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dopaminergicaddictions · 2 months

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3/8/24

6:46 a.m-updated

I doubled up on the sleeping meds. I should be sleeping by 8 a.m or 9 at the latest. I'm a little worried I'll throw off my circadian rhythm but who knows. I had to double up bc I've only been up for 15 hours.

I cleaned out two draws today. I was productive. Tomorrow aka later today i have to call the psychiatrist and call disability to reschedule my appt.

Then I'm going to finish my password book. I might sweep my room and clean my ac. I got to finish my mattress pillow top. I did all my laundry but that. Including my bedding. I've been productive.

I had a dream about you last night. I wish I could remember it. It wasn't a good one. That's all I know but when I woke up it was before 7 hours and I just passed back out and it was gone.

I have a feeling you ignored me again. Idk.

The hallucination has been the same. So I guess the weed didn't do any damage at least I hope. I hope I can get in with the psychiatrist asap....

No news on the dating front. That arsenal of photos without glasses is coming up. If a girl can't like me for who I really am that's okay. I don't need to see clearly.

I know you would have wanted me to wesr my glasses. It seems most women do not like the bald guy with glasses look.

I looks funky without my glasses but whats a guy supposed to do?

I feel less attractive with them on. Once I wear my new script for a few days I'll see Apple sauce tbh.... so maybe getting those ray bans aren't worth it. I just want to look attractive.

I wish a woman would like me with my glasses. I wish a girl would like the bald guy with glasses look. It's who I am but I guess I need another Katie. Someone who would rather I not see clearly. Its not that's important to see clearly. Maybe I can introduce myself with glasses on thr first date bit without any photos in glasses I'd feel like I was lying. They might not like it.

Also I could wesr them sometime later... idk... Maybe I'm just not meant to be loved how I am... I used to have one good eye. Not neither is good but things aren't that blurry...

I'm never going to be an edgy guy with tattoos who looks sexy. I'm always going to be a dorky guy... without any tattoos at this point I'd get some just to look more attractive...

I'd actually change a lot about myself despite liking how I look to find someone.

It is what it is. I'm going to do one profile as thr authentic Nathan and one profile as the fake Nathan and see what happens.

I can't help but think all the women are like he is dorky. Maybe it's the bald head. We will find out. I'm never wearing a toupee but like- Maybe just maybe taking off Mt glasses will give me an edge.

I might remove all my videos in yotube with my glasses.. I won't have many left but whatever. No one minds watxhing me if they want to see the gameplay but women don't like something about my picture. I think I look handsome. It's their loss but I can't be alone forever.

If you're coming, just know I'm still waiting for you. I'm not joking. None of my eggs are in that basket... but if I found someone I'd drop her for you in 2 seconds.

I want to grow old with you. I want to watch your girls grow up. I want to marry you but most people never get what they want. And I accept that.

I'll always be hopelessly in love with you. I'll always think about you fondly. I'll always love you with every fiber of my being. I'll always wish any girl I end up with is Elise.

I feel stupid for saying that but its the truth

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mentalillnessmouse · 5 years

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(p1) Hi, I'm writing because I feel there is no hope for me. I'm 30, I live at home where I get verbally mistreated (it was physical when I was younger.) I'm morbidly obese, agoraphobic, I literally didn't leave the house for a 2 year period and still rarely do. I have 0 friends and never had any except a few online ones who ditched me years ago. I was bullied constantly. I have self-harm marks all over my arms. I've NEVER had a job, or finished high school. I still almost never leave the house.

(p2) I’ve asked for help to learn to drive, but they tell me I can’t. I guess because they call me autistic and tell me I am not very smart and make jokes about me having ADHD. I took those comments seriously and they told me I was “looking for problems.” WHAT? I made the mistake of speaking with a few psychiatrists about it who shut me down because, in their words, I didn’t “look” like I had those issues. And that my parents had hard jobs so it made sense they would lash out at me.

(p3) I deal with other issues too like menorrhagia. A doctor had me do an ultrasound (this was like my 3rd one since ‘06) and sent me to a specialist because they saw something. The specialist said she didn’t think anything was there and wasn’t going to actually examine me. I gave up. I’m afraid to speak up for myself, I genuinely don’t understand how to live, make friends, talk to people. I feel like I just have TOO MANY issues. And at my age I don’t see why anyone would bother with me anymore.

(p4) I have an appt with a psych at the same place as the others because I have my city’s free insurance and nowhere else to go. I don’t know if I can do it again after this? I just wanted somewhere to reach out at least one more time :( I’ve reached out to others (like extended family) who will talk to me for a bit then ignore? I can’t help but to feel damaged or like I’m doing something wrong I can’t figure out. I feel like a weak loser and I didn’t try good enough.I’m sorry this is so long

Hello Anon,

I’m mod Bee and I’ll do my best to help you out, but I received help myself from the other mods to write you back. So this is a communal effort!

Thank you for reaching out, and I’m sorry you’re going though such a difficult and distressing situation. You sound strong and tenacious, and I’m proud of you for the way you keep trying to improve your life.

We have some suggestions that we hope can be of help. They’ll concerne:

finding online communities/groups to hang out with

finding a professional that suits your needs

looking for courses you can join

thinking about possible job options

Just an head up: this is going to be long, and it will contain tons of links. I’ll highlight one - that I think it’s most useful - for each section, but I suggest you to go through them all.

1. finding online communities/groups to hang out with

Having friends is important for our mental health, but it can get difficult to make new ones, especially when we’ve been burned before.

Online communities, forums, and groups, can be good places to start looking for friends again. You can approach them with as much caution as you need, and find those people you relate with the most.

If you like games, and rpgs in particular, there are online options that allow you to connect with other others all over the world. Activities like Dungeon&Dragons are based around players’ interactions, so you’d get to know people without putting the stress on forging new friendships. The article 10 Best Online Chat Rooms & Games suggests other equally fitting games.

Forums and groups where you can share your experience and fears are another important tool you can use. I’ve looked into active ones and found Panic Disorder and Agoraphobia Forum, r/Agoraphobia/ (on reddit), bus (a self-harm support forum), Mental health support group and discussion community, Online Support Groups by Turn2Me, PsychForums (Psychology and Mental Health Forums), and the ReachOut app.

Trying with pen pals - a one on one exchange - could also be a good idea: InterPals and PenPalWorld are only two of the many websites dedicated to this purpose. Here’s some tips on how it works.

Finally, there are apps with the specific purpose of finding new friends, like Bumble BFF. Try to see if you there’s one of your liking in this list.

2. finding a professional that suits your needs

We usually recommend what it’s colloquially called “psychiatrist/therapist shopping”, the act of choosing a professional after inquiring what we need to know of their line of work, based on our own wishes, and asking this to more than one.

It’s difficult when insurance covers just a little portion of professionals, but not impossible.

Can’t afford therapy? No insurance? Need low cost options? Here is a great list of ways to get help when money or insurance is an issue.

Therapy For Every Budget: How To Access It

9 Ways to Get Free or Cheap Therapy When You Don’t Have Health Insurance

Dial 211 for Essential Community Services: if you call 211, you can ask about free therapy options in your area, or how to work with you insurance to afford other professionals.

If none of these options work out, and you have to stick with the professional your insurance provides, there are measures you can take that might help making the sessions successful. Check out 21 Tips for getting the most out of each therapy session and How to Talk to Your Doctors When They Don’t Listen.

If your new psychiatrist tries to dismiss you without hearing everything that you have to say, insist that they write on your record exactly what they did and why, and that you absolutely want a copy of it before you exit their room. It’s your right to have both your requests accomplished. I know it’s not easy to have them respected: you’ll probably have to stand your ground and that can be difficult, but I think it’s important for you and fundamental for what you can get out of this session. This is a post with links to various module you can complete to help you assert yourself, which I suggest you to start before going to your appointment, if you can. It can be useful to face your family, too.

Does your insurance cover a different specialist for the gynecological problem your doctor wanted you to check out? Is there any free or low-cost clinic near you, like Planned Parenthood or Free Clinic? You can inquire about their services through email.

3. looking for courses you can join

Online courses can be helpful for a number of things, like keeping busy, learning new stuff, feeling accomplished, and possibly getting some qualifications.

There are some free options that end with a proper certificate, but not all are accredited, meaning that they’re not automatically accepted by employers (they can choose to consider them valid or not). Still, there are no downsides in joining such a course, seeing that it doesn’t cost anything but your time.

Not accredited certificates/no certificates:

Alison’s Diploma Courses and Certificate Courses

FutureLearn doesn’t grant you certificates with their free courses, but it still provides learning access

edX’s Courses

Udemi, not free but it offers up to 90% discounts generally once a month

Learn how to code, a masterpost that lists different courses to learn coding

Free Online Language Courses, a masterpost that lists different courses to learn languages

24 Invaluable Skills To Learn For Free

Accredited certificates

coursera offers some free courses, and/or the possibility to apply for financial aid

Online Degree require no tuition, no applications, and no interviews, and has worked so participating Universities around the country will consider the courses for credit, potentially finishing up to an entire freshman year of college

edX’s Professional Certificate Programs are not free, but edX offers up to a 90% discount to those who prove they cannot pay a full price.

University Of The People is tuition-free, which means there is no charge for teaching or instruction, only initial fees (around 160$) for each course. You can also apply for scholarships.

on StudyPortal - Scholarships, you can find a huge number of scholarships available in your country, and here you can find the easiest scholarships to apply to. There are also scholarships for online courses.

There’s also the possibility of completing high school through virtual courses, and if they’re organized by your State’s public school system, they should be free. You can find more info on this here.

4. thinking about possible job options

Working towards finding a job is important for our own self-worth and feeling like a valuable member of society, and of course it can also help with looking for better therapy.

It can be tricky when mental and physical illnesses are at play, though. That’s why I’d like to give you some online options here, too, that don’t ask for any particular prerequisite, and would give you enough free time to focus to get better. Jobs like data entry or app testing are doable from home, and may not pay much, but they’d allow you to start building some savings.

5 Online Jobs That Require Little or No Experience

No Experience? Start One of These Online Jobs

Best Data Entry Jobs From Home

10 (Legit) Data Entry Jobs from Home

Work At Home Data Entry on Indeed.com

FlexJobs

Glassdoor

Whatever you choose, creating a strong resume is always a good step. I’m giving you some resources on how to do that:

How to Create a Professional Resume

How To Make A Resume 101

Help Everyone Find A Job In Their Field

And between checking out all these options we gave you, please try to do some of this Workout For Daily Life, because focusing on a screen for too long can cause so many aches!

You’re not a loser, you’re strong and you keep fighting for yourself, which is admirable. I hope these resources can be of help, and please do send another ask if you need anything else.

Take care,

mod Bee

#ask MIM #seeking help #online jobs #online courses #agoraphobia #self harm #mod Bee #Anonymous

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findingmypeace · 5 years

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How was the appt with your psychiatrist? Thinking of you xo

Note: I have several asks to answer. I’m going to slowly start making my way through them. I’m sorry I’ve been so distant lately.

My appointment was quite emotional. I don’t think I said it here but I had sent her a few texts this past weekend about feeling suicidal so she knew what kind of state I was in. We talked a lot about my work situation. I also don’t think I’ve mentioned this but my psychiatrist used to work for the company I now work for. She worked here for 9 years before branching out into her own private practice so she’s very familiar with the company.

Anyway, she asked me quite a few questions about my interview process with them and also my training experience prior to that. We concluded that I was pretty much set up to fail and it’s no wonder I’m having such a hard time.

For those of you who don’t or remember I worked in a substance abuse treatment center prior to this job. It was hell. I was bullied by my superiors, I witnessed a ton of unethical behavior, and I got very little counseling experience in the 4 years I worked there. I was mostly a babysitter for teenage substance abusers. I hated that job and I knew I wasn’t getting good experience but I was so depressed I didn’t have the energy to find another job. That was my only ‘counseling’ experience prior to getting licensed and then getting this job. I basically went into my current job blind having very little idea how to run a counseling session. But I’ve tried very hard to catch up. It just didn’t help that I’ve had a supervisor who was judgmental, harsh, and cold. I don’t trust her.

All that said, it was comforting to hear my psychiatrist say these things to me. That it wasn’t/isn’t my ‘fault’ that I’m struggling so much. At one point she said, “I know you don’t feel this way but you can come off as tough as nails” referring to how I handled attending supervision right after ECT last Friday.

She recommended someone she knows as a replacement supervisor for me and talked me about how the CEO tends to be blunt and not to let it get to me.

I felt better after seeing her although unfortunately it didn’t really help the SI. I mean, I still have to go to work. I still feel like a failure after every session. I still feel trapped in a job I hate. Although I do now have hope that if I can get a new supervisor things will be a little better. It was hard to get up and go to work this morning. I spent part of the morning hiding in my room crying. And then I came into work, pasted on a smile, and called in my first client. At this point, I’m just taking things moment by moment, session by session. I’m just trying to get through the day. I may feel like I’m too mentally ill to do my job but everyday I get through is another day that things might get better.

#personal #work #tw: suicidal thoughts

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maximuswolf · 3 years

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Restarting Adderall issues via /r/ADHD

Restarting Adderall issues

Hi all! First post here. I am 19F and ADHD, more inattentive than hyper. I have been diagnosed about 18 months now, I took 10mg XR Adderall consistently for the first 6 months with good results. During the pandemic, I wasn't able to keep my prescription and made my bottle of 10 last all year, much to the dismay of my grades.

I'm finally able to restart taking it consistently, today was my first day. I took it about 9 hours ago, and I'm MESSED UP.

I've not sure whether I'm high or just reacting badly, but I'm super floaty and spacy, worse than usual concentration, my whole body feels numb, but I'm jittery and nervous. I've had diarrhea all day, can't eat, and just typing about eating is making me actually gag. I've got tons of homework to do, but I can barely type properly - my spelling and handwriting are unreadable and my fine motor skills aren't responding well. I've also been super dizzy and been having heart rate issues.

Is it the adderall? I can't believe I'm having such bad issues when I never had any before. How long will this last? It's been 9 hours, but there's no way I can eat or sleep right now. I'm certainly not getting my homework done. I have a little (legal) mmj, should I go try and that to help the side effects for tonight? It always calms my mind and helps me sleep, but I know it only strengthens some drugs.

Should I take the Adderall again tomorrow morning? I'm going to call and make an appt with my psychiatrist anyways just to be safe, but I won't be able to call them until tomorrow.

EDIT because I already forgot things: I do have significant health issues which complicates things. Between mental and physical conditions, I normally deal with nausea/vomiting, dizziness/fainting, heart issues, diarrhea, insomnia, etc. So all these things happening right now could in theory be well explained by other conditions, just the timing is a little weird and I do feel "high."

TIA!

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br0kenbutterfly · 7 years

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15/5/2017

So its 2am, its fucking freezing cold, but I have to write this because if I dont, itll be just like all the other stuff I look back on and wish I had some recollection of how I felt. Like all my childhood diaries that I started. Or the abandoned derby tumblr thats still lurking somewhere. Anyway.

I had my initial appointment with a surgeon today about weight loss surgery. I’ve been thinking about surgery since about 2013, and seriously for the last 9 months or so. I’ve talked to several people who have had various surgeries (including mum, my friend and a friend of my aunts), and done my research. Ive discussed this with my (awesome amazing wonderful) GP, and our work counsellor Ann-Marie, who are both incredibly supportive. I’m paying for this surgery privately, which cuts hugely into the savings Ive accumulated since I was 15 for a house, but I can wait for a house. Every year I don't do this is a year Im kinda wasting my youth on being huge and not happy and making excuses for not doing things Id like to do. Not that Im unhappy all the time, but my weight is a safety blanket, kinda like my depression was my safety blanket for not leaving oamaru. I just dont wanna wait until Im accepted into public surgery (which Ive been on the list for since 2013) because at that point Ill probably be in my 50s and have so many health issues. Like for goodness sake, im 26 and I have pre-diabetes, polycystic ovaries that mean im probs infertile, a perpetually sore back that means i cant walk for more than a block without having to stop, my knees and ankles give out randomly. Anyway. Im rambling.

My appointment was with Dr Flint, who I chose because thats who my friend had surgery with (and because the other guy was the one who did my consult for public surgery and he was a right royal douche). He was lovely, and explained both procedures (roux-en-y and gastric sleeve) really well. Im going to have a gastric sleeve, because the ongoing risk of complications like IBS and hernias are smaller (and because you dont have to be on vitamins for life and my god i hate taking meds). He weighed me - ive put on like 5kg since i last weighed myself (fuck) but to be fair i did have my docs on. So my offical starting weight is 157.8kg, which is a terrifying number and also this is probably the first time ive admitted my weight to anyone who isnt a medical professional in a long long time holy shit. Apparently if everything goes well i should be around 95kg afterwards (like 2 years away).

After I went through everything with the surgeon, I saw his nurse? receptionist? general fucking awesome person Denise. Shes so lovely. She talked me through the appointments I need to have next (which tbh is part of the reason I want to to it privately, because i know its not just about the surgery, its about learning to live as a smaller person, and i fucking dont know how to eat properly, and id really like to do some exercises that dont hurt my damn back all the time). So I have to see the dietician, and an exercise consultant, and a psychiatrist, and then back to the surgeon for pre-op appt. My surgery is scheduled for the 11th July, which means Ill be on preop diet from like, the 13th June I think? I might buy some optifast and try it for some breakfasts first. Im so not looking forward to that bit.

Then because I was like, nervous as fuck after my appointment, I went and cuddled ellas tiny humans and then talked to laura and watched sense8.

My biggest fears at the moment are:

-me fucking this up. like what if i cat do it, if my willpower is awful, and i screw it up and throw $20k down the drain. How shit will I feel about myself if the surgery doesnt work, because theres not really any more drastic options. what if i put all the weight back on like my uncle, or drink frozen coke and dont eat protein like my mum

-mum. i havent told her yet....im telling her tomorrow. im worried shes gunna be weird about it. not in a “you shouldnt have the surgery” kinda of way, im worried she will want to know how much i weigh, and give me well meaning comments about how i shouldnt be eating this or that, or go the other way and want to have a massive blowout before i start optifast.

-who do i tell? apart from the internel lol (im guessing only like 3 people i know in real life will read this). do i tell my dad? i should but again, im so worried about what he’ll think, how he’ll judge me.

-i think in general im so used to the comments about my weight that im really caught up with it as part of my identity? Like I hate all the health and fitness ads because it just reminds me of me not being fit and healthy, but i wonder if some part of me likes being fat to be a rebel, because some weird part of me feels like im failing by conforming to societys (and my dads) wishes about how i look and act. idk.

- hahahahahh optifast. ive heard it tastes awful and i have 6 weeks of it, then purees (goodie), then soft food. also imma have to eat veggies. fuck.

I’m excited about:

-being able to maybe actually skate well?! being able to do general things like run after izzy or go for a bike ride with people without being like yeah nah i cant do that because it hurts. itd be nice to walk up the stairs without looking like ive run a half marathon. id be nice to walk to work without my back cramping up so bad i have to stop and stretch it several times.

-im kinda looking forward to meeting with the exercise person. I see a lot of people in the #GRRLarmy and stuff and I want to be strong, but I am terrified of the gym and im really hoping shell be able to help and be a good motivation

-the dietician will be good to because lord knows im terrible at cooking for myself no matter how many well meaning people try and teach me. i just wish i didnt have to eat.

-possibly having lower food bills - currently i spend like a quarter of my income on food which is ridiculous and i dont know how to stop.

Right so that was a novel. Now its 3am and i have to go talk to my boss and ask her for time off for 5 preop appointments in the next 6 weeks, as well as hi im going to need 2 weeks off work lololol. Oh, and tell my mum im having major surgery in 6 weeks and i didnt tell her i had an appointment to talk about it. whoops. wish me luck x

#whats my personal tag again #no seriously this shit gets weird its just a mind dump #cw food #surgery and shit

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super123hazelnut · 7 years

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Year 2011

1/7 email from STI, NYE cruisers

1/7 email to my condo president at assn stating the cleaning lady was outside my door too long. She was filling the trash can w/bags outside my door. I did not want anyone hanging outside my door for any extended period of time.

1/7 had to cancel membership to la sports club dc due to being stalked

1/7 cancel dc reception

1/10 deactived facebook acct kjkjewelry

1/17 asked singles travel to remove me from email community and guests going on cruise w/me told community director that I have no interest in sailing with them in the future.

1/20 apt w/my mother’s psychiatrist with my mother & her doctor.

1/26 blank inquiry on my jewelry website

1/26 mother insisted I go to see a psychiatrist due to my breakup with my hubby. I told her the problem was not him but between her & myself. I set up an appt mother/daughter with someone I never met and turns out I ended up going on my own...had a few sessions in chevy chase but was being stalked by family & old friends through doctor In chevy chase...ended relationship with her....ended up traveling all the way down to Washington hospital center, dc and visited dr souza for almost a year...I liked her...of course I was still being stalked through her as well but it was nice to take a drive to dc and brought back memories of glen & I visiting the VA hospital nearby...

2/8 email from credit score adviser-spam

2/10 email from WJA self-defense class sent email to remove from list

2/10 don’t need membership so remove me from list

2/12 email spam from almighty bible for kids/warrenty ext spam email

2/13 spam printer ink for sale email

2/16 email to Alvin (mother & brother’s bookkeeper) mother promised to reimburse me for medical $1,000 each month

after all, I did not feel I need therapy...she insisted I go...screw her..let her pay for it.

2/16 the Lovett;s sold their home 4 echo ct Rockville md $735,000

2/18 angry email to liz stating that I know her, tracy, laurel, donna were the cause of most of my problems currently

2/18 email inquiry left blank to kjkjewelry

2/20 email inquiry left blank to kjkjewelry

2/21 email to older brother telling him that I am in some kind of bizzare fight with these women...didn’t start it..it’s been 3 years now & they have invaded my life...true as of 8/26/2017...goes on and on and on..pleading with my brother to help me....also sent much of my paper evidence thus far over to my younger brother’.s home...hundreds of pieces of paper I emailed to him of this abuse from their hatchet people.

2/23 $1,500 bill from my attorney in old town for cease and desist letters to tracy laurel & donna..left liz out so I could communicate through her.

3/23 email from la sports club

3/25

email inquiry jewelry website asking for a custom made item...another inquiry asking for hours of my business

2/28 email la sports club

3/2 closed Wachovia cct due to harassment from tellers at drive up window...wrote manager a letter about stalking me in the vault too...

3/4 letter written from me to bank manager closed safety deposit box

3/6 Newport news spam email

3/7 email exchange w/my attorney

3/8 sent out cease & desist letters

3/9 smokeless cigarettes-spam email

3/10 email exchange w/my attorney

3/11 email both brother’s..trying to get off facebook & if someone needs to contact me, email or call my cell phone..now I am afraid to be alone

3/18 long email inquiry jewelry trying to solicit my business for their website

3/19 email to my jewelry website blank inquiry

3/20 blank inquiry

3/21 norm contacted me to sell my home..

3/25 email from ellen reiken spam la sports club

3/27 email I senbt to liz asking her if she called my brother craig because I was upset by the harassment & stalking from her female friends

4/9 spam email from linda g-where have you been

4/11 printed out tracys google page

4/12 spam email from smokeless cigarette

4/26 stories on yahoo related to me..my life story made up by these women

4/29 spam email fam business cards

4/20 spam email from credit card advisor

5/1 spam email car warranty

5/4 email from tracy to me..not inbtending for me to see..stating that my email was intended for her and that she knew there would be some type of contact from me on my bday. liz is now my conduit and that perhaps this is why liz did not recive a letter to cease & desist from karen

5/24 emailed mark Lovett to ask if he would take back the large painting I bought on impulse...I want my money back & peace in my life

6/8 NCO-1-240-210-7094 said they were a collection co capital one and that glen owed 1,000. I told them he did not. they would not give me an acct # or address. they asked for glen’s social security number. I was transferred to fraud dept and the woman on the phone wanted to tranbsfer me back to collections. I told her that it was disgusting to target a mentally disabled person and the call was a scam

6/11 blank email inquiry spam from costa travel website

6/15 received tampered mail from post office return address me to my estranbged husband at our address in va...not my handwriting..tracy is sending more people on facebook to befriend me

6/18 removed myself from wild bird center email list...a place I purchased an item..starting to be harassed by email campaign

6/20 email from southgirl spam email

6/23 letter to tracys mother asking her to talk to her daughter to leave me alone

6/25 spam email, Bethany, liberty/awhich-game dog ret

6/26 la fitness email...membership privilages revoked..woman was stalking me at the club..confronted her 2wice about it. they released my membership because she was a cop.

7/8 letter to my older brother & his wife, younger brother & his wife, my mother’s psychiatrist stating problems family me scapegoat..trying to snuff me out MONEY...LIMITING CONTACT W/DAD long letter attached...sent copies to family members

7/14 internet hacking

7/23 letter to liz...leave me alone blog on internet sounds like it was written by tracy or laurel

7/29 email to younger brother...sent stacks of paper to him of the abuse I have been receiving

7/29 email to my younger brother explaining my personal situation..end of letter states clearly that I NEED SOME EMPATHY HERE..do not want to be a financial prisoner of he or my older brother

8/15 receipt for payment Smithsonian craft show app for my jewelry

8/16 receipt craft America palm beach

10/3 women are sending other women to harass me on facebook

10/4 ebay potential customer harassing me on my site

10/4 still looking for properties out of town

10/8 harassed by potential buyers on ebay

10/8/9 a new device logged into facebook acct from capital heights md

10/10 a new devise logged onto facebook from alex va

10/20 decided to try to sell my condo

10/21 email to my younger brother-returned email and he was clearly trying to gaslight me and I was angry..asked to politely be left alone to go to the dentist...never have gone to the dentist..stop spreading personal info on my estranged husband..his response was the women are not stalking you..your mind is playing games with you

10/24 email w/liz angry. she is gaslighting me in this exchange

10/24 spam email from ask mom

10/24 spam email from life riley confirm subscription aphrodisiac of the month

10/24 someone signed me up email list for sex party newsletter and other websites, her room, Redmond media group, assn program, dyslexia, wellness

10/24 liz wants to add me contact linkedin

10/25 craig emails me an update on dad’s health

11/16 letter from real estate business professional in florida, reported agent for harassment

12/4 email real estate agent rehobeth beach

12/5 email from ft Lauderdale real estate agent

12/9 shutterstock email website

12/13 spam email xmas special

12/16 email to fred mullins real estate agent remove me from list

12/16 email to younger brother...disconnecting phone number 703-549-23// don’t need 2 phones don’t give my number out

12/19 email from wells fargo survey

12/27 email from palm beach garden new homes Paloma

12/28 email from cooking class remove me my name from your list

WELL THAT’S PRETTY MUCH IT FOR 2011...I GUESS THE KRUPIN NAME IS DAMAGED NOW...ALONG WITH THE DANES THE LOVETT’S THE ZEIGFINGERS, THE KAYS....ETC..ETC..OH AND LET’S ADD THE KOTZ’S, THE COHENS, THE BRANDT’S...I’LL THINK OF MORE...STILL HAVE MORE TO SHARE...

#anxiety from stalkers #creativity active #art saved my life #while dealing with a bunch of greedy disgusting people

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