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#This stupid podcast (affectionate)
palarii · 1 year
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ntwhlvndthnks · 10 months
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with every new dndads ep im like "surely this one won't make me sadder than the last one did!!" and im wrong every fucking time
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enjoyerofsoup · 12 hours
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i’m gonna be 22 in 10 days and had the normal thought of “i’m gonna be the same age as gillion tidestrider.” i need to be put into a medically induced coma i think
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Image ID: A gif of multiple digital drawings that glitch into one another.
In the first drawing, Travis Matagot is standing, looking up at The Forest Queen, who is gently cupping his face. They are both smiling as he says, “If you wanted to tell me that I was your favorite, you could have just said so.” Travis is a man in his late twenties, wearing an 18th century outfit, his long white hair loose and falling down his back, small yellow, blue, and white flowers adorning it. The Forest Queen is a tall humanoid woman, with skin like tree bark covered in moss and different kinds of mushrooms and eyes that glow gold. She has a pair of antlers on her head that look like tree branches, and hair made of weeping willow leaves. In the background is a forest of birch trees with red, gold, and green leaves.
This glitches into a drawing of the spiritual visage of Dref Wormwood shaking Travis by his shoulders and yelling, “Why are you not paying attention?” They are glowing white figures without any details besides an outline.
This glitches into a drawing of Orimar Vale staring blankly in front of him at the greenheart that has a clawed hand extended toward his heart. Orimar Vale is a black man in his fifties, wearing an 18th century outfit, with waist-length dread locs decorated with precious metals and gems, with a tricorn hat with a large feather atop his head. The greenheart in front of him is an unnaturally tall humanoid that looks like barklike flesh that has been stretched across a spindly skeleton underneath. In the background, other greenhearts stand amongst gray and green leaves.
This glitches back into the first drawing. Travis stares for a beat, blinks twice, and says, “What was I saying?” The gif repeats after one final glitch.
The three images below are stills from the gif. End ID.
this thing is not your mother
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dork-a-doodle · 9 months
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Timothy Stoker my beloved
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hnnngh- thinking Nandor doesn’t hug Guillermo bc he’s super clingy with people he loves and it drives these people away, he knows bc it’s happened before (like with Gail), so he can’t let himself touch Memo like that bc maybe he’ll get carried away and maybe it will get to be too much and Guillermo won’t like it and he can’t lose Guillermo!
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conehatcryptid · 1 year
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aroacee-of-spades · 8 months
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listening to horror podcast protagonists like you are the most annoying fucker i have ever heard i will kiss you on the lips
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asteralien · 2 years
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do you want to know the One Fact that really sums up me and my mental instability as a whole. okay. the very first podcast i became a patron for on patreon is a very small podcast, i was like the 22nd patron, i love the show it's very good and the middle bit where they do patron shoutouts is fun so i was excited to hear the player say my name. okay? i sign up. a day or two later i get an email saying the podcast team messaged me, asking if my username is the name i want to be used for my shoutout. i forget about this email completely. on the day the next episode airs, i'm excited to hear my name, but at the end of all the patron names i'm very familiar with by now, the guy says........ a random name. i remember the email i was supposed to respond to. i think "oh fuck they just had to say a random name because i never responded. i'm so embarrassed. i can't even look at my emails right now." i forget to respond to the message again and i'm too embarrassed to even listen to next week's episode.
i signed up for this podcast in like march of this year and i still haven't listened to a goddamn episode since then
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mellifiedprincess · 3 months
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This was wrote very quickly, sooo not really sure if it’s good or not :/
“Good morning campers! I’m your host Nick Sturniolo.” There’s a slight pause before your eyes drift over to your boyfriend. “Matthew Sturniolo here.”
“Chrizzz.”
“And welcome back to the Cut the Camera podcast.” You can hear the joy in Nicks voice as he continues the intro. Your head is placed in Nicks shoulder, arms wrapped around one of his, in search of comfort.
Usually, you find comfort in the arms of your boyfriend. But not today. Today he and Chris have betrayed your trust, and therefore you are forced to cling to Nick against his free will.
“Of course I can’t continue without explaining why Y/N is glued to my side. For those who are not watching this on youtube, normally Y/N and Matt would be sitting together. Being gross and all that, but not today.” Nick pauses, looking at you before switching his eyes from Matt to Chris.
“Would anyone like to explain?” Before either of the boys can even think about speaking, your body lunges forward to grab Nicks mic. “Matt and Chris are evil spawns of satan and deserve to be put in solitary confinement.” You glare at the stupid laughing idiots sitting across from you and sink back down next to Nick.
“JESUS Y/N/N!” Chris can barely get words out from laughing at your outburst. “Kids wanting us locked up.”
“Nick! Make him shut up before I punch his stupid face.”
“Alright sweetheart.” Nick laughs and gives your arm an affectionate rub.
“Chris cut it out. Leave her alone.” Matt finally speaks up, his lopsided grin giving away the fact he finds the current scared state his girlfriend is in to be amusing. His eyes meet yours and even though he knows you’re not seriously upset with him, he still wants to apologize profusely and shower you with affection.
“Will you please come over here and sit by me?” He pleads with you, but you’re not having it. “No!” You huff out and squeeze Nicks arm even tighter.
“Ohhhkay, moving on.” Nick interrupts before things escalate. “The reason Y/N and Matt are mad at each other-“
“I’m not mad at my girlfriend. I miss her and want her over here with me!” Matt cuts Nick off with a tone one could only describe as…pouty. “Maybe if you didn’t try to paralyze me with fear and send me into cardiac arrest, I wouldn’t be over here with Nicky praying on your downfall.” With that you cross your arms and purse your lips, that same glare from earlier back.
An audible whine leaves your boyfriend’s lips. A whine. He was actually trying to kill you.
“Can I tell the viewers what happened? Or am I gonna keep getting interrupted?” After everyone finally quiets down, Nick continues.
“So, many of you may not know this about our angel of a friend Y/N, but one of her biggest fears is things/people running at her.” You can clearly see the amusement on the triplets faces, because of how ridiculously funny the situation is to them. It wasn’t to you though. “It could literally be a baby crawling towards her super fast and the girl is screaming and frozen with fear.”
Before Nick starts to speak again, Chris starts laughing uncontrollably once again. “Remember when we went to that haunted house thing for halloween and at the end, like after you make it back outside, there was that guy holding a chainsaw-“ You already knew what he was talking about, one of the scariest moments of your life.
“Christopher don’t!” Your tone is one of warning, and your eyes widen at the memory that haunts you daily. (Dramatic much?)
Of course, that fucker continues anyway. “No wait, this is one of my favorite Y/N/N stories. Chris has to tell it.”
“You traitor!” You point an accusing finger at Nick, who only laughs at you. “I can’t trust any of you!” You quickly move to sit by Matt after that, a satisfied grin makes its way onto his face and he wraps his arms around you as soon as you’re next to him.
And as soon as your body falls into his, any fear you had diminishes instantly. Like your body knew the safest you would ever feel was anywhere in his proximity. You feel his lips press against your temple, before making its way across your cheek, and then finally turning your head a little to give you a proper kiss on your lips.
“And the barf mobile has arrived.” Nick deadpans. “Fuck off.” You and Matt deadpan in unison.
“Alright when I come running at you with a chainsaw, don’t say shit.”
The image of Nick running at you makes you curl into Matt’s side even more. “Alright, stop scaring her. She literally won’t sleep tonight and will probably make me go with her to the bathroom every time she has to use it.”
“You’re funny if you think I’m not making you go with me to the bathroom after the shit you and Chris pulled.”
Matt can only grin down at you, he was just happy that you were back beside him. Codependency is a bitch <3
“Alright, back to what Matt and Chris did to Y/N. Y/N, you wanna start the story off?” Nick directs the attention on to you and you start playing with Matt’s fingers as an anxious habit.
“Let’s start off with the fact, I was in the middle of cooking dinner for these idiots and I thought I was still the only one home.” You watch Chris cover his mouth to try to hide his smile, ultimately failing.
“I heard something from downstairs and thought maybe Chris left his patio doors open and an animal got in. Wouldn’t be the first time. So, I put my investigation skills to the test and went to see what it was. Anyone want to guess what it was?” You pause for dramatic effect, looking around the table for a moment.
“It was my lovely boyfriend and dumbass best friend standing at the bottom of the staircase with creepy ass masks on. And as soon as they saw me they start running up the stairs towards me!” A shiver of fright runs through your body at the scene replaying in your head.
“And what did your fight or flight instincts tell you to do?” Matt asks, already knowing the answer since he saw it firsthand. “I don’t have fight or flight instincts. I have freeze instincts. BECAUSE I WAS FROZEN FROM FEAR!”
And at your outburst, the three brothers start laughing uncontrollably, Matt earning a slap to his chest as his body shakes from how hard he was laughing.
“And what makes it even worse is when my body finally registered I needed to move my fucking ass, I ran to our room and immediately called Matt.”
“Awe baby, I’m so sorry.” He’s quietly laughing now, pulling you even closer to his body. “I promise I won’t scare you like that ever again.” You cut your eyes at him and plants a kiss to your cheek, trying to convince you.
“Maybe not intentionally, but Y/N/N literally gets scared if you look at her for too long.”
Chris was right, but he didn’t have to call you out like that.
“I will hide every can of pepsi you bring into this house.” You threaten and watch as his mouth drops open in shock, before he fucking. starts. staring. you. down.
“CHRIS! Cut it out!” Matt yells at his younger brother when he realizes he’s trying to scare you again.
“You are all very bizarre.” Nick shakes his head and gets ready to move on to the next topic.
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arvensimp · 1 year
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your father should know pt. 1
Arven leaves you with something more than either of you bargained for when he goes off to Kalos for an internship, and through a series of miscommunications and heartbreak, he returns a few years later to learn that he actually has a child.
arven x reader, nsfw content, pregnancy, angst, and stupid miscommunications'
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Champagne was poured freely, toasts were made, songs were sung. Everyone laughed and cried in near equal measure, and they hugged and kissed and made promises to keep in touch and talk soon and "not to be a stranger!" and "tune in every week!"
For his part, Arven blushed and drank it in almost as well as he drank in the champagne. He's never gotten used to being the center of attention. With stellar professor parents and a best friend who sits near the top of the Paldean Pokemon League, he's always been...just Arven. Just some guy. Not a nobody, but...well, if the shoe fits.
No, no! He can't think like that. He's amazing in his own ways. Hell, everyone gathered like this because of him.
An apprenticeship with one of the most famous celebrity chefs of Kalos at their marketing institution as well! He'd be gone for a year, learning from the best of the best of the best, touring the region, doing podcasts and making weekly videos. All of it would revolve around making food that would make people and pokemon happy and healthy. It was like a dream.
He wasn't totally sure at first... After all, he'd never left the region, but then again maybe an adventure was just what he needed? That's what you'd told him anyway, looking up at him with your sparkling eyes that made his stomach twist in knots.
Paldea wasn't really his home anyway. (Could he even say he ever had a home?) Go see the world! He's young and untied now, so why not? It'll be like the treasure hunt from back during school but even better.
So he agreed and got to preparing while you and all of your friends got to planning his goodbye party.
He'd be off in the morning, and at this point nearly everyone had left his flat, staggering or taking cabs home.
Everyone but you.
You and Arven.
Arven and you.
The original buddies.
Alone on the L-shaped sofa, lounging, head-to-head at the crook of it. Arven's hand is still holding a half-finished bottle of champagne that drags across the wooden floor. Both of your hands are folded across your ribcage. 
He exhales a long puff of air that blows his bangs from his eye.
"Have you had too much to drink over there?" You ask. Even without looking Arven can hear the smile on your lips.
"Nah..." He grunts a bit as he rolls over onto his side. "Barely a buzz at this point, honestly." And it's true. A man of his size usually needs a fair amount of alcohol to really get lost in it, especially when they've eaten as much as he has this evening. "Just...thinkin' I guess."
"Yeah?" You roll over as well. Neither of you are facing each other, but if you crane your necks you could see one another’s faces. "Gimmighoul coin for your thoughts?"
He chuckles. "That's a mouthful. You know you can just say 'penny' right? Like we have those."
You blow a raspberry, and Arven laughs harder.
"Now who's the one who's had too much to drink?" He asks.
"Hey!" You stop, mock-serious. "I'm your driver to the airport tomorrow. You know I won't be hungover for that, so clearly I haven't had too much tonight."
Arven snorts and lifts a hand to pat affectionately on your head, but he misses phenomenally, smushing your face instead. The two of you erupt into giggles, rolling over onto your stomachs as you do, so you can more easily sit up to look at one another from your separate legs of the sofa.
The laughter quiets naturally.
Arven knows he loves you. He has for a long time, but he's just never been able to say it. The words can't come out. He's tried to show it every other way he can, so it mostly comes out as food and snacks given to you whenever he can muster it up, and you don't seem to be any the wiser. You always just smile up at him with those same sparkling eyes. It's maddening and dizzying and infuriating and enamoring all at once.
And you're smiling at him like that now.
And then you're leaning in.
He's leaning in, too.
It takes nothing for your lips to meet. There are no fireworks, no crackles of electricity, no orchestra that plays some swelling love song in his head.
You're just kissing, and it's perfect. You only part to actually sit up, so the two of you aren't stuck in a cobra-pose on the couch forever, but in that brief moment of adjustment, you're both blushing, scooting closer to one another, each lifting one knee up to stay on the couch while the other bends down to the floor.
You won't look at each other, but your fingers find one another, interlocking tightly.
"I-I--" Arven starts, getting ready to apologize, but he isn’t sure why.
"Will you do that again?" You ask over him.
His jaw drops as he looks down at you. "Yeah... Absolutely."
He leans in, and you're kissing again, with Arven hovering over you, large and unimposing and wonderful. With the angle, it's more than easy for the two of you to just keep falling further down, down, down, until he's properly on top of you, pressing one of your legs bent at the knee against the back of the sofa while your other foot trails lightly against the floor, knocking against Arven’s discarded champagne bottle.
Arven's hand that isn't holding yours is in your hair, his nails scratching lightly at the back of your neck. When the action makes you gasp into him, he takes the initiative to deepen your kiss, grazing his tongue along your lower lip before it explores further into your mouth.
You meet him eagerly, rolling your body up to meet his as your free hand scratches lightly down his still-clothed back. 
Arven hums into you and breaks the kiss to sit up. He grips the lower hem of his shirt and gives you a questioning look, only proceeding to remove the garment when you've enthusiastically nodded, biting your lip to hold back eager giggles.
"God, you look so good..." You tell him, running your hands up and down his torso once he's bare, making him shiver and blush all at once.
"C-C'mon..." He says, not meeting your eye but still going on to continue kissing you in a way that has you happily obliging. 
Seconds, minutes, or hours could have passed like that between the two of you, just kissing, and you wouldn't have been any the wiser, but eventually one of Arven's hands grows daring, skirting just along the edge of your top, tickling at the skin of your abdomen there with its pervading warmth before moving up and behind your back. You sit up just the tiniest bit, nipping at his mouth before breaking off the kiss, so you can properly remove your top and bra for him.
"You...uh, this is what you wanted, right?" You ask with a nervous laugh, and Arven's too busy trying not to stare at your tits. He just nods kinda dumbly in the way that men often do, leaning in to kiss you again, so you don't have to watch as he paws and squeezes at you, tweaking at your nipple in a way that gets you gasping his name, which, fuck... Arven didn't think his name could sound so good.
He tears himself from your mouth to kiss and bite at your breast while one of his hands kneads the other. 
You squirm beneath his ministrations, gasping in delight at his touch.
It takes very little before you're grinding against him, purposefully pulling your leg up and over his hip for better leverage to rut against the growing hardness in his pants.
"Fuck," Arven groans, pulling his mouth off your tit in a way that has you hissing in pleasure as he dips his forehead to rest between your breasts. "Keep doing that, and I'm gonna cum in my pants, damn..."
"And what if that's what I want?" You tease him as you continue, feeding into the growing wetness between your thighs.
Arven barks a light laugh from his place at your chest, one of his hands squeezing your hip right at the apex where your body meets leg. "I'd think that wouldn't be very fun for you?" As he speaks he rolls his hips into yours, purposefully grinding against your center, making you moan just the tiniest bit.
"See?" He continues, egging you on in the best way. The hand at your hip travels inward, bit by nervous bit. "I-If you want, I mean?"
You nod almost frantically with a "Yes, please!" and Arven has to stop himself for a moment, his hand paused right at the seam where your inner thigh meets your panties, your skirt having been rolled up ages ago.
He looks at you, tries to memorize the way your hair splays out beneath you, the flush of your cheeks, the way your eyelashes fan out against them when your eyes close, your fingers grasping for purchase against the fabric of his sofa. It's all being committed to memory.
He shifts his fingers, tensing them against you just a bit before you can make any sound of impatience or discomfort at his hesitancy... Not hesitancy. No. He... He wants to savor this.
Slowly he moves, hooking his fingers beneath the elastic of your panties, maneuvering you just enough to get the article along with your skirt off and discarded somewhere on the floor. Then his hands are back on you again in an instant.
"Fuck," He whispers under his breath, half astounded as he stares down at you. "You're dripping for me..." 
You wriggle your hips a bit, and he slips a single digit between your folds. The tightly coiled arousal in your stomach rolls through you, your toes curling in anticipation at just that simple touch.
"Fuck, Arven..." It's soft the way you say it. You grasp his wrist, not stopping him, just holding him there, as if he'd ever dare to leave.
He lets his finger drag upward just a bit, just so he can find--
You keen softly, rolling your hips against his hand, silently pleading him to focus there.
"I've got you..." He says softly, leaning back in to capture your mouth again, biting gently at your lower lip while you grind against his single finger stroking small circles around your clit. 
"Fuck...fuck that's nice..." You groan against Arven's mouth, making him smile against you, renewing his efforts.
"You like that?" He asks, and it barely feels like teasing, especially when you so eagerly nod your enthusiasm to him.
"Hmm, god… More, please?"
Arven hums, continuing his pace just a bit longer before he lets his finger dip lower to press just at the edge of your entrance. When you roll your hips against him to fuck his finger into you, he lets it slip inside as you sigh, contented.
"Shit, you're so tight around just this one... Damn..." He tells you fondly as he starts to piston the digit slowly to match your pace before adding a second into the mix.
You moan lowly.
"K-keep going like that, fuck..." You tell him in a raspy, breathy voice.
"Yeah? Whatever you like," Arven tells you, adjusting his position above you just a bit, so he can lean a bit more on one of his knees, freeing up his other hand, so it can go to play with your clit.
The dual stimulation has you writhing and squirming almost instantaneously. Your moans turn high and needy real quickly from there, and within a minute or two, your vision goes white behind your eyes as your cunt pulses erratically around Arven's fingers with your orgasm washing over you.
It isn't until you pant a fucked-out "E-enough, enough...slow..." That he finally drags his fingers from your core, dripping with your essence.
He's so lost in the moment, internally congratulating himself on actually making you cum, that he jolts when he feels your hands on the button to his pants.
"Oh." You say, pulling back. "Sorry. Uh... Did... Did you not..?"
"No!" He says, too loud, then clears his throat and tries again, softer. Fuck, you're beautiful like this. 
"I-I mean. I. I do. I want to. I just." He looks bashful. "Uh... I don't have any condoms? I can-- I mean, I'll go buy some. If you want." 
You shrug. "Don't worry about it. I'm on the pill, and you can pull out to be extra safe?"
He nods. "If you're sure."
You nod.
Arven sighs, nodding again, partly to himself, then his hands go to his fly, and--
"Can I?" You ask, sweet as candy, and how can Arven do anything but nod and let his hands fall to the side as he watches you? 
Your touch is featherlight as you free his cock from his boxer briefs; all Arven needed to do was lower his pants just a bit further down his hips. When you grasp him fully, Arven hisses between his teeth, resisting the urge to fuck your fist. 
He lowers himself back down, and you purposefully and delightfully catch the tip of his cock along your clit as you lube him up before lining him to your entrance.
Arven looks at you, catching those sparkling eyes, still gleaming even in the low light of the evening. He rolls his hips forward, and you meet him halfway, the pair of you groaning in complete satisfaction at the union.
Just a moment later, after you've both adjusted, he starts to move, properly fucking you, balancing his weight on his forearm on the couch's armrest above your head. His eyes flutter closed, and he groans, cursing softly under his breath.
You match his pace as best you're able given the amount of room you have, hooking a leg over his hips to draw him into you deeper in a way that has you both moaning low, foreheads pressed together.
"F-feels so good..." You tell him breathily. Part of you considers snaking a hand down between you to toy with your clit again, but Arven must have read your mind because you feel his warm hand trailing up along your hip to squeeze in, pressing up just above where the two of you are joined. His thumb rolls your clit, applying just enough pressure that you jolt beneath him, losing your sense of rhythm, along with almost any other senses you have beyond your unwavering need for more of him and his fucking hands on you.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, Arven," You chant like a stupid prayer, tucking your head into his shoulder. "Like that, please. Don't stop. Fuck. Please."
Arven smiles and kisses your temple, riding the high of the power trip. "Wouldn't dream of it..." He can't help the jolt of arousal that goes straight to his cock when you say things like that. Fuck. And the way you squeeze around him? He has to put a real, concerted effort into his ministrations or else he'd absolutely be blowing his load inside you, especially when your walls flutter like that? He could die like this and be a happy man, he knows it.
He's so wrapped up in his thoughts that it nearly startles him when you suddenly still, a moan caught halfway out your throat as your cunt squeezes him like a vice for a long, long moment before it starts rhythmically fluttering in time with your heart. Your head is tossed back as you cum around his cock, and--
And fuck, he needs to cum. Now. His hips stutter to a halt while he’s inside you, and he exhales slowly through his nose, letting you ride out your orgasm around him while he does his absolute best to hold on. As soon as he feels you've stilled somewhat, he pulls out, and just that motion, that friction, has him cumming ribbons that paint your stomach as he jerks himself through the remainder of it, panting with the effort it took to hold on for so long.
You watch him through your lashes, still trying to steady your own breath, shivering at the sensation of his hot cum lining stripes along your abdomen.
You sigh in time with Arven as he seems to finally calm, and the two of you stay silent for what feels like an eternity until eventually he hauls himself up with a grunt.
"Lemme, uh... I'll take care of that." Arven says noncommittally as he quickly moves to the kitchen where you hear him shuffle around and turn the faucet on.
When he returns, it's with a warm, wet cloth to wipe away the mess he's made of you, which he does meticulously and methodically. You shiver at his gentle touch.
"Uh... Sorry..." He says softly.
The absolute absurdity of it makes you laugh, bright and high. "Sorry? For the best sex I've probably ever had?" You stretch out on the sofa like a persian. "Please. You've just given me..." You yawn. "So much more...to look forward to...when you get back." You look back to him. "I-I mean... Uh. If. If this is...something you want?"
Arven drops to his knees to be at your level, looking at you with wide eyes.
"It is! I-I mean definitely! Yeah! Definitely. If you want. Yeah..." He gets this goopy, lovestruck look on his face that's so beyond endearing that you can't help but lean over to kiss him again.
"Good."
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The next day, the two of you arrive at the airport hand in hand, and before you kiss goodbye, you promise to keep in touch, message as often as you can (as roaming fees allow) and that you'll see each other soon. 
You watch Arven go through security, and when he's done, he waves from behind the glass, not taking his eyes from you until he's literally too far away.
If you cry a little bit on your way home, 'Raidon doesn't seem to tease you for it along the road.
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With Arven gone, life basically continues as it had, albeit you're definitely feeling emptier. You continue work with the Pokémon League, performing basic research tasks for Jacq, and battling with Nemona to stay sharp. Every chance you get, you watch or listen to whatever videos get posted by the team Arven is working with, hoping for just a blip of him! Any time you see him, you comment and talk about how cute and handsome he is and how they should definitely show more of that cute guy with the two-toned hair. You giggle every time, hoping it helps some.
This particular morning, several weeks later, you and Nemona are outside Mesagoza, battling as you usually do, when a wave of nausea suddenly overtakes you.
You don't throw up or pass out, but the distraction of it keeps you from commanding your partner effectively, giving Nemona a leg up.
"Off your game today, eh?" She taunts you lightly from across the field.
You try to laugh, but you think you can literally feel the color draining from your face. You command Tinkaton to retaliate with a Gigaton Hammer, but then the world goes black around you.
Nemona's at your side in an instant (or is it longer than that?), panting with the effort it took to get to you so fast. Tinkaton and Goodra are also scurrying over with worried looks on their faces. "Hey! Hey, you okay?" She asks, holding up your head in her lap.
"What...?"
"You just dropped like a corviknight outta the sky, bestie. You've got me worried."
You shut your eyes tight and breathe through another wave of nausea.
"Yeah, I don't like whatever's happening." Nemona tells you. "Can you stand? I'll take you to the doctor."
More realistically, 'Raidon takes you to the doctor, and Nemona hangs around for moral support. She knows you've been kinda poorly since Arven left anyway, so she correctly guesses that you don't really want to be alone if you're about to go through a health crisis or something.
The two of you chat together while you wait for the results of your blood work and urinalysis to come back. The folks at the clinic had given you some fluids and told you to stay off your feet for a now for fear of another fainting spell, so you were basically stuck for a minute.
When the doctor returns, she asks if you'd like Nemona to stay while she gives you your results. The doctor doesn't seem terribly morbid or worried about anything, so you figure it can't be that bad, right?
You look to Nemona and smile, taking her hand.
"If that's okay?" You ask her.
Nemona smiles and nods, squeezing back.
The doctor returns your grins. "Since that's the case, let me go ahead and confirm your pregnancy, Miss."
Your brow furrows, and the edges of your vision go blurry like you're going to pass out all over again, and suddenly the only thing you can hear is the sound of your own blood pumping in your ears.
Everything looks so far away. Distantly, you know you're still holding Nemona's hand, but somehow it's as if your arm has stretched across the room and she's floating further and further from you. You can't even register what she looks like. What sort of face she must be making at you.
Whatever else happens at the clinic from there, you cannot recall. Obviously you must have said something or reacted in some way. You just know that Nemona brings you home with vitamins and appointment cards for follow up visits with different doctors for whatever route you decide to take.
She spends the night with you, curled up in a cuddle puddle with you and all of your pokemon, petting your hair softly as she sings something terribly out of tune but still soothing. She doesn't force anything out of you, knowing you'll tell her when you're ready.
That's how Nemona becomes the first person you tell about Arven and what you did. You spill everything to her the next morning as you cry into a bowl of sugary cereal, and she just rubs your back lovingly, spooning cornflakes into her mouth.
"So... What's the next step?"
"What do you mean?"
"Like... Are you going to tell him? Do you wanna keep it in the first place?"
"Geez, Nemona! That's a little direct."
"What?!" She puts her hands up placatingly.
"Of course I'm gonna tell him. Can you imagine if I didn't? I feel like that'd break his heart... He deserves to know. And I mean..." You look down. Of course you're not showing yet it's way too early. In some other world this would be where you put a hand on your lower abdomen and fantasize for a moment about it all, building a family, a bouncing baby and a husband and a white picket fence. But for some reason, you can't bring yourself to do it. That would make things a little bit too real for what you're willing to handle right now. But even then. "I-I wanna talk to him first. I...think I want to do this... But... He should have a say too, right?"
Nemona puts a hand on your shoulder. "Your word is most important, if you ask me."
You take a moment to breathe. "Yeah. I'm gonna tell him. I gotta talk to him first before deciding anything else."
And then you don't.
Or. Well. You try. You really do!
Thing is, it's really difficult to get a hold of Arven since he's been abroad. Your texts are sporadic at best.
Part of you just considers waiting. After all, he's off doing something really wonderful for himself. He's living his dream! Becoming an amazing man and making things happen for himself! He spent his entire life until now doing things for other people, waiting on his parents to come home, acting as an errand boy before finding out what had happened, then caring for Mabosstiff... 
How could you call him to come home over something like this? That would be horrible of you. He needs to be able to do something for himself, and living his dream in Kalos is it!
But...he definitely deserves to know. He would want to know, wouldn't he?
You have to tell him.
So eventually you shoot Arven a message.
-hey! wanna video chat tonight?
-What time? I've got some stuff going on this evening, plus a pretty packed schedule in the morning, but I'd love to see you!
-oh! well maybe some other time then
-Ok ❤️
....And then a few days go by...
Fuck!!!!! Why are you like this???
You send him a picture of Tinkaton on top of 'Raidon another time which Arven laugh-reacts at, making your heart go all fluttery.
-wanna call tonight? i miss you
-I miss you too, buddy! Let's plan for it.
But then the time of your call comes and goes, and you end up falling asleep waiting for the phone to ring, your ??? texts having gone unanswered.
Finally a few days later you just call him one evening. You're getting too antsy and nervous, and you have to get this thing off your chest and/or uterus.
The phone rings several times, and when he finally picks up, you hear the sound of shuffling, then Arven whispering.
"What's going on?" He asks, soft but harsh. "I'm kinda in the middle of a thing. Is everything okay?"
"Uh..." I missed you. I'm so sorry. I'm kinda carrying your baby right now, and I'm so sorry but I think I'm going to crush your dreams by asking if you want to come home to be with me to raise it together? Is that even a thing that you want? Your mouth goes dry, and your stomach twists in knots. Now absolutely isn't the time for nausea, but when is?
"You there?" Arven asks, sounding a bit more annoyed.
"Y-Yeah. Sorry..." You finally respond after swallowing back a lump in your throat. "I just... I..."
You hear more shuffling on the other end and Arven's voice calling out to whoever else must be around him. "Hey, give me a minute, I need to take this!" Then some more sounds of what you imagine must be him going somewhere more secluded. "What's going on? Did something happen?"
"Uh..." Fuck fuck fuck. You have to tell him. "I-I just... I miss you."
You hear him exhale a sigh over the phone, but you can't tell if it's fond or exasperated. "Miss you, too. Is something going on?"
"Everything's okay, no one's dying or anything," Quite the opposite in fact. "I just... I wish I could see you..." Not what you wanted to talk about. Come on. Spit it out! "Uh... Will you maybe be able to take a weekend off or something soon? Maybe come and visit?"
Arven chuckles a bit. "I wish I could see you, too! But no, they're keeping me pretty busy here, but it's in the best way! I can't tell you how much I'm learning! The stuff I'm working on, it's beyond anything I've ever even imagined! Plus they're talking about maybe starting a new program, and they're going to need talent." 
Your heart contorts in your chest. He's having such a nice time...
"I'm...I'm so happy for you." You finally squeak out.
"Yeah!" Arven ends up going on a mini-rant about a bunch of new techniques he's learning, and your heart melts. You don't even realize tears are silently streaming down your cheeks until Arven interrupts himself with a "Shit! Sorry. I totally forgot about filming. I gotta go. Talk to you later!"
He hangs up before you can even say bye.
In the end, you force yourself to text him. You clearly can't break the news out loud, and he has to know. 
You wait until just after the work day ends, figuring that would be the ideal time to tell him, so he isn't at work, and he won't have to worry about it during a work day, and also you're not interrupting him in the middle of a nap or something, and he can call you to talk, since.....yeah he's probably going to want to talk.
Hey! I know this isn't ideal, and I really would have rather said it in person or over a face call or even just a regular call, but I think you need to know, and I'm having a really hard time verbalizing it to you. I'm sorry to do it this way, but it's better to say it now than not at all, right?
I'm pregnant, and it's yours.
I'm so, so, SO sorry! I promise I didn't mean for it to happen like this, and I'm not trying to like…baby trap you or something. I swear! You're my best friend in the whole world, and I'm so happy that you can go and live your dream in Kalos right now. But I just feel like you should know? Like you should have a say in what happens here? I'd love to talk to you. Do...do you want to do this? Because....well if you're willing I'd want to try this. With you. But I also know that you're living your dream right now, and I don't want to get in the way of that! I want you to be able to really embrace this new journey you're taking and learn and grow and do wonderful things! But I just wanted you to know, you know? Please don't hate me. Just give me a call when you have a minute, and we can figure this out. Okay?
You hit send and then wait.
It took nearly all of your bodily strength not to add "I love you" to the end of the message. You'd never said it out loud to each other before. Sure... You wanted to tons of times before now, but it just never happened, so it just didn't feel right to put it in a text first.
Yeah, telling someone you're pregnant with their kid via text also isn't really kosher, but you can only break so many rules at once.
You check your phone.
Nothing.
He may just be busy.
It's fine. You just need to be patient.
So you make yourself some food, play a bit with your pokemon. You think they can pick up on the change in you. Even Tinkaton seems a little less feral around you lately, which is kinda wild.
You cozy up to Skeledirge, running your fingers across his bony nose.
Still no reply. 
You turn your phone off and on again just to see if maybe that does something? Like it'll reboot your messages?
Nothing.
"Fuuuuuuck!" You groan, kicking your legs petulantly, startling Skeledirge off the sofa with you.
TV isn't much of a distraction, and neither is social media, really, but you try to watch a few videos, read a few articles. Hell, you even answer some work emails in an attempt to distract yourself from the silence of your phone.
You check it before you shower, and there's no response.
The warm water doesn't do anything to quell your nerves, and you're about ready to have a panic attack by the time you dash back to the phone, still in your towel, your hair dripping all over the floor, and there are no notifications waiting for you.
You try to calm yourself with some steadying breaths.
Who knows what might be happening? His phone might have died during the day! He may have accidentally left it at home! Maybe your message didn't even go through fully!
You sneak another peak at your messaging app to be sure, but...
Well, it... It actually looks like your message has been read.
Okay.
Okay.
Okay.
He's seen it.
Cool.
Just.
Just give him a minute to process it. He'll probably call or message you back as soon as he can.
Except he doesn't.
You fall asleep on the sofa that night, clutching your phone in one hand, waiting for any kind of acknowledgement from Arven.
Wakefulness takes you with a jolt, and you actually drop the device with the rotom inside narrowly preventing it from shattering on the floor.
It floats back up to you, and you open your messages again.
Except, now it's saying your message from last night is unread? But that couldn't be... You saw the read notification and even made a note of the time.
You try to call Arven. It's early enough that he shouldn't be at work yet.
The phone doesn't even ring before you hear an automated "We're sorry. The number you're trying to reach is no longer in service."
Did...did he block you? No. He wouldn't do that, would he?
That's...that's not like him at all, and you know it.
Right?
You restart your phone and try again, but it's the same thing.
Maybe...maybe he did block you.
You curl up a bit.
Something has to be wrong, right?
You'll give it a minute.
Eventually you give in and decide that the best way to contact Arven is going to have to be through the agency he's working with. Someone there can get you in touch, right? Like, at least get you some closure?
You wait until the Kalosian work day has started before you call, and when the line picks up, the voice on the other end is some peppy sounding woman. You introduce yourself and tell her you're trying to get in touch with Arven, that you're a friend from home.
She repeats your name back to you then says "...And you wanna talk to Arven..." She pauses on the other line. "Y'know, I don't think he's in yet this morning. Truth be told, and honestly, I probably shouldn't tell you this, but you said you're a friend? Yeah… He seemed like he got some really bad news yesterday." Your heart clenches, but she keeps going like a stereotypical gossip. "Yeah. Real rough day for him, honestly. Don't know why. Seemed pretty frustrated."
"Frustrated?"
"Yeah, I dunno... I don't really get it either. He just accepted this great full time role in our upcoming program."
"Oh..." You think you remember him mentioning something about a program when you'd spoken last. So he got offered a full job? And took it without even talking to you?
"But anyway, you didn't hear that from me. So did you want me to take a message for you?"
"Uh...no thanks. Sorry. Thanks."
You hang up before she can say anything else, your hands shaking.
He... He really must have blocked you.
-
On the other side, the PR representative for Bonne Applintite hears the call end and smiles. Not too long later, Arven enters the building, hiking his bag a bit higher up onto his shoulder.
"Good morning," He greets cheerily. "Do you have my phone ready and updated with the latest apps and everything for the agency?"
"I sure do!" The woman replies with a saccharine grin, sliding his rotom phone over from across the desk. "Thanks for leaving it with me overnight. Everything should be all set to go. Did you...?" She drifts off, her manicured nails creeping forward along the marble surface, her tone leading.
"Think about the offer?" Arven finishes. "Uh... Yeah. I did. I just wanna check in with someone back home first, y'know? It just seems like kind of a big leap. Like... I'm honored really, and I'm so happy people like my content... I just wanna talk about it first."
The woman shrugs. "Whatever you say, Arvie. I just think this'd be a great opportunity for you."
"It is, but..." He smiles fondly, totally disregarding the nickname. "We'll see what happens I guess. By the way, did I happen to get any messages last night? There’s a girl back home, and–"
“You know what? I didn’t see anything.” She interrupts him, smiling too big and speaking too loudly through teeth that are just a little too white. “Seems like she may have forgotten to text you.”
“Weird.” He replies, already walking off, his eyes glued to the device as he searches it for your contact.
Hm. Looks like some of his data got deleted, your previous text chains included... No biggie though. Your name is still there in his contacts, and that's really all he cares about. He can't wait to tell you about this new opportunity! Sure, he's kinda nervous about it. He's only been here for barely 2 months, if that, but apparently he's got some major skill, and people really like him! It's...it's actually really reassuring and affirming to him.
Growing up, Paldea had just been a place where he lived. In Kalos, with all these people around him showing him all this love and stuff... It feels like a home. It feels kinda like how he feels with you. It's not the same of course, but... He just feels like he's blossoming or something. It's wonderful.
Maybe you'd like it here, too...
Except you don't.
The conversation goes horribly. Arven doesn't get it. You don't sound like you. You were dismissive of him in the most bizarre way, basically telling him that he can fuck off and do as he likes--that you're not interested in maintaining contact anymore. It hurts. Did you find someone else or something? Hell, he hadn't been gone that long, and isn't absence supposed to make the heart grow fonder or something? You won't even video chat or pick up the phone, even though you'd been the one who had just asked him to call not long ago. 
That evening he slumps against the foot of his bed, Mabosstiff at his side, snuffling his pockets.
Arven sighs. "Well, Bud... Guess it's just you and me again for a bit..." He takes out his phone and looks over the PDF of the contract that had been sent to him.
Two and a half years total, including his current apprenticeship...
Fuck it. He's enjoyed his time here so far. What's a bit more time?
Not like anyone's gonna miss him in Paldea anyway. He spent his life, basically until now, waiting for people there to love him. At least here he's got a fresh start with a leg up.
He sends over his eSignature on the document and texts the PR rep.
-hey! Just signed the thing. Looks like I'll be here for a bit after all.
Her response is almost instant.
-yayyyyy!!!! let's go grab drinks to celebrate!!!!!!
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grrlboything · 2 years
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dungeons and daddies really means so much to me but i don’t know how to communicate that coherently so all i can say is “i hate this stupid fucking podcast (affectionate)”
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“Don’t worry if people think you’re crazy. You are crazy. You have that kind of intoxicating insanity that lets other people dream outside of the lines and become who they’re destined to be.” - Jennifer Elisabeth
“One of the best guides to how to be self-loving is to give ourselves the love we are often dreaming about receiving from others. There was a time when I felt lousy about my over-forty body, saw myself as too fat, too this, or too that. Yet I fantasized about finding a lover who would give me the gift of being loved as I am. It is silly, isn't it, that I would dream of someone else offering to me the acceptance and affirmation I was withholding from myself. This was a moment when the maxim "You can never love anybody if you are unable to love yourself" made clear sense. And I add, "Do not expect to receive the love from someone else you do not give yourself.” - Bell Hooks
“Disciple kickstarts Motivation that creates Habits that become Routines or Strategies that foster Growth. Working out in the morning (affectionately referred to as being an active member of the stupid o’clock club) has been a paramount part of my daily routine forever. Some days are Beast Mode and others simply therapy. Most often it’s a combination of both. Regardless, it’s my foundational springboard to a positive and successful rest of the day. Throw in a podcast or chapter from an audiobook and I’m Golden. Find your Routine.” - @daily-esprit-descalier
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224bbaker · 5 months
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Hi! First of all, your podcast has been one of the best pieces of media I've ever encountered, and I'm not saying this lightly. It's been months since I've listened to it, and to this day i hear Madge's voice in my brain calling me a dickhead whenever i do something stupid (which is often).
I've seen the discord link from a few days ago but it's sadly expired, is it possible to have another?
Hi there! Thank you so much--hearing things like this when you're making such a small indie show where most of the work of making/releasing it is in our homes/computers truly means the world, and we're working really hard to get back to doing it again, and to get Madge back to affectionately calling people dickheads for S2!
As for the Discord, it is fully fan-run--as people who have been in fan spaces before, we think it's important for listeners to have a space to talk about the show without worrying about people on the team potentially seeing it, so we don't run it and we're not in it. (We are in the Letters from Watson discord, though!)
However, it looks like user @sunflower-serendipity has very kindly offered in their last post about the discord to share an updated link to anyone who wants one if you want to DM or ask them. (Hopefully it was ok to tag them here!) Enjoy!!!
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ravenkings · 1 year
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I don’t need a Sensitive Guy; in my experience, guys who try to seem Sensitive never are. I don’t need to be cajoled into sex by some guy who tries to make it seem unthreatening. Sex is threatening, just like love is threatening, just like there’s a threat in any desire; love can break you, rip you open, and if you are very lucky, you will be in love enough to be destroyed by it, at least once. Even when you recover from that kind of love, you won’t be the same. Screw Bob Flanagan. Screw the fake snuff films. Love is the machine that rips your dick off and feeds your organs to the meat grinder, every time.
I don’t need a Clever Guy, either. I have known plenty of men who were more interested in seeming Clever than in seeming passionate or affectionate or loving. Our time together was rarely pleasant. This world is full of clever guys; guys with podcast pitches, guys with grad school debt, guys with tight fives and dank memes and ironic Twitter accounts in the voice of Marianne Williamson’s bath salts dealer. Guys with great bookshelves, with dazzling wits, with erudition and political acuity and drinking problems and personality disorders and a long list of ex-girlfriends you’re not supposed to talk to because they’re all “crazy.” Like I say: Lots of clever guys in the world. Not a lot of guys who are clever where it counts. Not many guys, at the end of the day, are clever enough to be kind.
I’m smart; I might be smarter than you. I’m tough; most women have to be. If you try to neg me or intimidate me, I will leave you by the side of the road, looking like a raccoon that wandered in front of a semi. I have been in this world for decades now, and I have seen some shit in my time, and I am not looking for the feeling of being dazzled. I want love. Blunt, goofy, stupid-sounding love, a feeling so big and so real that it cannot be phrased but simply. I want a guy who can look me in the eye and say, clearly and directly, we’re in this together now. I don’t need coy. I don’t need clever. I need a love so big you have to scream it. I need you to be man enough to scream.
–Jude Ellison S. Doyle, “The Erotics of Trent Reznor”
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