#a thousand terrible things

[dougielombax]

That fucking THING has returned!

That goddamn fridge monster!

I thought I killed it!

Apparently not!

He’s gonna be pissed! I just know it.

#dougie rambles #personal stuff #control #control remedy #control game #remedy games #remedy entertainment #gaming #fridge #the former #nightmare fuel #the horrors #terrors #no context #what #a thousand terrible things

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i keep scribbling Laughingstock as soft and wholesome, when in my brain they're chaotic and wholesome. Howdy's got that high energy and Barns is always down to clown yk yk

#like for example i have this very vivid Scene in my mind #where the neighborhood is having a little garden party and nice music is playing #franklydear is slow dancing. everyone is dancing either sweetly or just Normally #and then in the background you have laughingstock stumbling around laughing their asses off #because they're trying to attempt Swing but howdy has too many legs and its just a complete disaster #Completely ruining the vibe though no one minds. except frank probably #theyre just. theyre so Goofy #they have a thousand inside jokes and are always up to Something #they start to approach activities normally and then they stop and go 'hey wait. wouldn't it be funny if...' #the answer is always Yes. it Would be funny. and it Will Be. #they are each others' biggest fans and enablers in my mind #laughingstock #absolutely unprompted #and i just Know barnaby would be always pushing howdy's business #he overhears someone mention possibly needing something and he sidles over like 'heyyyy howdys got a great sale goin rn 👀' #barnaby: i know my jokes are outta this world but ya know what else is? BEANS FROM HOWDYS GO BUY EM #if they were in modern day and had phones / social media #i just know the only things barnaby posts are: bts of sally's plays. wally. terrible memes. and promo for howdy's place #so much promo... #and on the flip side howdy gasses up barnaby's jokes/etc like no one else #if there a thousand people laughing at his humor one of em is howdy. if theres only one person laughing then that person is howdy #barnaby's going to do a stand up show and howdy is making so many signs to make sure No One Forgets Or Misses It #somebody walks into the bodega after barnaby just finished a joke and howdy is like OH OH TELL IT AGAIN THEY DIDNT HEAR IT #ouaghhhhh they make me <3<3<3<3<3<3<3

[winepresswrath]

Cannot believe at this late stage of my life I'm becoming a Gabriel fucker. Local mean jock doesn't want to be evil now, he wants to be loved. I'm slightly annoyed they didn't make Beelzebub more unhinged because the "plot" should have been at least half about them fucking up shit on an absolute rampage trying to find Gabriel, a thing everyone assumes they are doing to fry him with hellfire so they can kick off the war in a way that's advantageous to hell, BUT ACTUALLY!!! true love.

#I do love evil love! #but more than that it's like... the terrible emptiness of heaven and hell? #absolutely no one has been having a good time! #they're just middle management admin suckers doing a soulless job no one else understands #they don't even care about earth! six thousand years of #mommy promised that if you all sit down and shut up we can have another war when the humans are dead #as a form of enrichment for their underlings #and they're just going along with it because that's the grind #incidentally I enjoyed how childish the angels were this season my pet theory is that they and the demons also have free will but no one #noticed so they've all just been making themselves miserable enforcing corporate culture and plotting each other's downfall because it #didn't occur to them to do anything else #gabriel and beelzebub realizing there's more to life and they can simply say fuck it and make something good between them #implies other angels and demons can do the same! as does Muriel obviously #like they are torturing each other. in much the same ways that humans are torturing each other #sad for Aziraphale and Crowley they care about earth & humans #which is a real problem they have that Gabzebub do not #and also that Crowley is in denial about how much he wants to be good and Aziraphale is in denial about just so many things and also #committed to being an ass about it. #these are problems that Gabriel and Beelzebub do NOT have because they are goal oriented and keep their eyes on the prize #good omens spoilers

[ickypuppi3]

it’s the way billy’s a scapegoat not only in show but for the duffers too like

people will spend all their time focusing on the actions of a fictional teenager rather than question the fact these two white men were all too eager to have a racial slur used against a literal child and have felt comfortable having racism in lucas’ story without it actually go anywhere all while putting no focus on him as a character

they use it as a thing, as a prop, rather than acknowledging it as the systemic issue it actually is - like they use it, have lucas canonically experience racism and then push his character to the back

it’s so blatant too, there’s nothing subtle about it but because everyone’s so busy focusing on big bad billy hargrove, racism doesn’t get discussed in the stranger things fandom the way it should because everyone’s too busy focusing on the actions of one single fictional character

#billy hargrove #stranger things #they get away with so much because billy’s just there #the way the word racist is thrown around too is so crazy #like i wish people would just do some research and know what they’re talking about before they post terrible harmful takes that get #thousands of notes from impressionable kids #like people have convinced themselves racism is a thing that’s like #a single person perpetuates #and that no one else would be racist in a town like hawkins in the 80’s #they believe only a villain and a bad guy could hold such beliefs #which just isn’t how it works #and has never been how it works #that’s a dangerous way of thinking about it too #and they’re SO quick to ‘i’m not racist i’ve never been racist because’ #and it’s like the first step is acknowledging how racism is ingrained into every day society rather than jump to the defence because you #believe that it would make you an ‘irredeemable villain’ akin to billy #like there’s such a big conversation to be had but it CAN’T be had because many fans refuse to talk and converse and l #listen and get other peoples perspectives so unfortunately this is where we’re at

[theromanticrationalist]

Sheldon: *laughing to himself* "I wish you can all be inside my head! The conversation is sparkling!" The guys: . . . Sheldon: "Fine! I'll tell you! A lichen is an organism made up of two separate species, fungi and algae. If you could merge with another species, which species would you pick and why? Hint: there is a right answer. None of you will get it." Raj: "Okay, I'd pick swan because the resulting hybrid would have the advanced industrial civilization of a human and the long graceful neck I've always dreamed of having!" Sheldon: "Wrong. The best organism for human beings to merge with is the lichen itself. That way you'd be human, fungus, and algae. Triple threat! Like three-bean salad." Leonard: "Give me one circumstance that would be useful." Sheldon: "Alright, picture this. A beautiful outdoor concert. Now, as a human, I appreciate Beethoven, as a fungus I have a terrific view growing out of a towering maple tree, and no thank you expensive concessions because as an algae, I'll just snack on this sunlight." Raj: "He got us again." Leonard: "No, he didn't." Raj: "Anyway, if its okay with you we should talk about Howard's bachelor party." Sheldon: "Well, seems bit of a let down after our lichen conversation, but what would you know, your half-swan." The Big Bang Theory 5x22 The Stag Convergence

#part of my raj and sheldon agenda! #first #I genuinely find his conversation starters so much more interesting than the drama crap the gang are all up in most of the time #this show did such a TERRIBLE job in making us think Sheldon is insane #because he's literally a thousand times more interesting than anyone #save Amy of course #I loved his What If Hulk Were Made of Others Things thought experiement #but I digress #Again I love Raj just totally getting into the question and expressing himself #then notice that he acknowledges that Sheldon's answer was superior #Leonard just dismisses Sheldon outright for no reason #then Raj politely changes the subject acknowledging Sheldon #Sheldon of course makes his quip #but he acknowledges Raj's choice of swan #ergo Raj and Sheldon are superior sitcom friends who respect each other but also have witty/hilarious banter #sheldon cooper #rajesh koothrappali #the big bang theory #rajesh koothrappali x sheldon cooper #you might expect more of these weird metas #I don't know #I'm just SO enjoying all this #Like Sheldon sometimes the criticizing of things is just as fun #😏😏😏

[quixoticanarchy]

god i'm leaving oklahoma in a month and genuinely sort of distraught i'm going to miss the pigeon museum so fucking much. i'm going to have to start grabbing feral pigeons at random just to cope

#also my friends and my groups im in and my cafes and my other weird museums and my terrible wretched buses ... #i can list like a thousand things wrong with oklahoma but unfortunately i'm still sad to go

[sukugo]

gojo first learning that sukuna had 4 arms definitely awakened something in him

#bby satoru acquired a new sexuall fantasy #f.txt #sukugo #jjk #gosuku #ngl now im really thinking about a younger gojo who actually HAD a thing for sukuna growing up........ much thoughts 👀👀👀👀 #kinda like a celebrity crush but like. u know. for the despicable king of curses who existed thousands of years ago and who everyone fears #and who made life absolute hell for everyone #whick like!!! he talks of sukuna so fondly when he describes him to yuuji #no signs of fear or disgust or aversion. he's smiling while he describes how terrible he was #gajfhskdhfkdh wait lemme organize these ideas brain is RUNNING

[blujayonthewing]

thinkin again about the time elyss's DM cut in to stop a conversation between her and a semi-retired player character to hurriedly take back control of him as an NPC before he could give her, as an extremely kind and thoughtful gift, one of his own personal belongings, and then said 'elyss can probably buy it from him though :)' instead

like. what an egregiously fucking shitty thing to do, actually.

#I think we were caught SO offguard that neither of us was able to articulate a good resistance although we both tried #eldryn's player: ...I mean... he WAS going to just give it to her #DM: haha well I don't wanna just give you guys too much stuff [???] #me: I mean-- you JUST gave us like? ten thousand gold and a castle that we didn't even ask for ......? #I HAVE the money [2000g????] and I don't actually care about losing it but.............??? #DM: yeah so I just feel like I've already given you guys a lot lately #WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN SAID WAS: THAT WAS A GIFT BETWEEN CHARACTERS NOT 'THE DM GIVING US TOO MUCH'. #WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN SAID WAS 'YOU ARE CHANGING A KIND GESTURE FROM A GOODHEARTED MAN INTO A CRAVEN EXPLOITATION OF ELYSS FOR MONEY.' #WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN SAID WAS 'TAKING OVER A PLAYER CHARACTER IN THE MIDDLE OF A CONVERSATION BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT ELYSS TO HAVE A THING #'IS AN ABUSE OF DM POWER AND AN EGREGIOUS BREACH OF DM/ PLAYER TRUST.' #WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN SAID WAS 'WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU HAVE AGAINST ELYSS AND/OR ME PERSONALLY.' #and like. the actual consequences are so small. we were in a between-arcs timeskip we had BBEG Treasure Hoard money #Elyss loses 2000g and doesn't even miss it. Eldryn being a good friend IS canon and the DM can suck my dick about it #but on principle. on principle the fact that he did that. that is so incredibly shitty. you don't see that? #and for what? over an arbitrary price tag that I could afford without even missing it anyway? #over a magic item that's more psychological security blanket than anything particularly overpowered? #over powerplay dick waving over who REALLY gets to control Eldryn now that he's technically been retired as a PC? #what?? what is the reason??? ALL it accomplished was a fucking character assassination of a sweetheart character #which I think we've all privately decided didn't actually happen anyway because it's stupid and terrible and not fair of DM to Just Decide #and my already pretty flimsy trust in my friend as a DM sinking to unforeseen new lows #god. god. #about me #my OCs #elyss

[sophieswundergarten]

So. Everyone who yelled at me yesterday for making a ramble on Reynie going blank and then not resolving it, this is for you: (@lemondropletters, you have been tagged)

Also, it's in a Google Doc because it was definitely too long for a Tumblr post, and ~~I don't know how AO3 works~~

The (vague) premise is that, instead of Constance seeing Curtain's broadcast, they all get to the compound mentally sound, but once there, they split up to look for Mr. Benedict, and instead Reynie finds Curtain. This is the wrap up of what would have happened in the last episode.

#I'm sorry if it's also garbage #My brain hasn't been letting me sleep the last two days so I've just been working on this #And also I've never tried writing fic before so it is highly likely to be bad #But it was certainly a fun experience! #I was like “Oh I'll just rewrite that first post in this new format and then add the notes I had in my drafts” #And from there it somehow spiraled into a five and a half thousand word mess #But I think I learned some things! #And I'm sorry Miss Perumal isn't more help I got caught up in the emotion and I just really wanted the kids to work it out themselves #Especially since Reynie is normally the driving force for those kinds of solutions #But without him it took a lot longer than I expected #Also be warned I use a lot more em dashes then I think I'm supposed to #And I was trying the technique of mostly using the adult's formal names since the main perspective is the kids' #But the point is that I did it. I tried. #And if it's terrible then I will just never do it again #I'm sorry I didn't know how to end it so it's kind of vague and abrupt #I hope it's fairly in-character I tried really hard but messing up character voices terrifies me which is why I've never tried this before #I am genuinely so sorry if this is hot garbage it certainly feels like garbage #Okay shutting up now. Again my apologies #the mysterious benedict society #mbs #reynie muldoon #kate wetherall #sticky washington #constance contraire #miss perumal

[polithicc]

running on 4 hours of sleep and a dream

#yesteday was so :/ #I ended up not having dinner too #and I had terrible insomnia #didn’t fall asleep until 3 something #and had stress dreams #now im awake and I have to get ready for work and I really don’t want to go in today #but I have to bc I have a thousand things #I also have a psychiatrist appt at 9 but i can do that on the phone #oh I also have a weird dream about nadia???? and also high school ???

[dougielombax]

“What’s in the bag.”

“Oh, nothing much. Just some stationery, and A Thousand Terrible Things.”

“What…”

#dougie rambles #personal stuff #my poor attempt at a joke #a thousand terrible things #what #no context #bag #stationery #this sounded funnier in my head #shitpost #nightmare fuel #oddly terrifying #needlessly ominous #vagueness #the horrors #terrors

[autisticbillpotts]

I'm losing my mind why am I so obsessed with this guy

#he puts herbal tea in a flask so he can drink it at parties and not get hassled about drinking!!!! #he beat a guy half to death!!!!!!!!!! #and he's a little sappy guy who loves his little boyfriend soooooo much and they are unbearable together #and he's presumably like 6ft tall and built like a brick shit house #and he's sooooo funny he's SUCH a teenage boy and I'm! obsessed with him! #personal #tbs blogging #I started making a pinterest board for him and at first pass it has like 60 pins help me #I need to crush him to death #if he was a cat he would look like my cat. also. is a thought in my head #'it sounds kinda gay when you put it like that' to 'my BOYFRIEND is the smartest boyfriend there ever was!' #that's my little guuuuyyyyy #I need to eat him. #podcasts terrible actually because I can't have an endless supply of pictures of ym litttle guy he's my little guy #also the thing about coming to a show like this so late and w no previous exposure to it- #is that I have my own take on how characters look and thoughts I want to TALK ABOUT and it feels ridiculous cause Im sure its all already- #been said a thousand times but! not where I can see it! #so Im just sat here w like even dumb shit like 'I think calebs hair grew out over the seasons' and its so ghfnggjdjcvk electrocutes myself #genuinely pacing in circles making noises at myself level of obsessed #he is spinning round my brain like a rat in a centrifuge

[br1ghtestlight]

watching these tv shows about serial killers has me thinking about how my younger brother was only like 10% bad choices away from being an Actual murderer. he's calmed down a lot now but even 5 years ago i wouldnt have put it past him to try and kill me or my sister, he used to try to stab us with a kitchen knife and we'd lock ourselves in the bathroom FJDMDMDKDSMJ

#there is...... so much context to our lives and his behaviour #he always had a horrible temper anger issues and violence ever since he was a literal toddler #he got in trouble at school for a thousand different reasons and would try to fight kids in the neighborhood. he was HORRIBLE #and im sure our parents enabled him or made him worse in a thousand different ways #he loved my older sister but ALWAYS hated me and my younger sister bcuz we were closer in age #he was horrible to us. which is weird to say bcuz he's like 4 years younger than me but duuude the shit he used to say and do #also he was an anti-sjw transphobic nazi for like a good few years #THAT BEING SAID he is my brother and he's better now and a lot more chill & doesnt do anything bad anymore #just plays video games and posts pro-palestine stuff on twitter. probably a good thing he was removed from the home when he was #also i was a pretty terrible kid too maybe less outwardly violent but i cant even blame him lmao. Anyway its weird to think #if our lives had turned out slightly different he would have murdered me and my sister when we were kids #family is weird #txt

[cryptidafter]

told my mom I couldn’t afford to replace the fridge and she’d have to put it on her credit card and that was the most nerve wracking part of my morning

time to lie on the couch for the rest of the day lol

#cryptid’s thoughts #partially joking but my anxiety has been so high since yesterday #telling my mom no even though it’s reasonable is still a challenge for me #that guilt is deep-rooted 😮‍💨 #like I bought her a brand new washer and dryer when I moved in because hers had been broken for at least two months #cleaned up the rooms we’re using and repainted (didn’t ask her to help) #pay rent every month! #and yet my mom still doesn’t have money or pay the bills on time #and whenever anything goes wrong she expects me or my sister (who doesn’t live here anymore!) to pay for it #like I’m thankful for my job but I’m not rich lol - I can’t just drop thousands of dollars at a moment’s notice #and my mom likes to make us feel terrible and guilt us and it’s not easy but I’ve been working on standing firm #our relationship has been so strained since I moved in #same thing happened with my sister #like we love her but my mom is unwell and she’s done us a lot of harm 😞 #dealing with trauma is hard lol

[neodarkdark]

Svern genuinely believes that he's nigh on impossible to traumatise because he's Built Different. He isn't afraid of anything ever because he's incapable of feeling fear. He can tolerate anything because his reactions are so barely existent or detached from himself that he can just ignore them, and if he knows or suspects someone's trying to get a reaction out of him then he can essentially cull any reaction within himself in response. He has no real attachment to anything, including himself. He's so apathetic and nihilistic that he has no emotional vulnerabilities.

Unfortunately for him, several of these traits in fact do come from trauma.

#when my beta svern blueprint said No Trauma Backstory what it really meant was no specific major trauma inducing event(s) #that you can point to and say this is the reason for his actions #instead what he got was a thousand smaller (not) things that affected him on a fundamental level #and they're virtually impossible to detangle from what makes svern himself because he's so thoroughly incorporated them #boredom is so terrible like a dread disease (headcanon)

[orbdotexe]

I meant to post this last night, but apparently I saved it as a draft? wack

Exile is absolutely pitiful and depressed and overall just awful but I feel I should point out that there is no attempts being made on their part to fix it. At first it was confusion and denial, then anger and being under the impression the Vanguard would never try to (oops, Ghost), and now its... They don't see any point. It's set in stone now, nothing they say or do could reverse the hurt, and now their only way of "coping" is digging the Grave deeper.

Maybe everyone still hurts, but people can grow around that hurt if it just doesn't change. Let it stay that one kind. Don't give themself or others more things to hurt over. The only way to avoid the change is to make the change impossible.

So they hurt. And they hurt like hell - not just emotionally, but the slaughter left in their wake is bloody and the ground will not heal, will not scar over, nothing can heal from this. It is hate-filled and desperate for everyone, rot-soft and bitter.

The Forsaken Exile, in general, is a hell of a lot darker than normal Destiny, I think. In canon, you have reprieves. Sometimes painful, but always needed. Always to let something heal, and heal it does, if slowly.

But no one gets that, here.

And if they do, it is long, long after Wolf is dead. I don't think a happy ending is possible for them - the closest they could get is either leaving entirely before they could die, though they'd never rest like that. The guilt of leaving people who needed them, to just die, afraid, confused... Or they die the way they die best: self-destructing and giving their last, accepting that they could never be understood in life and letting go so that maybe they could be understood in death. or we go with the Witness one. Yknow, cloud head leading everyone along while none of them believe Wolf is really dead, until the Witness gives up their last recording/leads them to Wolf's body and it turns out Wolf died just as pitifully as they had been living - alone and afraid and begging for people who'd never answer, even if they could hear. Deaf ears in two horrible ways.

I just... "In our next lives, let's save ourselves."

auto-correct keeps trying to change "died just as pitifully as they had been living" to "died just as beautifully as they had lived" and i thought that was funny in a horrible and heart breaking way anyway i think im going to go through my Exile tag and brain space and try to set up some kind of timeline with important details? soon?

#orb rambles #the forsaken exile #'You've met with a terrible fate. haven't you?' #something about begging for help from those you know won't help you no matter what you do and being unable to let go just breaks me. #They *can't* let go. in any other situation where thousands of lives weren't on the line- you'd tell them to just *go* #To stop taking the heat for these people who hate them and used them and then dropped them without hearing anything first #None of its healthy. And they *should* leave - for their own sake - but it still wouldn't be the right thing #There isn't much of a 'right thing' to do here - but saving the Last City is the closest thing there is #But nothing could justify the in-between events. the path to saving it #There Is No Winning in the Forsaken Exile for anybody! #and i hate that. I hate stories where nothing Can go right and the little spots of relief only serve to make everything so so much worse #but ive done this to myself and i love this AU in spite of it and Will continue to dig this grave and nothing can stop me <3