#Vent I guess?? Lol

[sysig]

Twisted Phoenix (Patreon)

#Doodles #Just Desserts #Villainsona #True Villainy AU #Vent I guess?? Lol #Features Kaiein: Checks out lol #Charm is just constantly the ''Aren't you tired of being nice'' meme haha #Got caught in a thought spiral the other day :/ Wanted that to change! Most easily summarized with what she says #Honestly kinda thinking that one along the lines of the Hero/Villain greeting/standoff #Gosh I want to redraw that one already hgg! It suits the TVAU so well!!! #Well I've got other TVAU stuff anyhow #More Classic first tho - no that's not blood lol it's just dyes #Anyone remember Pudding Layer Cake? Probably not I'd kinda like to draw them again too ♪ #It did make me consider how food-safe dyes might affect JDCitizens' blood tho - would it get into their blood stream or just be digested? #I have enough rainbow-blood characters lol but it Could be fun to have one more! Lol probably not tho #Anyway yeah she just wrecked shop but literally at the dye place - an easy thing to do when you're Literally on fire #Hurting people? ❌ Destruction of property? ☑️ #Okay Now TVAU stuff lol #Charm is not in a great place even when she retakes the throne #That's a weird thought haha - that she's been there before but was convinced she wasn't satisfied the first time so she did it all again #Guess that tracks at least - if the first time didn't soothe her why would it this time #Some Hamlet - dripping poison into the ruler's ear - fed lies and vitriol and pain to bolster her fear and desperation #Isn't he just so helpful #And ending off with a mirror motif!! Heck!!! Can't believe I haven't done it before now I Love mirror motifs and she has So many forms lol #Even if she feels like she doesn't have anyone else - doesn't trust anyone to not reject or fear her - anyone she hasn't irreparably hurt #There's always someone she could return to - return to being - and maybe start to build back up #The difference in their wings hh <3 And that Charm Classic isn't Evil Time! She just wants her back! She can be better she just knows it! #The TVAU is hard on her :(

[gothwineaunts]

Oofh. The hate in the comments. It's starting to get to me. I've been trying to ignore it for a long time now, but like they literally want one of the romantic leads to disappear. So many people. They just hate her. Like not even "love to hate her." Just despise her enough to call her slurs and pray for her death. In a wlw.

I must have really fucked this up, I think.

#red post #small vent i guess #I'm getting a complex over it lol #the concept of needing to write them in a scene together again #actively freaks me out #I've never seen it worse than in 98 #and most of what she did in that episode was #checks notes #narrowly survive a murder attempt #:')

[phoenixyfriend]

Political ads: My opponent has jacked up taxes every year since he was elected!

Me: Which taxes? Income? Sales? Property? Business?

Political ads: I promise to hold the line on taxes!

Me: Which taxes? What government programs do those taxes contribute to? What gets cut if the lack of taxation causes a deficit?

Political ads: Think about the taxes!

Me: WHICH TAXES. WHICH TAXES ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT. TELL ME WHO'S ACTUALLY GETTING AFFECTED BY THESE TAXES YOU'RE SO CONCERNED WITH.

Reminder to always ask what it is that people aren't saying in these ads.

A lot of them want you to think that it is your personal taxes as a working-class person that they're talking about. But if it's taxes on the rich that they're "holding the line on," then they're using your desire to survive with a greater portion of your own income as fuel to keep the upper classes from paying their fair share.

I keep getting the same three or four political ads (half aren't even for the district I live in) and I'm frustrated that they use these transparent tactics and that there are probably people that don't have the time or background to take that moment to go 'what are they hoping I hear in this? What are they actually going to do?'

#Phoenix Talks #personal #vent post #feel free to reblog #politics #taxes #the last time I got one particular ad I started shouting at the TV while my sister was downstairs grabbing some food #she didn't even blink about it so I guess it's not out of character for me lol #We're alone (except for the dog) and I was hoping to share my frustration by shouting while she's in the next room #so at least one person would Know my feelings on this topic

[arkiwii]

"Painful things, sad things, and scary things all go away when you least expect them to. But it's not okay to forget them. I need to remember them, because those emotions are still there inside me. I don't want to end up crying without knowing why. Memories are a burden, and I have to carry my own burden."

#sad cat hours #yeah i know i said i was burnt out then post twice in the same day #i was just experiencing feelings (tm) and had to vent it out with a piece #arknights #stalkiwiart #rosmontis #guess the flower's name lol (its easy)

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[spiralhigh]

this is like a year old and super out of character bc i only drew it to blow off steam but i still like how it came out so

#a lot of people are tagging this as bpd which is funny considering this is vent art and that’s a disorder i don’t have #this post is about being schizospec and not being able to relate to people and so seeing love as something reserved for objects/concepts #and being autistic and obsessive leading to a ravenous desire to hyperanalyze and pick apart those things #and consequently not wanting to put a living feeling human being through that dehumanizing version of love #that’s why it says ‘’something’’ and not ‘’someone’’ #it is specifically NOT about being extremely attached to people. it’s about the opposite #anyway. #edit: AND FOR FUCK’S SAKE THIS IS NOT ABOUT BEING A ‘’YANDERE’’!!!!!! #nagito komaeda #komahina #kamukoma #(i guess it could be any komaeda ship but those were the ones i intended) #(and even then not really cause again. this is pretty out of character or at least a major oversimplification of komaeda's character LOL) #anyway #danganronpa #super danganronpa 2 #sdr2 #danganronpa 2 goodbye despair #tab draws

[quemaiglesias]

Drowning  

#sex trauma #religious trauma #trauma art #hypersexual #vent art #trauma vent #tw nudity #? i guess #my art #tw vent #tw sa implied #man I hate paint...water????? #weirdcore #weird to think about #horror art #??? maybe #is scary #for me #lol #idk lmao

[neytui]

Today's my birthday!!!! ✨✨

Some vent below

The past few months have been a complet mess for me. First on march, my great aunt who has been diagnosed with cancer for two years sadly passed away, this was no surprise for any of us so I was not as sad about it if I'm honest. A week before this my dad had an accident and broke his talon and had to have surgery, this was the same day my aunt passed. My dad is fine and has healed all good. Now recently, a month ago I think, my cousin, who's I have grown with, same age as me, went to same school and everything, was diagnosed with a tumor on her brain. Was about 8 cm long and was causing her really strong headaches, it needed to be extracted as soon as possible, but the operation was very expensive so our family need to collect money first. We finally met a doctor willing to do the surgery and she was operated the Thursday, I saw her yesterday and she's thankfully doing fine. While we were on this, I felt incredible sick one day while I was on college, to the point I couldn't talk anymore. I went to the neurologist and he told me to get some exams, he diagnosed with athipics migraines and since that day I've been feeling sick and sad, that was on the fifteen. I was really hoping to feel good on my birthday, but that doesn't seem to be the case. I'm writing this on the 27 so I hope I'm feeling better tomorrow on my birthday. Regardless I would still like to thank everyone who welcome me on this place, I really have enjoyed it. I'm really sorry I haven't been able to post anything in a while but with the family, health, college and commission matters it has been really hard.

I hope everyone is having a good day :)

#ney talkies #my birthday #vent #this is some sorry i haven't post anything AO3 shit LOL #lets fucking hope i get better soon #wish me the best i guess

[causeimanartist]

Guys, I'm trying - but FUCK I can't draw Bruce or anything

#I've been futzing with this for the last 34 minutes and 32 seconds #(I was watching a drawfee video) #I think I've tried to draw his hair about 6 times #I just #I'm struggling so hard and it's making my heart beat faster as I get more stressed and I just wanna cry #why is this happening #art never used to be like this for me #it was something I could do for hours #it was fun and relaxing #why is it now such a source of stress #I could cry #maybe I am tearing up a bit who could say #this started off as a joke post but it's also a vent now I guess lol #back to drawfee #or animal crossing I might give up #sigh #wip

[emberglowfox]

a thousand faces, none of them mine / a thousand faces, all of them mine

#peanut gallery was loud today #identity crisis continues #my art #sona #vent #i guess lol #caption is from that one poem about god and mirrors byyy intactis ? that lives in my brain forever

[iamunabletothinkofablogname]

now is not the time to cry, im scrolling tumblr rn, wait a bit

#this is to me lol #i wouldnt say this to anyone dw #tw vent #i guess #we can wallow in self hate tommorow

[spoiledleaff]

cw for angst featuring dew and aeon. it's one of those nights, lads uwu

additional tw for self-mutilation ft. short haired dew + fears of abandonment and the desire to cut imagined losses.

"don't look at me," dewdrop begs; he's kneeling shattered on the floor, scraps of his own burnt hair lying dead between his claws while his entire body shivers with the weight of unacknowledged sins.

aeon is quiet—he doesn't know what to do. he's never heard dewdrop beg before, not like this. never like this.

"wh-why?" he asks, soft. fragile. as though the sound of his voice would extinguish the embers of dewdrop's flame if he spoke too loudly. "what's wrong?" he asks again, genuine in his curiosity and fear.

there's smoke falling from the gaps between dewdrop's teeth. it reminds the runt of the haze of a cigarette he shared with a brother of blasphemy; it reminds him of death, that the brother could die tomorrow from poisoned lungs and aeon would have to move forward with his damnation. it scares him. it smells foul.

"what happened to your hair?" aeon gasps, wide eyes falling on the rotten gold strands in dewdrop's hands.

"i- i don't know," dewdrop sobs, and aeon honestly can't tell if the ghoul is lying or not, "i think i pulled it out."

"why?" aeon asks again. his voice quivers, and the little ghoul wonders if he might start to cry.

"i think- i think i deserved it." decaying gold spills from the spaces between dewdrop's claws. "i think it needed to go."

aeon's quiet, thoughtful. everyone in the ministry knows how prideful dewdrop is of his appearance. whether or not it's a facade is known only to the chosen few—namely mountain and aether, who share a bond with the ghoul that aeon could never hope to worm his way into; he doesn't want to in the first place, it would feel immoral. even rain or swiss don't seem to know the full extent of dewdrop's tendencies, let alone most of the ghoulettes.

but dewdrop's hair is a favorite pastime of everyone in the ministry. aeon can't count how many times he's seen cumulus fawning over how much better he's taking care of it, or the occasional sibling who gets to twirl the sun-kissed strands between their fingers or braid a small section without fear of a revenge prank.

dewdrop's hair, to aeon, is like a physical manifestation of his connection to all those he holds dear.

"can i keep it then?"

"...wh-what?"

"uhm," aeon fumbles; he wasn't expecting his vessel to say such a thought aloud, "can i keep it? your hair, i mean."

"my... my hair?"

"yeah." aeon stumbles closer, though his eyes don't leave dewdrop's once. "i could- uhm, i could take care of it for you. so... so when you want it back, i'll have it. i'll give it back to you when you're ready."

dewdrop's silent, and aeon thinks he might've started quietly crying five minutes ago.

"o...okay."

aeon's crouching besides dewdrop in a manner of seconds; their shoulders bump together and aeon selfishly basks in the dull warmth of his fellow ghoul. he cups his hands, holds them out for dewdrop to drop the burnt strands of hair in. his hands are shaking. aeon wants to hold them once they're done.

"i'll take care of it for you," aeon babbles, though he doesn't care, "when you're ready, you can come back; i'll give them back to you."

aeon can hear the way dewdrop's breath hitches, how dew's skin lingers against his fingers. dewdrop's nose is running, and aeon thinks a glob has dripped onto his wrist; he doesn't care.

'when you're ready, i'll be here waiting for you.'

#does this make sense? no. #but i suddenly don't feel good and i just started typing so have it i guess #tw ANGST #ghost bc #ghost band #ghost #the band ghost #nameless ghouls #dewdrop ghoul #dewdrop ghost #aeon ghoul #aeon ghost #phantom ghoul #phantom ghost #dewaeon #spoiled writing #short hair dewdrop #tw vent #the existential dread just hit lol

[wool-string]

Experiencing Derealization and impending doom suddenly at the same time is fucking wild.

#ajin #kei nagai #my art #vent art #I guess? #tw heart #body horro tw #is it??? #anyways I got up and counted my heartbeats #personally that helps a lot #but holy fuck I was so ready to rip my chest open just to make sure my heart was beating #it’s not a very good feeling lol #everything is swag now tho

[catbotnik]

Chat what do we think of this collage I made about the way my body dysphoria and gender dysphoria are intertwined?

#my art #collage #vent? idk #transmasc #transgender #trans pride #gender dysphoria #body dysphoria #what do I tag this lol #weird core #I guess #cannibalcore #horror #maybe? #unsettling #mildly disturbing #idk what else to put here

[mcsiggy]

hey genuine question, i know a lot of us in our youth were told we were gifted, but has anyone been called borderline gifted?

where you're juuust on the cusp on being gifted but didn't quite make it??

#im asking this because i have that seared into my brain cuz i was called that #didnt help that i was tested too early but yea #and i guess this is half a vent post #cuz of it i feel like ill never be good enough at anything i make or do #cuz i feel like im useless since im not drawing anything atm cuz of my wrist #like in school i always almost had passing/ better passing grades but it was never enough #like i get a C on a test but it was 1 point away from being a B kind of thing #sorry for the half vent i think school traumatized me lol

[sysig]

I’m just saying I think he has a type (Patreon)

#Doodles #Wander Over Yonder #Commander Peepers #Sylvia #Black Eye #I guess technically sort of lol #The implication of ♪ The lead-up to ♫ #I read Peepers as bi with a preference towards men and Sylvia his inverse lol #They work well as mlm/wlw solidarity too! Including understanding each other in That Bi Way y'know? #But I do also think that Sylvia is his type haha ♪ All these things can be true at once! Relationships are complex and ever-changing! #I also think it works best one-sided on Peepers' end - Sylvia is busy! And as just stated relationships are complex #Not just in trying to keep a relationship - they do see each other fairly often! - but also in keeping it private to both of their comforts #Being found out by their counterparts would be interesting hehe ♪ Wander would support them of course #Hater would probably be furious even just at knowing Peepers had a crush on her tbh - feeling lonely but also worried about intel haha #He's smart he's not going to go around leaking information like that! If anything he'd probably just be more ruthless to vent his feelings ♫ #''Grop-darn Zbornak with her ability to bench me and stomp me into the dirt >O('' lol #The interpretation of him thinking he's sick over thinking he's romantically entangled is so correct #I also like the thought of Sylvia immediately having a repulsion reaction to finding out that Peepers likes her haha #''He WHAT??'' Wander would probably not help in her coming around just infodumping all his good points that she's not interested in lol #But then seeing him being that perfect little mixture of pathetic and competent that Peepers exemplifies <3 What's not to like about him #They have the right dynamic to get close! They have the potential! Fumbling and awkward the whole way but what other way is there hehe #It'd be so fun to watch ♪ What's there is already so fun to watch!