#and also just like.

[princesable]

ok hi toyhouse is now public. nobody do anything crazy. not a lot of info anywhere because i have a really hard time writing stuff out but immmm working on it. feel free to look around and ask questions if you wanna.

link to said toyhouse

#charlie moment #heavily edited a few guys profiles so they dont contain spoilers so forgive me for being extremely vague on a few profiles #and also just like. #just not describing things very much. #again. you are free to ask questions i love being vague until directly asked #sorry if they all randomly go on authorized only again im very paranoid #i'll reblog this again later when its not 9 pm

[rollercoasterwords]

what's the deal with mcd?

ok i am pondering mcd this afternoon (three guesses why) and my sister (foolishly) made an offhand comment that just sent me back into my swamp of thoughts which was "unlike some people i don't enjoy feeling pain for no reason" -- in reference to reading fics with mcd.

so here i am once again to write my silly little essays on tumblr, bc like...why do i like mcd??

and when i say i like mcd, i mean i really like it. i am an avid mcd enjoyer. when mcd is done well, it quite literally stays with me forever and just...nothing else quite compares. i'm the kind of person who will hear something has mcd and be like "ok NOW i'm interested." yknow? like i love a good main character death. 

at the same time, i don't think of myself as a particularly masochistic person. maybe i'm kidding myself, but i don't think i'm drawn to mcd solely because i enjoy reading things that will hurt me (although...ok yeah maybe that's part of it). but like. ok hang on this is going to get both personal + philosophical but for ME, personally, i think i am very much drawn to stories that eschew 'happily-ever-afters.' 

like. i could get into this more but for now i will just say that i am very much skeptical of societal obsession with happy endings and futures. this idea that there's a light at the end of the tunnel, that the present moments in our lives only matter if we're using them to work towards an imaginary future where everything is somehow better and happier...i understand why those things bring comfort, and obviously i'm not like, immune to it. i think about the future as much as anyone else, i do things now because i hope they will make things better later, etc etc. BUT this overarching narrative of like...your life has meaning because one day you will find your happy ending just doesn't resonate with me. i don't believe in it. i need to find meaning in other ways and other places.

mcd pushes back against the happy ending narrative, in a lot of ways. obviously, many stories still end happily or hopefully because we as readers crave catharsis. but there is just something about following along with a character's death and following along with those left behind to grieve them that essentially holds a mirror up to our own mortality, to the fragility of our own hope for happily-ever-afters. like...yeah. we're human. we die. that's it. (maybe u believe in an afterlife--u do u! i don't tho). and life is beautiful and messy and painful because we get the moments we have, and that's it--they don't get banked for some imaginary future. we have the time we have, and...idk i'm probably just talking in circles but something about confronting that idea head on just makes life feel so much more beautiful and precious to me. fuck eternity, and fuck happily ever afters. why does it matter if there's a happy ending? the end is the end either way. 

and i think aside from that i am also just very drawn to the stories of those characters who live past the mcd, who are left behind to mourn. as someone who had to spend a lot of time figuring out how to keep going after trauma, reading about characters who are learning to live with their grief just...idk. it's important to me. it's special to me. grief is a part of love just the same as happiness -- it's all love, and it's all human, and...idk, maybe i am just a little bit masochistic at the end of the day. but isn't there something beautiful about knowing we can feel so deeply, and survive it? like...that's what life is!!! that's what meaning is!!! i am gnashing my teeth

#like i said a lot of this is v personal to me but maybe some people can relate?? #i am sure everyone has their own reasons for liking or disliking mcd i just like to pick apart my own brain #tbh i do think a lot of this comes from religious trauma #and also just like. #other trauma #but i also don't necessarily think experiencing something traumatizing is a prerequisite for enjoying mcs #mcd #ok ill shut up now #txt #ranting and raving

[capfalcon]

i feel like something that perfectly sums up my feelings on poetry and being called a poet is that i find poetry as a genre to be really pretentious and a lot of good poetry (supposedly) is utterly meaningless to me and a lot of bad poetry is just so cringe and im just here writing it trying to not be so judgmental

#i am a writer ilove literature i love metaphor i love meaning #but i think so much of poetry is obfuscation and i hate it #idk i think one thing to remember about my own poetry is that my first influence was rupi kaur who ik #a lot of people hate on but i wouldnt have ever written a poem without her #and my poems are very different than hers now anyway #idk i guess my point is just that #poetry is a really weird genre and even tho i write it and preform it #and love it sometimes #i also find it really cringey and pretentious other times #and also just like. #the only poems i ever liked in school was robert frost

[kochei0]

I turn to Ares.

Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK

⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon

#greek mythology #ares #athena #greek gods #dont get me wrong it aint athena slander but it sure is ares praise #on some level at least #man justly accused of bad things deserves some mid praise more at 11 #thank you romi for helping me with words though i duly noted you insisted on ares not being cautious rather than him not being careful #romi be like “i want him to care” and honestly good you should say it #also EPIC led to this and i just..... i want to draw some animatics man i just need infinite time now #my long lost love for greek myths just will never stop coming and they dont stop coming and they dont stop coming #i want some vulture design in here for ares but not sure about this one #kochei doodles

[vamprisms]

i feel like a lot of the 'i hate kids' crowd would be more tolerant if they understood that due to a kid's limited experience of the world that 4 hour flight might just be the longest they've ever had to sit still for or that trapped finger might literally be the most pain they've ever felt in their short life or they might not have ever seen a person with pink hair ever so of course they want to touch it or nobody's told them yet that they can't run around the museum and they only just learned cheetahs are the fastest animals so of course they want to put that to the test. how were they supposed to know etc etc.

#like majority of the time kids are not just 'being naughty'. they have big feelings inside little bodies it's a lot #also like. #it should be illegal to dye your hair fun colours if you aren't prepared for kids in public to ask if youre related to a my little pony #EDIT: the notes on this post are an absolute cesspool. i don't care about your reasons for hating kids you sound like a disney villain

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?��� didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[captainjonnitkessler]

Sometimes I wish we would start calling out the performative radicalism on this site for the poser bullshit it is. "Remember, it's always morally correct to kill a cop!" "Don't forget to firebomb your local government office!" "Wow, it sure would be a shame if these instructions on how to make a molotov cocktail got spread around!"

Okay. But you're not killing cops or firebombing government offices. You are posting on a dying microblogging website to a carefully-curated echo chamber that has radicalized itself into thinking that taking the absolute most extreme position on any subject is praxis but that anyone discussing the most practical way to effect actual change is your sworn enemy. You do not have the street cred OR the activist cred to be talking about killing cops, babe.

#thinking about the person i saw saying that if you're at a protest #and other protesters try to stop you from becoming violent you should just kill them bc 'peace police are still police' #even taken as hyperbole that's simply dumb as shit on every conceivable level #it's also pretty blatantly hypocritical coming from people who are usually self-avowed prison/death penalty abolitionists #like i'm sorry but you don't get to be a death penalty abolitionist and also call for the death of your political enemies online #this isn't a major issue or anything i'm just bored and annoyed

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Knowledge Revenge.

#dungeon meshi #chilchuk tims #senshi #Somewhat of an unofficial sequel to the Dragon Comic. I promise I have more versatility in my jokes. I just had to take this opportunity. #Senshi is pretty much a recluse. I think he would know a few of these 'gottems' but not all. #Chilchuck would know gottems that are nearly lost to time. The deep cuts. The ones that you fall for because they are that obscure. #I would also like to take a moment to confess that after the last comic in which I posed a gottem - #I fell victim to a Mind Goblin Attack. I was thoroughly got. I will be on higher alert this time. #So NOBODY be funny in the tags. I am gullible and I like to share things with my friends. Who are *ruthless*. #I have a mild resistance to Vicious Mockery at this point but I can only take so much. #Happy Thistle Thursday Everyone! See you next week!

[cactuseri]

collection

#seri.txt #these just made me laugh idk 😭 my mom and dad r also both like this #idk if someone’s posted these before but idc #seri’s hits

[noelledeltarune]

EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt

#talk tag #IT KILLS ME. REIGEN IS NOT MOB'S DAD. HE HAS A DAD. INGO IS NOT AKARI'S DAD. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #(not even necessarily to say that ingo is in his late 20s but still) #(even if he was a 30-40-50 year old no matter how old he is no fucking teenager is gonna call some guy they met as a 15 year old ''dad'') #GAI IS NOT A FATHER FIGURE TO ROCK LEE HE WAS LIKE 13 WHEN HE WAS BORN! PLEASE!!!!!!!! #one time i saw that a ​person wrote a fic where mario was like a father figure to luigi. #they are TWIN BROTHERS. #not what this about but idk where else i can say anything about this. #just horrible #also sometimes someone is just An Older Friend like no familial relationship just a friend or acquaintance who is a lot older than you

[notherpuppet]

First Meeting

#radiorose #a silly little comic because I love their friendship so much #also I think it would be amazing if Rosie was just a TANK and had super strength #like I love the idea of Rosie handling al like a rag doll #hazbin hotel #alastor #rosie #hazbin hotel fanart #my doods #hazbin hotel comic #carmilla carmine #liked by creator

[good-to-drive]

It's kinda funny when you get a bunch of likes but no reblogs like I enjoyed your post but I'd prefer if no one else saw it

#kidding obviously #likes are also really nice and fun #shitpost #it's just funny lol

[rivetgoth]

It's honestly crazy that discussion around testosterone HRT skews so much towards the beginning stages of it (to the point that you have dozens of guys thinking their transition is "failed" if they don't pass by like a year in lol) and what the initial changes of the first couple of months to years look like, like the classic laundry list of those early basic changes like bottom growth, voice drop, etc, when IMO literally none of that compares remotely to the depth and intensity of the long term total masculinization you start to experience like 3-5+ years in.

#also has made it increasingly difficult to relate to those early into their transition honestly #like not in a bitter way it’s just like hard to express how diff the experience is #of being like a year on T vs 5 😭 #ETA I muted this post ages ago now but fwiw seeing transphobes pop up in the notes on occasion just to say cruel reactionary shit #you are clowns I cannot imagine seeing a post that is ONLY about discussing with folks about the reality of a medication #and choosing to make that your moment to get a schoolyard bully jab in about how you find it gross or something. #you are less well adjusted than must children. may the universe be kinder to you than you are to others.

[viorhysealberia]

pokemon fans when they have to wait another year for the next big game with no major releases in-between

#pokemon #I JUST LOVE HOW UNANIMOUS IT IS. ITS SO FUNNY BUT ALSO SO DIRE #like!! EVERYONE is glad we’re waiting! I haven’t seen ANYONE complain #im pokemon fans btw. please take your time gf there is NO need to rush

[professionalchaoticdumbass]

(2012 minecraft parody voice) I am mining... there are no blocks of sand.... you are digging down with me.... hand in unbreakable hand... and I hope we mine.... I hope we both mine.......

#the song is No Children by the mountain goats if you're wondering #added cuz i've seen quite a few people who dont know the original #(also this isn't about mc youtubers or anything this is just me having fun at like 1am)

[adriles]

they are Cancelling me for dealing with my grief as best i can . also for the vicious war Crimes

#book 24 #the conversation between the gods at the beginning there is just this #greatest hits #all i say is vicious war crimes in a vague way #and you all start frothing at the mouth like rabid dogs #a lot of yall get the memo with the blorbo tags but also. seeing quite a few strange pulls #not exactly war crimes but Ok #sometimes normal vicious crimes can just be normal vicious crimes ok guys #can yall stop tagging this as israel u guys r fucking weird…. #if u see this and think it is a joke about actual fucking horrific war crimes and ethnic cleansing. u may be fucked up in the head #please be normal #will people stop commenting on this please. none of yall r funny