#also Night creeps me out

[five-and-dimes]

Thinking about Dream/ the Endless and their shitty parents and it got me thinking about some absurd situation where Dream somehow gets turned into a literal child. He gets dropped on Hob's doorstep while other folks look for a solution, and Hob is over the goddamn moon to see tiny Dream, but he learns very quickly that tiny Dream is, in fact, a menace. But not for the reasons he would have suspected.

Dream is very much a neglected child. Hob constantly finds him climbing up dangerous surfaces to get something he wants because it doesn't even occur to him to ask Hob for help. He hoards anything he can get his tiny hands on because best case scenario he'll never be given anything ever again and worst case scenario it'll be taken away from him. He gets upset when Hob pays attention to him because he doesn't know what to DO, he knows how to take care of himself, he knows how to be ignored, he knows how to be scolded or punished, but Hob just sits with him and asks him questions or offers to play and Dream is so confused it makes his child emotions go haywire.

Hob is very sad, and loves Dream very much, so he spends a few days pouring all his love and care into this child, and then once he has adult Dream back he keeps doing it, because that little kid is still in there somewhere, and he needs all the hugs he can get and Hob is more than happy to give it to him.

#the sandman #dreamling #kind of #having Thoughts #no I'm not making this into a full fic I have TOO MANY WIPS #thoughts and ramblings #poor neglected endless #also Night creeps me out

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

The way I get into horror is drawing something I'm really scared of. (Like the fear of spiders or clowns) I feel like if you turn your fear into art it doesn't seem so scary anymore....and since have the fear of the one ocean half of my drawings are based around water it helps somewhat to get into the horror mindset. (To me anyway!)

i would Love to do that, however my fear of spiders is like. they scare me to the point of tears <3 i Cannot look at them much less draw them <3

#because this is good advice! and i try! #but the only other things that actually scare me are like... things ive never drawn #so its Exhausting to have to learn an entire new thing yk? #and also my brain is tired in a way where the creativity is so fuckin low </3 #thinking of Anything takes concentration that i often lack #also im... not really scared by a lot? not Genuinely? #i go out alone into the pitch black woods at night to stargaze. like. lmao #the only thing i have a genuine fear of is spiders! #rambles from the bog #i mean... bogs creep me out. and i guess im scared of drowning. especially drowning in a bog. #but. eh.

[gothic-mothic-topic]

Mfw one of my favorite characters in a game either isn't popular and barely exists in the fandom, or everyone hates them.

#toy freddy #for the love of Scott Cawthon i beg all of you i need more toy freddy #balloon boy #he is my son and i will throw hands with you over him #the entirety of fnaf4 #the twisted ones #they're so funky and gross #i don't care if they're just blank animatronics with illusion disks they've set up camp in my mush brain #this is mostly me crying bc i just had to make half of my favorite characters the least favored/most neglected of the entire damn franchise #also shipahoy dudley #sure wilson is a creep but dudley seems like a very polite boy #it's not his fault his father's a creepy old loon #shipahoy dudley #i worried glam chica would end up like my other favs considering how people basically acted like she didn't even exist before SB came out #anyways this originated from me being sour that toy freddy isn't very popular #y'all too busy lewding a clunky robot chicken that'd actually eat you to appreciate toy freddy #who canonically retired from killing night guards to be a gamer and is actually a pretty funky lil' dude #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #batdr #bendy and the dark revival #fnaf 2 #fnaf 4 #fnaf the twisted ones

[fitzrove]

Sometimes I wish I had less cringe hobbies

#XDDDDDDDDD #tecklenburg is in the middle of NOWHERE #it could be an amazing time or a miserable time... in any case i'm about to find out this summer... #the tickets are ok (50ish euros) but the hotel situation in the area is DIRE #as is the public transport or lack thereof #i think i found a pretty sweet deal. also not to be creepy but i'm pretty sure the cast will live in the village so maybe i will creep see #them around since i'll be there for two consecutive nights xD #musicals #theatre #me #anything for you beyonce (= oliver arno and wietske van tongeren)

[jorvikzelda]

had a dream I called the Danish emergency services (I was in Denmark) and they hung up on me :(

#was trying to tell them about leads i found in a murder #i also dreamed I had my hair cut and the hairdresser cut it way too long #(different dream) #also I kept biking to some church that doesn’t exist irl. not sure what i was doing there. going to concerts i think? #i am not religious never have been #was wearing my winter coat and a wool hat and embarrassed i was wearing that much so early in the year #even though it was cold as balls in the dream #also my bike had two really big lamps #but only one of them worked. or. so i assumed. didn’t actually try #OH and then i dreamed manda was recommended a random funny facebook post about one of my family members with like 900 likes #and sent it to me because it was funny also not realising it was my family member #creeped dream me out to hell and back #anyway big night for dreams idk why i’m using tumblr as my dream journal felt important #don’t usually dream this much/vividly/remember all of them at all #i did wake up in mis murder mystery dream though so maybe that’s why #oh yeah the murder mystery dream was like fucking. point and click video game format. i was walking around the apartment where the murder #happened just poking around shit until i found 3 leads which was my. goal? and then i called the police #and actually at first i accidentally called the swedish police. i forgot to put the danish country code in front of the number. so i hung up #on them and called the danish police instead #i’m not sure that’s how it actually works #like idk if you need the country code or if your phone will recognise what country you’re in i feel like it’s the latter #also the cell coverage was really bad so i heard like half of. what the emergency responder was saying #z talks #not horse game #sso spoilers #WILD FUCKING NIGHT IM GONNA GO BACK TO SLEEP NOW

[munamania]

so guys um. really fun update as a result of me once again being really good at understanding and responding to social situations. im pretty sure the friend im seeing is convinced we r like in a relationship or About to be and im just now realizing the extent of that and how quickly im slamming the brakes/going to attempt for smth more casual. um.. girl help

#soooo once again i hate gay people #abby talks #KIDDING. obvi. but um. some reflection has certainly been interesting. #like things got so intense so fast. why were they like telling people including a PROFESSOR about us going out on a single date #and when it initially happened i was just like well... idk shrug. and. yeah just all very fast #i think they had or have developed a serious crush which is like sweet and theyre still very sweet. its just very intense #like the amount they texted when i just didnt answer overnight.... #OH MY GOD and i forgot when i split from my friends last night im like 80% sure they were on campus #and tried to like hide their face. like... why. it doesnt have to be this odd huh??? #just cause i wasnt rlly answering while i was out? #idk. idk! #anyway im going to be very kind and respectful when we have this conversation but. yeah. nervy #wish i could do it over text but i dont think that's right idk... also we have so many mutual friends and just circles #i really dont need it to get weird. and it really really doesnt have to be yk. im hoping theyre chill and obv i dont want to hurt them #ok yeah doesnt help to stress so much over it. it's just creeping up on me the signs i sorta missed #thinking they also were open to smth casual. well i suppose really long dates and my general nerves abt trying to date again didnt help #oh my god when they said they missed my face after not hanging out for like. a day. and i was just like haha cool #not literally but LOL

[rialitysworld]

i hate men, i am lowkey afraid to be alone in my own home

#my apartment is on the ground floor and during the day i can see them when they are in the backyard #but during the night i can’t go in the kitchen and turn on the light because i can’t see if they are there #i am very creeped out my friends #ria talks #i also see them looking at me #i am not just going insane over here

[llumimoon]

things will get better. things will get better. if i promise you and you promise me than it HAS to be true. things will change and it will be scary but if we hold on than it will get better. just dont let go, okay?

#cal rambles #thinkin abt life late a night yk how it is #being a little cheesy #also atm i feel like all i can do is sit and wait as scary things creep up to me #and it feels like i've forgotten everything abt what the right way to talk to ppl is #and im just so tired all the time #OUGHF. but things have to get better at some point #and ill wait it out if someone waits it out with me #maybe a little desperate for human connection but who isnt? thats what life is

[catmanbowser]

Just read batman: three jokers

#thats it. #idk what to say abt it my mind was just blank after lol #gorgeous art 10/10 #jason and babs looks gay as hell like that was a kiss between a sapphic woman and a gay dude. #<- ignore that. #also shark joker creeped me out so bad i want a plushie of it just to scare me at night.

[glittergutts]

A long tongue

#the furby the kids left on my dresser creeps me out at night #so i closed it eyes. #its from when i was a kid #loki bear #also don't worry nothing lives in the aquarium its just plants

[girlscience]

so so sleepy cause i was up till 2am being a freak

#i had this crush on a girl in a psych class SEVEN YEARS AGO #and recently realized i had forgotten her name #so i spent several hours last night trying to find attendance lists for that class or find graduation records for the college #i did eventually figure it out #i promise i'm not a creepy stalker 😭 #she was just so beautiful i was imagining our full lives together even though i only ever talked to her twice #cause i was soooo scared she would know i was into her and i would be a creep and she would hate me #also. this was coming off 9 years of homeschooling. i didn't know how the fuck to talk to people #didn't figure that out until my last year of college 😅 #anyway.... i would like to remember her full name and like look her up #she wanted to be a nurse and i wonder if she ever made it #but i don't remember her last name and i don't want to be a total creep #DANIELLE IF YOU ARE OUT THERE I COULD TREAT YOU SO RIGHT

[howlinchickhowl]

\o/

#help I am having. the anxiety #i feel like. untethered? #and i don't know what to do #i just feel like i am drifting in a massive fucking ocean and I can't catch hold of anything #and i'm not in danger of drowning but also i am all alone in a massive fucking ocean so i might just drift forever? #i don't know what happened i was having an ok day #doing my little tasks #ticking things of my little list #but then as i was doing all that the creeping dread #it crept #and now all i can think is god i've spent so much money this month and i need more money #but it's 8.30 on a saturday night so i can't get more money right now and i have job application anxiety #where i psych myself out of applying for jobs because i haven't had a real one in like a decade and corporate bullshit scares me #and also i don't really want a job like that i do not dream of labour #but i also need more money than I have and that is a problem #but also the thought of having a job interview and having to tell someone you're good at something #while all the time in your head you're thinking actually I'm not good at anything don't hire me im not worth your time #is just. #really fucking stressful #so now i'm just sat here screaming into the void and i dont. feel. good. #so. help? #personal i guess #tw anxiety

[arthur-r]

hi is everybody doing okay today?

#i just want to check in and say hi. i feel a little strange and isolated #and i’m going out of town tomorrow also!!!! #(for the weekend and coming back sunday night) #(and will sort of still have internet but in a middle of the woods unreliable cell service way) #things are just creeping up on me and confusing me and things don’t feel entirely real #is everybody doing okay? let me know if there is something good and special going on in your life for being happy #(​mine is that i’m listening to hey you by edu) #anyway i just want to say hi and see everybody cause i’ve been kind of quiet and weird so i wanted to say hi #i hope everybody is doing well i love you #me. my post. mine. #friends only #delete later

[goldkirk]

geez. I want so badly all the time now to get back in contact with other people and apologize to my relatives and try to explain why I ghost everyone and apologize and explain what I’ll do instead in the future but I cannot even remotely get myself to execute a plan to do that

#i got a lot to apologize to a lot of people for #a lot of kids I’ve let down by not following through on things I said I’d do months ago #and a couple weeks ago #and i found out my birthday is only days away and I don’t want it and I don’t like that and I would rather be unreachable in the Arctic than #consider a birthday right now #i don’t know what I am as a person and I don’t considtently perform or feel the same hour to hour and I haven’t told anyone anything for #months and also I keep avoiding any and all medical care and if someone tried to make me I’d be relieved but also run away #it’s just fucked #I know I’m making rewiring progress but it feels like I’m locked in a claw machine #watching my external shapeshifter self secretly make each of her attempts fail #I’m back to feeling like I’m losing my sanity a lot of the time again #mostly I don’t know where to start. I don’t know where to start. #i thought getting enough sleep every night would unlock more than this #and getting set loose on food and gaining weight for once #and living in a safer place and having my ability to journal start creeping back #I’ve drunk the water I take the meds I build the safety I eat the food I care for the dog I keep myself calm I try to be aware of my body #i do the breath work I do the yoga none of it DOES anything I’m just STUCK #i keep having the same debates and the same sabotage and the same inaction over and over and over again #but if I let go of some control the little kid ‘I’m the center of the universe’ #part of me comes out and makes me go WAY too hard with see-sawing the opposite direction of normal #and it makes people uncomfortable and ends up preventing me from getting taken seriously ANYWAY #raps on head gently. please. i am fucking begging #either shut off the pride for a while so I can get us through the agonizing and mortifying shame stage while I get help or shut off the #self sabotage so I can get help while retaining pride #jesus h Christ #please #I KNOW I DON’T SEE MY OWNSYMPTOM SEVERITY CLEARLY U CAN’T FOOL ME BRAIN #I know what avoidant numbing is!!! i know what unaffected attitude and minimizing and laughing it off are! #I’m not gonna back off this time I NEED TO GET OUT OF DEBT AND INTO HAVING HOBBIES U DUMB BRAIN please for the love of god work with d #*me

[scarefox]

Now that it’s getting warmer again, that means I can soon go on my spontaneous midnight mental health walks when I feel like my soul is trying to crawl out of my body. Weird, black clothed person lying on the big swing on the playground staring into the night sky? That’s me bebey~

#living in a quiet and save part of the city so it's fine #people out at night would be probably more creeped out by me #self care #mental health #also I am lowkey into danger #which is ironic for someone with anxiety disorder

[jovalencia]

this was like the cuntiest weekend in carmen history like I’m not bragging about being an asshole but on four separate occasions since friday I have had no choice but to just be a dick to whatever guy I was talking to. and if sarah suitemate can’t be the one to step up and treat these men as shitty as they treat women then it’s gonna have to be me.

#on one of the occasions it was so bad that dylan bf said he felt like he was watching me actually beat the shit out of the guy. he also #said it was deserved. which it was. the guy is a creep and none of us want him at our rvd nights anymore. and since he can’t take a #hint… I just hope he finally gets it now that I literally said ‘don’t come back’ (‘why?’) ‘because I don’t want you to’ #carmen.txt