#WHILE KNOWING THAT PHOEBE IS PRIEST

[no-1-rosalind-lang-apologist]

#something about the second scene feels especially vile to me #because Orion left and he moved out and Oliver is just showing up without warning AGAIN #like Jesus Christ give orion a break #leave him alooooone #I realize that him and Celia went to deliver a warning #but Oliver basically refused to give helpful information anyway #plus the way he is in that scene has such absolutely rancid vibes #ugghh #chloe gong #secret shanghai #foul lady fortune #foul heart huntsman #flf #fhh #orion hong #oliver hong #iT wAs NeVeR mY iNtEnTiOn To Be RuDe #actually die #that and the way he blames him having to leave on Orion having the audacity to be mad at him TO PHOEBE #WHILE KNOWING THAT PHOEBE IS PRIEST #AND ITS NOT ORIONS FAULT #AND THAT VERY CLEARLY HURT PHOEBE A LOT #HE HAS NO FUCKING REASON TO BE DOING THAT TO PHOEBE #also. I don’t know how to put this exactly. but his conflicts with Orion never feel equal #like it does not feel like two people are pissed at each other on equal footing

[brandogenius]

maybe julien and reader's wedding hcs/oneshot?? idk i feel like jb would plan the most beautiul wedding and cry when you walk down the aisle :(

‼️RPF‼️

HC - julien x reader - wedding (short)

- julien would know what to do absolutely

- she knows what flowers you love and what ones you don’t. she was the one who proposed and was like “trust me on this i’ll make it the most beautiful wedding ever”

- “don’t even worry about the price. go dress shopping with phoebe, she’ll help you absolutely”

- while you go dress shopping with phoebe, lucy comes with julien to check out decor and venues

- “what if they don’t like it?” “they will jb. don’t stress”

- oh she will absolutely stress alright. stressed about wanting to make it the perfect day for you

- coming back with phoebe and she’s minding the dress since you and jb live together

- laying awake at night in each others arms talking about your futures

- “after this. we can maybe adopt a dog or two. that’ll be our family”

- day of the wedding she is STRESSED X2938393

- it’s her wedding day yet she’s walking around like “nu uh move these flowers a little bit they have to be perfect!!!”

- waiting at the top of the isle for you to come down and she’s worried you may have cold feet or something even though she knows deep down you wouldn’t

- just worried anything could go wrong

- seeing you walk down the isle she just stares in shock for a moment eyes wide and mouth open and starts to cry

- you crying seeing jb crying which causes everyone else to cry too

- jb slipping the ring on your finger and kissing you instantly not even caring what the priest had to say she wanted to kiss you now

#pom writes #julien baker x reader #julien baker one shot #julien baker fanfic #julien baker au #julien baker fluff #boygenius fanfic #boygenius au #boygenius one shot #boygenius x reader

[penny-anna]

thinking more about this issue, there's a line in Fleabag where the Hot Priest is talking about heaven and says 'isn't it better to believe in something wonderful rather than something awful', which receives no pushback.

& while i doubt Phoebe Waller-Bridge is religious given that the main character of Fleabag is an atheist (does anyone know?) it still frustrated me bcos uh. no, that's not how it works, actually! not everyone secretly deep down wants to believe in heaven, or in a creator or an all-loving god. those are not concepts everyone finds comforting.

personally my no 1 reason for being an atheist is your basic 'extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence' but I'm not like. cut up about it. the traditional Christian concept of god does not appeal to me on any level.* a godless universe is more comforting and philosophically satisfying to me than the alternative. sorry!!

*(there are other conceptions of god that are more appealing to me + many I just don't know enough about to judge)

[artemiesya]

FHH spoiler

It hurts to think how similar Rosalind and Orion are to each other… especially on the part that they were often left out by their own family… Rosalind was being kept in dark by Celia about Juliette’s being safe from the explosion in 1928 while Orion doesnt know anything about Phoebe being the Priest in Communist and being handled by Oliver… Like i get it that both sides tried have their own valid readon to do so but it just hurt me how Orion and Rosalind need to find each other and only then they found someone who truly understand themselves…

Sometimes i wonder how Rosalind and Orion could have better chemistry when they only literally know each other for weeks only before Orion had his memory lost and they were separated for months, compared to the couples such as Phoebe Silas had known each other for more than a decade, Celia and Oliver been partners for 5 years, Roma and Juliette been a couple and soulmate before the disaster took place and Marshall Benedikt also known each other for so long… its really wonderful how Orion and Rosalind can accept each other despite having little time to really know each other AND EVEN SO, there still a lot of layers, secrets that they kept from each other…

And the fact that Orion recognised her when he was in total control by Lady Hong tells us how much he loves her deep down in his heart… plus, his body do recognise her, its like in his instinct to grab Rosalind all the time JUST DESCRIBE HOW HE TRULY LOVES HER and im gonna stop my list here because otherwise it wont stop 🙇🏼‍♀️

but well, i guess Rosarion is just really written in stars, that they were really fated for each other and im truly love the idea so much and wont ever complained about it 🫶🏻

#foul heart huntsman #foul lady fortune #chloe gong #secret shanghai #rosalind x orion #orion hong #rosalind lang #Nothing just me loving Rosalind and Orion being written in the stars #i love them so much #i need more content of them although we already have it so much already #they are going to be my standard #chloe gong just set my standard so high #how am i supposed to live in this reality with this kind of standard

[typingwithmyhandstied]

Book recs? (I’m deleting most of my tbr and starting over. Idk what I will actually end up getting to but I trust your taste in books.)

I am very honored that you trust my taste. I'd have to know specific genres you are looking for to make the best recommendations, but here are my basic ones (including a lot of my favorite books):

A Darker Shade of Magic by V.E. Schwab (This is probably actually my favorite book ever. The characters are amazing, the dynamics, everything) (trilogy with a sequel series starting)

If You Could See The Sun by Ann Liang (speculative fiction, girl turns invisible) (standalone)

Realm Breaker by Victoria Aveyard (fantasy book, somehow has strong world building, characters, relationships, AND plot while most only have one or two) (finished trilogy)

Renegades by Marissa Meyer (it is not the best of her books, but I think you might appreciate the fact that the messy situation is almost exactly like the Phoebe Silas Priest situation but messier? I don't remember it that well) (finished trilogy)

Daisy Jones & The Six by Taylor Jenkins Reid (this book has some of the most vivid characters in any book I've read. They feel real. It's also very open to interpretation and analysis which I think you'd like.) (standalone)

The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald (this is my favorite classic. everyone sucks it's great. I mostly love the writing)

The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue by V.E. Schwab (standalone, it's a little hard to get through at first but it's a lot to think about)

Made of Stars (Bonnie and Clyde retelling, sci-fi)

I could probably think of more, but I'll leave it at this.

#thank you for the ask <3

[makeitp1nk]

2022 in Fic

I am feeling rather bashful about posting this, but fuck it. I was tagged, and I shall answer. When I look back at 2022 in fic, all I can think of is you, friends.

Perdition - LCD is the fest that got me into fandom. @celilasart, thank you for being so welcoming and patient. I would have been alone on an island without you.

Rebel, Rebel - @ladderofyears, Jasper, and @daisiesfordragons cheered me on, beta read, alpha read, and brit-picked. I felt so loved and cared for--that was my intro to fandom, and I immediately knew I was in the right place. @anaxandria-writes bound it beautifully, and I'm still in awe that I have two of my fics literally sitting on my bedside table.

Grey Eyes and Lies - I got paired with the one and only @veelawings for RBB and got to go crazy/get to know better someone I really admire. Then I struggled since it was my first dark!fic and @m0se helped me to the finish line. I also met @shealynn88 while writing this one, so it's extra special.

Pictor - My dreams came true and I got to work with @crazybutgood, AND I got to keep the physical artwork!!! It didn't get as many kudos and what not as my heart thought it deserved, but @corvuscrowned helped me get past it. I am so grateful for both of you.

The Island Assignment - @lqtraintracks showed me that my writing has the potential to go beyond stereotypes with a simple change of phrase or scene. I'm still mind-blown every time you touch anything I write.

Erised (revealed NEXT WEEK, links to collection) - I was so scared because I tried something new, but @tackytigerfic helped me feel better about it. @skeptiquex beta-ed, and now I scrutinize every sentence I write [in a good way].

Kinkuary 2022 - This collection has @thebooktopus's fingerprints all over it. My first fandom friend! I was so nervous about writing smut, but then I got to beta her incredible Tonks/Charlie fic. It was so empowering and inspired me to write this collection.

Penitent - Where the priest kink so many of you know me for started. I love y'all for tagging me on all the priest kink stuff to this day <3

Green, Blue & Royally Screwed - My first fic to get a bad review in the bookmarks. It stung! @basicallyahedgehog @phoebe-delia were there to soothe my ego and throw things/elbows with me. I adore you two. This I think was the first time I wrote as it was beta-ed, and honestly, it would not be what it became without @curlyy-hair-dont-care, goddess of fandom. Really, truly.

A Dream & An Allen Wrench - A shorty, but this was the first time I poured my heart on paper. I've done it twice now, and the second time was much more difficult. It was as easy as breathing the first time because it was for @geesenoises. I treasure you, friend.

Sex, Love and Skateboarding - Taught me that I need to read squick lists CAREFULLY lol & I wouldn't even be in this fandom without my BELOVED @greenmegsnoham. Cheers to prancing around fandoms together in the coming year <3

A Kingdom or This - I got to play in Wolfstar, write with a partner, AND meet @second-sister. I've been a horrendous partner, but getting back into this fic is the first thing I'll do after I get over this wretched cold!

I started writing without knowing that it would bring me to this community and more love and support than I ever expected. Thank you for making my year. & though it's not exactly fic, I also want to send so much love to @pineau-noir, @phd-mama, @digthewriter, and @sugareey-makes-stuff from the local crew - your friendship means so much to me.

On to 2023.

If you're feeling the love - consider yourself tagged <3

#p1nk 2022 #my year in fic #p1nk loves friends

[denimbex1986]

'Sorry Fleabag fans, the beloved Andrew Scott did not hold back in a new interview when discussing the show’s legacy, five years on.

First there was Miriam Margolyes telling Harry Potter fans to grow up, now the Ripley star has risked upsetting his dedicated fanbase as he told them to ‘go outside’.

Andrew, 47, had starred in season two of the Phoebe Waller-Bridge series as the Priest — affectionately known as the ‘Hot Priest’.

Effortlessly charming, he forms an attachment with Phoebe’s unnamed and chaotic protagonist but ultimately delivers the unforgettable rejection line: ‘It’ll pass’.

‘Go out and get some fresh air!’ Andrew declared to Entertainment Weekly with a laugh at the Los Angeles Ripley premiere.

Fleabag ran for two seasons, wrapping five years ago, but has spawned a devoted viewership who still bring up the Bafta and Golden Globe winning series at every chance.

Doubling down on the message he added: ‘Stop crying in your room with the curtains closed. Do something better with your life.

‘It’s a great show, we all love it, but come on now! Pull yourself together. Open the curtains and go outside.’

Fans were shocked by his response and took to X to express how the Sherlock star had hit a nerve with his antics, with some accepting the joke better than others.

‘Didn’t have to attack me like that but ok I guess,’ said Anna while Yeri added: ‘Now why does the hot priest have to attack me like this? as if “it’ll pass” wasn’t enough.’

Kris joked: ‘He really said touch grass it’s spring!’

Others were less impressed, calling the comments ‘disparaging’ especially in the context of a male actor aiming them at a show with a primarily female audience.

User Sunstone said: ‘I know it’s just jokes but it really gets annoying when men get a fanbase from a show/movie mainly aimed at women then proceed to disparage it or the fans. Robert Pattinson, Jacob Elordi, etc. Is it hard to just be like “glad it brought people enjoyment and still does”.’

However, most celebrated the bluntness of Andrew’s comments as fan laylabyclapton wrote: ‘Honestly more actors should be calling out weird unhealthy and obsessive fan behaviour because this is funny and also valid.’

‘Andrew text Paul Mescal and tell him to do the same so that we’re freed from the Normal People nostalgia merchants too,’ joked user Androgoop.

All of Us Strangers co-star and friend Paul, 27, rose to fame as Connell in the Sally Rooney adaptation — which has sparked a similar dedication from viewers.

In 2019, when Fleabag ended, Andrew paid tribute to Phoebe and Fleabag stating ‘she [is the] reason I’m standing here.’

He dedicated his Hugo Boss Standout Performance Award at GQ’s Men of the Year ceremony to the Crashing star.

‘When we first talked about doing Fleabag together we wanted to talk about the extraordinary way love manifests itself in the world,’ he continued. ‘I’m just so thrilled that the world has been able to see Phoebe’s qualities.

‘That’s what has touched the world, those qualities of generosity. She’s an incredibly generous person.’'

#Andrew Scott #Hot Priest #Fleabag #Twitter #Ripley #All of Us Strangers #Paul Mescal #Phoebe Waller-Bridge #Normal People #Sally Rooney

[spiritdreamt]

songs and quotes for the muse ♥ under the cut 'cause it's long tagged by: @shilohgreen tagging: @allevils, @publicabsent, @painmon, @slashaer, @dumbthink, @princetorn, and you!!

five SONGS for my muse:

—bag of bones by mitski. mercy on me, would you please spare me tonight? / i'm tired of this searching, would you let me let go? / and i can take a little bit more / let's shake this poet out of the beast.

—liability by lorde. the truth is, i am a toy that people enjoy / 'til all of the tricks don't work anymore / and then they are bored of me. / i know that it's exciting, running through the night, but / every perfect summer's eating me alive until you're gone.

—styrofoam plates by death cab for cutie. you're a disgrace to the concept of family / the priest won't divulge that fact in his homily / and i'll stand up and scream if the mourning remain quiet / you can deck out a lie in a suit, but i won't buy it / ... and just 'cause he's gone, it doesn't change the fact / he was a bastard in life, thus a bastard in death.

—fake out by fall out boy. do you laugh about me whenever i leave? / or do i just need more therapy? / love is in the air, i just gotta figure out a window to break out / buried alive inside my dreams, but it was all a fake-out.

—waiting room by phoebe bridgers. and when broken bodies are washed ashore / who am i to ask for more, more more? / but you're breathing in my open mouth / you're the gun in my lips that will blow my brains out / i want to make you drive all night just because i said maybe you should come over / i want to make you fall in love as hard as my poor parents' teenage daughter / she'll be the best you ever had, if you let her.

five QUOTES for my muse:

she does know the earth / is run by mothers, this much / is certain. she also knows / she is not what is called / a girl any longer. regarding / incarceration, she believes // she has been a prisoner since she has been a daughter. persephone the wanderer, by louise glück.

i'll hurt myself first. i know the places that are the most delicate. i'll do the hurting from now on, as long as all of this stops!!! the secret diary of laura palmer, by jennifer lynch.

i was a very lonely child and it's funny but the first word that comes to my head is "starved." i felt starved of affection, starved of love and i felt that it wasn't ok to ask for it. maybe there was a sense that if i deserved it, it would be there. there must be something i'd done which meant i didn't deserve it. to die for, by carol lee.

i had a room to myself as a kid, but my mother was always quick to point out that it wasn't my room, it was her room and i was merely permitted to occupy it. her point, of course, was that my parents had earned everything and i was merely borrowing the space, and while this is technically true i cannot help but marvel at the singular damage of this dark idea: that my existence as a child was a kind of debt and nothing, no matter how small, was mine. that no space was truly private; anything of mine could be forfeited at someone else's whim. in the dream house, by carmen maria machado.

i'm a strange new kind of inbetween thing aren't i / not at home with the dead nor with the living. antigonick, by anne carson.

#about. #introspection.

[ramshackledtrickster]

Explain? What's interesting about it? Im curious

Ok so this is super embarrassing but in high school I really fixated on thomas Hickey from ac3 and then I started researching more about him irl since. Y know, ac3 based his character off his irl counterpart

Foreword though there’s not much history on Hickey outside of this like I can’t even find a birthday for him but that’s besides the point

And it’s basically about Washington’s lifeguard and how Hickey was a part of that (basically a body guard there were some specific physical requirements you had to meet too like being a certain height etc) and he plotted to kill Washington (as we know)

And Hickey was apparently Washington’s favorite (he was a deserter from the British army and eventually hand picked by Washington)

And he got thrown in jail for counterfeiting and disappointed Washington that way but while he was in jail he started running his mouth n bragging about his plans to turn on Washington

So basically he was tried for treason and he was accepting a butt ton of money by enemies of the colonies (likely British loyalists) also he wasn’t the only one in on the plot bc the loyalist mayor of New York Dave Matthews was arrested too for being a part of this plot also John Jay was the leader of the group of ppl foiling this conspiracy and he’d later be one of the founding fathers

And at hickeys execution theres testimony of him denying a rite from a priest and blaming his ill behavior on “loose women” or smth like that and he was essentially the first person to be executed as a “this is what happens if you go against Washington” example by the continental army

And there’s a lot of fictionalized accounts of this that are basically kinda apocryphal (a story that isn’t authentic but circulated because it told a good message such as the story of Washington chopping down a cherry tree) like him being outed as a spy by Phoebe Frances

Interesting thing is there’s not much known about her either and if she was a real figure or not, but the popularized story goes that she found out Hickey’s plot to kill Washington via poisoning him with a dish of peas (peas were supposedly his favorite) she told on him, Washington threw the peas out of a window, and watched the chickens eat them and die. This account was third hand information and well refuted even back during his trial but it’s become more popular and even spawned a couple children’s books (Go Phoebe!)

There’s another book version of Thomas Hickey I forgot the name of but read some passages a while ago that basically made him a Jack the Ripper type figure and made him a lot more mean and cruel and lecherous, and I wonder if that served as any inspiration for the assassin’s creed version of him

And additionally, Hickey was already known by those around him to be a lecherous man who drank and slept around a lot so yeah this checks out

And I think it’s funny that Hickey in the game has a heavy cockney accent even though in real life he was Irish and the game bothered to go out of their way to get an Irish actor to play him (a very well known one at that! Allen Leech, who plays Tom Branson in downton abbey and the abusive ex in Bohemian Rhapsody I forgot his name sorry)

Honestly I don’t know why I fixate so so hard on this and most of this info is already stored in my head but agnwcegenf. I think it’s interesting to learn about the real history that inspired the game’s portrayal y know !! And see what they got right what they played with for artistic liberty, etc etc… and phoebe fraunces, who probably unfortunately wasn’t real, is a badass in the more story-book recollection of this plot.

[follower-of-romcommunism]

Shows with poignant endings that are actually satisfying

Since season 3 ended on such a pathetic note, here are shows I think that actually do what Ted Lasso was trying to do with its ending, but in a way that doesn’t rob its audience or gaslight them about what they showed us in literally everything else leading up to it 

1. The Newsroom - written by Aaron Sorkin, watch on HBOmax

2. Queen Charlotte: A Bridgerton Story - written by Shonda Rhimes, watch on Netflix

3. Derry Girls - written by Lisa McGee, watch on Netflix

4. Fleabag - written by Phoebe Waller-Bridge, watch on Prime Video

5. M*A*S*H - many writers, watch on Hulu

Notice I didn’t say happy endings, because none of these shows have an ending that’s neatly tied up and everyone’s hunk dory. You don’t need that to have your ending be satisfying and well-written. You can have a gut punch goodbye without destroying everything you built. Feel free to drop more recs in the comments.

spoilers under the cut for explanations

The Newsroom ends with the death of Charlie Skinner, Will McAvoy’s mentor and dear friend. The message of the final episode is about how life will go on without him, but the characters are consistent, and while some things are open-ended (like where Jim and Maggie stand with her moving to DC), we aren’t left feeling empty. They give the viewers some fucking credit here. 

Queen Charlotte may seem like a silly historical romance series on the surface, but it has more depth than its parent show, Bridgerton, especially with the end. It shows us that George will never be cured, not even with Charlotte’s love, and she is choosing him anyway. The whole show preaches that those with mental illness will always be that way, and they are still deserving of love and respect. We can meet them where they are. And life will not be easy at George’s side, but Charlotte wants to be there anyway. That is the real power of love. 

Derry Girls has what I’d consider the happiest ending out of all these, but the questions at the end leave the audience hopeful but with that seed of doubt. As each of these young women place their vote, and decide how they want to live their lives after the Troubles, it’s moving in a surprising way. It’s the end of their childhood, the end of an era, and yet with that comes this exciting new world. The final shot of Granda Joe and Erin’s little sister walking hand in hand perfectly shows the old life and the new coming together. 

Fleabag has probably the most devastating of all endings here, but it’s probably closest to what Ted Lasso wanted to accomplish by showing how one person can come into you life and change it forever, but that doesn’t mean they’re meant to stay. But what makes Fleabag’s ending effective is not only the dialogue, both characters actually voicing their feelings for each other and stating why they can’t be together, but Fleabag finally looks at the camera and shakes her head before walking away. She doesn’t need the audience anymore. And we aren’t left loving her or Hot Priest any less. 

M*A*S*H is along the same lines as Fleabag. All these doctors came together because of the war, and they were the epitome of found family while they were all so far away from home. At the end, as they all part ways, they let each other know through words and gestures what the experience meant to them. And there isn’t some weird sequence showing what everyone’s up to now, they let the audience fill in those gaps themselves, so we can’t be disappointed by things missing (Ted at Beard’s wedding *coughcough*). 

#ted lasso #the newsroom #queen charlotte #derry girls #fleabag #m*a*s*h #anyway im still seething

[no-1-rosalind-lang-apologist]

Underrated scenes from each ss book

These aren't all scenes and I think the flf section just turned into a highlight reel of things i love about flf but here.

TVD

The scene where Roma picks up tiny Alisa because she was climbing inside of his walls and she's like hey don't rip my shirt it's new :( when her shirt his very obviously extremely old.

Not a scene but just the fact that the White Flower's used to have a golden retriever named Tsarina.

Idk if it's underrated exactly but that scene where Rosalind waits for Juliette in her room for three hours to tell her about the monster attack hits me like a truck every time I remember it.

"What is a Montague? It sounds Italian."

The scene where Benedikt holds Tyler at gunpoint after he threatens Marshall because he knows Marshall wouldn't have had the impulse control to not shoot

Roma beating the shit out of Dimitri

Celia coming up with her fake backstory for a Communist meeting and saying, "My mother is dead. My father is dead to me."

Juliette calling Roma a "wet blanket"

Juliette taking responsibility for Celia when she accidentally knocked Amethyst out

OVE

Juliette Cai says healthcare for all

Alisa being mad at Roma because he hasn't taught her how to catch a knife

Marshall styling Juliette's hair

Juliette making fun of newsboy cap guy

The Marshall flashback to when he met Benedikt

Roma and Juliette getting tailed by the the French White Flower guy who ends up being one of the monsters and Roma saying idk maybe he thinks I'm hotter than you when Juliette asks him why the guy looks like he wants to kill Roma

Benedikt knocking Roma out before trying to kill Juliette because holy shit

When Alisa realizes that Roma agreed to a duel to get her back

When Rosalind had Roma at gunpoint

"I would rather the two of you not burn the world down each time you choose each other."

The paragraphs where Celia starts really being Celia are just so,,,

Somehow I forgot that Alisa was already officially a Communist spy in the OVE epilogue?

fhh spoilers

FLF

Celia forcing Rosalind out of bed to go to Lourens when she wanted to die

Orion calling Dao Feng "Old Man"

Rosalind immediately making tranquilizers right when Orion moves in because she doesn't want to put up with his shit

Silas writing and publishing a fucking op-ed at 14 immediately after getting home from London (iconic)

The implication that Silas has tried to confess to Phoebe before which I call bullshit on.

Not a scene but when Orion shows back up in the morning before their first day at Seagreen, I am convinced that the red stuff on his neck was blood not lipstick.

I NEED TO KNOW IF JIEMIN'S CROSS WAS A SIGN OF ALLEGIANCE TO PRIEST?????

"Who's stealing Silas from you? You're the notorious boyfriend stealer not me." because what exactly are we implying help-

Rosalind remembering hearing Silas's parents brag about him

Phoebe "spying" on Seagreen while she has Silas wait in the car

Lao Lao instantly adopting Orion

I think a lot of the olivercelia stuff in flf is a bit underrated because a lot of us were too busy being haters for a while but the necklace knife scene!

"My little ego can always stand being snapped at by you, sweetheart."

Oliver being really really freaked out in the warehouse hit different now that we have more context ughhhh

Orion thinking that his dad might have done something to his mom. What the fuck. And also being in that house with them alone for years jesus christ

Alisa covering her walls in drawings from Benedikt

Rosalind killing Zilin

Silas taking on Orion's assignments when his headaches were really bad

The fact that Lord and Lady Hong probably knew that Oliver was onto something when Orion told Lord Hong about Oliver breaking in

The cards that Zilin had in his pocket were a spade and a diamond (spade = aroace and diamond = demi)

Rosalind and Orion's argument after the Peach Lily Palace incident

Celia being like stfu Oliver (i like telling him what to do. teehee. aNYWAY)

Ik the nation over everything quote gets talked about a lot but I think people seem to forget how pissed Celia was after he said that. Because "You're so damn selfish. Have you ever stopped to consider that I value your life just as much? If you want to protect me, don't you think that I want to protect you, too?" And then the way that Oliver is absolutely baffled by this. Ack.

Rosalind flinching when Orion pretended to kiss her forehead towards the start of flf vs her casually noting it when he actually kissed her temple midway through flf

Alisa casually having Russian classic literature at her desk despite the fact that she probably stopped receiving formal school at about 13. Slay queen.

The domestic spat. I don't think we've talked about it in a bit I'm so disappointed in us.

Alisa seeing Rosalind and Dimitri together and never saying anything about it

Silas immediately hanging up when Lord Hong picked up when he was trying to call Phoebe

Also who were Gray and Archer??? I thought they were going to be important but oh well

"She doesn't bite." "Yes, I do." like geez ok Rosalind thank you for sharing

"Phoebe walked a small circle around the hospital corridor. Silas, his eyes tracking her absently, stood with his chin propped in one palm." Yeah ok.

Then the scene after Orion sees Rosalind's scars where they're both lying on her bed together and talk for a little bit. I don't know if it's underrated exactly, but I have a very clear image of it in my mind and it is very parallely and nice I like this scene

Alisa drinking orange juice out of a coffee mug. Why? Because.

Tiny detail but Orion telling Phoebe to stop answering the phone in English because he's afraid of gossip

Phoebe immediately going DO I GET TO SEDUCE PRETTY WOMAN???? when Orion tells her he needs her help and him being absolutely exhausted by her

"You warn me for control." "I don't need your warning." I want to kiss Rosalind on the mouth.

Ok sorry but I do not interpret the scene where Orion steals the Frenchwoman's necklace as him flirting with her I think he just put on a really exaggerated twink voice because it's funnier that way

Silas knocking out a guard by holding a cloth with sedatives to his face when he and Phoebe broke Alisa out of jail.

Also just Silas trying to signal to Alisa that he's totally definitely a double agent in the process of betraying everyone because Alisa knows that he's aligned with the Communists somehow while Phoebe is Priest is so insane.

Silas fixing Phoebe's hair then Phoebe noticing that he shifted maybe half and inch away from her going hmm no that's not allowed and shifting closer to him. Especially since there's not very much emotion in her internal monologue in flf since you're not really getting her pov you're just getting a front.

"Are you keeping any other secrets from me, Janie Mead?" "One. But I don't want to tell you yet."

Orion faking a nosebleed

"His proximity was supposed to be some sort of tactic to make her flustered, she guessed, but she was only concentrating on the fact that Orion had missed a sport right by his jaw." Rosalind you absolute genius (I am so obsessed with her)

Phoebe entering Silas's house then immediately going hihihihihihi pay attention to meeeeeeeeeee without telling him that she was planning on coming over

Probably not underrated but. "Phoebe's scowl was immediate, taken aback as to who was in his bedroom, but she realized seconds later that the voice was too grainy and distant to be a visitor." Just something about Phoebe not recognizing it as her own voice and being jealous of a part of herself that she doesn't really recognize as herself is just. so. ahhhh.

aDmIrAtIoN

Not underrated but. The scene where Rosalind is like. Orion put his head on my lap to annoy me. His hair looks dumb. I am going to yoink it. To bother him. Then just. Starts playing with his hair.

A random guy selling flowers seeing a boy and a girl in a car together and thinking ah yes. customers. then fearing for his life and running away after watching phoebe yoink Silas out of his car

Phoebe conning Silas into thinking she wanted him to drive her around so she could observe architecture. Damn he is easy to trick

"'Can't I convince you to partake in a different outing instead?' Silas pleaded. 'I'll buy you cake. Or pastries? You like pastries.' 'No! We have to do this.' Phoebe separated her clasped hands, clutching at her skirts instead. 'Do you want to watch me beg?' 'pHOEBE-' 'So help me, I'll get on my knees right in the middle of the street, and then you will have to answer for my virtue-' 'Fine, fine,' Silas hurried to say, unable to withstand her theatrics. There were two red blots deepening on his cheeks." .......................ok.

Alisa purposely freaking Silas out by telling him that he has to handle the explosives. Then they end up being firecrackers she bought from a middle schooler.

Phoebe making the 🥺🥺🥺 face and Silas covering her eyes

Alisa faking a middle aged man voice

Rosalind looking at Orion and being like hmm he's really pretty it kind of looks like he's wearing mascara. Anyway.

To be continued because I'm hitting the word limit oops

[lappelduvide-interdite]

So they say to feel a lack of love, you have to be depressed or isolated; and also you have to be cynical to feel comfortable. Turns out I experience none of these things.

This blog is basically a guilty-pleasure of a self-indulging practice-your-English type — a good place to keep my thoughts in (because my skull is clearly not suitable anymore.) It's logical to write here about things that have been bothering me for a long time, so, here it is. One metamodernistic attempt to describe loneliness in a freaking social network.

A few days ago, me and my friend were sitting in a bar; I was drunk enough to talk about true love, but in long thoughtful sentences. The friend was listening, sitting there in her cute warm color shirt and with her eyes attentive and familiar. I quoted a Phoebe Waller-Bridge's work. In particular, the Priest's monologue about a dread and discomfort and unpredictability of love, the spectrum of feelings that you just don't want to go through alone, and if you're lucky, you don't. I said love was a leap of faith. I also said love was a catching the other one in their fall. She nodded sympathetically; but in a minute or two referred to it as a joke about not wanting to jump from anywhere to get laid.

I suppose that's the lot of it. This is the wall I keep smashing in — being oh so close, but on the different pages, still. I know my friend. I know her as a deep-thinking, sensitive, attentive human being that craves true feelings as much as I do. She just has to cover it with sex jokes, because that's how her psyche work; because she's as much broken (and restored with her own power) as I am. I knew she understood me and meant no harm. Still, her words pushed me miles away.

They say I'm smart, but I just overthink; that's the problem of mine. I tend to create complicated versions of simple things and crave for them — is it adequate, wanting to have someone who understands? Is it even possible? Can a person be truly accepted and understood if being a person means using something as imperfect and loose as a language? Despite all the logical conclusions and all the things I want to believe in, I'm starting to suppose the answer to all of this is a no.

But that's the question of being loved. Freeing yourself from a hurtful hope to be romantically loved (in the terms of fairy-tale expectations many of us get in a modern culture) is not refusing the idea of such love or love in general. After all, love is about giving far more than about accepting. That's the other problem.

It's no news people like me are afraid to commit. Terrified, even. But I've learned to suppress this feeling, this instinct of running away or shielding from anyone who's getting close. That's a work of a thought and logic. And logically, I understand all my friends are not mine. A love of a friend is beautiful, but also naturally moderated; some parts of a love in general remain unexplored. It's not necessarily about sex, although it's of course important — being desired, needed and unarmed to the core of emotions and senses. In most cases, friends are not about that. Friends have their loved ones. Friends have their families. In some ways, a friendship is like a parenting — in the end of the day, you always have to be ready to let go.

So, rationally, it's stupid to treat a friend with borderless, blended love; that's just a way of loosing said friend. Being a good friend, after all, is an art of creating space and distance while remaining close and available. The things is, I need something other than that.

They say, if you feel lonely, try committing to your job, hobbies, friends or family. I've got promoted the other night, my book is to be published, my friends are close and fine and my relationships with family are okay. My loneliness doesn't come from unhappiness. It also doesn't come from incapability to built a social connection; I don't usually shy away from people I like. The origin of it is different.

I suppose I just don't know where else to put the love I have inside. It's buzzing and howling, my being human that wants to be loved, to commit and dedicate; but it's the logical thought (the fundamental process of my functioning) that just doesn't allow it all out. The pressure hurts. The conflict of it all is becoming a battle I'm more than ready to lose, because I am exhausted; but I just don't know, to whom.

I'm not depressed or isolated or unloved and unloving in the grand scheme of things. I guess I just yearn for something that I've never had and don't even know if it exists, and that sometimes keeps me up at night.

#love #friendship #loneliness

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[typingwithmyhandstied]

(over)analyzing some lines from The Priest and The Shepherd

"With every bit of nerve he had, Silas finally forced himself to look up, to look right into Phoebe's eye. She terrified him. She grounded him. She should have been named after an epithet of the sun instead of an epithet of the moon, because it was inevitable that everything in Phoebe Hong's vicinity would circle her in orbit."

I could analyze these lines in so many different directions. I think it is cool that he compares her to the sun after saying he had a hard time looking at her. It is nearly impossible to look directly at the sun without feeling really uncomfortable and having it burned into your eyelids afterwards. He also really has made his whole life revolve around her.

I think it is interesting that Silas' world revolves around Phoebe, and he expresses that everyone is. I think that from hints that in FHH there's a good chance that Phoebe's world revolves around others too. I'm pretty sure that she joined the Communists to protect Orion. I would say that Phoebe is overall more like the moon. She's always changing and half of her is always hidden. I would say that Chloe Gong was clever in naming her Phoebe, but it's also from As You Like It so-

"It was no confession. It was hardly even a declaration. But it was more important to him than anything grand and large. Orion was so hell-bent on telling Silas that he needed to say something if he was going to pine around from afar, but who decided that was a necessary part of love? They were twelve. They had time."

This is where I get to the parts that really make me feel ill even more than the above. I actually think that Silas is amazing for this. He's not gonna be one of those middle schoolers dating you know just a pining loser (affectionate) instead, but it also makes me ill. Mostly, because with everything happening, do they really even have time anymore? They are on opposite sides of a civil war. Silas is literally trying to hunt her down even if he doesn't know it.

"When he looked at the girl before him, the world wasn't some large, unconquerable entity. It shrunk down to the four walls surrounding them, easing the tightness in his chest and distracting him with thoughtful solace. How did he put something like that into words? How could he put voice to the fact that her happiness made him happy, because even when they were little kids, it was so clear that she had found her place in a world where very few managed the same?"

I really like twelve year old Silas' description of what being with Phoebe/loving her feels like. It is so pure. It makes me want to cry with everything that is probably going to happen. Silas feels safe and calm with Phoebe. I also feel like this whole paragraph makes me think of things I've learned about how for love to work it needs to be both a feeling and a choice. You need to choose to care about someone. I don't know if that makes sense, but Silas saying Phoebe being happy makes me think of that and also kind of Agape (one of the Greek words for love, selfless love).

Also, Silas really is just a girl trying to find his place in this world. I also think it is interesting that he feels like Phoebe has found her place in the world. I'm not sure whether I agree with that or not. I am excited to see how that turns out in FHH.

"Nothing rang true enough. Only this--quiet, unspoken peace. Everything blazing golden under the surface."

Ahem golden. "Love is golden like daylight." Just saying. This also goes with my Sias really describes such a pure kind of love even if he does also kind of idolize her. At its heart. I want to cry. It is going to be so hard on him when he learns Phoebe is Priest.

Also the fact that Silas saying "You know you can always depend on me, right?" is a declaration/confession of sort to him and that Phoebe replies "of course I know." That is funny to me for some reason (while also being upsetting).

#this really has nothing of substance in it that can't already be seen but like i keep letting tpats emotionally destroy me so why not #i am really tempted to write a really long post comparing phoebe to both the sun and the moon it would get really contradictory and rambley #also i don't even know if i want a relationship ever in my life but if someone loved me like silas loved phoebe... that would be something #foul lady fortune #foul heart huntsman #chloe gong #secret shanghai #phoebe hong #silas wu #the priest and the shepherd #philas #phoebe x silas

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Happy Football Sunday!! While some of us members lose our shit over the games, why not pop in just in time to enjoy the chaos? Below you will find some highly requested roles by members. Andrew Garfield. Tom Hiddleston. Brian Dales. Chelsea Kane. Stefon Diggs. Will Ferri. Austin Butler. Ashley Tisdale. HAIM. Olivia Culpo. Phoebe Bridgers. Barry Keoghan. Jacob Elordi. Zendaya. Julien Baker. Lucy Dacus. Damien Priest. Jimmy Uso. Ja'Marr Chase. Sam Hubbard. Tee Higgins. Charlie Heaton. Maya Hawke. Jalen Hurts. Stray Kids. Lee Know.

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[denimbex1986]

'...9. In Fleabag, while creator Phoebe Waller-Bridge knew she wanted to explore religion "very, very early on," the priest character became who he was after she "imagined Andrew Scott in that role." By writing the "Hot" Priest for Andrew, Phoebe was able to make "this man complex and three-dimensional, and sort of a match for Fleabag."

"I called him up before I'd even written it to see if he'd be interested in doing it," Phoebe recalled. "I pitched him the idea because I think if he'd said no, I don't know if I would have actually been able to write that part."...'

#Phoebe Waller-Bridge #Hot Priest #Fleabag #Andrew Scott