#always so goddamn close

[ex0rin]

First time in a bathroom stall, definitely not the last. Butcher & Hughie | The Boys S01E01

#i should make one of all the times they're in bathrooms together (so many instances oh my god you two) #hughie campbell #jack quaid #billy butcher #karl urban #the boys #cara gifs #like honestly #with other characters it's like #but how will i fit them into a 540x540?? #but not these two #always so goddamn close #i'm losing my mind #just touching each other casually #RIGHT AWAY #this is like their second meeting #also that thumbs up is SO just jack quaid jesuschrist

[sea-buns]

SO insane that Sam has seen AND liked this... I'm so cozy in my little tumblr corner that I forget my words can escape containment and be perceived beyond Aabria Iyengar

#aabria interacting with my posts are precious gifts that i hold close to my heart #but also she walks amongst us down here #i could not begin to fathom the depths of horrors that she has witnessed #but SAM. thats wild. #also hilarious given the post. man is stressing HARD lmao #every once in a while i scroll through the meme accs on insta cuz yall are what got me to get back on tumblr #so i like to see how things are going. its always a good time #criticalrolememes <3 #critical role #sam riegel #the sam riegal tag was made to make me doubt myself every goddamn time #sea rambles

[isan0rt]

I'm very tired of hearing the "why doesn't Kingdom Hearts cater to ME, a person who doesn't want to have to care about it. Kingdom Hearts should stop rewarding the people who are deeply emotionally invested in it and should instead care only about Me, Casual Fan who only wants to give a shit every 5-10 years or so, what about MY feelings" argument. Jesus fucking Christ. It's been 22 years. Suck it up and go play a Halo then.

#Christ Almighty #i almost had a physical fight with someone at a convention over this topic TEN ENTIRE YEARS AGO #I could not go ten feet in my Saix cosplay at a convention from like 2009-2019 without encountering like #MULTIPLE smug grinning chucklefucks making comments about the 'side games' all goddamn day everywhere i went #literally came this close to throwing down with the final one at like 10 pm on my way back to my hotel room #(I'm exaggerating about the physical fight thing but my friends did wrestle me off the elevator because i was about to tear that guy- #-absolutely a new asshole about 'haha every game since kh2 was stupid and bad I'm so smart for thinking so' #*) #they're always the SMUGGEST about how smart they are for being 'above' caring about the handheld games #sorry they feature women actually doing things and make you feel stupid but skill issue #God forbid you should have to care about Xion and Aqua and Namine and also use your brain

[unluckystreak]

read the translated haikyuu!! magazine update on twitter. kagehina being soulmates again. they never change.

#'what are you to each other?' #'rivals!' 'rivals' #and at first ur like oh ok its just a rivalry #its just a detached relationship very surface level BUT NO #theyre so goddamn dedicated to each other #its insane #they have a very deep bond that is ROOTED in their rivalry #they ARE friends of course i will defend that till i die #cause i think all the first years (and they will always be first years no matter how old they get) are all friends #they are many things to each other but ABOVE ALL they are rivals #and that rivalry is a bond and closeness stronger than most ppls marriages i SWEAR #no but seriously they really said 'rivals (soulmates)' #also the reporter being like 'what are you to each other' #they said 'i know what you are' #haikyuu!! #kagehina

[capricornsicle]

"I'm going to tell you a story. Maybe it will sound familiar." Visionary x Insatiable x Status Asthmaticus x The Wolves of War

#this is really a show about coming of age in a vicious and unfamiliar world more than a show about werewolves #think about it. scott is sixteen and to him losing his first love is as incomprehensible and unfathomable as the supernatural. #and we're constantly reminded of how being sixteen and in love goes -- 'you're not in love you're sixteen and a child' etc. #these three characters make for such a good parallel to one another in how they werewolf + seeking guidance #especially + sudden change of worldview/stakes when confronted with sudden and unexpected loss and grieving #of course derek loses paige and becomes cold and jaded (see: literally becomes cold w/ blue eyes) #scott loses allison and commits harder to saving all of his friends even though one of them (or someone possessing him) killed her #liam is stopped from killing because of hayden's death #here are three werewolves who were sixteen and held their first love's dead body in their arms #and each of them took a different path. do you close yourself off? refuse to? do you change completely because of it? #and ofc it's teen wolf so everything always comes in threes #I have a lot of issues with the writing but the use of death (barring 6b) is not one of them. they really went hard on meaningful death. #also consider: lori holding brett's hand so he doesn't die alone and theo responding to tracy kissing him by killing her as she does #teen wolf writers went is anyone going to bastardize the original narrative to ponder new ideas about it and didn't wait for an answer #also women's deaths are always about love/for a man (thanks hollywood) but goddamn if they don't kill their women wisely #and the thing is they are all running. they're running from death and what does it get them? it gets them here. #derek wants to turn paige so she'll live forever. scott wants allison to live happily even with someone else. liam wants to save hayden. #none of them consider that cheating death will catch up to them until they run right into its arms #and all three die because of getting involved with the supernatural. all of them would presumably not have died otherwise. #coming of age into a world that takes and hurts and destroys and where you are now old enough for people around you to die. #this is not a show about werewolves. #teen wolf #twedit #teenwolfedit #my edit #derek hale #paige krasikeva #scott mccall #allison argent #liam dunbar

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Massage was not what I'd hoped 😔 kinda frustrated. I feel like a lot of the time when I ask a massage practitioner to concentrate on a certain area (in this case my shoulders and especially my neck because the pain has been getting really really bad) they say, "Absolutely!" And then proceed to do the routine they already have memorized, regardless of what I asked for. Like, they spent more time massaging my legs than my neck. I never mentioned my legs. I mentioned nothing about pain or anything else being out of whack below the waist, or even below my mid-back.

Maybe it's because a lot of folks get nervous when I bring up my rotated vertebrae and they just end up avoiding the area altogether, perhaps even unconsciously doing so. But goddamnit my neck fucking HURRRRTS and it almost never isn't hurting and I just paid $150 to have someone not rub it for an hour and a half.

#disappointing massage #can't believe I spent so much goddamn money for no relief #In the past I've literally gotten more relief from just plopping myself in front of a friend on the couch and bribing them for a neckrub #The problem is I'm just out of comfortable touch friends #my neck still hurts so fucking bad I'm gonna cry #except i shouldn't because that will also make the neck hurt worse #worst part is I still tipped them because it is deeply ingrained in me to always tip #life of faye #god I wish I had just like one close friend with strong hands I could bribe to rub my neck #I'd pay them cook them food kill their enemies whatever they wanted #just please make my neck not hurt for a little while 😭

[darkwood-sleddog]

quick question friends do we think it's cute when dog owners repeatedly fail to keep their dogs in on their land and let their dogs wander up and down public mountain trails unattended for years despite the ordinance in their town stating they cannot do this all while becoming state icons? because personally i think it's neglect.

#dogblr #yes this is about the stowe pinnacle dogs #i hated those golden mother fuckers with every fiber of my being #they always barked at my dogs #and followed us uncomfortably close #and because they are unattended on the entire goddamn mountain their owner was nowhere to mitigate anything #what if one of these dogs had gotten injured? fallen off the cliff at the top? i'm just. #like they claimed for years they couldn't keep their dogs in their yard #like sorry if you were in my town my dog warden would've slapped your ass with a heavy fine #your lack of ability to control your dogs #does not superceed the public's ability to enjoy a trail #anyways they're making a cutsey little documentary about these dogs now and i hate that they're state icons i hate it so much #bc you know the owner is going to get new dogs and let them do the same goddamn thing #if they weren't golden retrievers they would've never been afforded this from the public #anyways.

[possiblytracker]

feeling normal (birthday in like 3 days that im not ready for) feeling normal (too artblocked and preoccupied to even think about finishing artfight and wrestling with guilt about it) feeling normal (-£600 in bank account) feeling normal (realised breaking my foot last year led to Lasting Consequences but cant see a physio abt my fucked up legs til january) feeling normal (has to learn to drive stick and the instructor is scary) feeling normal (stlil has no idea how to un-fuck social life after the great mental breakdown of april 2023) feeling normal (gross sobbing)

#'hows it going' yeah everything is happening so much its fine tho <2 #like im FINE im just. all over the goddamn place i need things to just settle down #i applied for a job thats like. actually the closest thing i can think of to my dream job. like. rare opportunity where i can suck up to th #employer as much as i want about the place having a huge impact on my life and mean every single word of it for real #(its at the bird park where i used to volunteer but this time doing flight displays animal training and education) #im slightly underqualified for it (no prior hands-on experience and no drivers license yet) so i might not even get the interview #so not getting my hopes up high yet #i can always volunteer there again on weekends while i work whatever retail gig will take me if i dont #but fuuuck it'd be nice. so so cool #'required qualifications: undergrad degree in fields related to animal behaviour' me rolling up with my shiny new Animal Behaviour BSc: #anyway. AUghrh #give things a few more weeks to shake out. ill be okay #having complicated feelings about one chapter of my life being over.. its a fucked up transitory period thats prolly gonna feel worse- #before it feels better #but ill settle into it soon especially once i get a job/my sister goes to college in september #....and i get the goddamn boxes out of my room so it feels more like a place i actually live again jgHJSDN #vent/ #its not Really but close enough

[spiritofjustice]

saw one of the people closing with me tonight called out and i just know. i just know i'm gonna be on register all fucking day again because of it.

#psy's no punctuation posts #work tag #and that's not his fault but like. goddamn it man #i hope the other closer will close up there. he always bitches abt the fact he doesn't like closing up there. me neither bitch #and i'm tired of being on register all the time. deal with it #i like that guy as a friend but he's the worst fucking coworker sometimes #he's even lied to me about stuff he supposedly got done before #that kinda soured how i viewed him a bit #i'm not his boss. when i ask him if he finished recovering kids i just want to make sure it's done #cause if it isn't i'll do it or i'll help #but instead he lied and said our other coworker also went through it after close!!! #LIES. fucking lies. he hadn't touched it and our coworker hadn't been there at all #i think it's possible and probable he misunderstood what section i was asking about but seriously. #he sucks at recovery so it's frustrating that HE gets to recover on the floor and i don't #so you'll let the guy who does a shitty job/no job at all do it but i have to be on register. ok. #alright i'm being mean. i love that guy but goddamn

[dragonji]

its time for yet another brain game of am i like fully neurotic or was this genuinely not a cool situation . prize is jack shite and yet im playing anyways👍

#j.txt #vent #just like. to preface. im not bringing any of this up im just going to stew in it for the night and then move on as per usual #alright disclaimer made now i can get to the point. So. tonight is my close irl friends bday right but she didnt tell me about any plans #so i naturally assumed she was gonna do her own thing and not really celebrate. Ive had work all day and while working get a text frm her #asking if we want to go to this restaurant i introduced our group to for dinner. so i respond saying oh im off at this time if yall want to #go even tho its late i can. Never get a response so i assume theyll bring it up when i get back. get home and no ones here not a word abt #whats going on. i do my usual unwinding get ready to chill etc which takes abt half an hour. she comes back with our other mutual friends #and theyve already gone to the restaurant which is fine i get it. but they get back and say oh now we're going to this themed music night at #a club we've all been to before as soon as (other friend) changes. and then just. dont offer for me to come along or anything and leave. #which like. whatever its happened a hundred times before im used to it but Still. does it not even occur that I might want to participate?? #if i had Any notice that this was happening I could have been getting ready instead of slacking around waiting for someone to get home #its so. i try extrememly hard not to be a downer or just invite myself to things bc I Know this is how they all operate but it does still #sting that it feels like im not even thought of if i dont happen to be in the room when plans are being made lol. #and obv I am Not bringing this up rn and ruining what im sure was a really fun night for all of them #its just truly a goddamn bitch of an unsatisfactory situation yknow. but such are the whims of fate and i shall endure as always✌���

[high-warlock-of-brooklyn]

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#ugh just. human feelings #these goddamn human yearnings like needing to be held and hugged and loved and kissed and cared for #and wanting to care and hug and kiss and love without conditions or burdens #everyday waking up alone and I imagine yeah it could be worse I could've not lived past 19 #in fact there's been moments i was sure i wouldn't. it still amazes me that I did #i remember sitting in this dark room with one kinda opaque and dirty window and both doors closed and tears streaming down my face #i was so sad and so angry and so lonely and i remember thinking that fuck I forgot to do the laundry. idk what it is about these moments #it's like brain cannot comprehend the full extent of heartbreak so just focuses on the most mundane things #i had a breakdown weeks before that and all I wanted to do was to clean my table and kept cleaning till my tears made it hard to see clearly #and this morning I'm sitting here on my bed in a different city with a job to go to. with friends and roommates I can go to for a hug #and know i will always be obliged. i have a desk. i don't go to the washroom to hide my tears all the time #and it's just. i still can't believe sometimes that it got better #never believed it could but it did #and now I'm sitting on my bed and all I could think was I'm 23 and I've never danced with someone. I've never been on a date. #I've never woken up warm and happy because the side of the bed is warm and never giggled because someone i love made me smile just for the #sake of seeing my laughter #just. I'm happy and I'm so so grateful for everything I have #but. and yet. #sigh #just the human condition of needing to love and be loved #that is all #to delete later #jace.txt #sorry this got away from me

[omarfor-orchestra]

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#the fact that my birthday is getting close and every year i hate it a little more #there's no explanation i just hate that I don't have people to celebrate it with beside my family #and i hate being in the centre of attention because it always looks fake #and I'm thinking about my graduation party (god i hope I'll graduate) and the fact that everyone plays games and stuff #and I don't even know whom i should ask to come because everyone is leaving again #and it's always like this #every time I'm not ok for reasons everyone leaves and i get it ok? i do. i can't exactly burden people with my problems #but will it always be like this? #i hate my birthday i wish it didn't exist i wish it was sept. 22nd and then i woke up on sept. 24th #sorry this is a useless rant but goddamn it i feel so fucking alone these days

[the-trans-dragon]

Ghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh if my job decides to do a secret Special Item Release, they should at LEAST tell the staff x.x I would have brought more food and drinks, and gotten better rest last night, if I’d known

Also they should give us holiday pay for that nonsense omg.

#we were SO dead this morning and I was structuring my entire day to Catch Up On Extra Stuff #and then GODDAMN. they didn’t even wait for the midday shift to get there to help omg #and I kept getting in trouble because customers wouldn’t come to my register even though I was calling out and waving. so I got on the #microphone and had to say it over the intercom and they still didn’t really listen #I don’t know why. like surely people aren’t that homophobic right lol. idk I’ve always been hard to see? if that makes sense? #like. if I had a dollar for every time someone got fairly close to me and then SCREAMED because they suddenly realized I was there. I’d have #more than normal dollars. maybe it’s because I’m short or quiet or because I raised myself to be paranoid everyone was going to kill me so i #was always training myself to be quiet and still and have subtle movements and stuff? #idk. the superpower vanishes instantly if I am on break and trying to get to the back room hahaha. then EVERYONE HAS WUESTIONS. which I get #in trouble for because I ‘dawdle’ (helping customers) #okay….I’m procrastinating something so… perhaps I should do the thing I do not want to do #IF I am FAST! I can play slug cat game!!! #sorenhoots

[rig-a-rendal]

OOOOOO I HAVE MY DEGREE IN CLASSICAL LATIN AND GREEK !! lets go history and linguistics!!

i saw your mike and bo burnham edit vid and i was gonna start chewing my arm off. mike is soooo blueprint or whatever 😔 like i actually cannot stop thinking about how he was just screaming into the void. also i would love to read a NOVEL about ur analysis of mike’s savior complex bc there is just so much there. always thinking about his Desperate Need For Success, reads like older simbling complex to me LMAOOOO even if hes not

(extra also: the dream sequence into the birthday party blow up is always playing in my head bc im regular about it. and the kiss at the beginning of head??? lot to unpack there, not to MENTION the fact that the guys are all like indirectly kissing eachother no big deal. thoughts???🤔)

BRO like the constant "it was all real" "it was all fake"????? he was desperately trying to communicate that something was Wrong but he couldn't articulate it and my leading theory at the moment was that it PROBABLY had something to do with how he related to masculinity. there's a quote somewhere where he talks about trying to relate to other men by being sarcastic and witty but that looking back on it he kind of realizes he was just. being mean.

#as for the indirect kiss I literally never thought that hard about it they're always shouting their lines into each other's mouths #on the show so like. being that intimately close to someone while still trying to pretend you're not emotionally/“thematically” linked #was probably just par for the course at that point for all of them #idk if this makes Any Goddamn Sense by the way you're getting raw unfiltered stream-of-consciousness noura rn #and the hot and cold thing? it's all real until it isn't anymore? that's like The Theme in all of bo burnham's work.

[equalseleventhirds]

ohhhh just remembered that I have instant arroz caldo. as good as homemade? of course not. but fast & easy comfort food with a fuckton of ginger in it??? I Require.

#getting filipino food in nyc is always a goddamn trial #the few good places are so so far from me and close so early #but I did make it out to the store and I have this now so :)

[lighthouseborna]

also henry thought breaking the trident was like. maybe not exactly a pyrrhic victory (because he won more than he lost, still) but something adjacent to it.

#i just. hm. I love this movie! i never really was particularly convinced by #''break the trident and u break every curse'' it was always too. just a shade too neat u know? #and so .. i feel like always but im sure i worked around to it over time but for a long time now #i have thought of the shattering as Henry having the thought ''we can't win this - but Salazar can lose'' #there was no way to keep the trident and keep jack alive #jack's last desperate backup plan was that book over his breastbone and it was spent and there just #there was no way to quickly take the trident from salazar #it didn't exist. #he had to break it. #and that means he loses because. i mean jesus fucking christ he spent half his life looking for it #to get THAT goddamn close #and he thought he was giving up his chance to use it to break clypso's binding on the dutchman #but he made that choice anyway. that's my story and im sticking to it #he got Lucky (and maybe something something ghosts curses magic His Will Came Into Play) that part of shattering it #shattered the binding between the Dutchman and the doldrums between life and death #i mean cause he. he destroyed a godly artifact that feels. significant. and like there would be consequences. #and he also got...unlucky? ...half lucky that salazar was also uncursed/resurrected in the process because he was Trying to End Him #and instead just turned him to flesh and blood but hey u know the convenient thing about flesh and blood #is that it can be killed with a sword (and yknow. the crushing weight of the bottom of the ocean) #☩ genuinely about to haul off and start biting ( ooc. )