#and genuinely idk which is worse

[defnotkanyewest]

Berserk fans are acc the scum of the earth

Especially the TT ones

#not the entire fandom ig but a large part of it #its either mfs who think its funny or mfs who genuinely believe what they’re saying #and genuinely idk which is worse #anime #manga #berserk #casca berserk #griffith #berserk fandom

[ayrennaranaaldmeri]

man the dev notes w/ the stormshore tabernacle convo. whatever they're there for it's kind of remarkable how so much of the notes there for her are just textbook abuser stuff.

#tbd #after all the advantages I gave you -- i have the visceral skin crawl reaction its the abusive parent anthem #things that make my skin crawl bruh #it's everything I did for you #child who i groomed #I'm being so magnanimous towards you giving you time == child who i groomed #look at how merciful i am even though my first instinct is that i don't like how you didn't obey me #the dev notes of that convo genuinely make it worse boooy #which well done but also i will throw hands #dming helm pls kill her again #anyway i think it's kind of fascinating that most gods in this game show themselves as these larger than life figures but mystra? #you are seeing the person who did that to gale you are seeing that person #that person came to him as a child #like that divine separation has just not been there #esp with the build up #where she first dispatches elminster and then again when he tells you about the grant but at the end it's just her in this human figure #i genuinely feel like it deliberately strips that divine separation away & its another layer of insidiousness on her part #it's grounded in the sense of the damage she'd done to gale idk i am waffling but its just something about it is worse when it's so..wow. #idk i think in this game? i think she's not written like the other gods in this game and i think it makes her worse not more sympathetic #bg3 spoilers #abuse tw

[katnissandpeetamellark]

Someone should draw Clemensia after the snake incident

I wanna see what the movie refused to let me see

#clemensia dovecote #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games #tbosas #thg #hunger games #bosas #I genuinely liked Clemmie in the book. like duh she’s a captiol citizen but she’s very different in the movie #they made her… worse I guess in my eyes. which I was like ‘eh idk about that’ #I will always feel robbed by the lack of Clemensia in TBOSAS

[apostaterevolutionary]

You know what would be really funny, is if people came together to have an anti-crab day. A day where every user who joined prior to automattic’s acquisition logged off for 24 hours to show that yes, actually, older user retention is important and you should listen us just as much as new users

The users giveth, the users taketh away

#this isn’t about the sidebar btw I’ve already said I don’t mind the sidebar #I think it could be a better sidebar like the 2014 tumblr layout which was great #but it’s Fine (tm) #this is about live and the new post editor and the apparent avatar removal bs ‘experiment’ #and it’s also about how these big overhauls keep being done meanwhile we can’t have like. a search function that works #or the queue reordering tools that already exist on mobile web applied to any other platform #you know. all the little stuff that’s comparatively easy to implement yet they ‘don’t have time’ for because they’re too busy #with these massive overhauls and ignoring all the asks that go to wip #also I don’t expect anyone to actually do this and I’m sure as hell not organizing anything cause that’s a lot of work lmao #but I think giving them money pre-emptivelt just showed they can do whatever they want and we’ll fall for it #taking away money would be more effective #idk I don’t think current staff are any better at running tumblr than yahoo was #they’re just better at the ‘we’re quirky and relatable just like you guys uwu’ bit #and a lot of us fell for it but I think the illusion is starting to lift #anyway idk it sucks here but all the other sites are either worse or empty so what can we do #(genuinely wtf can we do this nonsense is getting bad) #text #misc #shut up nerd #new layout stuff

[hella1975]

sometimes i think about the fact my grandparents literally overnight just cut us off and im like. how did u even do that. does it torment you

#eeaao's 'how did you let me go so easily' moment. like i dont let myself even THINK about this too often #bc i immediately beat myself back with the 'if it's hard for you then imagine how hard it is for mum. her PARENTS cut her off' #but like. idk. my nan i couldn't give less of a shit about which is something i always find so interesting #bc even as a child with NO basis for it or any understanding of her behaviour both past and present i still wasn't Comfortable around her #like children are smart actually. i just Knew her vibes were off and i Knew my mum was weird when she was around #like i truly dont think i ever loved my nan even when she was a very frequent part of my life #but my grandad? i ADORED him. id see him multiple times a week and he's the kindest man ive ever met #and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM #like i cant actually put into words what it was about him but people just wanted to know him and spend time with him #but he was weak and let my nan walk all over him and when push came to shove he chose her and now ive not spoken to him in 3 years #& i KNOW he loved me. he thought the world of me like it's a bitter unspoken thing between me & my sister that we KNOW i was his favourite #he used to buy me egg butties at agricultural shows when my mum said no and specifically ask for two eggs #he used to sit and eat his soup with me when he came over to do work at the house #he used to play with me. he used to smile all the time. i can so clearly hear the way he'd go ''iya [my name]' with his proper rural accent #or how he'd tell anyone who would listen 'she's tough as old boots that one' #and i could make him laugh like NO ONE else could and he'd light up and go 'give over' and he genuinely enjoyed my company #i KNOW HE DID. and i havent spoken to him in 3 years. he'll be dead soon #and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it #bc she wasn't close with him like i was and she just shuts the conversation down and those are the only two people #who know my grandad and know what he meant to me so im just here like. he literally stopped speaking to me overnight #i stopped hearing from him i stopped meeting up with him im so so angry with him the love is still there i dont know where to put it now #why couldnt he stay. why did he pick her when she's a loveless void of inhumanity. why werent we enough #hella goes home #my grandparents on my dad's side are also not in the picture funnily enough but idgaf about them. she got that grandparentless swag

[the-martyrfication-of-the-matron]

It’s rare I hate a fictional character. It’s especially rare that I hate a fictional character more than Derek Lycan. And yet here I find Micheal.

#rewatching MCD makes me think that either Jesson really do suck at writing couples/characters or he’s genuinely meant to be how I perceive #him. and idk which is worse. but regardless. icky. ew. gross. mank man. he can go away #character neg #Micheal valkrum neg #aphmau #aphverse #aphblr #minecraft diaries #mcd #mystreet #Micheal valkrum

[cluescorner]

Some people: Kaeya’s bio father is an abusive monster who abandoned his son in order to achieve his own selfish goals. He is an evil man who deserves everything awful that might happen to him. 

Other people: Kaeya’s bio father did the right thing and leaving Kaeya in Mondstadt was the only way to give him a halfway-decent life. He is a better father than he is given credit for and should not be as hated as he is. 

Me: Kaeya’s bio father is integral to the general ‘war is hell and bad choices can reverberate across time’ thing that Genshin seems to be going for. He made unethical choices, but mostly because the ONLY OPTIONS HE HAD WERE UNETHICAL. If our understanding of the Alberich’s role in Khaenri’ah is accurate, General Alberich (my name for him until stated otherwise) was suddenly in charge of a hopeless and dead kingdom which begged to be saved. Assuming that there was a reason Kaeya specifically was chosen for this mission, General Alberich was forced into a position where he needed to choose between the lives/future of every Khaenri’an vs the life and future of his young son. Abandoning either is an awful thing to do and a horrible decision, but the bad decisions of Celestia and Rhinedottir have led to a scenario where General Alberich can only make bad decisions. In the end, he chose to prioritize his people and made his young son into a spy. We do not know the process for this, but knowing how much Hoyoverse loves to torment people (especially Khaenri’ans) we can assume that this process was horrific for Kaeya and could definitely be considered abuse. General Alberich is effectively making his son into a child soldier for a war that the majority of people never wanted or asked for, and one Kaeya was likely far too young to understand. At least, until he was forced to grow up far too quickly in order to fulfill his duty. General Alberich likely loathed everything about what was happening and even in his last moments with his son he asks for forgiveness. He knows that what he is doing is wrong, but to turn back now is to both abandon his subjects and make everything that happened to Kaeya in order to turn him into a child spy be for nothing. So yeah, General Alberich is a terrible person who made horrible choices. But war and the bad actions of others have created a situation where he has nothing BUT horrible choices and where being a terrible person is the only thing he can be. And that’s without considering how the curse/abyssal corruption could impact the scenario. 

#idk #I just think that Kaeya's father is kinda an Asgore situation #where the only decisions he could possibly make were awful and unethical ones but choosing neither would create an even worse outcome #also I want to clarify that both of the other interpretations that I parroted before giving my own thoughts are valid #because we are working with such limited information and yeah no shit people are gonna have differing thoughts #people have differing beliefs and perspectives on things which are CANONICALLY CONFIRMED to be clear situations with lots of info about it #so of course people are going to go in like 80 different directions with his character #BECAUSE WE HAVE NEXT TO NOTHING TO GO OFF OF #and basically every interpretation of him I've seen is pretty reasonable #Like yeah man's son is a child spy who was abandoned in a far away country for the purpose of being a spy for Khaenri'ah's interests #thinking that he was an abusive asshole isn't exactly unreasonable #nor is it unreasonable to believe that he was actually a decent man who left his son in Mondstadt as the 'only hope' of Khaenri'ah #because he just wanted Kaeya to live on and have a life outside of the Abyss #and Kaeya was mistaken when he thought he was simply being left behind as a pawn #Genshin is no stranger to unreliable narrators and this wouldn't be the first time a character story wildly mischaracterizes something #so like...both of those interpretations are valid #and pretty fair ones as well #But I think that it really is like an Asgore situation where yeah this guy sucks and he is an awful person who made so many bad choices #But also was left with nothing BUT bad choices through war and grief and other factors that were genuinely outside of his control #Sacrifice your son's childhood and happiness by forcing him to be a child spy and abandoning him in the middle of a deadly storm #or let your people (including yourself) rot away into nothingness while facing a fate worse than death while they all but scream to be saved #there are no good options #kaeya's father #don't take this too seriously I just really liked Undertale when I was younger and I'm getting Asgore vibes from General Alberich

[queenlucythevaliant]

I'm watching Star Wars with my roommate, she hasn't seen any of it and she is completely unspoiled I am LIVING

#i have instructed her not to talk about it with anyone or look it up or /anything/ until we're done with all three #her reactions! it's like I'm ten again! #as of the end of ep 4 she doesn't think obi wan is actually dead. she thinks he's faking #she's ehh on han but loves luke and especially leia #we're watching with subtitles because English is her second language #and every time Chewbacca says anything it's subtitled like 'arghh' and it's killing me #it's so hard to have conversations about a Thing You Know Every Detail About with someone just being exposed to it for the first time #it's the same problem i had with lotr but actually worse if you can believe it #bc i genuinely cannot remember a time when i didn't know the difference between an astromech and a protocol droid. #or which one wedge antilles is. or the cut backstory with biggs. #or the names of all the different background characters that you only learn from scouring wookiepedia at age thirteen #for the fanfic you and your sister are writing #idk #i remember what it was like to be new to lotr. not so much with star wars #I don't talk about it much on this blog but i am a huge star wars nerd with strong opinions #i had us flip back over to the despecialized edition for several of scenes (you know the ones) even though they didn't have subs available #bc like. you gotta #and then i try to explain the difference to her and realize how esoteric this stuff is in the scheme of things #idk I'm just rambling at this point #getting to introduce a friend to the art that shaped me totally rules #pontifications and creations #a star wars fan like my father before me

[petruchio]

no bc why did a single dm from my ex-situationship/crush sent me spiraling for DAYS. why would he do that?! what possesses a man to do such a thing?!! what does he want from me?!??

#caroline speaks #like if he liked me all along… that completely changes everything about that situation #and it like. v much makes me the problem LMFAO #but last i heard he still had a gf #so is it weirder if he has a gf and is sliding up on me (his sophomore year crush) #or is it weirder if they broke up and he’s hitting me up despite the fact that we don’t live in the same city #like which is worse??? genuinely idk #everyone i asked is just like ‘guys r dumb’ #but there’s no way. NO WAY. he did not consider the implications of that dm

[noahtally-famous]

man I rlly hope Ezekiel’s parents don’t watch total drama bc can you imagine what they must have gone through?

watching their son get booted first in both seasons he participated in (technically second in world tour but we all saw Chris hurl him out of the plane to “set an example” and Duncan quitting doesn’t count bc it was voluntary), then see neither hair nor hide of him for half of the season only to find out he’s been staying in the cargo hold and growing slowly feral and less human with every passing day. then he’s used as a gag trick for two separate challenges and tranquilized and in a cage like a bloody animal. then in the finale, he’s basically unrecognizable and falls into a volcano.

after that, he’s only mentioned in snippets, affected by the radioactivity of the island and has turned into a mesh of an animalistic creature, and is far from the human boy who left his sheltered home all those months ago.

a home he never returns to. a boy who’ll never be one again.

#idk man I shouldn’t get this emotional over a cartoon character #but whenever I see feral Ezekiel my heart hurts for the guy #he’s not even a fav of mine (though that’s not to say I don’t like him) yet still #just…I guess I can chalk it up to me being too empathetic for my good #but gods seeing those milk cartoons and wanted posters of him #imagining the worry of his parents #like I genuinely don’t know which is worse #them watching td and knowing what exactly happens to their child #or them not knowing and under the assumption that zeke is missing and still…human #total drama #kit speaks #noahtally-famous #kit stuff #td ezekiel #it’s emotions time y’all #also zeke just wanted to be better in wt and he wasn’t even given that 😭 #poor guy goddamn

[lord-squiggletits]

It kinda sucks how Optimus Prime is a character who people (in real life) expect to be so Indubitably Good All The Time that they immediately shut down and refuse to acknowledge him whenever he does bad things or fucks up. Like I don't think I've seen any other character in this fandom get the same instantly negative reaction/never talk about him ever treatment that IDW Optimus gets.

Like, it's either him being a cop or the annexation of Earth. But instead of actually engaging with the story and going "so how does being a cop affect the way he treats and is treated by others" or "what led Optimus to annex Earth and how is this a reflection of his ultimately heroic ideal to treat organics as equal to Cybertronians despite the historical racism of his species"

people just instantly shut down and go "oh he's an asshole, he's stupid, he's not my Optimus, he's a bastard, he's edgy" etc etc and refuse to even like fuckin talk about him

It's so incredibly childish lmao especially when the IDW1 continuity in particular is already rife with characters who are also assholes that do stupid/regrettable things but people have no problems talking about/analyzing their stories.

My kingdom for a fandom that's willing to talk about IDW Optimus without immediately shutting down and just going "he's bad he's a bastard he sucks"

#squiggposting #discourse #idw op love #it's very annoying and kind of why i don't try to talk about him as much as i used to #i'm kinda tired of bracing myself for negative reactions every time #and tired of the general fandom silence about him #worse than hating them ppl also seem to make an active effort to ignore or to erase him #and it's the spite of that. like it's one thing to just not be interested or not care #but it's another to actively shun and ignore and erase him #it's not even just the cop thing either. ppl refuse to engage with any idw op specific lore that isn't like.... #idk his relationship with sen. SW? but that's for shipping purposes #of course ppl care about OP lore when it's time to ship him with someone else #but how many people care about IDW OP for who he actually is? hardly any #even w/ continuity soup people take out the cop part they dislike but they never try to write idw op's personality #so like it's not just cop hate. ppl just genuinely don't like idw op's personality or care about him in general #which i have to ask why the hell not because this is literally a feral and flawed prime that people keep saying they want #people keep saying they want an OP who isn't universally beloved and gets criticized for his hypocrisy and stuff #IDW OP IS RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU TO ENJOY #ppl just genuinely can't stand the idea of an OP who's a real person and not just Inoffensive Fun Dad or Sad Woobie

[felix-krain]

I love Sonic Frontiers guys!

#felix rambles #sonic the hedgehog #sonic frontiers #no I actually really liked the game overall #I got 100% on every island #but what the everloving fuck was that final boss #yes #time to fight The Moon (TM - kindly offered by NASA) but touhou!! #what the fuck were they on??????? #and in normal mode that entire fight is (thankfully) shrunk down to 3 quick time events #wHAT THE FUCK #I wasn't expecting Final Hazard but holy shit I wasn't expecting Touhou either- #Sonic Frontiers is a weird ass game #it has a lot of good things but some other things are genuinely disconcerning #I love the writing and the story but the ending is just... idk... it doesn't really explain anything #plus you have this big threat for the entire game and you get to learn about it and stuff #and then it explodes after 3 quick time events (or a long ass touhou fight dunno which is worse honestly) #AND THEY DON'T EVEN EXPLAIN WHAT IT WAS #ARRRRGHHHHH #cool game tho #sth

[desperatepleasures]

ugh I have chores to do but what I really need to do is lay down and think about harukan for at least 4hrs while listening to labrador by aimee mann on repeat

#THE CONSENT SITUATION IS SO WEIRDDDD #and i think the way I'm writing them is true to their situation but also. fuck it's a lot to unpack #tho i think im painting kantarou in a worse light than I'd like to #i talk shit but he does genuinely care about haruka #but the problem is i dont think im writing him ooc HE REALLY ACTS LIKE THIS IN CANON #it's just maybe the situation is not one where he comes out looking good #idk i have to figure out the latter half of this fic still so maybe I'll work things out #i keep thinking 'how would someone who's never read tactics see their dynamic here?' #which is a good thought experiment and is helping keep me grounded BUT ALSO #ALSO i shouldn't worry too much about what a hypothetical reader outside the fandom would think lmao #fic tag #SIGH kantarou you are killing me

[diabeticgirl4]

Hoo boy the internalized ableism be strong tonight :(

#ignore me #maddie lifeblogs #there are times when I struggle w accepting that I'm different and have limitations #that mixing w late diagnosis and imposter syndrome and it's all hitting hard rn #just found out my cousin works w disability programs and offered some tips and stuff #and like. it's genuinely great stuff and wow this could help me so much #but at the same time it's kinda sending me towards an absolute mental breakdown #I'm trying not to overshare and dump everything but. again the internalized ableism be strong rn :( #this is not how I imagined my life turning out but at the same time I 100% saw it coming and idk which is worse #////

[welcometogrouchland]

Also in the replies of the Steph concept art on twitter announcing she was gonna be in a new project at DC (posted by Travis Mercer), there were at least 3 comments saying "will Tim be there?" I don't care how hard you ship timsteph I'm exploding you with my eyeballs if you do that on my girls post again

#ramblings of a lunatic #taking a step back to acknowledge that my stanning may be getting overzealous #but then again I'm not in ppls quotes or replies I'm vagueing on an entirely different website with no relevant tags. it could be worse #anyway I know tims had it rough these past couple of months ever since zdarsky shifted focus of the batman title to have less tim #but it still feels. idk. just a wee bit uninspired to act like steph can't go two steps without tim being behind her #im ngl i like timsteph when they're cute but timsteph twitter has been. pissing me off a tad lately #the refusal to acknowledge the sexism in dixons robin run and how it impacts stephs writing and their relationships writing #the refusal to acknowledge tims occasional condescension and hypocrisy when it comes to stephs vigilantism #seemingly only wanting her to be spoiler when he wants her around and telling her to give it up most of the time #also the constant disrespect of stephs batgirl era on there weirdly enough? #I've harped on about this on main and in drafts but despite it's flaws it's a good turn for stephs character #she's the focus she gets development (an upward trajectory! which had previously been unheard of for her! bc she did have flaws as spoiler- #-its just that both writers and characters alike seemed to arbitrarily decide she didn't have the capacity to grow past them! but she did!) #hell i saw a BIZARRE take today i just have to bitch about #which was them saying that Batgirl was a ''heteronormative mask'' steph put on #with spoiler being her more authentic self (and this being paralleled to gender expression with stephs isolation from the batfam as spoiler- #-showing how she ''wasnt like them'') #which. I'm not denying you the view that spoiler has a certain genderific swag to her but the needless dragging of her batgirl persona #steph got treated badly as spoiler bc she was A Girl. it's genuinely that simple dixon felt batman and robin would never stand for a girl- #-running around doing the things they did and would need to chivalrously stop her. he's gone on record saying this #she's constantly getting belittled by mostly men (cass also dismisses her but it feels distinctly less gendered) #and in the end it's barbara who learns to give steph a second chance despite her mistakes and they have a positive relationship #something ppl are quick to dismiss as being in and of itself sexist bc they're pairing the two girls off together #as if batgirl isn't a legacy and as if babs and steph don't have parallels in their resilience and refusal to accept when ppl tell them no #for better and for worse!! #like. idk how you took the strongest feminist element in that comic (bc there are elements of sexism here and there! 2009 n all) #and somehow turn it into ''heteronormativity'' YOU PPL ARE JUST SAYING WORDS AT THIS POINT!!! #anyway. someone take away my internet access

[storm-of-feathers]

christ.

#i love joe i do #but the fact that i can hear his snoring through earplugs closed doors AND while in a separate room is #its takin a toll #i think its getting worse tbh but i cant like tell for sure bc its always been super bad and loud #before people start ab sleep apnea: healthcare is a nightmare rn and he doesnt seem to want to see anyone ab it #which. idk i guess its not that serious?? the most it affects him is i dont sleep in the same room anymore #bc i have real bad misophonia and snoring is one of Those Noises #plus like even if they invent the worlds best earplugs that block out all sounds forever #he snores so bad it vibrates the mattress #so... now we got our own sleeping spaces #but hes still like snoring really bad #connecticut was kind of hell bc theres only so much anyone can do #he's also a very heavy sleeper so its not like i can wake him up #and im a very light sleeper #so even when i go to bed first and get to sleep alright when he comes in or lays down i wake up #we've tried like #a wedge pillow some weird mouth guards this chin trap thing some nose strip things #i do genuinely think its sleep apnea so we need a cpap machine i think but those are expensive as fuck #and im not even sure if you can get one without a diagnosis?? #well. thanks for reading my vent #i promise our marriage and relationship is fine and tbh better than a lot of other people we know's... #its just this one thing #:(