#and everytime i disappoint

[stellorc]

wip time!!!!!

Have a couple of sketches I'm doing between commissions.

Recently I've been trying to use value and shapes for my sketches to not rely so much on lines only. It's fun to see the lighting take shape right at the start, though it can get messy so fast.

At the left, you have a Jesra with a very high contrast. Lots of dramatic lighting. The other is my beloved Gwen with my attempt to compress my value range. The urge to slap some dark tones there is strong, however it would probably kill the, uh, ambience. There's so many things I want to learn about lighting and 'camera' angles, but I don't feel overwhelmed like I did before.

Also I'm currently on a dragon age kick. More than usual, that is. Maybe I'll be brave enough and share my self indulgent sketches here. Once I actually do them ofc, my hands cannot keep up with my brain.

Anyway, I also want to thank everyone for the amazing support!! I wish I could express how incredibly happy I get from the lovelies responses i receive. It's disgusting honestly. Makes me feel like the luckiest bean alive. Maybe I am, considering the wonderful friends I have wink wink.

take care folks <3

#everytime i sit down to write a caption i tell myself it'll be short #and everytime i disappoint #trust me I'm holding myself back #feels weird sharing sketches here before the piece is finished #it's as if i'm jinxing it #anyway it's good to feel excited about art again #but good lord i need to get better at perspective #am i procrastinating instead of studying art fundamentals? maybe #ah i love my girls so much #can't wait for spring tho i want RAIN #i shall sleep now #goodbye to whoever is reading this i love you

[yuno-karei]

Misfits water gun fight! Who will emerge victorious? Only one way to find out

I did this piece for one of the @mairumadevizine prints! It was also done long before the beach chapters in the manga and I really just... balled with their designs

#mairimashita! iruma kun #mairuma #m!ik #mairuma devizine #illustration #fanart #purson soi #asmodeus alice #suzuki iruma #valac clara #gaap goemon #agares picero #allocer schneider #sabnock sabro #shax lied #caim kamui #ix elizabetta #crocell kerori #andro m jazz #id in alt #yuno art #tbh I had quite a lot of fun designing the water guns for this piece hehe #I completely forgot that Iruma should have another shirt under the jacket so uuh fanservice I guess <- disappointed in myself fr #also the alt text is slightly a nightmare I didn't know what to write so I'm gonna give some thoughts about what's going on :') #if I had a nickel for everytime I drew the misfits together as a whole I'd have 3 nickels. They are a hivemind.

[bitwein]

Millions knives and his brother Billions belts

#trigun #millions knives #vash the stampede #this is how he makes me feel everytime I draw him #like obviously I can choose for it to be not so belty but I feel like nightow would just be mildly disappointed in me #also millions knives and billions belts as sibling duo just sound hilarious

[satiricaily]

amy searching for a love that's unconditional her entire life and failing to find it and then finding danny and how there's absolutely no way whatever they have could be conditional because danny is just like her so how could he ever demean her for smth she did when he probably did smth just as bad how could he ever feel superior or better when he's experienced the same loneliness and emptiness that she's felt. her connection w danny is plain unconditional it's a wide vast field for her to run around and not worry if she's ever gonna trip and fall and get bruised and simply exist within it. for once she doesn't have to worry if someone's love or care for her would stop if she messes up. for once she can just be.

#i rlly do need to sleep #but everytime i think abt this show and amy and danny i start going crazy again #i can't even recommend this show to anyone out of fear they just wouldn't get it and disappoint me #beef netflix #beef

[solarockk]

My beautifull princess with a disorder <3

#dungeon meshi #marcille donato #fanart #artist on tumblr #digital art #shes sooooooooooo skrunkly #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #ive speedrun reading this manga ngl #ive even started eating foods i dont like because of senshi💀 #everytime someone cooks something i dont like like im like fuuuuuuuuuk senshi WOULD be disappointed in me #and if that bastard cat (izutsumi) (lovingly) can start eating pies with veggies i can eat pepper and sausages #i wont like it! but by god ill do it #sol art #also the dungeon master outfit slays #it was very fun reading dungeon meshi while my friend was playing fear and hunger #perfect balance. unstoppable force vc unmovable object #this was in clip studio btw it was supposed to be a sketch but uuuuhhhhhhhhh my hand slipped

[osteichthyens]

shenhe but her clothes are actually nice

#genshin impact #shenhe #everytime i look at her outfit i’m disappointed so i chose to re-imagine it for her

[opikiquu]

#★ my art #genshin impact #lynette #freminet #fontaine siblings #obligatory bad doodle at the end as per usual #and this is how she deals with him talking bad about himself #i feel like sometimes my drawings are all out of character for these three #but i just like them being happy #hugs :) #frem’s dang lines just being like ‘lynette says im good at stuff. if only i was good at smth else’ PLEASE LET THEM LOVE U 💀 #they are your BIGGEST FANS FREMINET (SHAKING HIM BY THE SHOULDERS) #he got me stressed out when i listen to his voice lines i swear #i be sweating everytime he says he’s a disappointment

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[andrews-jort-loving-pipe-dream]

"Watched the fry cook and the waitress get into a physical altercation over some guy named Asher (they both can do better). My eggs were runny, my bacon was burnt, and the coffee was garbage, but I got a show with my meal so 4.5 stars."

--a review left by Andrew after the Foxes stopped at a Wafflehouse on their way back from a game

#he knocked off a half point because the coffee disappointed him #i think he would go to that wafflehouse everytime he's in the area #it's his new favorite place #despite getting food poisoning 3 times

[toxooz]

been binging tf outa Avatar the last airbender bc ive been puking my EVERLOVIN guts out since yesterday and hear me out

#remy would probably get cool weapons or somethin but honey im so sorry it would be the reality #sk8 squad #ollie #ponti #oscar #abio #kari #vinny #remy #im Just Now feeling like the worst is over but holy fuck talk about misery #and i Have to go to work tomorrow anyway since i had to call bc today was supposed to be the recovery day but nOOO body said fuck u #cause this is like the 3rd time this has happened this year alone like i refuse to believe its just a bunch of food poisoning instances??? #i been eating the same for years and i know my immune systems been shot ever since covid but that was 4 years ago now somethin aint right #pray for my downstairs neighbors they had to hear me fighting for my life every 30 minutes PFFFT EEUUUAAGHGG HUFF HUFF HUFF yeah #although i will say all this shit has really toned down my emetophobia now everytime i gotta puke i just let out a long disappointed sigh #but goddamn still brutal tho

[candyheartedchy]

Do any other self shippers feel guilty when they start focusing on a new f/o?

#okay so I feel kinda bad rn because scratch been my main for awhile now and still is #like my self ship with him is a comfort ship for me #but bill kinda took over and I feel a bit guilty because one) I’m not focusing a lot on scratch like I use too #two) I feel like people who probably followed me for my ship with him are going to get disappointed because I keep focusing on bill #like I make jokes about scratch always pulling me back everytime I get a new crush but I wasn’t expecting to fall so hard for bill #don’t get me wrong scratch is still my 1st main and I’m still going to draw my ship with him and work on that comic #but rn I’m just really focused on bill #like I know I have a habit of jumping f/o(s) at times but this feels different #and I been feeling kinda sad about it #so I don’t know if others in the community have felt this or worry about disappointing other who followed them for something else #and I know it’s my blog and I can do whatever I want but I still stress about it #💬 chy chatter 💬

[faunandfloraas]

Dreamt I was eating Malaysian food with Bang Chan 😫

#god do i wish im hungry now #bang chan take me to get Malaysia itll be fun 😇 #ayam goreng butter rice cucur udang 😭 #everytime i have food dreams lately the foods so vivid and then i wake up disappointed lol

[hibiskuit]

Okay, so the tangled series obviously has its flaws but NOTHING makes me more mad than the fact that nobody is singing these incantations?? When we learned there are more incantations I thought we would get some cool variations on the flower theme but NO, they all just... speak.

#i am actually really disappointed by this #like everytime someone says an incantation I start screaming at my screen #why is noone singing these?! #and this shouldnt be such a big deal #but it makes me so mad :D #tangled #tangled the series

[basu-shokikita]

i don't know what's weirder when people act like shipping a ship they don't like is going to personally kill their grandma or when shippers of said ship try to downplay their 'problematic' bits to convert it into some milquetoast pair. like aren't you shipping this because it's fucked up? isn't that the whole appeal of the thing? no??

#personal #like truly i get brain damage everytime #the former are unhinged and i do not want to interact with them in any form like if you dont like something grow up or leave the internet #the second are truly just disappointing like. you just decided to cater to a bunch of strangers telling you how its acceptable to ship smth #live your truth bro dont be weak #btw ive definitely experienced this in the kyman fandom. seeing both sides

[muffinlance]

That ask about azula/zuko twins reminds me of how in some cultures (including possibly some parts of traditional Japan, but it's hard to find English sources that are translated and not just summarized), the twin is considered older if they're born last, as the idea goes that the stronger/elder twin pushes their younger sibling out first.

Anyway that just makes me think that if azula is considered the "older" twin (aka was born second), zuko would have been told his whole life that azula was the reason he was born at all. Born lucky/lucky to be born indeed.

Also I'm just thinking of sokka asking "who's older?" And zuko goes "azula is, I was born first". "Ok that makes sense... Hey wait a minute."

This is an EXCELLENT follow up, and I heartily endorse younger-older sibling Zuko.

#Azula: you're lucky I've been there to kick your butt since the beginning #or you'd have been late to your own birth #Zuko: wait but wouldn't that have made me the older sibling #Azula: ssh Zuzu trying to think doesn't suit you #now go capture the Avatar so I can deal with Father's latest attempts to kill you #avatar the last airbender #atla #also Ozai everytime Zuko disappoints him: *turns to Azula* This is your mess clean it up

[screamin-abt-haikyuu]

I find it funny how thousands of people followed me because of the jealous series, probably expecting more content of their favs, only to see me 99.99% of the time be like:

I'm sorry in my defence I wrote it in my bio

#everytime someone likes a post from the jealous series and follows me #in my mind I'm like bestie ur gonna be disappointed #on the brighter side for me i get more people to spread my pls love asahi propaganda to #this is only going to get worse lmao pls #sry besties reading ab ur favs also comes with a side effect of being thrown asahi content in ur face i don't make the rules #well actually i do lol #especially when volume 40 gets animated #y'all be ready for the screaming #speaking of screaming my url is also misleading I'll admit #im mostly screaming about asahi #im a scam #this is 100% an asahi propaganda page #asahi azumane