#This might come across as a little mean

[toaarcan]

The thing that amuses me about BumbleBY discourse is that RWBY, as a show, is very not subtle about the direction it is taking these two. It is blindingly obvious that this is the direction that the show is going in from V3C11 at the absolute latest.

The writers are not subtle about it. The voice actors certainly aren't subtle about it. The soundtrack isn't subtle about it, Jeff and Casey fed us more in V4 than the show itself did. The series branched out into manga and comics and a spinoff anime and they were also very not subtle about it. The creator himself was not subtle about it.

The show has been pointing more and more arrows at a giant neon sign saying "Blake and Yang are girlfriends!" since it started.

And yet somehow, people still miss that. For whatever reason, people manage to be completely blindsided by a subplot that the show was building for nine seasons and several spinoffs.

If you did somehow watch Burning the Candle, Heroes and Monsters, and Downfall and didn't see where things were going, if you did listen to Wings, Armed and Ready, and All That Matters and didn't realise that these characters were meant to be in love, then either your media literacy is so awful that you should really do some more reading, or you got that take from a Youtuber who doesn't know what the fuck they're talking about and you need to start forming your own takes rather than waiting for Youtubers to give them to you.

#This might come across as a little mean #But honestly #The show isn't being clever about it #It's really fucking obvious #And if you missed it #you're either trying to miss it or you're being dense #RWBY #BumbleBY

[miredball]

I forget carmy is a wunderkind in the culinary world like of course he has a place and boat in copenhagen to send marcus and his photo is up in kitchens across the world and he “tells” chef terry about richie and can ask thom browne for last minute custom chef whites and I mean cicero is probably so giving with his money because it’s his nephew but also it’s carmen berzatto

#like he says he has no friends but he comes across kind and humble so he’s probably well liked among his colleagues #I mean obv he is because he has richie stag at this apparently very big deal restaurant with a and I quote ‘gangster’ waiting list #meanwhile he like didn’t even have a food safe cert or something like ?😭😭 #and Luca still talks about him obviously he made mark #anyways I love the little nods to his status like…oh yeah he MIGHT be a big deal #but I also LOOVE that sydney has connections of her own #like the guy with the kitchen who jokingly tries to poach her and the very nice man who gives her the sweetest hug and advice #they are loved in some way in this world and it’s so nice to see them share that with the rest of the crew #them sending ebra and tina to culinary school and telling sweeps their pay has already been set aside #theyre a giant family with this random superstar chef and up and coming superstar chef who believe in them #family! #the bear fx #the bear season 2

[spookythesillyfella]

~ with the wonderful cake baked by Sketch and Colin , and with the green tea from Brendon , and the rather elegant mug received from Tracey , Tony sure seems to absolutely adore his birthday !!

~ he's so pretty with all those flowers in his top hat too !! so sophisticated !! the pristine white stargazer lily and the even more wonderful hyacinth really make him the most dashing !!

–

happy day to my favorite silly of the silly show !! ^w^

#late birthday gift i knoww #but whatever !! it was his day and in my mind he spent it with his little family in colin's digital world !! #i love him so so much and hes so so silly >w< #teehee and yes i might or might not have googled a few flower meaning here and there #*wink wink nudge nudge* #aaanywhooo #have a wonderful day . whomever comes across this !! ^w^ #dhmis #dhmis au #high voltage au #dhmis tony #tony dhmis #dhmis hv tony #tony the talking clock #tony the clock #dhmis clock #art #my art #digital art #happy day to my favorite guy of forever !! #X3 #<333 #💌

[tame-a-messenger]

Oh no, man. I decided to watch the Damien episode of Perfect Person coz I only found out about it from the Angela appearance.

There's a part (around 2:45) where he says he booked the Starfield VA gig right when he first started at Smosh so with it coming out recently, it kinda bookended "this part of his internet life".

And I was like, WHAT DOES HE MEAN? IS HE LEAVING SMOSH??

<darthvader.gif> NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

I find it interesting that he also says right before at (2:46) that he's trying to "Focus up, here soon" and since this Podcast was only 4months ago... Wonder what that means!

Ok ok joking aside I don't really think that's exactly what he meant by the things he said. I think he was mainly talking about doing more voice over work and "focus" on it more, not that he's going to fully leave Smosh.

He also says that he spent 5-6 yrs recording for that game, so that's why I think him saying "bookended this whole part of my internet life" is ONLY referring to him voicing over that game.

I'm also pretty sure "this whole" is (although it does sound like it could mean what you thought) almost definitely his southerner coming out, and what he meant was "the game coming out has bookended 5-6yrs worth of work for the voice over I did" not that he's quitting anything (I'm becoming the truth speaker of Damien Haas)

Holy shit bro, I'm getting good at this 'decoding whatever people assume Damien meant' stuff! I felt my skin glowing while I was trying to decipher what he meant lmao

I am become Truth, the Breaker of Assumptions

#Smoshblr #smosh #Damien Haas #holy fucking brain blast #I am become Truth breaker of assumptions #that might be the hardest thing I've ever written #dude honestly #im thinking about it rn and I think (weirdly enough) that if damien spoke more southern he wouldnt be as misunderstood all the time #he mixes in a lot of 'southerner' phrases that just dont come across the way he means them to #(I have a hyperfixation on how language and culture can change a persons personality) #whiles hes saying “this whole” he moves his hand around in a wiping motion #WHICH IF HE TALKED A LITTLE SLOWER AND WITH MORE OF HIS ACCENT COMES ACROSS EXACTLY LIKE I THINK HE MEANT IT #hes a southerner that has been infested with a cali accent while still keeping his way of phrasing which makes people confused #if this doesn't make any sense to you uuuhhhhhh my bad #but I think I cracked the case! #of why so many people mistake his intentions! #oh and of course I could be totally wrong and he is leaving smosh #but i dont think so

[magentagalaxies]

hi @liliana-von-k, thanks for the follow! i have answered this question before but i love talking about kids in the hall and my "origin story" with them so i'm happy to tell it again (jsyk it will be a long post bc i always have to tell the full story bc i love it so much)

basically my parents have both been kith fans since the 90s, so even before i had seen any of the show itself there were certain kith quotes that were just part of my family's vocabulary. the first sketch i watched was "these are the daves i know" when i was like 8 years old and i became obsessed with that song. i watched a few other sketches/the first few episodes from season one but i didn't truly get into kith until after their documentary "comedy punks" was released

see, my mom is a big documentary person so she was like "oh hey there's a new kids in the hall documentary! do you want to watch it?" and i just kind of shrugged and was like sure i'll be in the room while it's on, probably working on my own stuff or scrolling on my phone. but like not even five minutes in i was hooked. while i'd always enjoyed kids in the hall's comedy, something about hearing the very personal histories of how the troupe came together and survived for all these years was so affecting. i think it was scott specifically that really signaled to me that this show was something special, and the part where bruce talked about comforting scott while he had cancer by telling him how the rest of the troupe would die first was so powerful. honestly no individual movie has changed my life more than comedy punks did specifically bc it gave me that push to get into kith and approached it from such a human perspective, which definitely informed my approach to the rest of their work and them as people. i remember watching comedy punks for the first time and getting this strange feeling i couldn't pin down yet that was like this is important, not just referring to the show or the troupe, but like this feeling that i had just crossed a turning point in my life, and i remember feeling this pull towards toronto which seemed frivolous at the time but has been so heavily solidified as i'm now planning to move there in just over a year.

so i bingewatched all of the kids in the hall tv show in summer 2022, as well as brain candy, death comes to town, the amazon season, etc. basically as much kith stuff as i could find. but i needed more. so i started getting into side projects, which brought me to "mouth congress" (a queer-punk band scott thompson and paul bellini had in the early 80s that they've recently started putting out new music with again). i found a youtube channel with a bunch of recent live performance clips of the band and each video had like less than 10 views. so since i didn't have anyone to infodump about kith with irl (aside from my very patient mother lol) i started commenting on every video, complimenting the performances and pretending i was talking to a friend, confident no one would actually see it

after 2 weeks of this, turns out someone did see it. PAUL BELLINI HIMSELF. this led to a whole back-and-forth which eventually ended up with him emailing me a copy of the unreleased mouth congress documentary, i emailed back asking if he'd be interested in meeting on zoom (since i am a queer comedy writer myself so both he and scott are my biggest comedy inspirations), and yeah bellini is a delightful person to talk to and we very quickly became friends. i ended up offering to run mouth congress's social media, which can be found on both tumblr and instagram as @mouthcongress and posts both vintage videos from the 80s/90s and recent live clips. they're currently working on an album of entirely new material written in the past 2 years which is going to be released soon (we don't have a specific release date but the recording is completed and they've started filming music videos for it!! but i'm getting ahead of myself lmao)

a few months pass and mouth congress is set to perform at a new year's eve show at a local club in toronto. i'd never been to toronto before, never even left the united states, but paul says it would be so great to have me there and by some miracle my parents say yes to making the trip (they still can't believe this is happening either, since they were kith fans first!). the trip is wonderful, i immediately fall in love with the city, i get lunch with paul irl for the first time and get to have my very first face-to-face conversation with my number one comedy inspiration scott thompson. it's honestly a little awkward but in an adorable funny way. i also have my first legal drink at that show (bc canadian drinking age is lower than the us), specifically saying i want to have my first drink with buddy cole, which both scott and paul are very into

it's actually only a couple weeks until i'm in toronto again, because scott is debuting a new buddy cole show consisting of monologues that were all censored by amazon that he pitched during the revival season. this is my first time traveling a long distance without my family which my mom is anxious about so paul bellini lets me have him as my emergency contact. the show is amazing, i get to stay for the afterparty, and while i'm there i casually mention that i'm surprised no one has made a buddy cole documentary yet. like, this character has such a rich history even beyond the kids in the hall (which i can infodump about all day lmao) and is such an important staple of queer comedy that doesn't get the attention he deserves. the kith documentary is great, but where's my buddy cole documentary? paul accepts my pitch (that i didn't even realize i was pitching), passes along the idea to scott, and yeah now i'm legit directing a film with my number one comedy heroes and i haven't even graduated college yet. what the fuck. i expected this to be the type of thing i accomplish over 20 years into my career, not at twenty!! so yeah that's how the buddy cole documentary started. i'm still in preproduction on it but we're launching an indiegogo crowdfunding campaign for it in the next 2 weeks bc this has evolved into a full feature-length film with some incredible celebrity interviewees, both kith and otherwise.

anyway a few months later it's announced bruce mcculloch is bringing his one-man-show to the city i go to school in. not only that, but his theater is literally 2 blocks from campus. i ask paul if he'd give me bruce's contact so i can set up an interview for my school's newspaper, paul gives me bruce's assistant's email, and i set up a 30-minute zoom two weeks before bruce will be in town. the conversation honestly goes bizarrely well. like it's honestly surreal how close bruce and i got after only knowing each other for a half hour? he's such an easy person to talk to and literally by the end of that conversation he was already calling himself my mentor, asking about my comedy, and offering to let me meet him backstage after his show. which is exactly what i did, launching yet another incredible friendship-slash-mentorship with one of the kids in the hall.

bruce eventually signed on to executive produce the buddy cole documentary (alongside paul bellini), i've been up to toronto in january, april, june, august, and october this year (so essentially every 2 months, though it was slightly offset by going twice in january) and i'm planning on going up in december, every time not only do i find time to meet up with scott, paul, and bruce but they all deliberately try to reserve as much "jess time" as they can because i have a unique and powerful friendship with each of them, every time i finish a new creative project paul has to see it bc he loves how ambitious i am, i repeatedly wake up to texts scott sends me at 3am about the documentary and how excited he is to have me on tour with him to film it next year, bruce thinks it's hilarious he used to think i was "shy" bc i've gotten so comfortable going on infodumps and tangents about things i'm passionate about, and the three of them all feel like extended family. best of all, i actually have plans to graduate from college a semester early so that i can use the money (and time) i've saved to find a place in toronto and start making even more connections with the comedy community up there (also for the record: no i have not met mark, kevin, or dave yet. i know kevin is aware of my existence from bruce giving me a shoutout at a show they both did but that's about it. but i know i will interview all of them for my documentary)

so anyway that's how i got into kids in the hall. i know only the first 2 paragraphs answer your question, but at this point my love for this show has become so so intertwined with my relationships to bruce and scott and paul as humans that i don't really consider getting into kids in the hall and getting to know the kids in the hall as separate things in my life.

(also if you have any follow-up questions on anything mentioned feel free to reply or dm me, this goes for everyone else too!)

#as always i hope talking about knowing some of the kith irl doesn't come across as bragging bc that's absolutely not my intention #bc i do very much feel like a very lucky kith tumblr nerd and my favorite thing is connecting the kith to this part of their audience #hosting little digital screenings of hard-to-find kith media or passing along questions etc #this is exemplified with my ''kids in the archive'' series which you should check out if you haven't already #but yeah this is a very (and i mean VERY) brief summary of how this all unfolded #bc like. yes this all kind of happened over a year and a half. but it was a very eventful year and a half #if you scroll far enough in some of my kith-related tags you can find posts from in-the-moment before i knew some of them #or when i was still coming up with the concept for the buddy cole doc or something like that #which is very interesting to see. this blog is like a living kith journal lmao #also: the bruce interview article was never written bc i actually lied about writing for the school paper lmaooo #but for the anniversary i might write a transcript and/or see if i can post the audio bc i did record it #i haven't relistened to it since the day (march 6th) so it'll be so cool going back and listening to myself being starstruck #compared to now where i see bruce as ''just some guy (complimentary)''

[hannibalismos-jaaneman]

so i never said this to anyone and bottling this up is exhausting so i'm just gonna vomit it here. PLEASE SENSITIZE CHILDREN TO ART.

#raj shitposting #so on new year's eve my apartment complex decided to have like a little carnival and people were invited to set up stalls for their stuff #so my mother is a mix media artist and i FORCED her to set up a stall which i kinda sorta regret now because of this thing that happened #so we were setting up our stall and a little boy comes up and wants to purchase something from the jewelry section and when we #tell him the price of the piece he calls my MOTHER'S ART A SCAM. A SEVEN YEAR OLD BOY WHO DOESN'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO SPELL PHOTOSYNTHESIS!!! #WHO DOESN'T KNOW WHAT A SCAM ACTUALLY IS. CALLS MY MOTHER'S ENTIRE ART A SCAM. #i wanted to smack him so hard across the face but my mother held me back and told me to calm down and asked him to get lost. #but the entire day our mood was rotten about this #PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING GOD TELL YOUR CHILDREN THAT IT'S NOT OKAY TO INSULT SOMEONE'S WORK LIKE THAT!!!!!!! #YOU IMBECILE IT'S EXPENSIVE BECAUSE IT REQUIRES SKILL AND MATERIAL THAT IS DIFFICULT TO PROCURE AND KNOWLEDGE THAT IN ITSELF IS HELLA- #-EXPENSIVE TO GATHER!!!!! #ART IS INVALUABLE GUYS WHY DO YOU THINK OUR PARENTS PRESERVE THOSE STUPID ASS CRAYON LANDSCAPES FROM OUR CHILDHOOD????? #he might be a child and not know what any of this means but he could just back off... this is NOT curiosity it's mean spiritedness #and FUCKING RUDE #i was a child sometime in my life. i never talked shit like that to a 40 YEAR OLD AND TALKED BACK WHEN THEY ASKED ME TO BACK OFF #smh #anti intellectualism #art

[thesilverlock]

It's always fun catching little sneaky details done with the colors of Zexal

#zexal #shark kamishiro #yuma tsukumo #kaito tenjo #yugioh zexal #(( the purple colors might also mean to imply blue or a blue-purple )) #(( which could maybe represent Astral World and Barian World and Earth #but that might be reaching sghdj )) #(( I will say - at my own risk Lol - I think Kite's is the least well executed though. If he is meant to lean towards yellow/green #without the hair that doesn't come across really at all. The colors look kinda messy comparatively )) #Yuma's suffers from that a little too - but he's also the protag lol they're always given all the colors ))

[dutybcrne]

Thinkings thinkings of Fatui!Kaeya have been reawakened in reviewing Arle's teasers/animations

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Whether it's Dad!Pierro or not; I do love the idea of him being left in the care of the Fatui/House of Hearth #//Tho timelines considered; he prolly would be in Pierro's personal care while Arle goes through her Traumatic Matricide Experience #//Doubt the man would want to leave him out of his sight; Khaenri'ahn/Alberich ties considered #//Or maybe he was raised/trained to fight under Signora. Or even for Columbina (her namesake's ties to Pierro's; considered) #//Tho also do LOVE the idea of Kae and Taru growin up together in the Fatui ranks and being the disastrous + shy boi duo #//Tho Kae'd prolly have less to hide/fear with them when it comes to his heritage. The strictness he'd be raised with though... #//Eh; Taru could bring him out of his shell even still jdbgfkf. If anyone can; he deffo could. His little wintry sunshine #//So maybe he'd grow into his peacock self a little more naturally; even if perhaps still out of necessity/for ease of his missions #//Less of a facade to hide his grief/missing pieces tho; more like the way Taru is charming & goofy to lower people's guards #//Still has his little habit of testing people deffo is Much worse and much more sadistic when it comes down to it #//Particularly towards fellow Fatui who disrespect him or their comrades; or just someone he ends up disliking in general #//Does 'test' new comrades; but is more willing to step in & help them if need be. Wants UTMOST trust; determination & loyalty in his men #//So will only ever take those who push to complete the mission at all costs; even themselves/willingly ask him for help when they need it #//Dislikes those who run; & LOATHES cowards who abandon comrades to save themselves; he WILL deliberately make sure they don't make it back #//Still employs his intel gathering methods as normal verse; but has preying mantis tendencies when it comes down to it nbcfjgf #//ESP if they try to take advantage of/blackmail him in some way. Or worse; those who betray him. He is meticulous & VERY ruthless abt it #//His signature is decapitation & an unmelting (Abyssal energy-laced) ice shard through the heart; around which he'd carve a stylized one #//If those informants keep being useful to him; they are safe; and treated so lovingly by him; spoiled rotten with gifts & favors aplenty #//Once they lose their usefulness...well; regrettably he cannot leave any loose ends. These become frozen as statues for him to keep #//'Precious mementos of lovers & conspirators'; he'd call them. He'd keep them in his private home in Snezhnaya #v; glacialis pavonis (fatui!kaeya) #//If he had to have a Harbinger title/name (maybe bumped up for when Scara erases himself); he'd prolly be l'Innamorato #//Fitting of his methods (is also the remaining role of Commedia dell'arte lololol). He is saccharine sweet; pretty & deadly as a belladonn #//Deffo would have tango-based motifs rather than waltz; would favor frost-laced roses. Might even leave those with his victims too #//Can you tell I listened to Rondo Across Countless Kalpas as I wrote this up jhbfjgkfhf #hc; kaeya #//I mean yeah lol. I have so many more thinkings abt this verse aaAAAA #//Am torn if I want his to use a Cryo Delusion; or have him with Cryo Vision and an Anemo Delusion. Do like that for Cryo Swirls #//Then his rage/scorn could be likened to a Blizzard. Do like that image. Deffo favors his Abyssal powers more tho; maybe THAT'd be better

[britneyshakespeare]

i have been working with kids for four years and i had to write my first ever note just now about a seventh grade boy being inappropriate towards me. i don't know what the hell this could possibly lead to or what. he was trying to feel my legs repeatedly to the point where i had to stop sitting next to him (and i was subbing for his one-to-one para!!!). he's got high support needs. in that kind of job, you're supposed to sit next to them all day and look over their work.

the teacher whose classroom this was happening in could also tell something was wrong. the whole class was acting kinda crazy because it was the day before school vacation week and there was another class coming in to share projects. so like, he was swamped with keeping order already. but we were sitting two feet away from his podium at the front of the room. the kid was giving him and me a hard time when he wouldn't take out his chromebook as he was instructed. and then when he did take out his chromebook, he immediately, for some reason, places it on my lap. he had been ogling my legs the whole time. he puts his computer ON MY LAP. and i'm just like, stunned, because what the hell? can you not keep it on your own lap, for some reason? i don't even know what to say, i just hold it a little above my lap while i'm thinking why on earth would this be happening? he would NOT do this to his regular para if she were here, would he? this can't be normal.

and the teacher sees this and within a minute places a stool in front of the kid for him to put his laptop on. and i'm like. oh ok. yeah. he notices exactly what's happening and that that's not appropriate. and then when the other class comes in to share projects he tells me "miss b——, you don't actually have to sit next to c—— this whole period if you don't want to." and he grabs me a chair for me to go sit with the other paras in the back opposite corner of the room. like he KNEW. and thank you mr. d—— for recognizing that because i was just kind of shocked and didn't know if i was overreacting in my head to all of this.

when there's a point in the class where the kids are discussing stuff, i privately mention what's happened to the para who's sitting closest to me. and she says that the thing about him calling me pretty is something he's been known to do, but the fact that he kept trying to touch my legs is new behavior. and that's a completely different class of behavior. i was telling him NO, don't do that, and he kept doing it. and the fact that he was calling me pretty repeatedly, even when i was giving him instructions that he wasn't taking. and this is the second to last class before the end of the day, so she says she'll take a walk with him before learning center and talk to him about it, and i'm grateful for that. she does. the kid apologizes to me as soon as i come into learning center. but like. WHAT the hell.

i'm STILL like what the hell. this is unfathomable to me. the other adults who i told about this or who witnessed it were supportive of me. but. what to do??? i wrote a long note to his regular para about this, because i knew she was going to hear about it at least from the first para i told. the second para i told about it after school had a kind of... i'm not gonna say enabling reaction, but i suppose since it had already been "taken care of" (or at least, he had been spoken to and apologized) she didn't really have much to add in the way of discipline. i told her what happened after school and she was just like... a little bit, laughing? like oh, yup, that dog. she at the very least confirmed he KNEW what he was doing, that that was not an accident. she said to me "i had a feeling he was going to develop a crush on you" (me and these other paras were together for most of the beginning of the day too). but it's like. it's not about that.

i have worked with children for FOUR years. children have had crushes on me before; i'm quite unfazed by it. boys from the ages of 5-to-15 have told me i'm so pretty before and asked me to marry them. i've never had them feeling up my legs before. i've never had them making me physically uncomfortable. it's NOT about this seventh grader having a crush on the pretty substitute. he is NOT unusual for that, at all. but i've never had a boy of any age or education level repeatedly touching my knees and thighs. THAT is problem behavior!!!

because what if i wasn't assertive enough with him to tell him to stop? what if i was a girl his age? worse, what if i was an adult who encouraged this behavior? i don't come to the middle school to be a seductress. i had no intention in putting on a pair of tights and a skirt this morning of being viewed as an attractive object, especially not by a pubescent boy. what if i did though? what if his interpretation of me wasn't so incorrect and offensive? what if i let him keep touching me inappropriately and saying flirtatious things to me? me, an adult in my mid-twenties, towards a middle school boy?

in no world would that be ok. if i had been feeling up and overly-complimenting a CHILD at my place of work, holy shit would there be reports about me. so a child acting that way could never be ok either. if it'd be firable for me to be reciprocating that action, then that action should not be happening to me. ever. and that child should never repeat that action again to any other adult again.

like i am simply not there to be treated as an attractive young woman. i put on a skirt that shows too much knee and get paired with a boy, though, and that's apparently just a natural consequence. hooo-ly shit. like i don't know what to do. first of all, the more time passes since this has happened, the more i am just unable to stop thinking about it. i wasn't "hurt" or too emotional in the moment but i'm just still processing it and it gets worse. i'm just more and more disgusted.

i don't know what i expect to come out of this, or the email i sent to his regular para. like, am i gonna have to attend a fucking meeting? what is the precedent that this sets for him? WHY do i feel BAD for him about this? well, because he's a child, of course. a child who has done wrong he may not be able to understand. but he knows WHAT he did. he just doesn't know WHY it was wrong.

and i couldn't even say something to him that was like, "well, how would you like it if i was touching you like this?" because young boys do not understand how inappropriate it'd be. i'm sure this kid thought he was gonna get away with what he was doing at the very least. but probably not unlikely he (being a child with no concept of how wrong it'd be) thought he could get some sort of "positive" attention for treating me like this. either way he was simply doing what he wanted to do, with no perspective of how it would make me feel or that it could be classified as harassment. teenage boys think it'd be awesome if the older attractive woman would reciprocate their affections. they're wrong. i, as the older attractive woman of his affection, cannot be the one to convince him of that, though.

i don't know. i don't know. like it's just so not ok. but if i didn't tell another adult about this, he would've gotten away with it. he would probably do it again. and him being in trouble for it is not the same as him understanding that it was wrong. unless someone has a REAL talk with him about inappropriate attention and consent, it's not unlikely that he'll just repeat the behavior in a setting where he thinks he won't be caught or told on. THAT'S the problem. me, i could just never have to be this boy's para again. in my email, i didn't say that i would never be ok working with or around him ever again. he already knows i didn't like it and i'm not afraid to tell on him; as far as that lesson applies to me, individually, i think he's become too ashamed to repeat that.

i don't know. i don't know. i very much expressed that i, i guess, "forgave" him in the email that i wrote. i clarified that i was writing it for the sake of having it on the record. i think that could potentially be very important for the purposes of preventing further similar or escalating behavior from him in the future. i don't want him to be in trouble. i don't think i will be blamed for this, especially not with how promptly i acted, although i don't know to what extent this will be framed as me thinking i'm a "victim." i'm not... i don't feel victimized. i feel disgusted. i feel afraid for the sake of what could happen to or with him in the future, if he thinks behavior like his towards me today is ok.

i feel like if i end up having to further respond to this, this will be made about me. in a way it kind of was. is? in the moment it was happening, it was certainly about me. because i was the one this boy was giving all this unwanted attention to. but to make the consequences of this about me and to involve me any further, i also don't want. because i said what i said already, i don't care if a student has a crush on me. this isn't about me being the pretty substitute. i'm the pretty substitute all the time, to tons of people. that's not really something i've been concerned about up until now.

but do i have to reexplain my personal embarrassment? that i was wearing a skirt? that he was ogling my legs? really? what more do i have to gain from sharing that, other than having the adults at my place of work confirm or deny me in their heads as the pretty substitute? i don't know. perhaps that's REALLY overthinking it. but i don't want to be the substitute that caused a problem for this special ed kid. i don't wanna be the reason that he can't be around me anymore, the person people think of when they're monitoring how he's acting around girls and young women. i DON'T want to be the one people think of when they think of his past misbehavior. i'm NOT here for that.

that's just fucking humiliating. and in this being a thing that could follow him, i have to be ogled and touched over and over again in people's minds for this to be taken seriously. but for this to be swept under the rug would be even worse, no? i don't know. i hate this. the principal is a nice guy; i wouldn't be surprised if he and/or people from the special ed department reached out to me sympathetically about this. but i don't wanna be reached out to. i don't wanna have ppl i work with tell me "sorry that kid was just so attracted to you he couldn't help himself" like come on. if the kid himself doesn't change then i don't really care to remember this incident. and no one reaching out to me and saying they've talked to this kid will actually prove to me he understands. this is the kind of inappropriate behavior it takes years for people to understand why it was wrong, especially a child who has no idea. i mean come on.

#tales from diana #long post #sorry i should probably put this under a read more but it was just a long stream of consciousness #and idk. im tired. im so tired #do you wanna be known as the substitute teacher a kid kept touching inappropriately? probably not #thank god for the first para i told bc she took it really seriously seemingly. i mean idk what she told him in their conversation #not EXACTLY what she told him. she obviously said this was wrong and she reiterated in learning center again #that if that were her daughter she'd be through the roof and that she'd be telling his regular para #i mean of course i had to tell the regular para directly. i would rather it come from my mouth #i'm the one who has the most information of how and why it happened. i think other ppl telling it would just reduce it to #'he thought she was so pretty and he kept staring at and touching her legs cuz she wore a skirt' like come on #the indignity of that! #i already feel undignified enough. #and also thank god for the social studies teacher. the more im processing this the more im like thank god #i dont know him well. he had already been a nice dude to me before in my interactions w him #like as a sub you notice the people who are really affirming of the strange and irregular work you do #earlier this week i was subbing for the math teacher across the hall for instance and he came in before class started and said #that if anyone's giving me a hard time to just send them to him. bc that group can be a little rowdy/wild #my classroom discipline skills are not that bad where i felt the need to have someone more experienced defend me so to speak #like i know i look young and am assumed to be new. but with most classes. i can handle most misbehavior #i can put my foot down in a way kids normally respect. i know how to keep em on task #and for MOST of the day with this kid that's what i was doing. but if that social studies teacher hadn't done what he did #i might not feel so bold in just straight up walking away from that kid. after saying stop stop stop repeatedly #like he had his own job to do independent of me but i remember the gestures and like. i could cry. he KNEWWWW #that's just a very trustworthy person i feel. he didn't want me to suffer through that any longer #a lot of teachers (unfortunately) largely ignore the kids with paras and/or expect the paras to communicate to the kid exclusively #that teacher is not like that. he was willing to mind that boy while i escaped that situation. so so grateful to him

[gaydryad]

accidentally getting a little too into my pedagogy class and starting to wonder if I should pivot and go into education (academic field)

#from the writer's den #void talks #not me seeing a paper on co-constructed rubrics as a potentially more positive route for writing assignments and pogging a little.......... #I'd be embarrassed but it was actually a really interesting read #and at multiple points while reading I was like wow I would love to try this in class as part of Contributing To The Science #like deadass... #specifically for creative writing I would be interested in merging it a bit with the stuff in the anti-racist writing workshop (book title) #about collaboratively defining craft terms with students as a means of community building #like that'd be interesting to look at! rubrics shmubrics frankly I don't think they have a place in creative writing but like #if we expand it to thinking generally about assessment--which is inevitable in any credit-giving class--I think it applies #ESPECIALLY !!! since one of the things that the authors talk about is how rubrics in general are a useful way of standardizing grading #and guess what !! non-standardized grading is also a big issue when it comes to equalizing across race class etc #so like genuinely I think there's something there #and I would love to do a little study on it #frankly I might just do so since I'll be teaching next year and have basically free book on course design #at very least will be keeping this in mind for later in the semester when we'll be talking about assessment #but anyway. marge meme (holds up the field of education studies) I just think it's neat #and I have so much respect for it

[piningprecussionist]

Aside from the delicate touch of a redhead and borderline infidelity, did you get Ramona anything for her birthday?

".... Shit."

Kim stares blankly at her phone for a moment, unsure how to proceed. Did she know that? Did she know it was Ramona's birthday? She tried to recall but kept drawing up blanks. Had she not told them her birthday?

Maybe the panic was making her forget.

Kim bites her lip as she pockets her phone, leaving the ask unanswered; she'd give them some vague non-answer and verbal attack another time. Apparently, she has a birthday girl to tend to.

The guilt feels light enough to ignore now anyhow, as she shuts off the water fully and moves towards the door; she tries not to doubt that Ramona will make her forget about it entirely.

But as her hand reaches for the knob, she hears approaching footsteps, and goes still...

#pine.txt #asks #anon #rp #kim pine #sp comic #spvtwtg #spto #spvtw #ramona flowers #kimona #ship stuff #flowersfromtheapple #(ooc: wow these are taking so long to do as a unit. just. ages. i dont even wanna know how many hours ago the voltfruit ask was initially + #(+ drafted at this stage. but im gonna. anyway hope these were at least interesting done this way? sorry if not lol) #(ooc: was trying something. might have lost the thread a little in the scramble though. so idk how often anyone can expect this) #(ooc: also bc i forget if i talk about it in other tags- i kinda hc that kim answers with video messages usually. that's not the case w +) #(+ these obviously. for the blog i mean if that wasnt clear. i feel like it makes some since just in a making sure she comes across right + #(+ way. A fair bit of Kim's responses to things are added by the body language i feel- if you want how she actually feels anyway.) #(ooc: i probably have other support i can craft for this but i am very tired) #(answer tweaked to reflect flowersfromtheapple's reply elsewhere!) #(if someone wanted to take that seriously for some reason as a canon inconsistency- my recommendation is Save Corruption) #(mostly bc this isnt a memory that it would even remotely make sense for gideon or alter or something?) #(to not or) #SP New Years Party

[keirametzbrassknuckles]

Random fact about me is that I actually really like crackling, haggis, blood pudding, and straight liver

#them organ meats #never tried intestine but if i ever come across it i will #had tongue once and it was alright #when i say i am a carnivore i mean like... actually a carnivore #like sucked marrow out of a bone kind of ish #when i was little my mother had to carefully wash the butcher paper any red meat had come in before she threw it away #because i would lick it #i think i might be part vampire but who knows

[homosexual-fanfiction]

lol the poor little blurb that inspired this timeloop fic

i wrote it in 2019 as the intro to another fic that i ended up cutting it from because i didn't think it fit well enough. then i stumbled across it again in december and reread it and thought huh, this would be an awesome introductory piece to a timeloop fic.

started drafting, and now. approximately four months and ten chapters in. i'm considering cutting it again

#LIKE... idk i like the writing but it just doesn't relaly #fit the rest of the story #which is funny considering it's what inspired/kicked this off #i just don't want to have it there and have it mislead people into thinking they're going to read something different or confuse readers #because there's lines in there that are like oooh i wonder what this means and then nothing comes from them #im going to try to edit it again (for like the third time since stumbling across it lol) to make it fit the story better #buuuuuuuuuuuuut i might end up just scrapping it once more #i am sorry little blurb...... you have served me well... but i dont know if i can make you fit #not an update #also lol yeah i'm ten chapters into outlining we'll see how many more we have to go #i'm trying to wrap things up but it'll probably be a few more before i can manage that #it'll probably be 12 to 14 chapters? ish? that is my current estimate #although i havent been thinking too much about the post-plot recovery stuff.... hm #i dunno i'll stick to that guess

[squipperooni]

//are you no longer doing squip inc?

Most likely not, no. I got fixated on other things (namely splatoon) and tbh it was getting a bit hard to follow and see how Rooni could even fit in with what was going on,, I didn’t really want to force him in something where he didn’t belong.

At this point I have no idea what’s happening so while it’s not like I’ll never use Rooni again, I’m not sure he quite fits in. He’s gotten his resolve, he’s safe on squip servers now, and it would not serve him to get involved in drama, realistically.

#mod post #I really do not intend this to come across as harsh or mean #it’s a simple matter of losing interest #I had fun w you guys tho! I might interact a little bit. depends #I’ll clear the inbox when I get back from holiday at least #answer questions I mean

[endless-nightshift]

My WoLxSidugu ship gets stronger and more canon every job quests

#they're mostly queerplatonic in my silly little brain but i also want them to kiss #i mean #they're already co-parenting #might as well kiss too #wow for someone whose aroace a sure am insistent that my characters kiss every hot guy they come across #ffxiv warrior of light #ffxiv dark knight #ffxiv au ra #ffxiv sidurgu #ffxiv drk #ffxiv #final fantasy xiv #wol x sidurgu

[soullistrations]

maybe it's just me but i've seen a lot of people recently talking about how they want to wait until a story is finished until they start reading it, or they don't trust unfinished stories, and that attitude just depresses me so much because you are missing out on SO much of the fun stuff.

'i have a busy life and i won't remember what happened in the last chapter' then read the last couple paragraphs of the previous chapter to reorient yourself. that's what i do! hell, reread the whole thing if it's good enough! 'but what if they take a long time to update' the greater the wait, the greater the joy at receiving that little 'new chapter' email from ao3. ‘it sucks to wait for updates’ following wips lets you live with the story for longer, instead of just binging and moving on with your life! also! then you can leave chapter comments! you can build a relationship with the author and the story over the course of the story!

'but what if they never finish it?' you are weak and will not survive the winter.

#rant over #is this mean? this might be mean. oh well. #ao3 #fandom #i'm sure there's more but i just DO NOT GET that attitude #like wips are where it's AT #and i know current 'whole season drops' binging culture has kind of changed attitudes #so that you just want to sit down and read a whole big story at once #but like. come on. live a little. #take a chance #make a friend #make an author's day by investing your time and attention to their unfinished story #who knows maybe your attention and engagement will be the difference between them abandoning and finishing their story #edit—have removed a phrase that came across very guilt trippy sorry about that