#and he seems like the most likely opion

[roughentumble]

idea for a witcher/homestuck AU. ciri goes to fight the white frost and seemingly defeats it, but something isnt right about it, and for some reason at the center of it all she finds some sort of game with complex instructions right there. she kind of tells herself that it was leftover from some other traveler, who came to the center of all that is to destroy entropy and found themselves lacking, leaving behind only scraps of who they were. but it seems so pristine... could it really be that...? whatever it is, she feels oddly compelled to play it. perhaps as homage to a soul that was lost clutching a game and thinking of joyful times with their family.

(there is no stopping the white frost. entropy cannot be fought back. but how is she to know? when avallac'h told her otherwise? is it so wrong to dare to hope?)

the game is called something silly, like hmlet(like sburb but instead its. hamlet.)

everyone is already gathered, so when they all slink off to nurse their bruises, when theyre all still together, she brings out the game. eskel thinks its a bit grim. lambert thinks its grim, so he's completely behind it. they shuffle through the confusing rules as the first icy, frozen meteor falls far, far away, on the other side of a world that's yet to be fully circumnavigated.

my preliminary cast list idea looks something like:

1. yen (witch of time) (derse)

2. ciri (mage of space) (derse)

3. jaskier (rogue of breath) (prospit)

4. geralt (knight of blood) (prospit)

5. eskel

6. lambert

7. regis (?)

8. avallac'h

9. cerys (?)

10. letho (?)

11. triss

12. zoltan (?)

with question marks denoting placements that are the most up in the air, though i'd REALLY like to keep letho and zoltan on board. im never going to write this but i am going to have fun turning it over in my head and imagining these 12 as fun gods of a new world.

#witcher tag #ogc tag #i dont exactly have a deep abiding love of avallac'h but i WOULD like there to be at least one elf #and he seems like the most likely opion #*option #and if he's right there then i feel like ciri WOULD pull him in #and maybe he even had a scheming hand in uncovering the game! maybe that was on purpose! #the wild hunt can still bust into their brand new gestating dimension as an extra level of villlainry to deal with #on top of the imps and the chessboard #i would also like zoltan to be there for at least one dwarf it feels really bullshit to just. leave them out. #this line up does leave out roche and ves sorry #and no roach either 3: #but roach cant classpect or be someone's server player GSGXJSBSKSB #i assume roche and ves thought the game was too silly and decided not to play? #and they only found enough rules for 12 people so oh well #and then. whoops. sorry. #HSAU tag #homestuck tag

[mystories-stories]

chapter one prototype

hey this is a prototype of a thingy i was thinking of making an oc x Floyd

or even a reader x floyd just wanted people to tell me their opion on what it should be or if i should do one of each, like one with the originally story intended and one where you guys shape it? yeah.

___

Finally, home to see my Mum. I missed her so much since I had to stay at my dad’s for the few years of my teen years and then I went travelling and well- Hang on I should probably explain.

Mum travelled a lot and ended up meeting my dad in Symphonyville where they met. She learned the way of the classical trolls, but dad was the only one interested In learning about her culture pop. and so on they fell In love blah blah blah. then I happened! mum and dad didn't see eye to eye of many things so they broke up split and have split custody. their more but their is no time! mum should be around town square, from what her boyfriend as told me. i wrote him a letter to ask he bring her here, I think his name was Peppy?

"umm sorry excuse me," i tap the shoulder of a random troll, they turn around and what caught my attention the most would had too been his hot pink hair that was white at his roots. The trolls he was talking too where both also umm unique?

one with big purple hair and a holiday vibe with the other in a leaf vest and dark blue hair.

"Hi, sorry but do you know where the market is? I'm trying to meet up with someone." I try to explain, he seems taken aback but smiles and nods.

"Yeah sure, if you just go straight that way." The pink troll says pointing to his left.

"Then take a right at the yellow stand that's the start of the markets." he says with a small smile, i nod looking at the yellow stand. grabbing my roller bag with my duffle bag on the handle and put my backpack back on.

"Wow a lot of stuff, you travel?" the dark blue one says narrowing his eyes at me making me rase my eyebrow a little.

"Yeah, for a while come back to meet family thanks sir. " i say slightly bowing my head too him before leaving that group. every step i took i kept on seeing trolls that where nothing like the classical ones. they were taller their hair was straight up and not curly similar to mine. the only difference being mine down to pointing up.

"right at the yellow.." i mutter to myself following the directions of the pink troll. before finally.

big lavender hair with slight curls and wild flowers in it. "MAMAAAAAAAA!!!" I scream or sing, i drop my bags half way of running up to her, it was almost as if everything was in slow mo. she turns her golden eye wide alogn with her mouth. her eyes where glossing over while mine already had tears forming around them.

"Sophia?!" my mother says before i hug her, memories. the smell was nostalgic, of blackberry’s mixed with vanilla. her frame now smaller now making us a similar height but still holding a centimeter over me. "Your here, oh my your home!" she says finally wrapping her arms around me. closing my eyes all i can do is feel the hot tears fall from my eyes and our hearts sync.

"oh my lovely i have missed you let me see you!" she pulls away and cups my face she slowly begins to cry making me cry harder. "Mum.. what’s wrong?" i ask, she sniffles "Oh nothing it's just been so long. you have finally found yourself your not much of my little girl now are you?"

"oh mum.. I'll always be your little girl." I say hugging her once again gently. before i hear someone clear their voice gently i look up too see an orange troll his hair fizzy and well everywhere. "i think these might belong too you? you must be Sophia! lilly as told me so much about you!" i take my luggage from who a presume is my mums boyfriend Peppy and nod with a small smile before extending my arms for him.

"It's nice too meet you sir! glad our plan worked!" i say but he pulls me into a hug which shocks me a little but i smile awkwardly along, hugging him back. "wait did you two plan this?" mum says with a small grin wiping away that final tear of hers.

"Yes Sophie sent me a letter before we planned everything." Peppy explains i nod along with a small smile.

"oh my little girl is home we must celebrate my love!" my mother says rushing the Peppy and holding his hands.

"yes! we can have a dinner with family hohoho." Peppy says i nod along to their plan knowing i wouldn't personally like this but i know mum is just excited.

"oh their so many things i want to show you but i have a suprise come, I'll be back later my love! you can start planning the guest list well have the party tonight!" before i knew it my mother was ushing me off somewhere.

#trolls #troll oc #troll 2 #trolls dreamworks #trolls movie #trolls 3 #dreamworks trolls #branch #trolls poppy #pink floyd #trolls floyd #trolls band together

[sociopathicbunnyrabbit-blog]

How is it in the year of our Lord 2023 that out of all things i was not expecting to actually enjoy a goddamn zack synder movie of all things like I have never seen a zack snyder film that I have liked before in my entire life.

Youve probably seen bad reviws for it but kust head me out okay...

Like I am moctly critical of the guy and if asked of my opion any point prior would say I think he should have been a cinemtograrhper and never a dricetor as his eye for visuals is great but his story and dricetion usally not so much. Like i would have describded him as a man who's become famous for making horrible adpatations of comic books into films. Always bastardising the charcaters and orignal meaning of the source material by failing the hypotthecial D20 roll for an 8th grade reading comphresion level check with a -30. That somehow seem to mosyly produce pro-facist messages that glorify western civilsation and hitsory that's loved by a fan base riffe with toxic masculinty.

Like how did this man produce a sci-fi movie with a female lead who carries the film and carries on the trope of buff women in thank tops that all claasic sci-fi greats have, rejects peer pressure to get with the strong traditionally masculine type and has its actual main male character and love intest be a too guiable and innocent farm boy who only wants to try his best to help people,

It has a overtly Anti-facist Anti-imeprlaism and Anti-colonilaism message at its core vis vi a plot like seven smaurai, is more creative with its set peice locations then most of the last three star wars movies.

Thats not even mentioning that it has a diverse supporting cast all with their own interesting back storirs from a legendary warrior who understnads greif of losing family and is agaisnt the glorfication fo violence as noble, to an old depressed war general who is punishing himself for past mistakes, a prince who was sold into slavery on a farm and has a compassin for animals who are treated horrinly liks he persumibly is, a robot who was built for war but would rather be commited to kindness with a great unique design and voiced by anthony f#cking hopkins.

Like everyone anyone can feel free to have wathever opion you want about this film its far from perfect, is it just kinda nock off star wars, yeah it is, but I would argue it says more in its run time and bettet then the last three star wars movies did in all of theirs did, not to mention kora as a charcter does more for former facist turned good plot then fin ever acheived.

I enjoyed it immensly also its audience score is like three times as high as its critical one so I feel vindicated enough that even if you don't think it's some kind of masterpiece of modern cinema you hoepfully will find some value in it

#rebel moon #sci fi and fantasy #film #netflix #badass women #my opion #entertainment

[ducknotinarow]

[Rise!RaphYvonne]  “Mm..” 

| Send “Mm..” and my muse will react to yours kissing their neck.

Raph was in the most inconspicuous way, well as about as inconspicuous a six-foot-tall mutated snapper turtle possibly could be, looking over Yvonne's shoulder. Watching as she was sitting down on the bench. She seemed to have her book in hand as her pencil was working in against the paper. He had wanted to come up top to the surface to get in some practice for the next time he and his brothers had thier 'cowabunga' basketball game tournament. Yvoone didn't seem to mind joining him out, at first he thought it is a fun way to show off a little to her. Just because they were dating and in a great steady place even, didn't mean he could still wanna impress her.

He had gotten a few good shots in on the hop and cheered himself on as he kept on playing on the abandoned blacktop. Sure he had his 'disguise' on even if his shell did slightly make some holes into the track suite jacket he wore. It was still best to stay in areas with little to no traffic of humans around. Besides it also meant having his girl all to himself even if they were doing thier own thing. The snapper couldn't explain it it was just nice being in her company even well he was running around the blacktop. Color coding his practicing to himself mostly. He needed to step up his game because he could not deal with Leo again! he was the most unbearable sore winner. She had been watching but after a bit it seemed she had gotten an idea..or was inspiration the word? Muse?

The look on her face near reminded him of how Donnie got when he had a sudden idea for a new project, it was cute how abosred Yvoone seemed to get. So engrossed on the paper before her. Raph had long moved to try and see what she was up to and kept watch not wanting to interrupt but he wanted to see what she was drawing up. Looked like some outfit idea? Spikey and red was what he notices first, he never understood why so much she made had those traits to them. He did KNOW that it was a good look for her though. Tail slightly waging behind him as he watched patiently till she finished and went to show him. He didn't understand a thing about fashion he tried dressing less like he just picked up every article he had on randomly off his bedroom floor sure. And that color should factor cause some clashed and made for bad looks. That was about it he always did need his brothers opions anyway. Donnie seem tje more versed in style, Leo seemed to have an eye for the better fit and Mikey was just supportive and told Raph he could pull off stripes. He just smiled looked at it.

"I don't know what these are called" he says pointing a fringer out "but it looks great babe!" Trying to recall some of Donnies wording before "I think the reds are well balanced with the spikes and tears." He said beaming her way.

Okay yeah je had no idea what he was saying but he did mean it he liked the stuff she designed Yvoone to him was the most talented person to ever exist. It was ashamed she kind of lost out on that life sure she had her shop in the hidden city but was it turly the same with Yokais and fashion as it were humans? Thought before he could go down that trail of thought once again he felt her lips press agisnt his cheek a thank you.

Warm soft smile replaced any lingering thoughts though as he pointed to the paper again "oh and uhhh the shape of the uhh leg?" That wasn't part of the outfit she made "is just so very uhhh leggy!" Proud as he turned to hold his beak out now for another kiss.

Yvonne was smart of course and knew what he was doing, expecting lips to his beak he was a bit taken back when she pressed her next thank you to his neck instead. A soft low chur emitted from the back of his throat at the feeling of her lips there. His fave darkened a little as red strikes over his fave bot even the hoodies shadow was enough to keep that covered. Moving his arms around her shoulders to sort of encourage her to keep kissing there. He would care about getting mocked for all the kiss marks on his neck after all.

#muse| hamato raphael #aflockoffeathers #madamkezzie #[ ones trash is anothers treasure aflockoffeathers] #send mm for neck kisses #meme answers #stayed qeued #((hype man for his girl uwu cause she so talented uwu)) #((yeaaaah im editing the icons btw XD))

[zot3-flopped]

I'm going out on a limb and say Zayn does not sound better on the video clip he posted singing You & I. There seems to be no improvement vocally from him since 1D. And him screeching in one of the NIL songs had my ears ringing for hours. And there's also criticism about his lower notes not being understandable cz he mumbles them all like it is something edgy. He can sing. There's no doubt. But Harry in my opion can now sing better than him in all the departments including falsettos. Harry's House falsettos he sang is a proof of that. Plus Harry is the full package. He is an amazing singer, an amazing performer and an amazing entertainer. Zayn can't relate.

Even the few music critics who reviewed NiL pointed out that Zayn's top range had become insecure. They said he 'shrieks.'

#nobody is listening reviews #zayn

[dialovers-translations]

DIABOLIK LOVERS MORE BLOOD Vol.2: Mukami Kou [Track 5+6]

Original title: キバで直接確かめてやる & 罰には罰が

Source: Diabolik Lovers More, Blood Vol. 2: Mukami Kou [CD not owned by me]

Audio: Here

Seiyuu: Kimura Ryouhei

Translator’s note: Once again, I’m just waiting for this CD to turn up the sadism level because right now things aren’t too bad. Or maybe I’ve just been ruined by Kanato’s and Laito’s MB CDs in which I’m pretty sure the MC doesn’t make it out alive, lol. All of you Kou stans are definitely in for a treat though.

Track 1+2 ll Track 3+4 ll Track 5+6 ll Track 7+8 ll Track 9+10

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Track 5: I’ll Confirm It Directly with my Fangs

*Rustle*

“...Phew~ It’s a drag, but I guess I’ll take them off for you instead. ...Bet that makes you very happy, huh? I bet you’re screaming with excitement inside!”

You shake your head as he starts stripping you naked.

*Rustle rustle*

[00:18] “Besides, you really have no need for clothes, do you? I’m going to suck your blood from head to toe after all. Besides, I have absolutely no interest in your naked body. ...Ah! Although knowing that the precious girl they’ve been obsessing over will soon be turned into a mess does spur me on quite a bit.” 

*Rustle*

“...Hm~? You’re not going to put up a fight? Do you finally understand what kind of guy I am? Or perhaps it really does make you happy to have me strip you down like this.”

*RIIIIIP*

[00:55] “There we go...~! ...Can you tell~? You’re quite the sight right now! Your cheeks are flushed bright red as well. Are you ashamed, perhaps? In that case, I’ll do more and more embarrassing things...Don’t you think that’ll actually make it easier in various regards? Fufu~”

*Rustle*

“Hm...~”

*Sniff sniff*

“Ah...Now that you mention it...I feel as if you smell a little different from usual...”

He takes a deep breath.

“Does your scent change when you get embarrassed?”

*Sniff sniff*

[01:43] “What kind of smell is this? Are you hiding something in your body after all? Is this what those guys go so crazy about? ...Oh well. I’ll just check directly with my fangs. That’s the quickest and easiest method. ...Listen carefully. You better keep still, okay? If you make even the slightest suspicious movement, I’ll kill you. ...Well then...Time to expose your secret~”

*Sniff sniff*

“Such a lovely scent...I can’t get enough of it...Seems delicious. I honestly can barely believe a girl of your caliber would smell this good.”

*Rustle rustle*

[02:37] “I wonder where it’s coming from...~ Here? The shoulder? ...Or maybe here? Hmm...~”

Kou bites you.

“Mmph...Nn...”

*Gulp*

“Nn...”

*Gulp*

“ーーHah! Haah...Not here? Then...Here, maybe? Your side...”

*Gulp gulp*

“Hahn...Haah...Not bad at all...”

*Sluuuuurp*

[03:28] “...Huh? You’ve got that dreamy look in your eyes now as well! You really must love this after all, don’t you? Fufufu~ ...Or do you like me, perhaps? Ah, that must be it! No matter how weak you are to a pair of fangs, the person they belong to is still very important, no? The fact you want me to suck you more is written all over your face after all.”

*Rustle*

“How does it feel to have a Vampire like me have an interest in you? ...Are you happy? Of course you’d me!”

You frown.

“Most human girls swoon over my looks alone so no need to hide it!”

You explain. 

[04:21] “Eh? You would never form an opion on someone based solely on their appearance? Haha...Ah-aah~ I wonder how long that courage will last? ...Didn’t I tell you it’s in your best interest not to upset me? You really are a fool...”

Track 6: One Penalty Calls for Another

“Ahー This pisses me off...I’m going to suck you completely dry.”

*Rustle rustle*

“Mmh...”

Kou bites you again.

*Gulp gulp*

“Hah...Haah...Your blood is seriously delicious...”

*Gulp*

“But you know...No matter how tasty it may be, the punishment for upsetting me is nothing to scoff at, you know?”

*Rustle*

[00:37] “A crime calls for a penalty! Exactly! I have to punish you! Fufu~ Let’s see...”

*Rustle*

“I’ll suck from your ear next. From a hard spot. So it might sting a little, but that would make you happy, wouldn’t it? ...I’ll hurt you plenty.”

He bites your ear.

“...Hm? It hurts to be bitten there? Heeh~ I see...Hahn...”

*Gulp*

“Haah...I’ll lick you then. None other than me.”

*Sluuuurp*

“It’s gushing out even from the inside...”

*Sluuuurp*

[01:48] “Haah...Aha...Fufu~ What’s wrong? Why are you crying so much? Ah! Are the ears one of your erogenous zones perhaps? Geez, don’t get all worked up just because I bit your ear.”

You protest.

“Hm...~? It only hurt? Heh. There you go telling lies again. Well, not that I care.”

*Rustle*

“I figured it’d be fine since humans have a custom of piercing their ears. I guess while they’re resistant to pleasure, the same can’t be said about pain?”

*Rustle*

“Hah...For some reason, I’m feeling a little lightheaded as well. I see...So that’s the kind of effect your blood has on us. Just like some sort of drug. Also, here...”

Kou moves his hair to the side.

*Rustle rustle* 

[02:52] “Take a look...At this right eye of mine. Can you tell? It’s shining, isn’t it? Your blood triggered this. It has happened a few times in the past as well, but your blood really is special.”

Your eyes widen in surprise.

“...Fufu~”

*Creaaak*

“Heh~ ...Phew...For prey, you’re sure living the dream right now, getting someone like me to join you in bed. I guess you’ve seen Vampires fall head over heels for your blood time after time, huh?”

You deny it.

[03:43] “No need to deny it. I can tell after all. ーー You no longer hold any secrets for me. So don’t hide it. It’s pointless anyway. Ah-aaah...How frustrating...If only you had at least one other thing going for you.”

*Rustle rustle*

“But no matter how I look at you, you’re just a little masochistic kitty...Haah~”

*Rustle*

“Hm...”

He bites you again.

*Gulp*

[04:26] “...Yet we’re being pushed around by someone like you. How could I not get agitated? ...Do you understand how I feel?”

*Sluuuurp*

*Gulp*

“When I consider how content it must make you feel about yourself...I just want to drive you into a corner and make you face a pitiful death. You see, up until now, I’ve never gotten fixated on anything, let alone some human girl. This blood...”

*Rustle*

“...is to blame for everything.”

*Gulp*

“I’ve gotten worked up as well. Fufu~”

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

#diabolik lovers #dialovers #kou mukami #diabolik lovers translation #diabolik lovers more blood #diabolik lovers drama cd #drama cd

[jalebi-o-shir]

Being on Opposite Ends of the South Asian Spectrum: Being Pakistani and Indo-Caribbean

🇵🇰✨🇸🇷

As a half-Punjabi (Pakistani) and Half Indo-Caribbean (Indo-Surinamese) person, I have always found myself split between very two contrasting sides of the same coin. The reason being so is because these two cultures hail from the sub-continent, yet are uniquely distinct from another.

If South-Asianess was put on a spectrum, they would be on extreme opposite ends of each other. I have been raised up as a Pakistani I’d say. After all, my mom is Pakistani, I’ve been brought up with the food, the languages, Urdu and Punjabi, the social codes, the norms and the values, and of course the religion.

But I haven’t been raised like a typical Pakistani kid. On the other hand, I’ve been raised by my Surinamese dad. I’ve been taught the Indo-Surinamese history, always ate Surinamese food, and was always surrounded by my Surinamese family, and most importantly, what not a lot of young Indo-Caribbeans/Indo-Surinamese can say, understand Hindoestaans (Caribbean-Bhojpuri, yes it’s not Caribbean-Hindi. It’s a misnomer) *Thank you Urdu and Punjabi for allowing me to understand it*

You are probably wondering what this mini-autobiography has to do with the title. Well you see, as odd as it may seem, I used to look down on my Surinamese side of the family when I was younger. Except for my grandparents, my father, and uncle for fortunately good reasons. I love them dearly of course. I saw most Indo-Surinamese people as “lost”. They couldn’t speak the language, acted anything but South Asian (whatever that meant) , smoked, drank, and always wanted to be DJs. That’s the image I conjured up of Indo-Surinamese people for the longest time in my mind.

I had no Pakistani family growing up for most of my childhood. To my Pakistani family, I guess, we where the odd ones out. While everyone lived and was born in The States, I grew up in a wonderful tiny country called Holland 🇳🇱 (The Netherlands). I had a great childhood really :D

Over the years, I started developing this complex. I was proud of being Pakistani. In a country where immigrant kids mostly are born to parents from Turkey, Morocco, and Suriname, I was in a strange position of being an invisible minority, yet a visible minority at the same time because of the Surinamese side. I remember telling the teacher in elementary school that I would feel Surinamese at school, but Pakistani at home. I always felt that I to put up a act. Pakistani in the masjid, Surinamese in the streets. There are loads of Surinamese people in Amsterdam, so representation was never an issue, but at the same time it was because I considered myself to be completely Pakistani.

I felt proud that I was able to understand Imran Khan’s songs (T’was a big thing at the time), watch Bollywood without subtitles, and go to shaadis and bask in the culture whenever we’d go to the US. I started seeing Indo-Surinamese people as watered-down Desis without any noticeable culture, values, and traditions to hold on to even though I grew up surrounded by it. Ironically, I knew a lot about my Indo-Surinamese history and indentured servitude back then. I was very close to my Surinamese family and I’m grateful everyday that they were such a big part of my youth, but at the same time, I felt culturally awkward growing up. I didn’t feel Surinamese enough whenever we’d visit family.

If Pakistani-Punjabis are known as conservative, colorful, log kya kehengein-type people, then Surinamese people are independent, strong-opionated, and liberal. I now see that I inherited both sides. I moved to the US at the naive age of 18. There, my dad had to constantly explain where he was from. My dad speaks Urdu, Dutch, Surinamese Creole, Hindoestaans (Caribbean Dutch -Bhojpuri), and English. It’s a curious mix of languages that all have to do with his upbringing. Since we went to a Pakistani masjid/mosque, he had to educate people constantly. It is when I realized that being Surinamese really is a unique thing.

The more I think about my dad, the weirder it gets. I mean being born in South America, looking South Asian, speaking Dutch in a country called Suriname, and having a last name that looks Spanish is really a crazy thing when I think about it. Over the years, I realized how much I actually missed from Holland. I craved Surinamese food which really is a mix of Indian, Indonesian, West-African, Dutch, and Chinese food with a unique Surinamese twist. I felt a need to tell people how unique Suriname was.

I started feeling proud of my Surinamese heritage and everything that came along with it. Instead of looking down, I started looking up to my ancestor who made the 4-month voyage from Calcutta, India to an unknown land to work on the sugarcane fields along with thousands of others who would be later known as the “Hindoestanen” and collectively known as the Indo-Caribbeans. I found this all out through a Dutch government initiative where they digitized indentured servitude records. My dad told me about it.

I was amazed at how much information these records contained. His name, DOB, religion, skin color, village of origin, birth marks, height etc was all recorded to even his own sample number. it gives me chills when I think about it. 23 yo, going on a journey to an uknown destination that made me end up in Toronto, Canada eventually. I mean, if he didn’t step on that ship, I wouldn’t have been born. I guess immigration is in my blood, and it all started in the British Raj.

These days I can say with confidence that I’m proud of both sides, and that I feel a bit sorry :p for any Pakistani that didn’t have the chance to eat our wonderful food. Sure tons of people know about Biryani, rotiyan, tandoori chicken, samosein, but how many people know about bami, nasi goreng, pitchel, roti met kip, baka bana, maseina cookies, boyo, pom, and of course, Surinamese roti? Anyone? Not a lot 🇸🇷💕🇵🇰

#indocaribbean #indentured #guyana #trinidad #trinidad and tobago #jamaica #desi #indian subcontinent #indian #Pakistani #suriname #Holland #story tag #bangladesh #caribbean #Surinamese #Surinaams #muslim #Fiji #mauritius #diaspora #south asian

[liliththunder]

My thoughts on Souma Kazue Hen

I rewatched Souma Hen at least six or seven times. And still I have mixed feelings about it.

I’d like to start with the generals first. Yes, it is very different to any other Hakumyu before, with good points as well as in my opion bad points. The first thing you see is of course the stage. It is one of this things I still don’t like about it, I think it is too large, also the many moveable stairs are somewhat at disadvantage. I’d like to explain that: about the first point, one thing I liked really about the previous productions was that the stage don’t change so much and the stage is everywhere at the same time, also the Shinsengumi where a very small group at most counting 200 men. So the place where they belong where also a small piece of ground compared with the rest of this era. But OK Daisuke Nishida seem to love larger stage. Second the disadvantage is that while capturing one face in the foreground you can only see the feet of the person in the background which I think is somewhat, but Ok.... Due to the whole play they ran a lot and if I say a lot than it really is.

The second thing that will come to one’s mind is the music. I like it and I don’t. I read somewhere that they loved that Souma don’t have an own theme, but has the same as the whole shinsengumi, so it shows how he is integrated in them. I think from the view of the story it would made more sense, if had an own theme in the beginning where he is at first against them and than his theme would be slowly fading into the Shinsengumi theme. I like Chizurus Vocals as well as Kazamas, Hijikatas, Kondous, Saitous, Heisukes and Sannans. With that I’d like to point out that Miki completly convinced me, he is a really understandable character, also the actor gets him really well. For the others I am sorry, I can’t tell Shinpatsan and Sano-san apart from each other as well as Nomura.

I think the BGMs are OK, they are much like the game which is OK in a good way. The songs aren’t that captive as before, to be honest no matter how many times I watch it I can’t tell one song apart from another one except (because there are many where all sing, so I am confused??) for the ones including Miki. And why I have to be reminded in the opening, that all of them will die????? The only who seem to have an own theme is Kazama.  In the end, please don’t get me all to wrong I still listen to the whole musical as music and I still like it. Especially I love the song between Miki, Chizuru, Souma, Kazama and Yamazaki before the break as well as the equivalent to Bushidou or NEVER SAY GOODBYE FOREVER from Kazama Hen, the bloodsucking scene and the final.

The cast had major changes. Except for Kondou, Yamazaki, Kodo and Heisuke everyone changed, but also Suzuki Shogo came after a five years break to Hakumyu. I don’t know if it is for Corona or whatever, but while the curtain call they didn’t seem to enjoy the play as much as before. I think everyone did well except for Chizuru who seemed to more concernd about how her voice would sound so she couldn’t deliver the feelings of Chizuru that well. Risa Matsuzaki has a fine voice and partly gets Chizurus character well, but sometimes she herself seem so distant to the whole situation, I think. Mizuki Umetsu gives the role he play really all his soul and heart, which I learned to love about him. Also he is the one who carries the whole relationship on this shoulders. There are many scene where I get the feeling that he carries everything on his own. I guess this is where Matsuzakis inexpierence appears. It is her first musical as well first production, so it should be forgiven.  The next one who play a major role are Hijikata and Kondou. Kubota Hideyoshi is the fith Hijikata as well a good actor and he also picture a new Hijikata. I like that version besides that he cries, which in my opinion don’t fit the character.  I think Taira Imata get Kondou with every play better and better. 

The SanBaka are Ok, but don’t have such a great chemistry, which could be caused due to pandemic. (They have to practise it over and over again, so they maybe growed bored out of it) And who is Nomura? He don’t have that much screentime, so I think we can’t get know him so well. I like his final songs, but outlying of that he don’t have that many songs. I like Saitou and think he is played well, can’t say the same about Souji, but well. The other played their part well I think.

For the script I think there are the most blind spots. I don’t know how to express what I think it is laking. After watching the Myu I watched the Souma Route (No Commantary Game Play) and there are I think really interesting points missing out. Also you get the feeling the stories rushes rough very fast, just to protact some few important scenes. That way a character evolution isn’t to be seen, as well there is no struggling from Souma or Chizuru or a conversation between them regarding life, the shinsengumi or whatever. There is no actual scene where Chizuru don’t appear. Also the interaction between everyone else seem to missing. The character were given to much line in too less time, so it seems even more rushing. The last thing that keep bothering me is that there isn’t the two part feeling. The first lighthearted first part and the going different ways and heavy part.

To be honest, it isn’t that a bad interpretation of Hakuouki. Solely I think, it is a good production, relying much on the game. But I also think it is inferior to previous Hakumyu productions. I watched recently Kazama Shitan and really enjoyed it, the music arrangement, the cast, the stage (it was a bit large, but the stairs did’nt move every minute) and even the a bit overdone special effects.

Nonetheless I hope Hakumyu will keep carry on, with new hearts as well as the old one. And I stan the cast of Souma Hen, yes I do, no one is perfect and who wasn’t effected by the pandemic mentally? De ha o shitsurei shimasu!

#hakumyu #hakuouki #souma kazue #miki saburo #hakuouki musical

[art-of-mathematics]

i don't know your situation or understand what you're going through, but i hope you're okay xx

Hello there! Thanks for reaching out!

It has been so tough again in the last hours. Invasive actions of psychiatrists who never had to do with my complex case.

It actually was as banal as. I was given a separate room by my psychiatrist who understands me so far that she knows how to handle me and my case and my words. But she was gone for not even an entire day, and a doc - more arrogant snob - 'diagnosed me' with the most superficial nonsense. I am just causing drama to get attention. Same fiddle every time.

They spun a network of ignorant misdiagnoses hindering every opportunity to receive real help!!

They not even checked blood values or anything ever since.

These hurtful misdiagnoses are not true!!! Therapists who really work on my case always tell me the same. Superficiality and ignorance HARM!

I asked for vitamine supplies. He said "Just eat"... but I EAT, BUT HERE is so few food with the nutrition I need!!!

I just need damn nutrition.

Later they cause so much harm to me and a person who they put in my room - I was flashed, not because I did not like her or anything close to that - it was INVASIVE!

They never spoke about it, they never warned. Then they opened all curtains and I got so awful double vision and delirium by that. And the instant rush of the violation of principles that ensure an autist's mere function... i had a meltdown.

The nurse was so abusive. Said "no one can get hurt my light' you are not a vampire! You just google shit! You have all symptoms but you can't have them! You make them up to get attention and tyrranize everyone.

And none of that was ever true.

These fucking symptoms are sadly all primarily due to one fucking thing: severe nutrition deficiency. And the "CURE" is all fucking simple!!! But they refuse the PLAINEST of help!!!

This nurse is like those most neurotypical cruel fake shallow monsters. She projects her intolerant narrow view on myself. She invalidates, denies, dismisses. Refuses to understand me debunking her nonsense and trying to create clarity.

And the ignorance is so painful. I said she can't judge it. She said she's not judging, it's her opion (which is in fact an evaluation of an impression of her own interpretation - so it IS judging!)

She does understand NOTHING. Really no word I tell her lands in her brain. It's like she is so dogmatic in her wrong belief. Or does not even know one basic single word in German language.

Today I witnessed Dunning-Krüger everywhere!!! And it fucking kills!!!

It hurt to see my (shortly present) room neighbour crying, because of this shit I could not control, the meltdown, which was INDUCED by their sheer incompetence, ignorance, cruelty.

It made me so furious. Invalidating. Every time. I told that nurse that she can't judge what she does not understand. That she should educate herself on how autism impacts everyday life, perception, health, behavior, communication. Sadly all her brain cells seem to be tied to manipulation and how to be the most awful ignorant possible.

I am so sorry it all sounds so aggressive. But they HURT!!! They cause harm on so many here, not just me!!! This needs to be stopped!!! It needs to be investigated how many people they killed with such procedures.

They refuse to give me help!!

I neglected all these symptoms for far too long, exactly because of that. But they got so bad...

This nurse told me 'you can go whenever you want'. And I asked her I can't i physcially can't survive. Then she proceeded 'but you came here and it was bright'... and not even one of these statements is true. I was shoven from a terrible place by the ambulance into this torture chamber, during evening/night.

They literally refuse to SEE the meanwhile already OBVIOUS, which is the unfortunate REALITY now!

And they keep kicking and killing your last part that survives: Your psychological resilience.

And I am shaking. The insuline resistance is unbearable. But they would not even do anything if cetoacidosis would intoxicate me. Even if I vomitted due to that they would refuse the help I have the right to have: in this case: It is bound to direct survival!!!

It is a nightmare. And it sounds too lunatic that anyone could ever believe.

My psychiatrist came few hours ago, after my room neighbour and I calmed down.

I went to the dark bathroom to recharge. She later returned to our room after being absent for a short time, and she reacted in a way that made be feel embraced, compassionate, grateful, but als so so sorry and guilty.

She had a surgery of a brain tumor. And it felt so devastating she is treated so so so bad here. That they put her in such an awful situation with me and my problems being 100% dismissed.

I was a scapegoat. And the hurt I felt when recognizing her reaction was torture. It was psychological torture for both of us.

I am beyond my limit and I can't be confronted in such a way with people who are hurt so much themselves. It hurt me twice, thousandfold.

If they had told me in advance and found a solution for the light/illumination problem, it would have been far less devastating for both of us. It was so invasive. The reaction of the nurse 'it's just light and why should it be so bad that someone is here now? ' - neurotyi pical intolerance, ignorance and unfortunately this resulted in more and more verbal abuse.

Half an our later I sat in the bathroom. And she approached me and asked if she could enter the bathroom. I said yes and apologized. She was humble and somewhat had compassion. I then proceeded to built a tiny fort/cave between my bad and heater. This is where I have been since. It calms me.

She calmed down as well. But then the chaos continued. She was put in another room. I suppose it was because my (original) psychiatrist came, and knew this was fatal, as she knows of the importance of that. Despite the difficulties here in the clinic, she demands such a high priority for the single room. She is the only reason why I am not dead already here.

She fights for me as she understands. And she tries to protect me from the harm by many people working here. But when she is gone it is all devastating.

Next time I refuse to talk with these ignorant docs, and only correspond with my original psychiatrist. Most others are so awful. I do not know who to trust. They don't understand what is real and what is bullshit.

So many new nurses everyday, so many fake behaviors. So many ones who are abusive. Some who you believe are trustworthy. I can't trust. It all shatters. This place is traumatizing in every means for a neurodivergent/autistic person.

It is so sad...

There is no help. Even askeing them to transfer me to somewhere I may receive help... no way. Excuses. I say I NEED help. They say they give help. But NO!!! It is the OPPOSITE of help actually!!! I never damnit wanted to be a statistic anomaly. They simplifiy this extremely complex case to such a degree, it is the opposite of reality.

As if they do neither understand what I say nor any of my behavior.

Even when having hypoglycaemia, they refuse to help. If you ask them for juice, they refuse. They say absent-mindendly "Yeah... i knowji know... 'and leave. Only after half an hour a random nurse from another part of the clinic sees me and asks me what I need, I say sugar, have low blood glucose. And then I receive it finally. But this in concerning. Hypoglycaemia can trigger much of symptoms I have now as well. You can even get unsconscious, and if too long waited, you die. Considering their amount of concern or care, I could have been dead for more than two hours.

Things like these happen far too often.

If I do not care for myself who is unable to move, to care for himself, to live, then I die. And that is what my alter ego does. But he can't anymore. The biological spaceship is too damaged. Even the 'most skilled pilot' will not succeed.

The pain is unbearable.

And the pain of being stuck here.

I just wish someone would just dump me 300km+ far away where I receive REAL help!

I am physcially stuck in a network of abusive environments.

Even the person of the amulance told me I need to leave this city asap. She was concerned all she could do is either throw me into the torture chamber 'rathole clinic', or leave me in the abusive home with the tyrants of my abusers, my father and myjsister.

It was a decision between torture and torture.

This has been my reality ever since.

Please I would even consider living in care for a while, IF treated accordingly to what I really have and need, far away from this abuse city.

[autisticcassandracain]

hi! saw ur post about reading up on Scott Free- I know you didn't ask for input and I hope I'm not being too forward but I noticed you were reading the Justice League title for Scott and I'd just like to say that, if you haven't already, I'd look at the Mister Miracle v1 issues 1-18 by Jack Kirby for the base of his characterization. I would avoid issues 19-26 of vol 1 (different writer) but the v2 issues by DeMatteis/Moench/Wein are pretty solid. the King run is a mixed bag.

Don't worry, I've finished Mister Miracle v1 already! Actually finished it yesterday right before I moved on to the Justice League 3-parter (which I enjoyed for the most part, especially Big Barda). I'm going in chronological order with the help of a reading list and DCUguide, so I'm moving on to Justice League and Justice League International next before Mister Miracle v2. I've also read The New Gods v1, mostly for context, since a good reason I'm reading up on Scott is bc I don't understand anything that goes on in space in DC and I'd like to not be completely lost on that, and Scott seemed like a nice lad and I vaguely knew he was connected to Apokalips (so yes I'm going in pretty much completely blind, it's been a ride). Also the Mister Miracle Special, which I really enjoyed, even though I have some mixed opions on its use of Barda, and the Batman/Mister Miracle team-ups in The Brave and the Bold, which I thought were pretty shitty for the most part lmao.

I do appreciate this ask a lot though, and would've liked to have gotten it sooner so I wouldn't have wasted my time with Mister Miracle #19-25. The reading list didn't tell me to read them, but like, they were there?? So I went 'might as well' and boy oh howdy did I regret that. I DESPISE how that writer writes Scott Free and especially Big Barda. Imo the quality of the series took a pretty stark dip the moment Ted Brown was resurrected from the dead without explenation, but #19-25... horrendous.

Anyway have a shitty meme I made while liveblogging those issues to my friend:

[Image: meme reading 'Scott Free has become Catholic' next to a cross, with an extremely pixalized panel of Scott floating down from the sky in the Jesus-on-the-cross pose, while clouds part behind his head like a halo. end description.]

#The jewish writer leaves and IMMEDIATELY they make scott free jesus #Scott free #My posts #Asks

[cinnamonruts]

so… normally i don’t post these but i’ve a theory/thoughts on the ua traitor. firsly, i’m not saying i’m right, just that i think i could be!

my top suspect is; aoyama. either 1, he is lactose intolerant ( with the amount of cheese he eats ).

or, 2, the most likely answer; quirkless. i know, only a small amount of people are quirkless and it would be a big coincidence that 2 formely quirkless kids made it into 1A but it wouldn’t be if he is the traitor.

now, we know his his quirk is not “compatible” with his body and he got the belt to help with his quirk on a holiday. what if he didn’t get a belt as a “support item” but as a quirk itself ( maybe by afo ).

why else would he always wear his belt? even in situations where he logically won’t need his quirk to fight ( so doesn’t need his support item ). like in the pool for example?

even more suspicious is how come that at the training camp where they got ATTACKED by the league. dabi CLEARLY saw him, he let him go? with how sadistic he — dabi — is that seems very unlikely unless that was part of the plan ?? ( an allyship ??? )

that + the way he acts sus & how he wants to be friends with deku. i understand he wants to make friends but why deku? is it main character syndrome, is it truly because of their quirks ( which i don’t think he has but lets go with that for a moment ), OR bc the league/or whomever he works with needs him too?

my top three is; 1, aoyama, the reasons stated above. + we know enough about him to care and be shocked by the reveal but not too much that it will shatter everything like if it was shouto, iida or ochako.

2, hagakure, reasons; it’s unclear how she even got into UA as they use cameras and she is invisible? also, where was she at the usj? she says she was with shouto but wouldn’t she have been frozen too then? AND, her ability makes it possible for her to just go as she pleases. as it seems to be a mutation, she can just leave and come as she wants + lie that she was there even though she wasn’t for her cover.

3, kirishima, i really don’t want it to be him but he is well liked and there for no one would suspect it + he does have insecurities and if someone like the league got a hold of that and build a relationship with him on mutual trust. i could see how i could be manipulated into telling them things ( side note: if it’s actually him i will throw myself off a cliff ).

other options are; principal nezu & kaminari. the first one, honestly it’s just because he has the means to do it and as seen at the exams he had a hatred for humans so.. yeah. but it’s a reach in my opion.

the latter is mostly because of other people their theories. i don’t think denki is the traitor nor do i like them as it seems like they only villanise people with bipolar/split personality disorders and i don’t like that narrative ( but he’s on many ppl their list so i acknowledge it atleast ).

#cinnamonruts #. 📎 brain dump

[psychokangaroo]

M3 Diary: Infernal Medicine pt 26 because that's what I'm calling it now.

Kind of stuck between the exhaustion and the pending hospice/goals of care transition/deaths today, I saw something pretty amazing that reminds me of why I loved psychiatry from a long time ago.

We walked in on this patient who is in DKA and grouchy and very hungry and thirsty. Hes angry. Hes angry that he doesn't get to eat food. The intern was not getting through to him at all. And he was starting to swear at all of us and refusing all treatment.

And then my senior did something pretty remarkable. She stopped. She shushed the intern in a nice way, and she stopped. She let the grouchy yelling patient finish. And then she let him fall silent. And then she started replying to him in a quiet and firm voice, empathizing with bis feelings, and somehow getting him to understand why we are doing what we do.

And it turns out, all he was irritated about was not knowing thr plan and feeling not being cared for.

By the time we finished, the man sheepishly apologized for yelling and saying that he's also bipolar and working on his mood swings too, and he's very grouchy today. And what started as an aggressive encounter turned into a softly pleasant one.

Not to toot my own horn, but this encounter reminded me of my first patient at the VA, with a highly intelligent and opionanted man who is probably considered a "difficult" patient, mostly because he likes to set his own schedules within reason amd wants to know everything about what and why he's getting the treatment that he does.

And as a black man, its completely understandable why he is the way he is, given the way that medical research has failed BlPOC again and again. The man was irritated ans done the first time I saw him. Almost right from the get go, he reminded me of the hospitalized patient I saw on psych consult way back in September when I started third year. And I remember all the ways I learned to listen to patients from that rotation. I put my notes and ny pen away, and took a seat on the windowsill next to his bed. And just let him talk, asking him questions about what is the most important thing to him, what matters to him, and how to make everything better. And when there was silence, I remembered what my own therapist once told me in jest (hey, feel free to keep silent. I'm a therapist. I am very good at dealing with silences).

And I came often too. The man was a little lonely. My personal patient list was pretty empty, and he had few visitors. I end up spending an hour or more chatting with him every day, mostly him talking. We talked a lot too, probably beyond what is generally considered appropriate professional conversation, like religion, politics, gender/sexual identity, his own background and my allusion to my own traumas growing up. I think he grew to trust and like me, and I think he was more trusting of us to at least giving him good options he can trust. At least, that's what he told my attending.

Both my patients and thr patient today reminded me some of the things that have fallen into the back if my mind these days and what made me love third year. Medicine is as much about the science of providing treatments with the best evidence for treatment as about the art of building relationships with people, some of whom distrust you and/orndislike you. Its easy to brush them off as difficult people, but more often than not, these people are understandably frustrated for very legitimate reasons. The hospital is a stressful place, and they sometimes need someone to vent to before they feel comfortable with accepting new information from thr endless stream of people parading in and out. And one of the most magical things that I've been told during first year and I now see applied in real time was thr magic of silence. Taking a breath, sitting down, and let your patient have a moment to finish their thoughts, rest, and process. Thag silence isn't awkward. It is restorative, taking people out of the din and chaos and into a moment of peace.

PS. Several years ago, I got into a fight with a classmate I started medical school with. She was talking about patients/colleagues in a way that is almost like she has quite a bit of internalized misogyny. She complained about fitness moms getting a boob job. She complained about bitchy nurses giving her an attitude. She complained about mean co-med students. I called her out on the way she describes her female colleagues. She blew up on me for calling her not super compassionate and promptly blocked me on facebook. I was pretty frustrated with her at the time, but also worried I may have gone too far. Besides, maybe she did happen to meet particularly annoying coworkers and patients. After all, I had not done my clerkship at the time so how would I know? How can I judge?

But now that im almost done with clerkships, I feel that mg criticism of her was more justified. I met some people who are tired and frustrated, but never in a malignant way that she described to me. Amd I have met some interesting situations. I have been yelled at. I have been cursed at. I have been threatened (although the pt is very unlikely to carry out the threat, plus she was manic). I met people who have murdered or committed other serious crimes. I dont know what it says about my distress tolerance, but none of that seem all that bad to me. In the end, these people are in a bad place, and in need of help. And despite all the "scary" encounters, in the end people re just people, flawed and human, much like myself. And I think that it is my job to lend a hand, not only with providing treatments but also doing the simple job of slowing down and offering am ear

#aj does med school #m3 diary #internal medicine #more like infernal medicine #trigger #death #threats #misogyny #internalizd misogyny

[stevesnightmares]

Season 5 had been the perfect ending for Dean in my opinion and season 15 has been the worst possible ending for him.

One of the most important things in a tv show (or book, or comic book, or manga, o movie, or anime) are the characters and their development, nobody likes static characters, everyone wants to see them develop and change. However, while from season 1 to season 5 Sam and Dean went through a lot of character development, after that their characters became static. Or even worse, their character development became circular: throughout a season they seemed to learn something and develop but then the next season everything would start from the beginning with them making the same mistakes as if they hadn’t learned anything and then the circle repeated again and again and again.

The season 5 ending was perfect both stoy wise, because it’s a culmination of 5 seasons, where the stakes kept getting higher and higher every season until they reached their maximum. It felt epic and what we had been waiting for, from ghosts and demons to angels and the literal devil and the apocalypse. But also character wise, it felt like the perfect ending for both of the characters: Dean, who has known nothing but hunting for his whole life, who has always been ready to die prematurely and sacrifice himself for the job, keeps the promise that had made to Sam and doesn’t try to save him even if that’s what he want to do and doesn’t kill himself but instead goes to Lisa and her son, he gets to finally live a normal life full of love and happiness, he gets that life that he never got but that he deserves. It’s the culmination of a 5 seasons character arc, 5 seasons of character development that changed him.

Sam’s ending seems also pretty fitting too in my opinion, his character went through a lot of changes and development too throughout the 5 seasons, he went from the kid who didn’t want to fight anymore, who wanted to go to law school and live his own life, to the one who was forced by circumstances to join to the one who with his own free will decided to sacrifice himself to save the whole world. (But then at the end we see him alive, and we don’t know why or how and it leaves us with questions but also hope and happiness because wait, he’s alive?)

Instead the finale of season 15 was the opposite. There was nothing big going on, it wasn’t a culmination of anything, it wasn’t the climax of a constant crescendo. It was just dumb. And character wise it was even worse, it felt as if nothing had happened at all between season 1 and season 15. Dean dies prematurely during a normal ass job and Sam lives a normal life until he's old and dies. Where’s the depth, what’s the message? This ending feels like an ending that could’ve happened during the first episode of Supernatural, where while Sam is away with Dean, Dean dies and when Sam gets back he and Jess keep being together and he lives his life. 

WHo came up with this idea? And who looked at it and decided “hell yeah, that’s the perfect finale for a 15 seasons tv show”. 

At tthis point episode 19 should’ve just been the last one instead, a way better ending than what we actually got. fucking hell this was such a disater.

edit: I’m not saying that now that we’ve reached 15 seasons they should’ve ended in the same way that s05 did, it was too late for that now. At this point I feel like both of the brothers should’ve gotten an happy ending, especially because we had already defeated the big bad eveil of the season, so after that there was no point in killing Dean just because. It wasn’t even an heroic death or a selfless sacrifice, it was just dumb imo. I don’t know why writers are so allergic to happy endings. They could’ve both survived, especially because it’s not like there had been no deaths, we had already lost Castiel who was a fan favourite charcter. So not killing one of the brothers wouldn’t have ruined the ending making it seem like too happy, because we had already lost SO MANY people. In my opion it just felt like Dean’s death was pointless and he died because the writers decided that at least one of the brothers had to die instead of being a meaningful death that was important for the plot or the charcters. 

#supernatural #supernatural spoilers #dean winchester #Sam Winchester #spn #spn spoilers

[btsandvmin]

Collection of asks 2 - BTSandVMIN

I had to make a second one because the length of the first one was getting way too long. If you are curious about some of my older asks here is the link to my first collection post - Collection of asks - BTSandVMIN

I have this post because I feel some of the asks I answer are worth saving, for me personally, and perhaps for you as well. But I don’t want to put them all in my Masterpost where I want to keep it a bit more structured for my longer posts and analysis. So for asks that are more about answering specific questions or about general things or my feelings I will put them here.

Asks are written more in the moment than my usual posts, so they might be less accurate as it’s all mostly from the top of my head. The newest ones will actually be on top, and then they will get older going down the list. I’ll update it regularly as I answer more asks. :)

Look at jhope's interaction with maknae line

Sorry for spamming with asks

You're so right about how any ship can be possible if you focus on it

I reject any idea of a couple being pushed to protect another 

What do you think of vmin’s busan forehead kiss?

About tae changing the choreo of fake love

What do you think of that famous ji/kook trip together ?

"Friends" doesn't speak about a friendship to me and the title seems like a way to "hide" the true meaning. Thoughts?

I honestly do feel his "best" friend is only ever needed when it's convenient to him

When j/k wore matching shirts asked them something like are u guys dating Its so differnt from his rn to vmin

Looking at th and jm for what they are or represented to be their bond shouldn't be taken at face value. Just reminding that jealousy amongst bandmates do exist

Jimin kissed tae on the pretext of kissing tanny. tae blanked out for a few secs after that

Jin in Jimins Festa profile this yr called Tae his "Bf" and then the next word is "best friend"

I dont think vmin or any other ship in bts for that matter are in any form of relationship right now.

Kind of agree with vmin not spending much time together outside of work & things they do/say barely even give off that "possibly a couple" vibe in general

IF feelings are involved, who do you think fell first and why? 

You already said that you ship them, but do you think that they're real?

I found it kinda weird how jimin apparently "didn't know" 4 o'clock was inspired by him

Have u seen that one radio interview in the past Th openly called out jm for liking men? 

We never see them hangout tgt I mean we have seen ji/kook tgt more often and tae with his wooga squad

What did you think about jimin playing the video game using tae's acc while the latter looked from behind?

When tae posted 'lets keep going for a long time i only have u' they probably only knew e/o for about 2 yrs and now we also know that at that time they still argued and fought with e/o alot. Yet they felt so strongly for their frienship.

What are your thoughts about tae choosing " my time " to recommend it to a non army.

If we look at their personalities tae is more of introverted and shy these days while jimin is more outgoing and loud. But when it comes the them jimin is always the one who seems cautious

Is it my imagination or is Jimin VERY loud lately? I feel like the roles have somehow been reversed.

The timeline of the dumpling incident really confuses me. 

Why do i feel like vmin dont hangout outside of work anymore

Just read your ji/kook vs vmin post regarding festa and I agree. you can tell that jm gets very serious when it comes to tae

A possible sexual relationship between Jimin and Tae. I've seen subtle hints where this might be happening behind the scenes like the recent bang bang con

Whenever joon says stuff like 'what a nice friendship/bcoz he is your friend' vmin have a very neutral or blank face

When do you think their friendship turned into something more?

Did u see how tae coloured jimin's name on the soft board with purple. 

Jimin recently in this festa says jk is his soul brother

Nj nearly always tries to underplay vmin's bond.

Sweet Night: “Sharing my fragile truth That I still hope the door is open Door' 

I feel like jimin was reluctant to talk about the dumpling incident probably bcoz it involves him getting drunk?

Your opinion on the whole "that's smth a couple would do" "you two look like a couple" for ji/kook vs "it's cause he's your friend "

What ur opinion is on the new kdrama that is based on homosexuality. 

Tae has many a times mentioned wanting to have kids or wanting to be father.

Taehyung has always talked about having a family, children and wife etc. 

I personally feel the maknae line in general have been advised not to do lives alone tgt bcoz of the intense shipping

I spend hours reading your posts and I could never get tired of it

I have a doubt about vmin  recently V is so close to JK it seems like V avoiding jimin

Taehyung talked about the movie Call Me by Your Name and its soundtrack

I honestly like how unpopular vmin are.

Let's say JM and TH have other partners - do you think said partners would be okay with a whole song of vmin declaring each other as soulmates? 

In the end there is no moment that is unique to a ship. do you agree?

Some vlives are arranged by the company and sometimes members themselves when the find free time they go live. 

What was the point of making a decision tght to come on vlive tgh infront of the fan to then not do it?

It cant be the company stopping v and jm from doing a live can it? 

Do you the think the reason vmin dont do vlive is because taehyung's feelings are one sided?

Theory on a possible reason on why vmin has not gone to do a vlive on their own for so long?

On bon voyage 3 j hope mentions how v and jk were hugging each other in their sleep.

Ji/kook is obvious (ear nibble) and Tae reacting blank to Vmin moments

But why they dont have funny bro handshake like v/kook?

You are so delusional like seriously how do you function in real life

You know how vmin called eo soulmates. The term can also be taken in a platonic way too right

If there’s a real ship in bts, can you give me your opinion on who?

Tae kissing jimin's cheek after they won an award in some music show (About ship edits)

I think vmin is real. Can you do a Sweet night analysis because in my opion the song dosen't match with the drama

Why are you a Vmin shipper if you don't think Jimin is gay or at least bisexual? 

I don't blame V and Jimin for not doing Vlive together

You know that blurry picture of vmin in 2014?

Tae and jk seem like the members who are most non straight to u and also that jimin might be straight so then isnt it more possible for t**k***k to be the couple?

Do you think that vmin are straight?

Can you tell me what makes you think jk is not straight

Ppl connect sweet night and 4 o' clock with vmin After tae's live yesterday n i m also seeing some ppl being offended by it.

Why do I sense that Tae has more of crush on Jimin (and realized it) but Jimi is oblivious?

Will you still publish that long vmin and lgbt in korea analysis.

Even namjoon said they should go live to discuss about their song.

I dont really consider minjoon vlive as one they did themselves. it was mostly organised by the company

Maknae line avoid vlives and  its really weird that jimi would do it with rm but not tae

Shouldnt it be easy for them to go live tght than anyone else?

Tae is very reluctant or scared to do a vlive with jimin

In the past month when vmin did mention about the song they just made superficial comments

Hi 💙 do you write vmin fics?

I also feel that jm is nervous to talk about the song even though he said he will in the comeback show

If jimin doesn't go live today as well maybe we can get a vmin live?

Vmin antis say vmin are not friends irl and use the fact that they are never spotted hanging out offscreen as "proof"

Will you do a Vmin throwback - 2019?

Can we even be considered delulu anymore for thinking not all of this is a coincidence?

Sweet night doesn't really fit the couple relationship in the drama

What do you mean when you say 'not being delulu'?

I dont know why after listening to sweet night i feel very nervous?

Maybe the lyrics to SN are very well just about the drama/webtoon.

Do you think the songs lie and stigma are related ? 

Namjoon talking about Friends 2 - Making excuses

Namjoon talking about Friends 1 - Can’t write about them

About the “Hello my alien” line in Friends

Do you think they gone do fansing this period of promoting?

Jm said when he wants to make and gift a song if he finds someone he loves and he actually helped write n produce the melody of chingu

Omg Ive been crying over the vmin song lyrics ever since they came out.

Thoughts about the song and what you took out of it

Its not a light hearted thing to call each other soulmate

This kind of debunks the christmas song theory… i feel sad like they are commercialising their friendship

Jimin is partly involved in the making and it will be about Jimin and Tae’s bond

I fear that vmin will become the next larry 

Chrismats song, smile awards. Arent those awards previously decided and even the words written for them by the company?

I was wondering if you're going to write something about bv4 and all the vmin we got there

Do you think that vmin say they love each other truly or for fan service?

Recently i watched a vkook video to compare

Do you know how exactly vmin met?

Whenever I do get the chance to focus on Vmin it’s usully one of three things

At the airport Tae had his arm around Jimin's shoulder but removed it quickly when they arrived in front of the cameras.

I don’t care if people don’t ship Vmin romantically. But with Vmin doing things like this you can’t really blame us if we do.

I got a looooot of asks on the Christmas song and I will adress the ones I have left all in one go

The reaction in bv was probably cause he wants to visits there and jm got there first

Vmin talked about tannie and how they went to visit tannie at tae's parents house

Just do it how you feel comfortable, we are waiting for your analysis

What video is the gif you post with this : Jimin and V talking about going to the Sapporo snow festival and playing in the snow together 

This break was an opportunity for them to be around other friends and family so maybe they just wanted to spend this time apart

Do you really think vm are soulmates? Sometimes i feel like we might be over using this word for them 

Once again thank you for all the asks you send! And also sorry for not being able to keep up and answer them all. I’ll try to answer some old ones as well whenever I can, and I will keep adding some of them to this list. I hope you found something interesting. Thanks for reading!

#vmin #vmin analysis #btsandvmin #Btsandvmin ask #btsandvmin masterpost #vmin masterpost #Btsandvmin answer #95z is love #my post #keep loving vmin

[cxlvins]

...000. INTRODUCTION.

helloooo lovelies ! my name is naomi (he/him), i’m twenty-two and from the gmt timezone ! i’m super excited for this to open because i’ve got so much muse right now. i’m down for any and all plots, seriously, i love plotting ! this is calvin, he’s an angry mess of a character, but he’s fun to play, so ! if you just wanna get to know the character, you can skip past the other sections and just focus on personality, i’ve also put some wanted connections in there too ! if you would like to plot, then either shoot me a message here or on discord (heterosexual? how vintage!#8600) or alternatively, like this post and i will message you !

caution: alcohol, drugs, mental health, death.

°☼ ◜ xavier serrano, cismale, he/him ◞ ∗ ∘ good to see you again, calvin marx. you're twenty-three now, right ? i heard you’ve been streaming professionally on twitch  … crazy how time flies. you were always known as the crimson. i’m glad to see you’re just as gregarious as always — and volatile, too .. kidding ! bella used to always mention it …you were her bad influence, after all. don’t worry, we’ll find her soon. what matter is that we’re together now, right ? not really.  + thrift-store clothing, bruised knuckles, a scent of cologne & cigarettes.  + watermelon sugar by harry styles.

...001. BRIEF HISTORY.

calvin grew up very underprivileged for the first 11 years of his life in brooklyn, ny.

his father died when he was 5 years old to a drug overdose, leading his mother became a single mother to him and his younger sister, essentially meaning that calvin had to grow up and be the ‘man of the house’ without having a choice.

because of her new single-mother status, calvins mother had to work 3 different jobs in order for the family to pay rent (a cleaner in mornings, a store assistant in the day and a bartender in the evenings), which meant she was rarely home and left calvin to raise both himself and younger sister.

from a very early age, it was apparent that calvin suffered from anger issues, dyslexia and adhd, constantly getting into fights at every opportunity, his complete inability to focus and never managing to make it through a week at school without a phone call home.

these issues remained untreated, due to his mother putting it down to the ‘boys will be boys’ ideology, and concluding that calvin was just an energetic one at that.

because of this, calvin fell into the wrong crowd pretty quickly and settled into his mindset that he was never going to achieve all that much anyway, because no matter how hard he tried, he could never score well on any test at school.

at the age of 9, calvins mother met, fell in love with and soon married a former client for whom she cleaned for.  calvins new step father was incredibly wealthy, due to being a successful franchisee and also being very largely into stock trading.

calvin, his sister and mother were all moved to his home in wilmington, which calvin struggled to adjust to, as he missed his friends back north.

he quickly made friends with the clique as he was brought into it by jordan and it did put some ease on his pressure, but part of him always felt like he should still be back in brooklyn.

now having access to as much money as he want led him down an early path into experimenting with drugs and alcohol, which soon became a bad habit.

although he wanted to drop out of school, his new step-father would not allow it, which became a large source of conflict for the family over the course of the next few years.

failing to graduate high school at age eighteen, calvin couldn’t deal with living with his family any more and left the house to move into a small apartment, 30 minutes away, with a roommate (possibly a member of the clique).

calvins only real passions were for gaming and sport, and as he smoked and did way too many drugs to make it in any sporting profession, he turned his attention to twitch streaming. he began this pretty soon and built up a solid fanbase (which he wanted to call the marxists, but in calvins words, apparently some dead man already claimed that title). 

...002. PERSONALITY.

calvin is a naturally angry person who can lose his cool and go from 0 to 100 in a matter of seconds, he rarely gives off signs that he is getting angry until he boils over, so people tend to watch what they say around him.

calvin is self-serving, his feelings will always come before those around him. although he is getting better at managing this, if something will result in calvin gaining something at the expense of somebody else, he will most likely go ahead with it.

calvin is not well educated, so he doesn’t tend to enjoy arguing with words, as he can never seem to find the ones to correctly express how he feels. instead, calvin is much more likely to act physically when something has irritated him (whether this be on a person or inanimate object).

calvin is an awful liar, he cannot lie to save his life as his face always tends to show when he doesn’t agree with an idea/opion/thought that somebody says. because of this, he is very outspoken, and will just say what he’s thinking regardless of if it’s going to hurt somebodies feelings. he’d rather upset them with the truth, than get caught out for lying.

calvin is an extrovert and gains energy from being around people - the more people the better, because of this, he has become a major party animal and loves attending any and all parties that is going on, despite if he’s fond of the hosts or not.

calvin is a heavy user of drugs, alcohol & cigarettes. this is primarily down to his naturally addictive personality and constant need to feel like he’s happy, so that he doesn’t get sad again. there will rarely be a day where he will not  be intoxicated in some way and he will have a cigarette at least once an hour -- and that’s on a good day.

calvin is very much into sports. although not a natural athlete, nor somebody interested in playing sports competitively, calvin loves watching any and all sports, and he likes to play them when he can. due to his smoking habit, he can’t play sports for too long, but will always give it a good go.

similarly to this, calvin is very much into gaming. calvin loves fast-paced games, because they manage to keep his attention despite him not having a very long attention span. most games that he plays are first person shooters, and he’s usually the guy on the mic screaming when a teammate fucks up during online play. a big appeal to him was that games were the only thing he could focus his mind on as a child.

calvin is very much a boys boy, he genuinely abides by the bible of ‘ bros before hoes ‘ because he’s stupid.

calvin hates movies but loves tv, he finds that watching moves involves sitting still for too long, but tv allows him to take more breaks and keeps his interest for longer. although. he’d probably trade both of them for a chance to leave the house.

...003. TRAITS.

[ G R E G A R I O U S ] (+) — a person fond of company; sociable.

[ I N T U I T I V E ] (+) — using or based on what one feels to be true even without conscious reasoning; instinctive.

[ F O R T H R I G H T ] (+) — direct and outspoken.

[ V O L A T I L E ] (-) — liable to change rapidly and unpredictably, especially for the worse.

[ V E N G E F U L ] (-) — not willing to forgive or excuse people's faults or wrongdoings.

[ H E D O N I S T I C ] (-) — engaged in the pursuit of pleasure; sensually self-indulgent.

...004. BELLA KIM.

when calvin met bella, he never took too much of a shine to her, deeming her to be a rather fake individual and not understanding the rest of the groups investment with her. however, because he was a new introduction to the group and not there from the beginning, calvin felt he couldn’t really speak up and vocalise that without being dropped from the group himself.

for whatever reason, bella herself took a liking to calvin and he decided to use this to his advantage. for a girl with such a clean reputation, it seemed only the sensible thing to try and corrupt her -- which proved successful. 

calvin introduced bella to the world of bad decisions and the two spent many nights breaking several laws and it created a sort of bond that only the pair really understood. they never talked about anything personal -- or, if they did, they were too high to remember -- but calvin saw a side to bella that not many others did, which he liked.

after moving out, calvin and bellas meetings became much less frequent as the group drifted apart. they would still meet up for occasional meet-ups, their last one being 3 months before the disappearance of bella.

calvin does not believe that she is alive and is dealing with it, as expected, not very well.

...005. WANTED CONNECTIONS.

CURRENT BEST FRIENDS — Possibly a boy squad? I live for a good boy squad. This person will have similar interests to Calvin, or be able to tolerate his volatile mood.

CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS — Someone with a similar upbringing from Brooklyn, most likely they grew apart when Calvin moved to Wilmington.

RIDE OR DIES — Although he primarily looks out for himself, I’m down to have Calvin have one person who he’s loyal to and will refuse to betray, we can come up with a fun reason for why he cares so much if you’re interested in this one.

HIS ROOMMATE — Somebody that moved with Calvin into his current apartment when he moved out at 18.

A GOOD INFLUENCE ON CALVIN — One of my favorite connections for Calvin to have is somebody who knows all of his flaws and attempts to help fix them. They’ll have to be patient, though, as Calvin doesn’t see himself for having any issues.

SOMEBODY HE IS A BAD INFLUENCE OF — On the opposite, I love when Calvin has somebody that he can introduce to bad things, corrupt easily and get a kick out of watching the commotion.

EXES ON BAD TERMS — Cheating on each other is usually an easy one to go with, but if you want, we can think of something more unique as to how it all fucked up and why they now hate each other.

EXES ON GOOD TERMS — Maybe they still occasionally fuck? There could still be an attraction there, but just no romantic chemistry. Alternatively, they tried it and both just couldn’t see it going anywhere.

EXES WITH LINGERING FEELINGS — There’s a ton of different reasons for why there’s still lingering feelings. The feelings could be one-sided or both ways.

EX FLINGS — Started as friends with benefits, one of them wanted more, the other didn’t, they decided to stop before someone got hurt.

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS — No romantic intention, just a good way to kill time at 2 AM, or maybe it’s easy to know you have someone to go home to if you don’t find someone at a party.

FRIENDS FOR NECESSITY — This friend may not have that much in common with Calvin, they may not really get on in day to day life, but they are always there to get high, attend a party or do something dumb. an easy person to talk to when they’re both bored and wanna get out.

HIS YOUNGER SISTER — If anybody fancies a second character, I’m always down to have Calvins sister in the roleplay. They can either get along or not, we’ll just figure out the details.

EX FRIENDS — Used to be close but now aren’t, plenty of reasons as to why.

ENEMIES — Despise each other, seeing this person literally makes Calvins blood boil. Possibly sexual tension too if that would work, if not, they can just fight a lot.

WILL THEY / WON’T THEY — Lots of leading on and teasing each other, maybe they both think they’re stringing the other along but it turns out neither of them are interested? Maybe they start out not interested and it backfires later, by that time the other could’ve lost interest.

ANY OTHER IDEAS YOU THINK WILL WORK !

...006. ADDITIONAL INFORMATION.

Calvin is bisexual but heteroromantic, so any sexual-based connections can be taken by any gender.

Calvins Pinterest can be located here. Please note that it contains triggers for alcohol, drugs, blood & violence.

#clique.intro

[gettin-bi-bi-bi]

1. anon with the friend problem again. I’m sorry this is the last one. The toxic friend was friends with me & another person. And the other person is still friends with her. She would exclude me & include him in situations. I can’t help but be a little hurt that he agrees she’s been toxic yet is still friends with her. It’s not my business so I’m trying to cope with it. I wish he would’ve stood up for me more but I can’t ask him to put himself in the middle. I can’t afford to lose his friendship

2. This other friend is one of the most important people in my life. He cares about me and has listened to my problems. And he has talked to the toxic friend about this. But I just wish he would’ve said more earlier. I asked for a week break from him so I can cope with his friendship with the toxic person. He asked why and I released all my thoughts and I made him upset. I feel guilty for putting him in the middle of this; I know it’s wrong. He can’t do more than he has & can’t change the past

I don’t know what that toxic friend said or did to make you end the friendship with her but in my personal opion, if a mutual friend noticed this all the time and even agree that her behaviour wasn’t right then I think he should have stepped up and said something. I totally agree with you that he should have done that and I don’t think it’s asking too much of someone.

I guess it depends on how much he really noticed at the time but still I find it a bit strange he agrees with you and sees how this person has hurt you but still goes on being friends with her. Maybe he wants to know her side of the story, maybe he hopes she can change. That’s all his prerogative of course. But from your perspective it’s bound to look like he doesn’t take your pain serious.

It’s definitly a shitty situation for everyone. I would recommend talking to him about how it makes you feel to know he’s friends with her and talk to her about you. Of course you cannot expect him to end that friendship with her. But you’ll have to think about how it makes you feel to still be associated with her through him (especially when he seems to be talking to her about you). If that keeps you from healing then maybe you really do need to take your distance from him, too. At least for a while.

Maddie

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