 #and probably get some lunch and maybe ice cream too #excited #have been looking forward to today #and then after today im looking forward to finally crawling back into my little tumblr cave #hopefully i can Actually Read. #and yk. writing would be nice too. #also im goin back on sertraline today and apparently it can be used for ocd too so i will try to see if any of That feels different as well #raaaaaa #still havent fully researched ocd tho🧎ive been procrastinating🧎as i do🧎 #anyways goodnight its 5am. #shouldnt have had that 8pm iced capp #i downed that shit fr #ok bye bye love yall #talkin shit #FUCK YES THIS POSTED LIKE ON THE VERY SECOND 5:15 WAS ENDING YESSS #sorry i actually like am distressed when the minute(s) of my posts arent posted on a 0 or 5 or like the same as the previous number #and when it is i feel like actual relief and joy #and when it isnt i contemplate deleting and waiting until the desired minute to post again. #anddd sometimes i actually do. #i also will just wait several minutes to post something when its not the exact minute i want yet #or ill queue it for like. literally a couple minutes in the future. #yeah i have many issues #okay gn thank you for reading if you read🧍🫶 #i always either suck my own dick or beat my own ass. #rarely ever is there an in between

[oars]

its all okay though because the past month is the happiest i've ever been im close to completely forgetting what it all feels like and im just full of the desire to just live. im so unsure of what i want to do in the future and i've been putting off a lot of things i should be doing but ive been so happy and at peace all of january i can't even be bothered to worry about anything.

#im so happy! ^_^ #its so strange and scary bc i feel like it'll just be struck out of me with bricks when im not looking but i'll enjoy it! #im not even sure if i'll be getting my coe to move overseas and finally have my own place but im excited bc i'll still have plans. #i'll still have a life ahead with things to look forward to even if it doesnt happen! #i am lonely but i dont feel lonely. i yearn a little bit but its more excitement for the future instead of ''i may never have this'' #thats okay too though. im crafting my own life for myself. i always want something to look forward to and i'll make shit up for myself

[donghuamuqing]

“Control yourself

Take only what you need from it”

#stranger things #byler #will byers #mike wheeler #stranger things season 4 #st season 4 #kids my mgmt really gets me ok especially this part #by** #i was so excited for that website full of stranger things screenshots #but i ended up using my own anyway #these are kind of grossly saturated sorry #ive spent an hour on this though going through different settings and filters so this is what we get #click for good quality im begging #that post that said will thought mike returned his feelings in s2 because of how attentive he was #and was extra hurt in s3 when mike basically ignored him #so this is kind of based off that #and also how you realize love does hurt even when you make each other feel invincible as kids #mike says crazy together and will says yes of course #then will tries to give mike away to a future without him because he thinks itll make mike happy #these are two different colors i couldnt make them even remotely the same when i tried #so you get one yellow green and one orange red #also will facing the same way in wildly different contexts #with mike first before him and then mike behind him #opening up versus shutting down

[aemiron-main]

going insane because the s5 mike death flags are aligning exactly with my gay mike analysis + his narrative as a character and what he represents and how we can use that to demonstrate whats going to happen to him in s5 and why gay mike is a core part of mike’s arc as a character and resolution of the narrative and metaphors of st +  then that’s also tying into my music analysis and oh my god i just need to finish this analysis but there’s So Much to say  its all coming together. though. the math is mathing. 

#stranger things #gay mike wheeler #i know i keep talking about this analysis but i am SO EXCITED ABOUT IT YOU GUYS #pouring my current gay pain tm into it #not in a 'im just projecting' way bc its all analysis rooted in the show rather than in my own hc/experiences #every day i become more of a gay mike truther simply bc of how its intertwined with mikes character but also w the st narrative and metaphor #as a whole #god i just have so much to say about this #seriously this is gonna be my best analysis yet #the vanishing of will byers one is gonna be good too but #w that one i dont quite have a firm 100% conclusion of exactly what happened bc i dont think well get that until s5 #bc im JUST barely missing some details to fill in some gaps and so i think theres new lore we'll get in s5 that fills those gaps #but when it comes to the gay mike analysis #i HAVE a conclusion that i am firm in #like not in a 'i can totlaly predict mikes actions in s5' way #but in a 'i am so sure that he has been written as gay since the beginning and that in order for st to be resolved narratively and- #-metaphorically then mike has to be gay' way #and in a 'im Pretty Sure we can figure out s5 mike but i cant be certain bc i cant see the future' way #but the gaps that are there in the will vanishes theory arent there in the gay mike theory like i dont need to wait for New Lore to fill in #gaps. its just that i cant be 100% sure of ANY predictions until s5 simply bc theres always gonna be that 1% chance that the writers do smth #random/pull a fast one on me #but anyways im rambling but #gay mike not only fits from an analysis perspective imo but also #personally has a lot of meaning to me and is special to me bc i relate to a lot of it #but again in removing my personal experiences and just doing an analysis based on what we see in the show #*im #like genuinely if i thought that mike was anything other than gay based on what we see in the show i would happily admit it bc i just want #him to be happy and be in love with will at the end of the day. but i dont think thats the case like im so sure hes been written as gay from #the start. anyway. much to think about im just #very excited abt this analysis

[transqu33r]

Jdjsndjdksjjdidjdjdjjdjfjdjfj THEY UPPED MY DOSE TO A FULL AMPULE AAAAAAAAHHHHHH

#testosterone #tboy #t boy #trans #transgender #transmasc #enby #nonbinary #nb #transition #medical transition #hrt #t shot #intramuscular #personal #theres just a voice always nagging me abt why do i tag things and then tag them as personal and i wanna clarify #to myself mostly #that i put the personal tag on to more easily find things on my blog for my own future reference #thank u and a good day #also ive been on half an ampule up until now which is 3 months so im very excited to see changes come on more rapidly

[ahalliance]

smth about 10 being 904 yrs old in day of the doctor then 906 in the end of time fucks me up

#s2-s4 were like. fours years to him :( maybe three #and he spends at least two years running about on his own slowly withering away #those two years which are most likely post waters of mars… what if i died #and him STILL feeling horrible about how he acted in the end of time to a point where he starts breaking down in front of wilf . wtf :(( #hes just. he’s my little sad guy :( #why’d he spend a third of his 6 yr existence alone huh 😭 #i am quite literally going to be an emotional mess when the 60th specials drop like 😭 #HIM AND DONNA . back together . besties again . lord #and theyre gonna no doubt address how fucking miserable 10 was at the end of his life . #and there’s no doubt going to be a message about self acceptance and moving on . #14 is a version of 10 who has endured what he once was terrified of and lived to tell the tale . he’s a 10 who knows it was all okay in the #end #and THAT is gonna fuck me up . meow meow finally has a high chance of getting his happy end… 13 years later gotdamn #literally whatever they do ill be happy to see DT and CT acting together again im so fucking pumped #and we’re immediately getting the already banger duo of 15 and ruby right afterwards…. we’re being fucking spoiled #im so so so excited i love doctor who!! i love celebrating the future while honouring the past!! #jay rambles

[froggyrights]

It just occurred to me that I'm an adult and I can just. Get a cat. if I want to

#actually mindblowing #i won't right now because im gonna be moving around a lot but wow. im so excited for the future now #i can have my own cat!!!!!! and it will be mine and i can have one!!!! wow!!!! #yrsa rambles

[bl00dw1tch]

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#horse.txt #theres still time for things to get shitty so im going to keep my voice down but. the way things are looking? #lowkey thinkin the Avatar haters are gonna be on the 'wrong side of history' in the future #if it turns out as amazingly as it sounds like it will--bro. its just. oUGH! #i literally Cannot Fucking Fathom how ANYONE can watch these movies and not feel moved. and not feel intrigued. and not Like Them #the flaws are so few are far between and yet deeply threaded into the story enough to almost be ADDRESSED? by the story??? #its a masterpiece. its a masterpiece! #its wishfulfilling and beautiful and heartbreaking and tragic it is at the moment to pinnacle of what storytelling could be #the relationship we can have with these films and this fantasy AND our own real lives can be so so deep if we let it #i dont understand what could bring someone to hate it #i mean i guess i CAN but. i dont know. i guess i just wish we lived in a world where everyone felt like they were Allowed to enjoy it #bc it always seems like the hates comes from a moral stance of 'the movie portrays harmful concepts that we shouldn't watch Ever' #--even if theyre Condemned #im just really excited man. i wish i had more ppl to share this joy with sfdfdygg frgd....

[karda]

hello how are you doing !!!! i miss you like a friend i haven't talked to in a while. i hope you're doing good and work isn't too stressful, ik that work has been stressful for me bc i haven't had nearly enough hours to keep me afloat as well as i would like but I've been surviving. giving you a little pat on the head :) hope you're doing well dude!!! <3

hello! I've missed u to . im doing alright, kinda having the opposite work problem . im working so much and im doing like 3 peoples jobs for minimum wage 0_o making me exhausted . my mom gets out in 2 days and shess gonna lecture meeeee she has a if u dont like it hit da bricks mentality.

#i hope it gets less stressful for u ... #im very lucky to be able to live with my parents and not have to pay rent #but i do look at my paychecks in horror a lot bc i would not be able to survive on my own with them . minimum wage just isnt enough #its very scary #i want tobe able to move away to another state in the future but its so sad to realize i just cant right now . i would need so much support #that a normal person just doesn't have #partly bc i live in cali and its hell here but its also hell everywhere d #ANYWAY thats adult talk . on a fun note for my brothers bday we're driving down to Monterey bay to thr aquarium #and i am going to look at the jellyfish for as long as they will let mr #im very excited #asks #thorne tag