in one of those phases where i listen to all my demos and go "why did i think these were bad this is a straight up banger" but unfortunately will not be able to act on this creative impulse as i'm fully booked tomorrow trying to read rob roy in one sitting.
1930s Sparton "Bluebird" radio model 566, designed by Walter Dorwin Teague in 1934, as it appears in the background of How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days (2003)
🤍🤍mahmood a miami la bella vita proprio 😎🤙 ma tra lui e il suo coreografo c'è del tenero per caso?
Parli di lui? Se sì, lui è Walter ed è il fotografo, non il coreografo (although, adesso che mi ci fai pensare, somiglia un po' a Carlos, coreografo ricorrente dei suoi video ahah).
No, non c'è del tenero, semplicemente se lo porta sempre dietro proprio perchè è il fotografo ufficiale e ormai si fa così 😅 (un po' come Blanco che si portò Roberto persino in vacanza).
i don't know how to put this in words, but walt is obsessed with the illusion of choice. he does something he wants to or doesn't do it he doesn't want to while hiding behind arbitrary obligations and excuses. the first time i noticed it was when he had to kill krazy-8. he's written down a lot of reasons not to do it while knowing deep inside that he had to do it & that he was beyond the point of obeying moral obligations. he actually had no choice but to kill him and he knew it. he was enraged when he found the final and foremost excuse to kill him when he realized that krazy-8 was going to kill him first, repeatedly saying "why did you do this?" while being satisfied deep inside because he finally gave him the reason. it was self-defense, right? it wasn't wrong to kill him if he plans to do it first, right? so he breaks down the arbitrary reason; all the morality stuff he never gave a shit about in the first place and did what he actually wanted to do.
in season 2, after he learns that his cancer is regressing, he gets into a bitter and violent mood because his biggest arbitrary reason was broken: that he was producing and selling meth & putting himself in dangerous situations all because of his illness & for his family. The truth was that he was doing it because he liked doing it. He liked having control, he liked being a terrifying and mysterious figure. It wasn't for his family, it was not because of his cancer. And once his cancer was gone, he would have to face the actual truth: That he did it all for himself and will continue to do it for himself only. His most repressed fear is to face himself; that he actually wanted to kill krazy-8, that he wanted to threaten Tuco, that he wanted to get into that van, drive to the middle of the desert to produce his perfect poison, and make insane amounts of money with it. That he is actually vile, egoistical, violent, and maybe, truly and fundamentally "evil". Since he is not ready to face himself (yet), he keeps building mountains of excuses to justify himself.
Maybe he could not stomach who he actually is. It is never easy for anyone in this world. But if he had a reason to hide behind, and if he deluded himself enough to believe in it, he could still stay as the brilliant chemistry teacher with a loving family who was just struck by a tragedy. He could justify himself in his own eyes again and again, and keep living in his illusion as the perfect victim of fate who does everything out of self defense; and when he is in a situation where he can't prolong his self-crafted image, he becomes violent like a caged predatory animal. One thing narcissists can't stand is not being the one in control, after all.
so very interesting thinking about the similarities between john kramer and walter white for many reasons, but one thing that is on my mind constantly is that leigh whannell wrote a scene for saw ii that included john kramer shaving his head after receiving his cancer diagnosis, n the scene was meant to symbolize the moment john truly became jigsaw. and then in breaking bad (s1e6) there is a scene in which walter white shaves his head after receiving his cancer diagnosis and undergoing chemotherapy, symbolizing the beginning of him truly becoming heisenberg.
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On Dec. 1, a woman immolated herself with a Palestinian flag outside the Israeli consulate in Atlanta.
Now, according to the Atlanta Fire Rescue Department, the woman — referred to in their report as “Jane Doe” — is alive and “in stable condition” at Grady Memorial Hospital, where she has been since the immolation.
After repeated requests for her name, the department stated to this reporter in an email that it “does not disclose the identities of victims”. Repeated inquiries to Grady, which is a public hospital, went unanswered. The hospital houses the Walter L. Ingram Burn Center.
“Jane Doe” is 27.
When asked if they had made any comment to tell the public that she was still alive this entire time, the official at Atlanta Fire Rescue Department said they “shared the last updated with local media via email on 12/21/23. The release stated: ‘The victim remains hospitalized in critical condition. The security guard, who attempted to assist the burn victim, has been released from the hospital.’” Several internet searches on that quote produce no results. This would also indicate that "Jane Doe" went from critical to stable condition without public notice.
Aaron Bushnell immolated himself at the Israeli embassy in Washington, D.C. on Sunday, explaining “I will no longer be complicit in genocide” and shouting “Free Palestine!” repeatedly as he burned alive. So, his case — unlike many other self-immolations including Gregory Levey, Raymond Moules, Timothy T. Brown, Malachi Ritscher and others — has received some attention. Thus, “Jane Doe” being ignored fits with the usual pattern. Bushnell is the exception — probably because he livestreamed it. See “Ignoring Immolators Lulls the Society to Sleep.”
As Bushnell was burning himself alive, an officer pointed a gun at him, barking orders as if he constituted a threat. A security guard, Michael Harris, sustained injuries working to rescue “Jane Doe” — but there were similarities, where she was actually viewed as a potential threat.
At one point, the police report for “Jane Doe” refers to it as being a case of “arson”.
Much of the media coverage and general discussion of her self-immolation in December focused on if she had done damage. The Atlanta Police Chief said: “We believe this building remains safe, and we do not see any threat here.” The Israeli government released a statement: “It is tragic to see the hate and incitement toward Israel expressed in such a horrific way.”
Police records indicate that they obtained a search warrant and entered an apartment they believed to be associated with “Jane Doe” — initially using a drone:
The drone was able to relay information as to the layout and the belongings inside. After it was deemed "safe" entry was made with bomb technicians. While clearing the apartment no improvised explosive devices were located.
The police report also noted:
During the search a Quran was found in the bedroom along with a [sic] Arabic dictionary and a Hebrew dictionary. The bedroom bookshelf contained books related to fiction and fantasy. A "Drug use for grown ups" book was on the bookshelf as well.
Two journals were seized from the bedroom. A thumbdrive was seized from the bedroom as well. A laptop computer was seized from the kitchen counter. A copy of the search warrant was left in the living room of the apartment. The front door [of] the apartment was secured before law enforcement left the premises.
When pressed for more information in compliance with an Open Records Request under Georgia law, Atlanta Fire Rescue Department claimed: “There is an ongoing and active investigation for the incident in question, which is why the only releasable information has been shared via the incident report. Investigative documentation is not available for release until the investigation is closed.”