#and I just feel really low

[batshaped]

the continued adventures of an internet user who was frozen in 2004 and defrosted in 2021: some things are just the way you left them

previous 2004 internet user comics are here: one, two, three, four, five; or just in my 2004 tag

#2004 #art #comic #comics #internet #nostalgia #neopets #aisha #february 2024 art #2024 art #02132024 #did i... forget to upload this one on tumblr in february lol #too distracted by mewtwo's birthday i guess #i have been playing neopets since elementary school #we're talking barely sentient #and i still play every day #it's not really my intention to make a low effort Relatable Comic here #but to capture a specific feeling i have when i feed my neopets #pet sims are unlike anything else to me #they just have this feeling about them that is more intimate than other games even when it's basic text and images #i guess that's why my comic is like #Pet Sim But Sad #lmao

[skitskatdacat63]

"it was good fun! Surprisingly competitive I would say!"

#LITERALLY THE CUTEST MAN TO EVER EXIST #ive said this before but #seriously if you ever feel bad abt his results #just go watch his interview bcs wow nowadays seemingly he is never upset on main #as suzuki said to me: what drugs does aston have him on #bcs seriosuly #bro dnfed and is fine?? super smiley even????? #i think its just a matter of extremely low expectations tbh so he cant really be affected anymore atp #and he was happy about being up in the front so long! #bcs they didnt think he could sustain it that long both cause the pace and the tires #lmao n the other hand carlos seemed very salty imo #i think he said smth along the lines of fernando being too ambitious????? bro youre talking abt fernando alonso like?? #and said he ruined both their results ah stfu dude #the guy youre talking abt literally dnfed and is all smiley #fernando alonso #2024 chinese gp #f1 #formula 1 #we do a little bit of f1

[greatestjubilee]

bleh

#hi all. lucy here #i have barely been drawing lately because ive just been unable to #like i feel like i lost my spark. i dunno #i used to draw so much and make so many comics when i was absolute rock bottom mentally #like the funnier i was the worse i was doing #ive been better lately but i truly feel like ive almost sacrificed my ability to draw or create stuff for some more mental stability #i just....i dont know. i feel like i can't do anything i used to do with art. like im not funny or have no ideas or just think stuff like #oh ill just draw this because people will wanna see it #but i gave that up because not even i wanna see it anymore #i hope that i can feel like drawing again one day i just dont know how to get it back. it really feels like ive lost a major part of myself #this is my rambling here just to let you know i am still around just kind of laying low because im drained

[skipblebee]

HELLO PETRIGROF NATION 🤩🤩 Fionna and Cake finale destroyed me and made me very sad so I couldn't draw anything except silly doodles to cope pls enjoy

#adventure time #simon petrikov #betty grof #petrigrof #fionna and cake #fionna and cake fanart #adventure time fanart #the quote from the second doodle is from a Steven universe fanart I saw back when they revealed rose quartz was actually pink diamond shsjd #Most of these are from ms paint :) #Skipsart #Will never get over this ending actually #Like three of my classmates who have never even heard of adventure time love these two now just because I can't shut up about them #ME WHEN TRAGIC LOVERS 😢😢😢 UAUAUA <- (sounds of despair) #Really wanted to see a human Golbetty design :( #Also low-key wished they pulled a La La Land and showed us the life they could've had/an alternate dimension where they're happy together #I get that they wanted us to feel like the characters and stuff but still HHHHH #Anywayz it took me two months to get over this #I couldn't listen to Everything in You without ugly crying LMBOOO #I'm a sensitive guy okay 😔 I'm fine now so we're good‼️💪

[radiocity]

The L Word | S2E01

#the l word #shane mccutcheon #kate moennig #in a horrible mood but i still had the episode open from last night and laughed so hard at this awful outfit i almost briefly forgot #i actually love it in concept i just dont know what they were thinking with the random sidepieces for her hair which i think throw the whol #thing into this weird sort of disarray #but i love the short blazer sleeves ovr the shirt a lot also how weirdly unironed the shirt kind of appears #also the low jeans with the belt..? not crazy about the decor on the blazer tho #but i love the glasses forevr #but again i feel like her hair is so weirdly fried in this or maybe cked with hairspray #anyway im fine sorta #actually really funny to post this also after the last one bc she looked so good in that and so BAD here #soryr this outfit deserved its own complete commentary in tags but lookbook coming eventually #also im pretty sure her hair is like tied back in some sor tof way which also looks horrific #who did this literally whos idea was this #also sorry it was roiginally 4 but looking at them together i think it only needs 2

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #persona 4 #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #EVERYDAY IM HOWLING. EVERYDAY IM SCREAMING. #for context this comes at the heel of yosuke charging at mitsuo kubo in rage because of his flippance towards killing saki and he's hit har #but souji and kanji jump in to protect him #like ok a lot of things going on here such as the obvious OH MY GODDDD yosuke being yosuke and taking things on for himself #because he doesn't want to bother people?? because he's made it his own responsibility? because his survivor's guilt is still lingering? #i mean don't tell me he doesn't look at how he surrendered to his shadow like apart from his self-sacrificing propensity #i low key feel like everytime yosuke demands answers about saki's death from the murderer/god/etc there's this undertone of how #he would rather it have been him #he cheapens his own life so much and for what #BUT ALSO!! ALSO!! not just souji jumping in because we know he would he's down bad for yosuke BUT ALSO KANJI #listen you've all heard me talk so much about how i adore kanji yosuke friendships #i can't really tell whether it's kanji or souji that says “haven't we earned your trust yet” but it's a line that hits SO HARD #regardless of which one of them was saying it and i think it hits hard in slightly different manners #it's kanji's admiration and how he looks up to yosuke and how he wants to be closer to yosuke as a friend/kouhai/whatever you want #tatsumi “who's your partner now!” kanji has so much respect for yosuke he wants yosuke to rely on him too!!! #and this stands out because kanji is very conscious of social hierarchies and such but as a kouhai as yosuke's junior #he's so specific about wanting yosuke to treat him as an equal #i smtimes feel bad for kanji because he has a bit of that vibe of a poor puppy trailing after souyo because he wants to be in their convos! #he wants to be included! but critically he also just! wants them to SEE him!! #going a lil off tangent but i think kanji's attitude towards souji is very much one of kouhai respect like he understands his place #of like deferring to souji or getting advice from him and just generally regarding him as a reliable mentor #and it's the same with chie and yukiko? but idk man. with yosuke. guys. with yosuke i always feel like kanji wants to break that hierarchy #that convention. that social norm. to cross a line and be closer to yosuke. #he's more willing to tease yosuke in a way he doesn't with the other 2nd years. and this isn't coming from a place of disrespect either #AGAIN. KANJI REALLY LIKES YOSUKE. he wants to protect yosuke!!! he jumps at the opportunity for yosuke to rely on him!! #i'm getting delulu but there's those hints of “yosuke senpai i want you to see me as a man!!!” kind of energy here and i'm it's yknow hmm

[j-ellyfish]

SpAus Week 2024 | Day One: Cuddles

#hetalia #spaus #aph austria #aph spain #hws austria #hws spain #spausweek #I'm super late aaaaaa #I also had very low confidence on this thingie I struggled a lot but I was running out of time so instead of scrapping it I just did my bes #to save it and make it decent/// #I hope it is good enough I have conflicted feelings on it #I really need to work on this sort of warm lights effects I've been trying for a while but this and also scenes set inside - especially on #beds etc - in general prove themselves to be pretty hard on me #somehow I'm better at colder lights I think #ary makes art

[kaddyssammlung]

#sleep token #sleep token worship #I swear I'll be in my bed in a sec....cramps....damn it why?! why?! why am I fighting nature? so yes am I able to have kids #birth life; I like this because it sounds huge; but at what cost? I'm trying to be accepting but; Katrin just got to bed #and no; nature does not care that I have no desire to have kids #tw for this one: when I was really EDed I did not have my period in one and half years and I did not miss it #when I feel low I have thoughts about that...that I don't want to mention because this is not the place to discuss this right now

[maulfucker]

So fucked up that obimaul is a rarepair. What do you mean not everyone is obsessed with enemies to lovers with a Force connection, where one side is completely obsessed with the other who barely acknowledges him (but is just as affected)

#hm i should make an original post tag #obimaul #like. say what you want but obi-wan saw a random dathomirian zabrak and immediately went 'maul?? alive??' #he DOES care about maul he just doesn't actively seek him out like maul does #post prompted by this song that makes me think about Maul in his crime lord era‚ all the luxury of the world within his reach‚ #but none of it satisfies him because what he really wants is to find (and kill) kenobi #'another night up in the best suite; everything's gone wrong already‚ my body admits; dreaming so high the floor is the limit; #once again i got lost.. [...] another night i give myself‚ top of a skyscraper; i'm the king of the world‚ dreams for rent; #and when i look at myself i sigh with a low voice‚ 'i don't feel bad i just feel nothing'' #(<- song is são paulo‚ 2015 by jão) #it's a song about feeling dissatisfied with the life of fame because there's an emptiness he can't fill with sex drugs or luxuries #and from the context of the album it's likely he's thinking about a past lover he's still not over #so. imagine with me. #i might make something out of this. maybe. #but like. posting about songs that make me think obimaul thoughts. not very productive. almost no audience. #... and while making this post i've been attacked by yet another song with a very obimaul words #'lie to me‚ run from me‚ we swear it doesn't count‚ in this way of ours‚ but it's not because i hate you that i can't kiss you anymore' #<- pilantra by jão and anitta

[lifeintheworldtocome]

if you like and dont rb i will block you

same as it ever was

#michael afton #michael afton fanart #fnaf #fnaf fanart #fnaf sl #fnaf sister location #fnaf 5 #ennard #<- sort of #five nights at freddys #aiden draws #the id for this is so long LMAO #i Was going to color this normally but it low key looked like shit so i did this. took me a while to pick a color for mike in the foregroun #i knew i wanted all the others to just be color picked from the cutscene but coloring her like. peach. felt weird #i was also thinking blue but it didnt feel right. so i did the color of her eyes in the mirror scene. lmao #anyways sorry for rambling i really like this

[zsbrainrot]

Does anyone else think about how Rei can only sleep on the couch when he’s completely wrapped up in a blanket burrito? Because I think about it often.

Happy Buddy Daddies Friday!

#also I think about how Kazuki KNEW that he had to be swaddled in order to feel safe #Rei really is just a cat #low key want to write a fic about how kazuki discovered this #anyway happy buddy daddies Friday! #i know I said I was gonna do polls but my brain has not been working #I’d still like too but im pushing thru artblock rn #buddy daddies #kazurei #reikazu #buddy daddies fanart #kazurei fanart #reikazu fanart #my art #also consistent shading style? don’t know her #I’m still figuring out a shading style lol #also yes kazuki is wearing Rei’s hoodie #bc I’m a sucker for them sharing clothes

[skitskatdacat63]

Every time I read Fernando cursing in fic, I can only think about this clip and then my brain short-circuits

#i have many feelings i shall not disclose about this clip #but i thought abt it again bcs in some fic i was reading it had fernando saying 'joder' #AND THIS CLIP JUST SHOT DIRECTLY INTO THE FOREFRONT OF MY BRAIN #fernando season 1 truly fed us so well #like seriously that show is a fernando fans wet dream theres just...so much...interesting...stuff... #i kept having to replay this clip bcs aaaahhhhhhhh my god.......the cursing...the low tone...the rolling Rs #wdym this clip is about being ahead in a race? all i can hear is sexy cursing and that it is brilliant :) #and nando himself listening back to the clip and just nodding confidently...I AM DEAD HE KILLED ME #(im not really used to reading Spanish J(too used to English J and German J) so the H sound doesnt really pop into my head immediately) #(so i could never really like visualize Spanish speaking charas saying words like joder in a sexy way) #(and then they showed that part in the show and my brain leaked out of my head) #*not actually strollonso but strollonso in my heart because this clip is how I visualize dom Fernando hehehe #i dont remember the ep i think it was either 4 or 5 #i think itd be funny if it was 4 tho bcs i think that ep had the most insane clips and gave so much content #(that one had kitty fernando/carlando sr gay drama scene/nando getting railed(thematically)/etc) #fernando alonso #fernando(show) #fa14 #formula 1 #formula one #f1 #we do a little bit of f1 #fernando s1e5

[crybaby-bkg]

Arranged marriage AU with Barbarian Bakugou who is so daunting to be around at first. He’s all gruff curses and broad shoulders and scarred cheeks and neck and jaw. He scowls constantly, stares at you while your parents auction you off like some show pig, but doesn’t say much to you besides a grunt of his name. You’re terrified, thinking that he’ll be cruel to you, that you’re being set up for a life full of unhappiness and terror and regret.

But he’s the exact opposite. Bakugou is gentle in ways a man of his size typically wouldn’t be, but he shrinks himself for you. Not in a way that diminishes his status as the newly appointed king, but to respect you, show you that you’re beside him instead of behind him.

He picks you berries on his hunts because he knows the smell of a fresh kill brings nausea to your stomach. You find him along with the other maidens and helpers around his village, sitting beside them, big fingers holding tiny little flowers that he weaves into a crown for you. When he sets it on your head, he purses his lips, mutters something under his breath in his language that you’re still not too familiar with, but sure it means something along the lines of pretty and soft.

And when he finds you bathing in the river only few have access to, he’s sweet the whole time. Doesn’t make a spectacle of you being naked, and is relieved when you don’t instantly cower when he wades his way over to you. You try not to stare at the clawed scars that decorate his pec and jaw when he stands above you, and it helps when he suddenly dumps water all over your head. He shushes you when you splutter, continues on with cupping his hands and letting the water run off of your hair and down your shoulders, scrubbing at your skin until your flesh squeaks. He doesn’t expect you to do the same for him, but he hums in satisfaction when you push him down a little lower so you can wash the crown of his head.

#I don’t think I’ve ever actually written a full blown barbarian bkg fic which should be a crime #bc there are so many good ideas for it #but I’ve been struggling with writing creatively so I will put this idea as a full fic on the back burner for now lol #in the drafts for another 8 months! ☝🏻 #sorry I’m lying I’m about to write it rn aidsjdhdjf #anyway interaction has been so low and that doesn’t help with the low energy level when it comes to writing #I do it for myself but it’s a little sad when it feels like I’m talking to myself since I do that enough already lmfao #it’s the beginning of the semester tho so I GET IT bc I’m struggling to read too #this semester isn’t even all that hard but I’m so mentally checked out from school that everything is so much more complicated than need be #I just need a really long break to find myself #feels like I’ve been on go for a few months straight now #okay bye my stomach started cramping really bad which is a single to take my ass to bed lmfao #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #bakugou treats! 🍬

[celluloidbroomcloset]

I’ve seen this a few times, but I don’t think that Stede’s flashback to his childhood after killing Low should be read as him fulfilling (or trying to fulfill) the role of a man that his father tried to impose on him. That flashback comes at a point where he’s halfway into a panic attack, he’s visibly upset and near tears, and his immediate response is to run and hide. It’s associated with trauma and a pretty obvious horror at what he’s done.

The whole scene is Stede facing someone who is, in fact, just like his father and who starts praising him when he behaves like a “real man.” But that’s not something that Stede wants, and it consistently hurts him (we see that on his face). If anything, he’s facing his father and is torn between killing the man who continues to hurt him and things he loves and keeping faith with the little boy who didn’t want to hurt anything. That’s one of the reasons why it’s so important that Ed goes to check on him—because Ed has been that little boy too.

None of that speaks to a man who feels or is trying to feel that what he’s done was a positive, “manly” thing that he needed to do to earn respect or love. It’s facing his trauma and not really knowing what to do about it. His response when Ed comes to his door is for his emotions to finally break at someone actually expressing love and care for him and concern for his feelings. And those emotions are the soft ones that his father tried to kill—love, concern, gentleness and compassion, even passion.

It just seems a mistake to read that sequence of events as Stede trying to fulfill his father’s requirements. It’s more him wanting to kill his father and being broken when he does.

#ofmd #ofmd meta #our flag means death #stede bonnet #ned low #edward teach #gif #there just seems this slight cruelty to Stede and his feelings that is really troubling #I may be misunderstanding #I welcome conversation

[pumpkinrootbeer]

Eugene was truly the best boyfriend. saw his girlfriend get broken up with, and immediately had a revenge glow up. Imagine being Cassandra seeing your ex girlfriend's boyfriend and he's wearing a golden choker with the just deepest v neck known to man, the world's sluttiest gloves, and a thigh garter. I'd have to give up then and there.

#Eugenes season 3 outfit you will always be famous #eugene fitzherbert #tangled the series #:v #He saw cass's hot catsuit and knew what he had to do #Also just to scream abt the series bc I just finished #absolutely crazy to me that they have set up since s1 that Eugene has pretty strong identity issues and it's never really addressed? #like s3 was low-key a mess I wish they just let cass be a villain don't have her be manipulated the entire time let her choose it at least #or like I'm fine with her being manipulated but I just felt like they didn't want to go to far with her character #and it made her feel kinda weak narratively #a lot just felt rushed #and I think we should have gotten a biiit more with eugenes identity issues #bc a lot of it in that episode was just a running joke #will say. #euegene/Rapunzel really carried that series they're relationship was the best written part #I would like cass more if they let her be a bit more unhinged #Her best moment was ''will you fight for him?'' #Like yess queen expand on that more #Need a whole episode of her kidnapping Eugene to fuck with Rapunzel #Also sorry you were worth fighting for is downright one of the most romantic lines in the whole show #Also it's so funny to me bc Rapunzel is so protective over Eugene like cass touches him and she's just #SHES MIIINE GET AWAY FROM HER IT'S NOT HER TIIIIME

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

Another Soldier post >:)

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Some closeups:

And an alternate shower on version:

#tf2 #team fortress two #my art #tf2 soldier #tf2 fanart #tfw you just kinda sit in the shower after a mental breakdown to collect your thoughts and you feel like you're miles away from your body👍 #I'M FINE BTW- I JUST FELT LIKE DRAWING SOLDIER ANGST #and also to project whatever tf is wrong with me on him ofc :) #tw scopophobia #tw staring #tw bruises #tw blood #tw injury #this is really low quality sorry :( I'm tired