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xp-n-g · 7 months

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caramelldansen owao wa wao

HELLO! IM CHARLIE! AND THAT IS BOO MY MASCOT AND MAIN CHARACTER IN MY WEBCOMIC ECTOPHASIA! WELCOME TO MY TUMBLR IM GLAD TO HAVE YOU!!!!

DISCLAIMER:

I AM ANTI HARRASSMENT, DO NOT COME TO ME WITH CALLOUTS UNLESS SAID PERSON IS CONTRIBUTING TO REAL WORLD ABUSE!

youll find out more about this in my byf/dni section of my website! https://underscorepng.neocities.org/

I am profiction! which means i dont believe in harrassing other people for the fictional media they consume!

proship / profiction doesnt necessarily mean you you have to indulge in, or even like problematic ships, you can totally have things that ick you out! you can be proship and hate incest and noncon ships, it just means you dont harass or judge others for their personal interests in fictional media! you just dont believe in attacking others in fiction because fiction doesnt necessarily equal reality! thats not to say fiction cant affect reality it certianly can, willpower, self control, therapy, and art are powerful outlets that really do help others from these potentially harmful urges, i use art myself to cope with my own extreme traumas to prevent self injurous behaviors, let people do what they need to do, id prefer drawing a harmful act that acting on impulses! pratice harm reduction in your life and with the people around you < 3

I am also pro-para! meaning i personally believe having a paraphilic attraction doesnt mean youre bad or wrong! i am an anti-contact paraphile myself, (sorry i wont disclose which one >~< mayb in the future but im not comfortable rn) and attraction isnt inherently harmful, it doesnt mean youll suddenly act on said attraction and become an abuser! with that being said pro-contact harmful paras (ex the big 3 not like idk plushos yk) please do not interact!! i am very uncomfortable and my personal moral beliefs contradict your presence, id rather not discuss or interact at all!

you cant get rid of paras, trust me i would if i could, but coping with mine through art and therapy has helped me learn to accept that this IS a part of me, and my online groups have helped me embrace who i truly am and not feel as ashamed or alone in my struggle, if you have any para or proship related questions hmu idm!

I am also radical incluse and do not believe any identity is inherently harmful, embrace all identities wether you understand it or not! i support all types of people from differet backgrounds, religions, ethnicities, races, sexualities, just all types of identities, and anyone who chooses love before hate! this does not mean i allow bigots, racists, or excluse on any of my accounts, i have no room for abusive or harmful behavior! if you spread hate you are the exception, reflect your personal values before deciding to interact with me.

if you read through all of my heartfelt acceptance journey an still cant resist send me hate, death threats, and bile, then do so in my ask box! (still no minors please.)

i have more about me on my WEBSITEEEEE!!!! (it works best on pc) https://underscorepng.neocities.org/

its not fully finished but i love my website so much and i hope you all do too :3333 tysm see yaaaaaaa

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masked-constellations · 2 years

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COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!!

As the title says, I'll be opening commissions! I'm not sure what to say in this post, so let's just get one with the show, shall we?

Base pricing

Chibis/icons: 10 USD

Sketches: 10 USD

Lineart only: 20 USD

Full Drawing (w/o background): 35 USD

Full Drawing (w/ background): 40 USD

Character Reference sheet: 35 USD

Add-ons

Half Body: +5 USD

Full Body: +10 USD

Props/Melee Weapons: +10 USD

Multiple Characters: +10 USD

Armor/Extensive Detail: +5 USD

[[DISCLAIMER!!]] (and Terms of Service)

Shading and Lighting are within the Extensive Detail Add-on! It's not guaranteed in any of the Full Drawing options!!

Headshots and/or Bust drawings are the same as the base prices! no charging extra for these options.(I.E: you ask for a Sketch Headshot, no add-ons, the price will be $10 as the Sketch price is.)

Be patient with me and my drawing time, I'll be taking as much time as I need to finish your commission as well to make time for school and family, life gets in the way and I hope you understand that.

Currency conversion is negotiable!! (I.E. if an icon is 10 USD, converting it to Brazilian Real, it would still be 10 BR. As someone who suffers with my currency being lower than the dollar, I understand the struggle and will not inflict the same struggle on others whom coin is lower than the dollar.)

I'll only accept the money to be sent before I start your commission, or we split it in half, and you pay before and after I finish your commission, also, please send proof you sent the money and I will send progress screenshots back to you as I draw the commission.

I'll accept Sky: Children of the Light IAPs as payment as well, Sky only allows you to send AIP gifts to friends after a few days, I'll start on the commission as we wait and send screenshots of progress, but I won't send you the finished thing until you send me the IAP. If the commission is around $10-30 dollars I will accept only one(1) IAP as payment, if the commission is any higher than $35 then I'll ask for two(2) IAPs (as long as the IAP total is within the Commission price).

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What I WILL draw:

Fandoms

Character X Character (platonic or ship)

Oc X Character (platonic or ship)

SFW stuff

Blood/Light gore(cut limbs, face trauma, etc.)

Furry/anthro characters

Robots

I can draw pretty much anything as long as its not listed in the wont draw part

What I WONT draw:

NSFW

Incest

Pedophilia

Proships

Heavy Gore

Basic shit yknow

Slots open: 8/8

EDIT: I just edited a few things in the Example Sheets and added more recent artwork as examples, as well as edited the TOS and Disclaimer

#open commissions #commission info #commissions open #art commission prices #commission sheet #masktalks #maskcomms #madness combat #madcom #sky game #skyblr #sky cotl #sky children of light #roblox doors #doors roblox #my drawings #maskdraws #fnaf

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cambriancutie · 5 months

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tell me abt the dynamics dominic, lychee and humphrey have:)

their dynamic is? something for sure!!! all my thoughts are scattered in my brain. its part 'friends who kiss eachother sometimes' and part 'do not put them into a room together they will tear eachother apart'

they all live together in an apartment + lychees roommate, but they often get into arguments (usually started by humphrey) and its very rare when their all in the same house together. i want to say they tolerate eachother most of the time but their all mentally ill young adults

this got a bit long. read under the cut for toxic boy yuri

i want to say humphrey is codependent to everyone they meet, but theyve gotten better at it. they used to be really attached to dominic but theyve learned to better distant themselves. when they got out of the metro it was real bad but now they are in therapy and medicated👍

humphrey and dominics relationship used to be really off and on romantically, but at this point they consider themselves just friends. humphrey got attached to her because of their shared background, and dominic really cares about humphrey!!! just probably not in the same way humphrey does. this also mirrors humphreys relationship w guava, they want to rely on someone older than them.

unlike with lychee theyve been together for a long time, and their relationship has gotten better. i think their relationship is pretty normal

and then lychee and humphrey... lychee is a new person to humphrey so their still getting used to them. lychee thinks humphrey is cute and humphrey doesn't know what to think of them. their relationship isnt very well though out at the moment (my bad lol) i think humphrey is jealous of lychee for taking the agent 3 title...but i wont get into that right now...

i think theyve known eachother for about a year and have a kind of 'friends with benefits' relationship

and then lychee and dominic.. still havent thought about this one. i think their both passive to eachother and get along fine. they dont talk a lot to eachother (mainly bc their not always home at the same time). i think theyd eat oranges together

and as a group they get along fine!! i think they bring the better parts of eachother out when their a group. especially were my current canon is set bc at that point theyve sorted out most of their problems.. as you can tell everything here is really patchy i dont think about them a lot

this ended up kind of negative LOL i think the worst part of a character are very important, they all have issues but im trying to make them out as okay people in my drawings...!

#sorry these guys have various issues #oc

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goatpaste · 2 years

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ok, first off, part 4 is the best one im sooo happy you hold the right opinion there. secondly, have you gotten to jojolion? if so, any opinions?

P4 is is just so good!! dont compare p4 to the rest of jojos!! its just doin its own thang

its very good and really just stands strong on its own

and yes! im actually currently reading through JJL atm, im workin through v14 right now, so i just finished reading the Vitamin C fight

and its very good, i like it A LOT more than sbr

it still has its icks, i cant ignore that and their some pretty big icks. but AT LEAST unlike SBR it isnt a major plot point that spans throughout the story and hinging on being "important to the story" its just a few unfortunate icks here and there.

BUT THE MAJORITY of the story is VERY fun and im REALLY enjoying it. i love the higashikatas so much their all freaks, i love that they all wont wow we love you josuke so much we wish you were our real son insteed of joshu <3 and then flushed him down the toilet <33

SOO mad Joshu has a cool fucking stand with a baller design, doesnt even deserve it...

i really do love the stand and ppl designs in this part. they look like they'll be very fun to translate into my art style if i ever get around to drawing them :))

and again love the characters, everyone's such a freak in the funniest best way possible i love them sm.

YASU AND GAPPY ARE ALSO SO SO GOOD AND SWEET AND GOOFY AND SILLAY AND I LOVE THEM. lil weirdos who im glad found each other <33

also i do really enjoying watching araki try to explore like, whats the world, really dive into character thoughts and feelings. i really enjoy watching through Gappy's delima of the question on "who am i and what does being me mean" its,,, ough

AND UGH JOSIFUMI AND KIRAS BACKSTORY IS SO OUCH AND MAKE ME WEEPY ITS REALLY GOOD THEIR BROTHERS THEY CARE EACH OTHER IM SO. UGH. Jojos hasnt had me this fee fee since the end of Stone Ocean fr...

theirs just a lot more to like about this part beside the characters its very good charaters in the classic good morioh setting with a fun story

aND this is one of the few parts that i geniuenlly knew VERY little about. i know Gappys deal and his whole idenity for the most part without the finer details, i know the name of some stands, i sorta understood the higashikata family set up, i know the name of the main villian and his stands name and i think i know its ability. and i knew the rock humans. But thats kinda it, i have NO idea a lot of the stuff thats going on as i go, i dont know a lot of characters, i dont know villian goals, or a lot of character backgrounds and development. im actually getting to go into this one pretty blind! and its so good because its a mystery set up and im like, really good part to not know whats going on. so exciting.

#jojolion spoilers #jjba spoilers

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racmune · 2 years

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edit: the contest for this dtiys is over but youre welcome to still post drawings under the tag!!

if you dont follow me on instagram, im doing a dtiys because my birthday is coming up on may 15th ❤

if youre interested in participating (im holding it both on tumblr + instagram) additional info is under the cut vv

🌤 how to enter:

• tag your art #racDTIYS15 (same tag on ig)

• tag me in your post

• the winner + honorable mentions get announced on june 3rd (late posts will still be featured on my ig story *with credit* and reblogged but wont be part of the contest)

• entries will be featured on my ig story + reblogged when i see them

• entries will also be reposted on my instagram and tumblr with credits to announce the winner and honorable mentions on june 3rd

🌤 rules:

• not much, you can do a redraw or an entirely different character in the outfit, ship art, use the same color pallette etc. (ship art of inc*st or p*dophilia/age gap ships arent allowed please and thanks)

• only rule for content is to stay on the handmade theme + keep the outfit (recolors are ok!!)

• no gore drawings w/o non-gore versions that i can post. just be mindful. you guys are smart, but just so were clear lol

• tracing or reposting art isnt something ill feature or count as an entry but i think thats a given

• putting the original in your post for comparison is totally chill though!!!

🌤 compensation:

• every entry will be guaranteed a small non-shaded character drawing (up to two characters, oc, canon, real people etc.) without a background

• winner will get a fully shaded multiple character drawing of their choice with a background

• ill start working on drawings after the winner is announced

• late posts might not get drawings done for them; it depends on how many entries there are

^^ be sure to dm me about what you want for your entry by june 3rd (pls contact me about it as soon as possible after posting, thanks!!)

#racmune art #tf2 #racDTIYS15 #miss pauling #tf2 miss pauling #miss pauling tf2 #ms pauling #ms pauling tf2 #tf2 ms pauling #tf2 fanart #fanart #dtiys #team fortress 2

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a-real-cupcake · 7 months

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An explanation to my Discord profile picture.

Alright, so my Discord profile picture has been pretty much the exact same ever since I got Discord way back in 2017. When I do change it, it's to a recolor of the same picture. So, what is my profile picture?

It's this. A screencap of an anime called Kaiba. I wont do an explanation of what the anime is about, but basically it's my favorite anime so I just started using it as my pfp on Discord and it's basically just kind of become my thing. I would like to just to just double mention that the original screen cap is not drawn by me, it is from the anime Kaiba directed and created by Masaaki Yuasa so please go give it a watch.

The oldest edit I have still on my computer is this one here where I basically tried making a "retrowave" type pfp. At the time I never really liked it, and looking back on it I really don't like it because I've gotten a lot better at making these things.

That said, I did add to that specific picture right after this and removed the background to replace it with the original Kaiba background which does look better.

I tried making a Pride pfp not long after and it turned out pretty bad.

My very first Christmas pfp in 2018 was...well it was not good if I'm being honest.

My first official recolor that I have wasn't until 2020. That's when I decided to recreate the outline of the original drawing so I could do my own thing. The colors I used for this come from Kamina from the anime Gurren Lagann.

The next one I did after Kamina was Stocking Anarchy, a character from Panty & Stocking, another one of my favorite anime.

Next up is Halloween of 2020. This would be the first Halloween pfp I have saved, and probably ever made. It is just a jack-o-lantern. The concept of it I think is pretty clever, but the actual execution just didn't work. Maybe I can do it again another year and make it better.

And after Halloween comes Christmas, this being the second Christmas pfp I have means it has to be better....right? I had a whole year to get better. You can decide that.

This next one isn't one I did, it's actually one a friend of mine did for me. It's just the normal Kaiba picture, but they made him a cat boy! I actually do come back to this one from time to time.

Ok so shockingly, for 2021 I didn't really have any new pfps, at least none that I saved, so we're jumping right into Halloween 2021. It's Dracula and I actually really like this one. This I think is when I think I can see a change in myself getting better at making these, and graphic design as a whole.

Christmas 2021 was also really good, it's a gingerbread man! Has texture and everything. Also one of my favorites I've done.

I eventually decided to upscale the original Kaiba picture, remove the background, and leave just the outline and was left with this.

I was then able to do cool things like this Nonbinary Kaiba. I did this when me and a bunch of friends in a server were doing similar pfp.

One that I really love is this "real" Kaiba that I made. I usually use Paint.net to make all my stuff be that YouTube thumbnails or these profile pictures, but I decided to try out Gimp just for this one specific pfp to get the warp tool and I think it worked out.

I'm not going to show all of my pictures, but I do want to leave it off with this years Halloween pfp. It's Sally from The Nightmare Before Christmas.

With that being said I'm going to go ahead and leave a screenshot of the folder that hold all of my Kaiba pictures just so you can see the rest of them that I didn't show here. It's funny how this little joke of a profile picture has unintentionally been helping me better myself at graphic design.

#Discord #Kaiba #anime #profile picture #Gurren Lagann #Studio Trigger #Gainax #Masaaki Yuasa #panty & stocking with garterbelt #Halloween #Christmas #gimp #paint.net

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banana-breadses · 1 year

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holy shit your object show as a whole sounds so interesting if you woulnd't mind i want to hear more

okie lets go! (long ramble ahead)

My show is called Roll Credits!

plot wise its just your standard object show with challenges eliminations and a huge plot thing later in the season! the characters is where it gets fun ;-)

here are the first drawings of most of the characters. its not the best, but they're all here! lets go in order:

Water Bottle(she/her): Athletic! likes sports and excersise. complete opposite of Towel.

Towel(she/her): Lazy! likes television and sleeping. complete opposite of Water Bottle.

Textbook(he/him): Smart! is a green book! i have since updated his design, and added glasses and some blocks of text on his cover. also BAD AT TALKING

Rubik's Cube(he/him): Organized! basically my younger brother's self insert. dont know much about him but hey he seems cool.

Sugar Cookie(she/her): My girl! love her! first character of them all,an oc before i wanted to make a show. Ive talked all about her before, and I love her <3

Snowflake(he/him): honestly he's the one ive thought the least about. cool guy, really chill(pun intended)

Drum(they/them): Likes music i guess. I love them but all conversations end up in an argument because of the ~transphobic family~

Bowl(he/they/it): Cool guy. also a god. this was drawn before he was a god. doesn't talk i also have an original drawing for God Bowl that i dont really like anymore but if you wanna see it... (more lore to come!)

Bill(he/him): Rich! Bowl's best friend, and talks a lot. makes up for Bowl's silence.

Sunglasses(both he/him): the hosts! individually their names are Sun and Glass. Sun is excitable and energetic, and Glass is a cool guy.

Measuring Tape(she/they): Mom friend? i think? no matter what I am in love with their shape!!! she's so cute!!1

Glow Stick(she/her): rowdy teenager! likes to party and have fun. Her emotions do get really big(like me!) and she changes mood really intensely really quickly.

Flashlight(she/her): Cute girl! love her! she's the youngest of the group. kind to everyone, knows everyone, but doesn't have any real friends. Until now! with compassion she and Glow Stick become good friends :)

Speaker(he/him): didn't have a personality, but now he still doesn't! yknow how Rob in TAWOG forces his way from a background character to the villain? Speaker's kinda like that. doesn't have a personality, but hacks into the settings of the show to give himself one.

Pinecone(he/him):!!!!! the angry one!!!! used to be a criminal. he has been cloned!! and he doesn't really know it. as far as Pinecone knows, he got hit with a sciencey beam and thats it.

Marble(he/him):uuuuhh a last minute addition. dont know much about him. :/

Key(he/him): very calm. Kinda like Candle II. his eyes are always closed because when he opens them theyre so shiny it would blind everyone. why? you'l never know(unless you ask him(he polishes them(with bleach)))

Twig(she/her): TWIG!!!! Love her!!! very soft spoken and loves her leaf. doesn't understand people all the time, but she tries :o)

Mushroom(she/her): the mediator. Likes gardening, and tries to keep her alliance from falling apart.

those are all the main characters! there are a few side characters like the mafia, their parents, and the gods.

okie the mafia:

Coney(he/any): Pinecone's clone. wants to distance themself from him a lot, so he became a criminal! leads a band of friends despicable objects.

Poinsettia(she/her): tries to stay calm. Tall. super cool

Butter Knife(they/them): anxious to all tomorrows. i have never seen them not anxious.

Tie(he/she): chaotic. has maybe killed someone for real......? she wont tell.

honestly the mafia is just Team Rocket level evil, but Coney honestly tries to be bad.

their parents are just a few things ive thought about. Sugar Cookie's parents are Chocolate Chip Cookie and Cake, Rubik's cube's parents are Puzzle and Paint Pallet, and Measuring Tapes parents are Ruler and Tape. Ive come up with more(not all of them).

TAPE!!!! LOOK AT HIM!!! HE IS SO SHAPED!!!

the gods are still a bit of a mystery to me. there are twelve of them, (all dishware) but the only ones that are really important and fleshed out are Bowl and Plate. Plate was Bowl's caretaker when it was young, and after Bowl ran away, she got really depressed and holed up in the gods' realm. they all have varying numbers of eyes and wings.

here's a picture of Plate and a ladle guy i might make a god.

okie those are all the characters! (not even all of them I still havent mentioned Doll or any of the alliances ;))

#nimbus speaks #nimbus arts #ocs #Roll Credits

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alibi0003 · 1 year

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ALIBI

he/him ⋆ 18 ⋆ self taught ⋆ autistic

〔 ABOUT 〕

hi welcome to my art blog

i’ve been drawing since i was about 5? i’ve never been in an art class and most of my life i didn’t use references or specific materials.

now that i’m older i want to get better with my art, especially digitally, so i can expand my skills and make this hobby more enjoyable for me and aesthetically pleasing to look at

i’m always looking for new friends and art buds to talk to so feel free to dm me or interact on my socials :)

BOUNDARIES

⋆ dms : open always

⋆ art rqs : open but please don’t expect me to finish it

⋆ asking for art : open but please don’t expect it to be completed

⋆ art trades : YES YES OPEN ALWAYS

⋆ criticism : open but don’t be an asshole LOL

〔 COMMISSIONS 〕

⋆ OPEN ⋆

BUYER CAUTION

due to my bpd, i find it hard to be consistent.

if i know i will not be able to draw something (due to lack of motivation or i need more practice w/ that specific request) i will decline but you are always free to come back later once i have practiced more/replace the request with a different one.

i am also still expanding my skills in digital art so not everything will be perfect. that said, i sometimes add my own ideas into references. this isn’t because i think a character is unoriginal or needs more but because i like to get creative with my art rather than sticking to an exact reference ; if this isn’t something you’re okay with as a buyer, let me know :)

WONT DRAW

⋆ sexual art

⋆ hate speech

⋆ complex backgrounds

⋆ weird… stuff… ifykyk

⋆ super complex poses/angles ?

⋆ demonizing/misrepresentation of mental/physical condition

WILL DRAW

⋆ gore

⋆ nudity (non-sexual)

⋆ eyestrain

⋆ original characters/fanart

⋆ furries

⋆ scars

⋆ requests involving weapons&guns, drugs, cannibalism, murder&suicide (not of real people), substance abuse

⋆ anything else: dm & ask!

PRICING (roughly)

BUSTS

LINEART & FLAT COLOR : $3

LINEART & FULL COLOR : $5

NO LINEART & FULL COLOR : $6

ADD CHARACTER(s) : $3 each

HALF BODY

LINEART & FLAT COLOR : $5

LINEART & FULL COLOR : $7

NO LINEART & FULL COLOR : $10

ADD CHARACTER(s) : +$5 each

FULL BODY

LINEART & FLAT COLOR : $10

LINEART & FULL COLOR : $10

NO LINEART & FULL COLOR : $20

ADD CHARACTER(s) : +$10 per

EXTRA

SIMPLE BCKGRND : $1

COMPLEX BCKGRND : $3

ICONS : $5

COLOR DOODLE : $3

DM for more info/examples

i don’t have a commission sheet rn but i’m working on one :’)

SOCIALS

insta ; friedalibi

discord ; ALIBI#6611

#art #art commissions #new artist #beginner artist #commissions open #cheap commissions #furry #furry art #furry fandom #weirdcore

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haeroniel-doliet · 2 years

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So the drawings ive been tinkering on for... Almost exactly 2 months now, are getting a little more finished again! More update under the cut so i dont clog anyones dash :')

(i did start making a third piece that ties my whole idea together and that is being the biggest menace, despite me slightly slightly constantly trying to finish the first two to like any standard im happy with lmao)

So yay on some progress! Boo on that i desperately need to make more progress on real life stuff and im worried i wont have these actually done till november. Two posts a year kinda high speed artist here! And i did/do wanna do something or multiple little things at least for dinluke positivity thing in november! I wanna do a fun community thing! But everything i make takes forever bc im never happy with it and i got a lot else i should be doing. How do people do this?

Ok no but like im writing this publicly just bc i sort of wanna give an update and also bemoan the third piece :') the sketch so far is... Okay, the faces are good enough but the rest is so unfinished/unclean. Last two times i tried fixing it i just made it way worse so tonight i thought fuck it and put down the flat colours right. Turns out that just highlights how unfinished my linework was! So really im just debating. Do i go back and try my damndest to make good lineart for it, or do i take a page out of my adult art class and just actually more paint it in? Like screw the lineart im just gonna spend a long time tinkering with the colours for shadows and highlights and shape this out that way. It won't perfectly match the other two, but the faces have lineart and who really pays much attention to the other details??

Oh and i have still a mission set to make backgrounds for these. Yes im planning to trace over a google image of highschool lockers and not much else but thats still probably at least a nights work for me that im not hype for haha. They look good on plain background but i wanna at least see if the background could help make them feel more finished. Yknow? Make it worth it that ive been sitting on them for 2 months already

Its fine, its all fine, im gonna make the phonecalls i need to tomorrow and do other good admin things, then i can try to either start carving out the third piece in a painting style (back up plan if i hate it is to backpedal and do the lineart better, or make it over the top of it) and if thats going miserably ill just try and make the backgrounds yknow?? Ill make progress this weekend, maybe ill even say fuck it and post it without it being totally close to perfect (not super likely but imagine the relief of getting it out here finally??) So stay tuned and wish me luck!!

#haeroniel talks #art woes #alls good but im a little stressed and overthinking everything and its been almost 2 months since i posted the wips and i wish i was done!!

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revivisection · 2 years

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its night time you know what that means! this is my diary now. very long week recap ahead.

my teeth are cool and good kind of now. they're actually still pretty awful but my front are work in progress they look mostly fine now and im not so vigilant at hiding my mouth :) not without a week's worth of pain and agony recovery but. you knoow. i will have to go through that again at some point oh well thank god for ibuprofen except it wears off before i can take another one. my upper lip was incredinly inflamed for a few days, bad experience.

you know you never really think about hpw much you use your mouth or just like. feel your mouth generally experience the life experience of having a mouth until there's problems with it. crazy how that works. i for one would have a much better time not having a mouth it's rather disgusting. ideal form i simply absorb energy through airwaves, or perhaps plug myself in to charge

after that i had to enroll in courses i was like surely i will have a fine and okay time. <-full of hubris. i slept through the first hour of course enrollment because i went to sleep at 6am and it opened at 9. so im now on two waitlists which probably wont let up. going to take latin though, going to become more pretentious just you wait. i think this is what you would call a "dark academia moment" but i dont think i actually know what dark academia is. school hasn't started yet but im having the biggest fucking imposter syndrome everyone who has ever told me how smart i am is a fucking liar.

had a fun lil trivia club day with some trivia club buddies. believe it or not, we did trivia. exciting, i know. anyways scratch what i said before whenever i get the right answer in trivia club i am literally the smartest man alive. why do all my friends have absolutely ancient editions of trivial pursuit (the words of someone who doesn't own any board games)

and yesterday i hung out with my dear friend @threecirclingbuzzards!! she let me scavenge through her big bag of miscellaneous patches it was very fruitful. my vest is very empty because i have to make everything myself and i simply do not. so now i have more things to put on it, the real question is when im actually going to sew. it was also cool because we are like brain linked we are like that image of clown-to-clown communication dont need to speak coherently because like. i get it. she gets it. we get it. the clown part is especially true because we were like. what to teens do. hang out at the mall. genius. and then we got there and it was two minutes from closing. genius. at the dollar store i got minecraft stickers god i love minecraft i will be forty fucking years old and not tire of minecraft

over the course of my mouth recovery time i listened to youtube videos to try and distract myself when falling sleep and i listened to a video about the evil within 1. i dont need to give background information but i will anyways.. back in like whenever of this year early this year some time this year i was scrolling through the discussion page of the tumblr sexyman wiki and there was a suggestion post for stefano valentini and i was like. woah. ive seen that man before. ive watched my fair share of oxbox/oxtra vids in my lifetime. and then i proceeded to go crazy. something about him makes me go absolutely nuts like awooga etc. who fucking knows. anyways i was content to never know anything about the evil within beyond that stefano valentini is like absurdly attractive until i watched that video about the evil within 1 while mildly Out Of It and i developed a very sudden crush on ruvik so now i know some things about the evil within. how was your day. another fucked up evil guy who i am compelled by. i cant fix him i cant make him worse but i CAN look at him from afar. all ive been able to draw lately is just ruvik faces idk man he's my latest fixation i guess. got him on the mind (except for when i was catching up on the patho tag today. i love my weekly spam reblogging from the patho tag except this time it's two weeks worth of posts becuase by god i was having a bad time)

perhaps i should actually watch a lets play of tew so i can know like. what the game is like in full properly and shit. shhhhh you dont see my incomplete patho2 save. i would play more horror games if i werent a little bitch, but im not so instead i just play stupid long fantasy rpgs. the sole reason i havent finished pathfinder kingmaker is because of that stupid goddamn darven quest oh my god i hate that man i hate that quest i need to speedrun it get it over with so i can enjoy the rest of the game but i simply cannot take it when the FUCK is he going to show up how much fuckng time needs to pass where are you bitch i need to xget this out of the fucking way so the hellknights stop crashing my place fucking my shit up i hate it her.e.

i wrote all of this because i am insuch! a mood today. idk whats up last nigh t i passed out instantly fell asleep died went to purgatory the moment i laid down on my bed like in an instant ive never been so sleepy in my life. and today i am incredibly humid but more than that the time actually melted away. like pretend time is a stick of butter in my hands except i preheated my hands in the oven for several minutes and the butter didnt even bother to melt so the preheating didnt matter it just slipped off my stupid little fingers. i woke up blinked now its night time. now nearly twelve hours have passed what the fuCK was i doing. nothing. i have no idea how this time passed i feel out of it (different) a different kind of out of it who knows maybe this is my natural tooth recovery time but instead for going outside two days in a row and having fun. this is my body and mind telling me to have less fun. wlel fuck you body and mind im hanging out with friends AGAIN tomorrow. see how you like that fucker. or maybe im just a little baby and its because i forgot to sleep with my stuffed animals last night. i have a build-a-bear longhorn i love him with my life i named him after my wife (artemy) he keeps me company because all i do is sit and rot.

also we havent read new pages of this dark endeavour in like11 days oops. the review WILL happen eventually okay i have so much to say about that wretched novel just when the summer book club completes it

#brain time #personal

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hekkoto · 2 months

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BIG life update + ANNOUNCEMENTS!!!

Hi my little darklings <3

Here I come with this big life update and some announcements!

So first - Im feeling way better and I can say I will be truly active and post a lot <3 Im so excited!

Important thing - I drew those Patreon prints I owed some people: I will send mail in March and it will have prints for November, December, January and February [+ for March if you will still be my Patron]. Im sorry it took me eternity to catch up on those but finally I can send you those <3 Im super super grateful for your support and understanding that my health was killing me

Print for February will be sent to everyone who are my Patron before 10th of March! Plus then you also will get March one ;p

I gonna focus a lot on my YT this year, I wanna post there artistic stuff but also life vlogs and some gaming. And I will be posting speedpaints where I talk in background ;p My goal is to post 3 videos per week at some point. I also hope to maybe do weekly livestreams?

My other focus will be my Patreon, I wanna go back to posting all planned stuff :> I might do little changes to Patreon tiers but I will let you know!

Oh, about that Gorenuary challenge... Yes, I failed it ;p But I gonna draw arts for every prompt anyway ^^ Hopefully I will finish it to the end of a year hahah >XD

I have idea for some bigger projects for this year, like I wanna start making new game and work on some horror ARG :> I wanna also come back to working a lot on my universe Terroether ^^ Hopefully I will make big progress in designing/redesigning my ocs! I also hope to come back to making lil animations and animatics :>

My health still isnt perfect, also some of illnesses will be present for a rest of my life. I decided to live my life with accepting this as I cant do anything about this. So there will be days I wont do anything. My meds and doctors are super expensive, thankfully right now my parents support us a lot financially. If you wanna donate to help me go through it here is my fundraiser: https://pomagam.pl/nhg96m I will be updating it when it comes to my health

Also, great news - my parents said I dont owe them money I borrowed to upgrade my graphic card. They gave my brother money for car so Im not in debt ;p daaaaaaaaaaaamn, Im so happy about this!

Im again happy and full of motivation; I was able to escape depressive episodes [hopefully they wont be back too often {cause of borderline}] and I found joy in creating again. Im not terrified anymore if Im not good enough or what others think about me. So I hope I will be able to draw and post again regularly :>

Okay, I guess thats all for now :> I missed you a lot guys and I hope to be truly back for real this time :>

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only-lonely-lovers · 4 months

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08.05.2022

tags: intercrural, rough sex

notes: there's a bit of a silly prelude, then devolves into a more severe AmaTsuka scene. this is PART 1, the rest continues in PART 2.

Bird is あ / Avvy is つ

つ：my little background visual in my brain is. amane fucking tsukasa's thighs. i wasn't even trying to… imagine this. i was just incidentally mentioning it as a concept while trying to make my point earlier…. but since then its been like. oh… wait…. i… didn't think about this…. yet…..

あ：……… the. how serendipitous. this is literally where i've been at today What positions………

つ：falling asleep I'm like ah….. [envisions it]…… hmmnrnr tsukasa on his back w legs up…. playfully. escalating to sortof pushing knees to his chest and fucking downwards…..

あ：what the hell literally this is the same as my mental image… I doodled tsukasa in kimono only the other day and i was like mrahhg………..

つ：starting with the distance of legs up…. sortof kept at bay… held by, calf, or ankle, or something… maybe a hand lower to stabilize. but eventually wanting to rut harder… and if its against his chest, cock can also contact like, stomach area… as well it would then mean he will come right against his kimono front…. which is such a visual. only when tsukasa unfolds like a chair will it be like…. ah came all over, his stomach+thighs. arugurghg

well. I'm glad I cursed us both. in my attempting to vent about things. I remembered thigh fuck exists.

あ：[my brain steaming like fish since remembering it as an option]

つ：its a good way to feel like…. someone is just being used.

あ：I still be thinking about this drawing

It's one of those. like. urghhhh. I'm thinking about ittttt

つ：temptressssssss you create a situation where nene and tsukasa could both be on back legs up thighs exposed to torment amane💢

あ：make a guy SO angry like ough. fuhrhgjkflds dh!! F!!!!!!!!!!

つ：tsukasa is like hey nene do this with me watch like this

あ：this will be fun. tehe ❤️

つ：amane: ohhhh i'm so mad. about you tsukasa… i'm going to fuck my girlfriend and NOT you so i wont be so mad i'll just-- i'll just come so much from her, PUSSY, thank you [spongebob voice] I don't need otherwise

あ：THESE ARE NOT THE SAME THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but like the humor that amane cannot fathom in fucking nene soooo hard in situations like this like make her pussy bleed To her its just like jesus

つ：ah no. the. it like bleeds into her. its like she absorbs the tsukasa fuck spiritually she has to take both. i'm sorry girl. he really should space these things out. tsukasa simply eats the energy from the air like a filter feeder. absorbs the excess stink

あ：[grabs her throat as a result of this all] moouuu yamete kudasai. PLEASE JUST HAVE SEX WITH YOUR BROTHER AS WELL like the sex is good my love but doesnt it seem like …. you could just have sex with both of us

つ：as a result of this you've harmed nene enough she can't fuck you for days after. tore something

now what. we'll. just play. cards. [everyone just sitting around for 3 days playing cards]

あ：i think sometimes its like, nene has a bruised and sore throat and torn pussy and is limping [cards shuffling in the silence] again aoi is like: honey. get help

つ：like hanako-kun i can't go home like this multiple days in a row…. we have to take a break….! ok…. for real

あ：I can't risk my parents seeing this… UNDERSTAND!! the idea of tsukasa just kind of silent through this all like not even saying anything. but like :)

つ：cards is fun (: wouhhh i won!

あ：n_n

つ：nene can't sit right. hisses if her ass contacts the floor.

あ：stuck like this all day

i was just staring at this animation earlier. but delighting in nene being trapped with this

つ：a useful visual

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あ：sometimes i think about hanako hunting down tsukasa in the middle of the night in the school like a serial killer

つ：kl;jfkdl;gfl

あ：idk how else to describe it

つ：i will find you cursor. and i will eat you

あ：but yeah i think of hanako sometimes having to like. hunt down tsukasa. this thing where, like, by tsukasa respecting your space and not. being around you 24/7. means you do have to like go find him. our joudais bumping into each other or something

つ：ah its so funny for tsukasa to have laid bait out days ago…..

あ：

and then when i do i look like this

つ：what i'm gonna do to you i don't want nene around to see.

あ：mm…. yeah. she shouldnt see or hear this one

つ：thats when you know its gonna be (?) good (?)

あ：there are some things even tsukasa doesnt know❤️ anything could happen

つ：he just starts something. you never know. I'm sure sometimes it fizzles off. there is a more subdued version of this all where hanako really just nurses his ego for days and cuddles nene excessively and is sad he hurt her. and then there's versions its like 💢 why'd you…. why

wincing to see nene wince…. frustrated with. himself. remembering his own being rough with her… maybe taking a day to apologize to her… just. sorry….. I don't want to treat you like that…………………………..I'll work on it…. she's very pitying of him.

but what he means by work on it is like. fine. I'll release the demon, away from her, … sometimes. … I can't let it build up to this… level…..

あ：I think sometimes it can genuinely feel… mmm triggery, trigger-lite, stomach twisting in having let feelings reach such a state. Truly at war with own sadist brain, I think it feels so good in the moment that it's difficult to observe the aftermath, again that feeling of 'what's wrong with me…' my delicate, alive, human girlfriend, why am I not more careful with her and mindful of her whole life. She's not like us crazy supernaturals rghhh… like I could for real damage her spine or something if I was careless. stupid. [bonk]

Some days, feeling like, "it's happening again." i'm watching everything line-up for it to happen again. Oh but in that case I think it's even more like… [wants to shake tsukasa like a ragdoll] hey. fucking…. watch it

つ：it is painful to reflect on enjoying and indulging self…. you look back on it and. you ARE. being selfish. Nene is foolish and patient…. too much so. you can't let her get away with putting herself in this position all the time…..

I think she DOES enjoy getting to 'access' that intensity, feeling like it's not 'exclusive'….. but she's also simply a human girl. its relieving it isn't only 'for tsukasa'…. b. but. my bones

あ：the price to pay is her bone health

つ：i always think of amane as refusing to do anything solo with tsukasa…. for a long time. like it's dangerous…. unwilling to be, alone with tsukasa, basically. it feels taboo as it is, in canon. its why i'm so curious about the liminal space of tsukasa poofing nene away and being there for even just a minute….

it feels like. he can't stick around. you know. as it is…. even in the threeway, I imagine the 'norm' is that tsukasa can show up during school hours, while nene is there, play around, and disappear when she does, leaving hanako alone. we aren't roommates. i go to my room❤️

seeking him out like a serial killer feels like hmmmmmmmmmm…..? a new event…. [feels like a kid in trouble…. 💔]

あ：Exactly, yeah, as I see it, Tsukasa is like <3 I will be in my roost… In most circumstance, i even imagine the very inception of it all has to be that Nene herself pursued drawing out Tsukasa and was the catalyst for more -- on his own, he's very good boy, stays in hiding in the broadcast room. Shh…..

In a way I think it would be a hack for Nene specifically to want to see Tsukasa, who himself would see no reason to deny her that. She's like his tether to this situation, Nene wants me here and Amane allows me here. hehueue

I do think it's like highly forbidden to be alone together, especially after school hours, even. like, platonically. which is why I really enjoy the vibes, whether it's them on the roof talking quietly or something like. Hanako menacingly drifting down the halls

It's… a Hanako submitting that he is about to do something crazy and he is walking towards something bad. Losing my mind doing something bad to myself etc

つ：a scant platonic moment on a roof, or something, extremely rare events… tsukasa would possibly observe amane wandering the halls at a distance. heke….? ooohh what's he looking fooooor….? [for a while a looney tunes bit]

[amane rummaging floating about looking around corners and tsukasa a few paces behind him around other corners like o.o] wow, he's really adament…! must be important

あ：He has this serious air about him…..

つ：I can't sit anywhere, he'll totally run into me and get mad. if i were stationary he would have run into me naturally… is he not realizing that?

あ：Supernatural loose in the school…?

つ：IS there something… i should look for something too ig maybe a thing…. a bugge

あ：[gets horny thinking about amane pausing and just saying, aloud: tsukasa.]

つ：yyheeaaaahhh i also. thought of th. the moment he even under his breath…. is like… uugh… sigh… tsukasa…… its like ‼️

あ：bring him to me.

つ：IT WAS ME????????????⁉️ why does he want to find me? naruhodo…. except not at all!

あ：the tsukasa with 0 memories

つ：well that explains why this is a never-ending goosechase. is it really for me, though…..❔ whai…. hmm… i guess i should let him find me…. maybe….. ……………………………………………………………… maybe i should wait to hear him say it again👉👈 just one more time…!

あ：this is what it feels like to be like . ugh. beckons my brother to rape him

つ：ah. he

gets gooooosebumps hearing Amane call his name a little louder… ah but it clearly comes out of him like pulling teeth… amane thinking, you better… show up…. before i lose all interest. ugh. i'm second-guessing, you know….

あ：Longer, more drawn out sigh. hands hooked behind back, working wrist

Like… come on. It can't be that I sank this low AND I'm going to get rejected. Get cold feet. I won't look at you for a month straight if you do this to me. I'll create a salt circle around the bathroom.

[thinking all of this…. tightens jaw.] [growls.] Tsuu. Kasa. [muttering] last chance.

つ：ah poor Tsukasa… would-- feel like-- he can't-- actually jump out at amane, or something, that would ruin this, he'll get mad.. reduced a bit to 4 year old brain. a little panicked like ahouuh wait how do i do it [executive dysfunction] h-how do i let him find me but not surprise him… UHM…-- I KNOW--- [PRETENDS TO FALL OVER IN THE DISTANCE AND CLATTERS DESKS ALL AROUND]

its so like if i run and tackle him he wont like that, and, he may stop looking soon, but i cant go and put myself into his line of sight,,, i need him to find me organically,, i need to pretend ive been, busy, ouuauahhh

funny to put amane in a situation anyway to have to like RUN TOWARDS jump out of bed.

あ：Yes fhdhgh… the funny thing is, for all of Tsukasa's overthinking, i don't think. Amane is thinking about it at all, it's like, [sees the flourish of hakama] [blood in the water style] [i fucking come at you]

(~link to PART 2 down here for convenience~)

#22 #ghosties #i #+

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seijiskatayama · 3 years

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halfway there halfway there halfway there ha

#sk8 #sk8 the infinity #renga #reki kyan #langa hasegawa #manifesting this for ep 9 #but also i started this before ep 8 came out so i manifested canon langa has a crush on reki #guys i just #i love langa hasegawa so much #i love him #paint tool sai #digital art #my art #also i still wont draw real backgrounds #but geometric shapes hell yeah #also trying something new with hair coloring so far i like it lets see how long it sticks around #omg i have so much commentary dont i #while i was drawing this i imagined reki not standing up straight #but then i started thinking about that scene in gsnk where nozaki starts drawing characters standing on boxes

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basilknell · 2 years

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actually I'm going to force you all to listen to my jaykyle ion Kyle au and the basic backstory to the fic that probably wont ever see the light of day. since I'm drawing art for it at the very least.

To begin with I have to give some canon lore background: essentially while Kyle was Ion I he thought about changing time so Hal never became parallax. But spectre Hal convinces him out of it, and nonetheless tells Kyle at the end of the day he wouldn't/couldn't stop kyle if he wanted to. But kyle didn't do anything and gave up being Ion soon after.

AU is basically Kyle instead decides "okay I won't make it so Hal is never parallax... instead I'll make it so it wasn't really Hal’s choice." and retcons into existence the parallax entity thing that is canon in today's comics. HOWEVER he also decides "let me just fix a few more things," one of those being the death of Jason Todd (kyle would have no idea Jason is actually brought back to life soon after his death, is the thing.) And then kyle basically makes himself forget he was ever Ion and starts the timeline back around to where the time he first became green lantern.

The problem is he basically left Ion power in Jason by bringing him back to life (this is a thing, kyle became Ion again later on because jade died and she had Ion energy in her from when kyle gave her her powers back when he was Ion I previously). And basically the timeline starts to collapse because the Ion Kyle from the beginning who made the timeline didn't want Ion Kyle to exist at all. Yet part of it was still there in Jason, and Kyle interacting with Jason was bringing Ion back. So spectre hal eventually shows up and is like heyyyy kyle yeah uh you wrote it in so you as Ion wasn’t supposed to happen, but its happening again. So you’ve got to reset Jason being alive or your about to collapse reality (idk comic mumbo jumbo. TLDR the universe law is kyle cannot become ion, but being around jason was making him ion again, and breaking a univeral law is bad). So kyle basically has to make it so he never resurrected Jason.

The kicker is he's like omg I killed Jason by doing that but regardless Jason is brought back. So after everything kyle will eventually run into jason again and be like WHAT THE FUCK. Not that Jason would remember anything though. I wanted to end on like a “not a sad note” but still “not a happily ever after”.

Some other extra details:

- Jason’s green eyes and hair streak come from the Ion power, he wasn’t ever dumped in the Lazarus Pit. He was still disoriented after being resurrected however, so Talia does take him in for a while.

- Jason can’t die! In the conventional sense. Also re: Kyle writing stupid laws in and not thinking about what he was doing because I want to touch on the fact Kyle might’ve had the power of a God as Ion, but he still had a human psyche. Jason first figures out that he’ll come back to life whenever he dies when Bruce cuts his neck open during the UTRH confrontation.

- A timeline jumping Parallax Hal is the first to notice something weird about Jason. Parallax would be all over him trying to figure out why Jason has willpower battery energy in him, and probably wants it for the most part. This is the catalyst for why Kyle and Jason start interacting :)

- I haven’t thought of what else Kyle might've ‘changed’ that are real retcons in comics. If anyone has any suggestions let me know.

#not art #i was actually going to write it from jasons perspective actually #also partly an excuse to write parallax hal because hed play a decently big role for how jason and kyle start interacting #kyle rayner

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