#That could corrupt anyone

[frostybearpaws]

In the planning process a Bulder’s Gate 3 Ascended Astarion x Karlach post-save Karlach ending fic, I’ve broken this thing down into several parts and so far we have gotten to part 4, I think there might be five and I can already see there is a long, long road ahead

#astarion #karlach #astarion ancunin #karlach cliffgate #karlach x astarion #astarion x karlach #astarlach #hellspawn #fireblood #starlach #bloodengine #how many names does one ship need lol? #ascended astarion #theres this running joke that people say that after Astarion ascends he becomes stupid because of how cruel he acts towards people #I saw an interesting take the other day that kind of kick started this fic #That basically said along the lines of #After he ascends he is under the impression that he can no longer be hurt #suddenly he went from being little more than a maggot to standing at the top of the world #That could corrupt anyone #And #and and and #the moment he is faced with the reality that he still CAN be hurt he flips his shit #I want to explore that #I think that ascended Astarion is still able to love he’s a jerk but that’s to be expected #he goes from an asshole to an asshole with a heart to an asshole with way too much power #He needs to be knocked down a peg though that I can agree with #buldars gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 astarion #bg3 karlach

[inversionimpulse]

sometimes people will say something like "Satori is one of the more reasonable and mild Touhou characters" and I'm like

Satori Komeiji.

Satori "I'm an 11 out of 10, actually" Komeiji.

Satori "Hypnotizes people into reliving traumatic* memories" Komeiji.

*okay, so the memories she calls up in-game aren't particularly dire, but the descriptions of her spell cards use the word 'trauma' frequently and say basically that she roots around in people's brains for memories she can use to hurt them, so.

Satori "talks over people constantly" Komeiji.

Satori "Zero respect for privacy" Komeiji.

Satori "My 7/10 sister's real problem is that she doesn't like violating people's privacy" Komeiji.

That Satori.

It's not actually an invalid takeaway, really, but it's so different from mine that I'm always kinda floored.

#touhou #touhou project #satori komeiji #koishi is someone who let ostracization corrupt her thinking until she genuinely believed that she was committing a crime by existing #satori is someone who let ostracization corrupt her thinking until she decided that she was objectively superior to everyone else #and the only reason anyone could possibly have to take issue with her is tall poppy syndrome #a queue in the dark beguiles me

[sciderman]

How do you feel about the increase in really weird NSFW ads on here (advertising panels that look like sexual encounters, and AI art apps that pride themselves on porn) but will take down NSFW posts from their users, even if it isn't technically sexual.

i hate all social media and it's consistent prioritising the advertisers over the users and the internet simply was a better place before capitalism sunk its hooks into it

#i could write essays about how capitalism ruined the internet. #i was actually talking to someone earlier today about how youtube was kind of effectively ruined by monetisation. #and they were raised in the soviet union and we had a bit of a talk about how art was better because it wasn't for profit. #the people who made art made it because they wanted to do it and because they loved it. #she said that communism was terrible for every aspect of life for her. people's lives under communism wasn't pretty. #but the art was better. and i feel like it's true for the internet – it was better when it was a free-for-all. #the companies didn't know how to exploit it yet and turn it into a neverending profit-driven hellscape. #people created content because they wanted to. because they wanted to make something silly to make people laugh. #not for profit. not for gain. not for numbers. not to further their career. #i miss the days of newgrounds and youtube before monetisation. #capitalism has soiled everything that's joyful and good in this world. #people should be able to share whatever they want. #people should be able to tell any story they want without the fear of being silenced by advertisers. #that's what made the internet so beautiful before. anyone could do anything and we all had equal footing. #but now we're victims of the algorithm. and it makes me sick. #i'm quitting my job in social media. i'm quitting it. it makes me too depressed. i have an existential crisis every freaking day. #every day i wake up and say "ah. this is the fucking hell we live in #i'm so sorry i feel so passionate about this. #social media is a black hole and it is actively destroying humanity. forget ai. social media is what's doing it. #i miss how beautiful the internet used to be. it should've been a tool for good. but it's corrupt and evil now. #sci speaks

[sesamenom]

alright you’ve been extremely extremely kind and indulgent to me about my oc and i cannot possibly thank you enough <333333 so MY turn now to ask YOU about YOURS. please tell me about maglor’s distant granddaughter who is also your bbeg?? .w. or about the chatty hobbits i would very VERY much love to hear about both!!!

~ @nelyoslegalteam, reporting from main <3

(long post, sorry for the random people stumbling upon this lol)

so I'm the dm for the chatty hobbits campaign and essentially it's set in a beleriand-adjacent continent, but with a few extra races and stuff. of the founders of the original settlements, the king of elende (the elf kingdom) is Gil-galad's (invented for the campaign) twin brother Finellach/Finwain. originally he was inspired by the fact that gil galad has a ton of names but only uses ereinion/gil, so I just invented a new character and gave him half the names. I headcanon gil galad as maglor's son, so finwain is in universe maglor's son (left at the havens with gil bc his wife divorced him for kinslaying and his kingdom, being next door neighbors with morgoth, is far too dangerous for small children).

Anyways, his descendant Elinyel (also known as aramire or elinnor) is the current queen of Elende! she's an evil fire-themed bard who is extremely feanorian in all the worst ways - her actual kingdom prospered under her reign, but she just does not care about everyone else as long as she's protecting her people. There were some tensions with one of the major kingdoms to the north (conflict over unclaimed territory between the kingdoms and some tariff stuff), so instead of risking the other kingdom starting a war and hurting her people, she just preemptively invaded it and started burned all the border territories to the ground.

her actual coronation was pretty weird- so she's the second child, but her older sister was born in wartime and there's a general belief in elende that children of peacetime make better rulers, so Elinyel was chosen as her family's heir. her grandfather (the crown prince of his generation) died defending Elende in one of the major wars, but his younger brother and two young kids survived. there's a whole feud between their houses because the brother chose to retain the kingship even after the kids were old enough to take the throne. anyways, two generations later Elinyel killed her cousin Arendil (the previous king of Elende) over a dispute about the legitimacy of his house (and what she believed to be a dishonoring of her grandparents' sacrifice) and took the throne.

obviously she has many Issues. arendil also has two surviving kids who are now essentially trying to stop her from murdering all their neighbors in proactive defense of her people.

however, when she first ascended she recruited her friend group as her elite guard/vassals of the kingdom. (aka the other bosses in the storyline). so it escalated to a war between her forces and the children of arendil, which ultimately culminated in her beloved sister being killed by one of arendil's children. this in turn led to her having basically a massive mental breakdown and feeling like she failed to protect her loved ones (exacerbated by some of her other friends being killed in battles she led). a normal person might decide this is was kind of her fault for starting a war and putting her friends in charge of the army. instead she decided she needed to destroy everyone who could ever potentially pose a threat. which is, in her eyes, literally everyone on the continent (except for her kingdom, of course).

so now she is at war with absolutely everyone of all factions! She is also somehow winning by virtue of Song almost on the level of maglor himself, and ten (now six) also incredibly powerful friends. Anyways, she has decided that the best way to wipe out the continent (except her kingdom) and start fresh is to literally find an ancient lost stone that can break the Doors of Night, summon Morgoth himself, and start the Dagorath. obviously this will Not go well for anyone at all if she succeeds, but she is on a full-on rampage and genuinely believes she (plus friends) can protect her kingdom from Morgoth's army while he wipes out everyone else.

Here's some old art of her btw!

And some slightly more recent unfinished art of her and the Evil Friend Group from when they were younger:

and here's (L-R) her cousin who is the 3rd boss, Elinyel, and her sister from before the war!

#asks #THANK YOU FOR THIS BTW #i only have 1 friend irl who plays dnd and is also not affiliated with the campaign #and they aren't a silm person #so i cannot talk w anyone irl about the Lore #one of the few kingdoms who could really oppose her is the magic one #bc max level wizards might as well be ainur and the monarch of the magic kingdom is Very Powerful #however. said monarch is also the twin sibling of one of elinyel's friends #(who is also an evil lich now and also maybe dating a diff friend who is an evil sorceror? not sure of details yet) #so the super powerful battlemage monarch is remaining Politically Neutral so they don't have to fight their literal evil twin #currently the party is level 6 and just defeated the very-weakened wraith of one of the friends #she was a druid but sort of decayed when she was corrupted and was kidnapping untrained/low level sorcs as servants to siphon power from #and also living in the Grove of Resurrection in order to stay intact #i forgot her dialogue while running the battle so while i looked through my docs i just had her say 'loading please wait' lol #also more chatty hobbit stuff #the grove is a huge grassy area with a walking tree in the middle #so the whole thing is constantly roaming aroudn #the wraith-druid had her castle built on it so she could have a moving castle that also heals her #the grassy part will resurrect any dead thing put on it #for the battle they had to drag her off the grass in order to kill her #technically shes been dead for some years but is surviving via constant contact w the grove #the hobbit (Shade) is from the Alder family who has historically been the guardians of the grove #he discovered he could talk to the tree in the middle and immediately started trying to figure out a way he could use the grove to #clone one of the party members #the tree does not approve of intentionally cutting off people's arms to see if it regenerates into a clone lol #oh! and they found anglachel in the grove. the dragonborn monk wants to keep it

[skeine]

There's a version of this story where Ludinus just walked up to Keyleth and said: I can give him back to you. If the Raven Queen is gone, he'll be free to be with you. And she'll never be able to take him from you again. And I wonder if she would have said yes.

I wonder if she still might.

#he's pretty unconcerned about the risk of predathos corrupting or devouring the world #i wonder if his reason would convince her too #keyleth deserves an “i broke the world for us" moment #i support women's cataclysmic wrongs #cr spoilers #c3e68 #keyleth #ludinus da'leth #for the record i doubt it could have been anyone other than the raven queen or her champion in the key #but man wouldn't it have been interesting #op

[zestyderg]

AW YEA FIRST POST OF 2024

Aaaand it's corrupted joe doodles

WARNING for BLOOD and EYE CONTACT below!

#fossil fighters #fossil fighters champions #joe wildwest #the corrupted joe au #my doodles #cw blood #cw eye contact #remember guys! make sure you don't have residual dark magic in your body or you could end up like Joe! #and remember to never be near anyone afflicted with dark magic or you could end up like anyone else in this au!

[16-jarrah]

i get why people would opt to say walter was a terrible person since the beginning, but i think that's like, the most boring takeaway you can get about his character. he was already insecure and prideful from the start, and it's what would hurt him and keep hurting him. but like, being insecure and prideful are regular traits any regular person can have. the actions that he makes because of these traits, which in turn keep fueling his ego more and more, are what makes him an interesting character. and he was already pretty capable of hurting other people, but he wasn't doing it out of malice, but more because of careless selfishness at first. what makes walter terrifying is that the more he does it, the more he becomes aware of what he's doing, and the more he keeps going and keeps being more and more meticulous and deliberate about what he does that hurts people and even to the point when it was specifically to hurt people.

i think the traits were there in walter from the beginning—the pilot did a pretty good job of establishing how powerless he's felt all his life and just how susceptible he is to letting this newfound perceived power get to his head so easily. he even says this explicitly in 5x06 "Buyout" when he tells jesse "i'm not in the money business, i'm in the empire business". but saying he was this monster from the start kind of implies he didn't undergo through a character arc throughout the show when it's quite literally what he did. he got worse. so much worse. through mostly the fault of his own fragility.

#idk if i put it into words right but i'm just musing #was walter a good person when brba started? up in the air. but his family genuinely adored him. despite feeling like a loser teacher #some of his coworkers actually really liked and respected him. he was just as much of a regular person as anyone else was tbh #you know it's interesting that he and gale basically have the same motivations. why jump to meth of all things. why go from 0 to 100 when #it sounds COMPLETELY ridiculous. but they were both very passionate about chemistry who felt like their potentials were wasted and felt #like they were finally putting their skills to good use again. getting to flex their muscles and shit. whenever they cook better purer meth #than most other people. i think it's a really genius idea to have this premise for the show lol #cz as much as walter is motivated by him feeling like he desperately has to take control of his own life he also is a scientist at heart #who desperately needs to apply his knowledge and skills somewhere where it would feel gratifying #seriously dude you could've tried to get a paper published or two or something. djhdidhd #but the academe has its own Politics and whatnot. so one could only speculate why walt didn't get to pursue that any more #(aside from the whole grey matter industries thing) #anyway uhhh i hope i get the post across lol not to sound cheesy cliche but brba is a corruption slash character deterioration arc #quite literally the whole point is that he Didn't Start Off Like This And He Gets Worse #again. he already had some of his bad tendencies and traits but it's like. we all do that's not necessarily inherently make or break #it's what he DOES and KEEPS DOING. CONSCIOUSLY that turns him into the horrifying man he is by the end of it all #so i just think if your biggest takeaway is Walter Was Always A Monster then you're just missing the whole damn point #op #brbaposting

[labyrynth]

jc/jgy antis when characters are backed into a corner and forced to make difficult decisions between ethics and survival:

#jgy tag #mdzs talk #jiang cheng #canon jiang cheng #salt is salt #you understand how absurd it is to expect anyone to lay down and die right? #honestly this was more of a jgy thought at first but it applies to jc too #choosing survival doesn’t make you a bad person! #if jgy did everything the ‘moral’ way he would be dead in a ditch after being used by that jin commander #until either he sticks up for himself and is killed directly or indirectly or until the day he dies waiting for recognition to come #wen ruohan wouldn’t be dead and ​they would have lost the war #or as a jin: if he had refused his father he would have been cast out on the streets to die in ignominy or dead many times over #if jc did everything the ‘moral’ way you want him to then he would have immediately plunged the cultivation world right back into war #because you can’t just double down on a direct attack on another sect’s disciples and expect everything to be fine #you either suck it up and apologize and try to put things back the way they were #or you say ‘actually my disciple was right to murder yours and also fuck you. i do what i want.’ #and immediately all the other sects think back to wwx going ‘i could easily kill all of you if i wanted to’ #and going ‘clearly the jiang have let wwx’s power corrupt them and now they think they can do whatever they want and walk all over us.’ #‘they need to be stopped.’ #like wwx caused this mess!!! you can’t skirt around that!!! he jumped straight to murder and surprise surprise that’s not a great solution! #and thus: jc doing the ‘moral’ thing and backing up wwx’s actions ends in even more death and bloodshed. #congrats! your shortsightedness and blindness to wwx’s recklessness has led you to believe that ‘oh well if they just explained—‘ #NO. THATS NOT HOW THESE PEOPLE THINK. #THEYRE ANXIOUS AND SCARED OF THINGS THEY DONT UNDERSTAND. #all THEY see is a guy with creepy and blasphemous powers suddenly turning against them #and instead of his sect leader reining it in he goes ‘he’s right actually.’ #how could that ​NOT be taken as tacit endorsement of all of wwx’s other actions?? #god you all are so stupid and you don’t even realize it #you just brainlessly go ‘IF HE DIDNT DIE TRYING HE DIDNT TRY HARD ENOUGH’

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Am I the only one who thinks that moment in Fifteen where Dazai repeatedly shoots the GSS soldier was actually the first time he ever killed someone?

#i... actually think i could back this up like it's not just a headcanon #there's no proof obviously but it seems really likely to me #i just don't think i've seen anyone bring up the potential and it's strange because it was kind of the first thing i thought #when i saw that scene #anyways #the only positive development in fifteen was his growing attachment to chuuya and subsequent decision to try living #everything else in that novel was a continuation of his corruption arc #or maybe that's just how i interpreted it idk #bsd #bsd dazai #bsd fifteen #storyrambles

[pinkfey]

thinking about ursula when she’s in love

#she likes astarion so much.. obviously she loves him but she Likes him she is so fond of him.. #she Smiles at him…… #when she’s in love she’s obsessed she’s all in. she’s in all honesty easier for him to try to manipulate by act two #which sounds crazy bc.. ursula?? rlly?? ‘easy to manipulate??’ fr?? but it’s true !! only he could do it bc he’s figured her out #because when she’s in love she would do anything for them. climb mountains drown in seas etc #she’s weak for them they’re her absolute princess #not in a doe eyed lovestruck constantly fawning way just a direct and clear ‘what they want they will get’ way #scary evil wife who only smiles at you and murders anyone who looks at you wrong type of vibe !! #and with astarion it’s different. she feels lighter. #she’s always been the protective sort but she truly and genuinely only cares for him and as an acts of service girlie she makes it known #every act of love is more than just reassurance for astarion. he feels free with her he can do literally anything he wants #and she’s tucking a hair behind his ear like great job babygirl LMFAOOOOO #but seriously she loves so wholly and truly that it’s all consuming. it’s monstrous. it corrupts. #with talyss it was too much. ​​siken poem it’s like a religion it’s terrifying. yeah. #but now…… she’s better. it’s just right. #they’re on perfectly equal footing #SHE MAKES ME GO CRAZY. CRAWLING AROUND ON THE CEILING ON ALL FOURS FOAMING AT THE MOUTH. #anyways.txt #ch: ursula

[angry-roomba-army]

what if the journals ranging from jealousy to near worship weren't that bad what if it was just william's gay ass theater kid poetry about his crush that looked really bad to a divorced police officer without context. i don't actually think that's what happened its just fun to think about. like what if

#angry roomba whirrs #five nights at freddys #fnaf #william afton #william afton fnaf #fnaf william afton #do you think hes a cannibalism as a metaphor for love kinda guy or does he go for a more catholic guilty ohh my love is corruption angle #like i dont really know much about catholic gulit or catholicism in general cause im not a catholic but like ive seen the tumblr posts #and the gay religious fanart #oh shoot i forgot to tag willry #willry #willry fnaf #fnaf willry #ok done PHEW #so anyway like what would a divorced police officer know about romance? firstly hes a cop secondly hes divorced so clearly not much #and we all know william hes theatrical hes a romantic or at least he seems like the romantic type im kinda jumping to conclusions here #so he would write gay ass theater kid poetry about his crush! he would! #and then when some normie ass unpoetic cop reads his DIARY of course hes not gonna understand the poetic passages dedicated to his love #like HELLO????? thats not ““““raving”””” its a SOLILOQUY come on man #and! he read his DIARY. like idc that he was investigating a murder you! dont! read! peoples! diaries! #if i were will and someone read my diary i would be so horrified like im surprised that HE wasnt the one who built a suicide bot after that #also! if you picked a random ass average target goer probably likes golf or something and showed them cannibalism as a metaphor for love #poetry they probably wouldn't see the poetic devotion part of it i think that they might think that you're crazy #or maybe. im just severely underestimating the poetic literacy of the average golf playing target goer that could be true #but anyways maybe thats what happened between clay and will like clay saw his poetry and was like yeah this is weird #oh shit i just realized a lot of the contents of williams diary are just public knowledge now like at least a mention of the raving passage #has to be somewhere in the case file just for anyone to access. oh god they live in a small town too word travels fast ohhh crap #well he kind of brought it upon himself like idk maybe don't kill children and your diary won't be read #by poetically illiterate and romantically stunted divorced cops #sorry im yapping. im yap deprived i needed to yap cough cough yeah that's me coughing from how yap deprived i am cough cough cough

[jewishcissiekj]

Steven Barnes I'm in your walls

#an orphaned child starving in the wreckege of a war-torn city #ventress had clung to anyone offering her hope #and over the next years came to worship the formidable Narec as a father figure #yael is reading star wars #daily asajj thought of the day #fuck meeeeeee #“she'd killed many jedi and yet she did not hate them” #“consumed with vengence she became a destructive force beyond anything her jedi master could have dreamed” #“it was dooku to whom she owed total llegiance as she owed nothing save death to the ruthless corrupt jedi” #ruining my life #/pos #the cestus deception

[coveredinsweetpea]

I am this 🤏 close to giving up medicine and my dream to practice neurology, just so I can go into IT, get a remote job and move somewhere in the mountains where a 4 bedroom house with a big ass yard costs just about as much as a one bedroom apartment in the city I currently live in. Fuck it. Give me 5 dogs, clean air and no fucking traffic. No neighbours?? Fuck it, I want it NOW 😠

#god i fucking hate big cities #everything's expensive #the traffic sucks like you can't get anywhere #the medical system is fucked and corrupt literally nepotism at its finest #none of my friends that finished their residency have found a job bc guess what someone's son is 3rd year in medschool and they're saving #the spot for him #the air isn't breathable 5 months a year #i live in the capital and half the time there's no hot water or heating #my parents can't stand each other #my roommate is intrusive and abusive and if i try to defend myself she plays the anxiety card #my best friend moved to a different country #god #fuck #i don't think I've ever felt this bad #i just wanna leave #like i dont have anyone to talk to no one to count on bc everyone has their own problems #and i literally just can't take it anymore #I WANNA LEAVE #i sacrificed 6 years of my life for that medical degree but I'd throw it out the window if i knew i could make it somehow without it #im sorry #i just have no one to talk to #just ignore me #if you read this far and you're one of the anons that sent in a request pls know im not ignoring you #im just 🥴🥴 not ok rn

[prussianmemes]

#it's the poster child of what out of control 'traditionalism' and veneration for hierarchy and work above all does to a society #working themselves to death for very little pay #of their own will prioritizing work above family #an obsession with respect and veneration of the older which results in incredible denigration for nothing #a tendency to cope and deny any issues of society which results in even the slightest missteps to be completely outcast #that makes idiots think that japan is a crime free nation when in truth it's masked by corruption and collective denial #i could go on and on #but how could anyone of any kind see this #as some 'model society' we should aspire to in the west #japanophilia is completely out of control #across the spectrum people keep it up and it's crazy #vid

[sparky-is-spiders]

I want Jon and Sasha to both be the archivist and to drag each other down through a corruption arc.

#they’re dating btw #not maintagging this but please know that the Jonsasha Eye Corruption Arc is constantly being rotated in my brain #I think Sasha is very smart and capable but wants to Know so badly that she gets really reckless and is willing to jump right over personal #boundaries. I think she’d make a great beholder and I lover her #but I hate fandomized hyper-competant Sasha #like sure there’s a lot of gaps in her characterization that could be filled #but I swear to god just about everyone who writes about her COMPLETELY glosses over the characterization #that we DO have #she makes the same risky and dangerous decisions as Jon in pursuit of knowledge #under much less dire circumstances #(talking about Michael specifically here. meeting the Creepy Monster that was hanging around who invited you to a cemetary after dark #and told you to come ALONE. is really suspicious?? but not only did she meet with it as asked she didn’t even tell anyone????) #don’t get me wrong I love sasha sosososososo much #but I think it’s really annoying (and kinda weird tbh?) #that most of the fandom seems to have sanded down everything we DO know about her #cuz she’d make a genuinly good Archivist?? she’s got the hunger for knowledge down and racks up two marks back to back (corruption and #spiral) #but everyone wants to IGNORE that so that she can be the competant and cautious Archivist who does everything Right #she HACKED. the employee records. of her coworkers/work friends. for FUN #and I love her so much for that???? #but that just makes me think a paranoid s2 Sasha would be a terrifyingly effective stalker #and that her and Jon should be paranoid messes together and bond over late nights spent spying on other institute employees #they have a romantic picnic in a park while Jon painstakingly explains how Elias spent his entire evening last night #and Sasha considers this before launching into her own analysis of Tim’s browser history #just. just think about it. okay? #I’m very sorry if my ramblings show up in the js tag #I’m not sure how frequently it’s used #but enjoy my lengthy hot take about my two favoritest characters

[dutybcrne]

Me BSing hcs like: The fact that Kae is not only able to create a shield when he is dangerously low HP but also the fact that he is able to regenerate HP when he hits opponents with Frostgnaw is definitely due to him receiving his Vision when Diluc had tried to kill him in their Confrontation...but could it be possible that his familial ties to the Abyss Order could have influenced that HP drain of his-

#//And that's without mentioning the fact that Glacial Waltz's duration increases FOR EVERY OPPONENT DEFEATED #//Between that and his lil teleporting trick like an Abyss mage's (minus the flurries of ice); I have SO many thinkings #//Deffo love the abilities of his being an amalgam of Vision based and Abyssal energy imbued #//Deffo love that fact meaning it hurts a bit to use his Vision at all; esp with the teleporting being such a Staple to his combat style #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Sidetracking a bit; but I also like to think that even after the Abyss is defeated/beaten back enough to not be such a threat; he'd still #keep his abilities from it/some connection to it. Bc he's so used to it being such a big PART of his fighting style/assets to use in a pinc #//But also bc keeping that connection means it'd help him keep track of any remnants of the Order far easier #//He could track them down with far more ease; sense if they are growing stronger; get intel from Domains/abyssal traces #//Of course being very mindful to keep it a secret & trying to not involve his loved ones/fellow knights of it all #//But he very much is careful esp bc of risks of him being corrupted by it; keeping a keen eye on his mental/physical/emotional states #//Deffo has plans to leave Mond and/or end his own life if he starts seeing the Abyssal corruption affecting him irreversibly #suicide mention tw #//Kind of but also kind of not; considering some of the ways how he'd go abt it #//Knows it'd be harder to the further it goes; so he has particular criteria he keeps tracks of to ensure if they come to pass #//he; in a clearer state of mind; would either 1) use his Vision to try & purge the energy out of himself (extremely painful; COULD kill #if the corruption runs deep enough & save him the trouble) or 2) use the aggressiveness of the corruption to provoke someone (esp Luc) #into taking care of him &thus ending the problem all together. Bc he KNOWS he's strong; only a handful of beings could actually kill him #//& actually be WILLING to; without hesitation. Luc comes to mind first bc of their Confrontation. But also bc Kae'd be happy w him being #the last person he ever sees. Thinks it'd be comforting more than anyone else. Esp since a lover would just break his heart to see them #//Worst case scenario is him falling to the corruption & sb breaking it out of him in the moment #//Bc the Instant he realizes what's happening; esp if they are crying and/or angered at him; he WILL fatally wound himself #//And make SURE it's not something he can come back from; save by a miracle (or 'curse' as he'd see it) #//Probably making an icicle and slitting his own throat; if not jamming the thing into his heart #//he won't hesitate; wont offer explanations; final words or apologies; he cant risk that moment of clarity being too short for it #//he HAS to make sure he can't hurt anyone any further; no matter what it means for him #//Which is partly why he'd be so keen to make sure it's not found out; bc he KNOWS he can be talked out of keeping those abilities #//Or worse; he'd fight them on it; and thus make for a fucken MESS in the aftermath if he's been too far along in the corruption #//But he KNOWS that even with the risks; the powers are a VALUABLE asset to him; &thus desperately wants to keep them #//'sidetracking a bit'; I said. Proceed to write a wHOLE FUCKEN NEW HC IN TAGS; I did; kjfbgkftg. Whoops lmao