#again straight up not having a good time

[betweenblackberrybranches]

Yea im straight up not having a good time over here

#if my life had fic tags id be over here like #slowburn lovers to roommates #geez #usually i dont really vent on my blog and if i do its vague but like ughghguhhh #again straight up not having a good time #my gf be fumbling some major stuff real hard #is also the reason i just dont feel like making art because im just ughhguhh #sorry guys

[winters0689]

My favorite manga panels in FMA is during when Mustang was blind and was looking so little and looking absolutely miserable. He looks so done in some panels and like he is one second away from having a breakdown in other panels.

#fullmetal alchemist #roy mustang #Local War Criminal Has Been Babygirlified #my man was straight up not having a good time (then again no one was having a good time) #love how he spedran through the stages of grief and was like ‘oh well I’m blind Hawkeye be my eyes let’s burn the bastard!’

[murmel-malt]

Hedaera's wedding to her eldest brother Viserys

“At six and ten, Prince Viserys wed his younger sister Hedaera, a girl of nine. It was noted that not a single smile graced the usually so cheerful little princess’ features the entire night. Nor would she speak to her brother, father or grandparents more than a few short words.”

#my art #oc: hedaera targaryen #fic: hedaera-verse #house of the dragon #house of the dragon fanart #hotd #hotd oc #hotd fanart #fire and blood #fyeahhotdocs #my hands are bleeding but it needed to get this out #girly is straight up not having a good time #i need to start doing scene doodles for my OCs again

[b4kuch1n]

digital ink comm round 2 done! for @trucbiduleschouettes, Alis, Sygdom, A. MG, @bakugames , F. Thorell, and Grumo.

With this round I've gotten to a decent place buffer-wise and with lunar new year prep, thank you very much to everyone who's commissioned me so far! I want to figure out something for the global strike however, so I won't be reopening digital ink comms until after this week. please stay tuned for that!

#bakuspecial #commission art #honestly my idea is straight up just aping the cartoonist coop's model. since I'm not with them yet #but yeah that will basically be how it works. but I'll limit the available type of art so I can actually finish all of it. and I'll stream #I just need to make the assets and write the post. and organize stuff #thank you once again to everyone who commissioned! cannot overstate how honored I am to be trusted with ur little guys #even if just for this one time. I hope ur having a good day wherever u are #have a good night! I wont be going to bed yet. but I will be enjoying myself. I take a hammer to it

[cryptvokeeper]

don’t get me wrong I think the general interpretation of Leo being like “I put up a cocky front but deep down I don’t actually think I’m that great and that’s why I have something to prove” is good. It’s cool, plenty of drama/angst potential and probably what the creators were going for, I’m here for it.

But there is a distinct appeal to me of the slightly-to-the-left interpretation of Leo being like “it’s not a front, I know I’m that good/smart/skilled, but I also know I’m seen by others as just the goofball face man and that’s why I have something to prove.”

#Rottmnt #Wild metaphor incoming but it’s like the difference between a hersheys bar and fancy Ghirardelli or something #At the end of the day they’re both chocolate. But ones got a bit more depth. #where was I going with this again idk I got caught up in food metaphor #It’s like. With the first one it boils down to character A (in this case Leo) going “I’m useless because I’m not good at [thing]” #Resulting in those around him either going “of course you’re good at thing! Remember the time you were good at thing?” #Or sometimes “it doesn’t matter that you’re not good at [thing] we love you regardless of what you can provide” #And again THATS GOOD THATS SOME GOOD SHIT #I LOVE THAT #but with the latter it’s more like “I know I’m good at thing *but I don’t know how to prove it to you*” #And that gives you the best of both worlds where you CAN get character A feeling bad but not for their lack of thing #But because if no can see it surely they *must* be doing something wrong right? #And ALSO you get the characters around them getting all sorts of feelings of “we didn’t do enough to show we believe in them” #Or “we didn’t notice how hard they tried” #Cuz you can get that a little in the first one but it can come off as kinda meh cuz they didn’t actually do anything wrong #It also has more opportunities for emotions besides straight sadness #You can have anger and conflict of “why am I not good enough for you?!” #That straight sef deprecation doesn’t always allow for #You can also have jealously and envy that feels less toxic and more justified #Not that it strictly needs to be justified mind you #Sometimes some toxic feelings stemming from perceived inadequacy are fuckin *chefs kiss* #But again it’s abt the VARIETY yknow #This isn’t even about Rottmnt anymore I’m just rambling #It’s my post and I get to choose the bullshit tags

[worstloki]

Thor tries to pick up the designated driver pilot role after feast parties and off-realm adventures following Loki’s death but it soon becomes apparent that the only decent pilot left on the team is Fandral and he’s insufferable if you drink excessively and don’t let him join

#Thor not tending to be in the mood to drink after Loki dies bc his emotions drop and he hates it btw #or worse his body sees it as an excuse to start feeling things and that’s almost worse #so anyway better to just avoid it for a while #so he volunteers to fly everyone back home #they all know how to pilot of course #it just becomes very clear very soon that knowing how does not make one good at it #passable sure but when everyone has a headache or is on the verge of passing out you don’t want a ride that upsets any stomaches #you don’t want people losing their balance or clutching their heads from spinning when you’re driving in a straight line back to the palace #aaaand Volstagg is throwing up over the side of the skiff. oh no not again this is unbelievable #maybe walking would be better next time #but no one wants to walk after that!!! #what if they abruptly need to use a bathroom #it’s not acceptable to use the side of a road in Asgard I think #let alone when you’re a group of prestigious warriors #of course we have members of the group with a piloting licence!!! we just WANTED to walk!!!

[mars-ipan]

do you guys think aziraphale heard the myth of prometheus for the first time and lost his mind a little

#marzi speaks #good omens #aziraphale #this is lighthearted but also not at all. i just don’t have big words rn #can you imagine though. aziraphale is gomensverse’s prometheus #he brought humans fire. #do you think he heard of prometheus and suddenly his fear of disobeying god reared its ugly head with a vengeance #do you think he remembered lying to god about it. wondered if it was that that would do him in instead of the original theft #do you think he spent nights upon nights wondering when he would be chained to his rock #wondering when his crow would come eat his liver for all of eternity #do you think he wondered if it already had? #not in the shape of a crow- but of a snake- a charming snake that slithered over and ate his heart again and again and again #he had appeared shortly after aziraphale gave up the sword; after all. aziraphale told him and everything #perhaps that was his punishment. perhaps She was playing a cruel little game by sending him someone he wanted so much but could never have #maybe that was the rock. the chain. the inability to move- to do anything more than sit there in anguish #the crow came in the form of that sharp mind and clever tongue. it dug straight to the core of his heart and tore it to shreds #picked it apart; observed; and ate #do you think he worried on and off about that for centuries. millenia #do you think he thought about it every time that demon of his did something so utterly charming #‘oh- there’s another piece of my heart- a morsel for him to savor again and again’ #do you think he thought about it when he kissed. felt those lips on his like a sharp beak straight through his body #do you think he minded. do you think he thought ‘i would lay in these chains forever if you would just do that again; right now.’ #do you think he broke those chains anyway. #I’M INSAAANE turns out i did have big words for it

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I'm very excited for more content of your lights out au, I'm so eager to see just how good you can get at writing/creating angst!

oh babey. thats where i Shine.

#i have gotten many a fic comment where people curse me out and/or say that they cried #sometimes i get someone saying i made them sob #its a compliment every time and i strive for it! #i dont fuck around with my fics i Do Not Hold Back and that is a Warning #this is the only aspect of my creations that im confident in #and hopefully soon you'll all See! you will see. #just a little taste its nothing too intense really. #id label it more hurt/comfort than straight up angst #but yeah if people arent crying im doing it wrong #i rarely do it wrong. #JESTING JESTING im not That good. now im just exaggerating for a Humorous Touch #rambles from the bog #i might. miiiiiight. might might might maybe mayhaps might #write a certain scene from lights out that everyone already knows will happen #so... might as well dust off my hurt / no comfort skills #could be fun. i want to hurt people again #in a good safe 'you Chose to read this' way #theres a certain feeling that comes with being someone who enjoys writing angst #the happiness i get from people telling me my writing hurt them. Yes <3 #so so validating. so fulfilling. #just read through some old fic comments on my better works and mmmmm talk about an ego boost....

[phantom-of-the-keurig]

Don’t worry I didn’t unalive myself, gotta hold out for Cody Day and bad batch season 3

Kidding

Anyway Happy Cody Day to all that celebrate this glorious and most holy of holidays 🙏🏼

#okay bye again #where’s that meme that’s like I’m straight Up Not Having a Good Time Rn #tw: mental health #TW: it couldn’t be going worse!

[mo-ok]

🎉 Toku x Birthdays 🎉

Day 4 - Chinese Zodiac

🐂 Ox ~ Kuro Kishi Hyuuga 🐂

#tokubds #gingaman #super sentai #hyuuga #OK LOOK. THIS IS THE BEST COINCIDENCE TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME LMAO. #not only am i an ox - i am a fire ox #and wouldnt you believe it my boy my precious precious boy Hyuuga just so happens to be a fire powered cow fella sooooooooooo #i couldnt not make this about hyuuga #it was written in the stars #every time i think about hyuuga (often) my ability to not be annoying is TESTED #he's my favouritest guy ever and i have a great deal of thoughts about him #he makes me want to smash glass and then calmly clean it up #he's such a SOFT character and it makes all the bullshit he goes through hurt SO BAD and i 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #please watch gingaman #its very good #and it has hyuuga in it #also his gokaiger episode is very good. a real nasty punch straight to the guts #like #do you think it hurt? having bullblack's powers taken from him? did it feel like he'd died all over again? IS GOTAURUS OK ABOUT IT??!?!???? #idk go away dont look at me #me in the middle of the night: do you think Gotaurus missed Bullblack or do you think he saw enough of him in hyuuga that it wasnt so bad #my wife: 🫥🫥🫥

[sophiethewitch1]

kinda wanna write a fic where the dog is literally the deus ex machina

#sophie speaks #dog backwards is god yknow it makes sense #me and my undertale bullshit back on it again #i have 3 fic ideas for it. one is a meta commentary one is just about a reader with a chronic illness and one is my love for desperate read #-rs returning in full blown massive fashion. and also identity issues but all 3 of these fics have that last one just has that. a lot lot #all include my weird DID metaphors and multiverse shenanigans #because honestly all sans/sans shippers do not understand the weirdness of loving an alternate version of urself #they dont lean into it #i mean im not gonna write sans/sans I'm an x reader till death because i love self love. also sans could not love himself look at that guy #but undertale itself has so many cool themes u can build off of that i just. i wanna grab and squeeze em out like juice #and i mean its not like i can do www at the moment I've written like... 9k this month it ain't going good #might as well just enjoy the depression spiral. i know that doesn't sound very possible but yknow. we rock w it #im just in pain all the time... ill go back to the docs soon and maybe just start taking straight up opiods #but until then i can only do things if i feel there is absolutely 0 pressure on me to do them #once again thanks school system i love these learned behaviors you traumatised into me they're really useful #what was i saying? did i mention im a little scatterbrained atm

[stardial]

this year rly has been an actual rollercoaster it’s kinda crazy

#i’ve quite literally had both the highest highs AND the lowest lows ever AT THE SAME TIME #two of my friends straight up died. school burned me out. didn’t get to talk to one of my besties for like multiple months. #got a bit depressed again #but then at the same time. i’m finally writing again. drawing again. i’m having so much fun doing it #mine and ramas relationship has developed in such a good way too #i got government hormones finally #got to spend the start of the year w one of my favourite ppl in the world and then got to go home and spend time with #my OTHER favorite person in the world. and also with one of my best friends #i’ve been so sad which i wished i didn’t have to be. but i’m also genuinely dealing with it better than i ever have before #it’s such a weird contrast #hope the next half of the year is a bit easier at least. lol #arambles

[causeimanartist]

"Sorry Master Bruce im too dummy thicc and the clap of my asscheeks keep alerting the rogues"

“I wish I was Jared, 19”

#batman #bruce wayne #dc #my art #causeimanartist #alfred pennyworth #once again I am wheezing #b is straight up not having a good time

[killherfreakout]

watched the turtles all the way down movie and oh…. war flashbacks to reading it at 17 and going like 🫵🏼 haha i do that… and watching it on screen at 24 and feeling the exact same was a journey

#straight up not having a good time bc of self actualization through the fictional character. yeah again

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[zexonyte]

yeah i made him a fish lookin thang whatcha gonna do about it

#mother series #giegue #earthbound beginnings #yeah im proud of this so im putting it on tumblr too. hiii mother times server how yall doing #ignore that he doesnt have a back leg i tried but it looked kinda weird and cramped #anyways i gave giegue gill things and a more fish-esque appearance because i hc his species is aquatic #like they come from an oceanic? aquatic? unsure. well its a planet that is almost entirely water im talkin subnautica levels of sea #that's why he had that capsule orb thing in mother 1. he needs it to live and the weird engine-esque things at his side are like purifiers #making sure the liquid is suitable. not too focused on much else (why bother when you're a super powerful psychic) but isn't exactly fragil #like the material is flexible and rubbery even. you hit it and it bounces back a good amount #we don't really get an explanation for why earth itself was chosen to get invaded. at least i don't remember if there was one sorry 😭 BUT #i hc also that the reason giegue's species decided to invade here specifically was because of territory. i mean we've got a lot of water #maybe they took george and maria to test humanity in a sense. if they reacted positively to an alien child mayybe they wouldnt have needed #to straight up eradicate humanity maybe this time we wont need to fight too much. would be inconvenient to waste firepower on these #simple creatures. they're not even that smart. can't even use our epic brain powers lol (aged real well) #once again they aint found him yet but when they do they gon be surprised #anyways its like 4 in the morning i cant keep doing this. thanks for reading my brainworms over a game ive never played 🤙