#and he just said I’ve been working

[lauryn-order]

Look. Idgaf if you ghost me 99% of the time. That’s your prerogative and you don’t owe me shit.

But if you’ve fucked me and beat me to a pulp and then ghost me a few days later? That shit hurts.

#especially because I gave him an out #and straight up said what’s going on you’ve been distant #and he just said I’ve been working #and then ghosted me a day later #it’s bullshit right? #idk I’m really depressed about it #and so hurt #and feel so gross #I really liked him #and let my guard down #and put all my effort into this guy #and then he just left me on read when I said I missed him #it stings man #mine

[rithmeres]

bait / hook / line / sinker

#the hunger games #finnick odair #thg #the hunger games fanart #this was a very very weird painting for me. #like i have painted decapitated heads and severed arms and shattered ribs and guts falling out and gallons of blood #and not once have i ever looked up from my work and been disgusted or disturbed by what i’ve painted #but the first day i was working on this one i looked at it and just felt so sick i had to get up and take a shower to get away from it #HE WAS 14 WTF WTF WTF WTF #that is a baby. that is a little kid. turned into a killer and paraded around like a novelty and used like a toy. #but on the whole i am very satisfied with this propaganda piece it's just as beautiful and unsettling as i wanted it to be #ugh my mind. nothing in the composition is overt but all the implications are there #not just the capitol's sexualization and brutalization of children but the fetishization of the districts' labor as well #as my good friend and mutual theworldiswhispering said. #'the hard labor you do is not safe from being romanticized by the people who benefit from it at your expense' #and i think about that every day #wherefore art thou #thg reread #why he so smooth.. just like a shark #[katniss voice] mfs took all my body hair cant have shit in the capitol #i just know tumblr's gonna crunch the quality of these images but i worked on a canvas 4 times larger than the usual size #so a lot of the detail gets lost when i post it. oh well. click for quality i guess #his expression changes when you're far away #far away he looks kind of vacant #close up he's smiling. like the photographer wanted a specific cocky emotion from him and it was there #but when you zoom out there's just a thousand yard stare #i did think about turning these into prints or actual posters but um. i don't think i should do that

[arctic-bookclub]

in my opinion, qphil isolating and exiling himself is only going to make things worse or delay the inevitable: as shown yesterday the enderking wants qphil to isolate, to not tell anyone, and luckily for our evil demigod that is exactly how qphil operates. he holds secrets in hopes of not hurting others, not getting them involved. and we just saw what happens when he has a support network helping him, he broke free from enderking’s grasp even for a moment. but that bit is not the only reason why his isolation is playing straight into enderking’s hands: it’s his insecurities as well. ”i’m a shit dad” ”i need to prove myself worthy of protecting” ”i need to provide better for the family” ”i need to be stronger” - all insecurities that are qphil’s downfall. enderking has already played into his need to provide for the kids as well as the want to be stronger (the buffs in the dungeon), what’s stopping him from digging his claws further to qphil’s core, his insecurities and weaknesses now that he has no one to break him out of his self-deprecating loop? when all he has are his thoughts, the caws of a crow and the voice of him? if no one finds him in exile, i think he will lose himself again, betrayed by his own mind

#historically isolating yourself has always worked and been a great idea /j #literally the only way i can see him making it out of this is if a deity finds him #qsmp #qsmp philza #qsmp phil #philza #shey rambles #literally every piece if mental health advice i’ve ever heard and read started screaming in my head the moment he decided to leave #of* #like you’re doing the exact thing that you’re told NOT TO DO IN ANY CIRCUMSTANCE #my god #when he said in a zombie apocalypse qphil would hide being bitten and just leave quietly to die he was not kidding #also melting point of wax… ​’throw caution and myself into the wind’ #you sure are!!!! #’i hear the voice of reason screaming after me’ YOU SURE AS HELL DO #THAT’S ME. I’M THE ONE SCREAMING AT YOU #FUCKKKKKK

[babygirlmickey]

#something about mickey patiently waiting in line to use his own damn bathroom is just so fucking funny to me #and yes it is his bathroom he lives there fuck off #s1 Mickey wouldve just gone out back and shit in the bushes #but as I’ve said. he’s been domesticated. house trained and everything #shameless #mickey milkovich #noel fisher #shamelessedit #shamelessnet #my gifs #I wonder if he’s crate trained too or if they’re still working on it. I bet Ian has a clicker #🪐

[thebroccolination]

THE EX-MORNING SERIES CONCEPT

By now I think many people have heard that KristSingto’s upcoming series is an original script that was written for them. What we also have confirmed is that it was written about them.

[source]

KRIST: This series was written by P'Backaof and directed by P'Lit where they created this script from the start deliberately for the two of us and they got information for the characters etc. from KristSingto directly. In the series, the name for P'Sing is Tamtawan, and my name is Phatapi. And Tamtawan Tamtawan and Phatapi are KristSingto themselves.

INTERVIEWER: Does that mean you play yourself?

KRIST: [laughing] Yes, we act as ourselves, so it's not difficult at all.

Today, Aof elaborated on his part on Twitter:

[source: @backaof]

[translation: @_beinglistener]

And Jojo added:

[source: @jojotichakorn]

[translation: @_beinglistener]

So, two gay men are the leading creative minds behind KristSingto’s comeback series. Time to study up on your KristSingto history, kids. \:D/

Long live sanctioned RPF. 🎉

#krist perawat #singto prachaya #kristsingto #the ex morning #i’ve already seen the same tired ‘guess rent was due’ about krist and #i see on twitter when people link my thread about krist to people still insisting he’s homophobic #man’s rich #he works constantly #he even said it’s something he regrets now that his grandmother who raised him passed away #he worked so much he didn’t have as much time for his family—who he helps support #he is quite literally considered bl royalty #he has more queer people in his circle than straight #waa (gay) is his mentor #aof (gay) wrote this series and jojo (gay) thought up the concept so even professionally he's supported by queer people #you don’t have to like him #and you don’t have to admit to sending death threats to a stranger who doesn’t speak your language based on rumors you didn’t verify #just y’know #admit quietly to yourself alone in your head that you were wrong and you caused harm to a person who didn’t deserve it #plenty of actors use bl as a stepping stone to bigger jobs #he’s not one of them #he wanted to do bl for years but gmmtv told him he could only work with singto #so literally the only reason kit didn’t do bl until BMF was scheduling issues because singto wanted to study abroad #and singto couldn’t get a fixed date for it and then the pandemic messed with his plans even more #i’m glad to see more and more people are understanding who krist is recently #and even in the series they made pathapi’s controversy an impulsive act of anger #krist has said he used to struggle with being hotheaded #and one of his apologies for the igs was even something like ‘i acted without thinking of how it would look out of context’ #he just wanted people to stop harassing him for his sexuality but the context isn’t in the igs #anyway my go-to when i’m too tired to talk about this is always this #if he had ever been homophobic thai people would be the ones leading the charge against him…but it’s interfans

[fan-kingdoms]

god i wish we had gotten more of twelve with river song. he just meshes so well with her and since their time streams are finally (almost) synced up you don’t feel the imbalance of maturity/knowledge that you get in a lot of eleven’s time with her, and less general timeline “where are they right now what the fuck is happening” fuckery to sort through. just a husband and wife who have lived so much together and know it’s coming to an end very soon so they have to relish it (even if river doesn’t have the knowledge of her own death the way the doctor does, she knows it’s almost over because her diary is running out of pages). and i love watching this older, less theatrical, more rough-around-the-edges doctor with her because it develops their dynamic and the passage of time for the doctor so well. he's not eleven, trying to hide the pain and damage anymore. he doesn't spin off lies and deflections. he wears the hurt and is comfortable in it, and river is there to bring the joy and wonder out. they just have a more mature, beautiful relationship to me.

more thoughts and elaboration under the cut bc i care for your dash <3

twelve and river were such a delight to watch because (this is getting into hot take territory here sorry) once capaldi took over from matt smith, the show basically gave up on the whole “the doctor is very attractive and all the women want him” narrative that it pushed for eleven. of course it was there with ten but i think it got Egregious with eleven. moffat really wanted us to believe matt smith was the hottest man in the universe (and he’s not unattractive! i admit i thought he was attractive when i first watched doctor who years and years ago! the writing was just over the top with it!) twelve is not some young whimsical prettyboy anymore— he’s abrasive, blunt, and old. the show doesn’t treat him like he’s supposed to be attractive, which makes him and river’s relationship feel so real.

first off i want to point out that river is still very much attracted to the doctor in his new body which was so exciting for me because how often to we get to see romance and desire and (sexually) intimate relationships in people past the age of 35??? hardly ever! how often do we see a beautiful woman expressing desire for a man that’s not young or conventionally handsome NOT because she has ulterior motives or we’re supposed to believe he’s actually the sexiest man alive but because she simply loves him? how often do we see relationships where no matter how much change they go through, even when one of them has turned into an entirely different person (figuratively or literally), the love stays steady and unchanged? especially when these changes involve aging? there isn’t nearly enough. and seeing it is kind of healing for me, just a reminder that you can have love and intimacy and passion even when you’re not “young and beautiful” anymore

twelve and river’s relationship is just charged with so much shared experience and trust and i wish we had gotten to see more of it. in conclusion i want a special that recaps the 24 years on darillium thank you and goodbye

#they had twenty four years… #all that time to just live and be husband and wife #all that time for her to learn all the ins and outs of the new him #and all the ways for him to work through how he can express love in the new body #as twelve rather than eleven #and getting to see that she loves him just the same in every form #idk i’ve been thinking a lot about aging lately #i know im young but i have a bit of a fear of it because of how society pushes the whole ‘past your prime’ narrative #especially for women who are taught that they lose value once their ‘youth and beauty’ fades #like i said seeing relationships like these is healing #doctor who #twelfth doctor #river song #the husbands of river song

[manu-jpeg]

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OMG I FORGOT TO POST UUUUUUUUHHHH…

STRAWHAT POST TIME SKIP REDESIGN PART 2: NAMI

my very convoluted thought process! enjoy some word vomit! i was especially indecisive on her haircut and how to incorporate some glitz and glamour :/

she’s not as fancy (i.e. jewelry and expensive clothes) as i would’ve wanted her to be :( but i looove tomboy nami a lot so i still really like her outfit

the nami on the left is more of a restyling meant to stay pretty close to her canon design, just so that i could gauge what it was about her og look that i did and didn’t like :0

i’m a little angry at myself for keeping the bikini bra, cause i’ve seen really cool nami designs that aren’t blatantly “sexy” and make her a cooler outfit with a garment other than a bra. but also! she’s chubby! she’s transfem! she’s a lesbian! she’s a criminal! let her be sexy! for the ladies! and for herself! that’s cheesy but idk that’s my thoughts on it

i also think the teal aviator jacket is pretty ingenious! i guess i kinda wanted to give her a similar vibe to kiki from kiki’s delivery service. like how kiki’s both a mail delivery girl and a witch, and now nami’s both a pilot and a witch! idk… does that make sense??? i just have this very vivid imagine in my brain of nami using the clima tact like a broom to fly… but that’s what zeus is for…? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

ALSO REAL QUICK! COMPASS AND SQUARE PIN ON HER JACKET! IN NO WAY RELATED TO FREEMASONRY OR WHATEVER! THAT SYMBOL HAS A “G” IN THE MIDDLE! I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT FREEMASONRY IS I JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT IT RIGHT BEFORE POSTING THIS! ITS JUST A COMPASS AND SQUARE CAUSE SHES THE NAVIGATOR AND I THOUGHT IT WAS CUTE! ok psa over :D

zeus!! he’s silly!! but with a less stupid hat! maybe more stupid hat idk! :D

i’m gonna tweak everyone’s jolly roger a little bit to match my redesigns (maybe not zoro’s tho i like it as it is and matches him pretty well already… and definitely not luffy’s cause it’s the crew’s insignia)

uuuuuhhh i hope y’all like it! suggestions for making it better are appreciated!!

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#manustuff.txt #artists on tumblr #one piece #character redesign #one piece redesign #op nami #nami #cat burglar nami #also i am gonna post a full zoro design at some point #the old post was just color testing #and i’ve added more detail to him now #uuuuugh i’ve been struggling so much with sanji #idk how to balance how much i want to make him aggressively transfem #but also make him close enough to canon that i don’t get embarrassed by how self indulgent my redesign is ;-; #i have usopp’s concept completely planned out too #i just haven’t drawn the full body yet #cause end of school year art block #also idk how to draw that long nose from a front view and that’s bugging me #luffy is almost completely done #i just want to add more detail #cause he looks pretty simple and almost identical to canon #robin and franky are in the works too #i’ve compiled references and have a general idea of what i wanna do #chopper is a mystery to me #idk what to do with him… #uuuuuh ok i’ve said enough #this was over the course of like 2-3 months btw #i’m not overworking myself on this lol

[sprinklersart]

one day when I am 3% less worried about being cringe I will post my half baked justified fic where they stay together through college/prison and become surprising well adjusted despite you know being Who They Are and also maybe or maybe not committing at least 1 homicide together. Or something g to that effect.

#justified #raylan givens #boyd crowder #these are SO old. like. a year old. but I’m posting them :) #and that’s ok :) #no sorry some of these are even older. my god I’ve been justified pilled for too long. devastated #i just enjoy the idea of raylan being a college super senior doing like work study and taking an American lit elective and being generally #unassuming only to casually drop one day that oh yeah he can’t make it to that class meeting bc he’s gotta go visit his boyfriend in prison #I also like the idea of said boyfriend moving in to Raylan’s off campus house after his realease and his 3 roommates being like hey raylan #uh just curious but why is your excon gay bf reading my ochem textbook also is he selling weed out of our apartment be honest

[the-casbah-way]

i never ever cry in front of anyone ever but there was this boy i was OBSESSED with in primary school when i was like seven years old because he was the fastest boy in the class and he had cool spiky hair and i always thought it was a crush until i came out and realised it was gender envy of some form and today my friend out of the blue told me that i look like him and we looked at his instagram together and i actually do. i look almost exactly like him. and i cried like an absolute wanker because i’ve been so miserable my whole life being perceived entirely the wrong way and i went home today and looked at myself and realised i look like the boy i always wanted to be when i was a kid. and whenever i feel bad about myself i get to remind myself that i look like him so i shouldn’t feel bad because back then i couldn’t have ever dreamed of getting to look like this. and t will only make it better and even though the idea of starting it is still so scary to me i keep having moments like this that make me realise how good it’s going to be even if some of it will suck. i always focus on all of the ways my transition has gone and will go wrong and i forget that it’s going to go right in a lot of ways too

#i remember what this boy looked like when he started getting spots and what he sounded like when his voice started breaking #and it makes me so excited even for the parts of t that everyone says are ‘bad’ #my identity is so much more binary than i tell myself it is. i play it down because being a fully binary Guy who wants to be purely masc is #a lot harder to break to my mother who is devastated even at the thought of me being a masculine woman #i’ve been pretending for a while that i’m more ‘in the middle’ than i really am because of that #but moments like this always remind me that i know exactly what i want to be and what i want to look like #and it’s the exact opposite of everything my mother wants me to be #this shit is going to be Hard. and i don’t expect my mother will stick around the further into my transition i get #which is so unbearable to me that i try not to think about it. i just can’t go back into the closet even for her #i was trying to force myself to do that before xmas and that’s what made me attempt and end up coming out to her #but i didn’t tell the full truth i just said i hate being feminine and i hate being a girl #i couldn’t bring myself to say the rest and i don’t know if i’ll ever say any of it to her #i wish i had a therapist so i could talk about all this as i’m working through the beginning of transition but. oh well

[sad-emo-dip-dye]

Now I don’t have like, a solid canon basis for this, it’s literally just my fun hc, but I like to think that on some level Atsushi is the book. Like, if you’ve ever watched Dr Who, in one of the specials there is a weapon that’s so powerful it develops its own consciousness, and I just think with the way Atsushi is the supposed wayfinder of the book, in DA shibusawa said he was the envy of all abilities/users, and he said his own regenerative ability doesn’t heal wounds but negate or rewrite them, I just like to think it would be kinda cool if he was a manifestation of the book itself

#writing this at 3 am so if it doesn’t make sense im slepy #and idk how it would work but like I just like to think the Book ended up in the orphanage #like Fitzgerald and Fyodor have said the book is in Yokohama somewhere #and we’ve seen as a kid atsushi spent most of his time in the library I think? #and we already know he’s gone Some Connection to it #but I also feel like his parents have the potential to be Important so idk how that would pan out #idk idk like I said this is silly and doesn’t have a real solid canon defense #I’ve also been rewatching Dr Who if you can’t tell #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bsd atsushi

[theworstcreature]

As someone who used to be downright OBSESSED with Percy Jackson, this show is making me trust the process so fucking hard

#your telling me this is what I’ve been looking forward to for the past like 3 years??? #I’m sorry but the complete innacuracu and changing of the plot HURTS #I think my expectations were far too high #like there ARE good changes I won’t deny #but like #there’s also so many I hate #especially in tonight’s episode #and yeah I sound like a bitchy ass complainer #but idk it just bothers me #im still gonna watch tho #see how it all works out #like I said in the post #gotta trust the process #uncle Rick has to know what he’s doing right #right? #Percy jackson #pjotv spoilers #Percy Jackson Spoilers #Percy jackson series

[eqan]

we had such a nice morning and then dewey guarded a sock from ryker

#dogblr #dog #my dogs #milo #dewey #ryker #ranger #it was still a nice morning i was just 🙂 ok son #that’s mostly what we’ve been working on with the behaviorist #cause dewey would go from 0-100 and just launch at one of the other dogs when guarding #no warning etc etc #im happy to report he now warns before launching like 75% of the time lol #i’ve always said dog-dog guarding doesn’t bother me #(milo does it) cause it’s such a natural behavior. but i at least want the dogs to warn one another and not just. bite #resource guarding is a very corgi problem according to the behaviorist #and i told her i don’t care to extinguish the behavior 🤷🏼 just teach dew he can talk to his brothers in other ways #it’s going well imo #some conditioning training + relaxation protocol are doing wonders (: #he’s going to grow into such a cool dog 😭😭😭😭😭

[taylorswiftdebut]

swifties’ beef with people who have supposedly wronged taylor is so funny to me cause it’s like on one end of the spectrum one dude stole her entire body of work and one dude emotionally manipulated her and their relationship when she was 19 and on the other end of the spectrum there’s her boyfriend of 6 years she parted amicably with and a girl who can’t even legally drink alcohol in the united states like it’s all so unserious be so fucking real

#BUT ITS ALL TREATED WITH THE SAME SEVERITY #and i think it’s different when people are like yeah it seems they might have beef or this is interesting #but people literally put situations like the one with olivia rodrigo at the same level of that with scooter like it’s all so silly and rid #*ridiculous’ #*! #me and my keyboard are struggling #also i can’t base my perception of a person based off of something i THINK my favorite artist (who i don’t know) might THINK about them #if olivia rodrigo had been like actually i don’t even know what she could’ve been like to make me hate her the way eveeyone seems to #(even though taylor has talked at length how traumatizing that experience can be at such a young age but whatever) #and people always bring up the conan grey not listening to midnights but he was literally touring at the time 😭 #and almost every single person i’ve ever talked to who tours or works on a touring crew has said #it’s incredibly difficult to listen to new music especially new albums while touring #and especially if it’s an artist they love they want to give it consideration but like i said this whole situation #is so silly! oh you’re not gonna listen to her album because of taylor??? respectfully grow up! #i’m just so tired of seeing this discourse everywhereeeeeeeeeeee #anyway alkakakakakdkd #eris: text

[persephoneflowerpetals]

Hades Comic 5 but instead of randomly falling for Medusa he falls for Persephone:

Hades: Alright, who’s next in line to be turned into immortal home decor, huh? *notices Persephone hiding in the corner*

Hades: *uses his powers to do that smokey arm thing he does to pull her over to him* Persephone! Goddess of Spring! Come on up! Don’t be shy!

Hades: *turns away from her to think* Alright, now what should I turn you into? A flower pot? A sack of fertilizer? *turns back around and looks into Persephone’s eyes* Y’know what? I think I…

Hades: *suddenly freezes while imagining a happy life with Persephone if he married her and started a family in some sort of silly little montage* …love you.

Persephone: *shocked and slightly disgusted* What?!

Hades: Ahem, I said: I think I’ll keep you! You can be my personal slave. You’ll cook, you’ll clean, and you’ll rub my feet after a long day of doing absolutely nothing. It’ll be great. You’ll love it.

Persephone: (quietly) I think I’d rather be a sack of fertilizer.

Hades: What was that?

Persephone: Nothing.

Hades: *grins evilly* That’s “Nothing, my oneness.” to you, sweetheart.

Persephone: *rolls her eyes*

(Medusa and Hades’ former “dream team” come into the scene and yadda yadda yadda)

Persephone: *sees Hades trying to get Medusa to go out with him* (in her head) I thought he was into me? Wait, why am I upset about that? I’m not into him! He’s a total jerk! He literally turned my friends and family into household objects and tried to make me his personal slave! Why would I ever be into that stupid face and those…piercing eyes and…those big, well toned muscles and…oh gods I’ve got issues.

(Then Hades makes his great escape with Medusa, she gently turns him down and he’s rethinking his whole life lol)

Hades: Well, it was worth a shot. Maybe I should change for the better. Then maybe I’ll have a chance with her…better yet, I could have a chance with Persephone! Who needs “snakes-for-brains” when I can have a spring goddess? I can see it now! I’ll clean up my act and get on the Olympus losers’ good side which’ll make Persephone fall MADLY in love with me. I’ll propose, we’ll get hitched, go on a romantic honeymoon, and then we’ll settle down and have 2…no 6 kids! But, then again…that’s way too much work. I mean, c’mon. I can’t run a place like this while being a goody-two-sandals. But, hey, who knows? Maybe I’ll still get Persephone to fall for me…someday.

#spoilers? #I guess idk you can find the whole comic for free online and it’s been out for a while so yeah lol #I just realized Hades sounded a little bit like Gaston in that lmao #lol I don’t think Hades is a misogynist like him he just said that to cover up his feelings for her #and make her do stuff he knows she doesn’t want to do lol #in reality Hades would be the one doing all that stuff for HER because he is such a simp for Persephone lmao #I really need to work on that comic review #I’ve been so busy I totally forgot that it’s been sitting in my drafts 😭 sorry yall #hades comic #disney #persephone #hades #persephone oc #hercules oc #disney oc #self insert oc #hades x persephone #persephone x hades #persephades

[j-esbian]

why are people so weird about silence

#like 5 times in the past week it has come up #every time someone walks into the room where i’m working they’re like ‘haha you should turn the radio on’ i don’t want to #i’m the only one in here #was helping another guy set up a machine and he was like ‘you can put your headphones in. i’ve got mine that’s why i’m not talking’ like #cool bro. i didn’t even know it would have been an issue if you hadn’t said something. i think that’s just on you #and at dnd another person was talking about how weird and quiet their tattoo artist is bc she doesn’t talk and i was like #god that sounds IDEAL #why do people assume silence is inherently awkward and uncomfortable. why can’t we just sit and enjoy it #or at least. if you feel those things why do you need to project it onto others #this is why i hate that ppl online will talk about ‘neurodivergent swag’ to mean like. ‘never shuts up’ #if someone wants to talk i’m not going to actively stop them but like. your experiences are not universal

[throwdownyourheart]

…

#I had a dream about the handsome chubby straight dad from work #I was working alone and he came into the store right when I was about to close #which he’s done a couple times in real life and I’m always more than happy to let him stay even though it’s after hours #but anyway in the dream he came in and I walked up and reached out to shake his hand #then he grabbed my hand and held onto it and pushed me up against a wall #his entire body was pressed up against me and he had one leg pressed between mine and I could feel his bulge on my hip #he held my hands up above my head and looked down at me and said ‘‘this is what you want right? I’ve seen how you look at me” #I barely managed to choke out a ‘‘yes sir” #he said ‘‘I used to do this all the time. had an overnight bag for any situations that might come up just in case’’ #he said that his wife knew what he was doing and that the one time he’d brought her in was so she could meet me and approve of me #‘‘I’m sorry if I misread but I think you want this as much as I do” #he was so handsome and big and feeling his body against mine while he had me pushed up against the wall was just asdfghjkllkl #fuuuuuuck #I woke up so fucking hard y’all #just absolutely bricked up and throbbing #anyway I promise I’m being completely normal about this dream #me #personal as hell #lubbock texas #we've always been around