#This personal already struggles with taking care of their kid and brother who is completely dependent on others

[saphflare]

Personal take on "Chayanne as a Glass Child Interpretation" that no one asked for

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Apparently people have been using the "Chayanne has glass child syndrome" thing to rag on q!Philza, which I haven't seen, at least not overtly. Or at least not with the purposeful intent of labelling q!Philza completely as a Bad Parent. But I can get why ppl would feel like that is an attack on his character (*stares at DSMP*)

But I also kinda wish some ppl understood that when we interpret the fact that Chayanne is a glass child, it isn't necessarily to blame q!Philza and his parenting.

please

Because anyone that has a singular critical thinking brain cell can see that the man is trying so fucking hard to raise his two children, and that he loves both of them so much. And that is the sad thing isn't it. Because the thing about glass children is that practically always it is not intentional, and the parents never mean to neglect or force their more capable/older children to become so. That it is often just a consequence of the circumstances of their lives together, and it is something that isn't obvious most of the time until it of course becomes an issue. That for all the efforts of the caretaker(s), they sometimes need to focus on one child more because of their needs and that is perfectly understandable, especially if it is health needs. But as a result, there are gaps in the support and needs of the family. And so, other children in the family that are capable of helping just end up doing so because additional aid and care is needed.

And if you especially look at the Death family's circumstances, we can see those circumstances in play. That the island is dangerous compared even to "normal" society, with the government system provides little to no additional care for its residents & their families. If not downright making it basically punishing them because they have children, due to needing to work for additional resources for their kids (cookies, tasks, etc.) And then there are the monsters and external forces trying to kill and torment all of them. Now that is already fucked, but then you consider the fact that Philza has two children, as he is their primary caretaker due to q!Missa's frequent absence. Which not blaming q!Missa, as the family still loves him and like probable lore reasons, but regardless that adds to the circumstances of the family. That q!Philza is the only one, for the majority of the time, responsible for two kids instead of just one for most of the other parents.

Which again, I will say that other residents also help out with taking care of other eggs of their own and all that, I won't deny that. But they can't always know or be able to pinpoint all things that the two children specifically need or be reliable as the island limits their ability to help.

That at the end of the day, Philza in specific is considered the official guardian for Chayanne and Tallulah, and the one that they spend most time with in their development on the island.

That with the constant danger and additional circumstances surrounding them, it is no wonder that Chayanne ended up taking more responsiblity, becoming more mature in the process. That like any other kid that could see their family struggling and also feel it, he wanted to help his dad. And especially at first, when they had Tallulah and it was evident she needed support due to her asthma and health issues (aka internet issues). She needed not just the support of Philza, who was already lacking consistent support of a partner, but also her brother to help out in case. That it might not have been the intention for Chayanne to take on these burdens or have to grow up so fast, but it happened out of necessity.

That it was as a result of everything they have faced on that island, both good and bad, for Chayanne to have turned out the way he has now and before.

And, I want to stress this so fucking much that neither Philza nor Tallulah are responsible for this. No one in this family is completely at fault because for fucks sakes it isn't exactly like they fucking meant for Chayanne to be a parentified child. That yes their circumstances contributed to to the situation, but that is the same as saying the island has given them lemons and they had to just do the best with it. And that in some ways, they are still growing out of their original dynamics, even months now that they have changed so much and literally have been displaced onto a new place. That in this manner specifically, Philza sometimes still falls into the same mentality in believing Tallulah is still the same little girl that he needs to constantly look out for, when she has become so much more and grown to be able to defend herself. Honestly almost, if not, just as well as Chayanne. But I also acknowledge that he has improved quite a bit, and given her much more freedom and autonomy, especially since they all reunited after Purgatory. But he is still getting used to it, and even in these few months, he has learned to give them room to grow a bit.

Also, I don't blame him for sometimes falling back on the old habits considering you know the dangers he is so guarded against are real and most definitely out to get him and his eggs.

The whole thing of people having flaws and making mistakes yada yada ya, they don't know everything they need to do all the time, especially with things changing constantly and all that shit.

And in some ways, I look at Chayanne right now and I see he is more of a glass child healing from their early circumstances. That his family has acknowledged in some way that he had to take on so much more than what a kid should have. And while I don't think they have unpackaged everything, and that it something that will take a lot more time. Not to mention all the new issues that pop up every other fucking day (for void sake, let this family have a goddamn break). But the thing is they are improving. That they are definitely moving towards that direction in which they are looking in retrospect of what they had to deal with and realizing things. And then, they are having conversations about it together.

And look, for all the things you can say about Death Family, they are all trying their best. That yes perhaps their family is dysfunctional due to fact that it is literally IMPOSSIBLE to cultivate a healthy stable and safe environment for them to grow up in. And yes, of course there are interpersonal issues and current trauma that they need to work through because of all the things they experienced on the island, there are issues in every family, small or big that needs to be worked through. But that doesn't negate the fact that they are trying so hard to the best of their abilities because of each other. That it is undeniable that they have sought to improve and grow and become who they are because they love their family, and hold each other closely in their hearts. That they are still people actively trying to discover things about themselves. And it will always be a struggle in their places as the family they are, but they do so out of love for each other.

But yes whole point is, "Chayanne has experiences that can be comparable to that of a glass child" and "q!Philza is a flawed person that is trying his best" and "Death Family is dysfunctional but also loving of each other" are all statements that can exist together.

Death Family isn't perfect and I love them for that <3

#qsmp #qsmp death family #qsmp philza #qsmp chayanne #qsmp tallulah #qsmp analysis #qsmp fandom crit #saph rambles #is this a hot take i dunno know #but i was getting a bit annoyed with ppl going - oh Chayanne isn't a glass child just ppl being mean to Philza for no reason -_- #<--- Me as an oldest child specifically relating to Chayanne because of experiences having a parent that means well but shit *circumstances #also if I do see anyone shit on any of the Death Family members for Chayanne being glass child or blah blah I am smacking you SHUT #i love death family specifically because they are flawed and imperfect but its undeniable they love each other #and because of that they are trying so hard to improve and go on for each other by facing the fact they have unintentionally hurt each othe #and it is hard but that is the process of making amends and taking accountability so they can heal and i feel so normal about it #i just like yapping about death family my cubitos <3

[sastiel-is-my-serotonin]

I wasn't planning on doing anything this week, because of this weeks strike. But the environment me and my sister's are in isn't good for us.

My hair is falling out, I'm constantly in pain from stress, and my anxiety is so bad that I cannot sleep. Meanwhile my sister is bleeding from the stress. That's just the stress my older sister and I are going through.

Hello, if you aren't familiar with me, I spent 2023 homeless for majority of the year. We are living with someone else and have been since Thanksgiving. Since then, my sister got a job, I am working on getting my ID, i have the money for it, I just need to get to a DMV, and I am enrolling myself into school again.

I stay at home with my two younger siblings, one is still a minor, the other is an adult, but they're both disabled and need someone to help them fulltime. Hence why I stay at home.

We are with a legal guardian and their partner, but our legal guardian does not own the property. And it's unclear how much they know is going on with us and their partner who is making us stress out to the point we deem it unsafe.

This partner stated I cannot stay on the property to take care of my siblings unless I enroll into school. I am hoping I have everything I need to fully enroll because I have very few documents on me.

I am the primary caretaker for my siblings, my older sister is right after me. As I understand and meet their needs, they trust me to advocate for them and to protect them.

Making this stipulation has made trying to enroll even more stressful than it had been before. Hence the heightened anxiety.

My older sister and my other sibling, who are four years apart, had a dispute yesterday. The younger one did attack our older sister, our sister did not retaliate. It was all verbal except for that attack, however, this partner is claiming there's abuse.

They threatened to take it to CPS as we have an active case open, and despite trying to explain the situation, it changed nothing. They told us this is far from over and they know the system.

We have already talked about wanting to leave because of the first instance with me. Now, we believe we have no choice but to tell CPS about how uncomfortable we are in this environment.

If you can help us get out of this environment, here's some links that can help.

Cash.app

Paypal

I hate having to do this, but I cannot handle this constant pain and anxiety. I already have health issues that I constantly have to maintain, I am scared about the damage this is doing to me. I'm even more scared for my sister because she's having similar health problems our mom has had, and those are fatal.

So please, share or donate if you can. I apologize for having to do this again but I have put it off as long as I could.

#I tried to make this as clear as possible bc the full situation is a lot #It reads to my sister and i that this is revenge towards our family #And that this partner is trying to take our siblings away from us #Which is really alarming bc this person cannot meet their basic needs #They cannot even get them to the dinner table #I am the one who helps with all their basic needs as one is in a wheelchair and the other is close to being in one #This personal already struggles with taking care of their kid and brother who is completely dependent on others #And often causes more stress to those two individuals enough so their brother went to the hospital from the stress #Like this is not a healthy environment for anyone #Being so stressed out to the point of hospitalization is huge #And I think my sister and I are on a similar path #Please anything you can do to help is appreciated #We're grateful for anything you can do to help

[shanastoryteller]

Happy holidays! Lady mo please?

a continuation of 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59

Jiang Yanli does not often feel old. Her golden core does not keep her eternally young like it does her brother, does not prevent the more persistent illnesses from plaguing her, but it does east the aches and pains non cultivators her age often complain of, does keep her skin youthful without the aid of strange poultices and she’ll probably never need dyes to keep her hair dark. But she feels old now, watching Xuanyu and Lan Wangji fumble around one another, watching her struggle for the affection of a husband who might care for her, but does not treat her with care.

At least by the time she married Zixuan, he’d told her that he loved her.

 “What was all the commotion about?” Zixuan asks, arms encircling her waist as he tugs her back against his chest now that they’re back in their own quarters.

“Your cousin got drunk and pissed off the wrong people. Again.”

He huffs, his breath warm against her neck. “Yanli. You know that’s not what I’m talking about. I know A-Yao thinks I’m stupid, but even I notice servants running about and clan leaders and their wives going missing. Especially when one of them is mine.”

“A-Yao doesn’t think you’re stupid,” Jiang Yanli says, even though he kind of does. He thinks most people are stupid and Zixuan has at least grown out of taking it personally. That doesn’t mean she has to rub it in. “Xuanyu was just – a little upset. About things.”

“Lan Xichen likes her. Lan Wangji’s kid adores her. And we all saw what Lan Wangji thinks,” he says. Defending is also not the same thing as caring, but she doesn’t say that. “A-Yao even calls her our sister. Do you remember how long it took him to call me brother? It seems like it’s going well.”

If it had gone a little less well, she’d be less distraught.

Jiang Yanli is debating how much she can say without revealing Xuanyu’s pregnancy – enough people know that it won’t stay a secret for long, but Zixuan is terrible at faking surprise – when there’s a loud, frantic knocking at their door.

Zixuan frowns and goes to open the door.

“Fuck off,” slurs a familiar, beloved voice.

Jiang Yanli hides a smile and goes to stand next to her husband.

A-Cheng is standing there, sort of, considering he’s mostly being supported but a long-suffering Li Jun. “Meimei said she won’t deal with him anymore.”

“Ah,” Zixuan says, already resigned.

A-Cheng stumbles forward, grabbing her wrist and tugging her towards the table. He blearily glares at Zixuan. “Go away.”

He sighs, leaning down to kiss her and then saying, “I suppose I’ll be in a guest room.” He makes a face, remembering that the tower is full of foreign disciples. “Somewhere.”

He’s going to end up sleeping in their son’s room and A-Ling is going to complain about it. Loudly.

“Good night,” she says, barely keeping from laughing as she closes the door on Li Jun side eyeing Zixuan. Her sect has never completely forgiven Zixuan for being a teenage boy, not matter that she’s spent over a decade in the Jin rather than the Jiang.

She lets A-Cheng pull her down beside him at the table, leaning his head on his arm while he stares at her. She pours him a cup of water that she hopes he’ll drink. “Are you all out of sorts because of Xuanyu too?”

His face goes blank then it creases and he’s turns to hide it in the bend of his elbow.

With the first stirrings of genuine alarm, Jiang Yanli realizes he’s crying.

“A-Cheng? A-Cheng, what’s wrong?” she asks, putter her arm over his back and pulling him into her side like she used to when they were kids.

The words come out muffled, but he says, “I hate him. How could he – I hate him.” Then, quieter, in a tone that doesn’t match the words at all, “I hate him.”

She runs through everyone who’s here, every cultivator she saw A-Cheng speak to, but it’s a fool’s errand. No one gets to him like this. No one but –

“Wei Wuxian came back.”

#prompt answers #prompts are closed #asks #xxqiao #untamed

[igotanidea]

Phantom: Jason Todd x ghost!reader

part 2 to Specter

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He would never say it outloud, not that he had to, but adjusting to living without her took much more time then it should.

When he came back, lost, confused and thrown into completely different reality when Tim replaced him in the role of Robin, when Damian joined the family, when he was apparently no longer welcomed and fitting, Y/N would have been the only familiar thing keeping him from jumping into the abyss of madness.

 And now, he had to struggle through every day with the thought of her lingering in the back of his mind, followed by two simple words that seemed to justify his every action and pushing forward.

For her.

For her, because she wouldn’t want to watch you fall into the claws of depression.

For her, since it was the only way to prove he was actually worth something and if there was something beyond the grave, Jason wanted her to be proud of him.

Oh,

To see her, just one more time. To hear her voice, her laugh, to feel the touch of her hand on his cheek, always so gentle and caring, even when he did something stupid or reckless.

His mind was turning in direct proportion to the way his body was tossing in bed unable to sleep.

He missed her terribly, only now realizing how much pain it actually brings to loose someone without hope of ever getting them back into one’s life.

Like never ever.

What it meant to get killed and to kill. Having someone’s all fate in one’s hands, playing God, deciding who was and who wasn’t to survive. And if anything it felt like a heavy burden on his shoulders. Jason never regretted getting rid of the scumbags and criminals of Gotham, cleaning the street, taking on the responsibility neither Batman nor any of his brother were ever capable of pursuing. He knew the consequences, both positive and negative. But for the first time he understood the personal emptiness coming from killing.

If only she was here.

She would probably scoff at him, act indifferent and then say something funny or mocking to diffuse the tension that would make them both laugh and feel at least a bit better about this whole vigilantism mess they got involved in as kids.

Or maybe she would be like Bruce. Rejecting him because he had changed his tactics and methods of operation? After all, he wasn’t so brutal and aggressive when he was Robin, she knew him as.

“Fuck!” he hissed, jumping of the bed, unable to have any rest “Get yourself together Todd!” standing in front of bathroom mirror he clutched the sink, almost breaking it due to the force he put into action. “She’s dead. She’s gone. Who the fuck care of what she would think!?” he looked deep into his own eyes, showing desperation, loneliness, fear and uncertainty for future. Despite not being the one to dwell on the past and overanalyze, he could almost see the little street kid he was years ago looking back at him.

“On the other side of the mirror like a fucking Alice in Wonderland” he muttered to himself, head hanging low.

At least until he noticed a shadow appearing behind his back and reflecting in the glass surface, immediately activating all his fighting instincts.

“WHO THE HELL IS HERE?! GET OUT AND SHOW YOUR FACE YOU COWARD!”

Obviously no one showed up which only spur his aggression further on.

“Come out, come out, wherever you are.” Jason muttered casually, but there was no denying his predatory tone that made the innocent words seem life threatening.  “Cause when I find you myself, I’ll make you beg for mercy…” he smirked at the plan already forming in his head as he started searching for the intruder in the whole apartment.

“Is that how you greet an old friend?” a voice, not much louder than a whisper or a rustle of a spring wind bounced off the walls, but there still wasn’t anyone inside.

“SHOW YOURSELF!”

“You know, I can’t remember you being this violent back in the days….”

“THE HELL!?”

“Calm yourself Jaybird, I kinda get what it means to be brought back from the grave.”

“What--?”

Jason’s stutters weren’t interrupted by a thunder or lightning or any other supernatural weather occurrence and yet, the familiar silhouette floating in the air, surrounded by a faint blue glow, almost stopped his heart.

“Y/N?”

“Hey Jaybrird.” She smirked as if she wasn’t a ghost appearing out of thin air. “couldn’t leave me alone even from behind the grave, huh?”

“You’re dead!” he cried out taking a step back even if all his instincts were telling him to run from forward and hold her. The rational part of his brain telling him that she clearly had no body to hold.

‘No more than you I see. How’s life, Todd?”

“Like a second chance that I’m obviously wasting not being a good boy.” He rolled his eyes, suddenly feeling the wave of happiness and familiarity stemming from her presence even in this form.

“Oh, please!” she laughed “good boys are holdovers. Haven’t you heard that girls only fall for the misfits and rebels?”

“Is that why you’re here then? Cause you missed the rebel I became?”

“I’m here because clearly your obsessive thoughts about me became so intrusive that someone up there decided I need to come back and teach you a lesson about leaving dead people in peace.”

“Y/N…” he sighed meeting her eyes, that were still the same e/c orbs he loved so much.

“I know…”

“I missed you…”

“I know…”

Guided my some crazy instinct he approached her, his hand travelling up to cup her cheek, to feel the texture of her skin, but instead meeting the cold air when his fingers permeated the ghost form of his friend/lover.

And it was so fucking depressing. Having her so close and still feeling the distance and separation deriving from the thin line separating two worlds – living and death – unable to cross them. If he knew it would work and they would meet afterlife he would reach for one of his guns and put a bullet in his head right away just to be with her, but the risk of going straight to hell and being divided forever was too great.

So he settled on satisfying his eyes with her half-lucent presence and his ears with the home-like voice.

“I’m sorry-“ she whispered

“No.” he cut her off abruptly, tears almost springing from his eyes at having her but not having her at the same time. “I’m sorry. I wasn’t there for you. I should have been. I should have listened when you told me to stay and not pursue this stupid search-“

“It was not your fault. You were a kid.”

“I should have known better.”

“Neither of us did. And being stupid is a privilege of childhood and teenagerhood.”

“Is that your way of telling me I should be rational and mature now?” Jason teased, pushing the pain away, deep inside.

“Nah.” She laughed softly and it echoed through the empty space like bells “that’s impossible! Not with all I saw you doing.”

“You- you saw?!”

‘I saw. But me calling you out on all your shit is not something why I’m here.”

“Then why are you here Y/N?”

“I have no idea…”

“Is there any way to –“

“Bring me back?”

“Yeah.”

“Straight to the point, huh? Are there anything filthy in your mind that might be the reason of this sudden urge Mr. Todd?” Y/N joked.

“You have no idea.” Something dangerous flashed In his eyes “But seriously, is there?”

“Do I look like a ghost expert?”

“You are a ghost so who better!?”

“Oh, excuse me, let me call Klaus from umbrella academy and ask his expertise.”

“What? He;s a fictional character!”

“Yes, but it’s similar level of abstraction! I have no body, I have no special skills, sorry to disappoint, so even if I was to cast a spell or something-“

“A spell!” Jason interrupted her with the widest grin.

“What?” that sudden change in attitude got her by surprise, brows furrowing in confusion.

“I know an expert on the spells.”

“Please tell me you don’t mean—”

“Oh I do mean!”

“I am not going to take Constantine advice!”

‘Too bad I didn’t ask your opinion on the matter. It’s been decided.”

“Damn, you are an asshole.”

“Yeah, asshole desperate enough to make a fool out of himself if that gets him the girl he’s into back.”

@havikspike

#jason todd x reader #red hood x reader #jason todd x you #red hood x you #jason todd x y/n #red hood x y/n #jason todd angst #red hood angst

[knife-em0ji]

Sorry for this long post but can people stop treating Vader and Anakin as completely separate people. Like. That type of dissociation were obviously coping mechanisms by Old Ben and Vader. Not like. A literal fragmentation of personalities. Like if you love Anakin Skywalker imo you have to accept that he was a cute kid and a padme simp and a fun older brother and a boy desperately in need of acknowledgement and praise and a father who ultimately loved his son but also a guy who commits atrocities in his anger and strangles people who annoy him and has a victim/persecution complex (although admittedly for good reason) and was also a notorious child killer. This man contains multitudes.

Imo falling to the dark side/using the light side of the force isn’t marked by a shift or fragmentation of personality, but rather what emotions are used to channel the force and guide one’s actions. I think part of what’s so hard about resisting the dark side and coming back to the light is that there’s positive feedback loops of power, and resisting that by doing good and healthily channeling emotions is just plain hard. Especially in the case of Anakin, who is notoriously a “in for a penny, in for a pound” type of guy. He’s loyal and loves completely and dangerously with his whole heart, and he hates just as much.

And I think guilt is a huge factor with him struggling to do good; it’s pretty much a thought process of “Well, I’ve already committed thousands of atrocities and have countless amounts of blood on my hands, I have to believe whole hog in what I’ve been doing because then otherwise what was it all for.” I think that’s what makes his sacrifice for Luke so poignant, because it speaks to how much he loves his son that he’s able to overcome that spiral and do one last act of love for his son, unselfishly and without rationalization.

Idk, I just watched ESB again, and I think beyond just wanting to possess Luke and use him for power, it’s reasonable to think that part of the reason Vader wants him so badly to turn to the dark side with him is that he still thinks the dark side is the only way he can have enough power to protect his family and therefore keep them—he’s objectively much more powerful than he was in the prequels, and a main part of his struggles during the fall of the Republic was that he didn’t feel “strong enough” to protect the people he loved as a Jedi. He wasn’t able to free the slaves. He wasn’t able to save his mother. He wasn’t able to stop Ashoka’s expulsion from the order. He wasn’t able to prevent Padmé from dying. With the commitment he’s had to his path and the objective amount of power he’s amassed since the twins’ births, I think it’s reasonable to assume he desperately grasping at the idea that somehow, this time, he’ll be able to achieve what he’s never been able to do before. But his failure always lies in the fact that his motivations are, and always have been, ultimately self-serving, that his pride and fear of loss—which are completely understandable in moderation and not something he should necessarily be punished for—outweigh his real and genuine care for his loved ones and the galaxy at large.

Idk. All this to say that Anakin has always been Vader and Vader has always been Anakin. They’re the same fucking person, you fools! Stop taking dissociative rationalization literally!!! It’s right there in the text!!!! His return to the light does not negate his time in the dark and vice versa! There is good in him !! He is capable of unspeakable evil !!! BOTH ARE TRUE AT THE SAME TIME!!!!!

#darth vader #anakin skywalker #Star Wars #look. I have a PhD in Darth Vader. he is my babygirl. my sweet cheese. my silly rabbit. #my meow meow has committed atrocities by the likes you’ve never even believed #Vader studies #tbh don’t even get me started about how I think imposing a strict binary on a cosmic energy field and channelling exclusively one side of it #is reductive to the theme of ‘balance’ like. how can you be balanced if you only use one side and whole heartedly reject the other huh. huh

[highpri3stess]

i’m so confused for chapter 4… does izana care about reader in some ways after seeing his brothers reactions? i know he might be possessive a little, but i want to know what your thoughts are about how shinichiro & izana feel. 

i know for sure mikey is obsessed and confused, which is why he thinks he’s “being good” by showing exactly how he feels (like in the first part of the chapter), 

but izana??? so is he also trying to be with reader, does he care??? i’m talking about what takeomi said to him

what are your thoughts, i’m curious

Alright, I'll explain to you in details.

Let's go back to chapter 2, specifically the scene:

"That rawness of fear that acted up as your life flashed before your very eyes shifted something in him. You’re just a weak girl. A weak, vulnerable little girl who thinks she has a bark that he can do whatever he wants to her.

He almost cannot believe the boner growing in his pants right now. He’s never felt this way for you. Meek girls were always so boring to him and yet he wants to fuck you. He wants to claim you as his own personal toy only he can play with.

The familiar thrill, once again. He’s feeling it with you.

You’re still coughing and sputtering as you lay on the ground when Izana mindlessly gets off you. He’s conflicted within himself, wondering if he should leave you for another time or relieve himself there and then. There’s just something so sexy to him about your helpless body at his mercy, he could decide if he wanted to take you here and you would never be able to fight back"

In chapter 2 we already have an insight of how Izana sees women and then reader. He thinks that reader's efforts are futile, but it's fun when she struggles. He's already an adrenaline junkie and implied sex addict, and he sees women as tools to satisfy himself. The thing about this is that reader IS just another tool, but she's different. She's noveau in terms of his attraction, but the thing is, he wants her to be for his own entertainment. Like him controlling the strings.

Which is why he finds joy at Mikey's depression because he knows it would give rise to something. Remember when reader recalls what Emma said about Izana and mikey's rivalry in chapter 1:

"From what Emma told you, Izana’s provocative nature was the gasoline to Mikey’s volatile mental state, akin to fire. Even the littlest of things that no one would bat an eye for could incite a bloody brawl between them. And as they grew older, more people were involved in their petty rivalry, since neither Emma nor Shinichiro agreed to take their side."

Izana knows the influence he has on Mikey's mental state. In chapter 3 he was able to rile Mikey to fight him harder, so it's easier to use Mikey to make you suffer for his own enjoyment and him and Mikey would be equals in your life, lording over you. But Shinichiro is different. Which is why Takeomi said he can't complete with him. This is a man he looks up to and if you're protected by him, then how would he play with his toy?

Think of it this way: A kid is biting and chewing on their doll. An adult sees them and puts the doll away on the top shelf. The kid cries and throws a tantrum and then figures out if he uses the step ladder he'll get to the toy and he can continue chewing on it.

Izana is the child. Reader is the doll, shin is the adult and mikey is the ladder.

In essence, he loves playing God, so he only grants mercy so as to dangle hope, only to snatching it away. I hope this helps.

#monsters ♡ #analysis

[atthebell]

I love the way Bagi and Cellbit are portraying their story around two siblings who have been separated. Because it just feels so true. (Esp to me who had a very similar situation growing up)

Because having a sibling around for the beginning of your childhood and then not seeing them for a long time up until you're both adults, your not going to see eye to eye on a lot of things, your not always going to get along, but still your still family. And isn't it at least owed to see the person that they became while you were not there?

exactly, they're showing a type of sibling relationship that does really exist (insane supernatural/fictional circumstances notwithstanding) and they're doing it really well! it's really difficult to suddenly have a new relationship with someone you either don't remember or haven't seen since you were really young, and navigating that is always going to be a struggle.

and i think what people don't seem to get is like. bagi literally said that she would take cellbit as he is. she knew while tracking him down what had happened to him and what he'd done, and she knew that they wouldn't just automatically be super close and completely okay again. she told him this, she said it over and over again-- she knew that he wasn't the same kid she knew, and she didnt care. she spent years tracking him down because he's her brother, and nothing he's done or nothing about who he's become changes that. what matters is that her brother is alive and she found him. and on cellbit's side of things, he doesn't remember any of it, doesn't remember her, and he's been thrust into a relationship he thought was impossible and nonexistent for him. of course he's scared and lashing out and unsure, but as we've already seen, he's settling more and more into it, and undoubtedly they are going to work on things to become closer or at least less awkward. plus i know the two of them together will be the most obnoxious unstoppable force the federation could possibly conceive of like. they are going to have to team up for investigation stuff eventually and i'm very excited about it

#asks #anons #gemeos do misterio

[localfandomweirdo]

Hidden Struggle (FNaF D.C.A. Fanfic)

Tw:Bullying,Angst, Swearing,Harassment, Happy ending,use of homophobic slurs,Fluff,Eclipse punches someone,Sun says a No-No word

-NOT INCEST-

Moon slammed his locker shut with more force than necessary,if he hurried he could-

"Hey,dweeb!" That voice.That voice.

Moon snapped around and sure enough Rusty,the literal worst person to exist was walking towards him,along with his crooks.

"What?" Moon snapped, he really didn't want to deal with Rusty today.

"Just wanted to walk you back to your dumpster."

"...shut it.I don't fucking wann-" He was cut off by Rusty's friends, who he thought was named Travis,(but Trashvis fit better),and Leo,grabbed both his arms and pinned him against the lockers,Moon couldn't fight it and once more cursed his skinny and lanky frame,he really couldn't help it!

Okay,sure,Moon would skip meals however he could but still!

He was snapped from his thoughts by Rusty elbowing him in the gut,hard.Tears welled in his dark eyes,but he forced himself to not cry in front of them.

"Awww,are you gonna cryyyyy?" Travis taunted.

Moon looked around,no-one even acknowledged the situation, who would?Everyone seemed to hate Moon,to them he was just a miserable and shy weirdo,and no-one wanted to cross Rusty and his friends,they weren't 'popular',but were know for getting into fights. (All the popular kids seemed to be actually pretty nice).And calling for help would do nothing but destroy his voice box.He wasn't used to talking loudly.

"Hey,what's this?" Leo smirked as he snatched something out of Moon's hoodie pocket with his free hand.

And Moon realized with a sinking feeling that it was his phone.

"Awww,it's him and his brothers!" Travis snickered, commenting on the lock screen, which was,indeed, a picture of Moon,Sun and Eclipse.

"Damn,Moon.Do you really think your brothers care about you? You're more delusional than I thought." Rusty said,grinning as Moon physically flinched,he found a weak spot.

"Your brothers probably only tolerate you because they have to. I mean, who would love a fag like you?"

Fag.He had many issues with that word.It wasn't that he was COMPLETELY CLOSETED,but he wasn't out front, wearing Gay and LGBTQ pride clothes and accessories all the time.And sure he got flustered when one of the boys in his classes paid attention to him,but still.

"Your brothers probably secretly hate you, I mean, who wouldn't?You just weigh them down,they'd kick you to the curb if they cou-"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" Moon snapped. His rage boiled over,and his anger issues definitely didn't help,his throat already stung,but,hey,what was he gonna do about it?

"YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ME OR MY BROTHERS,SO SHUT THE HELL UP,YOU MOTHERFUCKING,MAN WH-" He was cut off by Rusty's fist colliding with his face.

Leo and Travis let go of Moon's arms as he slide to the floor back against the lockers. Tears finally fell from his eyes.

"Feh,c'mon guys.Let's go,see ya' later,Asshole." Rusty spat as he and his friends left.Students jumped out of their path as they strode away,a few looked at Moon,some with pity,others with sympathy. But most with amusement,like he deserved it.

'You just weigh them down.'

'You just weigh them down.'

'You just weigh them down.'

That one sentence replayed in his head,over and over.

No,he didn't... Did he?

Oh,god.He did.Times Rusty and his gang beat him up and he said he'd fallen,they always FOCUSED on HIM.Not school work or anything else. Whenever he was sick,they'd take off school as well,all for Moon having a pathetic immune system.How could he not have noticed?

He weighed them down.

He weighed them down.

He weighed them down.

He weighed them do-

"Moon?Moon!Are you okay?!" He came back to reality when Sun's panicked voice broke through his thoughts,Sun and Eclipse were standing over him.

"Huh?O-oh,y-yeah...fine!" Moon stood up and smiled,trying to seem as normal as possible.

"Fine?Most people who are 'fine' don't have bruises on their face!" Eclipse said,eyes narrowed at the newly forming mark on the side of Moon's face.

"I-i uhm..fell?" It came out more a question then an answer.

"...let's go." Eclipse said,beckoning Sun to follow, Sun gently took Moon's wrist and followed.

-----

He led them to an empty classroom,closed the door and began inspecting the bruise again.

"Moony?Be honest, who the fudge did this?" Sun said,teeth grinding together,touching their foreheads together.

"I-i told you!I fell..." Moon muttered.

"Oh,really?You fell the same time Rusty supposedly beat up some 'bitch'?" Eclipse scoffed.

"I-um...yes?"

"Moondrop. Don't you fucking lie." Sun said,voice stern and intimidating.

Moon froze, not only had Sun sworn,but also used his full name,and not some stupid pet or nickname (He was,of course, quite fond of said names).

"R-rusty..." He whimpered, head bowed.

"Thank you,Moony." Sun smiled, kissing his youngest brother's hairline.

Eclipse stayed silent then stormed out of the classroom, hands balled into fists.

"Oh,crud." Sun said,hurrying after him,Moon followed.

------

Rusty was standing with some friends by the main exit,probably waiting for Moon,but seeing Eclipse storm up,their smug expressions turned to confusion.

"Oh,he-" Rusty was cut off by Eclipse punching him, Rusty fell to the ground as Eclipse got on top of him (I know what you're thinking, you dirty minded ducks >:\ ),punching him repeatedly.

Sun and Moon's shouts were drowned by a crowd gathering and yelling 'Fight!Fight!Fight!' Over and over again.

-------

And that's how Eclipse got suspended for 3 weeks,he would of been kicked out of Theater and the Debate team and probably expelled if it wasn't for Leo and Travis admitting that Rusty had indeed injured Moon and Eclipse was 'just defending his little, helpless brother.'.Moon did NOT have a good time playing that role during his integration,stuttering and whimpering, constantly needing one of his brothers called in to calm him down,sometimes both.

But it paid off,Rusty was gone.Expelled. And his friends suspended for 3 months each.

As the three were FINALLY able to leave,it was already getting dark.

One bus ride later and an elevator ride,they were back in their cozy little apartment.

And a mess of limbs on the couch.

-The End-

------------

Sorry this took so long.😅

Bye. *Grabs jetpack and flies off*

👁👄👁

#fnaf #fnaf security breach #fnaf au #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf eclipse #fnaf sundrop #fnaf moondrop #fnaf human au #fnaf oc #fnaf original character #oc #high school #high school au #human au #AU

[yaqamole]

Alright since I’ve got time before my last class for the day, I’m going to talk about Romano.

I’ve definitely changed up my interpretation over the years and molded him into something more than what canon gave, so I’d say at this point he’s an OC. But regardless, I just want to talk about him as a character with pride.

Lorenzo has a lot of things he has to work through and a lot of trauma that he just refuses to address. It’s for this reason that he always sees himself as a victim even when he’s in the wrong but also why he’s so stubborn and insists that he’s right.

It’s not like he hasn’t had his fair share of mistakes or misconceptions. 

But his pride is such an important aspect to his character.

He lacks a self-esteem, yes, but he has an incredible sense of pride in who he is and what he believes in. However, this isn’t always a good thing. Sometimes it means that you can get into arguments with him and he will refuse to admit that he is wrong about whatever the subject was.

It also means that he struggles so ask for help. He thinks that he’s already seen as someone incapable of taking care of himself and as a result he struggles to admit that there are times when he could use a helping hand. It’s much easier to pretend that everything is fine and seem like he has it together even when he clearly does not.

Lorenzo likes to feel like he is completely capable of managing the world on his own when it comes to his relations with other nations, especially with his siblings. You will never catch him admitting to his siblings that he needs help. He’d rather die.

But the thing is most people know he needs help sometimes, he just really is too prideful to let anyone in too much.

That is until it comes to the people that live around him. Then suddenly he is willing to do anything, he’s a part of a community, and he’s more than happy to accept the helping hand. You’ll catch him exchanging goods with the neighbors or letting the kids help him pick fruit. He seems so much happier.

A big part of that is that his pride comes from being so defensive over not being considered a real nation. He doesn’t get to do the work his brother does and is left to do physical labor and get his hands dirty. His contributions are little if any at all and it’s not because he doesn’t want to but that he isn’t permitted to.

He lets the humans in because they don’t pass the same judgement onto him and there isn’t pity from them that he feels like he gets from other nations. He’s allowed to be Lorenzo who owns chickens and makes peach jam and cookies. He is Lorenzo who always has a smile on his face and who is more than happy to join in a party and dance with the local people.

The pictures of him smiling and letting his guard down are all in environments where he doesn’t feel he has to put up a facade in order to be accepted or not seen as a mistake of some sort.

Would he be less prideful if he had more of a role in his nation? Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe his pride would come from some different source. It’s difficult to tell. But what is certain is that he is a complicated person with so many layers and barriers and getting to see those glimpses of when he isn’t rough and angry is something special.

Prideful Lorenzo getting to be human too.

#yaqas headcanons #hws romano #hws #aph romano #lorenzo di salvo #aph #hetalia #yaqa.text

[beloved-cat-gremlin]

So a lot of people got invested in my FNaF Owl House crossover with Cassie as Luz and Gregory as Hunter.

And I have been playing around with ideas on who to swap out with the characters in the show (I've got some good ones piled up already, might make a post about those). But the one I'm struggling with the most seems to be Eda.

On one hand many people seem to want Eda to be replaced with Roxy, considering the design parallels. On the other hand my personal take would be for Michael to swap places with Eda, since that has higher stakes in terms of story telling with William as Belos.

So I'm making a poll to ask which one I should replace Eda with. Heck maybe I'll even do both and create two completely different AUs with different character swaps.

I'll also provide some more in depth points for why both either Roxy or Michael should replace Eda, under the cut.

So question is:

Argument Points for Roxy:

Roxy seems to be people's first choice considering I made Cassie replace Luz. And in game Roxy seems to act very protective of Cassie, making it a good fit and parallel to how Eda came to care for Luz.

Roxy also has a lot of similarities to Eda in terms of design and personality. They both seem harsh on the outside, but do genuinely care for certain kids and both are sporting a beautiful mane of hair.

Bonus points for the curse aspect: Roxy could turn into a sort of werewolf instead of an owl beast, if we are playing around with the idea that Roxy would take a more human like appearance than an animal one, prior to the curse.

With Roxy as Eda I could also tie some other FNaF characters into the story as well. Like making OG Foxy take Dell's place, which would work both in context of the owl house as well as the FNaF world.

Shipping Bonus: If Roxy ends up as Eda, Glamrock Chica would make a perfect fit as Raine.

Argument Points for Michael:

With Michael as Eda there is a lot more potential to dive into a more story focused AU, rather than a simple swap one. With basically everyone agreeing that William would be Belos, it would work beautifully in a story telling way to put Michael as Eda.

In this context I would have to alter a lot of the original owl house plots and ideas to fit this AU, but isn't that like every AU, really?

With the idea of Michael being William's oldest son, it would mean that he too, is human. Meaning he too must have found a way to survive for over 400 years like his own father. And while not true for owl house canon, this does work with what we are given in FNaF lore.

And not just that but it does work in favor of some of the other characters that are swapped out. For instance: Helpy as King would work out well with Michael as Eda, since the fandom has basically dubbed Helpy as Mike's "son" so to speak.

It also works with my two potential replacements for Lilith. Either with Vanessa or an adult Elizabeth, it would work in terms of story for either of them as Lilith, if Mike was Eda. (Especially Vanessa who has a lot of parallels to Lilith's character.)

While the curse aspect doesn't have that big of an impact for Michael, I could make his owl beast form a type of werefox. To reflect the horrible deeds he had committed regarding his younger brother.

Shipping Bonus: With Michael as Eda it would be more than fitting to put Jeremy as Raine. Which does work too with context from both FNaF lore and TOH story.

#five nights at freddy's #fnaf #fnaf au #the owl house #toh au #polls #no art

[saltysexyskellington666]

Headcanons for Marty Mcfly

General Headcanons

Okay so Let’s get one thing straight about Mr Marty Mcfly, my man is 𝙁𝙞𝙣𝙚 as hell. He’s good looking okay? Don’t but, or at me mfs. Let me fucking cry because I don’t have this man in my life.

He knows hunny, he knows he’s good looking you don’t gotta tell him ;))

He a little chonky 😮‍💨

Okay okay fr though lets get down pat k? Okay good. Marty is sweet okay? He really is a sweetheart. He’s a good kid at heart. He knows that and so does doc. <3

Now. Here. Me. Out. He does NOT put up with peoples shit. As someone who has been bullied and harassed by his family and people at school he will throw shit down. It doesn’t matter if your friends or not, if you know him or not, he’s not putting up with peoples shit in this town.

He already had to do it enough, and he Dosent want other people to have to either. Trust me he 𝙆𝙣𝙤𝙬𝙨 he fucking knows.

He loves doc he really does. After everything they’ve been through together, it’s brought them closer than ever. They are very close to each other considering the fact Marty met him when he was like 13.

Unfortunately that’s part of the reason why he gets bullied so much is because Marty’s 17 and doc is like 50. Like i said earlier He’s gotten tougher, stronger. Unfortunately being nice, and kind leads to people taking advantage of you. So Marty’s..def grown.

ANyWaYS BACK TO doc :)) Marty couldn’t be more proud of him. He loves Clara and thinks the kids are wonderful.(Although Marty fucking hated Clara before, for obvious reasons lmaoo he would never admit that though)

HOWEVER Marty enjoys being like a big brother to both Verne and Jules. Verne loves learning how to skateboard with Marty..I mean after all you always gotta have a mature brother…and well Verne LMAO.

Doc and Marty try to spend time together now and then, but like i said with doc having a family doc would like to spend more time with them.

Marty understand completely and he is know where mad. He gets it, he wants to find his own way in life, find love, friends, explore find his 𝙁𝙪𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙚 yk? Being through time, and different decades and shit..it’s rlly messed him up.

I mean he’s 𝘽𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧 he is really, but he still needs time yk? He’s 17 so he really hates showing his emotion…which is why I think it’s so hard for him. The first time he cried in front of doc..was 𝙀𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡. He was devastated..after all the time travel shit and he just needed doc. He needed him to say it was okay.

“Marty.. look at me okay, I’m right here okay? Just try to breath.”

“I love you Marty..okay? I will not let anything hurt you…never again”

It’s nice for Marty to have doc..and he would have no idea what he would do without him.

Clara is this mans MOTHER FIGURE istg Clara is such a beautiful women and she is so sweet to Marty. What’s better is that she 𝙐𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙨 him..just because she never went through all…𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩 Dosent mean she doesn’t know about it or care.

She’s there for him just like doc is. So besides doc, Clara is the only other person he feels comfortable crying around.. she loves him very much and try’s her best to make sure he’s calm and comfortable

Def is hard for him to look at his mom after..well yk.

He struggles he really does..he honestly hates talking about time travel because of so much trauma from it.

He Dosent want to go therapy because he has doc..and yes he’s 17 but when he’s having nights where he can’t sleep he’ll get doc to tuck him in and stay there till he does sleep.

“Mm doc I’m not a little kid..”

“You asked for this no..? No ones going to judge Marty okay? I love you.. goodnight future boy..I’m right here.”

He also really loves doc’s hugs cause believe it or not doc gives 𝙂𝙤𝙤𝙙 hugs and I mean good bear hugs. Marty loves them(this mf to damn stubborn to admit that he’s gotta keep his ego strong lmfaoo)

Believe it or not Mary loves home cooked meals. Since his parents aren’t really well..suitable if you will for a family dinner it’s lovely to have him, doc, Clara, and the kids together for dinner.

Ong Clara can fucking 𝘾𝙤𝙤𝙠 hunny omfg her meals are so good. Marty Dosent remember the last time he had food that fucking good. It’s fresh, it’s warm, it’s heaven my dudes.

So I’m not exactly sure what.. “Meals” they had back in 1885..but since come traveling to 1985 Clara has learned different meals to make and it’s fucking delicious, some of Mary’s favorite meals include Lasagne, meatloaf, spaghetti.

“Mmp! Oh my god This Fooud is soo gouud Clara”

“Marty please, do not talk with your mouth full of food.”

Lmfaoo hey when ur hungry ur hungry hun.

My dude loves music ong

So like we all know that Marty fucking plays, I mean hell he’s in a damn band.(im screaming that fucking rhymed)

AnYwaYs he plays and he plays 𝙂𝙤𝙤𝙙 he loves playing his music. He really enjoys any type of rock music, but like I’d also think he listen’s to other genres. And artist. :)

He loves performing for doc and Clara but he 𝙀𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 loves playing for Verne and Jules. Jules saying that the music now is definitely quite interesting while Verne is jamming out busting some moves lmfaoo

Doc is his number one fan and you can’t fucking convince me any other way, idc what anyone says. This MAN. This SCIENTIST of a MAN. Will fucking jam with Marty.

They may or may not cry when Marty ever gets a gig

I’m fucking crying lmfao cause like if marty went to 2022 he would simply just 𝙀𝙫𝙖𝙥𝙤𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙚 if he herd the music saying that there’s no “meaning” and how it’s not “real music” lmfao show him Arian grande, Billie Eilish, Cardi B. Lmfao do it hunny I 𝘿𝙖𝙧𝙚 you.(no offense to anyone who likes them cause I love them)

“Jesus Christ..what the hell is this shit!?”

Lmao literally. Look if anyone can find a meme of someone looking absolutely terrified lmk cause that would be Marty.

As for fashion…? Dear god I can’t even-

HELP-

Cause like I feel like he would like it..? But he wouldn’t..? Like he’s confused..??? Cause y’all know how people be wanting to like go back to the 80s and people are bringing back 80s style.

But like y’all know style is a lot different now..so he thinks is umm..interesting? Like I rlly don’t know how he would feel. Give me some ideas guys help-

My man is fruity and I will die on that stand.

HE PAINTS HIS NAILS-

So like he may or may not have gotten caught once doing it and like doc 𝙉𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 let him hear the end of it lmao

Bisexuals guys he’s screams bi

💕💜💙

Overall Marty Mcfly is great guy, he’s really sweet at heart, and is not afraid to fucking fuck people up if he has to. He loves doc and is something that he cherishes. He’s greatfull to have them in his life, and honestly he would have no clue what he Do without them. 10/10 sweet thick gay baby boy. 🥺

#marty mcfly #back to the future #Marty Mcfly headcanons #bttf #bttf headcanons #Marty mcfly images #doc bttf #Clara bttf #80s movies Headcanons #80s movies #80s movies imagines #back to the future headcanons #back to the future imagines

[sullivanxshaw]

“ I don’t wanna be me anymore “

Welcome to Aurora Bay, [SULLIVAN “SULLY “ SHAW!] I couldn’t help but notice you look an awful lot like [ROHAN CAMPBELL]. You must be the [TWENTY-FOUR] year old [DELIVERY AT SWEET NOTHINGS BAKERY ]. Word is you’re [PROTECTIVE] but can also be a bit [ANXIOUS] and your favorite song is [I DONT WANNA BE ME BY TYPE O NEGATIVE ]. I also heard you’ll be staying in [OCEAN CREST APARTMENTS ]. I’m sure you’ll love it!

Tw: Death, Anxiety,Physical Abuse, Alcoholism Drug addiction

FAMILY

Step Father: Nicholas Stephensen(deceased )

Mother: Annie Shaw (deceased)

Biological Father: Peter Shaw

Sister: Summer Shaw (21 yrs old)

Half Sister: Selena Shaw (15 years old)

Half Sister:Sera Shaw (6 yrs old)

WANTED CONNECTIONS

Coworkers: Liza Levin, Noelle Driscoll

Friends: Emerson Cassidy, Kylee Anthony, Sage Williams, Aubrey Carson

Former Crush On: Liza Levin

Exes: Sage Williams

Current Crush On: Sage Williams

Someone With Crush On Him:UTP

Former Friends: UTP

The Bad Habit Connection:

Mentor Figures: Noelle Driscoll, Ann Thompson, Calin Sava

BIOGRAPHY

Raised on Aurora Bay Drive, Sullivan Shaws family seemed perfect from the outside. His mom owned a small business in town and was a large part of the community. Everyone knew the Shaw family and everything seemed idyllic to the untrained eye. Sully graduated high school near the top of his class and was saving up money for the next couple of years working in town and attending the local college so that he could go to med school. He was the oldest of four and felt like he had to set the standard; especially considering that their father was a horrible drunk who had a tendency to disappear for days on end; leaving his mom to not only run her shop but to leave her raising four kids. Sully wasn’t the type to sit back and let things happen though and began helping his mom with work. It was aways instilled in him to take care of those who needed it most and he was why he wanted to also attend med school. He also had the grades to make it pretty far in life, but wasnt in a rush to leave and attend an Ivy League school yet.

Whether it was helping one of his sisters with school work or stepping in the middle of a bullying situation, Sully felt like he was always supposed to offer his help. He wasn’t a very confrontational person naturally though and would only ever step in based on impulse to protect the people he never wanted to see hurt. That was quickly followed with the realization he was in over his head and about to get beat up. Which happened a fair amount. But as long as his family was safe he would always step up for them.

Sully always felt like he always had to be the the one to keep things together, especially in response to his dad. For most of his early life he felt like being the big brother was something to always take seriously. And when he got into it with his biological father he came home and saw the man attempting to hurt his mom, Sully acted in pure impulse and stood up to him. Despite getting a broken nose for his interference, Sully made it perfectly clear that he wasn’t going to let anyone hurt his family. From his mom to his littlest sister Eloise everyone was going to be safe from his dad. His dad wasn’t required in their family to be complete and the man finally walked out on his mom officially. Eloise was only a couple of months old at the time, but none of it mattered when your father would rather throw a punch and ran off to find himself at the bottom of a liquor bottle. He sent nothing but divorce papers as a goodbye to the Shaws and Sully finally felt like things were going to be okay.

His mom struggled a bit to find her footing for a couple years but eventually fell in love again with a longtime friend and remarried. The man was someone that had gone above and beyond what so many others wouldn’t do and took on dating a single mother of four and treated them as his own. It didn’t matter that Sully was already a legal adult by that point, he still wanted to feel like they could be one big and happy family. He wasn’t scared anymore that someone could hurt his mom like his bio dad had, but he still felt this need in his family to look after things when he could. Sully was just relieved he could finally let his guard down and start to focus on what he really wanted to do in life.

The world had a habit of changing so fast though.

His oldest sister was helping keep an eye on Annalise and Eloise, while Sully was out at work all night at his moms shop. His mom and step dad had gone out for their anniversary and the oldest Shaw siblings were helping out with the family obligations. When he came home and noticed the police cars that surrounded his home he knew something had gone horribly wrong. It was a drunk driver on the road and his parents died on impact. Sully was beside himself over what had happened and before he could really process any of his grief, they had to bury his mom and step-dad

In the months that followed, Sully felt like he wasn’t really existing; instead just going through the motions of his life and unable to truly let himself fall apart. He would just smile and accept other’s condolences and hope to God they would stop talking to him about his dead parents. He felt incredibly overwhelmed and in over his head but he was trying to keep it all together. He had to stay a strong front for his siblings though. He had to make sure they could come to him even though he was trying hard not to spiral. He couldn’t let him see himself slipping. After all he was always going to be the protector, whether it was standing up to their dad or their bullies, Sully would always be there for them.

He was the oldest.

He was the big brother.

He had to keep it all together.

He had no choice.

When the town decided they were done morning the Shaws and moved on with their lives it was both frustrating and a relief. Sully hated being reminded of his families loss, so he was more than grateful to stop hearing “ Sorry about your parents “ but it did frustrate him that just because they were done mourning for his family it didn’t mean the Shaw kids weren’t done mourning their loss. People say a lot of pretty and nice things when it is right in front of them, but they move on rather quick; especially when things started to go south for the Shaw family. Those helping hands that were once offered were nowhere in sight.

And as the Shaw family had to close down the business, and CPS came and tried to split up the family or send his sister to live with their dad. None of the well wishers had tried to intervene on their behalf. It was all on Sullys shoulders and he had to act fast. He went to the few people in town he knew could help him and tried to build a case to be granted him custody of his two youngest sisters. With his oldest sisters help and a few faces he held dear to him on the outside he went to court and fought for the legal guardianship of his sisters Eloise and Annalise. When his father walked in and tried to portray himself as a good man and not the abusive alcoholic he really was; Sully had enough and stood his ground. It was emotionally taxing but by the time they had reached an agreement, Sully was granted custody of his two youngest sisters with his other sister staying with them to help out. He also vowed if he ever saw his father back in Aurora Bay, he would make sure he never saw his kids again.

While he was out of the woods in some ways, a whole new battle was taking place. Without the income of the shop, the legal fees, and four mouths to feed, the money left from his mom and step dad was drying up fast and, in order to save money, the four moved to Ocean Crest and both Sully and his sister took jobs in town to help.

It’s been a couple of years and even though the Shaws aren’t living the way they used to, they were as happy as they could be considering the circumstances. His sister Annalise might be in her angsty teen years and his little sister Eloise seems to think Sully is her dad, but they’re making it all work. He likes to think he’s doing the best job he can, but his issues with anxiety started to magnify ever since the death of his mother and step dad. He’s never had a moment to breathe since the accident and it’s only building up in him and had nowhere to go. The mourning he never did, the anger he felt toward his dad, the overwhelming sense of having to always appear perfect so he doesn’t lose his siblings, it was all starting to weigh down on Sully. It never ended. It never slowed down. And he just always smiled through it and hoped they didn’t see the ball of nerves he’d become. At a certain point Sully had started to be unable to sleep at night and would chemical ways to help him just so that he was able to get through the day. He was never going to touch alcohol because of his dad, and because of what had killed his mom, but Sully is aware he’s playing a dangerous game as he slowly slides into addiction and is hoping someone can give him the help he’s always been too scared to ask for his whole life. He was always going to be a protector, but what do you do when you can’t protect yourself ?

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#about #aurorabay.intro #tw: abuse #tw: alcohol #tw:death #tw: addiction

[mreiow]

i saw the untold origins of the detective agency agency and this hits different

mostly because of the oda. i'm always weak to oda. so i present to you the untold origins of the dazai who becomes the father of 14!oda as a result of time travel.

what if dazai, who, with the help of some artifact, swaps places with himself from the past (creates a separate timeline, yes, for good) (the post about how the ada coped with little dazai will be another time), is transferred just to these twelve years ago, with the original goal of not just not giving oda to die, oh, you know… give him a childhood. and so, oda is eating curry in the cell — and it's delicious for him — and then suddenly some left-wing guy appears and is like, "oh, do you like curry? and i like to piss off the police and get the kids out of the station. lessss go". and oda, a curious little fox, agrees, because it's interesting and he has enough killer skills to cope with a skinny guy if he turns out to be a pedophile.

the uncle does not turn out to be a pedophile. the uncle, in fact, turns out to be very cool, poisons funny stories, really feeds curry (and oda is very funny, because dazai lies that oda has a birthday, and they are given a free dessert, which dazai eats himself), and in general, oda does not notice that atsushitherapy works on him — well, with showing a normal life to want it. and also, damn, dazai is really cool, and i doubt that oda needs to be an adult to get on dazai in the same way as he did in the canon.

so yes, dazai picks up a dedinside child so that he feels good. it's actually difficult for dazai to follow someone, and someone who is essentially independent, but he carefully manipulates - and he also wants oda to believe him, so he sorts out all these manipulations after, and he himself has to fuck harder and harder, and this is a funny competition - for oda to study, eat in a human way, in general, i could be a normal teenager. but at some point, dazai ceases to need it - because even if oda has a transitional age, he is still conscious and calm, so that in the end they come together without unnecessary dramas. dazai really becomes more of a dad than an older brother, because of the characteristic care, and oda doesn't mind in the end.

dazai still adjusts his acquaintance with fukuzawa — already through an oda — and stands at the origins of the ada, and he is still lazy and sometimes unbearable, but he is very cool and useful, and from somewhere knows how to optimize the work, as if he worked in something similar takes out the experience years later, he also he is friends with rampo, and, most charming of all, oda is friends with rampo.

dazai constantly slips oda books in the hope that oda will want to be a writer here, but oda becomes more interested in stupid teenage stuff (which dazai is also very happy about), and they have dialogues like

— i want a nintendo( — i understand. but you have an important test coming up, and you'll be completely distracted. — rampo has a nintendo 😩 — rampo knows kanji.

and dazai never swears, but sometimes gets upset, and it feels much worse. oda, of course, tries in the end, but it still sucks to write a test, but dazai buys nintendo… because this time oda crossed the threshold, but last time he couldn't, and this realization that dazai is happy about progress, rejoices for him - oda appreciates it very much.

and dazai closes his eyes every time rampo and oda call something together, because it's more important to dazai that oda has friends. 💔

and dazai and fukuzawa regularly drink together, because they are tired dads, work together and they have something to talk about.

for the first couple of years, dazai struggles because he was in love with odasaku - and very much — and he misses him, and he doesn't have any forbidden thoughts, only memories of another person, but one day he just looks at oda and doesn't think about what happened — he just has this a child that he loves and cares about — and because of this child, he wakes up in the morning and really wants to live. dazai dad.

in general, over time, fukuzawa, dazai, oda and rampo become a cool newfound family and everything is fine with them!!!

(and then, with the light hand of dazai, they adopt all abandoned children from bsd in general, and everything only gets better)

#bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bsd au #timeshift #dazai #odasaku #dazai also holds oda by the ear when he does his homework so that he doesn't cheat...

[tirednerd2012]

I truly love the idea of after Will officially coming out to Jonathan and getting the acceptance of his brother, Jonathan casually slides in the fact he isn’t so straight himself just. “Plus, you’re not really alone in that aspect.” “What?” “I mean, one look at Harrison Ford had me questioning a lot.” “…does Nancy know?” “Oh yeah, she gushed about Carrie Fisher to me the same night.”

Wills only retort is “Harrison Ford? Seriously?” And Jonathan says he is not allowed to talk while he has a crush on Mike fucking Wheeler. Sibling bonding is criticizing your taste in men

Yeah, I'm not convinced Jonathan is completely straight lol. I've always headcanoned him as pansexual truthfully. I could be wrong, but that's how I've always viewed him.

But Will being so scared to tell Jonathan even though he knows deep down his brother will accept him with open arms. Will knows that, and he suspects Jonathan's known about his sexuality, maybe even longer than he has. He's still scared to tell him just for the off chance that Jonathan reacts negatively. He waits until late at night when everyone else is asleep before he checks to see if Jonathan is awake. He whispers to him in the room they share and Jonathan asks him what's up, if everything's alright. When Will tells him he needs to say something important, Jonathan is up in no time and sitting with him on his bed.

Will's shaking and Jonathan hates how he seems afraid, especially if Will is afraid of him, and assures Will over and over again that there is nothing that can change the fact he loves him. Then Will says it. He's gay. Jonathan knew that but he also doesn't want to expose Will more than the poor kid already feels and tells him that doesn't change how much he loves him. Jonathan would go on to tell Will how he's still the most important thing to him and how much he loves and supports him and if anyone had any problems with it, they could take it up with him. Will ends up crying and hugging Jonathan, who comforts him.

Then Jonathan surprises Will when he says, "you're not quite alone in this either." When he asks what he means, Jonathan tries to think of a way to tell him. "Well, I love Nancy, a lot, and want to spend the rest of my life with her... but Harrison Ford had me questioning a lot."

And Will's astonished but he also feels more tears coming up because he's really not alone in this. He asks if Nancy knows, and Jonathan laughs and tells him that he should have seen Nancy's eyes light up when Carrie Fisher appeared on the screen. Why else would they agree to take Will and Mike to see all the new Star Wars? Jonathan goes on to explain that it's not really about gender to him, but more so about what he feels when he sees the person. He and Will go back and forth for awhile about different struggles with this until Will seems to be perfectly calm and he just hugs Jonathan again and thanks him.

Then he sits back up and is like "Wait, Harrison Ford, really?" And Jonathan fakes an offended look for a moment before responding, "Mike fucking Wheeler, really?" When Will points out that Jonathan is also in love with a Wheeler, Jonathan responds that he's in love with the badass one. "He picked up a candle holder when we were going to have to fight a demodog, Will. A candle holder. Nancy had the gun!"

"Wait, a candle holder?"

"I swear on my life, Will," Jonathan responds and for the first time in a hot minute, they laugh together. And it's weird because Jonathan remembers that night as the worst one of his life, but if he can hang on to this, this tiny little detail that didn't even matter in the end, so be it. Will needs a laugh and honestly so could he.

"Well, next time I pick a guy, can you not look at him like you're going to blow him up with your mind?" Will asks and Jonathan shrugs.

"I can try, but if he makes you cry, no promises," Jonathan responds. Then he sighs. "I know Mike cares about you. I know he cares a lot, but he's figuring some things out and a lot of the time, he takes it out on you and it's not okay. He's going to wise up soon, bud, but it also doesn't hurt to put up boundaries to protect yourself and your feelings."

Will takes his brother's advice into consideration, but it does feel like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders. Jonathan stays with him as long as he needs, even in the silence.

#stranger things #will byers #jonathan byers

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#5

And unlike Misha Collins, I didn't take it back. I committed to the bit!

(I am genuinely bisexual)

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#4

The end of Encanto had me in tears. Flat out sobbing. Really good movie.

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#3

Just putting it out there. These bitches? Same person. You can’t convince me otherwise.

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#2

Okay, so "Freedom" protestors (who are protesting covid restrictions) have shut down Canberra's Lifeline Book Fair. It's a second hand book sale, most books between $1 and about $5.

The protestors have completely taken over the car park and are harrassing people who are wearing masks.

For the safety of the general public, the fair has been shut down.

The book fair is Lifeline's main source of donations, and without it, the already strained mental health call-service becomes strained even further. They have worked so hard throughout the pandemic to help will depression, anxiety and other mental health issues. Without the Book Fair, they're going to struggle to meet the needs of thousands struggling with their mental health.

Please, if you have anything to spare. Even if it's just a dollar, please donate to Canberra Lifeline Service. This is a service we can't afford to lose. It could mean all the difference, could save someone's life.

https://www.lifelinecanberra.org.au/donate/

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My #1 post of 2022

Bestie your addition to the Batfam/Harley makes me FROTH at the mouth; I actually checked and her names actually LUCY QUINZEL I DIE,,, SHES SO ADORABLE,,,

And she's just fucking Normal which is so fucking funny- it breaks me that Harley couldn't be in her life but when she STARTS,,, OH MANNNN,,, convinced Damian and her would be besties with " someone will die" " of FUN" vibes with Jon too!!!! Im. Dying. I'd love to hear your thoughts if you have any sjsjsjsjs

Omg, Lucy and Brucie, so cute they rhyme 💖💖💖 yes, and then Bruce and Harley will get all emotional over the Lucy/Damien/Jon trio, cos like, it'll be like when they were kids with Harvey! And then like, having family dinners, and Lucy calling Alfred grandpa, because Harley unironically calls Alfred "dad". I'm crying. THEY'RE A FAMILY! And like, Harley making fun of Bruce for dropping out of med school, when she went all the way to get a PH.D and them being super proud when one of the new trio goes to med school. I have a lot of feelings.

Oh and the shenanigans these children will get into, with like big brother Dick and/or Jason, definitely Tim, joining in or enabling. And Bruce and Harley can't even be mad, cos they lowkey/highkey thought it was hilarious, or did worse things when they were the same age together.

Like I'm insane about Cass having big sister bonding time with little sister Lucy, like taking this little girl under her (bat) wing and just uuuggghhh. Teaching Lucy sign language and how to read body language, especially if Lucy wants to become a psychiatrist like her mum to help give patients the best care, or become a vigilante like her. I'm such a slut for found family, you have no idea

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[sparingiscaring]

One of my favorite character-building exercises for my FL PC's (ba dum tss) is gauging how Developed and Separate from their strict roles in game is just. Switching their ambitions in my head, and seeing just what would happen. Like, I made each of you with one purpose, and for quite a while, that purpose was all you were. Can you stand on your own, down in the Neath, for another reason all together?

Anyways, under the cut is me rambing about my OC's in AU's as a creative exercise

Damodar Wali - Nemesis PC

Light Fingers - Oh BOY would Dam here ThRIVE in LF proper, but the pre-orphanage stuff? That's... where I struggle. I can see him getting to the Neath after his brother's death (just a NORMAL murder this time :3) in a listless state of depression and "can't be any worse down there and if it is i'm too sad to care" being his mantra, but i think it would take a few YEARS at LEAST to start the hunt for the diamond. Like, he needs to go through his recent "I MUST LIVE FOREVER" arc before he looks at that old note about the diamond, and it CLICKS in his brain that. oho. big diamond. maybe from mountain. I Need It. And he fits so perfectly after that! Already a university man, so he's in with Dr. Vaughn so quickly, basically becoming Dad 2 to the LF crew, and Dad Prime to Kiddo, and absolutely LOVING all the shapeling art stuff. I can't get the image out of my head of him walking out of the nightmare orphanage, covered in blood, and wearing the kiddo in a baby chest carrier. And, even though it pains him, he WILL keep the kiddo free, and decline the diamond. he can always get another one, but he can't get another kid. Also the love thing is fucked up so even if he didn't love kid he would say no, but just with a lot more regrets as soon as the danger was passed. but he loves kid so it's Fine

heart's Desire - Oh Lord You Know Who he's Wishing Would Come Back From The Dead. Fuck You Beechwood Bros Before hoes. he Would Personally hate That Monkey More Than Pages. What Are Your Theories. You Are A Disgrace.

Bag A Legend - .... veils ate his brother and he's going to kill it for that. it's so unlike him. i've got nothing else.

Leigh Corbyn - Light Fingers PC

heart's Desire - Real talk? Light Fingers was a misclick. The smooth-talking former con-man who forgot to finish A Name Whispered in Darkness until post paramount presence was, surprisingly, originally meant to do heart's desire. I procrastinated picking for 4 months, finally decided to pick, was torn between the two, looked at Light Finger's pathway in Spite, decided that just wasn't fun sounding, and accidentally clicked it as i scrolled. In fact, it's baked into Leigh's backstory that he was 100% here for the Marvelous, got too addicted to opium, and woke up with a note about a diamond, and he's just PRETENDING he knows the woman involved, even though he just found it on the floor a few bottles ago. In a slightly soberer world, Leigh would have excelled at hD, but without all the character development specifically tied to the horrors of LF, Leigh would be... insufferable. It would be terrible for everyone around him. he would also make it everyone else's problem by choosing Adoration, and forcing all of London to deal with his BS. this is the worst ending.

Bag A Legend - Gotta get that drug and drink money, baby! he doesn't last a week, because he drinks too much Absinthe and gets eaten.

Nemesis - Once again, I struggle to make this fit! Leigh original characterization was pure hedonism, so it's hard to make him fit into the more somber ambitions, and his later developments only happen because of the horrors he witnessed in LF prompting a complete and utter breakdown mid-roof. I think just maybe that Nemesis might be possible, as the death of the loved one might trigger that breakdown, especially if Leigh can blame their death on his own bravado for a while, but I can't be sure. The con-artist womanizer finally settling down in a quiet home, far from his family and his past, only to come home from the only honest job he's ever had to fine his spouse, dead? Oh. Oh, there is something there...

Eliza Marlow - hearts Desire PC

Bag A Legend - I've been recently thinking a lot about Eliza (as Cardsy), and about it's sadistic murder hobby, and about how, in a couple decades, it will just start hunting and eating people probably. And why not give it another way to that end? Do a cheeky little murder after losing a card game, get sent to New Newgate, and, oh, what's that, flying past the dirigible, with a man in it's jaws? And there's a bounty on its head, you say? And of course, when all aspects are dead, and the head hangs proudly from its hands, it's really not a surprise that they take over the business and place of Mr Veils so easily.

Nemesis - Eliza is going to fucking murder its sister in it's place whenever it gets tired of the human identity. It's literally going to kill her violently and with its teeth. This does not work, it does not really care about anyone enough to Avenge Them. No.

Light Fingers - Eliza bails after it find out there's no actual diamond. Like, immediate tea slurp and turning around and going home. No money, no power? Fuck this, it's out. Which is probably a good thing, because it would pick the Objectively Incorrect Ending. Even if it didn't believe there was a diamond as a reward. It just likes making people feel anguish.

Wadiya Babar - Bag A Legend PC

Nemesis - Interestingly, I can't think of a single reason Wadiya would ever find themselves on the Nemesis path organically, but I can see Wadiya being hired to hunt down the Nemesis after already being in the Neath, and feeling compelled to Finish the Job post-Scathewick would honestly take them all the way through, just straight after the Master. Unfortunately they would kill Mirrors, and would decimate Cups before it even has a chance to explain. All the time it gets between each stab and gunshot and harpoon is enough to, very Funnily, express complete unknowing as to who they are, as Jimmy Johnson from Liverpool was the one who's loved one died, and it would have no reason to even be aware of Wadiya, as her skill as a hunter would make this whole dance take. like. a week, max. It would be very funny and she'd look great in the cloak.

Light Fingers - Wadiya would unfortunately not qualify for this ambiton's starting hook, as they don't have friends, and nobody would ever think she'd go for a heist. Instead, you'd have to be frank about what's happening, and then they'd help! Edward is Dead. Fires is Dead. The Orphanage is on Fire. It's been a day. The baby is here now. Wadiya is teaching it how to hold a spear. Wadiya raises the bab to be a little hunting sidekick, and they do use Mr Fires's head mounted head for target practice. She's too efficient. She scares me.

hearts Desire - Wadiya's hatred of chess may have come as a result of BaL, but I just know in my heart of hearts that they would never, ever, ever consider anything game-like. Ever.

anyways hope you enjoyed :3

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