#along with everythign else

[flashhwing]

hawke wakes up from his cousland prologue dream like "you know what. maybe he earned the right to be a bit of a dick. that was fucking horrifying"

#pros: got laid one last time before ostagar! #cons: dude got out of bed and immediately died #'man i knew his whole family died but somehow i was not expecting All That' #'suddenly very concerned for mother and bethany and carver. i hope they're okay wherever they ended up' #warden hawke au #this has been a post #look with emmeline i wanted to get her laid but unfortunately i was unaware that talkign to fergus would lock everythign else out #so i was not prepared for. fucking. naked lover shot IMMEDIATELY after wakign up #along with y'know. the rest of the horrors

[enden-k]

AU where Kaveh get's a boyfriend who genuinely really admires him, and Alhaitham takes it as well as you'd expect.

this ask made me draw a classic idea like a madman bc i genuinely dont like when their feelings are unrequited or one of them gets together with someone else or NTR idk akjcbkj anything can happen idc but in the end they have to be together and happy in love yea 😭

so ye as long as they end up together then yea 🥹

anw this inspired me for a classic instead, like

what if kaveh and haitham have feelings for each other since their student days, not being able to let go of them and theyre both oblivious about the others feelings. so kaveh sees other ppl to try and kill off his feelings but no matter what, he just cant simply turn them off

meanwhile haitham is not interested in other ppl at ALL and has no interest in pursuing relationships like kaveh does bc the only one he would want and trust and start a deep connection like this is kaveh. so he absolutely hates seeing kaveh with other ppl like this and internally seethes in jealousy and possessive feelings but he doesnt want to endanger their just somewhat recovered fragile friendship and lose him again by telling what he feels, being ok with keeping things how they are rn if it means kaveh is still in his life

(still doesnt mean hes ok with seeing kavehs partners, parts of him wishing it was him instead)

then one day kaveh slips up and suddenly these idiots realize their feelings for each other were mutual all along, so its just a matter of time for smth to happen and change everythign - until then things are just awkward and tense, like when their fingers touch when kaveh passes haitham smth and haithams gaze burns into him at the contact, or kaveh walking face first into a freshly showered haitham stepping out of the bathroom, lingering a bit too long to take in his scent and feel, or--

tl;dr :

haitham and kaveh have feeligns for each other for YEARS but are oblivious they are mutual

kaveh tries to ignore them and kill them off by dating other ppl

haitham gets extremely jealous but doesnt make a move so to keep things peaceful and unchanged between them (out of fear he loses kaveh)

one day kaveh gets exposed/exposes himself by accident and they find out their feelings are mutual

awkward dancing around ensues, probably slight fear or intimidation of change

someone finally snaps (haitham) and takes the first step foward

#sorry i babbled too much about this instead aa #rambles #reply #hkvthm

[finniestoncrane]

I’m gonna put in one more request before your 1k celebration is over. Which you definitely deserve!! You are absolutely amazing! But can I also get number 9 pretty please.

Ok! I’m American specifically from the south. I’m gender-fluid and most days dress either like a stereotypical professor or I look like I just crawled outta bed. I come off as a grump because I get uncomfortable easy and shut down. I’m currently working towards a dual degree in history and art. I play video games, collect comics and action figures. I like to build model tanks and things. I get extremely emotionally attached to my things and hate when people touch them. I like to read but only physical books. I really like tea and don’t care for coffee. I’ll eat and or try just about anything any thing I won’t eat usually comes down to texture. I am extremely excitable, and often have a hard time controlling my volume in most situations. Once you brake through my grumpy mask I’m a goofball. I like to learn about others interests. I heavily dislike being in public and usually wear my headphones so I don’t get overwhelmed. I’m always down to do anything with my friends. I get frustrated easily, especially when I know I can do better. I will stand up for anyone and everyone but myself. I swing very heavily between states of hyperfocus and dissociation. I have anxiety and depression along with adhd. I’m the oldest of three siblings and I’m very close with both my brother and sister. I’m a very touchy person with most people I’m comfortable with. Touchy to an absurd degree actually. Once I like you I have no concept of personal space. I also make people 10x mean to me in my head. I love animals and have a single fur baby. A cat named catness. A chronic migraine haver.

I’m so sorry this is so long. And nothing is in order. My brain just ran with it. But keep up the amazing work finnie!! I appreciate you so so much my friend!! 💚💚

🎀 No.9: Ever Fallen In Love With Someone 🎀

tell me a little bit about yourself and i'll give you a rogue pairing a/n: ok yep giving it to the cutest little obssessive bean (and i'm so sorry there are so few images of her ;-;) 1k milestone info! 🔞minors dni🔞 • kofi • tag: finnie1k

right first of all fluidity and adaptability? super key to this harley. like i don't know she seems ready to flip her whole self up on a whim and be who she wants to be on that specific day

she might seem a tad grumpy too, or maybe rage-filled, but it's just because she's so determined and outgoing so you're like opposites attract in that sense, which would be good for grounding each other!

cutesie nerd couple vibes honestly, i think she'd be a comic book nerd and i can see you both layign on your stomachs kicking your legs and giggling at dumb superheroes together

this harley is super patient, like she'll wait for something and/or work out how to get it exactly and i know from experience this is key when it comes to model building cos those fuckers require a steady hand and the patience of a saint

hello hammer, hello joker, hello you. harley knows a thing or two about being emotional attachment

trying new things is everythign to her, how else are you going to stumble upon brand new favourites or a new arch-nemesis??? so she'd be down to go to different restaurants with you and do that disgustingly romantic, cutesie thing of ordering four dishes and sharing them all while you feed each other with linked arms

harley is the most exciteable little thing to ever walk the planet, and i think the two of you would both be volume control-less wonders together because she can go from 0 to 60 on the volume scale for literally no other reason than she saw something that she wanted to squish with love

same with the grumpy mask hiding a goofball. yeah she might seem terrifyign and quick to rage, but she's just a little clown, just a little harlequin, just looking for a good and fun and silly time

ok so don't worry about standing up for yourself, because harley is 100% there for you on that front, and that includes in public when you're overwhelmed and you need someone to barge through the crowd and make a path for you to safety

literally you're almost the same person here, the touchy thing? very physical attention focused. will squish cheeks, pat heads, grab butts, smoosh tummies, hold hands constantly and go out of her way to not have to let go, she's touching you in some way at most times if you're one of her people

she's definitely an animal lover, anything cutesie that she can hold and pet (you included) are top tier in her world

and hey she might not be the healthiest person in terms of her mind, but she'll try her damndest to make sure you feel supported and at your happiest when you're ready to feel that emotion, otherwise, she'll wallow right there with you until you feel like getting up again

#finnie writes #finnie1k

[noro-noro-noro]

oh i had a convo earlier that reminded me of the dream i had when i took a nap. not a whole lot of detail mbut it fell into the “i lost my car at highschool” category, which is really funny bc i didn’t own a car in hs. 

anyway it took place at high school. during the day it was regular. there was this ind of jock-like dude, he had..like, raihan eyes?kind of half closed all the time, and dark brown hair, he was super bony & had some stubble. he reminded me of someone i used to know. also he was wearing some white college T shirt. idk why i remember him so well compared to like everyone else in the dream. he was being a dick to me during the day in one of the classes by arguing with everything i said. 

later it was evening? or maybe it was dark bc the sky was on fire idk. anyway it everythign was lit with a red light. i knew i’d driven to school that day, but i couldn’t see my car through all the chaos, because there were fast zombies and everyone was screaming and running away like headless chickens while the dead were like springing on them and tearing them limb from limb. it was a bit like the zombies from train to busan, where they wouldn’t attack if they couldn’t see/sense you. i couldn’t find my car & iwa getting tired & sooner or later one of them would see me, so i ended up going back into the school up the fire escape (nonexistent) into the tower over the 2200s hallway (nonexistent) and there were a few other people in there. there were big windows. the sunset(?) or fire was turning the sky a dramatic orange-pink-purple. we were blocking up the fire escape, but ther was someome coming around the corner of the roof past the dumpsters, limping - we were hesitating in case it was a person, but what if it wasn’t? but it was that guy from earlier. we pulled him in & blocked it up. we heard the zombies hammering at it for a few minutes until they got bored & wandered away.

i remember me & the jock guy had a heart to heart or something bc i didn’t want to spend my last days trapped with a dude that owuld keep arguing with me & we got along better. the next day, i could see lots & lots of bloody corpse pieces in the school parking lot, and also my car. it was further towards the football field than i thought. i wondered if i could still get there, but there wasn’t a single person in sight. 

#dreams

[nemofil]

i am SO fucking tired of people saying:

“oh ai art is just pressing a button! just like photography! tee hee! photography’s art, so my ai generated piece counts as art too!”

last time i heard, photographers didn’t press a button to manifest breathtaking scenery. they didn’t press a button to manifest lighting from the heavens. they didn’t press a button for clear, accentuated details to just. fucking pop into reality they HAD to experiment with it!!!

they had to try and know which angles would work best! they have to consider external factors as well! natural lighting is a fucking external factor!! they LEARNED this shit. there’s a reason that photography guides exist; it’s because you need to LEARN it lmfaoo

imagine fighting the fucking SUN every time you take a pic. now THAT’S fun. too much sun today! i guess you’re not taking a pic until the evening, then? oh no! too little sun now :(

you want to take a picture of the gorgeous sunset? you better do it fast! you’ve got some 30 minutes to set up a nice angle, or else it’ll change forever and perhaps you’ll have a very different looking photo on hand...

how about some scenery for a change? how are you gonna fit these other background items into the same frame alongside the main focus of the pic, like a mountain? how are you gonna add them huh? pray?

WHAT’S THE MAGIC ANGLE THAT FITS EVERYTHIGN I WANT IN THE PHOTO!!!! WHERE IS I- fuck it. forget it.

portraits do not make this any easier! they make it harder, actually! imagine fighting all of THAT, along with trying to capture a figure in an appealing light. good luck!

photography is still a laborious process, especially at the higher levels, and i hate how it’s used as ammunition for some of the scummiest, laziest garbage i’ve ever seen.

no, it’s not a “oh history repeats itself, artists hated photography because they feared it’ll replace them, same thing with ai art” situation. if you had two cents and a brain, you’d be able to figure out why! (psst photography involves the exact same processes as painting to an extent)

this post was not written by a photographer. this post was just written by someone angry who needs some worms out of their brain. i think too much about this topic every day lol so this is more of a rant than anything

[tears0fsatan]

doni doni doniiiii how are you doing my mans are you still slaying babe

- 🔶

HIYAYAA MY LOVE!!!! truth be told im doing rather horribly, hence my imprompttu hiatus lolll im also maybe a little tipsy at the moment hehehe soju is the best 👍👍👍 im sorry for the contreverisal opinon but peacj soju is the best, everythign else isntoo fuckign sweet it makes me wanna hurl!

anw hows orv coming along???? which part are u on, what do u think abt the events that have transpired etc etc i'd love to hear about it all!!!!! hope u are slayign as well my dear!!!

nd!!!?? hows ur binder??? hope ur not overdoing it?!!! srry if thsi is like..probing too mcuh into ur life 🔸 anon, i apologiseband i wish the besy for you!!

#aaah that remixbs me #im takign a small lil break from writing #i apologise #not only that but starting from the 29th i have something going on? #and so i won't be very active #but i'll try my best to pump out content 🤞 #i mihjt close my requests in the mean time but i might post a few stuff here and there??? #not sure yet #we'll see when we get there kay! #i hope ur all doing well my loves #sorry for the tipsy proclamation of love but i love you all #i hope you're taking care of yourself #i wish you all luck with life #if ur struggling rn #i hope that whatever it is thats bothering you passes soon #anw goodnight ive rambled far too mcuh #៹ ࣪˖. 🎧 mail﹒💌

[prenvii-moved]

you ever just

*crying* someone: are you ok? *cries harder*

#im otn crying rn or anythign but its a thought that crossed my mind lol #ramble #anyways i give up oin my geography finale i jsut cant ma #im this clsoe to fucking breaking os #future me problem yknow #along with everythign else

[sensesdialed-aa]

me thinkin about how peter was thrown into a huge battle right after coming back from dying where there was a ton of loud fighting and lasers and explosions, how he has senses that are literally multiplied by eleven and how fucking LOUD it all had to be even explosions from far away sounding super up close, how he curls up on the ground cause he’s definitely overloading and how the snap itself is really fucking loud too and it probably hurt and his ears won’t stop ringing:

#(this isnt coherent but fuck i dont carejhbJS) #(like ok that might just be the sound effect but the snap in infinity war literally shook the trees I THINK ITS THAT LOUD) #(THAT SHITS GOTTA HURT HIS DAMN EARS ALONG WITH EVERYTHIGN ELSE) #(i just!!! o shit hes baby!!!) #🕸 ❝ just a small town bitch living in a lonely ditch ❞ → ooc

[sajdd]

who is the traitor

so dream is saying theres a traitor between them all...

i dont think itll be technoblade since thats probably the most predictable? my guess is most likely tubbo

why tubbo?

- stayed with schlatt originally and followed his orders

- was a spy for pogtopia but said he didnt think everything was too bad under schlatt’s rule and actually quite liked it

- has been mistreated several times before: eret’s betrayal, tommy and wilbur could be quite disrespectful to tubbo, not appreciating everythign hes done etc etc, and ofc the most recent; techno fucking murdered him lmao (along with everyone else aswell) although schlatt also did organise a public execution and he forgave techno for killing him... HMMMMMMMMMMMM

it could possibly be tommy, on the premise that he could be finally tired of wilbur’s shit, although its unlikely as he’s lowkey the Main Character of  the server and has been loyal to l’manberg no matter what, so its very unlikely although it would definitely be the biggest plot twist of all

or it could just be technoblade and dream is just bad at lying and i’m looking too far into this LMAO

#dream smp #mcyt #dreamwastaken #jschlatt #tommyinnit #wilbur soot #tubbo #technoblade

[sometimesrosy]

i saw somewhere you say cadogan didn’t say bellamy was dead but i thought i heard him say something along the lines of “that’s why clarke killed him” when sheidheda mentioned the book and was wondering what you make of that?

hm i didn’t hear that so i can’t answer that for sure. 

but killing him is not the same as him being dead when they can bring him back. she still killed him. but is he dead? idk. even so, it seem too nebulous.

listen, i don’t want you to believe me. i’m not even sure that bellamy is alive. i just know that it’s not resolved and it’s still hanging in the air and I dont’ know HOW they’re going to resolve it. Or if they are. But they’re resolving everythign else and I can’t imagine leaving this. 

don’t think he’s still alive. 

for me, everything is still open ended. gabriel got a final death. bellamy didn’t. and i just don’t know why they would do that for bellamy. it makes no sense. 

[allonsy-yesiwill]

Ch 10 Life Changing: Last Episode

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It was the last week of filming and your job was over for this season, however, you stuck around because you knew what was coming. Jensen had expressed to you his concerns the last few episodes of the season. Sam was going to be killed and Dean was going to make a deal.

Both Eric and the director Kim did everything they could to make that last day of filming as easy as possible, however, there were not light-hearted moments in this episode. It's weird, it had been less than 2 full years but it had felt like you had known both Jared and Jensen forever.  

The last thing they filmed today was the closing of hell's gate, there is less emotion in this big fight scene however you could still cut the residual emotion in the air. When the party started there was no sign of Jensen so you went to look for him.

"Hey J, you coming to the party," you said opening his trailer door. There was no answer and you're heart dropped when you saw him still in Dean's clothes with his face in his hands.

"Jensen, are you okay," you said sitting down next to him.

"Not really, it was just a lot. I mean....I had to...," Jensen says before you hear a sob let out.

You didn't say anything you just wrapped your arms around him and let him cry.  " I just I had never lost anyone close to me and I wanted to feel it I told myself it was you.  I just, I just know you've been through a lot and there was a point in time when I was really worried about you," Jensen trailed off pulling you into a hug.

You pull out of the hug after his tears have dried and look him in his eyes, " I am sorry I worried you, that was never...I mean, I was just but, I so thankful every day that I said yes to this job. That you and Jared are my family now, along with the rest of the crew."

"Thank you Y/N. I am sorry for this, it was just a lot and I know that it's not really but knowing it was all done and walking in here I just broke."

"Hey J, you don't have anything to be sorry about, okay. Why don't you go get changed and we can have a few drinks," you said with a soft smile.

"Okay sounds good," Jensen said moving to the back of the trailer. "Hey Y/N, do you think you would want to hang out with Jared and me tonight? I figure we should get out of here in like an hour or two and we could hang out. I don't know, watch a movie."

"Yeah that sounds good, J," you said as he walked out, " Do you feel better?"

"Yeah, a bit. Come on Y/N we got work to do," Jensen said with a smirk while your eyes couldn't help but roll back into your head.

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[misterbitches]

i said i would talk about saizon and usually i would be under the influence. but i am not yet. read the * at end of the post first if u want clarification of overall.

i might mention torfight (will refer as f/t) but if anyone gets upset just chill. it’s a really inconsequential opinion. the chances of someone stumbling upon this means nothing. it isnt’ a compare and contrast just how i personally feel while viewing these shows. and i probably want to dive into what this means in a broader context since i have all the time and brain space in the world 

from the first encounter of saifah and zon or their first encounter outside of their “kiss” (LOL? so unnecessary) it was clear that as awkward as it could or may be there was natural chemistry. which i want my tiny head to explore.

so a lot of BL (which is like....tv and movies etc in general anyways) hell even dramas may have a less sexual undertone to get to where they are going. which i think is a problem with tv in general (a friend was bringing this up with the new rules of social distancing on set which...capitalism but whatever)  where sex is a vehicle for connection. a lot of BLs can be explicit i suppose, but in the west it’s like jumping into bed is a huge base for a lot of couples. also everyone fucks too much who cares.

but sex, kisses, hookups, any nudity, etc is not a placeholder for like actual intimacy, romantic love, showing love. that’s part of why i hate the concept of love at first sight, at least the way it plays out. you can really like someone, hell maybe even love, when you see them or feel this bond but the bond isn’t because you TOUCHED them.

there’s a difference between natural chemistry and forced. natural chemistry is what you would prefer which is why casting directors have literally chemistry tests to test your compatibility as actors, with a writer/director, and on camera. there can be people whose chemistry develops and we see the potential, or people who we know don’t love each other IRL and this is acting but it’s still powerful. but this always means you have to give them the time and space. actors can jump in/out of character but it’s human nature. if two peopl eare meeting for the first time and have to simulate sex there’s going to be this natural like...strangeness. obviously. viewers can see it.

so when you get two people who click irl and it doesn’t always have to be romantic or sexually it’s kind of more of a thrill. very obviously mii2 are a lot more flexible around each other so it is less mechanic. i think i like watching tharntype because even tho i feel like parts of it seriously need some oil, i can see and understand a relationship developing through their characters as they act (and i do not particularly think they are good actors.)

the friendship that saizon display—whether we think it is spontaneous and too quick or not—is legitimately nice. and they are very obviously comfortable with each other. i guess there can be an idea of romantic friendship (but idk abt that one, we dont have to fucking label everything you can love someone so deeply in your own way outside of our parameters bla bla capitalism ruining everything bla bla individualism)

they got in each others faces, then would do very weird shit together, because that’s who they are. for me personally i think being able to have fun with your partner is iMPERATIVE. one of my fav moments is when they fucking meow at each other (which i know is a thai joke, right? idk) and it is so weird but you can tell they understand the way they communicate?

to me  like...having someone you feel something deep with is that there’s this role you guys are playing, it’s a joke you started, and with the best kind of intimacy and love your partner can keep it going, keep it rolling, hang it up in the air and you guys just go back adn forth....forever lol 

i also legitimately think it is important to hammer home the fact that you are yourself without a partner and i really resent a message that makes it seem like you can’t live without someone. maybe a lack of saizon was good that way. like they existed as two seperate people. their love and attraction weren’t the only thing going for them. it was just natural and very nice.

this particular display of romance and affection is one that’s strong but doesn’t take itself too seriously. not because you don’t want to lose them but because there’s enough security. or like, it’s really guided by this unspeakable feeling you feel with another person. 

i’m not sure if that means soulmates but it’s something close. saifah doesn’t expect zon to be someone he can’t, but it doesn’t mean he has to let himself go completely for him. when he expressed being sad that zon pulled away it’s normal. and zon knew he couldn’t do it but they still got through it. and then he pats the bed and saifah jumps on him.

these types of couples remind me of why i feel the way i do about love. i can’t imagine something fucking bogging me down, where i feel like i can’t get up without pulling me, where i don’t feel myself first. zon was figuring himself out and he was thinking of himself and his feelings. bc he should. 

that’s another reason why trapped MC (H3) is one of my favs. first of all THEY LAUGHED TOGETHER WHICH IS LIKE A REQUIREMENT UR NO FUN IF UR A SQUARE and second of all they were going to spend year apart and could do that. had to. fuck the carceral state but. 

you don’t ask someone to give up a part of themselves, you only want them to be the best they can be. it isnt through demands it’ sgrowing with them and fucking respecting them with everything you have. and it means having a foundation outside of them, too. 

i know people get upset at the “love anybody but u have to love yourself” adage but i don’t really see it tht way. i absolutely believe you need to learn to be healthy alone and have a community. rely on all sorts of people. have different types of love and figure yourself out. we can’t be free as human beings without it and i would rather fucking die than not feel free. 

oh and like....being with someone where you feel seen and heard not shamed. i read this thing in the atlantic like, partnerships fail a lot because of lack of validation. imagine having someone who trusts you, and maybe helps to trust yourself, and validates you by being there. nice.

and it’s nice having someone you love so deeply and beautifully along for the ride. instead of no actual pleasure outside of sex, your relationship IS the pleasure. beautiful stunning etc. and that’s what makes everythign feel good the love, sex, living, whatever. with someone and with yourself.

this got away from me in conclusion theyre very cute eand that’s cos it’s easy and natural. mii2 are fun to watch as saizon and themselves. life shouldnt be too hard. im a big fan of working as little as possible and being happy kekekek

*i am talking monogamy, love, and the self. why only ‘traditional’ rships? first: i literally cannot handle people because i can’t handle my mind. non-monagamy is incredibly alluring to me for my autonomy, in the abstract, and in theory. however, in practice, i don’t think—for me as a black woman and what it means for me—i can enact anything i feel would be detrimental to me or puts me in a position where i feel forced into a dynamic i no longer care for. 

and who knows if that changes? i only do and care about the things i like and find important. no one else but me, family, and friends. how i choose. so i am talking abt monogamy but u can interpret that for other rships if you wish. 

second: it’s. my. life. 

i dont carrreeee about monogamy/non monagamy outside of liberation and sexual freedom and what does that mean?  there is no blueprint for that. there is no future expectation for a relationship, there is nothing but how we choose to interact with the world and community. first and foremost: love means so many things and it doesn’t have to mean any “new” ideas. or “instincts.” who fucking cares. we can’t reimagine literal relationships, people are fucking toxic in all types of them, only reimagine how we interact with ourselves and each other. there is no fucking guarantee with any of this we are safe. you cannot predict life. just live it. honor yourself first. there’s some black feminists books on like love and intimacy if you are curious how capitalism binds us. we keep wanting to find solutions WITHIN when its like nah, it;s our own fuckin terms. self-love becomes the love you can extract from others. it isn’t sustainable. 

ROMANTIC LOVE WAS INVENTED TO MANIPULATE WOMEN = JENNY HOLZER

#these are all lit FOR ME #a thot #and if ppl like it so be it #saizon #i am an iNSANE romantic #huge #heh

[princess-of-the-corner]

This is just an idea that I want to tell someone. Au where Adrien doesn't go to public school, and when Lila shows up she claims to be dating him.

Okay, my brain ran with this a little because Adrien not going to public school is a hell of an AU on it’s own and would change things. 

Biggest changes would be: 

Ladynoir is Canon, as Marinette has Canonically admitted that she’d fall for Chat if she hadn’t fallen for Adrien. 

A lot of Akumas happened differently, and both Marinette and Adrien haven’t really gotten to meet one another yet. There’s been a few times where they ran into each other, but not long enough to really talk. 

episodes like Evilustrator and Simon Says, with major Marichat/Ladrien interaction, involved different plans and/or the Hero of the pair not showing off and interacting as much since the civilian is a stranger and not a friend. 

This all technically takes place during/after Volpina but during Season 2, even though Lila is doing her Season 3 stuff, because the exact events of Volpina don’t happen, and Lila doesn’t disappear for a whole season. 

Anyway, back to Lila: 

She shows up on day 1 claiming to be Adrien’s secret girlfriend and also bffs with Ladybug. 

Lila specifically says it’s a secret relationship because of Adrien’s fangirls and stuff. 

Marinette and Chloé, of course, know Lila’s lying. 

Mari knows because she’s Ladybug and has never met Lila

Chloé knows because while she does know about Adrien having a secret girlfriend, the info she’s gotten out of him don’t match Lila at all. (things like ‘she has blue eyes and black hair’). 

Also, with Chloé, either she isn’t actually into Adrien romantically (my usual trope), or she’s accepted his love for Mystery Girl and moved on. 

After that, they can see through Lila’s other lies. 

Both girls try to tell people that Lila is lying, but no one believes them.  

Everyone thinks it’s just ‘Chloé being Chloé’, and she’s jealous over someone dating the guy she likes 

Mari is a little more difficult

None of them personally know Adrien and Mari doesn’t have a crush on him

But Lila can manipulate a crowd. 

she asks if Mari is ‘one of Adrien’s fangirls with all his pictures on the wall’. 

Technically the wall of pictures still exists, but it’s purely design reference instead of a fangirl shrine. 

But between that and Lila pulling out the tears, it makes everyone doubt her. 

This leads to a wonderful Mari/Chloé friendship as they team up to expose Lila. 

They also help each other too. 

Marinette helps Chloé be a better person in general. 

Chloé helps Marinette stand up for herself even more

Together they find the balance between ‘being nice’ and ‘being a doormat’. 

Eventually, Chloé calls a meeting at her hotel. And she invites Adrien because he’s involved in this too. 

Adrien and Marinette meeting is... fun. 

Adrien finds Marinette familiar, but brushes it off as ‘I think I rescued her from a few Akuma attacks’. 

However, as the discussion goes on, they find that they’re very comfortable around each other. 

Then one of them says one of the inside jokes from their ‘Ladynoir’ sides and, well, the cat’s out of the bag. 

While those two are staring at eachother like the pointing spiderman meme and just yelling, Chloé’s like ‘uh, guys?’ 

They make up a thing, saying like ‘oh, we met... on the Ladyblog comment section! became friends there! and uh... that was an inside joke so now we know who the other is!’. 

Chloé’s suspicious, but it’s the best explainaton. 

That said, she does kinda scream because ‘goddamn it! of course your mystery girlfriend was Marinette motherfucking Dupain-Cheng!’. 

They then inform Adrien about what all Lila has been saying. 

He does kinda say the ‘can we take the high road and not call her tf out in a humiliating way?’. 

But both Chloé and Marinette explain that Lila isn’t just a walking tabloid magazine, she’s manipulating people and all that. And yeah he’s on board. 

On to the actual plan!!

The girls’ original plan was just to have Adrien show up at a class event and be all ‘who tf are you?’ to Lila. 

But with the extra information that Mari is the real secret girlfriend...

That still kinda happens, but the buildup is more fun. 

It’s like a class picnic thing. Everyone’s there. 

While everyone is a little exasperated with Mari’s sudden rude behavior concerning Lila, they’re not turning against her because I have more faith in them than that. 

Lila herself is going on and on about ‘her bf Adrien’, of course. 

She sees Marinette not fighting back, and thinks she’s won and finally broken the girl. 

Then Chloé shows up, fashionably late of course, dragging Adrien along all ‘hope you don’t mind I brought a friend!’. 

Adrien immediately goes over to Marinette all ‘hello, princess!’. 

Mari is a little bit of a disaster at that, but used to it as she’s been dating Chat for a while. 

Once he introduces himself and everyone makes the connection and all go ‘but what about Lila???’. 

Adrien plays dumb, for the most part. Him asking ‘which one is ‘Lila’?’ and looking between every girl in the class is genuine

Someone speaks up, pointing to Lila and saying ‘your... secret girlfriend?’. 

Adrien’s just like ‘Actually Marinette is my gf so....’. 

Everyone loses their shit over that. 

Lila tries to play damage control, claiming that ‘obviously Marinette has seduced him into cheating on me!’. 

That starts to get traction before someone points out ‘he didn’t even know which girl you were’. 

Everyone asks Mari for details on her dating Adrien, and she gives the ‘I didn’t know it was him because we met online under usernames but then when we met irl thanks to Chloé...’. 

Chloé pulls the attention back to Lila being a fuck. 

She points out that since they all now know that Lila was lying about dating Adrien, how about they listen for once about how everythign else is a lie too?

Mari, Chloé and Adrien work in tandem to debunk Lila’s lies now that people are actually listening to them, 

Lila still tries to lie her way out, but it’s too late. Everyone’s pissed. 

This is the point where she actually gets Akumatized for the first time. 

Mari and Adrien disappear to be Ladybug and Chat Noir.

Lila is a tough Akuma, and this is the first time they decide to bring in backup. 

And of course by that I mean ‘let’s have an excuse to give Chloé the Bee!’. 

The trio manage to take down Lila, the girl throws a fit over the whole thing, vowing revenge. 

Afterward, Chloé goes up to Marinette and Adrien all ‘so... met through the Ladyblog, huh?’. 

yeah she figured them out. Because Ladynoir banter is just like Adrienette banter. And also she remembers seeing Tikki, and just met Pollen, so she made the connection. 

They’ll still have to deal with Lila, especially as even if the class is aware of her shit she can always cause chaos elsewhere. 

They also have to address the elephant in the room that is Marinette and Adrien explaining their relationship to their respective families. But it goes over pretty well. Mostly. 

Other than that, all’s well that ends well!

[betterwithcaffeine-blog]

Library Dates | A VK Fanfic

Image credit to http://imaginarylights.tumblr.com/

I have seen this image previously, and for some reason, this was what came to mind and I simply couldn’t get it out of my head. So I’m going to write it down and hope that it will finally leave me alone. In my head, in this Vampire Knight x Hogwarts crossover, this is canon for me. Hope you like it. :P

Library Dates

Category: Fan Fiction, Vampire Knight x Hogwarts crossover 

Characters: Akatsuki Kain/Ruka Souen

Ruka Souen was sorted into Slytherin because of her loyalty to the purebloods. However, having ambitions and loyalty doesn’t necessarily mean she was thriving in the Slytherin house. The house colours clashed horribly with her complexion. Their dormitory was underground, which meant she barely saw any sunlight. With the exception of Kaname, she didn’t have any friends among her fellow housemates. To cap it all off, her house ghost is the Bloody Baron who Ruka still found scary.

Which is why Akatsuki often found her huddled in the library late in the evening. Even though she had already finished her homework for the week, she would linger in the well-lit warmth of the library by the fireplace, hoping to avoid the inevitable return back to the dungeon that she was supposed to call home. Without a word, Akatsuki plopped his books down next to hers, pulled out his parchments and quill and began to work on his own homework. Madam Pince was very strict about noise levels.

The first time he had discovered her in the library, back in their first year, Ruka had flinched in surprise. She chose the library mainly because apart from the Great Hall, there was nowhere else she could be in the evening. Plus, no one really came into the library unless it was close to exam period. Akatsuki was probably wondering why she was hiding in here. It hadn’t exactly been inconspicuous how she had withdrawn from their group. And she can’t even blame the conflicting schedules the four houses have, given Hanabusa, Takuma and Akatsuki still hung out together all the time. Even Kaname joined them occasionally, whenever he’s not with Yuuki.

Akatsuki was probably going to ask her all the uncomfortable questions she had been avoiding all term, Ruka thought miserably. The truth was, she didn’t even know why she was avoiding all her friends. Apart from the fact that somehow, despite the magic that was Hogwarts and the fact that she was finally learning everythign she ahd wanted to ever since she was little, she was miserable. With the exception of Kaname, she wasn’t familiar with any of her other housemates. She hated the dungeon and could barely get any sleep at night. Worst of all, she never got to see her childhood friends anymore.

Sometimes, Ruka wasn’t sure if the Sorting Hat had sorted her into the right house. Well, it was the right house for her family. And she did say to the Sorting Hat that she desperately needed to be in Slytherin, even though its first suggestion of a couple of choices was actually another house. But how could she face her parents, when their entire ancestral line has always been in Slytherin? So in the end, the Sorting Hat gave her what she wished for.

Now, during particular weak moments, Ruka wondered if it was the right choice.

However, Akatsuki didn’t say anything that night. He had simply sat down across the table from her, and started doing homework. They had worked in silence and when it was getting close to curfew hour, they had quietly gathered up their schoolwork and he had walked her down to the ground floor. There, they separated, her down to the Slytherin common room and him back upstairs to the Gryffindor Tower. 

The same thing happened the next few days. He would rock up a little bit after dinner, join her in doing their schoolwork before walking her back to the ground floor at the end of the night. They barely spoke, apart from an occasional question to each other about their homework, but Ruka had come to look forward to their evenings together. It was comfortable and reminded her of home. Slowly, she began to enjoy her time at Hogwarts.

At the end of the week, on one of their trips down the main staircase, Ruka turned and asked the question that had been bothering her.

“Why aren’t you hanging out with our other friends?”

Akatsuki shrugged. “Why aren’t you?”

True that. Ruka was silent for awhile. “Why don’t we join them tomorrow then?”

“Okay,” Akatsuki said. Like it was no big deal.

And that was that. No interrogation. No guilt trip. Somehow, Akatsuki had managed to drag Ruka out of her shell, back then in their first year.

Their friends, did not make any comments about Ruka’s absence or make any fanfares about her return. Instead, they had simply reabsorbed her back into the group. Together, they fell into the usual bantering that they had enjoyed during their childhood. The Great Hall became their common room, where they spent many enjoyable evenings playing Wizard Chess or Exploding Snap.

Still, occasionally, Ruka would disappear into the comforts of the library for some peace and quiet. No matter how much she was enjoying her time at Hogwarts, falling asleep in the dark cold Slytherin dormitory was still a skill she was unable to obtain. She would unpack all her books, set up a nice studious pile behind which she can hide from Madam Pince and sometimes, not always, she could take a quick nap. 

Almsot always, she would wake up with Akatsuki next to her, quietly reading a book.

Five years later, most things haven’t changed. Ruka put her quill down and glanced over to the tall boy sitting next to her. Sure, they had all grown a little bit. Or in Akatsuki’s case, more than a little bit. He had always been the tallest in their group, but when puberty hit, he had shot up like a weed. But instead of being tall and lanky, he had the additional muscles to go along with his frame. That was a fact that many girls, irrespective of Hogwarts houses, would dreamily attest to whenever they watch Akatsuki play quidditch as the Gryffindor Keeper.

But, Ruka thought as she sucked on the end of her sugar quill, most things have stayed the same. As much as she loved her friends, Ruka had come to really treasure the quiet times she shared with Akatsuki. Most of the time, they just worked on their own schoolwork. But sometimes, they would whisper quiet conversations about things that happened during the day, or plan their next trip to Hogsmeade. Occasionally, when the librarian is prowling around, they would pass notes to each other on slivers of parchment. Ruka liked those times because it was just the two of them. No one else.

“What?” Akatsuki asked, glancing back at her.

“Nothing,” Ruka said quickly. She didn’t need a mirror to inform her that she was blushing - even her ears felt hot despite it being a cold wintery night.

Akatsuki hmmed but thankfully, didn’t say anything. He turned his attention back to his book, but Ruka could see the barest hint of a smile on his lips. 

“What?” Now it was Ruka’s turn to ask.

“Nothing,” Akatsuki said in reply. There was now definitely a full fledged smile on his face. He closed his book and put it down on the table. “I think we’re both done for tonight. What say we go down and see what everyone else is up to?”

“Okay,” Ruka couldn’t think of anything else to say. The two of them quietly packed up their things, and returned the library books to the return trolley under the hawkish scrutiny of Madam Pince before hurrying out of the library.

“There you guys are,” Takuma called out cheerfully when Ruka and Akatsuki entered the Great Hall. He was in the middle of a game of Wizard Chess against Hanabusa, and it appears the Hufflepuff prefect was losing quite badly against the child genius of Ravencaw. “So finished with your library date?”

“What?” Ruka said incredulously as she and Akatsuki joined the group at the table. “It’s not a date! Who would have dates in the library?”

“You two,” Shiki and Rima said in unison.

“They are not - we aren’t -” Flustered, Ruka could barely string a sentence together. Her cheeks were quite heated again.

“Library. Quiet hideaway spot. Perfect for snogging,” Rima added helpfully.

Ruka’s ears were practically burning by this stage. 

“Guys, cut it out,” Akatsuki said.

Shrugging, Shiki and Rima turned their attention back to the game between Takuma and Hanabusa.

But Ruka found she couldn’t concentrate on the game for the rest of the evening. The question, no matter how innocently asked, kept looping in her head. Were they library dates? Or simply two really good friends, passing the time in the library? Did Akatsuki see them as dates? She didn’t. But did she want them to be?

“You alright, Ruka?”

Jolted out of her thoughts, Ruka saw that their friends had all packed up and left. Akatsuki was also standing up with his schoolbag slung over one shoulder.

“Yes,” Ruka mumbled. But then, almost as if she couldn’t keep it in any longer, she burst out. “Are our library sessions dates? I mean, I don’t know. I have never thought of them that way. And having had no experience in these kind of things, I wouldn’t know, would I?”

Akatsuki was staring down at her with an indecipherable expression on his face.

“Well,” he said calmly. “Do you want them to be?”

“I don’t know,” Ruka said, frustrated and confused as she stood up as well. “Maybe? I just don’t know -”

Her words were cut off by the gentle press of Akatsuki’s lips against hers.

"I forgot my chess set, oops!”

Akatsuki and Ruka broke apart, to see Hanabusa staring at the two of them with a shocked look on his face.

“Never mind,” Hanabusa turned promptly back around and left the Great Hall. His chess set still on the table, forgotten.

Next evening, Ruka and Akatsuki were back at the library. But instead of their usual spot at the table by the fireplace, the two of them found a cozy little hideaway spot in the back.

Rima’s right, Ruka thought dreamily as she pulled Akatsuki’s lips down to meet hers, this is the perfect place for snogging.

This wasn’t exactly what I had in mind when I started out. I did have Ruka being scared and sleepless in Slytherin, but the actual scene I had in mind was Akatsuki staying out late with Ruka just so that she could have a couple of hours of shut-eye every night. But a) as I was writing this out, I realized the library was the spot for them and b) them staying up late didn’t quite fit with Hogwarts’ curfew hours. But I still think this turned out okay. Rought. But okay.

Penny for your thoughts? :)

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[walfs]

is it normal to go to the doctor and feel like youre somehow fucking up every step of the process to the extent that you leave the appointment feeling as though youve wasted everything

like i thought i had it under control but honestly? i was lost from the start. stepping into that office may as well be equivalent to stepping into another dimension bc my mind instantly shut down. i remember nothing except a general feeling of fear, confusion, and disdain. i didn’t mention half of the symptoms i wanted to. i dont know how important they are. i scheduled a procedure without knowign if i can really take it because i dont know if i can get off work. 

ever appointment with any doctor i see is roughly 10 minutes long because im an inept boob who just nods along to whatever they say. i have to schedule everything for early morning which means theyre just waking up. they’re running a bit late so they rush. i know they’re rushing me along and it stresses me out. they ask for a verbal list of symptoms despite having the sheet in front of them and i fucking blank because i dont have the mental script. despite rehearsing the entire night leading up to it, i lose it in the most crucial moment. it always feel like they look at me like i’m wasting their time. that if i’m forgetting what’s wrong with me then surely it’s not that big of a deal. 

i have 4 more appointments by oct and 2 procedures scheduled. there are more i need to do but im terrified. i want to go back to how i was when i could ignore it all. i want to go back to the me before i started trying to take care of myself. i didn’t realize how much of an undertaking it would be and i just. i dont think its worth it. ive been saving up my money knowing that this would be expensive but each fucking triple digit bill for a ten minute visit with one person only to be pushed off somewhere else is killing me. health should be more important than money but i cant fucking think of it like that. im wasting so much money on this. im wasting so much money and time and im fucking everythign up becuase worst of all is the fear that after all of this they’re going to tell me that aside from needing to lose weight there’s nothing wrong with me and i dont know how to properly assess damage on myself because i spent my life ignoring it and when i talk about it i feel like i’m just exaggerating or playing it up or its all in my mind and i dont know how to do any of it right because even nothing is too much for me to handle and im just too goood at fucking everyth ing up f7yckj