#THERE GOES MY HAPPY MOOD

[moonchild-in-blue]

Thank you for the tag @tonguetyd! My spoons are indeed low but my sleep schedule is GONE so. Random burst of energy let's go.

I didn't know what artist to pick because I didn't want an obvious (?) one, so I'm going super niche and choosing Bright Eyes because it's been a minute since I've talked about them, and they're one of my favourites 💙

Artist: Bright Eyes

How do you feel: Nothing Gets Crossed Out

What is your gender: Bowl Of Oranges (obviously funny but also it's a beautiful song! poetic storytelling!)

If you could go anywhere: Lua

Favorite mode of transportation: Driving Fast Through A Big City At Night (yes that is the title)

Your best friend: First Day Of My Life 🥹

Favorite time of day: Sunrise, Sunset

If your life was a tv show: A Line Allows Progress, A Circle Does Not

Relationship status: I Won't Ever Be Happy Again 🥲

Your fear: Waste Of Paint

Idk who made this or not so I'm tagging randomly, no pressure to do this whatsoever! @dearscone @corviisquire @hookedhobbies @politemagic (hi!) @leonsleftbicep @melit0n

#okay i made myself sad again #so little story time! #(okay i talked briefly about past suicide/sh struggles so be warned!) #First Day Of My Life is their most famous song AND is probably my mostest favourite love song in the entire world #like. this particular song means so much to me #there is this line that goes “this is the first day of my life. i'm glad i didn't die before i met you” #and it breaks my heart into a million pieces because that is just. so true. so pure #because for someone who was very suicidal and struggled with sh *just before* i met my best friend(s) #it's a lot. like. that could've been me. and yet i'm here. and i need to hold on more because there's still so many people to meet #and so many things to see and experience. i AM glad i didn't die before i met any of you #it's crazy to think how many things i would've missed if every single time i thought about about ending it i had actually done it #whack #also! nothing gets crossed out is incredibly depressing and poignant! if anyone is in the mood for that! #(most if not all of these are. once again i am incapable of choosing happy songs lmao) #tw suicide mention #tw sh mention #<- is this enough? let me know if i should use other tags!!!! #tag game #darya's mixtape #bright eyes

[sysig]

Red Eyes and Evil Time, practically the same thing right (Patreon)

#Doodles #Villainsona #Just Desserts #Sona double feature! #Red Eyes and Evil Time /are/ different for the record lol #There's overlap and they're both eye details but they're different #Mmm Red Eyes feels so niiiice <3 And I've been pacing myself so it's Just Red Eyes! #No red shines :) Which can happen even on Red Eyes #In fact it's probably more common - the red shines on Blue Eyes was something of an oddity #No one knows the lore except me I'll explain someday lol #For now it's just fun to be in Red Eyes! :D And the occasional Evil Time as well lol - all the overlaps! #I somehow accidentally made a like?? Cotton Candied Popcorn themed outfit for Eli for the first one lol that wasn't my intention #I mean it's cute I'm not about to fight it lol I'd love for my sonas to have other clothes inspired by each other haha #Eli's eyes are still quite fun to draw as well haha those bright pops of colour - Red Purple or Blue they're all so stark and shaped #Back to their classic feminine outfit good for them uwu #Silly lad #They're also still a scientist first and foremost - it's all chemicals there's gotta be a way to recreate it externally! #Local vampire scientist creates mood stabilizers more at 7 lol #I'm quite pleased with the three-red two-purple one-blue gradient as well hehe - the decay! :D I like it as a visual #Charm tiiime <3 <3 Happy Charm time in Evil Time! Usually better than bad mood Evil Time lol - at least for those around her #Still chaotic to be in it haha - but happy chaos is happy! Lol #Again more fun with eyes the light bounce in the one where she's holding the melt is so cute and looks so nice on my paper too <3 #I had a silly comic idea for her for the next time I get into Red Eyes as well - if I remember lol #Big Love is hearts! It just makes sense #Also I am Really proud of the cleaning job I did on that last one lol - from original to this? Night and day ngl #Guess that goes to show how little cleaning I do on-page lol #For some I do! Others... #Still thinking up outfits - you can probably just make out ''Hero Charm'' in her hair lol trying to think around different themes #Something that could become something else! Add or subtract an element and it changes the ''meaning'' of the outfit #Kinda like her initial caped design that Kaiein rejected hmmm

[berrysquared]

Also in case someone is reading this and is interested ! The next intro page will be Pearl’s one and then Mayor Jellie (as voted by twitter) and then I think I will focus more on actually drawing scenes from the au for a while :]

#superhero au #hotguy the siege #berry meows #its time for the mayor jellie corrupt politician arc #and angst #oh the angst i have in my head for this #(but bc i want to keep the au in a silly happy mood we will say the angst is in an alternative universe where everything goes wrong

[natsmagi]

happy 1yr anniversary to when the illness festered. i had no idea what i was getting myself into. To think it has been 1 year and im still this fucked up from it. love you wonder game

#i had been on a little switch story binge #i had read element and pleiades bc i saw ppl recommending them #but i had no idea that wonder game was significant at ALL #but i am the BIGGEST sucker for alice in wonderland. the 1951 animated movie was my favorite movie ever #and i would watch it CONSTANTLY when i was a kid #my earliest memories consisting of me just knowing how much i loved this film #and well anyway i remembered natsume had an alice card so i was like omg! i really should read that!! #and to get myself in the mood i even rewatched the 1951 film because i thought itd be a fun little refresher before i began reading #I DID NOT. EXPECT THE STORY TO MAKE ME CRY #AND I DID NOT EXPECT THE STORY TO MAKE ME A NATSUMUGIER #THIS STORY CAUSED IT ALL. IT RUINED ME. ALL BECAUSE I WANTED TO READ A SILLY LITTLE STORY WITH ELEMENTS BASED OFF #MY FIRST EVER SPECIAL INTEREST. ABSOLUTELY SICKENING #HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABE IM FUCKING RUINED FOREVER #nat rambles #i dont think u guys realize how deep my love for switch goes #bc like everything about them is a reminder of everything ive ever loved and found comfort in throughout my life #especially my younger years #they really do just bring me such unbelievable amounts of joy i almost feel undeserving to have something resonate this deeply with me #because thats how deep it goes #BUT ANYWAY #i cant show vulnerability online. Pretend i didnt say anything. #cant have people find out im a real person with real feelings with unique experiences in life that shaped the person you see before u today

[darkdragon768]

COMMON GROCERY STORE W

I FOUND WARIOWARE GOLD

#dragon's stupid thoughts #AMAZING DAY TODAY #MY JOY IS IMMEASURABLE #do I take a break of pla for that? #hmm idk probably not as I'm in a pokemon mood rn #but GOD am i happy #my mom was telling me she goes to that store (but a different one) again and asked me if I'll come with her #THANK GOD I DID #but every time before I go to a place that sells video games I'm like ''haha wouldn't it be funny if I found game xy? nah will probably #never happen'' EXCEPT IT DID HAPPEN

[berryblu-arts]

´nother stress doodle :D (help :D!)

Originally meant to make a quick doodle to show yall the differences between Nyx and Blair bc i thoight Nyx looked too similar to her on that last post, but it turns out she doesnt lol, i still rlly like this tho so im posting it :3

#aaaaa im so happy my art is finally looking like it has a soul again :´D #its been feeling sooooooo stale and lifeless for a while :/ #but i had a ´we are fo freaking back´ moment while making this :)!!! #<- you know; from the meme graph that goes around every once in a while haha #which is an incredibly rare mood to be in so :DDD!!! #my art #my ocs #blair #blaire #im changing her name spelling haha #nyx #berryblu arts #berryblu ocs #highly recommend the lasso fill tool btw!!! #made coloring; shading and lighting considerably quicker and gives a sharper more defined feel :D #anyways the file name for this is inexplicably in french ; i do not speak french...

[thinkingnot]

me when wild wild mood swings holy shi-

#i was getting ready for bed and then sad and then happy and then idk anymore #my mood like those beat counter things when you play instruments what are they called idk but they goes tick tick tick and like got this #swinging thing #anyhow todays its like if you pulled it all the way and let go the frqequency is insaneeeeee #personal

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#i was supposed to spend the last 2 days prepping and relaxing for the start of this big project tomorrow #but ive spent thr last 2 days frantically coding as fast as i could and focusing v hard to get a lot of bullshit done #and ive fixed things since yesterday. the changes i had to make were too too bad bc the thing that went wrong was so fucking weird #but it should be okay by tomorrow. knock on wood. but this does mean ive done fuck all to prep for tomorrow #so we r winging it bby. ugh. just gotta fucking pray that everything goes ok. pls let nothing b broken and let everything seal properly 🙏 #i was also supposed to meet with my boss today. probably for her to make sure i dont fuck up this project but apparently their safety hood #was having an emergency... whatever that means. so im sure shes having a week as well. and im free to fuck everything up for everyone #ugh. im so. theres a certain point in burning out where youre not really in pain anymore. you dont really feel anything all your joy and #hope dissolves away and u just exist to be useful. and i feel like its easier to maintain that than trying to b happy #i do not advise that bc its a fucking miserable. wasteful way to live but i dont really have time to try for anything better #god. i really hope my measurements friday dont take a full 8hrs. i dont know if i can handle that. literally i would have stay intensely #focused with my brain being Interrupted every 5min so i can manually record data points. its gonna b agony #so that fun. but maybe it wont. maybe itll be great and fun and ill have a wonderful time. seems unlikely but ya never kno #lets not think abt the fact that having to rush all this is preventing me from being able to do all thr other bullshit i need to get done #to prepare for the future. future? what future? hard to imagine from the bottom of this pit im digging myself #sigh. in a few months i can leave this place and never come back. soon but not soon enough #lol i was literally crying listening to cold play earlier bc idk thats the type of music my parents would put on at parties in summertime #so it evokes a v specific mood. which is i guess me hiding away from ppl at parties haha #back when i didnt have to worry abt things so much and i could just listen to the frogs chirping and watch the fireflies #oh god. now my boss is asking if i reached out for help tomorrow. no. lady i would rather drink bleach than have to direct an undergrad #tomorrow. its 10pm im fucking tired. just let me be sad. did i reach our for help? no my brain is on fire #tomorrow is gonna b a long day ugh #unrelated

[feartheoldblog]

Okay despite ao3 being down I have finally managed to upload Chapter 3 of Gilded Rot aka my Finlay x Malenia fic 😌

#the link goes to the first chapter sorry LMAO #idk why #sorry for the updates being monthly at this point #but i refuse to write unless i’m in the mood #because i am very picky about content #i’ve sorta rushed the last 500 words which I’m not too happy about #but i wanted to chuck something out for everyone #hoping to get into more shippy stuff soon! #i love a good slow burn and pining though sorry <333 #finlenia #fanfiction #writing #my fics #elden ring

[kurosaaki]

i hate that this may sound corny or whatever but i feel very happy whenever i get to interact w anons or when i see my moots’s posts and interactions idk i feel so happy whenever i open tumblr rn and i missed feeling this way so thank you sm 😭

#even though sometimes i feel insecure abt my writing #it goes away the second i see all the interactions #and i get so happy whenever you message me or drop an ask or a request #imma cry #i’m on my period so i’m a bit emotional excuse me #i’ve been having mood swings all day too ugh #but yeah i’m happy to b here #i love to share my obsessions without feeling weird or boring #and seeing that i can do that and connect with people who have the same interests makes me v happy #and it makes me wanna share more content w everyone #SHUT UP JEN

[erigold13261]

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#really REALLY wish i was an extrovert #or like #an ambivert #or whatever it's called #would be nice to get energy from talking to people #instead of being an introvert #and getting drained from doing so #so many cool people to talk to #and i can't find the energy to talk to them #this goes to all mutuals #or people who follow me who i don't follow #you are awesome and i care deeply about you #especially those i see often in my notifications #you rock! #thank you so much #i just want to be in a happy mood #and appreciate the small things #before some jackass tries to take it away #or life becomes a bitch #you're awesome #even if you don't think so #any support. like. or anything #it does mean something and truly helps #<3

[haroldtea]

everyone in my life is always sooooo concerned with how i speak and how i come across and how sensitive i’m being to others and criticizing me for being condescending and telling me how not to act around them in order to keep their friendship and the same courtesy is rarely ever shown to me

#i need to get these feelings out of the way before this trip tomorrow #no jadedness no bitterness no grudges #this weekend i am just a happy carefree barbie who goes with the flow and tries not to take up too much space ! #since i’m still convinced i was only asked to be a bridesmaid bc the bride didn’t want to deal w it if she didn’t and i got mad 😃 #but i have to let that go too!! i would not have been asked if i was not wanted 😌 #also this is my last night to m word until MONDAY!!!!! time to get into a different mood!! quickly!!!

[wickedghxst]

okay i Have to have some sort of out of wack hormones or something.

#was reading up on hrt changes and like. um. aside from the obvious breast growth my fat already goes to where it “redistributes’’ to. #like my overall body shape is already pretty feminine. especially my face. wtf does “cheek tissue gets thicker’’ even mean. #i am honest to god starting to wonder if implants would be my best option. no risk of massive weight gain. body stays relatively the same. #i am wondering if the effects on my like. brain chemistry or whatever are worth any possible physical changes i don’t like though. #i always hear so many stories how it’s been like an overall positive mood lifter for girls. & i Can Not keep being such a cunt. #although i kinda doubt hrt is the answer for that. pretty sure i need entirely different meds to fix Those issues 🥴 #idk man. overall i’m just kinda worried it’ll make changes i Won’t like. i’m pretty happy with how i look. #it’s only really two things that cause me discomfort. & i know how i am so if there’s any drastic physical changes i know there’d be issues.

[takasgf]

seeing my friends smile and be happy and heal in real time fills me with such undescribable joy. and tears. they got me crying over their smiles

#this goes to my buddies who are going through tough times: your happiness matters and it warms my heart to see it #its a precious thing and i genuinely cherish it so much #healing is possible. i believe in all of you. im seeing it every day. you might not think its a possibility #but it is real and it will happen and i want to be here to see it #i love you all so much when you are sad or happy or anything in between #my love for you stays the same no matter what #hope its not too cheesy. i just cant be in a bad mood when i hear that my friends are doing well. my friends who have been through so much #and deserve every single second of joy they get #i love youuuuuuuu😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #im writing this post with two dear friends of mine in mind. hi. i love you #i wish i wasnt so shy and told you more often that i do #/p for all the i love yous but i dont like adding it. it ruins the flow of the sentence. but just to clarify

[iguessitsjustme]

Just remembered something that happened today -

Me: Oh. That's it. I'm in a bad mood. I'm grumpy today.

New coworker: You're in a bad mood?

Me: Yeah. I am very grumpy.

New coworker: Oh. I never would have guessed. You're like a bright spot amidst the gloom today.

Me: Oh no, I'm grumpy.

#rae irl #rae at work #i guess this just goes to show that i don't let my bad mood become other people's problems #also it is extremely hard to tell when i'm in a bad mood because i'm so used to hiding it throughout my life #i've learned that sometimes just verbalizing i'm in a bad mood makes it better #sometimes it makes the bad mood a bit better #but sometimes it's just a warning to other people that i'm in a bad mood and that i'm sorry if i'm a bit rude and curt with them #also to people with happy and bubbly personalities sometimes it's hard to tell because they're so used to be being bubbly #and it's not like that goes away when they're in a bad mood and it's a 180 flip to a completely different personality #idk i just think the whole conversation was interesting #cause obviously he's new and he hasn't seen me proper angry yet because i haven't had someone on the phone really make me angry #but also my bad mood today was definitely more of an internal thing than an external thing #anyway i think i'm gonna go to bed early tonight and hopefully have a better day tomorrow

[hearties-circus]

Ah. It had been awhile since my mum slagged off my brother in the car

#gamer txt. #how many times do i need to explain that you dont talk to him when hes upset because it makes him feel worse? #its literally so simple #hes so chatty and polite usually so if hes not talking you shouldnt either bc he is not. in the fucking mood #but then my mum goes on and on about how he snaps at her and is so ''ungrateful'' sometimes but acts completely differently other times #like yeah! cause it was a completely different situation! one day he was happy to talk the other day he wasn't #you talked to him both times anyways so yeah he reacted different #i just dont get why after all this time she still thinks im gonna take her side